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The Chisel of Experience: Freeing Your Inner Beauty

Noah and Common Sense Gurl Season 2 Episode 1

In this honest and uplifting episode, Common Sense Gurl and Noah unpack why we can be our own worst critics—and how to break that habit. Inspired by Seneca’s wisdom on simple living, they explore the balance between self-discipline and self-compassion.

Noah shares a powerful realization: striving for perfection was killing his joy. A shift toward celebrating small wins changed everything. The conversation touches on how social media fuels unrealistic standards, and how embracing individual learning styles—because “every brain is a snowflake”—can lead to better understanding and connection.

From time-travel dreams to civil rights reflections, the hosts bring warmth, insight, and humor. They wrap with a metaphor of growth as sculpting: removing what we’re not to uncover who we truly are.

Tune in to learn, laugh, and be a little kinder to yourself.


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Speaker 1:

welcome to the green onions podcast. This is a podcast where we throw out a little nonsense a whole lot of sense and a whole lot of laughter.

Speaker 2:

I am common sense and I am, you're just common sense in general uh, common sense girl common sense girl, and I am noah wow, you had a slow moment, noah. No, you confused me. I was like who am I, Noah?

Speaker 1:

How you doing, anna, good good. Oh yeah, welcome listeners for listening to us as well. We're glad you guys are here.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, this is a brunch, a brunch day.

Speaker 1:

Yes, yes, and we're having um a non-alcoholic mimosa.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, a mocktail, as the kids call it.

Speaker 1:

As the kids call it, he acts like he's 105.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, ginger beer would make it better. Ginger beer makes anything better like flavor wise. I feel like Limes and ginger beer.

Speaker 1:

So you just throw it in there, just anywhere.

Speaker 2:

Ginger beer, ginger beer. Yeah, how many times can I say ginger beer in the first minute of this episode?

Speaker 1:

You say at least four times.

Speaker 2:

Enough. Yeah, I think we're done. Let's move on.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, yeah, everything's great. Life is great.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, it could be worse, right. Yeah, and with the mocktails and stuff, with the after hours show that we're gonna be rolling out here pretty soon. We're gonna like be adding new stuff behind a little bit of a paywall, but it'll be like us making cocktails, mocktails, that kind of thing. So we're excited to get that, yeah, rolling out. Not to plug at the beginning of the episode, but no, not at all, just listen you know, today I don't think we plug at all.

Speaker 1:

So I feel like no, maybe we should start at some point well, yes, I, yes, I mean, we can.

Speaker 2:

Maybe like out in public guerrilla marketing.

Speaker 1:

Literally. Noah has a new album out.

Speaker 2:

Oh, you listened to it.

Speaker 1:

Yes, I did. I do remember you.

Speaker 2:

What'd you think?

Speaker 1:

It was good. Good Did anyone else listen to it? We hope so.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, a lot of people did Go to his page.

Speaker 1:

You know the link should be there. It's on see, that's the one thing, music wise, I don't like I just plugged it in and he don't even have it on the damn page.

Speaker 2:

No, I got it. It's on my instagram. Next some music on the little link tree thing. But that's the crazy thing. Is anybody like I see out in public? I will more than likely tell them about this before I even mention I make music.

Speaker 1:

You need to mention all of it. I mention all of it, shoot.

Speaker 2:

No, but growing up here it's like people plug themselves way too much. It's sickening.

Speaker 1:

So what? Some of them go somewhere else, so you probably should plug yourself in it's like the splendor of people, it's like artificial sweetness. Yeah that's what I was thinking, splendor.

Speaker 2:

I try to be genuine about it that's nice that was the point of that project the genuineness.

Speaker 1:

So the podcast was genuine, the music you're like well.

Speaker 2:

No, the music. That was the point of that music. Like the album that I put out, it was more like me trying to. I kind of view it as like a passage of time and like how it's a nice way to think about the passage of time or process the passage of time I think I was having the conversation with my dad about it where it's not super performative. For me it's very like it's how, like art in general, like draw, people do a multitude of things. For me it's fun to like work out the thoughts and like me growing through that, if that makes sense would you ever disc?

Speaker 2:

Yes, I actually have Jack. Now that he's back, there's going to be a music video that's going to come out for the project. It's just in the works right now. I'm excited about it. It's going to be like a live show vibe Black and white, kind of retro-y.

Speaker 1:

So check it out people, no plug yeah and I'm making a chuck roast.

Speaker 2:

Well, I gotta put it in the crock pot after we get off this podcast not sidetrack. Segue and I'm making a chuck roast well, the bear came out I don't know what it is. Sopranos I got to season five of sopranos in like two weeks and, uh, all I was making was pasta. Like that was it. And now I'm watching the bear and the like the new season of the bear. We both were what we need to do a three. I watched three episodes last night because I've tried to catch up with y'all.

Speaker 1:

Jerry's in the studio when he said y'all, I know that sounded like so weird.

Speaker 2:

Oh, no, yeah he's being our fill-in Jarvis Mavis Mavis, mavis Jarvis.

