52. Wit and Wisdom with Shamanka Sister Marie Coveley

Marie Coveley is a spiritual teacher, an activator of frequencies, an alchemical decoder, and a recruitment officer for the New Earth way-showers! Her work comes in many forms: online power sessions, power vlogs, meditations/activations, and international retreat space-holding in Egypt and Cape Town, South Africa. Her mission is to activate as many Light Beings as possible to their TRUTH! She focuses and channels all that she does back to the heart, back home! Marie helps you live your TRUTH and BE who you are meant to BE! (She sure has helped me!)

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We explore...

• Sexual energy, personal growth, voicing needs in relationships, and connection
• Authentic and vulnerable teaching and sharing 
• Twin flame relationships and partnerships that support aspirations 
• Egyptian neteru
• Finding the right therapist for effective healing and growth to heal deep traumas
• Playfulness as an essential aspect of the personal development journey
• How connecting with our ancestors can bring magic and mastery into our lives
• The presence of loved ones who have passed away and how the relationship can evolve in beautiful ways beyond death
• Grief for clearing karma and releasing low vibrational energies
• Writing as a cathartic way to express ourselves and leave a legacy
• Charting our own course while embracing both the spiritual and human aspects of life

00:00, Introduction and Setting the Scene

08:45, The Power of Authenticity and Vulnerability in Relationships

13:01, Exploring the Connection Between Sexual Energy and Spirituality

17:58, Nurturing Relationships and Prioritizing Family

23:24, Self-Discovery and Personal Growth

32:03, The Three Cauldrons: Stages of Transformation

46:02, Balancing Masculine and Feminine Energies in Relationships

49:16, Seeking Support and Healing

56:32, Embracing the Cycles of Life and Death

01:09:20, The Shift in the Divine Masculine Energy

01:11:20, The Role of Fathers in Our Healing Journeys

01:13:15, The Power of Signs and Connecting with Loved Ones

01:15:24, Grief as a Path to Clearing Karma

01:19:10, Upcoming Events and Collaborations

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Transcript

Kristin 0:00

I'm Kristen Birdwell and this is Sex, Drugs, and Soul.

SPEAKER_00 0:07

I was just like madly moving studios as it were. Do I film upstairs? And then Ava's like, I'm going, my friend's going in a minute. I'm like, ah, fuck. So I'm like load my whole iMac because that that room upstairs is an elevated like disc, if you know what I mean. There's no, it's not a closed-off room. So where my feet dangle, you can actually see into the room, if you know what I mean, from downstairs to wind design. So it's neat. It's it is neat, but it's open plan. And it's like, I was just recording today, and I've got the fucking cleaner making a cup of tea in the background. And I'm just like, I'm sat there and I'm like, so Mary Magdalene, da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da. And I said, So that's the story of Mary Magdalene. Pause. Can you shut the fuck up? So if you can have a take on what goes on behind the scenes, I'm more like spiritual and holy than now. And then I'm marking at everybody, going, put the kettle off.

Kristin 1:04

Yeah, same. And I just almost shit my pants. So I was like, I need a few more minutes. I don't know. You know, I was listening to something the other day, last night, maybe, and um, it said something that a lot of fear can be stored in the gut or stomach, and that I'd done that ketamine journey again yesterday was my second one. It was incredible. And like floodgates were released a little bit, I think. Again, it kind of reminded me of post-Egypt. And I and then it's either that or like this sushi bite that I had on Monday that was like no, I don't know how fresh that was.

SPEAKER_00 1:40

But I reckon I think you're absolutely right. Right. I think I think I'm gonna go with point A, I reckon. Do you know what I mean? That you're having like a ketamine clear out. Do you know what I mean?

Kristin 1:48

Yeah, and talk about and it's like a ketamine oracle meditation journey too. Like, wow. But it's like how so how was it? How was it? How like deeper did this time? Um, yes, and they build on one another. So interestingly enough, the first session, like I I think I I don't know if I told you, I I know I told someone that I was in a cornfield. I'm like, why am I in this cornfield? And then this next time, um, there was a message or insight that arose about stay for the joy, stay for the harvest. And I was like, oh, interesting. It gives me a chill on my like or truth bumps on my like legs. And then last night I have, you know, I slept for like three or four hours afterwards, and then I woke up and was like up till like 3 a.m. or something. And so I read a little bit about Isis and Osiris and Horace, and apparently one of the things she used to do was teach women how to like something about corn. I was like, cool.

SPEAKER_00 2:42

Yeah, no, she was she was um she was just as much agriculture as her husband, you know what I mean? She's all about fertility because so was I mean, I think that like Hathor and Isis kind of like cross-pollinate, excuse the palm, but I think they do because they're both they're both kind of like fertility, they were midwives, and I think that's why they're so so close to each other, midwives, and it was all about agriculture. So like Isis was always in the fields helping the women like plant and harvest, but she never used to like being in the temple. So she was a real, she's a real like hands-on, do you know what I mean? Like, you know, get your hands dirty kind of chick, you know.

Kristin 3:19

Yeah, so yeah, oh well, cool. And there's also a note about it was like, and she was teaching women how to tame the men.

SPEAKER_00 3:28

Oh do you know? You've just reminded me. Okay, so you know the lady that got does your mushrooms when we're in Egypt, right? Yeah, she's so funny. She was like, because she's very she talks, she talks more than I do, it's a lot, right? And she's like, Marie, I I did a a fucking 20 million gram journey, and I was shown that I was I was indeed Hathor, and I used to, you know, I used to pleasure all the men, you know what I mean? She says, I used to do massage, and she was like, Oh, it sounds so naughty, doesn't it, Marie? She says, but that's what I did. And she said, you know, and she's she's this really powerful kundalini mass masseuse in this life. And she's just like, but she said that she just got this big flashback of like how, you know, how she kind of brought the guys on side. It could be and like now you think, you know, the mouth most activating, um activating experience ever. Do you know what I mean? Like, like, because that's that's what they used to do in the Hathel temple. They used to like, you know, drink their blue lotus, and do you know what I mean? Like, you know, have festivals and enjoy, and you know, and I think that the world's made made it a dirty word, hasn't it? Do you know what I mean?

Kristin 4:32

Yeah, you mean the thing that we're all born out of creation. I think in some ways it's a way to keep us from some of our innate power and like and the manifestation and magic that there's like you know, powerful sex magic rituals, and like we're really in tune with our bodies and the power that we can, you know, generate from that portal um in our bodies, like the even the pleasure-induced altered states of consciousness. Because I'll tell you, I've had some experiences and journeys that have felt very much like mushroom journeys, but were just through sensual touch. And so, I mean, like, yeah, that's yeah, I think it's pretty. I mean, there's maybe a reason why that is it was formulated to make it yeah, you know, taboo.

SPEAKER_00 5:13

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, absolutely. Because that's that's like even in the Magdalene mystery school, they used to pleasure pleasure each other. The other women used to pleasure the other women. And it wasn't to basically let's get our rocks off, it was actually to bring around that sexual energy, like you say, to actually learn how to how to you know harness it. So, of course, when you look at it like that, that is the magic and the power. And then when you talk about it like this, there's nothing CD about it. It it's like you press that button and you're gonna get a cappuccino. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah. I mean, if you press that button, you're gonna have an Americano. So like press that button, oh hey, you got latte.

Kristin 5:56

I like my caffeinated speaking up.

unknown 5:59

Yes.

Kristin 6:00

No, I actually had an insight, you know, that um in the self-pleasuring on, I don't know, maybe Monday or something, but it was very much so that and it was like a different, like sometimes I feel like I get messages and it's like this. It is very, it's an honor to share like the my body with someone. It's an honor to like for it's an honor and a privilege for someone to be able to be intimate with me. So like held it and like and my body and my vessel is divine and sacred, and like really believing that. And then also the person that is that I'm sharing something with is treating them with that same like reverence and respect.

SPEAKER_00 6:36

Yeah. And and even me and Brendan have spoken about it, and we just said, you know, like the the most powerful time of that lying with your sacred partner, whoever you've chosen, you know, like like the the you know, everybody kind of goes, well, that's done, that's done, and they go and jump in the shower, whatever. It's it's the lying together, like you know, that part where you savor it, that's actually like you know, that's where the magic actually is and where the true activation actually is. And I think, you know, even if somebody has like a real powerful sexual connection with their partner or whatever, how many times you just go, okay, well, that's that then. Do you know what I mean? And it's just like there's no time to savor it at the end, you know? Yeah, and I think, and I think I think it's got lost, especially with uh married couples, because I speak like that, nothing, you know, the privacy, the sacredness, and I think over generations, not not this lifetime, generations, you know, it's been look after the kids, get dinner on the table, do you know what I mean? Priority not prioritized, right? Yeah, and and bit by bit, and then it's like right, if there's some time left over, we'll just have a quickie. Do you know what I mean? And it's like and and that's that's where, like you say, it's got lost in translation. And you know, you've got to kind of bring sexy back, basically. Yeah, do you know what I mean?

Kristin 7:50

Like it's kind of like satisfying that basic need, but like there's also like the as you grow up go up, I think that that you can explore that sexual connection with someone um for you know enlightenment or you know, for um altered states of consciousness or meaning and purpose, or like you I feel like there's like other, you know, there's different like layers or depth levels of depth that you can go to with it.

SPEAKER_00 8:11

Yeah, no, absolutely. And I think that like there's something going on here where we actually start. I've actually did a video today on the crowning of Mary Magdalene, and I actually shared a picture of it, which was actually sent to me by my friend Esther from it was from Portugal. Um, I can't remember the place now, but it's in Portugal, and it's literally Yeshua is handing the crown, he's putting it on Mary's head. Actually, gets me quite emotional because it's just so it's just so honouring and just so like wow, it wasn't like oh I'm Yeshua, I'm placing on a head. It was like the image is just so balanced. And even though she's below him, he's placing on a head because she's down there. It wasn't like a hierarchy thing at all. And it was like talking about like this balance that's coming in now, like like now that your own inner Yeshua and Mary are coming into balance. We're allowing that. There's all this space that's starting to happen inside. Yeah, you've it's almost like you've got room to breathe inside, and I feel like my fear is dissipating at a rate of knots, and I'm now able to feel it slow down exponentially to be able to talk about things like this, to be able to process about what's important, and you know, do I lack that touch? And that was part of what I spoke to Brennan about the other day. I was like, listen, he was projecting on me big time because he he was giving me a huge message because he was just he was just like a Debbie Downer. It's like Brennan's very practical, he's a Virgo, you know what I mean? And and I was just like, let's do this and let's do that. And he just barked at me and he was grumpy that day. And I was just like, such a buzzkill. And I got so angry and it triggered me so much. And then I was like, well, hang on a minute. That's like what's going on in here. And my divine masculine is a buzzkill with my divine feminine. I get rockets of desire all the time, and then I think the joy out of it, you know, you can't do that because then you've got to do that, and then maybe just forget about it, shelve it, we'll do it next month, or not at all. So I was like, Thank you for the message. But then there was also a uh a calling, which was really important, for me to say to him, Listen, I need you to treat me like your woman, and um, you know, and and someone who is your sacred beloved rather than your bro and a smack on the arse and a chest bump. Do you know what I mean? You know, it's like that's about as romantic as Brendan gets. And I and I'm always like it's it's quite endearing because I I'm not, I know what he's about and I know he loves me, but for me to actually say, I need something different to what I've asked for in 24 years, so it's not that I just got used to living with it, and I thought this is profound because I'm actually being asked to be like treated like a lady. Do you know what I mean?

