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The Public Nuisance Podcast #017 “Wee Hoods Energy” with Psychic Glenn
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Welcome to a new episode of The Public Nuisance Podcast with me, Sean McComb.
This week we welcome Psychic, Glenn Gordon to the podcast
We cover Energy, Childhood, Politics, Arlene Foster, Carol from NYC, ACID, Boxing, Price of Butter and much more.
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Speaker 1The Public Nuisance. Sean McCullough, welcome to this episode of the Public Nuisance Podcast brought to you from Killin' Studios right here, where you can get all your content done, from photo shoots, podcasts, you name it. We've got the setup right here With us today. Our very own Seggie, glenn.
Speaker 2Well, Sean, I've been a fucking nuisance from the day I was born. Oh fuck.
Speaker 1Two nuisances in the room here.
Speaker 2I could be murdering you. I know you could be fucked, mate, God help. Are we clear? Is that what they say?
Speaker 1Thanks for coming in mate.
Speaker 2You're welcome, sean. Thank you for having me on how's life terrible, sean. I'm back on the grass again, aye, and I'm fucking, yeah, but I mean nothing really else is happening. You know what I mean? It's winter time, aye, just hibernate hibernate, aye, hibernate.
Speaker 1I hate winter, aye, so do I.
Speaker 2I like it, but I just I don't quite as much. I don't like it I despise it.
Speaker 1I don't even like it one bit aye it. I am choking for a warm holiday, just a bit of sun and, just like the difference, good weather. See. Belfast with sun all the time would be a beautiful place.
Speaker 2It would be a beautiful place. I love it. It's a nice enough day coming like it's a nice enough day out there today it's going to be a nice year better be.
Speaker 1What was the energy like when you came in here? Do you feel anything when you came in here?
Speaker 2Like coming into this studio, let's just say you just come in, it's bigger than what you would think it would be and it's no, it's a nice energy, like it's a good energy.
Speaker 1Yeah, that's good. I'm glad I've got a good energy because me and Ran we always joke about having Paddy Barnes on and I always say, fuck, what was that noise? And I was like I said there. I says because when we lived in Glasgow I used to wake up in the morning, me and Paddy Barnes. We were in the room right and I woke up and I was like fuck me, paddy, you were moaning last night in your sleep. I was like what? I was like you were moaning last night in your sleep. I woke up and you had a condom in your ear hole.
Speaker 2Mate, don't mess with me, I guess hers is haunted.
Speaker 1I swear to fuck.
Speaker 2It's true, buddy, you can have sex with a ghost. See, people have said that to me for years, and one of them's called succubus and one of them's called incubus. And that's the male and the female Serious.
Speaker 1Is that true?
Speaker 2Yes, you can have sex with a ghost. Well, a ghost can interfere with you in your sleep. No way.
Speaker 1Definitely I'd get a wake up with all bruises and all fuck me.
Speaker 2that's madness you'd see the articles. The woman I married a ghost. You know what I mean. That's insane. It's the best orgasm she ever had. Hey, you don't have to fucking fake it up their date, no fucking right LA you're having a living the fuck, living your best life, flan.
Speaker 1A bird is a ghost raiding people a ghost, or maybe people are like just exciting it going, like, fuck, this is all I'm getting. I may as well just take it, I know, just lie and say, nah, I'm gonna take it. No, it's a real thing. Like definitely is like how, like how did you discover? I know you've probably seen this before, ruben?
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Speaker 2Ruben, ruben, ruben. Whenever I was three, I had Ruben, ruben, ruben, ruben. Whenever I was three, I had Ruben in my room and my mum made that he didn't believe me. And one night they woke up and it was standing above their bed and then we moved house and it came with us then. Strange, but I've always kept Ruben with me. But Ruben, I think, is the reason, is he still with you? Yeah, is he in here now? He's not in here, but Inside me, maybe Is he Maybe he is.
Speaker 1I know, fuck's sake, I know, I know, give me a relationship with that guy Fuck he was coming into my room.
Speaker 2I was three.
Speaker 1Fuck me Starting on the radio. Fuck me, here you go, man.
Speaker 2That's mad, Because obviously you would have a lot of I used to be scared of it, but Really I used to be terrified of it.
Speaker 1In what sense? Like what Did he do things.
Speaker 2He was a big, tall boogeyman. He was a big, tall ghost Beard and all but like really tall, really like frightening.
Speaker 1When did you stop being afraid of him? When did you just go like? I think Accept him.
Speaker 2Whenever we moved, everything all calmed down, everything all calmed down. But as I got older I always kept asking about it like and as I got more mature I realised that at some it's with me, kind of alright, so did you, although other people have had experiences in that house, so do you think it was the house?
Speaker 1it was definitely the house. Yeah, yeah, when you left, he was, he was. Maybe nobody seems to stay in that house nobody. It's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's it's, it's it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's it's.
Speaker 2It's it's in America. I know and I think, where bad things have happened, yeah, or where things have had an emotional imprint, places like that can be having, yeah we're fucking here because we've obviously had troubles and I know but even before that, people starving and all and like I know 100% all that Irish famine and everything, all that there people didn't have a nice life really.
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Speaker 2You know what I mean.
Speaker 1I know, even to have a job, fuck she'd get. She's changing now, like hopefully, like you say, good energy, hopefully good energy is in front of the city now because it's changing it is changing.
Speaker 2We're advancing now, we're advancing and we're moving on, but I think we could be more.
Speaker 1We're still the economy and all could be better. I think we could be tax free.
Speaker 2It could be fucking better the government fucking.
Speaker 1Well, it should be, because we're victims of war.
Speaker 2Why not tax free for a while? Let us build back up.
Speaker 1I know, michelle, you listen to this. Get it fucking sorted. If you want the votes, arlene, if you want the votes, you have to make it tax free you have to be careful what what you say about her she sues you. Oh, that's right. So she does. So does Jamie Brayson sue everyone as well, doesn't he? I know he sues all around him, but he fucking just goes on right mate, right mate, right mate he just wants the the kick bit.
Speaker 1He just loves the bit. I know he fucking loves it. I can't. I can't deal with politics like I just you arguing do you feel something or do you see it? Do you like feel it?
Speaker 2like you feel. I kind of feel it because I think I see it too. I certainly see it too, but there's a lot of time I don't want to see it and I choose not to see it. But then when I feel it, it's like it's like feeling sorry for people. It's almost like you can and I was thinking about this yesterday actually and it makes me get to know them better and I'm like I could feel sorry for them then because I know what they go through and it's like I didn't want to see it, but I felt it and I see it, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1So, and with me you felt a good energy, so you don't feel sorry for me. Well, I don't feel sorry for you. No, that's good, I'm happy enough.
Speaker 2I'm happy enough.
Speaker 1I've been. People have called me up in the past.
Speaker 2I know I've been called everything too sure there's a lot of ideas.
Speaker 1Get on with it, don't you?