Speaker 1:

Such old-timey memes.

Speaker 2:

Uh, urkel, uh, no, it's, but the chuck roast that I make is like it makes me feel like I'm, because it's your little roast, yeah, makes me feel like I'm doing something, yeah. And I figured it out because my sister said like, taught me a few tricks with it and you got to like I add jalapeno juice along with the pepperoncini, so just a little bit of it, and then I sear it before I put it in the crock pot with salt, pepper, sugar, and then I put it in the crock pot. So I'm excited.

Speaker 2:

And then it like all gets in there. I'm excited it's going to be good and I owe Jack like four meals. So I felt bad. I like walked into the gym the other day and I was getting like a massage. So I felt bad. I like walked into the gym the other day and I was getting like a massage and I like walked out and I was talking to him and I was like I feel like a bad friend. I've promised you like four meals and I haven't followed through on any of them.

Speaker 1:

So you got a chuck roast. You can do your pasta.

Speaker 2:

I got some mashed potatoes. Yeah, oh, you meant like other stuff.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, yeah, you own four meals. That's just one meal right there.

Speaker 2:

Aw, dude, that chuck roast will last me until, For him, end of the week. Yeah, no, yeah, I don't. What do you mean? The pasta and the chuck roast?

Speaker 1:

Yeah, that's two meals you can make for him right there.

Speaker 3:

I can make a lot.

Speaker 1:

Mm-hmm can make for him right there. I can make a lot, but you have to do it, yeah your bill keeps getting higher and higher with jack.

Speaker 2:

Oh yeah, no, I'm buying him food on tuesday and he's coming over after he gets off work today, and that's why one, one of one of the debts is going to be fulfilled tonight. So my tab is my tab is going to be slowly worked towards getting paid off. That's a good thing.

Speaker 1:

This is how you pay off debt.

Speaker 2:

Okay, wait, are we excited about Superman? I'm very excited about Superman, that's good. Okay, I'm in. I've seen the previews. It looks really good. I'm so in, it looks.

Speaker 1:

So like I have not seen the previews Two, who's playing Superman?

Speaker 2:

I don't think it matters.

Speaker 1:

No, it does matter to me. Yes, it does.

Speaker 2:

It's not Cavill, it's not.

Speaker 1:

I know it's not him. He's over there Wanting to have babies and stuff With some Young little thing.

Speaker 2:

Oh, don't we all? No, no, but it looks really good. I'm really excited about it. And uh, the main lois was in. Are you looking it up? Yeah, look it up, but lois was in a show that me and my dad watched called the marvelous miss mazel. Yes, and that show was brilliant and she's lois, so I'm actually really excited for it. I brought that up last night to somebody and they were like I'm more excited for how to Train your Dragon and I was like I'm in, really, how to Train.

Speaker 3:

Your Damn Dragon.

Speaker 2:

Well, I would go to Burger King and get the how to Train your Dragon meal and then sneak that into the movie.

Speaker 1:

How come David? His name is David Cornsweat. How come he looks a little bit like. Cavill's.

Speaker 2:

Like brother yeah.

Speaker 1:

I'm like we've got a type, but that's what we're going for. Bless his heart. He graduated at Juilliard.

Speaker 2:

Well, superman has like a very distinct look. I feel like he does.

Speaker 1:

He definitely has to have the dark hair. That's definitely the thing. He's not your typical blonde hair, blue eyes no, I love.

Speaker 2:

Superman. Superman growing up was my guy, but then they just butchered his stuff so bad that, Like, what was the first man of Steel was good when he gets stabbed with the kryptonite. I remember liking that movie in 2010. I really do talk about stuff like I'm old. I was 10 years old when that movie came out, but I still remember it.

Speaker 2:

My parents literally didn't let me watch that scene because there was blood in it. And then, uh, and then the zack snyder one was just awful. Well, not awful, it was just like why did he kill somebody at the end? That pissed me off. Superman doesn't kill. All right, I think I'm getting off topic. Let's start with the daily stuff.

Speaker 1:

I was calculating as you were talking, you were like, yeah, I was 10 years old, and I'm like, whoo, wow, I was older. Yeah, yeah, he was 10. What year See you go by years?

Speaker 2:

2010. I'm just going by age separation. Yeah, Because it was October 8th 1999. 8th 1999, so my social security number is one.

Speaker 1:

I'm like, I'm on my first, my first social security check at that time, oh my gosh all right, but anna has a reading for us by the yes, the daily stoic by ryan holiday and stephen handsome man. You know, y'all know we've been reading out of this book or how I like to call him handsome man.

Speaker 2:

No, I'm kidding we'll.

Speaker 1:

We'll edit that out no, we won't um like. No, we won't that one. No, no one's doing it yeah, that's the one you know.

Speaker 1:

So on this day, no self-flagellation needed. Philosophy calls for simple living, but not for penance. It's quite possible to be simple without being crude. Seneca from morale letters, marcus's meditations are filled with self-criticism, and so are the writings of other Stoics. It's important to remember, however, that that's as far as it goes. There was no self-flaglation, no pain penance, no self-esteem issues from guilt or self-loathing, no self-esteem issues from guilt or self-loathing. You never hear them call themselves worthless pieces of crap, nor do they ever starve or cut themselves as punishment.