Kristin 10:47

Yeah, well, and it sounds like you're being like gentle, more gentle with yourself too, and so and allowing yourself to receive, and so it's kind of like that, and also like uh being able to voice and express that desire.

SPEAKER_00 10:58

Yeah, and he and and he said, uh bless him, he said, Thank you so much for telling me, babe, I'm gonna put it on my list with everything. But better be at the top of that list. You go to inflate your lungs to say, no, I'm not okay, fine. Yeah, that's that's okay. All right, I'll take that.

Kristin 11:18

That's a Virgo. Virgos have lists, like some of my friends. I love them to death. Like the most Virgo calendar, and I have a calendar and stuff, but I'm like, it's to like the degree. I'm like I was like, okay, we are organuts.

SPEAKER_00 11:35

He's got he's got like right, okay, make sure that he does his filing, his paperwork, you know what I mean? Treat Marie like a lady. Do you know what I mean? I'm in there somewhere with that. So I have to just take what I'm given because sometimes things just are just as good as they are. I mean, that's it, do you know what I mean? You know, but no, it was quite quite quite something actually saying that, you know. So I think there's a lot of like sexual energy around at the moment in a good way. Oh, sure, hell, you know?

Kristin 11:58

So yeah, yeah. I'm loving it. I'm loving it.

SPEAKER_00 12:04

Now we're talking about sexual energy. I'm getting hot. She's hot and bothered. It's snowing here. I'm gonna send you a picture. It's like seen out of Game of Thrones on top of Table Mountain. I mean, I've got a good idea. Oh man, you would love it here. It's very bougie. I love it. Um, it is. No, I don't mean it like that.

unknown 12:27

I don't mean it like that.

Kristin 12:28

It's okay. I'm indoors. I and I do love the bougie bougie. I really do. And I and it's a pizza me I've come to learn about myself to love.

SPEAKER_00 12:37

I do as well, because that came out completely wrong. I've got I have big glass wine glasses, places where they do fish bowls for gin, you know what I mean? That's how I that's that's how I roll. But no, it is like bougie as in like, you know, got some beautiful wine bars, uh wine farms and everything like that, but it's also very African-y as well. And there's so much to do, and the landscape here is like incredible, absolutely incredible. We have a resident baboon that strolls around the streets at the moment. It's actually quite funny. He's just I want to keep him. I'm the only person in the neighborhood. I'm like, can we keep him?

Kristin 13:12

Just leave some bananas on your doorstep. You replace that cat with a I know exactly.

SPEAKER_00 13:21

Fuck you, Odin. I've got a baboon now. You lost your spot, bro.

Kristin 13:27

Oh, I love it. Yeah, I would love to come in. Oh, I also was gonna tell you, I was like, I just kind of feel like something that's been like um an idea. I know whenever you mentioned that you're coming over for the Conscious Life Expo in LA and uh next February, that maybe we could do some workshops or something together, do some collaboration. And I was like, maybe in Sedona or maybe in Sedona, maybe you're in Austin, I don't know.

SPEAKER_00 13:50

Yeah, wherever you want me to wherever you want me, because I was just opening that portal, and I really feel I was like, yeah, I'm I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready, ready. Because like before I came over and I did a did a thing with Ma, which was nice, and we did it on the beach, but I was thinking about that, and I was thinking, you know, it's always very difficult when you're sort of like going into somebody else's environment. Do you know what I mean? And it's like, and I was like, that's cool, but my environment needs to be in a little bit of a closed space because I like to do breath work and I like to drum and I like to sing and I like to and I and I feel like so. Being outside, so I was like, yeah, I need somewhere where I can properly teach, like a proper organized uh platform. Do you know what I mean? But then flash, dot, dot, dot, we need to do that because like well, we don't need to do anything, but like I would love to do that because then would totally we can get really, really creative. Because also, as well, like funny, you said about the the and and do you know what you just give me ideas and I we just brainstorm because I've like got so much freedom like that, and Brennan's so cool, it's not like I have restrictions on family, he's really really chilled. So I have a lot of freedom to do like timelines and things like that. And um, what was I gonna say?

Kristin 14:57

And CR is in um the Phoenix area, so he's only like an hour, hour and a half away from Sedona.

SPEAKER_00 15:03

So really is that CR. Is that the guy? I would love to meet him. I would like to see him.

Kristin 15:11

Oh my god, y'all would love one another.

SPEAKER_00 15:13

Yeah, no, I have a feeling. I have a feeling. Yeah. I would love to meet him, you know what I mean? And like if he wants to hold space, I don't know what the vibe is, but you know me, I'm just in there.

Kristin 15:23

Oh, he's totally ready by that point. He because he's in also in um school right now to get his licensure to become a counselor, and so he's all about service and giving and holding space, and so that would be cool to do a co-creative thing. And you know, and actually one one uh um yesterday, my good friend and like medicine sitter for my academy journey. Yesterday, she's like, Oh, maybe some one day y'all could do like couples something or you know, that too. I was like, Do you know Kristen?

SPEAKER_00 15:53

It's so needed. You know what? I overlook, I overlook two things in my life, which is probably boosting more than my connections to Egypt and Avalon and what I actively teach. That is to be a wife, a star, a twin flame wife, as it were, and a starseed mom. And I and I overlook these things because it's quite funny, the things that I have made the most successful in my life, I don't give it any attention or time. And the stuff that I feel, um, do you know what I mean? It's like, you know, I'm like too busy, and I've always overlooked my parenting, and so many mothers come to me and or or or or relationships. Like they're like, how do you do it? And I'm like, well, this is what we've been through, and people are just like, wow, that is so helpful. And I'm like, really? And and then I hear about other people's relationships on the other side of looking in, you look at their marriages and you think everything's fine, like Ava's friends, mom and dad, and that. And then as soon as they get me on a quiet minute, they're like, Oh no, this is like what's going on. Oh I'm like, shit, is anybody happy?

Kristin 16:50

And there's very people probably contrary to what sometimes is also presented online. Yeah, yes, you know, you know, yes. Um, and so it's like I feel like sometimes it's you'll it can it can be highlight real, it can be all good. Um, I know you and I like I feel like we both try to be more intentional with authenticity and vulnerability and show like the contrast as well or glimpses of it. Like if we're going through the shit, we talk about going through the shit. Yeah, do a video when you're going through the shit. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah, yeah. And like I've been going through the shit. So like um, and like you know, it's just like it was like buckle up, buttercup. Yes, no, absolutely.

SPEAKER_00 17:29

And I and I think that's I totally agree with you. I think that's the difference with us, and I think that that's the new wave of teacher. Um, there's this chick that I met called Michelle. Um, I don't even know. I met her, she's just come into my life through Instagram, and she's in New York, and she is an absolute wild child, like just getting divorced, got kids, and that. And she said something today. She said, you know what really attracts me to you and your videos is she says you're talking about everyday stuff, but you weave it in the up and down, up and down. And I know you do the do the same as well. And and like a bridge. There's no there's no help in sitting there and having everything so plastically perfect. Do you know what I mean? Because it's not like that. And I think that, like, you know, you guys, you and your partner have got a beautiful story to share, even if it, even if it didn't go any further, like now, which I know it is going to, but even if it didn't, you've got like like relationships, just relationships, dot, dot, dot, dot. And I think that people people have just got this um wrong perception of it that like, you know, I'm I people are still looking for their other half, their twin flame. And I'm like, the fuck is that? Yeah. Do you know what I mean?

Kristin 18:39

It's the romanticized, I think, too. I feel like there's a lot of conditioning with you know, Disney and rescuing, and at least for like, you know, girls and growing up. I know that was one for me, like someone's gonna come in and save me and rescue me, and da-da-da-da. And um, and then so it was like it's very much where that coming to that sense of wholeness so that two whole people can join together and like very much still did feel like a soul activation whenever I met CR. And um and I saw I recognized that it I it was a gift, and how am I gonna choose to handle this gift? I felt like I had fumbled that gift, but now we're working on repairing the things that we didn't know that we needed to heal. You only you know, uh, until you're in that mirror sometimes in that relationship. It's like I felt like I I did a lot of healing work and journey, and I did, but I can only do so much solo. And so having that, it's like, oh snap. Yeah, and like thanks to you for giving me my one of my favorite phrases, you little cosmic comic, about turning my sneakers into slippers. Because I was listening to that um book on attachment theories and styles, like as I'm driving away from his house, I'm like, oh snap, is this what I'm doing?

SPEAKER_00 19:54

And just yeah, and you can feel that roller coaster like, oh, here we go, here we go. And I think I think my best thing with the twin flame journey, I mean, being married at 20 for 20, nearly 24 years, constantly in my mind, I'm constantly in the divorce courts. And that's the thing. Do you know what I mean? In my reality, I'm like, okay, well, this is bust. And like I've got my Nikes on all the time because I'm a sprinter. I'm like the one who just goes, and Brendan will watch me and I'll run away all the time. And he'll just go, She'll get tired in a minute, or she'll get lost. And she'll come back to the beacon of light, which is my husband. And he's a stoic. He's just this big old rock, big old light box. Yeah. And like I'll sit there and I'll have snot running down my lip and I'll be crying. And I'll be like, and he and he just looks at me and he says, You all right? And I put my head on his big old chest, and then he's like, John, cup of tea. And I'm like, Yeah.

Kristin 20:51

I asked um CR the other day. I was like, is this what happens when an emotional mystic gets together with a stoic? Rock the boat, baby.

SPEAKER_00 21:04

Exactly. Exactly. I mean, like, it's this is crazy. When they said opposites attract, I mean, I think we just kind of like skimmed over that. Do you know what I mean? And we were just like, yeah, okay, cool. On to the next. But then when you're living it, you're like, it's wild. Because I think if I married somebody like me, I would just kill myself within five minutes.