Speaker 2I know you have to is there like a wee?
Speaker 1is there like see, like, like psychics and stuff like that? Do you have like a wee community where you're like?
Speaker 2well, I am friends with a lot of psychics, a lot of people that do practice it, but there is a community but nobody really it's all like very competitive, so I haven't really balled it with them like. There's ones that I'm friends like. Obviously I'm very friendly with Angela. I'm very friendly. We're all different. There's different ones that I've always been friendly with for years and years, but I don not really in any clique.
Speaker 1Why is it imperative? Because of the money, share things? Because it's a business?
Speaker 2no, it's an ego thing, believe it or not, oh is it yes, they all go to the spiritualist church, myself included.
Speaker 2I've done it too and it starts coming out of you and then you get better than someone else and then none of me, because it only really I feel like in any given time the house point it will. So, like in a group there's often one that is like picking quite a lot and it can create a wee bit of jealousy. But see, sometimes in circles you get people that doesn't really want to learn, it just wants fucking readings every day. You know what I mean? You can't really use it to heal grief, like it doesn't work no, I don't believe it either.
Speaker 1I don't believe you deal with grief. How you're mad to it.
Speaker 2You can't take it away and I think if you, if you could, take it away.
Speaker 1You'd feel wrong.
Speaker 2You have to have it it's a part of your life, it's a part of it's a wound of your whole life. It's the awakening to the love. Yeah, I think you love somebody after they go, you really realise that and it stays with you.
Speaker 1It never leaves you yeah, do like other psychics or other sports. Would feel the same way you do about that, or?
Speaker 2would they say no, like all psychics, I think not all psychics have the same sort of beliefs as such. Some would just believe it's all light, it's all love and light. I don't necessarily believe it's all light. I believe your soul can get a bit trapped, a bit stuck, a bit ignorant, and I think everything happens on its own time and another show will be ready to go and they'll be away somewhere else as where another show will linger.
Speaker 1There you go. I met this girl I was telling him it was just before he came in in New York. We were nice, she was from Dublin, a girl called Carl, really nice girl. She was a scene.
Speaker 1She was a, she was a sportsist or a fucking city or something, I don't know, but we were in the bar in New York drinking or not New York in the airport where we were going home after my fight and me and my best mate were sitting having pains, like fucking where we're snattered, like where we're blocked, and we were singing and fucking, having a laugh and then I go, she was over talking to us. She was like saying do you like? She was basically trying to read me. I was like I don't want you to read me, or even I don't want to hear it.
Speaker 1I was like I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that, I shouldn't have done that. She was like I know your face now but and I knew a lot of people she knew but anyway she was a. She was a fucking sick ecstasy. And then what happened was because we she wasn't drinking we went to the plane, yeah, and the wood lad was on said we're too drunk. So we got turned away and I got arrested and put on a straitjacket and sat the fuck in the Queen's Hospital fuck right. So I was showing them the video, me and my mate blocked in the hospital, but Carl had to come with us because they wouldn't let her on the flight air, even though she wasn't drinking. You've never seen that one coming.
Speaker 2She probably got this fucking drunk. You know what I mean here's me.
Speaker 1You've never seen that. Did you not feel that? Did you not feel that when you first met? It's like I did have a bad feeling. I did have a bad feeling when I met you sometimes I get bad feelings. Here's me I had a bad feeling when I met you, but I just didn't know it was going to that. Today there's sometimes I'm like that that's mad, because you can hear enough. It's like when I went to fucking Spain.
Speaker 2I was meant to be staying there for three months at least and then my friends wanted to let their apartment out and I was going to share with them. I should have shared with them, because we're Russian, I wanted.
Speaker 1I left on a Saturday and it fucking I remember you were talking about this on your tiktok.
Speaker 2I wouldn't have been able to cope with it. I remember you talking, I would have been because I wouldn't have been able to get home but what like? Because I didn't have a fucking Irish passport, and it's because that's what it was, because, because I didn't have enough medication and I needed to go home and get.
Speaker 1I know you need it. So do you know? I was in Amsterdam and the girl was like me are you possible British passport? Are you Irish passport? Flick soft chocolate, and I mean the queue in. Amsterdam airport.
Speaker 2I just went, fuck me no, I am getting an Irish passport. It's far better because you can run the place and you're in town. You're in town.
Speaker 1I swam, floods happened as well. Aye, that's when it was.
Speaker 2Fuck me, like I missed it by like, and it was weird because I didn't. I really didn't want to come home. I was crying, I really was annoyed, did not want to come home, but something made me come home so you just, is it like a gut instinct? I didn't know something was going to happen, but I knew, for whatever reason, I had to go home that's, that's class because you can like, but I didn't know that at the time.
Speaker 2I didn't see it coming. And then it happened and I was like, oh my God, how did I miss that?
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 2I like got the last fucking flight out of Valencia. There wasn't no more flights till that Wednesday and by then it was all the airport and all was closed and everything.
Speaker 1That's mad like, dodge, fucking like when you get feelings like that do you ever go?
Speaker 2something moved me out of the way do you ever go gas the feeling like go fuck it, I'll be alright yeah, yeah, yeah, I did actually when I was in a relationship before I went against the feelings and I ended up getting bit in the neck, fuck me. But I didn't see that coming like. I could never have predicted that but and I should have listened to what. Yeah, if you get really bad anxiety when you're with somebody, sometimes it's fucking coming off them, sometimes you're getting the bad fucking babes.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 2It's true. Some days See if you've got anxiety Right now, you've got anxiety. Bad fucking babes. Sometimes you've got to Listen to that stomach Telling you it's the truth.
Speaker 1Get out. But some people are afraid To get out. Some people like, or with that person, a life without that person and they're just stuck with that person because they just had to grind it out.
Speaker 2But I have. You have to go through certain things to learn lessons like I know. Fuck hundred percent million percent.
Speaker 1Like the Oren who you just met out in the hall, was in before you and he was saying, like the stuff he's done, he's like he's a fucking, he jumps off like 80 foot cliffs and 100 like just nuts and he does all this mad, mad claims it's very, very hot and bones and he's not recording it. And I'm going what the fuck? What's the matter with you? Like? But like he was saying, like just we, as you say, learned learning along the way.
Speaker 2Like you do a 10 foot cliff and a 20 foot cliff and then push on well, I think, whenever you experience something new, you expand, and I think, if you're not expanding, you're shrinking.
Speaker 1There you go so you, you never stay the same like, you're just like well, I suppose, if you do stay the same, everyone else progresses and you get stuck behind basically, you know what I mean yeah, 100%. What's the? Do you drink?
Speaker 2very rarely. I do drink sometimes, but I try not to really drink, because sometimes when I drink too much I go, I go mad like I lose the plot. Everyone does, but no, I really lose the plot like I just no try not to drink.
Speaker 1What's your mad? Tell me your mad story.
