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Hot Ones Makes Me Giggle and Kick My Feet

• Ellen Larson • Episode 55

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EP #55: In this episode of Reasonably Certain, Ellen is giggling and kicking her feet about the potential budding romance between Sean Evans and Keke Palmer as showcased in their recent appearance on Hot Ones. Ellen also shares her recent experiences, from visiting family and becoming an aunt to her journey in the world of sewing and fashion. Next up, Paris Fashion Week!


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Ellen:

Hey guys. Welcome back to Reasonably Certain. My name is Ellen. This is episode 55 and I'm Sharrry. I've been gone for a little bit. It's a bit of a stressful time in my life. but I've been giggling and kicking my feet because I just discovered the side of TikTok. That is the side of TikTok of Seann Evans and KKE Palmer dating. And they must be dating. I just finished watching while I was getting ready their episode together on Hot Ones that was just put out two weeks ago and everyone is like, thanks for taking us on your date. And I saw a clip on TikTok that they kissed and I was like, this is AI. This is crazy. Like surely this is AI. It's not AI, guys. They freaking kissed on camera on Hot Ones. I mean, she asked so nonchalantly and he said yes so nonchalantly. That must be like a soft launch, right? Their chemistry is. Oh, by the way, sorry if you hear jingles, my nails, my nails are crazy right now in a good way. But they have little, you know, decorations on them for Paris Fashion Week because I'm going on Friday. Anyways, their chemistry is off the charts. I'm sitting there the whole time watching it like I need them to date. I need them to date. Shawn is sitting there with like stars in his eyes. He's like, you're the best, Kiki. And she's like, no, you're the best, Sean. And then they're like eating wings together and a modern romance story. So, then everyone is like digging up all these clips from any sort of interview they've done recently to see if they drop even like a minuscule hint that they might be like low key, high key interested in each other. So then, actually, you know what, let me pull up her TikTok so that you guys can go watch it for yourselves because she like, she breaks it down very well. Her name on Tikok is the tightest and you can, you know, figure out the rest. But her, her hand. But her handle, like her at on Tiktk is the with two e's dot Titightest. no, but she made a few videos like breaking down the whole Shauovan's Kiki Palmer love story. And she found clips from Kainat's livestream because I guess he's doing like a 30 day long live stream as he does from time to time, these like crazy challenges. And he's had a bunch of celebrities on. He had Kiki on and he had Shan on and he made a bunch of comments to Sean like, ooh, Sean, I saw you and Kiki kissed. What's the deal? And Sean's like, hey's. He's giving very PR answers obviouslyuse he's probably not trying to like hype it up too much, but he's like, yeah, Kiki's the best. Ah my God, I really hope they're dating. It would just be so cute. U and now I'm. I was started watching their old interview from four years ago and they still have so much chemistry, those two. Their chemistry is off the charts. I need them to date like everyone who was already. You know how you can put memes in the tik took comments. Now they. Since they literally kissed on camera, you didn't even have to do any AI work. At first I thought people were making edits of them with AI and I was like, you guys went too far. But they actually kissed in real life. So they're not even doing that much. They're just screenshotting this, this, you know, the frame of the kiss and then putting it on a wedding background and you know, using AI to make it look like they're in wedding clothing, like getting married at an altar. So there's a bunch of memes of Sean and Keiki that are already kissing like they're married. It's just so funny how the Internet like takes things and runs with it. But I love like a cute little flirty chemistry on camera because I never get to have that in real life. So I'm living vicariously through them. And I was literally giggling and king my feet the whole time. So if you have not watched the most recent Hot Ones with GE Palmer, it was just uploaded two weeks ago on the Hot Ones channel. Go watch it. You will thoroughly enjoy it. And she is the only guest to go on three whole times. That's got to stand for something. And I believe it was the 10 year anniversary of Hot Ones. So I mean that's a pretty special thing. That's gotta mean something. That's gotta mean something. So to just start the episode off, hey Kiki and Seawn, I hope you're dating. So that was like, oh my God, like, do I believe in love again? I flip flop every week. I don't know. Do I? I don't know. But I do for them because he just looks like he's just so enamored by her. And I was also on the side of TikTok this past week of Dracula, a love Tale, the movie that is not out yet, but it got released in France, I believe, in July. So now all the clips of it are going viral from people that had watched it, either legally or illegally. But all the clips of it are going viral because people are, well, people, I say, mostly straight women, are just so desperate to see a man yearn over a woman for one freaking second that I couldn't get enough of it. I was like, what is this Dracula a lovete movie? I need more. I need more. So it comes out in Spain on November 21st, and I think it doesn't come out in the US until Valentine's Day. So you guys gotta wait a while. But I only have to wait like eight more weeks. So I'm very excited because I want toa see it