Speaker 1:

Their self-criticism is constructive. Laying into yourself, depriving yourself, punishing yourself that's self-flagellation, not self-improvement. No need to be hard on yourself. Hold yourself to a higher standard, but not an impossible one, and forgive yourself if and when you slip up. I think that is something nowadays people have a hard time doing is forgiving themselves or not being so hard on themselves. Yeah, um, they hold themselves to a standard, and I don't even want to say it's their standard. I think it's the standard of what they think society wants you to be at huh, I, yeah, I agree with that because I think that's why we have so many suicides and self-harming that is happening now.

Speaker 2:

I'm not saying it didn't happen back in my day, which my day is in the 80s, but I'm just saying it's very, very prevalent now yeah, I think people I've talked to too um in because I I hang out with like, or I look up and want to hang out with older people. It's just and I think, well, it's just like it's more the conversation's more fruitful, um, but the main difference or parallel I've seen is that, like the introduction of the internet, it, it's like we got an impossible standard in our pocket all the time that, uh, I think mentally we're. I know studies are going to come out in like 20 years or the studies have probably already come out, they just haven't researched it further. It's just like it like mentally anxiety wise. It's probably awful for you. My, even on phone calls with my family, they'll be like you gotta, like you're 25, like be easier on yourself. You don't have to be this like live up to this impossible standard all the time.

Speaker 2:

I think playing sports too, I just have this gear where I feel like I need to be going all the time, which is weird being not having to play a sport. That gear just doesn't disappear. But how do I make that gear like put it towards something different, positive, and grow from it? Yeah, yeah, because I've been having to try to not be as hard on myself. It's. I don't know what about you. Have you been? Has that been a practice for you as of late?

Speaker 1:

Mine isn't. So You're kind of God's gift to Earth, though. So I don't know. I don't know if it's me being hard on myself, but I am holding myself to a higher standard, I think. From my time from moving from living at home being spoiled to being the adult world, the past hundred years, I think I fall back on some of my standards of myself and I think that's where I'm at this year and going forward, and some people can't handle that yeah, I think a lot of it's anything in moderation, right.

Speaker 2:

So there is like this kind of like psychotic level of thinking well, not psychotic, but like Kobe, for example, or like people that are successful, successful in any facet of their life, like you hear them talk, and there's there's moments where people are like, yep, they're crazy, they're crazy, but they keep doing it anyway until the work pays off to where it's like it might have been crazy, but everybody has their own path. I think that's been something I've been noticing too. We had somebody go to train the trainer, which is like a work thing, and he figured out he was an auditory learner, so he doesn't learn by seeing it. And that's the weirdest thing to me that, yeah, everybody's brain is just like, oh, we don't know if, like anybody you talk to, I I've been having to practice like losing what I know so that I can figure out. But how do I relate to them? Because their brain's not my brain and our pathways aren't the same, right, and how do I connect with this person in the most genuine way that that person will get? Because if it's somebody cool and I want to get to know them, it's like you do want to put that effort in.

Speaker 2:

But it's just like an extra. Like like there's auditory, visual and, I think, kinetic or something like that. No, there's like a third one. But it was cool because, yeah, even training him, I was like that makes so much sense. I had no idea. Like usually people are more hands-on and I trained him and when he said auditory, I was like in my head a light bulb went off. I was like, yeah, he did only get it when I would like, step by step, explain it to him. You know what I mean? Like he didn't, he didn't benefit from me showing it to him. Yeah, which was cool, but I think-wise, I think it's so interesting.

Speaker 1:

I agree, and.

Speaker 2:

I also don't think people have enough respect for, like, everybody's brain being a snowflake.

Speaker 1:

No, everybody thinks. Everybody should think the same.

Speaker 2:

Exactly and that's not accurate. That's not a world I want to live in. No, because I don't want everybody that's not the game of sims I'm loading into when I get on xbox. I am playing gta but yeah, do you?

Speaker 1:

do you believe animals have emotions? Yes, very much so I definitely do, because I think that's what my cat they're so cute, oh my gosh, I mean, that's what. My cat went away. I told her she couldn't come to my bedroom and she just she, left that same night. She was like bump this no, I for the.

Speaker 2:

For the audio listeners I'm showing anna a picture of the. My sister has the cutest little dash hound named millie, and my dad has a little dash and named uh, alfie and they're finally getting along because he's a little bit of a um, he's a little older and Millie's just like a little rougher around the ears.

Speaker 2:

But I'm showing her a picture that my dad sent me yesterday. They're finally warming up to each other. They're so cute. No, I love. And those dogs have the most emotion I think I've ever seen in animals. So yeah, of course they do. Those dogs have the most emotion I think I've ever seen in animals, so yeah of course they do Awesome.

Speaker 1:

So, noah, well, let's not die, yeah, let's not die.