Kristin 21:22

You know, that's what he says too. He's like, I want also to opportunity to expand. He's like, I don't, I he's like, I got enough of me. I am with somebody that's completely different and that can open up new, a new world for me and new experiences and perspectives.

SPEAKER_00 21:34

I've always said, I've always said, and and this is just my wisdom thus far, okay? I've always said that that person you're with should make you just want to be better. Do you know what I mean? Aspire to be something else more than that moment. Not in a way like you're not good enough, just like, yeah, good job. Like, you know what I mean? Well, I believe in you, do you know what I mean? And just talking to them, there's always a light on. Do you know what I mean? And like that, that's something with me and Brennan after 24 years. Like, he is my best friend, and we can rap for ages. We don't get bored of talking to each other. He's the quietest man, but when we're together, we don't stop talking. And it's like it, I always feel like I'm at the beginning of my relationship with him, which tells me there's so much more I haven't unlocked yet. Do you know what I mean? And that's exciting because so many relationships, you they look around and like, you know, my kids are finishing school. And I'm kind of like going, Well, a lot of mothers and fathers are looking at each other, going, Oh my god, through fear. Oh, little Johnny's leaving now, last one to go. And now you sat on the table, kids have gone, looking at each other, going, What's this all about? Because the distraction has been the kids.

SPEAKER_03 22:44

Yeah.

Kristin 22:44

And then they're like, Oh, you know, you know, yeah, and I you know, I actually was chatting with a friend that I hadn't seen in like a decade now, and um, he was confiding in me that uh they he was staying pretty much for the kids. And I was like, Oh, I was like, I was like, I want to offer an alternative perspective here that if there isn't, if y'all can't reach a repair or agreement, like I I understand and I don't understand. I don't understand because I don't have children myself, but from what I gather and what I've experienced, and like just like from the outside looking in, are you offering a healthy relationship dynamic dynamic or model for your children by staying in something that is no longer serving you or like you know, it or waiting till the kids leave to separate. I mean, I don't know, you know, because I don't know. That's just like a little insight that I offer, yeah. That's definitely something to ponder.

SPEAKER_00 23:39

Yeah, yeah, it's it's complicated, it gets really complicated. And I'll quote Esther Hicks here, which I was already doing, but she kind of confirmed it for me when she said, you know, when you say till death do us part, you know, to love, honor, and obey. I love, honor, obey me. I love honor and obey me, and you, buddy, are gonna love, honor, and obey you. Okay. And I was like, I was Brendan's muse for so long. I was his altar, I was his like, I'm doing this for you. And and it was too convenient for him because it was just like, well, if I if I have you as my muse and I'm being the martyr in a very loving way, no, I'm here for you, babe. It doesn't matter about me, I'll be fine. No, no, no, that's a cop-out. Because you actually have to face yourself and your shadow. It's like, I am your beautiful excuse. And as soon as I stop saying to him, because he's he's his love language is giving, and he's such an amazing space holder and provider, and all of the things, and he's a big, deep, dark cave, and I know he loves deeply, but quietly, if you know what I mean, you know. So but it's yeah, it's like he's one of those, which in a way is good because like I need to find my own self-worth myself, and when you're telling me constantly, then I don't do that for myself either. So it kind of like works. And when I said to him, Well, I don't want your gifts anymore, I want your emotions. Well, that's when we our marriage took a deep dive for the worse, but for the better. Because I took off the table the very thing that he he was comfortable with doing because then I don't have to give you my emotions. And then when I said, Oh, well, I don't want that, I want you, he was like, Sorry, what? Sorry. Because he had to face himself. And all of a sudden, the Nikes were passed and he was gone. Yeah. So we're like, okay, so I do believe in this twin flame thing, it is actually a tag team thing. There are certain areas that you will run on, and there's certain areas you it's like the predator, like the hunted and the hunted. Do you know what I mean?

Kristin 25:37

The badan will be past.

SPEAKER_00 25:38

Yeah, exactly. Or hot potato. It's like it's yours. No, it's yours. I love a good blame game. It's quite exhausting, though. Yeah. Eventually you're gonna look at your shit, you know.

Kristin 25:50

Oh, yeah, for sure. And I think like the self-love element that you mentioned is so important, too, that um like the love having love for ourselves. It's like um, I remember one dude. There's a whole story behind that. That's its own episode. Yeah. Um, he was like, Oh, I've got to work on my stuff. And I was like, Well, that's true because you know, if you're not in love with yourself, then you can only love me to the degree of which you love yourself. And like, I mean, I it probably was totally cop-out and BS because I don't think he was going to do his his love self-love because of what else what else evolved and came to the surface, you know, like a knock at 2 a.m. while I'm there with his ex-girlfriend showing up or current girlfriend. Yeah. So yeah, but I do believe, like, um, I know for me, that's like and it's all an ongoing journey too. It's like I remember having this experience of like really finding grace and tenderness and love for myself for the first time, but it's not a one and done. Yeah, it's like a continual, like consciously like putting wood in the fire type of thing. Yeah, putting wood in the fire over time. Yeah, yeah. You know me, I've been I'm like, I'm I'm call trying to cultivate more of that fire energy in my life, and uh I love all the fire that's been coming up and you and Segnet and help stoke my fire.

SPEAKER_00 27:23

Yeah, and and also equally so, and I just want to bring this in because like I I'm laughing because we were like, you know, this is uh we didn't even enter into this podcast.

Kristin 27:30

We just oh no, I've been loving it because I've I'm like, I'm like, let's just have a good conversation and um again, let it flow.

SPEAKER_00 27:38

It doesn't have to be like we just we just inflated our lungs and then we just hit it, man. Do you know what I mean? So this is like this is what you can expect from us in the future, I suppose. It's like instantaneous, you know what I mean? But that's what I love about you and I and the exchange, because it's like you're so powerfully Hathor and you have like this this deep connection to the sexual energy, and it's like you you're deep, man. You like run those places, and I'm like, I'm like I'm I'm coming into that, whereas I'm like massively fire, and I've been kind of like taming my fires because if you know, a few years ago you look at me the wrong way, I'll burn your eyelashes off, no problem. Do you know what I mean? Torch the village, yeah, torch the village, and it was just like, and then I'd be like coming for round two. Do you know what I mean? It was like I could not like my rage was like intense, and that was my lesson with Sekme, obviously, to try and like you know, um, to learn actually along the way of of and I and and like sitting with you and everything like that, you because I mean Sekme is the fire, Hathor's the water, and you really do bring that in, and it's like that there's just a beautiful cohib. I mean, basically, us sat here now is the perfect example of what it looks like when you weave those elements and frequencies, you know, the heart and the fire of the womb or whatever, and essentially the heart and the fire of the womb, because we've been talking about twin flame, that is the union because the heart is the man and the womb is obviously the physical woman. Do you know what I mean? Um, but then you start weaving that together, a beautiful infinity symbol. The way I see it, where it cross-sections, you have the womb. So I suppose you could call that the sacral sac chakra if you wanted to fit the chakra, and as it crosses over, it crosses through the the solar plexus and then it comes through the heart. Oh, that's beautiful. I love that imagery. Yeah, and when I need to calm my system, it works me really well when I need to mix the two. I do that, and I'm even doing it now, and you actually feel like I was too.

Kristin 29:29

I was just like, oh, I was just like doing a little with my breath, like an example.

SPEAKER_00 29:36

Yeah, and I think like you know, this is like the the fire and the waters coming together, you know. So, but there's also a beautiful thing that I've been studying in quite big depth as well, which is basically the three cauldrons. And I think I'd mentioned this to you too. Oh, yes, please.

Kristin 29:49

Yeah, yes, let's do it.

SPEAKER_00 29:50

So the three cauldrons, I've I've it's it's very druidic and it's very keridwin. Now, Keridwin is is is basically the a Welsh goddess, and she was like demonized and made into the witch. Do you know what I mean? But she was, she was a witch, really. Do you know what I mean? Like what they used to call the cunning folk back in the day is what they called a witch. And she works with the cauldron, and you can and and it's like it's all about transformation. So the cauldron is what we create in. Now, the without getting too technical, there her symbol and the symbol of druid, one of the symbols of the druidry, which is quite quite um well known, is the symbol of Owen. It's basically three sun rays down, three, three like uh lines down and three dots above. And the circle is the cauldron. So it's like a circle, three dots, three lines down. If you just research Owen, you'll you'll see it. Okay. And that's all to do with the the, you know, it's a bit like Hecca, intention plus actions equals creation is the same thing. Do you know what I mean? It's like it's all about transformation, you know. And so now you kind of like work with the body in that way. You have three cauldrons, one's at the pelvis, one's at the heart, and one is at the third eye head. So when we are born, all our cauldrons sit upright. But of course, when we come into human life, it's you know, children, you know, child, you know, it's like we start hitting our shit straight away.

Kristin 31:12

T, little tea traumas.

SPEAKER_00 31:13

Yeah, exactly. Bad old chestnut. So, like all of a sudden we've kicked the bucket, the milk's on the floor, nobody's milking the cow anymore. It's just carnage. That's kind of like our start into life. Yay, I'm born.

SPEAKER_02 31:27

So, like that's like and you forget what you signed up for.

SPEAKER_00 31:32

Boom.

SPEAKER_02 31:33

Exactly.

SPEAKER_00 31:34

So that first cauldron will be tipped on its side. So basically, through your transformation and kind of what we're talking about here, twin flame union, understanding how to work with your energies, you start to like tip your cauldron back up. So that base, that that lower cauldron is all about um uh kind of like moving your body, breath work, physical stuff, going out in nature and everything like that. So you fill that cauldron. And then if essentially one level of work leads onto the other until all three cauldrons are like without going into it in massive detail, but it's like a really beautiful way to because I find it so overwhelming when we look at the spiritual path of just like, oh god, we've got 12 dimensions, seven chakras times, and it gets confusing, and even more like what's earth and stars, and then you get overwhelmed, and like, can we just boil it down to three cauldrons?

Kristin 32:23

Yeah, yeah, no, but I would love for you to tell what you were telling me the other day about the three cauldrons, like the three stages, or yeah, the three stages they are, um, they are, they are.