immediately and I'm a little too scared to actually go find it on the Internet somewhere. So for now I will just enjoy the edits that are on TikTok and especially the edits that are with either the song Golden Brown or Caribbean Blue by Enya. Oh, my God, I wish I could play them for you guys, but I don't want this to get demonetized. Please, if you are not on that side of TikTok, please, if you are in, like, the yearning for like some tension or just yearning from men, a man yearning, a woman, whatever yearning. Watch the Seawn Evans KKE Palmer episode and watch all the edits on TikTK, of Dracula a lovete. It's going toa be right there if you search it. And pretty much every single edit is made with either Caribbean Blue by Enya or Golden Brown. And like, those songs just feel so whimsical and like a fairy tale and magical. And I wish I could live in a fairy tale world where those songs, like, create those two songs specifically create the universe. And I fall asleep almost every single night to these whimsical little ASMR things on YouTube. That's no different than just like a black screen with rain sounds, but instead of a boring black screen, there's like a beautiful fairy tale town in the background. Let me see if I can find some for you guys. Because it's just so whimsical. And sometimes they have like a little whimsical, like, tune with the, rain. Or sometimes they have like the ambiance of like, a little fairy tale medieval town. So you just like hear like the hustling and bustling of the town at night, which isn't super loud, but it's just like a little ambiance to add and make it like, I don't know, more realistic. It's just so good though. I'm obsessed. Like, mmm, fireflies, an enchanted forest, endless serenity. storm approaching over the swamp. Ambiencece. Like just look up like, yeah, tranquil nighttime forest, ancient Roman bath, ambiance. It's literally just a static screen. Well, not, not always static, but it's like a static background and then they'll have like little fireflies moving around or like a little fairy or like a little woodland creature or I don't know, they just have like some repetitive movement obviously because it's on repeat for like five hours. So they're not going to make a five hour long frame. But it's, you know, maybe like a 30 second frame that repeats. But it just like is so cute to have on in the background. And then I always imagine those backgrounds of that YouTube video or those types of YouTube videos with golden brown or Caribbean Blue by Enya. I wish it was real. I wish it was real. So it's not. And then to elaborate on that topic a little bit more, I feel like I am just all over the place with my feelings on this, as you guys can probably tell by this podcast and as most of you probably relate, because I don't know how anyone could have really a very consistent mindset about this because how could you? I don't really know why you would because it just, I think is impossible. But although I'm like, I want a man to yearn for me, I want a boyfriend. Like it would be so nice if somebody yearned for me. And then I think about it more realistically with the cynical side of my brain and I'm like, no, because I saw a TikTok today that was like, what did she say? She said when someone asks me if I want to get married, but I genuinely believe men will always do you wrong at some point. And then I put it on my story and I said, yeah, because it's a high risk, low reward. So that would be a bad investment. If you looked at anything logically and you were like, okay, what is the risk I take in investing in this sort of situation or opportunity and what is the reward I get from investing in this situation? Opportunity. If the risk is really high and the reward is not very high, why would you invest in it? So I would prefer to live in Fairy Talaleland and live in parasocial relationship land where I'm like, yay, Kiki and Sean. Kiki and Sean. Heee. But. But I will like, to not participate myself because it's just not a very good investment. You know what I mean? Like, unless the man can yearn for me for 400 years and prove to me that he will be loyal and kind and respectful, then I just don't know if it's in the cards for me because, well. Sorry. Okay, now I'll tell you what I've been up to over the past week because. Well over since the last episode, really, because it's been a couple weeks. Sorry again. I was in the US Visiting family, and I was at my sister's wedding, and I got to meet my niece because I'm an aunt now, guys. I get to be the rich auntie still working on the rich part. But, I do identify as the cool, rich auntie that lives in Europe. So that is me just working on the rich part right now. But that will be the situation. So, yeah, I got to meet my niece. She's only a month old. Her name is Libby. And I'm just, I can't believe it's real. Like, I was like, I don't know how I feel about this. I'm just showing up and meeting like a random baby. But yeah, I. I got to meet a random baby. And then when I was like, I left the day after the wedding. So when we were all saying our goodbyes at the wedding, I was like, oh, my God, wait. Now I'm really sad because I just realized I don't know when I'm coming home next. And I don't want to cry thinking about it, but I don't know. she's goingna be so much bigger when I see her next, so what the fuck? Get it together. But she's gonna be so much bigger when I see her next, so I'll never get to see her as a little baby again. So she'll be a big girl. She'll probably be like 1 years old, but it will be different than a baby. So I was like, oh, crap. Like, I will only see her this few times as a little baby. So that's the part that sucks about being the rich auntie that lives in Europe. You don't get