Speaker 3:

Wrong pipe.

Speaker 1:

Because, like I said, do not save anybody the first 30 seconds I need to go in chicken little mode.

Speaker 2:

Wait, do I have a question for you? Am I up? I don't know. Here, talk a little bit, I need to.

Speaker 1:

Well, I was going to ask you what are your plans for this week, Like, but if you're choking to death, I don't know.

Speaker 2:

I'm good, I just have this can of liquid death. Well, no, actually dang it now. They're not gonna sponsor us because we just gave them a free plug. No, um, my plans for the week, uh, I don't know I've been doing. Oh, it's july 4th, that's why I'm off. I don't know. I'm going to do something. I'll figure it out.

Speaker 1:

Watch the fireworks.

Speaker 2:

No, yeah, I do want to go out to New Orleans. My sister's there right now. My dad always gives me the dates, like yesterday, and I was like you've been talking about this for a month and a half and every time you talk about it I'm like, hey, send me the dates. And then it's already happening. And he's like, yep, here are the dates. And I'm like I can try to figure this out, but my family's a very last-minute-oriented chaos.

Speaker 1:

That's why you should just plant yourself.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, you're right, I think I thrive under chaos.

Speaker 1:

Probably.

Speaker 2:

I don't want to, but I think.

Speaker 1:

But that's the way life is, so you're fine.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, that's true.

Speaker 1:

We're building baby soldiers. That's what we're doing, yeah.

Speaker 2:

What about you? Do you have plans for the week?

Speaker 1:

Work out, work out, work out. That's what.

Speaker 2:

I've been doing actually.

Speaker 1:

Work out Power. Clean the home Because kids are getting their new beds put up.

Speaker 2:

I've been finding some real solace in cleaning actually.

Speaker 1:

I don't find solace in it, I just feel accomplished.

Speaker 2:

Do you feel accomplished?

Speaker 1:

Yes, okay, I do that and I feel better.

Speaker 2:

Maybe I'm confusing that with solace.

Speaker 1:

Solace is going to the spa. Solace is getting a hotel room and unplugging.

Speaker 2:

See, that shows the part of how I was raised. It's like I like having something to do. That's where I find peace. What was your biggest ever waste of money?

Speaker 1:

Probably all the damn shoes I used to buy and magazines I used to invest in.

Speaker 2:

Wait, you invested in magazines.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, so my favorite magazines were like muscle and fitness magazines and fitness magazines. That was my jam.

Speaker 2:

How do you invest in them?

Speaker 1:

You just buy every single one of them. And I save them and they have like their little covers. I bet that's cool, do you still have?

Speaker 3:

them.

Speaker 1:

No, my dad's house burned down, so between the shoes and the magazine, they're gone um and I ain't gonna lie, I wasn't even really concerned about him in the beginning. I was more concerned about all of it. I was like you didn't save nothing now looking back wink wink the magazines nudge, nudge looking back at it, I'm okay, I'll survive, it's oh yeah duh.

Speaker 1:

But when he first told me, I wasn't like, oh my gosh, are you okay? It was like, oh my god, my shoes, oh my god my magazines, oh my gosh. And I had a small collection of Playboy because of the articles that was in it and my mom was just like, hey, there's really great articles in Playboy and it really is my sister.

Speaker 2:

Well, they're cool.

Speaker 2:

I'm not just thinking like art style yes, I think like art style too, it's cool. And also I have been uh, how do I say this lightly? Well, there's no way like refraining from watching. So in this like past year, I haven't been like participating in watching things and it was like a proponent in it was I watched like something where it was like back in the day when it was all like magazines and that kind of thing, um, which those weren't great either, but mentally, uh, it was, um, it wasn't as negative for you Because there was still some level of imagination to it. But they figured out that with the introduction of phones and all that stuff and the accessibility to it, that it's made like it's just all not well, it is all negative effects like on the mental. And I mean, I'm not speaking for everybody, I just figured out that it was negative for me. And that was the same thing about, uh, like drinking or smoking weed.

Speaker 2:

I don, I don't judge anybody, I was a big proponent of it. I still do it like occasionally. It's just like I don't judge anybody on it, it's just to me. It's like if it doesn't work for me, I feel like people need to respect that, like I'm not going to judge anybody and be like I judge them because they do said thing. No, it's just like it doesn't work for me in my brain and I think people need to think about stuff more that way, because everybody's different yes, that's what makes the world so amazing in turn, or the marble in the washing machine.

Speaker 2:

That is that we're sitting on right now y'all sitting on well you're on the earth. Yeah, you think. I'm on earth a UFO like the like you levitate. Me and Jerry would have a great rest of the day after that. We'd go frisbee golf and be like, well, nothing's real Right.

Speaker 1:

Well, we live in the Matrix.

Speaker 2:

Yep, none of this makes sense. I think we'd both be like we knew it and then just walk out Right Been anybody else they've been like.

Speaker 1:

We knew it and then just walk out Right Been anybody else they've been like. I don't understand what's going on, maybe like Chicken Little losing their mind.