SPEAKER_00 32:35

Let me find them because I want to get it right. Because, like, you know, yeah, it's it's basically the three stages. So this is this is very, very Celtic, okay? But the beautiful thing about this is quite frankly, it cross-pollinates over to the Hector Codes. Intention plus action equals creation. It's alchemy. Owen is all about inspiration, it's alchemy. Kerradwin's um uh cauldron is full of fire and transformation. It's what we put in our cauldron. And are our fires too hot? Are we keeping an eye on our cauldron? Are we are we paying attention to it? Are we putting in the right right things? You know what I mean? And if we don't tend to our yeah, if we don't tend to our cauldrons, then basically the mix is off. And I have to just bring something really interesting in. And this is the gospel according to Marie, right? Which is I find quite fascinating. So when I journeyed with Kerradwin when I was in Avalonus with one of the priestesses there, and she should walk me into the cave, as you can imagine. You're in the deep dark wedge of the old ancient Briton, not Briton, Briton, back in the days. And you walk into this cave and you're like, it's all very mystical. And you get we're led into the cave, and there's like there's like this big bonfire in the middle of the cave, and like you see, like there's this woman with like this big shrouded hood over, and it's like a huge cauldron, and she's just sat there and you can't see her face. But when you do see her face, she flicks in between the maiden, but then she also flicks into the crone, and you see a little a little view of her hand, and it's all wrinkly, and then it's all like young, and it's just in and out. She she shapeshifts, she's a shapeshifter. Oh, I'm getting all tingly, I can feel it here. So she's like, you know, she she's like, you know, she she um kind of like stirs the way I see it, she puts her finger in there. Now your cauldron will always be in a state of chaos. That is the energy of the cauldron. So when she puts her finger in and she swirls it around, she creates a spiral from the center of the cauldron, and that spiral brings about an order to the divine chaos and brings manifestation. How nice is that! I like that. So now talking about ever, okay, yum. So it's like you can put anything in this cauldron and you can just work with it, and it's just like, what do you want? You know, so it becomes very magical and mystical, and I think it really brings out the inner child, you know what I mean, of bringing that forward. So as I was going into this journey, I was like having worked with ayahuasca for a long time, not so much lately, because that she is a being is with me all the time now. But when I went there, she said, you know, to to this, I mean, without going into detail, the story of Carridwin is that she made a potion over a year and a day to make her very ugly child beautiful. Anyway, long story short, the potion ended up dropping on the wrong child or the wrong boy, and she got very angry. And the reason that happened is because for a year and a day she had people helping her make the the cauldron mix, and she was supposed to keep an eye on it, but she went to sleep. And this happened when she fell asleep. Now, this is where ayahuasca comes in. When you make ayahuasca, you have to crush the plant and the vine. There's two different plants that come together, and to actually make it and boil it for for days, you have to keep mixing it. You have to take shifts and you sing to the potion. As soon as you stop stirring or singing to this ayahuasca mix, what happens is the mix goes off. You've got to throw it out and start all over again. And it takes weeks to make a beautiful ayahuasca potion. So I had two friends that used to actually go out and make their own medicine, and they used to do shift work four hours sleep, four hours sleep, four hours sleep, four hours sleep in the jungle. So, of course, if you missed a beat or you fell asleep at the pot, then it would just be destroyed. So they'd have to start again. So when I spoke about Kerry Dwyn, she was like, Yes, my dear, I am also ayahuasca. And I just thought, well, who would have thought? So there's there's there's there's all of these visitations because she's also to do with the plants and everything like that. So everything is everything, everything is one, and there's nothing that we don't have access to. Do you know what I mean? So the story of ayahuasca in Kerry Dwyn is a gospel of Marie. So like when we journey, so much stuff gets unlocked. So so with the with the um cauldrons, there are three different cauldrons, and the first one, which sits at the pelvis, is called the cauldron of warming and incubation. Okay. And this is all to do with your physical health, your physical movement, your life force. I mean, and we can liken it a lot to the to the root chakra. And um that, like I say, when we come into this life, it's we start with that cauldron upright, but then we we suffer childhood traumas and things like that, and then it starts to tip over. So the second cauldron, which sits in the heart, is the cauldron of vocation or motion. Okay. Now, this is about um it eventually turns upright through joy. So you basically take sorrow and you heal it through joy, basically. So that's where your mental alchemy turning low vibrations energies into highest vibration. And then the third cauldron is the cauldron of wisdom or inspiration. So that cauldron is also upside down. But if you do cauldron one and cauldron two, your cauldron three, they all like add on, you know? So the second, the third cauldron um is basically this is this is when when you get to that point, you're gonna be studying in the deep studies of esoteric wisdom, um, you know, all of all of that kind of stuff, poetry, wisdom, prophecy. You know what I mean? That's when you're really gonna be coming, yeah, you're gonna be really coming into your bard, into your, into your uh druid. So, so basically the first cauldron, warming incubation. I suppose you could call that uh uh surrender to death, being being allowed to be in the womb, allowing yourself. Second one is gonna be about transformation because now you're kind of like that sitting in the heart, yeah, rising. And then the third one is basically wisdom and inspiration. And it's just like, right, I have gonna put me in chair with the world. Yeah, exactly. How am I gonna put it out there? So it's it's just awesome and amazing and just fun as well, because it's just it makes you just feel like, well, I'm in control of everything in a very, very healthy, hail, healthy way. And then just to add to that, just to put it in the cauldron mix, the three stages of life are maiden, mother, enchantress, and crone. So the late teens to the late 20s, you'll be experimenting, finding yourself. Um, I'm obviously reading from notes here, experimenting, finding yourself self-discovery, you know, that kind of thing. So it's in it, it's it's then going to take you into mother, which is the late 20s and early 40s, nurturing relationships, creative projects, careers, family. And then the enchantress, which is the late 30s to late 50s, um, which is where we are, magic, transparently is 36 like 30, just just oozing this authenticity, because we're the truth seeker speakers, reassessment of life daily, momentarily. Am I supposed to be here doing this? I don't know. Do you know what I mean? Making changes to reflect who we really are. So it's okay to change it up, and then the crone, which just permission to change, yes, permission to change, and then the crone is 60 plus, not there, guys. Uh yeah, just once but quite excited to get there, though. Embodying wisdom acceptance would love to have just be totally acceptable. Accepting of everything, cultivating our spirituality in a piece. So Keridwen, as the goddess of all of this, if you like, because she's the goddess of transformation. She's very much like Sekment. They're they're they're two of the same. Rebirth, transformation, and inspiration. That's her that's her gig. So you know, it's it's like she is a dark mother, but it's like dark mothers, like we get to the grit, don't we? We get to the bottom of the cauldron to be, you know, to do it, you know? So yes, walk the path to show the path. Yeah. So I think the embodiment of our dark mother is where we're all at now. Even the men. Because I think the men get a bit lost here. They kind of think, well, they're talking about women and goddesses again. And I really want to stress so hard that it is for the men as well, because I'm really trying to bring the men into the circle in the space. And I think that they're feeling a little bit obsolete because they don't quite know where to put themselves, but they know something's going down.

Kristin 40:56

Do you know what I mean? Well, there's like a I feel like there's a shift in balance, like the femininity being balanced with the masculinity, um, energetics. If you look at like the patriarchy and stuff like that, um, and but instead of like shunning out and like pointing fingers at like men, I feel like that we all have those masculine and feminine energies, and it's like about creating that inner union within ourselves and leaning on one or the other. Um given you know whatever situation or moment is it's calling for.

unknown 41:27

Yeah.

Kristin 41:27

Because I, you know, I can speak that I know for a long time my masculine energy served as a protector for my feminine energy, and so now I'm learning to be in that feminine energy more, have been on the that journey for like a year or two now. Um I guess when was my Ista? Like 2022. So yeah. Yeah. Um, but yeah, I think that men, you know, sometimes do I do definitely want to invite them in, and I think that that's why it's potent and powerful to have circles with men and women, because you are witness with both dynamics and with both um primary energies, I would say, if they're identifying as that, you know?

SPEAKER_00 42:07

Yeah, yeah. Well, even with us in Egypt, and I know the the guys won't mind us sharing. I mean, obviously, I'm not going to go into the absolute detail of what kind of went down in the ISIS temple, but what was so thoughtful. I mean, just for the purpose of, you know, people listening here, I mean, we, you know, I I hold the tablets of light tour, and that's how I met you, Kristen. And, you know, and and it wasn't, it wasn't, it's not a Marie show, it's a meeting for starseeds, it's a place, isn't it, where we kind of like, I mean, I hold space, but eventually we hold space for each other. And I thought what was so because this this happened right at the end of the tour where very strong men revealed, showed themselves, exposed themselves where they they were actually more emotional than the women. Very vulnerable. And I remember thinking, this is what it's all about, this is what I'm here to do. And many have said, you know, Marie, you know, you maybe you're meant to hold just women's groups. The funny thing is, I actually do, but not intentionally. Just waiting for the guys to turn up, just saying, you know what I mean? It's just like, you know, but it's like I feel such a sense of of strength and and balance when there are men and women in the group. And I think that it's been so um rah-rah for women, divine feminine rising, and and that had to happen, but now the divine feminine is also rising in the men as well. So we need to make space for that for them to understand it. And I do see that there's lots of men's groups out there, which I think is amazing and wonderful, and I see that the priestesses have got their groups, but at some point the two have to come together. The red tent and the men's tent, like that doesn't necessarily have to come together, but like you know what I'm saying? It's like that they're there's intermingling, yeah, intermingling, intertwined, exactly inner intertwin. Yeah, because I do believe there's still a lot of pain and trauma, even within the red tent scenarios where women have now come together, found each other, and they have and they find great healing with that, and I fully respect that. And I just yeah, I get it, you know. But then but then they get that it's kind of gets stuck there because it's just like no men allowed, but at some point there has to be, you know what I mean? So I feel like there's a bit of a stammering of that union for for very valid reasons, you know what I mean? People have been hurt both sides because there's as many narcissistic women as there are men. Oh, for sure.

Kristin 44:23

You know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_00 44:24

It's like a scale, too.

Kristin 44:26

You know, like how what percentage am I? Or like am I only focused on my world and inner life and stuff, or paying attention to like the outside world and dynamics and relationships and experience and how I'm contributing and showing up.

SPEAKER_00 44:43

Yeah. Yeah. No, absolutely, but I do believe it's all gonna come out in the wash. I don't worry one little bit about it. I think that I think that, you know, and and this is another thing that I actually put in my videos today, I was talking about the chaos. I think we're developing a new relationship with chaos as well. Chaos is like fear, go put a saucepan on your head, sit under the table, and this too shall pass. Welcome to my life a few years ago. That was my way of coping. Yeah.

Kristin 45:11

Oh no, no, I love their expression, this too shall pass. But I also, you know, with that whole like, you know, if you think about birthing and creation and transformation, there's a chaotic time period, or even like a planted seed, it's like, you know, growing and coming before it becomes a tree or a plant. And so I think of like a quote, I think, by Deepak Chopra, where he's like, All great change is preceded by chaos. And so it's like if we're if we're in that chaos mirror or we're being shown that chaos right now, maybe there's something shifting that is coming, which I believe it is.

