The Sensual Soul Project
The Sensual Soul Project; Out of Righteous Religion and into the Sensual Soul is a podcast about life beyond religion. It’s about asking the hard questions, exploring the infinite shades of gray, and leaning into our ability to hold paradox– embracing the both/and vs. the either/or of fundamentalism. I will share my story of overcoming spiritual and emotional abuse as a missionary in Uganda, and the messy road of leaving the church and rediscovering my sense of spirituality. You’ll also hear the deeply moving stories of amazing humans who’ve made their way out of fundamentalism and into the light of their own truth.
Get ready to be inspired as I’ll be dropping new episodes on Monday of each week.
I started this podcast because I want you to know that you are not alone, and I want you to know that it IS possible to transcend your triggers around spirituality and find the deeper meaning that you crave.. I want to share the tools that have helped me to heal my trauma and the deep subconscious caverns of guilt, sexual shame, and self-doubt that persisted for many years after leaving the church.
I hope you find inspiration to explore and rediscover your sense of spirituality, and the courage to live your most authentic, vibrantly expressed life!
The Sensual Soul Project
Part 2: Between Obedience and Awakening
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What happens when devotion asks you to abandon your own inner voice?
In this episode, I trace the journey from “radical submission” to the first hairline cracks of doubt. Through missions, ministry culture, and the myth of holy self-erasure, I explore how good intentions can morph into control, how “calling” can become a cage, and how the body keeps telling the truth anyway.
This isn’t just my story—it’s a mirror for anyone who has:
- Tried to be “good” at the cost of your own knowing
- Confused compliance with love or faith
- Bumped into purity culture, authority, or “leadership” that didn’t feel like love
- Wondered about the difference between service and saviorism
- Needed language for consent, boundaries, and coming home to yourself
You’ll hear journal excerpts, the ache and beauty of community, a tender lesson in consent, and the slow cracking of a worldview... the very beginnings of moving from either/or to both/and. It’s an invitation to hold complexity, honor impact over intention, and choose a path where obedience to your deepest truth is not rebellion, but awakening.
Song credit: You're Real, Layla Minoui & Julia Bryan
Content note: religious trauma, spiritual abuse, colonial dynamics, interpersonal violence.
Hello love, I'm Julia Bryan. I am a registered nurse, singer songwriter, EFT tapping practitioner, ex missionary, and Flamekeeper of the Sensual Soul Project. EFT tapping changed my life, and allowed me to really tease apart the cluster fuck of my experience growing up in religious fundamentalism, and the emotional, spiritual, and psychological abuse I experienced as a missionary. After years of therapy, EFT was the powerful tool that really allowed me to experience deeper healing and connection to myself. I want to share this gift, so I created "Feel to Heal," a free guide and introduction to EFT tapping. Download the guide here: https://www.sensualsoulproject.com/free-guide
We’re building something rare — a living, breathing sanctuary for those of us reclaiming our soul’s wild truth. A place to be seen, held, and celebrated in all your messy, glorious becoming.
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