Speaker 2:

I've seen worse. I feel like.

Speaker 1:

What event in the past or future would you like to witness in person?

Speaker 3:

Hmm.

Speaker 2:

I think it's got to. Let's just change that to pass, because what is going to be, oh I guess, like, like bad. One of my goals as a person is to go to every NBA stadium and watch a game. I've been to memphis, washington no, not washington, cleveland, uh, atlanta but that's one of my like in the future. I'm really excited. I want to go, like, see basketball games. Um, and then the past. I'm going to do a historical event and I got to think about it because there's so many. What about you? Do you have a preface answer?

Speaker 1:

So in the future I want to go to a Super Bowl.

Speaker 2:

Yes.

Speaker 1:

I want to go to the Winter and the Summer Olympics 2028.

Speaker 2:

Green Onions trip outing.

Speaker 1:

We're on NBC Reporting live, and then I also want to go to WrestleMania. Very cool.

Speaker 2:

Yes, I can live without all to WrestleMania Very cool.

Speaker 1:

Yes, I can live without all the other kicks and giggles.

Speaker 2:

I am not a wrestling person I am.

Speaker 2:

I made somebody so mad at work the other day because they were talking about it and I was like I just kept comparing it to like a Broadway musical, because he's very like hyper masculine, like straight dude, and like I was like you know, it's very hyper-masculine, straight dude. And I was like you know, it's just kind of like Broadway, right, they're just performing, it's just less clothes than on Broadway. And he was like no, it's not. And I was like yeah, it is Brother. No, I mean, I respect it a little bit.

Speaker 1:

But that he doesn't, he doesn't, um, but those, that's something. Those are my top things in the future um, okay, but a historical event now.

Speaker 2:

Do you have that already?

Speaker 1:

no, I gotta think about that because I'm like you know what, honestly, I really don't. You know what I would love to have witnessed.

Speaker 1:

Yes, or been a part of, is the struggle with segregation, like in the 60s. I think I could wrap my head more around the black experience a little bit. Yes, I am black, but I have my experience. I would like to see how we get to this point because, as a black person, we've made some strides, but we haven't made a lot of strides because a lot of things they don't look the same as they looked in the 60s, but they're the same now they look different.

Speaker 2:

Packaged differently.

Speaker 1:

And so.

Speaker 2:

I think that's super cool and interesting.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, I mean I don't want to get hosed down with the water hose, but hey, if that's what we got to do so I can say I witnessed it or was involved, then cool.

Speaker 2:

I would love that would be. I would definitely, especially in that time, I would love to go like on a march or something like that, like the parades and there's so many cool pictures where it's like that was like the I have a Dream speech. There's a bunch of white people there too. It just felt very, I think, unifying wise. Unifying wise, it's something that's like we need right now. Oh, I'm not even need, I'm not gonna get super into politics. It's just like um, there is, there are people out there that want to be unified and it's just the, the, the media attention or the stuff is always the negative stuff, and I think that's frustrating to me, because there are people that want to be unified and it'd be positive and spread love and all that stuff, but it's always the bad stuff that gets the most publicized.

Speaker 2:

I think for me, uh, past wise I was thinking about this today, I think the berlin, like 1936 olympics, so right before um, world war ii and uh, jesse owens, yeah, I would love to see him win. Uh, louis amperini was in that too. He was long distance runner, I think. And then the boys in the boat, the um, and what was the coolest thing is like hitler had rigged those olympics to make us lose, but we still came at like one, gold and just. And it was during the great depression. So like, just to like. I think that would be so cool I was.

Speaker 1:

I got the chance to go to that arena Um no way. Yes, so my sister and I, when we were 12 and 13, went to Germany, and that was one of our the boys the boys in the boat was a book that my dad gave me like right out of high school.

Speaker 2:

It was like a graduation gift and I just think it's like one of the greatest stories Because it's like rowing used to be like the sport Because it was easier to watch and like other stuff wasn't. Because it was easier to watch and other stuff wasn't. But it was cool because this kid was eight and it was during the Great Depression. So they worked in a log and it was a really small town in Seattle and his dad just gave him up and by his bootstraps he started logging. He made it into college on his own and he started a rowing team like during the like not started, but he was in a rowing team and that's how he got his college paid for, because he was so like the coach was like you're good at rowing and then these like college kids that are from like great depression, seattle, go go win the gold medal against one of the worst people ever. It's awesome to me.

Speaker 3:

Yes, what's up?

Speaker 2:

Yes, but that event and then probably more fun I would have loved to see. I'm thinking about music. There's a lot of concerts I would have loved to see.

Speaker 1:

Woodstock, the original one Mine.

Speaker 2:

That probably smelled so bad.

Speaker 1:

It may have smelled so bad, but the music. Come on. There's Jimi Hendrix for crying out loud.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, he apparently never showered.

Speaker 1:

And I'm okay with that. I want to hear and play. I don't.

Speaker 3:

You need silent singing.

Speaker 2:

Sing blind and we will listen deaf.