SPEAKER_00 45:46

Yeah. A new thing. And we don't need to be fearful of it because that's where the moment of creation kicks in, you know, grab your surfboard, let's go. And I think that like that's the difference now. I mean, I just speak from experience now. What I've been through, I mean, I I'm I'm I think you and I are very similar, and there's many people out there which are the same as us. You're just working on yourself. It's a constant. You are the project, you know what I mean? You don't stop or like it's it's constant. And there's been like an internal drive for that where I've never stopped because like we agreed to something, right? And it's like, you know, I really, really do feel that we're gonna come out the other end very, very soon because I feel like I've done a lot of plat medicine and I've done a lot of healing, yet I am still so blown away that I'm only just getting to the depths of my inner fear, which like, you know, I mean, I don't mind saying I decided to go with a psychotherapist. I just thought Oh, me too. Right around the same time. Yeah, we did, hey, we did. And you know what I love about that? I'm like, hey, bring it, you know. And she popped up in my life on the eight eight uh eight eight portal. I I think you had the same thing.

Kristin 46:54

Somewhere, some somewhere around that time period.

SPEAKER_00 46:56

Yeah, and it was like I was like fought it the whole way, just hiring this woman to say thanks, but no thanks. In fact, I was waking up at 4 a.m. to think about how I was gonna tell her that I was canceling the sessions. And I was so clear that I was like, yep, this isn't for me, right? And then I said to myself, Well, do you know, guides, if I go into this session tomorrow, you gotta make something cataclysmic happen because then I'll carry on. And then I was like, Yeah, nothing's gonna happen. Well, five minutes in. And then she was like, and that and I remember sat there laughing inside, but also crying at the same time and thinking, yeah, okay, all right, I'll stay. Yeah, you know, I think it's a powerful tool.

Kristin 47:41

I don't mean to interrupt you.

SPEAKER_00 47:43

No, no, no, it's fine. No, I'm just saying it is a powerful tool because I think being in the spiritual realms and you're going, right, I'm gonna go and heal myself with a shamanic journey. Most of my healing I do myself anyway. Um, but it's like, you know, all of a sudden handing yourself into an arena of psychotherapy, which is not somewhere we can control your cat, it's a beautiful thing. You can actually just hand yourself over to the session and just so in a way it's about receiving, isn't it? And I've never let anybody have a look in because I'm just like, yeah, there's an I feel like there's an element of that.

Kristin 48:14

And then also I had a bad experience of it with uh just traditional talk therapy growing up, and so I wasn't aware about um that you could find someone, it's like dating and that you could be discerning and just and decide who you want to come to your little island and and like you can court them and have like a little uh preview call or like you know, whatever um discovery, whatever the they call it. Um probably some professional term, a little more I can't think of right now. But um, yeah, I know what you're doing. I just really connected, yeah, but I really connected with their energy, and she's very much like you know, is also into um somatic practices to release the story of trauma and understands trauma. She's very spiritual, like um into quantum physics and stuff like too. I didn't think that a therapist like her existed. And so it blew me away. And then I think that there's so much, only so much to that I could do by myself. And so um having her as a support team is like there's no, I don't have any qualms with it um bringing people to support me now. I think that I before I had that hyper-independence, but it's like whether it's spiritual teachers and guides or you know, therapists or medicine, for me, it's like a blend of all of those modalities. It's what works for me. But um very much so, like kind of like had it held it at arm's length for a distance or rebel from it because I was the same as you, uh yeah.

SPEAKER_00 49:37

Counselors just I just believe that they made you talk about your shit and just basically energize it, and they were like, off you go then. So now we've churned your trauma up and we brought up every single memory and we like have a nice day, and that's what I had. I was just more of a basket case than when I went in, you know. And like, and and now, like you say, I think it's a different world now because God, that was like that was like 30 years ago, you know. But I I'm I am I am one to hold grudges, yeah.

SPEAKER_03 50:06

Yeah, something special.

Kristin 50:08

Yeah, I like it as looking at it as like the how can I support my mind, my body, and my spirit, and it's gonna be different things for those different dynamics. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 50:18

And I think that like, you know, this is this is the thing, and actually now facing my fear. In fact, we need to do another podcast on this because I want to talk, I want to deep dive with that because I was talking about like, you know, fear, and fear is actually my core uh shadow as what I've come here to to dissipate. And you know, and I liken it to um, I've now realized because like I said to you, I thought I was H what ADHD. I mean, I I kind of am. I think we've all got 10 taps open. Do you know what I mean? It's like, you know, and it and it's like we're all on the spectrum, and I think that's what it was required to be able to channel like a mofo 24-7. I just went for a session yesterday, a chakra balance and a sound healing by a massage therapist. And when she finished, she lay there and she went to inflate her lungs and I said, solar plexus third eye. And she was like, Yeah, how did you know? And I was like, Oh, I've been here quite a while then. I mean, it's just like she was like, You like you need to like close everything in. Do you know what I mean? Um, but it was like, I can't remember what I was speaking about now, but I was actually just talking about like receiving and everything like that. But it was just, oh yeah, ADHD, ADHD, something like that. Yeah, and I kind of think that we're all on that spectrum. But then my lady was just like, Yes, you are, but why do we do so much? Because we're too fearful to go home. And home's the heart. And if you've got a dysfunctional situation at home, you ain't gonna go there.

Kristin 51:41

Protective now I'm actually wounds, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 51:44

Yeah, not starting work now until the afternoon. I wake up in the morning terrified, going, I've got five million things to do, and I haven't really. I'm just scared of everything. Do you know what I mean? And then all of a sudden I calm down and and and now everything's still. And it's like I'm just like, I don't know, Netflixing and chilling and watching the bee on the leaf. It's a wonderful life.

Kristin 52:06

Yeah, it's like, oh, I can be more compassionate with myself. Yeah, exactly. Exactly. It's a little bit of that inner critic. I know you when you said ADHD, I was looking for this little note over here because I can't remember who told me their what their acronym stood for it, but it was uh adults destined for higher dimensions. Or attention, attention destined or something, attention or adults, I can't remember, but I'd much rather go with that.

SPEAKER_00 52:31

I'd much rather go with that. But you see, this is why you know we have the partners that we do because like Brendan holds my helium balloon string, otherwise I'll just shoot off the planet, and you know, and and and we're paired with who we're paired with for good reason, honestly, because you know what I mean? Is he holds tight to that string, otherwise it's all lost. Beautiful, yeah. So no, it's amazing, amazing things to look at. Do you know what I mean? And massive transformations right now, you know. So yeah.

Kristin 53:01

So I mean, like I said, something that came up that it um it recame up. So I'm like, I'll speak into it. I know you said something earlier about you know that we're like this project to work on, or we've been, you know, always constantly seeking and doing the personal development and self-improvement stuff, and I feel like that's been my entire life. Well, I rediscovered something I had written down in a journal, and I don't know who I wrote it down from or what whether it was a video or a book I had read or an old note or quote or just something. It was like we're not a project to fix, we're a miracle to explore. And I just loved that rephrase too. Yeah, and all because I also think that I would like to drop in that the work and the it is, you know, it can it can and does feel like work at times, but I think there's also an important element of being playful, and like that is also like part of the quote unquote work. Like, can you allow yourself to be more playful and in that childlike wonder and awe or yeah?

SPEAKER_00 53:54

I I do know that's so mad that you bring that up because I was looking at a Mary Magdalene deck today and because I just recorded a video on the crowning of Mary Magdalene. Yeah, yeah, it's uploaded about now, nine minutes ago. So good old scheduling. Um so um, so yeah, she was saying exactly the same thing, and it was she speaks to the uh to the seven powers of the ego, okay. The seven powers. I can't remember exactly which ones they are, but it's basically the seven powers of the ego, like greed, excess, ignorance, and all this kind of stuff. And she was saying exactly the same thing that we're not we're not here, we've got this very, very short time in a physical body, you know, in this lifetime, and we're not here to, like you say, bang out the most latest and greatest uh Egypt tour or you know, write like 10 10 books or or whatever it might be. It's like, yeah, we're here to do that, but in in joy through a creative exploration of just fun and just yeah, whatever. It's it's like there's no destination. It's just like, oh, I'm gonna do that, I'm gonna do that. Does it feel good? Yeah, it does. You know, instead of like, I've always had this obsession with time. And I know Yeshua had the same thing now for good reason, because obviously he was only gonna be on the planet for a very short time to get he had a big mission to do. Do you know what I mean? He's like, you know, he didn't just have like a Saturday paper round throwing out a few papers, he like had a big job to do. Like, do you know what I mean? That's work, you know? And he so he obviously had this obsession. Like, I've read some stuff on that, and I also felt the same way that I think that when we've actually been when we've died so many times and not completed our missions, I think we come here in this lifetime with a sense of urgency. And I think that sense of urgency then feeds into the fear that you're not going to complete your mission, and then that on a human level is like there's it takes the fun out of what you're sharing, whether it's spiritually or just your creation that you're sharing. It comes with an intensity and a non-trust because oh my god, it's impatience comes from no trust, right?

Kristin 55:59

Because if you trust, impatience you're not digging up with dirt about with that seed that you planted. You're trusting that it'll grow.

SPEAKER_00 56:08

Exactly. Yeah, absolutely. And it's just like this whole thing of like, I mean, I had a dream the other night. Oh, this is crazy. I'm gonna share this now. During this time of working with my psychotherapist that I was gonna cancel because I didn't think she was doing me any good at all. Um now, now flash forward, Marie's releasing the deepest traumas of fear. I mean, amazing psychotherapist, just saying. Um, and I had a dream and it was so, so real. I had taken blue lotus, quite a lot of it, before I went to sleep. So that makes you dream a lot. And I journeyed and I had this dream that I was sentenced to death. And in this dream, I was being held. It it wasn't even the prison, it wasn't even the focus of that. I was being held. And I had it was quite weird because I had so many people come and visit me. So I had this huge sense of huge support base, but I was behind bars. And I and it was so real that I was like, wow, in a few hours, I'm actually gonna drop my body, right? And it was so real. And I remember people coming and saying, But Marie, remember your training? You know, like I'm talking to you now. You remember how this goes? I'm like, yeah, but I'm gonna die. And they're like, Yeah, but you know how to do this. You do this, and then it's gonna happen, and then your breath work. And then I was like, Yeah, I do know. And then I had in the dream, I thought I was in Egypt, which is my most comfortable place. And then they were like, No, no, no, you're not in Egypt, you're in China. And I was like, I'm sorry, what? I'm in China. I don't know those portals. I don't know those portals. Like Egypt's my place, that's where I've done my training. And and funnily enough, I'm very connected to Lao Zu, Lao Zhu. So China is like, and I was like, okay, well, maybe I do know. So that was interesting that China came up, which was obviously another accessing, another layer to my wisdom on the death, rebirth, and resurrection rights. But in this dream, it was so real, and what blew me away is that I didn't have that overwhelming fear of like, oh my god, I'm gonna die. It wasn't a nightmare, it was it was but I can tell you, I can taste it on my tongue that I was going to be put to death. It was so real, it was so real, and I thought, well, something is shifting in humanity as well as within us. Because how do you have those dreams and not have that fear? So something is definitely shifting. Oh, for sure.