Speaker 2Well, the last time I was getting pissed off by everybody because I went out drinking on a Monday. So fucking what? So what? There was a fiver. So what, there was powder, so what. So what did I do? I took the acid and I put it all in the tiktok and I was like I rage, baited them all. You know what I mean. Fuck, 12 hours later I was still fucking bingoed.
Speaker 1That's a that's a good view, but you'd pay to watch it. That's a silver, isn't it Prove?
Speaker 2it was acid, it was a bit of cardboard, right, exactly.
Speaker 1You know what I mean. You know what I mean, just because you're fucking afraid of it. You know what I mean. Like would you take? Would you ever take acid without drinking? Would it be better? Well to be honest with you.
Speaker 2I have never really well. I've took it before when I've been drinking. I suppose it gives you a wee bit more balls, but I've took it before when I drink and it's been brilliant. You can't really drink when you're on it. You don't necessarily sit and crave drink, you don't drink just when you're drunk you have the balls amazing what's your what?
Speaker 2is that your favorite hat? It's my favorite. I think it's my favorite. So it's magic. It literally is magic. I I've seen the ley lines and all I understood like and everything was going around in a circle and all it was pure magic. I turned pure magic for 12 hours do you know what I?
Speaker 2mean, I'm telling you like, and I think too it can heal you, it can definitely fucking heal you, because I've taken it before and I've seen certain things and I've been like right, you need to change that. You need to change that. This is why that's like that.
Speaker 1You know what I mean and do you think like people take mushrooms to heal?
Speaker 2Well, when I took mushrooms- I cried Like I didn't really before. I really really cried my heart out. I have cried on acid once, but most of the time it's all been positive.
Speaker 1That's good yeah, fuck me, you keep up the acid.
Speaker 2Then there's been feng shui garden. There has been like a GTA. It was like a GTA fucking night place to sit at there was. There's been all different things. There's been all different things that have happened, that I've named for them and everything the I had a name for it them last ones were transatlantic. I don't know how they were explained, but transatlantic because we were on the Irish coast, everything was coming in, did you be on your?
Speaker 2own. I was with my friend, but sure I ended up going home when I was by myself, was your friend on, she ended up taking my eye and is she in a different dimension? I think she was the same.
Speaker 1To be honest, you need to get a GoPro and set it up and see what she's what like. So she can it was brilliant and watch it back, just you.
Speaker 2You don't have to show it to anyone say to anybody like I'm not encouraging you should never, ever, ever do anything. So I don't ever be encouraged by anybody to do anything. But if you live a mundane life, may want the experience in your existence, I mean it is because it'll show you that there's more than what your mind can comprehend. It shows you like it explodes. Everything's everywhere. It's very just everywhere glitter everywhere.
Speaker 1We're going on the acid. It's hilarious.
Speaker 2I was laughing and laughing, and laughing. It was just so funny like you just laugh at everything you should get.
Speaker 1You should do like don't tell anyone. You're doing it. But obviously we're sitting here now but we'll never know when it is. Take a wee lick of acid, give it like five minutes, go on a TikTok live and just.
Speaker 2I would turn into a comedian.
Speaker 1Just that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 2Stay on live. I swear, go on the live and people will just fucking love it.
Speaker 1or else get a wee hang set up where you have to pay on the watsit.
Speaker 2But you see, the thing is, see people that take coke, see the people that the majority of people, who it's the majority here take coke. They'll never, ever take acid. Why they just don't? Because acid's like oh no, I can do that. You know the nine to five people that only know how to let go for five minutes at See is there a hangover?
Speaker 1Do you get a calm down from acid?
Speaker 2No, none at all. No, none. People think it's like.
Speaker 1I know a lot of people have took it. I know loads of my mates have took it and they've loved it. Some say they've had a bad trip. Some say they've had amazing trips.
Speaker 2Well, that one there I've had, that was only like three or four weeks ago.
Speaker 1It hasn't quite wore off no when it does wear off? If it wears off, will you take an R1 to get the?
Speaker 2yeah, well, I have an R1 now, like I just happened to be, I'm keeping it for a special occasion when do you think it'll be?
Speaker 1I don't know, just whenever, just when you're feeling it definitely I need to get more.
Speaker 2I'm going to try and get it in liquid form liquid form.
Speaker 1So what way has it come now? Like a wee bit of.
Speaker 2I think about it. I'd say about seven or eight weeks ago I would love acid, we'll get it for my friend. She was like no, we're not, but I was only joking. And then, like two weeks later, my friend was like to me I have acid. I was like swear.
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Speaker 1Now, every time I talk about them they appear Fuck here we go, so you'll be walking down the road here to get your car or something. To you it's part of your brain. I know a fella who took acid in jail and his head went. He's never been the same again. Really, he sees freelance authors now.
Speaker 2Fuck's sake Of where I live like he's a lunatic. See, I think I do think you took too much of jail and it's not the type of thing to I've never, ever, ever known a single person. I would actually like to know of any scientists out there. If it's addictive because I do not believe it could be addictive it can't be addictive if you only talk about once, and then you don't take it, you just you don't need that, you couldn't even do, you wouldn't want to's whole, it's whole, once is enough.
Speaker 1Once is enough for a lifetime it's not feasible to do it every single day.
Speaker 2No, it's not a greedy thing the brain probably couldn't comprehend it anyway taking that much.
Speaker 1You know what I mean.
Speaker 2Have you ever took it. Nah, I wouldn't have a bra, I'd shit myself I'd fucking.
Speaker 1It's brilliant like I've had me a smokey joint have you not nah. I'm just drinking because of boxing are you?
Speaker 2still at the boxing. You need to teach me boxing or give me a lesson.
Speaker 1I'll fucking bring you up to our gym. I think someone can make a wee video 100%, because is there anyone out there you'd be giving it to? Anyone would be getting the candy apples well, I don't know any fucking slabbers but I would love to do boxing 100% get up to our gym and fucking, fucking, let the candy apples go, let them rip, because here you'll do some damage, and then everyone will be afraid, everyone will be like, everyone will be, I would love to do boxing.
Speaker 1To be honest, I would. It's a good sport, it's a good fucking. I'll tell you what it's a it's therapeutic aye like just a release of whatever you have in you yeah maybe that's what you get from like taking acid. It's like a release or a laser and it gives you like wholesome, like you say. That's what I feel about boxing, that's my drug.
Speaker 2You know what I mean. That's my drug.
Speaker 1I just fucking. It's the adrenaline you get when you're gonna be fighting all the others brilliant.
Speaker 2It's a buzz.
Speaker 1And I question myself every time I'm doing it like what the fuck am I doing here? Like I've, you know what I mean? I have a wife and fucking a child and a house here to get fucking punched by someone. But it's a good pose, like it's fucking. It's that same.
Speaker 2It's that same feeling physical fitness, I feel like, and being able to defend yourself is very important.