to see her nieces and nephews, like, that much. So that's my first niece/ne/newhew. Very exciting. My parents are so excited that their grandparents. It's like just a whole new era for the whole family. It's very exciting. So it was like a big deal that I went home this time becausee I was like, obviously, I have a Niece now she's brand new. And my sister just got married. So it was like a lot going on for the family. A lot of good things. Like, a lot of very, very good things. It was a very, very wholesome time being home and my sister's wedding, I was like, well, I was kind of joking with my dad. Like, my dad was like, oh, we got two weddings down, just one more to go. And I'm like, dad, I'm not getting married. You know that. Like, this is a known fact. I don't know why you keep joking about it, but I'm not getting married. So don't hope on it. This is the last one. Enjoy it while we're here. So he kept making jokes like that, you know, throughout the week and also at the wedding. And I was like, girl, get that out of your head right now, because it ain't happening. And if it is happening, I really don't think that I will have a traditional wedding maybe. But I. If. If by some reason I decide with a brainw worm that tells me to get married, I will probably do something very, very, very small. Like maybe not even an actual wedding, like just paperwork or something. Like, I don't have a desire to spend a ton of money in on like a huge day for everyone. And, I mean, like, a lot of stars would have to align for that to happen and for me to want to do that. So just like, at the current point in my life, that's like a 99% no. Same with children. Like, that's just not happening. Like, 50 stars would have to perfectly align in order for me to be like, okay, I guess I'll have kids. Otherwise I'm like, you know what? I'd much rather regret not having kids than regret having kids. You know what I mean? So that's where I'm at in my life. It was very wholesome. While I was home, I could just get my clothing tailored here as well. But I love sewing. I've always loved sewing. I was. Well, you know what I mean? Like, what did you expect from like a white girl in a small town in the Midwest who grew up in girl Scouts? Like, I was a girl Scout, okay? We did crafty shit. So I have been sewing and baking and doing all that stuff since I was very little. And then we had facts class and creative living in junior high. So I did more sewing and school. And I would say I'm a very intermediate sewer. Like, I know how to my way around a sewing machine. I know my way around a few different types of seams and different stitches, but, you know, really nothing more than just the very basic sewing skills. actually, the sewing with a machine or hand sewing is not really, like, where I don't know what I'm doing. What I don't know what I'm doing is when it comes to, like, pattern making. So I always like to, like, throw myself these challenges once in a while. So. So I save all my tailoring for when I go home and I can just use my mom's sewing machine. Cause it's like a fun little project for myself. And I also don't want anyone else to. I don't know, I'm just like, nervous if I bring it to a tailor that they're going toa do it wrong and then I'm going toa be annoyed. So I'm like, even if my seams and my stitches look like crap, it will be exactly what I wanted because I did it myself, even if it looks bad. And it will be a learning experience. So whatever. I decided to tailor my two pairs of black slacks because, well, apparently I have lost enough weight to require them to be tailored and brought in a little bit so that, that I don't look like I'm swimming in them. And it looks like, a bit silly. Like, they were starting to look. I couldn't even wear the one pair anymore for a while because, like, they were starting to just look a bit silly when I was wearing them because they were too big. That's, I guess, a small win for the day, or for the weight loss journey. So I brought those two pairs home. And then I also had a red dress from Pepper Mayo that I bought, like, way back in, like, April. and I wanted to wear that to the wedding. I knew back in April that I was like, oh, this would be a good wedding. Like wedding guest dress for my sister's wedding. But it's interesting, like, the way things are sized because I've really enjoyed my dresses from PepperMao. I think I have five dresses from there now, and all of them are in EU46. However, the red dress is also an EU46 and it's. It was legitimately, like, I don't know where they come up with sizes sometimes. So I'm just learning a lot about pattern making still. Because, whatever, I'm getting ahead of myself. So the red dress I brought home to also Taylor and my mom also had me sew a bunch of curtains. So I was like, sewing curtains, sewing pants, sewing dresses, lots of sewing when I was Home. And the red dress was 7 inches too big around the bust. So it was a strapless dress. And I have, like, pretty big boobs. So I'm not saying that's to, like, flex or anything. It's just a fact. So normally, tops or, like, the top of dresses on me if. If anything is too tight. So for this dress to be, like, you guys, seven inches too big, that is, like, crazy. When I measured how much I needed to take off, I was like, that is literally seven inches. That is crazy. But what I did is I. I didn't want to, like, the fabric was so, like, really cheap, thin polyester. I'm not saying this is a nice dress, guys, but it phra so easily that I was like, I'm not doing the whole, like, deconstructing seam ripping, redoing the zipper like I did with the pants, the pants I really went in on. But I could afford to do that because it wasn't, like, super thin, flaky fabric. the dress, however, really