Kristin 58:22

Oh, yeah. Like I I've been looking at a lot of death lately too, and interesting, like choosing scenes of papyrus that is Nefertari being led to the afterlife. Wow, ISIS and horror. Um, but then I just started a book uh by Dolores Cannon last night about some of her past life regressions and hypnotherapy sessions, about the bridging and um easing some of the fears of life and death. And how can we yeah, and how can we um greet death with a little more, I don't know, sense of peace or uh reverence because how many things die to give life, like the some of the foods that we eat and stuff like that, too. I mean, even if you think of even if you're in a on a plant-based diet, that that that plant is now going to be consumed and giving you life too. Um and that's something that one of my friends and shamans shared with me the other day. He's like um about that deaf life like cycle.

SPEAKER_00 59:23

Yeah, yeah. And I mean, like if you look at the Egyptians, they they were like, I can't wait to live this life because I'm gonna die soon. They were so they were so excited. They're just like I'm so excited to die. How many sleeps? Do you know what I mean? It's like meanwhile, back at the ranch, you know, us westerners like are like kind of like you know what I mean, barely going to sleep at night, not acknowledging it at all, even though it worked. It's all it's gonna happen to all of us. Exactly, exactly. And it and it's like this is what we've come here to learn or to remember the death rebound. Birth and resurrection rights. You know what I mean? It's like, and and I mean, I shared a story which is like it's about my cat. Okay. Everybody's so tired of hearing about my cat. Okay, for those that don't know, I have four main coons, labor across the road, stole my cat. And she's basically claimed that she's done it just because he's over there. But I know that I know if you're listening, you took my cat. So Marie's still got some psychotherapy to do on that one, okay? Because I'm still a little bit raw about it all. But anyway, the cat is over there, okay? And I have had a problem with this cat because he's always done that. He's just not very nice, actually. Do you know what I mean? He's always roamed and he's always gone to other people's houses. But now it's really happened. He's gone. And I sat there, and the feelings of anger, how could they do this to me? He's mine. Nobody owns anything. He's not yours. He's got his own heartbeat in his chest, whatever. You kind of know on a spiritual level what's going on here. But then there's the human aspect where you're just like, no, this is like wrong on so many levels. That shit keeps you up at night, you know? And this resounding, resounding voice just kept saying, let go of it so it can turn into something else. And then I realized that me holding on to this anger and pain and heartache and the injustice of it, I think it's the injustice of it. Yeah, the attachment to it. And I was like, I know I need to forgive, but I can't let this go. And then it was like, well, you have to. And that was such a powerful message. And I put that to everything now. Anything that's a bit sticky and stingy, I go, let's pause a moment. Okay. Let it go because you want it to turn into something better than this. So if you're holding on to it, you're preventing the death, rebirth, and resurrection within that situation. So it can be as micro or as macro as you want it to be, but there's a death rebirth in everything. You know, you have a cup of coffee. Oh, rebirth, and you've finished it. And you're like, oh, I'm definitely rebirthing my coffee after this episode. Well, it's nighttime here, darling. I might go and have a gym. Oh, yeah. And I am one of those priestesses that drinks because I keep it. I do too occasionally.

Kristin 1:02:07

Yeah. No, like I'll have an age tequila occasionally, or like a nice piece of red wine. And because there's a different level of intentionality behind it, like vif or like enjoyment versus like, I don't know, 10 of them and trying to numb out something or push down the drama or the whatever.

SPEAKER_00 1:02:28

When you get lit in the club at 4 a.m. and coming home with one shoe and one earring, I mean, like, did I speak of my younger years?

Kristin 1:02:34

You know, fall into a mirror and shatter your whole mirror and try to pick wake up in the morning. Let's be pick up uh put the pieces together. No, no, that happened. That was way too specific of a story to say that that happened. I woke up in my dress and my middle minute mirror was shattered. I called my friend. I was like, can we play a game called Fill in the Blank? I was like, what happened? And then turns out, like, we were probably roofed with like some GHB, but luckily he had not drink in it. So he was able to like take us home and make sure I didn't have any cuts and stuff was going to bleed to death in my sleep. But because I hadn't had the um relationship that I do now with death.

SPEAKER_00 1:03:16

Yes, exactly.

unknown 1:03:18

Exactly.

SPEAKER_00 1:03:19

Learning on the job. Hashtag learning on the job as we go. I mean, how far we've come, how far we've come over the 20s. Exactly. But this is the whole thing about starseeds, which you know, we always go, oh, I'm so broken and like, you know, like your mirror. I'm so broken. Like, you know, everything's like going wrong and that. But the mission was to come here, break into a million pieces, and then put yourself back together. That was the mission of the starseed. But we got so focused that that apparently was getting it wrong, and it wasn't. Let me tell you, I was thorough in that department. Yeah. I made sure I pushed out three nervous breakdowns and do you know what I mean? Had major drug addiction. I, you know, I did it all. Do you know what I mean? So I was like, honey, if we're gonna do this, I'm gonna break properly. And I did. Do you know what I mean? And like, you know, and then I lost my map and compass for a while, but then I got that back, and that's what we came here to do. So it's the actual classic trait where people suffer with addiction, especially drinking drugs and all the rest of it. It's very, very star seedy kind of like thing. Um, that we get into the depths of that, especially with our minds, because I go back to the ADHD kind of vibe, 10 tabs open, we're hyper-focused on the mission, so we don't just do things by halves, you know.

Kristin 1:04:34

And then for me too, there was an element of my emotions being so vast and deep that they scared the shit out of me. And that's like, I don't know if I want to go in those directions. And so, but I didn't know at the time that if I completely numbed the bad ones, I numbed the good ones too. So and then it's like, you know, um, that was a piece of it for me too, as well. Like the mind, the the emotions and that sort of thing. And I feel like with the star, it's like a starseed element and like a human element too, because of what a lot of the work that I've been doing with my therapist and with the ketamine is releasing a lot of the ancestral trauma and like being like with uh you know what's in my lineage, like literally had a um vision and and dance with my dad yesterday and they're in the Janet McDermott, yes, and it was his younger self and inner kiddo. He's like, Thank you, like dance. And I felt like I unlocked something for him to be able to be in that, like and experience that inner um child joyful state again. And so we did like this little dance, and I was like crying and laughing. And yeah, and I was like, Am I crying for just me, or is it like you know, for me and you? And he's like, Yeah, sorry about that. And that we'd had so many agreements, and because he gave me so much of my story in in life too, and um, but we were like, I could see us like dancing, but it wasn't just in that, it was like in multiple lifetimes, and it was very much symbolic because I'd always had this kind of wonder or question around like maybe I um was my grandfather in a past life because he was shot uh when my dad was like 14 years old, and so my dad lost his dad at a young age, and I came into this lifetime knowing that I was gonna lose my dad at a s uh earlier than it and anticipated for some reason. I just always had a fear around losing my dad early, and so that was I was in my young 20s, and so what but wouldn't that be um a sense of balance if on my one end I'm doing the one I'm being the one that's leaving early, and then on the other side of it, I am being left early, and now I have the opportunity to heal and all those things.

SPEAKER_00 1:06:41

Karma balanced, karma balanced, yeah. This is quite incredible that you're talking about your father because we've been talking a lot about the divine masculine energy coming up. I mean, like this month, I feel all of my systems broke. I told you this, my bank went, you know, it was Spotify, iCloud, everything, every single system I had that's supposed to support Marie went crash bang and it just exacerbated, exploded my lack of safety. Like I was just like, oh my God. And I had to sit in that shit storm basically. And I could I didn't matter how many times I tried to make the phone calls to fix it, it just I couldn't fix it. And that was part of my initiation, I suppose, my test, you know, of just being you're safe, it's fine. But meanwhile, at the same time, people that were close to me, including my husband, incredibly sick, some nearly dying, but men, men, men, men. During this time, my dad put his back out as well. So it's like all of these masculines around the systems and actually the men. And then I spoke to my dad today. Happy birthday, dad. It's his birthday today. Oh my gosh! Wow! And he's 77 on the 28th of August. So obviously that's a 10 completion and 77. Now, talking about learning from our fathers, I'm telling you now, there's a beautiful something happening with the divine masculine. It really is. Because my dad, I've always said, is an ascended master. Do you know what I mean? They they, I mean, over the years, my mom and dad always thought I was a fruit loop because I was either basically drug addicted or jumping around doing plant medicines on elicogenics. They never really quite got the scene. But they knew, well, my daughter's healed, but she's just a bit weird. Do you know what I mean? So eventually that weirdness became intrigue. And then before I knew it, I'm helping my dad balance his chakras. Him and me and my dad would go, Me and your mama balanced the chakras today. And I was like, don't want to know that's disgusting. It's like your mom and dad. But no, seriously, they were like now doing their meditations together. And I was like, Oh, the thing is beautiful, you know, that they are at this time of life. My mom's 74, my dad's 77 today. So my dad turns around to me. Now I'm always about number sevens, and Sekmet is a number seven, the seven stoles of ISIS, the seven chakras, the seven gates of Osiris, seven gates, exactly. I'm seven everything, right? And then my dad said, No, I'm 77 today. Didn't know that. I've lost track. And he said, uh, and he said, Juno, every single house I've lived in has always sevens always meant a lot to me. He said, deeply significant. Every house, bar one house I've lived in, has always had sevens in it. And I was like, what? So we had this conversation real randomly about seven, and there he is telling me, which is a big, big thing, where I'm like, oh, this seven energy comes from my father. So now all of a sudden, there's this everyday mom and dad stuff starting to dissipate, and we're tapping into the mastery and the kind of like ancient wisdom of our of our parents, whether they're on this planet or passed on, that there's this magic and mastery and like majestic kind of like wizard stuff coming through, and there's such a big reveal going on. And I was like, who would have thought that I found that out today?