Speaker 1I think big time, especially in this place. Like, like my wee lad, he fucking I'm gonna get him in the box, but only for disciplinary reasons. I mean, I don't want him in the the way I do as a job and for the rest, of his life, but if he ends up being good and he loves it. He can do what he wants, but I'd rather he'd fucking done something better, like something easier, Cause it's fucking. You sacrifice your whole life. You know what I?
Speaker 1mean and then you have to give it up too. I know at some stage, like if I buy an M1, they'll have to go in the ass of it.
Speaker 2I know exactly. I had to tear off his hair in there at retirement.
Speaker 1One day I said I'm going to move before they asked it. Love my life, laugh my paddocks off. I had to try it. People, my mate done never taken DMT.
Speaker 2I've never taken DMT, but I would love to.
Speaker 1Would you love to? I have a few of the mates have took it like and they swore about it, they love it, they think it's like whoa Dave, they love it Blows your mind. Yeah, I had a mate who I had one mate who took it and says, fuck, I won't do it again.
Speaker 2And then every other mates have, like you kind of realise why certain things are the way they are, like Czech. Czech, for example, and Tartan. You understand that it all comes from the Mad Hatter. You understand it's all Alice in Wonderland. It brings her right back to the mushroom. Everything's connected. When you take it, it's like you understand things a bit differently. That's the only way to describe it. I know now, when I go into something, I know if they've got that artistic way about them or not. You know what I mean, just based on things they have in their house. See if people have a Like.
Speaker 1See people who take DMT. I think they have a reason For taking it.
Speaker 2Aye.
Speaker 1Like you're taking acid. You have a reason for taking it yeah. I have no reason to take anything Aye, I just don't Like. I don't know, is it like People take it to heal or something, or people?
Speaker 2Well, I, think DMT can definitely make you heal, but I think If you're spiritual and you want to know If push and push and push.
Speaker 1I think all shamans, I think all, all, do it all partake what would happen if you? You know what I would like to know? Like I don't want, I have nothing to heal. That's the way I feel. I don't. I'm happy with my life. That's like probably just fortunate the way I feel, but I am there's nothing I would change, I'm happy as fucking as Laurie. So I would like to just take it and see what would happen if I took it, like would I just enjoy the trip.
Speaker 2I think you'd have a break, though maybe you'd maybe have a break, though you'd go. Oh my god, I need to do this or that, whatever it is.
Speaker 1I would tell you like I would give you the rest of your life. You'd know you'd believe and you'd know definitely, but I know it's just one of them things you, you, I'll probably never know, because I don't think I'm going to have a ball you will.
Speaker 2You will try at some point in your life. Of course you will Fuck you gotta be mad, you will. And then you'll go to yourself, my God, like why is anybody even drinking alcohol? I know.
Speaker 1Like what the fuck I was going to Her mummy passed away. She was sick and she was heartbroken, she was angry and all that sort of shit and she would have loved drinking all day, beefing and having a car and partying with the girls and all that kind of stuff. And then she started taking mushrooms and she doesn't drink no more.
Speaker 2I met with those, I met with those mushrooms. She's pure healing.
Speaker 1Now there's loads of people doing that and she's like I wouldn't drink again. She's like I'm just so, she says. One of the first times she took him, like she was, she went back to feeling what her ma was feeling. Aye, while she was cancerous she was like I got what she was feeling and it was painful agony, yeah, and I was angry for her dying and like, but now I'm glad she's dead because I didn't want her to feel that pain Because I've experienced the pain she was feeling and.
Speaker 1I'm like fuck God, like People don't realise we're half to die.
Speaker 2I know, I know Like, and if you knew, you knew the whole of it. You would want it in a way.
Speaker 1You would want it for them. Do you believe in another shite, a hundred percent? Another shayla 100%.
Speaker 2Like obviously a ghost About a billion other shayts. That's whatever you decide it's going to be.
Speaker 1And is that a do as a person?
Speaker 2I believe it can be. It can be really to do what you believe. If you believe a god, it's going to come and protect you. That's exactly what'll happen if you believe you are a god then you're a god, cultivate what.
Speaker 1so when people say like, oh, hands come down the hole anyway there's a lot of people that are here to die.
Speaker 2There's a lot of people that are here to like spiritually die?
Speaker 1I think yeah, but do you think like there's people who go like fuck you, put me down a hole and just gonna be myself? There's no life after death? If you're just in the hole, will they stay in a hole? They just never have a spiritual like a no I don't think so.
Speaker 2I I always believe that there's a way there. There's always a way. Everybody is somewhere, even if somebody's dead. Now they're somewhere, Like they are somewhere. The soul is somewhere there. It's somewhere, even if they're lying on the ground going home. Now You're still there, mate, there in Carmine. You're there.
Speaker 2Hello, wake up, Wake up you know what I mean oh fuck me it's different, for because you can get it, no, and we'll be so close to God and boom, and you'll know you'll not feel it around you. Yeah, because that's where grief's different. Sometimes you really feel them around you and then there's times you don't feel them at all. That can be scary what's it?
Speaker 1feel like when when you die, no, when people. You feel like people around you, because I don. No one must have liked me truthfully, it's like a feeling.
Speaker 2It's a feeling there. It can be a goose bump, you know, but it's there, you feel it, there you do you sort of feel it there.
Speaker 1I just don't feel connected to anything or anyone. I just feel like people close to me, loads of people close to me as I have but I just don't feel like I'm ever like when I'm boxing I'll say, like we Like, we Like.
Speaker 1Be with me here, be with me here If I need you, be with me. Yeah, and I've done my own box, like I've never really Fucking been hurt or any of that kind. So maybe they haven't, but I just haven't felt it. Yeah, you know what I mean. And then even, like sometimes, when I remember, like after I've heard about them, like I'll say Well, can you feel them when they're dead? I don't know, because they're there when they're alive. You know what?
Speaker 2I mean, but they're there when they're dead too their personalities are so you have to think do you know what I mean? They're there, they're omnipresent, but they might not actually be there on the day you need them. They're more powerful than they're dead definitely they can open doors for you. Anyway, I'll tell you, I have seen people go through really bad grief and then within a year, like their whole life changes and I go like I'd say I'm putting the strings for you?
Speaker 1yeah, they near enough can like direct your life, like direct in the way you respond.
Speaker 2I always say like see for every loss, like say, for every big loss. That's a vacuum human space where like that'll be replaced by something else. Yeah, I know it sounds mad, but I always say like the mother becomes the daughter, usually nine times out of ten.
Speaker 1I always think like this is probably just stupid. But I always feel like see people I know who always like win money and win big bads, and they just seem to always win. I'm like that's fucker, but I go. That's like that's always people who have someone close to them there. I always feel that I'm like that's fucking such and such.
Speaker 1That's his fucking, that's his man, that's, that's horrible. I always feel like that. I know it's absolutely numb, but I always feel it's that type of people. You know what I mean. I never thought about it that way. I always go someone's watching over him.
Speaker 2I see that with babies and all I mean. I see that with families, Like if you lose a parent, and you lose a parent young, you are definitely likely going to be a parent and it's going to be like happening young.