Speaker 1:

I'm sure back in that day it's a contact high that you won't even notice the smell.

Speaker 2:

No, yeah, you're right, I think I don't know. I don't know what concerts I would like to see. I think Woodstock would be cool, not the 1999 one.

Speaker 1:

No, not that one. That was a shit show.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, but yeah, I have a lot. I would have loved to see Star Wars opening night, like when the first movie came out, and just walk in line, go to like an arcade and they you know what I mean just like stuff like I think that'd be cool, like the comparison like go back in time star wars opening night.

Speaker 1:

And then the star wars opening night, like in our day, like what is?

Speaker 2:

the difference oh, I bet, like, bet, like movie theater that's. I think one of the most frustrating things about going to the movies now Is it's not like there's no like electricity in the air anymore, like it used to be. Like my family, like once a week, would be like, okay, we're going to watch a movie, and it was like fun, and we used to get like I always would get Junior Mints and like junior mints and like that, that would be my one candy and I'd sneak it in. Uh, and it used to be like this thing I just really looked forward to. And it's not like that anymore. I don't think with like streaming.

Speaker 2:

I think coven might have messed it up too a little bit, because now, like they have all those like exclusivity deals where they gotta like put the movie after a week on a streaming service and it's like what's the point of going to the movie anymore? We all got movie theater TVs in our house now.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, we're disgusting with ours.

Speaker 3:

Is it big?

Speaker 1:

Yeah, we got the big TV, but we got everything you can think of. I have no reason to go to a theater and be uncomfortable.

Speaker 2:

What's your rocket money looking like? Like, how much are you spending on subscriptions?

Speaker 1:

If you don't mind me asking Um, I'm trying to think because we pay yearly for a lot of our subscriptions.

Speaker 2:

Oh, that's the way to go then. Yeah, that's the way to go, because Netflix is always the thing that's like bone in me, bone in me raw.

Speaker 1:

We get our Hulu, our Peacock and our Paramount for free through our phone.

Speaker 2:

Killer. That's the way to go.

Speaker 1:

But our Amazon and Apple we pay a yearly.

Speaker 3:

Is the.

Speaker 1:

Disney free too. Oh yeah, the Disney too.

Speaker 2:

Well, I did see, with the bear rolling out, that they're doing like the Disney Plus and the Hulu combined. And you get like four months free for like three bucks or something like that. Yeah Well, four months for $3 or something. All right, hannah. What do you think would be on the menu at the only restaurant in hell?

Speaker 1:

in hell. Well, I don't know about how the devil feels, but it probably might not be steak or snake snake steak snake steak although I really have had snake steak before and it really is good, though I would not eat that but I doubt that it would be on the menu. I guess ice cream would not be on the menu, but I would love for it to be on the menu in hell you are not taking this funny fire and brimstone.

Speaker 2:

I don't know. You could actually have a lot of firewood pizza Like a fuego talky, dipped, battered hot wing. That just makes your Like. When you're in the bathroom later, it makes you wish you'd never ate food. Yeah, I mean mean you're already in healthy, hopefully we're never gonna know what the inside of that restaurant looks like oh no, no, I'm good like I'll avoid that.

Speaker 1:

I try not to be a shady person and I try to be good people, and it's where your heart is, man home is where the heart is yeah, yeah, you can go to church every day and pay tithes, but if your heart's not in it, babe, you ain't going.

Speaker 2:

I think that, tying it back to one of our topics of conversation, I think that's been a reason I was really hard on myself because, um, but it was like this light bulb for me when my dad was like you got to stop being so hard on yourself.

Speaker 2:

And there's this like standard in my head of like goodness right, and I've always strived to be a good person, but I had this gear in my head where it was like impossible for me to be that good, and so I think that was a moment where I started getting really depressed because I was like I'm not living up to as good as I want to be, or I kept saying potential, quote unquote, which, honestly, everybody has different potential and as much as like in the earlier episodes preaching about kaizen and the one percent better, I think, with my brain, I wanted to be like four and it just I never would get there and it made me really depressed and now just being more content with like the one and like my heart's always been in the right place. I don't do things like intentionally to be bad. Um, if I, if something happens, like I'll take accountability for it, apologize, I own up to it, but I never do it intentionally.

Speaker 2:

It's just like me being more content with the one percent yeah has been like a good, solid practice, because I had this impossible standard in my head and, just like everybody is on a different growth progression, you can't speed it up, you can't rush it as much as I want to rush it. I think that's the thing that leads me to feeling like garbage, because it's like the universe always hip checks me a little bit, like God's always like no, you're not better than this, like you need to respect what's going on here.

Speaker 1:

Right, I'm going to get you to where you need to be, when the time is right, exactly.

Speaker 2:

And I think trust, like I've just been praying a lot more Exactly, and I think trust like I've just been praying a lot more so, like, uh, and like trusting in the process that I'm a tool and I can't make anything happen, I can just potentially facilitate that's kind of a good spot to be. I don't know how people deal with all the responsibility, I would fall apart very fast. I would fall apart very fast.