Kristin 1:09:53

So wow. Well, interestingly, I'm like, my grandma lives at a house and it's hers is seven. And my um with my dad, I it was like, oh, some people don't understand or can grasp, and maybe they maybe more will. Um, but my relationship with my dad has grown exponentially um since he's passed, since he's gone over to the other side in some ways. And so, yes, there is that some uh moments of like longing for that physical hug or touch or something, but our relationship has shifted in beautiful ways. And even yesterday, I was like, Oh, I didn't realize that I could ask you as um to be a part of my spirit team. He's like, Yeah, you had to ask.

SPEAKER_03 1:10:37

I'm waiting.

Kristin 1:10:40

I mean, yeah, we had an agreement that anytime I heard like credence clear water in places, like it would be, you know, it would be my signal that he is with me. And I heard it like, you know, in Target on Monday night. And I was like, thank you. Cause I was like feeling it and going being I had, you know, I found a boundary by crossing it, and like I was like, oh, I was just in the shit, you know. I was like, yeah, and then I go into Target to get something, and and then I hear faintly over the intercom that song.

SPEAKER_00 1:11:06

I was like, Man, let's make my crown center tingle. That's so awesome that you have that.

Kristin 1:11:11

It is so beautiful, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 1:11:13

And maybe for people out there with loved ones, it just takes for you to take a moment to create some kind of like coded message between you. That's all it takes.

Kristin 1:11:21

Yeah, read signs, one of the most uh beautiful books that I've read um about creating that uh relationship dynamic with people that have passed on. If you're open to it, it's called Signs. Um I can put it in the show notes too. Um yeah, if I was dropping that in for listeners if they wanted to like get some more info on that or something.

SPEAKER_00 1:11:40

Um yeah, because that's the thing. Grief has been massive over August, so it's brought up a lot of grief to do with the fact that we're ourselves, our old selves are dying. The world as we know it is dying. I know that physical people have actually just suddenly passed on, and I know that new wounds have been, or or rather deeper wounds of somebody who may have passed last year, whatever. It's grief. There's so much grief around, and it's like a real deep purge of that, and a lot of sadness with that, because grief and sadness, and that's gonna go back lifetimes, even if you have experienced death in this life with somebody that's close to you, that's also gonna trigger that that that that line from lifetimes past, right? And none of this can stay, none of that, none of these feelings or low vibration moment uh like energies or feelings can stay because it's real karma clearing now. And I think that's why it's quite rough for a lot of people, because it's like literally like you know, this massive cleaner. I've got to feel everything because I've agreed to go to like the new age of Aquarius. I've agreed, I'm one of those on that boat, you know? And it's like, yeah, you can come, but that big old suitcase, uh-uh, I can't take that with you know what I mean. Have you got anything sharp in there? Yes. Have you got anything illegal in there?

Kristin 1:12:58

Yeah, you carry on only.

SPEAKER_00 1:13:00

No, no, exactly. Hand luggage only. Sorry. You know what I mean? You can bring your little teddy bear rucksack, but that is it. Oh my god. And it's hard because you because sometimes our grief keeps us warm at night. It doesn't, but we think it does.

Kristin 1:13:20

Or we get to me, like um, there's an element of getting caught up in the burn or getting caught up in the that feeling, because then that can that feeling can also become um safe because it's normal to you or it feels like home, right? Versus like also like choosing to be regenerated and sing. I don't know.

SPEAKER_00 1:13:41

Um yeah, no, it's it's it's big it's big things. And as we move now, I mean I'm calling it Ma'at month. So, you know, it's like and and just to sort of share a little bit of what is pleased in my yeah, only because it kind of like feeds into what you and I are are doing together, which I'm so excited about. Let's be waiting lifetimes to just like, you know, okay, and just like um for the listeners, um, you know, I'm like I I have been so inspired by you, thank you, Kristen, because I'm now starting to write my book. I don't know, I'm just writing. I'm like literally splurging words and wisdom. It's crazy. There's post-it notes all over the house. Do you know what I mean? I've got like about 10 journals on the go, and it's just a great feeling to have that side of me be brought out and inspired by somebody like yourself because I've always wanted to write this book. And I think up until now, I feel like I've had spiritual constipation, but I didn't know it. And now I've got the best laxative going, and it's just spilling on me, girl. And I tell you, I just feel so happy and like the laxative. No, I'm kidding. You just get it flown, man. Well, can it's probably not the best analogy, but guys, you know what I mean. I'm like happy for it. You know what I mean? And like I didn't realize that writing with purpose would be so healing and cathartic. And just like kind of getting my gospel out there, you know. So today I recorded a video about the gospel of Mary. Now, what has always come to me, and we've discussed this at length, I've always said everybody's got a gospel, everyone has a story inside. And what's actually happening is because now we are moving from our illusion, which was living in the head, our truth is coming online because we're allowing it. So we're now living through our heart, which is a limited uh experience, rather than our head, which is a limited experience. So now our creativity obviously comes from the heart, right? So now we're moving all the twin flame stuff we've just spoken about, moving into that. Now all of a sudden it's like, yeah, I want to write pages, I've got a poet in me. I mean, like, you know, it's it's it's there. And I'm just finding it like incredibly exciting and and like just inspiring. And I just think that like we the the the divine masculine will say to you, Well, what do you want to write a book for? Or what's the intention? You're gonna be a like New York bestseller, you know, what is it for? Is it there's no agenda? It's just cause. It's just cause. And I just think like writing for me, I'm so excited about because it's unlocking uh a deep part of wisdom within me, which is deeply connected to Toath, which is why obviously my tour is called the Tablets of Light tour, because of that. But you've kind of ignited that to the next level because of course you're a writer and an author, and you've you know, you've got some books behind you. And it's like now to kind of like co-create with you and bring that wisdom in with yours and and just kind of like in infinity, infinity symbol it, do you know what I mean? And just like, you know, weave that. It's like I feel that everybody needs to have a legacy, and whether that book you write or the pages of poems or whatever, something need we've spoken about this when all the social media platforms are being collapsed, when you know everything's gone, what's your legacy?

Kristin 1:17:02

And I just feel really excited that I'm actually going to be restoring my lost legacy, which is you said something the other day that I thought was so beautiful about having your legacy in a drawer where your daughter and son could read it and then their daughters could read it. It was just so beautiful. Yeah, I mean, like I thank you. Like I will receive my flowers.

SPEAKER_00 1:17:23

Oh no, absolutely accolades, accolades. I have my drum close to me. I'll be like drumming like a mofo. I mean, I know it's we're gonna drum together. I know we are so excited. Well, that's what we're gonna do, isn't it? The whole space in Egypt.

Kristin 1:17:38

Yeah, and I um want to speak a little bit too. Like there's varying degrees of levels at which you can sing, like you can keep that a poetry book to yourself or to be discovered later, or you can share it with your family and close friends, or you can put it out there in the world for people to purchase it or um become activated in the best ways by reading it or um or listening to it. There's so many different like ways to sing your story and share your medicine and your message and create that legacy. Um and I think that's beautiful. And I also want to give you a little bit of your flowers because after meeting you, uh, or like I tell people all the time, like the woman that went to Egypt is not the woman who came home. And a lot of that is in part to like the space you hold and the missions and the activations that I went in with you and that continue to go and be arisen with them being. So it's so beautiful, and I can't wait to go to Avalon with you. I am so looking forward to doing our co-leading retrip to uh retreat adventure to um for all of the sacred scribes for um next September in 2025. And I know you have something scribe too.

SPEAKER_00 1:18:48

Yeah, thank you so so much. But this is like this is what it's all about, you know. We've always said collaborating, partnering. Yeah, and and it's never a bums on seats thing. And like, you know, people sort of say, you know, I you know, there's no that we don't hard sell this, it's it's a sacred yes or it's not, and that's okay, because your soul will always seek a space that it agreed upon to express itself in that moment in time. Doesn't matter whether you're Marie or Kristen, ain't nobody gonna get in the way of that. Do you know what I mean? It's like, you know, I can liken it much to the hippos here in Africa. Um, you know, when they're on the land and if you're stood in between them and the water, there it's like magnetic pull. You know what I mean? Move out the way. If you're on that hippo trail, like God help you. Do you know what I mean? It's like it's that that's your spiritual path, like a hippo zoning into the Zambezi River. It's like that, it's just plugged in, man. Do you know what I mean? There ain't nothing that's gonna stop them from game. And that's how ferocious I think. And I say ferocious because that's fire and energy and passion and inspiration. That's what your spiritual path is like. And just for those listening, I feel that that's a good thing to put out there because there's so much out there that people Are you selling and sharing and come and do this and come and do that? And when you're on your path, it's really easy to get distracted. You're like, I actually don't know what I want to do. And you got to listen to the inner you. You have to go inside and go, what is it that I'm seeking? And if you don't know what that is, it will come. Sleep on it. Sleep on it another day. Sleep on it. You know what I mean? And I feel that that's where people are getting lost because it's just like they're seeking without listening.

Kristin 1:20:26

And I think when we have to start out as a whisper. Exactly. Exactly. Well, I went to Egypt. I didn't even want to go. Yeah. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 1:20:34

I was like heading to Peru. I was trying to get to Peru and ended up in Egypt. I mean, like, I was like, this is like, okay, fine, I'm here, whatever. And I was like trying to get to Peru. And Peru ended up being like such a minor thing. And now Egypt is like my soul signature energy. And I was so like, yeah, this is so random. Okay, whatever. And I was there and I had no idea why I was there. And now look at me, look at where we are, look how significant it is. So I think that, like, you know, listening, being able to listen, like, you know, do I want to scribe something? Do I want to do it in Egypt? Is there a part of me that I want to unlock in that department? And your resonance is your tingles, your heart flutters. And I just want to encourage people to listen to that because it's it's it's got to be the sweet spot. Because if it's not, it doesn't work for you for you guys, and it doesn't work for us because we want to be in our highest power. Oh, yes. Whether you're helping people, whether you're the one being helped, it's got to be the sweet spot. Do you know what I mean? You know, and it's like the tickly spot will lead you to the sweet spot in more ways than one. Exactly.

Kristin 1:21:42

The circle is coming fully.

SPEAKER_00 1:21:47

Exactly. I love so yeah, so I think exciting things are happening next year. And I just think, you know, taking people to that portal for them to discover themselves as a writer, just to express yourself, like what fill the creative well, too.

Kristin 1:22:01

Like kind of like the cauldrons thing that you spoke to earlier. There's like periods of incubation and and that sort of thing, too. That um sometimes like gathering and being exposed to different wanders or being, you know, getting the codes in different lands may unlock something or arise some of that. Um, well, that's what I was actually gonna do.