Speaker 1Yeah, the same thing.
Speaker 2It's exactly the same thing, only a newer version. I know a few people I got actually from New South and there's a few people too like, who have literally been pregnant and their granny dies and then the baby's born. Yeah, and it's like straight away. Aye, that's so common.
Speaker 1Actually, my cousin, my grandad, died there. My grandad's very close to us and he died last year and the next day our Ciara had a wee baby. Was it a boy, girl, girl? But like it was, like it just happened, you know what I mean. Like literally the same time it's better.
Speaker 2Sweet, isn't it like?
Speaker 1so we were like fuck me, what's the chances? My round was very, very holy man.
Speaker 2I sometimes think women know some women, they get old and they go right, I don't want to go up there to him, I'm not going up there, no way. And then they fucking look for a fucking a portal to get back and then boom back as the only great granddaughter fantastic, I know you know what I mean.
Speaker 1Like it's a loop. Like I know, fuck me, it's a fucking mad out. Like would you have? Like see your mates in school growing up? Like in school would they have? Would they have known about this, or did you?
Speaker 2just go and buy it well as a teenager. Yes, some of my friends would have been a wee bit, yeah, but in school I was always in trouble, I was always suspended or always like. I got expelled from two schools did you yep, the boys model. And then Castle High for a fucking. I Did you Yep, it's the boys' medal. And then Castle High Fair, fucking just messed it up.
Speaker 1I brought in a.
Speaker 2Ouija board and I printed it out, I photocopied it and I nearly got expelled for that. I stole the rom-coms. You used to have these computer things to mark yourself in, so I stole them so I could mark myself in, and then that was boys' medal. And then Castle High. I got done for and grass and having to go and get my stomach pumped one day because it was drinking and I went to. Pathways.
Speaker 1Pathways was brilliant was that a place you went to? For the guys it was fifth year.
Speaker 2It was 21 years ago now I was there Pathways. Yeah, it would have been 20 years, no, 21, no what is it like?
Speaker 1is it just a big?
Speaker 2it was like a fifth year but it was was only about ten of us in the class.
Speaker 1Was he a puffy? Is that a bar room? No, it's like a, A big place you stand with a carrot. Like a big feeler room. It's like a group.
Speaker 2It's like a group where you have your fifth year, oh right, because you're not allowed in school.
Speaker 1Fuck me, yeah, my 13,. I was. I skipped drinking when I was 13. Got the headphones off, me was black drinks. Six tins of bud and I was absolutely snattered and my brother told me I got bothered, fuck's sake. Bigger brother told me he was on the bed, like my dad, for fuck's sake, warning everyone, and he bought or something fall on third floor. So it was Easter Sunday. We I actually had 12 tins of bud, big, super tins of bud. I sold six of them to a wee fella, I know, and I kept six myself.
Speaker 1My brother from the bird fucking looked at me everywhere. I was black and I went home and he fucking punched ahead of me and he told my dad and then he found out he was like, he was in the off-line for you and I wasn't telling. But some wee girl in the area told him and it was a fella called English Rob. That's what the wee girl said. It was English Rob. That was his name, like the fella who did win the offlanes for me. And there's another fella in Turf Loads called Tony Bendy, but he walks because he's like, he's kind of like a Bendy, because he's like a football hooligan from England, from Millwall, and RD just assumed fucking English Rob person in Turf Loads was Tony Bendyneck who was completely innocent and he went and punched the fuck out of him and he was like what the fuck's that?
Speaker 1for? It wasn't even the right person, so he had to go and hit someone else it's the only time you've never had acid.
Speaker 2You don't know.
Speaker 1Don't let you have it fucking bait to death for it taking baits from no age.
Speaker 2I wasn't even born like deserved it a lot of the time oh fuck like.
Speaker 1But just what was? What would you have been into, like going up like as a teenager, just drinking and just misbehaving, basically just partying?
Speaker 2and all and going out and everything, and a guy used to be wild that way like um, but I like, I like all, I like what I'm in, I love what I do and I've always been that way. I think it was more so whenever I didn't do readings and all. I was more crazy, I was more like, but now I'm more like you have more control over it.
Speaker 1You're probably more like. I don't feel like them you've probably got like a no, like a, what do you call it? Like a, you've got control over it, but you've got like a, like an understanding of why I understand who you are and what you understand.
Speaker 2I couldn't understand it, and trying to get anybody else to understand it, it just didn't work and it was just a battle and then obviously like because you're different.
Speaker 1If you feel like you're different from everyone else in society, near enough like because you have these feelings, you like, and other other people at that age are probably going to be like what the fuck? You know what?
Speaker 2I mean, I used to think it was ADHD. I thought ADHD was the reason and it's a part of it. I think it's a part of why, why I can see what I can see. It's a part of why, well having, ADHD, do you?
Speaker 1have ADHD were you tested for it?
Speaker 2I diagnosed when I was 8. Were you? Where are you going? I take L-Vance for it.
Speaker 1I had a. I had a mate growing up. He had a. He obviously he still has it, but he Ritalin, he took me and he never took it he wore a white ballistic and he used to not take it purpose. Sometimes I swear to God, and he'd now fucking stay on cars and stay on the ring. And he was just nuts Aye, like see, I need mine, like help me focus.
Speaker 2Aye see, let you, let's go off and fuck the ball. But I think that there's a reason why because you always feel different. I always associated it with that, but I always thought everybody felt the exact same way as me. But they don't, they really don't at all.
Speaker 1People have said to me like, do you have any hasty? Even recently I was in Dublin training and someone says to me have you had any hasty? I go what? No? And that like none of'm not going to say it's ADHD. But I was like why would you make that? But when I was in school I was the same.
Speaker 2I was a fucking pest, a pest in school, yeah.
Speaker 1And I was like never once was it like, would I have thought I had ADHD? But I've just never been tested for it, but I know I don't have it and it does my head on you'll know.
Speaker 1If he has ADHD, his teacher says to me you'll know he's nuts and he makes all these mad noises and all these like she's like we're reading a book and he's like he just hasn't got a focus, he's like we're gonna get someone in. I mean, you're not testing him, no way, you're testing him right. Megan said have a fucking wee small trait of ADHD? Aye, but they don't have the full works. Yeah, so they're controllable when people are uncontrollable yeah, like, maybe like you were getting expelled repeatedly.
Speaker 1You were like fun. But I feel like if you give someone with a wee small trait of ADHD, you diagnose them with ADHD. Yeah, that's their excuse for the rest of their life, exactly, and they'll use it maybe they'll use it so.
Speaker 2I'd be saying that's not normal but as I've got older, now I've started to accept there's certain things I can do and certain things I can't do. And I accept it now and I go. I have ADHD. I can't do 10,. I thought it could be different.
Speaker 1I know you sound yourself Matt.
Speaker 2Aye Definitely.