finicky fabric. So I was like, I'm doing the bare minimum I can to, like, just make it look nice and not f up the fabric more than I need to. So what I normally would have done is there was already two existing seams on the sides, and I would have normally taken in the seams on the sides to try and make it look a little more, like, not add an extra seam, you know? But what I ended up having to do to, like, just minimize cutting and seam ripping and fraying and messing it up more than it needs to be. I just decided, like, okay, there's already two seams on the side. I guess I'm just going to have to compromise and put a third seam right down the middle of the back. Because the zipper was on the side here, and I didn't want to mess with the zipper. That was the main reason why I didn't pinch it in on the sides. Otherwise, I would have just done that. But the zipper was one of those that's, like, really hidden zipper. And I think you need special, like, special industrial sewing machines to really be able to sew that properly. And we're just working with a regular at, home sewing machine. I was like, I'm not messing with that. Let's just keep the zipper where it is. Keep this seam where it is. And then in the back, I just pinched it, obviously, as you do. And then I just kind of decided, like, okay, if I'm pinching it three and a half inches on each side, it would make sense to maybe go about 7 inches down, make like a gradual slope to where I will end it. So it just basically made a triangle in the back. And then you fold it inwards, you sew it, you cut it, whatever. And then I did a couple, like, serger seams just to prevent it from fraying, and it actually turned out pretty well. So anyways, I'm pretty happy with how I sewed that. And then also, since it was just kind of a tube of a dress, like, it was beautiful, but it was just like a sock tube that you put over yourself. It had no shape in the middle. I took while I had it on to test how it fit. I like, sorry, Sewing class today, guys. I just, like, pinched the fabric to like, ruffle it up a little bit in like, three spots on each side. Right. You know, at the, at the bottom of my rib cage. And I just tacked a few stitches, like, on each side to give it like some, I guess, like, ripple around the waist to kind of give it a wate. Becausee it didn't have a waste before. It would have just looked like I put a pillowcase on, you know what I mean? So I'm actually really happy with how I altered the dress to make it look cute. And everybody was giving me compliments at the wedding, like, oh, my God, that dress is so cute. I was like, I know. And I, I sewed it myself to make it fit me. But isn't that crazy, though? Like, I'm. I'm trying to learn more about pattern, making, because this is what I was saying I was getting ahead of myself because since I have started the jewelry line or I'm in the middle of, you know, finishing it, I have had a lot of people ask me, like, oh, but what happened to the swimsuits? Like, aren't you doing the swimsuit brand? Yes, but I did not realize how much I would really need to learn, like, fully learn the art and the craft of pattern making to understand what I'm asking the manufacturer to make. So until I really fully understand pattern making and how I want to adjust typical classic swimsuit patterns to fit larger busts and larger bodies and work with, like, a little bit more sturdy fabrics, that is kind of like a lot to learn. Hey, people go to fashion school for that. So I'm like, okay, if I really want to do the swimsuits justice and not just do another white label drop shipping sort of business, I kind of need to learn pattern making because I thought I knew enough just by knowing Basic sewing skills. But just knowing how to make, like, a straight stitch and follow a line and follow a, you know, seam allowance on a sewing machine is not the same thing as knowing how to make a pattern. So I don't know, I think I maybe typed it in once on my phone or maybe I just said it out loud. And I've never looked this up on Tik Tok before. In the past week, Tik Tok has been showing me, like, non stop pattern making videos. But I'm not mad at it. I'm actually not mad at it because I didn't realize that this was a whole side of Tik took of, like. I mean, of course everything has a side of Tik took, I guess I don't know why I thought it wouldn't, but I just had never had the thought to look it up. And then all of a sudden, my Tik took. I don't know, it got, you know, a hint of the universe that I wanted to see pattern making. And now I'm on, like, fashion designer, pattern maker, sewer TikTok. And it's all people talking about, like, when you have a mannequin, for example. I mean, I'm getting flashbacks to Project Runway, which I was obsessed with, but I'm getting a, ton of tiktoks of people literally, like, putting tape on the mannequin and then taking the tape off and, like, showing how you decide how to make each panel of fabric to make, like, a busier for a dress from scratch. And I'm like, whoa. I'm realizing I'm really out of my depth here. I have no idea what, how they just did that. I mean, I know, like, conceptually, but if I had to replicate what they just did, I would be very lost. So, yes, making a very simple bikini triangle bikini top is, like, stupidly easy. I could do that in my sleep if I wanted to. But constructing something to support, like, heavy, soft tissue in a flattering way, that's still not, like, matronly looking. With the right fabric that I want to use, just those three factors alone, I'm like, hm, Okay. Maybe I need to put some more thought into this, because I could just start throwing, you know, samples and ideas and tech packs at, my manufacturer, but I don't have, like, a