SPEAKER_00 1:22:21

Yeah, I was actually gonna speak about this on a on a video about like the importance of sacred travel. It's not just about having bougie holidays and kind of like banging a drum and and do you know what I mean? Having great insight. Oh, that's really cool. Look, it's a sidebar. I have lots of cool photos of myself. Exactly. So that is a thing, people. I mean, we do do that, but I mean, but when you put your souls on the feet on a land that knows you more than you know yourself, man, that's undeniable. When you put your hand on a hieroglyph that you just get a full jolt or a remembrance, I mean it's I just get a heart pop with that.

Kristin 1:23:02

Or you just I had a rush of truth bumps or a chill just in my body.

SPEAKER_00 1:23:07

Yeah, and it's like, you know, my body aches for Egypt all the time, but not in a negative way. It's just it's soul home. Same as Avalon, which is obviously Glastonbury. Those are my, I was born there, but it's just like, you know, I'm really discovering my roots, and I think that's what this is all about. What's your root system? Do you know who you are? Like, you know, do you know what your superpowers are? What's your purpose? And if you don't, brilliant! Let's find out.

SPEAKER_02 1:23:35

I'd be curious.

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Play.

SPEAKER_02 1:23:38

It's all right, you know, because within the case.

Kristin 1:23:40

Sometimes what I thought I set out to do, it wasn't that. Yeah, exactly.

SPEAKER_00 1:23:45

And it led you to something else. Do you know? I can actually share that truth. How many times have you been to a course, a gathering, or something, and you're like, this is it, this is the thing, and then you get there and you're like, it's actually not the thing, but the person you sat next to is the thing. So true.

Kristin 1:24:03

Or like, yeah, I even just like I I don't like I'm I it's like truth bumps again, but this papyrus, I had like a such an uh triggering situation happened with the free frame shop. But I met the most beautiful human there that is in this like same sacred sexuality, personal growth, like soul, you know, cell evolution, like for your like spirit sisters. She was happened to be getting something framed when I first went in to get like an estimate and quote. And so I'm like, I see. And it's like that that was worth any of the struggle at the shop because that's why I that's why I was meant there. I was meant to meet her.

SPEAKER_00 1:24:42

Yeah, there's always a pearl, isn't there? There's always a pearl. That's the divine balance and the divine order. Yeah, the amount of places I've been to, and I'm like, well, this is rubbish. No disrespect. But I'm just like, God, what am I doing here? Do you know what I mean? Yeah, and then you're like, oh, so and and this is the whole thing. I think we just need not to stress out about things because how many things have happened synchronistically, and you've just gone, why do I try so hard? You know, it's set in the stars. That's what I say to people, they're like, you know, not too sure about Egypt, and they get themselves all flustered. And because I always have a like a chat with people before you go, and I'm like, and people do, they get you know, you get stressed out, you're like, oh my god, should I, shouldn't I? I'm like, you know, when they say sleep on it, it's the best thing ever. Because your soul knows, your soul knows exactly where you're going. And it may be that you were just meant to have a conversation, yeah. But it's like sometimes you just have a conversation, you're like, Well, that's all I needed. Okay, bye. And they didn't come to Egypt with me, and that's okay. Do you know what I mean? So it's like, yeah, I think that we just need to just like chill out and know that you know Jesus does take the wheel.

Kristin 1:25:51

I know I have to like for me, it works best when I make decisions on that calm lake. Um, not when I'm overly emotionally charged about something, not when I'm under emotionally charged about something, or yeah, and so it's like sleep on it, journal about it, ask yourself, and then like journal in the morning what came up for you.

SPEAKER_00 1:26:06

Yeah, yeah, exactly, exactly. And I think that we're just too quick to rush into things. But like I say, what always keeps me warm at night is that it doesn't matter whether I chain myself to my bed or back of my cave, which sometimes I get quite comfortable in, you know, if you're meant to be somewhere, it's gonna happen. And there's no such thing as missed opportunities, absolutely no such thing, because it will come around again and again and again until you know what I mean, you're basically ready to jump on it. I always liken it to those sushi bars where they have the sushi food. Yeah, when they come past, you're like, Oh, I really like that, I missed it. And then it comes around like, oh, I've just eaten the wrong sushi, and then it will come round again and again, and eventually, it depends how long you want to sit there, really. Yeah, yeah. And then by that time you just stuffed yourself, but you'll still get the sushi that you want. You know what I mean? Yes. Do you know what? This is a few. And it is a buffet, it is a buffet, it's not like scarcity, you know, type of thing either. And I would love to go through such deep wisdom teachings here, but I'm gonna just bring it down to sushi. I thought that was pretty, I thought it was a great wisdom teaching.

Kristin 1:27:17

Oh, great, you know, having those human-relating elements to um connect the spiritual teachings, that's part of the bridge, I think. That's part of the exactly, and embracing the humanness because I know for me, the more I embrace my humanness and mess and like bah, the more spiritual I feel, the more like I can live in synchronicity, the more I can be an observer and a creator. Yeah, I love that. Be an observer and a creator. That came up in ketamine yesterday. It was like an academy oracle. Love it. It's just exuding out of you. Do you know what I mean? We must do another two hours. But else you've not.

SPEAKER_00 1:27:53

I know, I know, I know.

Kristin 1:27:54

We're gonna I'm a feeling we're gonna do more of these.

SPEAKER_00 1:27:58

I feel this is like, do you know what I mean? Uh it's like it's it's cosmic comic, isn't it? Yeah, I love it. And like with Kristen, we're just like, we're just hashing it out here. We're just real talk, man. Real talk, you know what I mean? But I think I think that's that's the ticket in all of this. You just gotta laugh a lot and just just don't take yourself that seriously. Do you know what I mean? Because I have to say the world has gone mad in the spiritual world. I've now decided that the way I need to actually be no disrespect to chicks that are doing it because you've obviously got the buns, the bubble butts to do it. But like I've actually thought that maybe where I'm going wrong is I need to go and put on my see-through dress, put some some Indian feathers in my hair and stick my thong on. But the problem with that is maybe hold my shamanic drum. I don't know, you can't unsee what you've seen because I am 48 and I've had a couple of kids, so maybe well, let's not do that.

Kristin 1:28:51

But you are beautiful in your 48 kids with two kids.

SPEAKER_02 1:28:54

Thank you. Thank you.

Kristin 1:28:55

And you're urged stripes or whatever.

SPEAKER_00 1:28:58

I'm going into Crown Age, so it's fine, you know. Um, but no, I mean, that's the thing, you just gotta laugh a lot, and I think that's what we did on tour a lot when we were in Egypt, is we just laughed. And I and I've had so many people say, gosh, you make it so fun. And I'm like, I'm not gonna do it if it ain't like this. I'm not gonna be a good one.

Kristin 1:29:15

Yeah, I do not want to do it if not fun and enjoy it.

SPEAKER_00 1:29:18

No, I can't. And do you know how many ceremonies have been kicked out of for being too like too loud and too bubbly? I'm just too much joy there. Can you leave? Do you know what I mean? It's just like not too much or not enough, not this time.

Kristin 1:29:32

Yes, yeah. That's a lyric that I wrote with a girlfriend of mine. We were playing the um songwriting, and we were like, and she like surprised me with that when we were collaborating. I think um it was like too much, uh, not enough, not this time was like part of like the lyric.

SPEAKER_00 1:29:48

That's like that is such a powerful like line, really, when you think about it, because that I don't care who you are, you you can we can all relate to that. We can all relate to that. I mean, I'm I'm such a ball of energy, and I've been told all my life, even by my mom, is just like breathe, slow down. I mean, I do need to slow down, there isn't that. Do you know what I mean? But it's good, it's it's part of my superpower. Do you know what I mean? It's just like, you know, it's it's and then there's others that are like super slow, do you know what I mean? And it's like we all come together and we're a beautiful blend of it all, aren't we? You know? Um, but yeah, I think that all our lives we've been told that we're just not quite right and we're actually just right. We're just perfect, you know? So, and that's the humanness, isn't it? That's the humanness. It's like we've got to love our human just as much as our priest and priestess, you know? So, yeah, I mean, like, you know, the ones that like to have a gin. I mean, I really don't think that priestess is so. Is that gin calling news? I feel like that's a good note to end on. I think so. I think so, because I'm talking about that quite a lot now because it's quarter to seven at night here now. So you can tell he's gearing up for sushi and a gin. There's no detective work there.

Kristin 1:30:57

Um well, do you want to share or drop any like of the Ma'at things that you have coming up in September? I can also like link every group.

SPEAKER_00 1:31:04

Yeah. So on the 22nd, I'm gonna make it the 22nd of most. I don't do groups often, but when I'm inspired to do so, it's like and I get called, I'm inspired right now. So we're now moving into Ma'at month, as I call her. She's the goddess of law, order, justice, balance, and it's it's it's kind of a bit of a trine. So we're working with Sekhmet and Hathor, balancing the fire and the water. And then once that has been balanced, we then move into the 42 laws of Ma'at. And that is almost like balancing your scales, you know. What is it you've got going on in your life that needs more fire? What have you got more in your life that needs more healing through the heart? And that's where we're going to be working with Ma'at, which is gonna be a very powerful um grounding like uh experience. And it's it's it's just a small, intimate, private um Zoom call that I do. So watch out for that. All of this stuff is on YouTube, and then on the 9th of the 9th, I always do a live on YouTube, okay? And I don't like to say how long it's gonna go on for because I always get excited, but I can tell you it will be 6 p.m. Central Africa time or 5 p.m. I don't know, I haven't decided yet, but there will always be a live on YouTube. So I and I'm kind of feeling ISIS coming in hot. So I think that she's gonna be joining us and it's activations, meditations, and just you know, and and spontaneous spons spont um spontaneous channels, you know what I mean? So yeah, so so so all of this is on YouTube, yeah. Okay, and then of course, next year we have our um gig that we're doing together, which is in the yeah, and we are gonna be doing that. That's gonna be in September. So we're gonna obviously do more talks like this and and and share that magic that you and I collaborate to collaborating together about.

Kristin 1:32:44

We woke up in the middle of the night, it's like, yep, I've got a question for a lead about this, I've got a question about this.

SPEAKER_00 1:32:49

I'm like, yeah, I do think I want three nights here. So we're collabbing, so that's gonna be fun, you know. And of course, anyway, there's just a lot next year. There's Avalon, there's no chat with the blood. Yeah, there's just one big portal, but you're gonna hear about it. So I'm not gonna clog people's brains, but just get excited for 2025, you know? So yeah. I'm excited. 100%, 100%. But yeah, thank you so much for hanging out with me. It's always just amazing. It's so funny. It's so fun. I wish I didn't live in Africa when I lived in Texas, but anyway.

Kristin 1:33:24

Well, we need to um go back and forth a little bit more. You can always come here. We'll get there, we'll get there. But thank you, my love. Thank you. All right, love you.