A Wife's Emotional Journey Through Prostate Cancer!!!

Hearing the words "You Have Cancer" changed our lives forever.  In this emotional episode of From Creepin 2 Preachin, I share the heartbreaking moment during a routine doctor's exam when my husband showed no symptoms, yet doctors recommended a biopsy and MRI.  Then came the shocking confirmation...prostate cancer, Fear, confusion, tears, and endless questions filled our hearts: What do we do now?  What happens next?

This powerful prostate cancer journey shines a light on the emotional pain caregivers and spouses face when unexpected bad news takes the wind out of you.  If you or someone you love had ever faced a cancer diagnoses, health scare, or life-changing moment that caught you completely off guard, this episode is for you.

I want to hear from my listeners--have you ever received devastating news that stopped you in your tracks? Did fear, uncertainty, or heartbreak overwhelm you? Please share your story, your strength, and your testimony with our community because someone out there may need your encouragement today.

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Transcript

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Welcome to From Treatment of Preaching. I'm your host, Renee R. White, a proud native Washingtonian, born and raised and still live here in the heart of DC. I spend many years of my life in this incredible city, and it's not just my home, it's where my story began and where my passion for uplifting my community, especially the youth. This podcast is a space where we can have real, world conversations about life, faith, and purpose, all rooted in the experience of someone who has walked these very streets and understands the struggles and the beauty of life in DC. Listeners, season four, episode four. We're season four, episode four. So if you haven't go back to season one, try to catch up. I call this episode a wife's emotional journey through prostate cancer. A wife emotional journey through prostate cancer. There are moments in your life that divide your world into two parts life before the news and life after the news. This is one of those moments. Today's episode is raw. It speaks about a woman who believes that even in our darkness valleys God still speaks. And it's one of the hardest conversations I've ever had to share. Because today we are talking about the moment my husband's doctor looked at us and said one word that made my stomach drop. Cancer. The day my world stopped. Have you ever gotten news so devastating it felt like time froze? Like your body was sitting in the room. But your spirit left for a moment because you couldn't process what you just heard. That's exactly what happened to me. We walked into that appointment expecting a routine conversation. Routine appointment. Just another follow up, just another doctor's visit. Nothing unusual. But then the doctor started talking about elevated PSA levels and then MRIs, then biopsies. Then suddenly your husband has prostate cancer. I can still hear those words echoing in my mind. Cancer. The word felt like a deaf sentence. It felt like the air got sucked out of the room. I remember looking at my husband wondering if he was as terrified as I was. My chest tightened, my stomach dropped, my thoughts started racing. How did this happen? What do we do now? What exactly is prostate cancer? Can this be treated? Is my husband going to die? You know, I'm being alive. I needed answers immediately, but emotionally I was too broken to even think straight. Fear entered the room. Nobody prepares you for that moment. Nobody tells you how it feels when a person you love most suddenly becomes a patient. One moment you're talking about dinner plans and normal life. The next minute you're discussing treatment plans, survival rates, radiation, chemotherapy, and oncology appointments. Fear walk right into that room with us. And I'm going to be honest with my listeners today. I was scared. Not a little scared. I was terrified. Because when somebody you love receives a cancer diagnosis, your mind immediately goes to the worst possible outcome. You started managing funerals before treatments even begin. You started Googling statistics, you shouldn't even be reading. You stopped sleeping, you stopped eating normally. You smile, you don't even stop smiling in public while privately falling apart. And that pit in your stomach stayed there for weeks. What is prostate cancer? I know some of my listeners may be going through this right now. So let's talk about it. At that moment, I didn't fully understand prostate cancer. I just knew cancer sounded terrifying. But prostate cancer happens when the prostate gland, which is part of the male reproductive system. Some prostate cancer grows slowly while others are aggressive. Many men don't even know that they have it at the first because symptoms can be silent. That's why routine PSA blood work is so important. Women, make sure you take your partner or your husband, your spouse to the doctor, make sure he gets checked up. What shocked me was this my husband didn't look sick. He was still smiling, still talking normally, still functioning. Yet internally his body was fighting something dangerous. And sometimes life is like that. People can be battling private wars while still showing up every day. The treatment options. When a doctor started explaining treatment options, my head was spinning. They discussed radiation treatment, hormone therapy, chemotherapy, monitoring options, different medication, different risks, different side effects. I remember sitting there feeling overwhelmed because every option sounded frightening. One option could cause exhaustion. Another could affect the