few thousand Euros to just, like, try out a bunch of samples and see what sticks. Like, I need to be a bit more strategic with it, and it's more beneficial for me to actually think about it a bit more than just, like, throwing stuff at my manufacturer and see what they make. I don't feel that's really beneficial for their time or for my time. So I think it's better for me if I really, like, spend the winter learning the craft of pattern making and then I can truly make a design that I'm like, no, I know, like the science behind this in the sense that I made the pattern after knowing the reasons why a pattern has to be made the way it's made, blah blah, blah. And then I can make the designs and really stand behind it and be like, no, I know what I'm talking about because like, I learned the craft. Whooo. I just love cramming my brain with information. Can you tell? So in the meantime, since I got back from m Minnesota last week, I have just been working and preparing to move because I decided that I didn't want to wait all the way until December to move. So all of a sudden I was like, well, I would like to move kind of soon. And I guess I'm just going toa pick like octo middle October to be like when I have to move out. And so now that I'm back, I'm like, okay, so I'm checking Ed Elista every day. Where's my new apartment? And I don't know if I mentioned this in the previous episode, but like, I'm sure I have. I just can't remember off the top of my head, but the, apartment cycle in Barcelona just moves so quickly that, like today, for example, I have all my alerts on for Ed Elista because if they come just through email, it's not fast enough. It has to be a phone, mobile push notification. And as soon as you see the push notification and you see the listing and you like it, hit call immediately hit call. And you have to be like, hi, I want to visit. I want to see this. I want to sign a contract. Even if you're not totally sure, you just have to say you're interested because you can figure out the details later. But you need to get like first in line to see it because, I'm still kicking myself because there's this apartment from like two weeks ago now, like two and a half weeks ago now that I saw while I was in Minnesota. And I was like, wait, this apartment is like, really cool. It's like, kind of artsy, kind of unique. The kitchen is like, surrounded in glass. There's like a really unique, like, you know, shelving system that's like cut into the wall so it's not Just like a cookie cutter apartment. Like it has a lot of character but it's also not too outdated and it looks like it's been taken care of very well. And it had three bedrooms, two bathrooms for like 1300amonth. I was like, ah, hell yeah, give me that right now. So I had called them on that Friday, I had left a voicemail, I had sent a chat on Ed Elista, I had sent them an email, but I didn't attach anything in the emailuse I didn't think I would need to at that point. I thought me sending the email, sending the chat, calling, leaving a voicemail was enough. Was not enough. So on Sunday night, which was actually after the wedding, I had woken up to pee in the middle of

the night at like 3:

30 in the morning. And I was like, oh my God, wait, it's already like mid morning in Barcelona. I have to figure out what's going on with that apartment. So I called the office of the agency that was in charge of that listing and I was like, hey, like I sent my information over on Friday, I don't know if you got it, but like I really want to visit that apartment this week. And they were like, oh well, we don't have time to go through all the requests we got over the weekend. It's just genuinely too much. If you want to have any chance of seeing that apartment, you have to send us an email with your nia, your passports, your pay stubs, your work contract, your taxes, and like a letter of a proof of employment. And I was like oh, oh, oh, okay. And I didn't have any of that prepared yet. Like I already have a folder with like my documents, like my IDS and stuff, but I don't have the other stuff prepared because I realized for my job, since I'm a contractor, I was like oh crap, like we don't have a pay stub portal. Like shit. So I did end up getting that stuff together. I got it all put together within like 30 minutes. Sent

out that email at like 4:

30 in the morning, Minnesota time. And I was like okay, I think, I think I'm gonna get it. I think I'm gonna get it. I was really proactive this time call on Thursday because I still didn't hear back from them. Nobody's responding to my emails to acknowledge that they've even seen them. And I'm like, I don't want to be too pushy but like girl, come on, like what's going on? I thought I was real proactive this time. And then when I talk to them on Thursday, they're like, oh, no, there's already their first round of viewings this week. Like, maybe if you're lucky, you'll get in the second round of viewings. But we've just had way too many, like, inquiries for this apartment. And I was like, what? I mean, I know you had a lot, but, like, how many? You won't even see me. So. So I kind of give up on that one a little bit. Because I'm like, girl, how much do I have to, you know, bang down your door to, like, get a viewing of this one dang apartment. Like, maybe if after all that work and you're still not going to schedule a session for me to look, go view it. Maybe it's just not meant to be. So then the one I saw today, I haven't seen one that I've liked since then. It's a little risky. It's been two weeks and I finally found one today that I liked that was within my criteria. And I, like, again, learned my lesson from the last one. I was like, holy crap. Oh my God. I have to, like, be really quick