Speaker 1:

I don't know either.

Speaker 2:

I gotta give up some ownership.

Speaker 1:

I try, I try. I've been trying to give it back forever. No one takes it. I'm like damn.

Speaker 3:

Nobody.

Speaker 1:

Nobody takes it. I'm like, can someone please?

Speaker 3:

I'll take a little bit.

Speaker 2:

Where are we at Time, wise? Are we running in?

Speaker 1:

We're good time wise.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, do we have any?

Speaker 1:

Jerry is in the studio. Y'all, hello, what is going on, I know?

Speaker 2:

Welcome to saturday church it's been a very nice like midday yes, and it's not raining right yet thank the lord.

Speaker 1:

So let me tell you really quick. So yesterday it was sunny, hot as heck. I drove into the office because my computer was jacked up so I needed to get it fixed and whatever, and spent half the day there. Then all of a sudden I hear it raining and it was just doing a little drizzle drizzle, not much, and I was like, yeah, I'll be fine. Then it was like whoosh, and I was like, oh, I'm probably will not be fine. And then, when I was starting to pack up my stuff, then the lights and everything went out and I'm sitting here on the second floor by myself in this building and I'm like what? Yes, it was scurry. I says, what do I do if somebody comes and tries to kidnap me? But then, as when the lights did come back on and I decided to really get my butt out that dark ass building, I was, you know, leaving and whatever. Tell me why the sun decides, let me grace you with my presence. I'm like, where were you when I was in this building alone?

Speaker 2:

yeah, no like just ridiculous so well, that was the weather stays. Isn't that perfect, though. When you walk outside, the sun comes on. When you're inside, it's raining but do.

Speaker 1:

But why couldn't the lights go out when I'm out of the building in the car, or even out the building like I don't care that it was raining.

Speaker 1:

I care that I was in this dark ass building oh yeah by myself I hate being in buildings and it makes the worst, like because I have a little drive from the office to home. I always have to take a potty break and you know darn good as well, if my little cubicle area is dark, the bathroom is three times as dark and I always feel like somebody's hiding in there. Anyways, I check every stall. I'll be like. I'm like knocking on doors and everything.

Speaker 2:

So I always had a fear, uh, as a kid, that when I sat on the toilet that somebody was like gonna grab, like reach up and like grab my shit, like whoa see, I think going over, that's the part that freaks me out.

Speaker 1:

I'm just going to look up and they're just like, hey, how you doing.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, no, I like literally my friends will get mad. I'll be like we'll be out someplace and I'll be like, all right, I got to run home, I got to shit.

Speaker 1:

And they're like you have that, clench it absolutely. It's a miracle I'm not touching that. Yeah, I had a aside from work. There's only a couple places. I will use the bathroom, otherwise I can hold that mug. I can hold for a long time yeah like I'm like no, there's just certain things we just not gonna do it depends for me no, I can clench everything ever, ever since I stopped drinking a lot, I've gotten there.

Speaker 2:

I'm like wow, having a functional immune system and intestines. It's kind of crazy. It's like why was I doing that for so long anyway? It's like the risk does not outweigh the reward at all and that's like literally like people I talk to at work where, like, I like mention it I'm like yeah, I hate to get graphic, but it's nice to have normal poops and they're like yeah, honestly, normal poop gang I'm telling you, I cleansed for two weeks and I was like is this what people go through every day?

Speaker 1:

they just don't use the bathroom, just feeling great afterwards. Yeah, man, I've been bloaty for all my life.

Speaker 2:

No, like literally. It was so funny because like that was part of the january thing, like for me, um, and it was I don't know. It was like it took me like two weeks to be like why did I do this for? So long, like two weeks of not doing it, to be like why I? Don't know anything. In moderation, in my opinion, you can cut up sometimes, but you gotta know that you're gonna. Your tummy is not gonna respect you, right it's gonna be like why did you do know that you're gonna?

Speaker 2:

Your tummy is not gonna respect you.

Speaker 1:

Right, it's gonna be like why did you do this have?

Speaker 2:

you seen the videos of the guy sitting at the table and he like splits the characters up To where it's like. He's like the brain and it's the brain talking to the intestines. Oh, yes.

Speaker 2:

And then like it'll be like Memorial Day weekend and then like all the hot dogs are getting thrown down From the sky to the summit, he's like why are you doing this to me? And then the brain's like I'm off this week. It's not, he doesn't know what he's doing. It's like it's a funny like. And then the intestines are like always covered in sweat on a treadmill, like I think those are. Those are funny videos.

Speaker 1:

Those are creative, our internal organs really go through.

Speaker 2:

Yeah no, and I'm like you. You were talking about working out and running with yami. I've been really uh like on the same page as like that, that video. It's like I've been really trying to uh respect my body and figure out like I've been working not working out a lot, but it's summertime, so I've been swimming a lot and playing basketball a lot and I feel like I feel, especially with the newfound understanding of how to do things in a healthier way I'm feeling pretty good.