Speaker 1Is that one of the things where your focus can't be on certain things? I can't concentrate.
Speaker 2if I don't have my medication, everything I plan to do that whole day just goes out the window.
Speaker 1That's mad.
Speaker 2You just put it off and you can't get motivated. You can't get up. You'd be paralyzed, do you?
Speaker 1You'd literally be paralyzed, you'd be paralyzed.
Speaker 2You'd have no motivation at all and you'll avoid everything. You'll completely avoid everything before you want to deal with it. That's like a bad hangover, folks.
Speaker 1It is If I don't have my medication for something.
Speaker 2I feel sick. I start to feel rotten. That's just like a bad. You don't feel in control of yourself. You feel like you're not in control of yourself at all.
Speaker 1Would you be awkward around talking to people if you didn't have it Completely? Oh, completely as well. My face people.
Speaker 2My energy can't make me very awkward, I can make it like I don't mean to be that way, but sometimes, if I'm not grasping focused right, I can't concentrate. Yeah, to pay attention.
Speaker 1I remember when you first went in that room, we were like obviously you spoke through Instagram and talking and all. But like that was the first time seeing you in person. You know, like you have a perception of someone, he'll be jally, he'll be in talking, but you were like. You were like sussing out the room or something and I was like what the fuck's going? I'd be going, I ain't trying to suss him out. I thought he was going to be like well what's happening?
Speaker 1I'm talking. I was like fuck me, running the word spokes. Glad Oren was there because he was talking. I was like thank fuck, because I'd be like where do you even start? That can be awkward, like I know, but it's just sussing out the energy as that energy. What do you mean with me? Like coming in here, say you get in, say you didn't have no like you says about like Spain.
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Speaker 1Right, you were in Spain and you had that. You had that feeling. You were like I need to go, I need to go home. I didn't want to go home, but I need to go home and you knew, yeah, but you got home but say like you didn't have that feeling in the beginning, but I really did because I was scared of doing podcasts.
Speaker 2I was like I actually wanted you to rake me more and it never happened. I expected it and it never happened. You go on a podcast with a comedian, do you expect them to rake you a wee bit? And it never fucking happened. I'm like I know, fuck me, they're taking back so I said I want to start doing stand-up and I wasn't ready a couple of years ago I really wasn't, but I'm more ready now.
Speaker 1Paddy Cunningham. You probably you wouldn't know him, but he he was part of the dad mission he's. He asked me to learn the area blues. He's like here would you do? Stand-up and I was like, nah, I do it. And I was like, no, I was like, mate, you should do it. Do it on the St Paddy's Day. Five minutes, ten minutes.
Speaker 2Shut the fuck up. I'll back three years. No, I fucked up.
Speaker 1I'm not getting up where I want to have a balls. It's just, it's different, I just feel it.
Speaker 1It is different it to Tim McGarry last night. That's daft and give him a head piece. Funny as fuck. Funny bastard. See when he's talking and he's like he was giving all these teachers stick and all and he was slapping about the teacher. Well, yous are a fucking lazy bastard Like yous, don't? Yous get holidays All year. All yous do is complain. Then yous get training days, training no way yous get training Cause yous have had much. And I was laughing, going like I could easily do it. Yeah, but it's just making.
Speaker 1It's taking that stab to get up.
Speaker 2I had to simplify my mind down. See, to be a comedian, I have to simplify my mind down because I my my sense of humor is a wee bit more intelligent, I think, so I have to really dumb it down. I feel like I have to dumb things down almost.
Speaker 1I feel like comedians are funny, but I think I don't even know how to explain it, it's just I think they are they are the best comedians.
Speaker 2I don't even know how to explain it it's just.
Speaker 1I think you just have to talk about shit that happens. You have to point out the obvious it's pointing out the obvious.
Speaker 2It is. It's just pointing out the obvious.
Speaker 1You know what I mean would you have a dark side to you, barry? Barry, I'm a dark side to him as well.
Speaker 2I think the things that you shouldn't say are the funniest things yep, 100%.
Speaker 1And people will be like, oh, take a bite and they'll go sit there. Oh, fuck me. No, but give it a go, I'll have to get you on. I'll say to Paddy look, I'm not doing it, but give that wee fucking 10 minute space to Glenn and we'll get you on.
Speaker 2I would I mean I would I have to write a wee sat like I think that's what most people do, but I was just wing it how did you end up being a psychic, glenn? Because I've got a wee dick and I needed more things to fucking make me better, more interesting. That's how.
Speaker 1I woke up one day where I called no matter the mole. I was a fucking polar geist, but burback's better Sean burback.
Speaker 2I know burback. In know we're back in nature, we're girls straight in no butter, right, that was it.
Speaker 1That was me fucking, that was me see the fucking price of butter.
Speaker 2I know the whole lot. You'd be better off buying a fucking cow, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1milk a fuck. You get that. You do. You'll be building a tank, fucks you, there'll be no milk left fucks you pulled off it. Oh fuck me. I know here it's fucking everything's getting so expensive now, but we're like it's bought up here, like I think it was like for a block of cheese. I bought a block of cheese the other day and it was. It was only like. I don't even know what it says. It was about that size or the Marks and Spencers was fucking near four quid for a bit of cheese.
Speaker 1And then we see in Dublin it's fucking double that. I'm in Dublin all the time and I'm like, like.
Speaker 2I can't process it. No, and you go to mainland Spain and everything is so cheap, I know so cheap, I just can't process it.
Speaker 1It's fucking mad.
Speaker 2No, I can't afford to live in the United Kingdom and Ireland. Anymore need to get yourself a wee house over in a wee villa well, I'm going to go back to Spain whenever I'm ready but my sister's getting married this year and my best friend's getting married, so I can't just move this year, but in the next couple of years I'm definitely going to be moving. What part of Spain I'm going?
Speaker 1to leave Valencia. I love Valencia. Valencia my in-laws were. It has a good energy. It has a really good energy. I loved it.
Speaker 2It has a really different energy and you think Spain, spain has a certain energy. It really has an energy of its own. To be honest, what like like real city vibes, real like, yeah, but a wee bit some days. You would have looked at the buildings and you would think you were in Cuba because it feels more local.
Speaker 1Aye, it's more like and it wasn't like.
Speaker 2I didn't see a swimming pool once. I didn't see any tourists. You know what I mean. Yeah, people didn't look at me as if I was a tourist.
Speaker 1She was like then laws were saying like we went to the wee markets and all it was just so local and so like eating local food and it was more, like it was more cultural.
Speaker 2It is, and it's cheap too. Everything was really cheap.
Speaker 1Get you a vulva full of shindig full of acid, get all the local, spanish ones. Of all acid, they'll end up, you'll end up speaking.
Speaker 2Spanish. I didn't touch drugs once when I was over there. See, not once. I didn't even. I stopped smoking grass and everything. I really just and I'm raging because go away and get off again soon, why, why are you not smoking for because it makes me lazy, sean.