with this one. So I call. They have this weird voice messaging machine that's, like, in Catalan. So I only understood like 50% of it. But then it hung up on me and I was like, wait, I don't really understand what it said. So I was like, okay, f the phone call, I'm going to do what the other agency said that said if they even want any chance of moving forward with me, like, just send all my information. So I basically repeated that same email, but to this new agency for this apartment. I saw. I was like, hey, I saw your listening for this apartment. I'm really interested. Here's all my information. Can we please schedule a viewing? And then I call or I checked their website because I was like, I don't really know what that phone number was on the listing. Like, let me just check the agency website and call their, you know, general phone number. So I call, someone answers, and as I'm calling, it says, o, this listing has been deleted. And I'm like, okay, what? Because that happens. Like, sometimes the really good ones are put up. But this one was only like three minutes. So I'm like, there's no way. There's no way. It was already had too many requests already. There's no way. Because I had already sent a chat on Ed Elista, but I kind of gave up on that because, like, they never answered the chats. So it's like kind of a waste of time. But I sent a chat anyway, just, you know, Hail Mary, whatever. And they already took down the listing after three minutes. So when I talked to the girl on the phone, she was like, oh, well, if the listing was taken down, it was probably already rented to someone. And I was like, yeah, but like, within less than five minutes, I don't, I don't know if that's the case. And she's like, oh, okay, well, but you have to talk to the like, agent that's responsible for that listing. And I'm like, well, it was taken down. And she's like, hm, And I'm like, girl, can't you just look it up in your system right now? Like, who was in charge of it? And just forward the phone to them? I don't know. Anyways, she's like, okay, I guess I'll take down your information. And I'm like, I already sent an email with all my information to your, like a general email. And she's like, yeah, but that's not really the best way to go about it. And I'm like, okay, what is then? Please enlighten me. So anyways, because I'm. I mean, hey, I have a couple weeks left, but like, it's just making me nervous. I have not started packing yet. I'm actually starting. Well, I've started like thinning stuff out, but I need to go get the boxes tomorrow. I actually have an appointment time to literally pick up my boxes from an IKEA pickup point. I didn't know that was a thing, but apparently it is. So I have to, because it was gonna be like €20 for them to deliver it to my door. And I'm like, fine. I don't have a car, but I will use my granny cart because the bag for the granny cart, like the grocery cart, like the bag of it comes off. So I can just use like the little trolley part. It's not a very big trolley, but I have a couple straps and you know, it's about a 15 minute walk each way. So I was like, I can't carry 14 boxes and three, you know, like those wereusable IKEA like tarp bags. I can't carry that by myself. So we will see if I can fit it all on my little granny cart for the most part. So that's what's going on with the moving situation. The moving situation is real interesting here. But yeah, when I was at the wedding, like all my relatives had probably heard from my parents that I'm moving and they're like, oh, where are you moving to? I'm like, girl, I don't know. I don't know where I'm moving to yet. And I'm moving in a couple weeks. I don't know where I'm gon toa live, but that's just how it goes here. And they were like what? What do you mean you don't know where you're gonna live? I'm like, I don't know because if I ask too early, maybe it will be a place that I don't really want. They don't want me to move in that or that late. Like if I tell them I have to wait a few weeks, they're going toa be like, m m m, we need someone to move in today. So it's just the cycle is so quick. But surprisingly I'm not that stressed yet. It's just more so that I would. I'm packing now. No matter. Like even though I don't know exactly where I'm go going toa liveuse, either way, once I pick a place, I just kind of want to be ready to like get my stuff and go. And you know that you're not using 90% of the stuff on a day to, day to day basis. Like there's some drawers I've barely opened in the two years I've lived here. So there's plenty of stuff that can go in boxes for the next couple of weeks and it will just be done and I won't have to freak about it when I do find a place. So pray for me, pray for me that I find a place that I like because I'm really hoping to get a place that has like two bedrooms. Three would be great, but I'm not really, you know, banking on three. But realistically, I'm likekay. I'm a big girl, I'm in my 30s. I need a two bedroom apartment. Like the one bedroom is just not cutting it. The 60 meters squared is just, it's, I'm outgrowing it a little bit. Obviously I can make it work if I need to, but I'm trying to live in a bit more abundance, you know what I mean? Like, if I want to really excel in my content, I would like to have a dedicated space to film. If I'm really trying to have a comfortable work life balance, I would like to have a dedicated work desk, not my dining table. Hello. So I do everything at this damn dining table. For two years. I'm here like 16 hours a day. I am over it. I would like a little bit more room to have some separate workspaces and maybe a guest room slash walking closet, slash filming room slash makeup desk, you know what I mean? So let's see. And it