appetite. Another could change daily life completely. And suddenly our normal life became medical language and hospital visits. We had decisions to make quickly and honestly. I didn't feel prepared. I needed guidance. I needed understanding. I needed prayer. Falling to my knees. There was a moment when fear becomes so heavy that only God can carry you. And I remember crying out, Lord, I I need you. I need you right now. Not tomorrow. Not next week. Right now. Because I couldn't handle it. All on my own. I needed strength for my husband. I needed peace for my mind. I needed faith bigger than my fear. And some of you listening today know exactly what I mean. Some of you have sat in hospital parking lots crime before going inside. Some of you had held loved ones' hands while silently praying their survival. Some of you know what it feels like to hear life-changing news and instantly feel weak in your knees. But I come to tell somebody today, God is still present in hospital rooms. He is still present during the MRI scans. He is still present during chemotherapy. He is still present when fear tries to consume your mind. The emotional toll of caregiving. People don't talk about caregivers. Everyone checks on the patient, but who checks on the spouse? Who checks on a person trying to stay strong while quietly falling apart emotionally? I became the encourager, the scheduler, the prayer warrior, the support system. But deep down inside, I was hurting too. I would lay awake at night asking God questions. Why us? Why now? What are we supposed to learn from this? But over time God started showing me something powerful. Cancer may have attacked the body, but it does not have permission to destroy your faith unless you allow it. Learning to trust God through uncertainty. One of the hardest parts about this journey was uncertainty. Not knowing what the future would look like. Not knowing how treatments would go. Not knowing if cancer had spread. Not knowing whether to feel hopeful or afraid. And uncertainty can mentally cripple you. But faith requires trust even when answers are unclear. That became our daily walk. Not perfection. Not pretending we weren't scared. But trusting God one day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. Our new reality. Cancer changed our household. It changed conversations. It changed priorities. Suddenly small arguments didn't matter anymore. Life slowed down. Moments became more meaningful. And honestly, we started appreciating things we once overlooked. Simple walks, laughter, quiet quiet moments and mornings, holding hands. Because when life reminds you how fragile it is, gratitude started growing differently. Speaking life instead of fear. One thing I had to learn was this. I could not constantly speak deaf over my husband. Words matter. And while fear kept whispering, worst case scenarios, I had to start speaking life. I started speaking and praying differently. Lord, strengthen him. Lord heal him. Lord cover him. Lord guide these doctors. Lord let your will be done. And prayer became oxygen for us. To anyone facing bad news, I want to pause and speak differently to somebody listening right now. Maybe your bad news wasn't cancer. Maybe it was divorce. Maybe it was losing a child. Maybe it was depression. Maybe it's financial hardship. Maybe it's betrayal. Maybe it's a diagnosis you never expected. But whatever it was, did it stop you in your tracks? Did it cripple you emotionally? Did it leave you staring at walls wondering how life changed so quickly? I want you to know you are not alone. God meet me. God met me in my weakness. The strongest people are not people who never cry. The strongest people are those who keep going while crying. And there are days I cried in silence. Days I smiled publicly but hurt privately. Days I felt emotionally exhausted, but somehow God kept carrying us, even when I couldn't see the full path ahead. Hope in the middle of the storm, today my husband is still fighting, and we are still believing. Because cancer may be part of our story, but it would not be defined our entire story. We still laugh, we still travel, we still pray, we still love, we still trust, and that matters because illness tries to steal joy, but we refuse to surrender our joy completely. Message to my listeners Let me ask you something today. Have you ever received bad news that completely stopped you in your tracks? Have you ever heard words so painful that your whole body went numb? Have you ever sat in silence trying to process something your heart wasn't ready to hear? So if this is you, share your story. I'd like to hear from you. And somebody listening today might need your testimonies to survive their storm. Before I end this episode, I want to remind everybody: fear is real. It is extremely real. Pain is real, cancer is real, but God is real too. And sometimes faith is simply saying, Lord, I don't understand this, but I trust you. And remember, y'all, your pain has purpose. Your story matters. And even if like darkest moments, in those darkest moments, God still speaks. Grab your copy of my book on Amazon of Bonds and Noble. As you read along, you'll see every twist, turn, and try unfold, beginning a deeper understanding of my testimony and my life-changing lessons behind every story. Let's walk this path together. Your journey of hope and healing is just one page away. Let's keep this conversation going. I'm excited to hear how you're peeling back your layers and embracing your moment of hearing the word cancer, a wife's emotional journey through prostate cancer. Also make sure you visit my website at creepin'tapreaching.com for more updates, fresh merch, resources, and information about upcoming episodes. See you next week.