Speaker 2It makes me go in myself and overthink not overthink, but it makes me have no motivation and it's it is. It's where I am, where I live and like it's just being in Belfast. It just is. It's just my habit and I knew. When it once went away I decided I didn't want it, but I knew if I come back here I'm going to fall into it.
Speaker 1And I went to smoking again and it happened, see that's what happens you know what I mean but if you're telling yourself it's going to happen, you knew it was going to happen at the minute you come back.
Speaker 2I know, but I didn't think about it out there at all.
Speaker 1Have you not got a partner now? No, no, fuck. Well, no, no, no, no, no, no, fuck. Someone's glasses gone, fuck, I'm hoping to have no, no maybe get someone in Spain.
Speaker 2Well, I did meet somebody when I was in Spain, like, and if I had a stay there probably would be with him. But I think that's another reason why I came home too, because I knew like. I think that's another reason why I came home too, because I knew like I did meet somebody and things were like going alright, and that's probably another reason. But I'm still friends with him. I'm going to go out and see him later this year, like, but see what happens.
Speaker 1Well, he's got like a. Did you get any? You must have obviously got great energy off him like you saw him.
Speaker 2Great energy off him. But, different to everything, doesn't take drugs, he's a doctor, he's fucking. You know what I mean? Very had me going to the beach and all every day teaching me Spanish like that and going perfect you know what I mean.
Speaker 1So, and then obviously he came home, was he medicating so well?
Speaker 2he was going to Belgium too for Christmas, and that so I'd say you're the one, like I'd say you're.
Speaker 1you put the foot down Like you're not going there. You're not going there. Nope, you're not going there.
Speaker 2Well, no, yes, with the bastard who knows being bad. Yeah, but no. No, like no, I couldn't really care what someone else is doing. I want somebody I can trust, like but they're not telling me lies. But at the same time, no, I couldn't really care.
Speaker 1I feel like probably different, different culture and all. Obviously, if you met a Spanish fella, they're probably different from people here. Yep, they're probably different.
Speaker 2Well, nobody knows nobody really knows me in Spain, yeah, and I just feel like I've a better opportunity fresh start.
Speaker 1Aye, yeah, it's like fresh start. We speak in Spanish now wee bit like aye is that done.
Speaker 2I was down that beach every day, like I was swimming in the water every day, till a jellyfish broke and made my balls itchy, and then I didn't really want to go in the water again after that. Did it bite you? It didn't bite me, but a jellyfish broke away and it made my balls itchy and I had Jesus Christ.
Speaker 1That's mad, isn't it? Fuck me, are you going to learn something every day? Fuck me, stay away from jellyfish and it was a nudist beach too.
Speaker 2I'd be working down there every day, and he's doing fucking yoga naked on the beach.
Speaker 1Fuck me you'd be on the bed hard as a road Fucks sake, land, land down my dick in the sand.
Speaker 2You know what I mean Down my aunt's head. Just go into the water and cool myself down, but I wouldn't take my clothes off. I was like, why'd you not? Well, I've shorts on, but I wasn't naked in a way was everyone else naked. The beach wasn't really all that bummed, but yeah, everybody was naked why would you not get naked?
Speaker 1just no, I'm not. Why would you?
Speaker 2because we're all riding each other in the bushes and all lick, maybe in the summertime, when I felt that maybe, yeah, we drunk. Now, who knows, but no not a man.
Speaker 1That's the whole point of them down in the loose beach, the experience I was going down for the water and some be having that sex, but there's other beaches and fur nosy too, like Juan did, show me all the places you were in the beaches as well. I did, I was in fuck me see, did they not have cleaned up because?
Speaker 2our council was coming to me and I was like, fuck me, I would have seen somebody nice in my bed, who knows. But a lot of them. I don't like people looking at me. Really I'd say I wouldn't take my clothes off because I didn't want anybody to look stern at me, were you staring at anybody?
Speaker 1just wee glimpse here and there probably know what I mean, but that's all it is. I know know what I mean. If it's a need, a speech maybe next time that's what it's for. It's just having a conference to stroll in and just be like I don't know. I could get it done. Tell me you'd be on the big fucking leg, tarzan over.
Speaker 2I.
Speaker 1Definitely not Seeing you. Get the boxing classes in with me. You'll be up fucking.
Speaker 2Well, that's it like because I was going to the gym a wee bit and I felt like my hormones were increasing a wee bit. Oh, that definitely helps, I have no fucking I have no hormones.
Speaker 1Get on the fucking juice, get on the steroids. No, your fucking testosterone levels will stay around.
Speaker 2I took tests before and I fucking said You'll be fucking hard as a road.
Speaker 1Fuck it. There is obviously a it sort of fed me.
Speaker 2All my weak old friends did it. Yeah, fell out with them and all one job test and I was going mental but there's like, there's cream you can get.
Speaker 1You know what like cream there's a fella I know he got hit here with like a stick years ago and he's like it stopped his hormones like developing or his testosterone developing. So he takes this cream and his testosterone's through the roof now Fuck, fuck me. So, but he's he was horned out 24 7, so See, it's not a good thing, but I know, fuck's sake you be on the fuck and wee one when we done it. See the amount of time you waste.
Speaker 2It's like know what I mean. I was glad to be over in Spain to have it switched off, to be like right, I can pick and choose, like I really wasn't. I wasn't, obviously, I'd already had sex. I'd already had sex. I'd already had sex, but why, so? Why, would I go down to the beach and have sex again? Do you get what I mean?
Speaker 1I was quite fulfilled. You get what you want. You were fulfilled, yeah, fulfilled, yeah, as long as you're fulfilled.
Speaker 2And that was the last time I actually had sex.
Speaker 1Was it Nearly six months?
Speaker 2ago. Yeah, you have to go to Spain for it.
Speaker 1There you go. None of mine, no one here's not all of locals aren't cutting it?
Speaker 2no, what was that?
Speaker 1it's not that I don't want like sewer rats no, because everyone would know each other around here you should know everyone.
Speaker 2And then it's like everybody knows, everybody goes to everybody. It's the arcing town.
Speaker 1Belfast. They reckon the gay community's not to be trusted here.
Speaker 2It's not to be trusted. It is what it is. It's very small. We have a very small culture. Just, it's very small. You know what I mean? It's very, very small, like everybody's clones of each other. Yeah, tell me something original, right? Tell me something. You come into your brain. That's something you've seen or heard.
Speaker 1Yeah, it's impossible. My uncle's gay. He's four kids or something, or three or four kids, but he's got a partner like, and for me, like obviously I don't know what works if he's always gay or he turned gay or what, because I don't really care, like if he's always gay or not. He turned gay and saying turned gay, but he was probably always gay he came out then, but him and his partner, see me, see me, he's come out gay, best life ever he's the best life ever.