has to have an elevator. That's a non negotiable. And it has to have air conditioning. I guess it doesn't have to have to, but I then I have to install AC units. And like, girl, I'm not trying to do all of that. So especially me being spoiled now with central AC and central heating. It's really hard to go back from that, you know? So, that's what I'm looking for. Pray for me. And yeah, so that's what I've been up to since I've talked to you guys last. And really just into the yearning vibes. if anybody knows a nice, respectable hot man that would like to yearn for me in a respectful way where he does not just see me as an idea of someone and actually likes me for me and my personality and all of my flaws, which there's not that many, but you know, everyone has them. And yeah, then let me know. Anyways, I am going to Paris. Yeah, I am. So here's the story. I did book a non refundable flight to Paris a few months ago because I was. Girl, I was so sure that I was going to Paris from September 29 to October 5. And that's when I booked the fight. I was like, I am gonna be there for like the whole time and it's gonna be iconic. And then it starts getting closer and closer and closer and I'm like, okay, maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm not actually going to Paris. Mostly because I don't have money to just blow on another hotel because I just did that in Copenhagen and I was like high key, hoping to get a hotel collab, even though I knew that was like kind of a long shot. And I did not get a hotel collab. So, yeah, I was like, you know, don't really have the money to be spending on a hotel in Paris when I also need to move. so really should be spending any extra money I have on moving because moving here is very expensive. And yeah, so. But then I was like, wait, I want to do the jewelry thing. Like going back to my jewelry brand. Which, by the way, I did the first photo shoot and Marley was so kind to help me take the photos, did the first photo shoot on Manta Week on Sunday. Walked like 8,000 steps in heels all over the freaking mountain because, oh, my God, I could rant about this for hours. But I'll just keep it short. But, like, I swear, the entire time I've lived here, every time I go to Monra Week, which I love Mana Week, but I would love it so much more if they didn't freaking block off giant sections of it every time I go. And it's like, without warning or without any, like, real public notice. Like, you know how if you look up a location on Google Maps and if it's temporarily closed, it will say temporarily closed. So I had looked up the Hardins de Lar Libal, the Teatre gre, and Hardines de Mo Costa Yobera. And if you don't know, they're just, like, some beautiful gardens that you can go to for free on March Week. Had looked those up. I was like, you know, scouting them on you or on Google, on Maps. And I was like, these are perfect for the photoshoot. I want to go there. Done. And then I checked, you know, like the day before, trying to check, like, the best, you know, route as far as transportation of how we should meet and get there, and says nothing about things being closed off. So anyways, I'll keep this short, but I do need to rant about it for a second. You know, segue from Paris for a second. we get to Monch Week. The freaking La Marrille festival is still going on after, like, seven days on Sunday. Then I was like, bro, I thought y'all were done last night when you had drums on my

street for fucking three hours from like 7:

00pm to

10:

00pm Okay, I thought y'all were done. Nope, Sunday, they're not done. And so they have, like, everything in front of Mus de Art Catalun, the Mac Museum, everything blocked off. They're not even letting people walk up the stairs to the museum. And I was like, what? So we walk up to the security guards, and we were re like, please, please, please. Like, we just have to go literally right there on the left side of the museum. Please can we just walk up that way? And they're like, no, gotta follow the crowd that way. And I'm like, oh, my fucking God. So I was like, I'm in heels. I'm already sweating. And I'm not trying to sweat for my photos. This is crazy. And I've been on much week before where they just start shuttling people like cattle around one direction, and they Have a ton of stuff fenced off. And they don't say exactly how far you have to go to get around. I swear to you, this happens every freaking time I'm on watch week. It's actually so annoying. So they will have random areas blocked off, but you don't know exactly how far you have to walk before you can get around whatever area is blocked off. So I was like, I'm not messing with this. I'm not. Ordered us a taxi, got us up to Hardines de la Libal. We walked down to Teatre del GRE and guess what was closed. The fucking garden around Theatre gre. We walked all the way down like three stories of stairs to get there. And then we get there and we're like, like, it's locked. It's locked. It's fucking locked. No, no, no. Because why? There was nothing happening in the garden. There was nothing happening in the garden. No construction, no events, no nothing. Why is it locked? I wanted to go in there so bad. That was like one of the main photos I wanted was like under these white pillars. It was gorgeous. Well, it is gorgeous. But, they had it locked off. Don't know why. No notification online, nothing like that. So then we walked so far to get to the Teleheri. We should have just, in hindsight, taken a taxi, met screw Hardines de la Libal Chasera gre, the Teic. We should have just screwed all that, taken a taxi straight to the back of the mountain just to go to Jin'moen Costa Iobera. Because that's the garden that has all like the deserty cactus and it looks