Speaker 2:

That's good like mind, body, soul, all the above, all the above get that vitality in vitiligo no, that's another thing yeah, yeah that's not the correct thing to say he'd be laying in his bed at night and come up with the correct word.

Speaker 1:

I'd be laying in his bed at night and come up with the correct word I'd be like damn it and I'll be wide awake for two hours.

Speaker 2:

How can I get that? Word it's like that squidward, the, and then his eyes just are like wide open and bloodshot. I miss spongebob. Is it on anything Out of all the services you have?

Speaker 1:

Yeah, because Our little heifers watch it every blue moon. What is it? Nick Jr? Nick King, nick Knight.

Speaker 2:

It's on Paramount. I'm watching it. I gotta watch the bear and Spongebob. That's, I think, a well balanced diet Of television. I think a well-balanced diet of television. Yeah, I could I think that Creator guy passed away quite a few years ago. The guy who does the Voice, stephen Hilton. Or for Spongebob, the Voice for Spongebob? Yeah, the Spongebob guy that did the Voice, no, I think he's still alive, is he? Yeah, because they did the kids' Super Bowl, I think. Let me check Voice the guy who created it.

Speaker 3:

Oh, okay.

Speaker 1:

I was about to say Rick and Morty, one of them dudes died.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, Tom Kenny's still alive.

Speaker 3:

Yeah.

Speaker 2:

Dude that I do think, like with all the clips on uh, instagram and stuff, it's all Spongebob for me and I honestly think Spongebob has the greatest movie of all time, like the one in 2004 with the maybe. It's just a me thing Of all time.

Speaker 1:

Like the one in 2004 with the Maybe it's just a me thing, you mean for that genre, or you mean Just an animated movie. Okay, okay, I was like I need you to really break it down, because I'm like, like, TV to animate?

Speaker 2:

No, I don't know. It's one of the funniest, like when David Hasselhoff comes out. Because we're men, we can do anything. Because that 2004 movie is just brilliant. I remember being a kid just watching it back to back to back to back to back.

Speaker 1:

I loved it Back to back to back.

Speaker 2:

Oh the thunder. I don't know if is this going to catch that at all. I don't know. I doubt it. I shouldn't have said nothing. All the summer storms are rolling in. It's one of my favorite.

Speaker 3:

It makes me want to talk like this and say the melancholy breeze rolled in on the western front as the clouds got dark.

Speaker 1:

Are you having a Yellowstone moment?

Speaker 2:

No, yeah, whenever it's hot in the summer, I think about talking like that. A guy like that just starts narrating my whole thought process.

Speaker 1:

Yeah.

Speaker 2:

Is that Sam Elliott?

Speaker 1:

Yeah, that's who I can think of. He's the guy with the big white mustache.

Speaker 2:

Yes, the guy in Big Lebowski. For that one part he has the best voice ever.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, that's one of my favorite movies, the night. The night fell doom on a. The night fell doom on a bright LED screen. I don't know.

Speaker 2:

Something, something. Do you want me to wrap it up, anna? Yeah, all right, so I got the reading for today. The closure reading is from the Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo. And today, let us get situated. Today is All that. We Are Not. Discernment is a process of letting go of what we are not. By Father Thomas Keating. I can easily over-identify, with my emotions and roles becoming what I feel I am angry, I am divorced, I am depressed, I am a failure. I am nothing but my confusion and my sadness. No matter how we feel in any one moment, we are not just our feelings, our roles, our traumas, our prescription of values or our obligations.

Speaker 2:

Here I got you, brother, our prescription of values or obligations or ambitions. It is so easy to define ourselves by the moment of struggle we are wrestling with. It is a very human way to be consumed by what moves through us. In contrast, I often think of how Michelangelo sculpted, how he saw the sculpture waiting, already complete, in the uncut stone. He would often say that his job was to carve away the excess, freeing the thing of beauty just waiting to be released. It helps me think of a spiritual, uh, it helps me think of spiritual discernment. In this way, facing ourselves, overcoming the meaning in our heart, experiences the entire work of consciousness speaks to the process by which we sculpt away the excess.

Speaker 2:

That's good all that we are not finding and releasing the gesture of soul that is already waiting complete within us. Self-actualization is the process applied to our life on earth. The many ways we suffer, both inwardly and outwardly, are the chisels of God freeing the thing of beauty that we have carried within since birth. I like that. I like that, I love that.

Speaker 1:

So y'all meditate on that for the week. I love it. We thank y'all for tuning in. Welcome to the jungle If you guys are new to the podcast click like and subscribe.

Speaker 2:

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Speaker 1:

Yeah.

Speaker 2:

This is one of my favorite things to do.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, this is therapy.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, and then if you want to listen to people kind of go crazy a little bit, check out the After Hours show, which might be sooner than later. Yes, yes, we'll get that out there for y'all. Well, thank you everybody for listening. If you've made it this far, anna, you got anything else to say?

Speaker 1:

No, you guys have a great week and, yeah, be good.

Speaker 2:

Be good. Be better than good. Alright, signing off.