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Karen Portnoy,"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":5.4,"endTime":9.18,"body":"before I get into this episode,"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":9.18,"endTime":13.38,"body":"please comment, ask questions,"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":9.18,"endTime":13.38,"body":"share some of your experiences,"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":13.44,"endTime":15.06,"body":"and don't forget to subscribe."},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":13.44,"endTime":15.06,"body":"You"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":31.34,"endTime":34.4,"body":"I responded to a post in one of"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":31.34,"endTime":34.4,"body":"the divorce groups I'm in on"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":34.4,"endTime":38.72,"body":"social media yesterday, and it"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":34.4,"endTime":38.72,"body":"got me thinking someone had"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":38.72,"endTime":41.32,"body":"commented that they were"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":38.72,"endTime":41.32,"body":"starting to believe that men"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":41.32,"endTime":45.1,"body":"don't like women at all. 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I"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":68.4,"endTime":72.12,"body":"always say All it takes is the"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":72.12,"endTime":76.14,"body":"right person, but unless or"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":72.12,"endTime":76.14,"body":"until they heal themselves, they"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":76.14,"endTime":79.44,"body":"can't see or accept the right"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":76.14,"endTime":79.44,"body":"person, even when she's right in"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":79.44,"endTime":83.24,"body":"front of them. So you can see"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":79.44,"endTime":83.24,"body":"how defeated they feel and how"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":83.24,"endTime":87.26,"body":"they end up shutting down and"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":83.24,"endTime":87.26,"body":"throwing in the towel. Add in"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":87.26,"endTime":90.92,"body":"how unhealed many women are, and"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":87.26,"endTime":90.92,"body":"that's how you get to believing"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":90.92,"endTime":94.82,"body":"that men don't like women at"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":90.92,"endTime":94.82,"body":"all. It's a shit show in both"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":94.82,"endTime":98.72,"body":"directions. Then there are"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":94.82,"endTime":98.72,"body":"dating apps and porn, and you've"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":98.72,"endTime":102.7,"body":"got the perfect storm of"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":98.72,"endTime":102.7,"body":"relationship combustion. 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Again, it"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":262.999,"endTime":266.599,"body":"was much more empowering for me"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":262.999,"endTime":266.599,"body":"to be able to rely on myself for"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":266.599,"endTime":270.199,"body":"that. And now I'm at the point"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":266.599,"endTime":270.199,"body":"where I don't even think about"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":270.199,"endTime":273.019,"body":"asking other people's opinions,"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":270.199,"endTime":273.019,"body":"or, you know, how to make"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":273.019,"endTime":277.339,"body":"decisions. It's just I, if"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":273.019,"endTime":277.339,"body":"something doesn't come easily to"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":277.339,"endTime":280.599,"body":"me, that that just means I have"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":277.339,"endTime":280.599,"body":"to sit with it longer until"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":280.659,"endTime":282.099,"body":"something comes up within me."},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":290.74,"endTime":293.98,"body":"And then the third thing that I"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":290.74,"endTime":293.98,"body":"wanted to talk about is, you"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":293.98,"endTime":297.64,"body":"know, the difference between low"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":293.98,"endTime":297.64,"body":"vibrational energy and high"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":297.64,"endTime":301.56,"body":"vibrational energy, and what."},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":297.64,"endTime":301.56,"body":"I've done as I was, pulling"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":301.56,"endTime":306.0,"body":"myself out of hell of my divorce"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":301.56,"endTime":306.0,"body":"for three years while living"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":306.0,"endTime":310.68,"body":"together, I took challenges,"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":306.0,"endTime":310.68,"body":"obstacles and issues, and"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":310.68,"endTime":314.82,"body":"instead of staying in a low"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":310.68,"endTime":314.82,"body":"vibrational energy, like, Why"},{"speaker":"Caryn Portnoy","startTime":314.82,"endTime":319.68,"body":"me? 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