very western. Should have just said scrap the other gardens, go to the back and get a taxi and don't mess with all the other stuff. But we didn't, because, you know, there's unforeseen circumstances. We walked like 7,000 steps. I walked all of that in heels and surprisingly my feet did not hurt that bad because my heels, shout out to them. They're just wide fit. Healed boots from asos. But they fit really well and they didn't hurt probably because they're wide fit and the heel is not super, super tall. So it was fine. Anyways, anyways. Anyways. Did the first photo shoot and may I say, for despite everything not really going as planned, the photos still looked gorge. And I edited, I think like seven or ten. No, I think I edited ten of them out of the day. So I was, I was a little nervous that I wasn't gonna get any. But successful first photo shoot for the jewelry brand. And so. But back to the Paris thing. I figured, okay, well, let me look up jewelry trade shows, because that's the best way to get in the business. Learn how things work, meet manufacturers, blah, blah, blah. I look up trade shows, I see, oh, what's this premier class trade show. Everyone's, you know, raving about it as being, like, one of the best trade shows that you could go to for jewelry. What do I see? It's in Paris during Paris Fashion Week. I was like, I have to go. I must, must, must. So I will be in Paris, but for one day because, like, I just. I want to go to Paris Fashion Week so bad. I can kill two birds with one stone. Go to Paris Fashion Week, potentially go to a fashion show. Go to the trade show, See all the Emily in Paris filming locations that I've been dying to see because they're all in the same area. I can go to the organic basics showroom again, say hi to the team, and I don't even have to pay for a hotel. I'm just gonna be there for one day. It's gonna be iconic. I can't wait. So just being there for the day, Just for the day. And I have a feeling that I will find my husband at Paris Fashion Week. Maybe not this year, maybe not next year, but it just feels like that would be a good place to meet him. So, yeah, that's what's going on. Sorry. Sorry for the laps and episodes, but I'm going to try and be more consistent. But just like I said, bear with me. I am moving in the next week. Two weeks maybe. I have to be out by mid October, so wish me luck. and I'm also just an update on, like, the progression of the jewelry. I have the orders. They are all in progress of being shipped to my apartment. So, hey, hopefully they also arrive before I move. Otherwise I'm gonna have to be like, hey, handyman, sorry. I keep coming back here even though I don't live hereuse my packages are getting delivered here. Wouldn't be the end of the world, but, like, would be a little annoying. So, like, let's hope those arrive in the next week at most. And, I have the thank you cards, so I already like the photo shoot I needed to do because I needed to order the custom thank you cards. You know, like the inserts that go in the packages. When you open your package, like, usually the first thing you see is like, a little thank you card with, like, some branding on it. So I just needed a photo to put on the thank you card. And yeah, I also need to order the packaging. But you know, with me moving, I don't have an external mailbox which I will be setting up. But at the current moment, it doesn't really make sense to set up in an external mailbox if I don't know where my new apartment will be. Because I would like to pick an external mailbox location that is close to my new apartment. So both of those things can't really happen until I move. So I can't really order any more stuff, until I move. So that is kind of where I'm at. U. but it's been very interesting learning about like the e commerce business. So the stuff I can do in the meantime is like, finish setting up the Shopify website, finish, I don't know, planning like my marketing funnels and everything. So yeah, I mean you really have to be a jack of all trades to start a business. I mean, you don't have to. But I like to do everything. Like I said, I have the too much gene. I like to do everything to like 110%. So I just can't do something a little bit. I have to like learn everything about how to make it the best that it can possibly be. You know, within reason, I'm not going toa like, I'm trying to also not waste time by trying to be a perfectionist about everything. So I think, I think I'm teering that line pretty well. Wow. All right, well, I think I'm gonna leave it there. So, to recap, go watch the Hot Ones episode to just have a little giggle. It's so cute. And I just love Shan and Kiki and go look up the Dracula A Love tale edits on TikTok just to feel something. Just to feel something. And if any of you have any sort of shred of hope that you are with a good man and you, you genuinely trust him, which even still I'm like not fully sold on. But like, I am happy when I say like all these cynical things on my story and stuff. I am still happy for my friends that have a good partner. Like, I'm not knocking them because good partners do exist, obviously, but it's just, I think it's really rare. And it's also like a lot of it is just based on luck. When you happen to meet them, you happen to both be single, you happen to both be interested in each other and have enough things in common that you would like to cohabitate for basically the rest of your life. I mean, when you think of it like that, that's kind of crazy. So you gotta really like each other. You gotta really like each other. So if you guys have any words of wisdom for me, I'm always happy to receive it. U anyway, thanks for listening, thanks for watching, and I will see you guys in the next episode. Bye.