Speaker 1He's fucking never home, he's just travelling the world. Has a gargle. When he wants, goes anywhere he wants. Was in Vegas, was in New York, done three weeks over. He's in Costa Rica every fucking or puerto rico, sorry, puerto rico, every or every or week he's 50 years. I settled. He just travels, he just goes swallows, drinks parties, back, just repeat on repeat. Yeah, and I ain't going, fuck me. He's living.
Speaker 2He's living a good life now see, come out of that cupboard charm. You can be living a dream, son, living a fucking dream come in one day.
Speaker 1Terrible. I look, listen, to take that ring off and that and that the man I thought it was. No, fuck sake, I'll be over where you want, I'll be they all love it. I'll be in the open and love it.
Speaker 2Oh fuck, it's the girls. Like girls too. You know what I do?
Speaker 1I think like girls are more intimate with each other than men are with each other, definitely. They're more intimate with each other as well as like. I don't know what way it works, but it's just free like Aye there's a lot of emotion, don't you know?
Speaker 2Yeah? And then I think men are like. It's not always so easy. We like nah, do you feel? Like, aye, I am deep, but not always, not always. Sometimes I'm not at all and everyone around me is trying to be deep and I'm like I'm still male, I'm still in my male body, like I don't have to actually fucking think, I don't have no periods, I know. Fuck's sake, stop treating me like an oyster. You know what I mean. Pearl of wisdom. You can't squeeze it out in the days, you can't.
Speaker 2You know what I mean some days I just not even pay attention, to tell you you can't squeeze the fucking blood out.
Speaker 1Why do you feel the wall of the air? For do you?
Speaker 2because somebody always wants something. Do you know, it's like you have to be prophetic every day. No, I don't. Actually, I don't always have something to say either. Some days I just don't even have nothing to say to anybody people always want their reaction do you get it from like?
Speaker 2social media like tiktok and all people not so much tiktok, but in real life, real life people and they're like, and you see the ad and I'm like right, and then all of a sudden they tell you and I'm like I won't about people being dead, and I'm thinking about your emotions and I feel sorry for you.
Speaker 1Aww, fucks sake, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2And then I go home, and then I go. I'm gonna help you. You know what I mean. You can't help, but think about them.
Speaker 2No can't help but go on. Oh my god, glen, you're blessed Because you do. You feel all people's pain and that there's annoying too. There is annoying. I wish I could actually shut that off, but I can't off, and when it comes to like how somebody feels, like I'm always in tune with that. I don't know why it's weird like yeah, I can cut somebody the bone too, like in a way, because I know I can, because I I've got the same triggers, the same. It's exactly the same thing.
Speaker 1See, if someone was like they'll see, like people who have that mentality where they're always like feeling sorry for themselves, yeah, would you be able to just cut the energy like you're, like you're full of no, I would go there with him and I would go.
Speaker 2It is and you are, and that soon changes the chain. Would you pull? It out somebody calls me oh, I'm dying, I go die. Do it. Then the furlough perk up, tough love. He can't feed delusions and I don't get me wrong, my granny can be sometimes very negative. I try not to feed it and she knows I listen, but I try not to feed it. So I always try not to feed what is causing?
Speaker 1somebody pain, there you go Because you want I don't know what. If I don't like somebody, I'll be like, I'll let them just you know what I mean.
Speaker 2Ah, keep arguing with yourself there, I know.
Speaker 1Keep fighting against it. That's what it is. You have to be accepting, you have to be. That's why I feel like I, I feel like the way I do loops and I just feel like I don't think it would change anything or nothing would change. I just feel because I just I don't care about anything else.
Speaker 2I know you're happy in yourself.
Speaker 1I'm just like that is what it is you know what I mean it's fucking. I've got what I wanted a life. I feel like I have it now yeah and I'm like I've got a chair, I'm alright, I've got a house, I'm still training. I've got a gym and I've got this going on.
Speaker 2Aye, you're happy where you are.
Speaker 1I love the gargle yep, I don't beat myself up and I'm fucking going the route. I'm going the banner for you guys. Aye, I just go and go fuck it and just like so fuck. Like it doesn't even my brother or no phone. He was like why can you not? I was like I don't care.
Speaker 2I don't want you to react.
Speaker 1I'm like, he's like I don't know about that. See, if that was me, it's not you, it's me and I don't care exactly.
Speaker 2There's not a single thing in this world that's going to annoy me.
Speaker 1There's a lot give a fuck about anything, nothing, and that I'm mostly attached to anything apart from, like, my family. You know what I mean and that's it, and then everything else is just like whatever you have to let it go for your head like you can't carve out what people think I know, but like, obviously, like moods. Moods trigger certain things, you know what I mean, like anger and all. I get angry at certain things and all but like road rage.
Speaker 2Aye other drivers.
Speaker 1People would fucking say I would never get annoyed at someone.
Speaker 2I can flip when I'm tired, like I can flip when I'm tired, like if I'm really really exhausted and I have no patience and I have to stand and wait and all I can be like rah. But it's just an expression I know, you know what I mean 100%. It doesn't necessarily mean I'm in a bad mood.
Speaker 1What will he get up to Dave?
Speaker 2Now it's Saturday, weather's good outside, I'll go and see my ma and then I'll um, I'll go home and get the rest of my work done and then, I don't know, maybe go downstairs. My friends are drinking still. They've been on from last night, my neighbours I had the wee dog for a while. So I don't know, I know, I know it's fucking.
Speaker 1I love now gargling, I love a drink too, but I can't.
Speaker 2I die for days.
Speaker 1I die for and I get really cheeky too.
Speaker 2I can get really cheeky. I just go back on the drink. There's a couple of times where I've been really cheeky and I've been like mortified the next day by myself do you? Apologise. Aye, if I'm in the wrong, I do apologise. There's times I just and it's not really going to do with anybody else, it's just the way I'm feeling it's not really going to do with anybody else no, no, that's just it.
Speaker 1That's the way you hit the hunt see if I'm wrong, certain things I'll own.
Speaker 2I don't have enemy. I don't sit and hate people I don't like. If you don't like me, I don't like, and it's it. Yeah, it's almost. I don't try and change it anymore, just let it be you can't change it.
The Connection Between Grief and Spirituality
Speaker 1I know someone as we're saying. I seen yesterday if someone doesn't like you, they're never gonna like you. They're gonna find you funny. They're never like you be the funnest man in the world. If they don't like you, they're never gonna find you exactly, and some people be the strongest man in the world. As a fact, you're not meant for everybody, and if they don't see you as the strongest man in the world, if someone doesn't like you, they don't like you.
Speaker 2If somebody doesn't like you, they don't fucking like you, but it's not your job to change it. It's not my job to change it, not here to be liked not here to be loved.
Speaker 1Live it up, glenn, we're. I'm going to give you a big thank you for coming in.
Speaker 2I appreciate it yes, any time I appreciate your time. Yes.
Speaker 1I know it's a good Saturday afternoon. Yeah, listen, it's been a pleasure having you on, thank you for having me on. Thank you, mate. Yes, happy days.