Sex, Drugs, & Soul
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Sex, Drugs, & Soul
115. Quantumly Kinky: Acupuncture, Sexual Vitality, & the Erotic Intelligence of Your Nervous System | Dr. Veda
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This week, I'm joined by Dr. Veda, acupuncturist, frequency medicine practitioner, pleasure pioneer, host of Quantumly Kinky, and one of my favorite new friends.
We Explore...
- Acupuncture, Sexual Vitality, & the Erotic Intelligence of Your Nervous System
- How to live a more turned-on life
- Curiosity as a philosophy & the importance of play
- Metaphysics, manifestation, & multidimensional living
- How acupuncture is frequency medicine
- Existential Kink: the framework that will make you ask "wait, what part of me actually wants this?" (aka what your shadow secretly enjoys)
- Sexual avatars and how they come online for women
- Her podcast Quantumly Kinky, aka the sexy sermon your Sunday morning needs
Timestamps:
00:00 Intro & Internet Friendship Origin
05:00 Questioning Religion & Finding Spirituality
09:00 Childhood Play Before Social Media
13:30 Sexuality Without Shame
18:00 90s TV, Sex & The City & Sexual Archetypes
23:00 First Heartbreak & Relationship Books
31:00 The Secret, Abraham Hicks & Conscious Creation
35:00 The Seth Material & Multidimensional Reality
38:00 Frequency Medicine Explained
41:00 Acupuncture as Frequency Medicine
46:00 Discovering Esoteric Acupuncture
50:00 The Frequency of Your Future Self
53:00 Breathwork & Receiving Intuition
56:00 Wellness Culture & Biohacking Burnout
1:00:00 How to Get Turned On By Judgment
1:02:00 Existential Kink Explained
1:07:00 Quantumly Kinky & Creating a Podcast
1:10:00 Final Reflections & Turned-On Living
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Essentially a big part of the frequency medicine is saying, okay, well, this version of you that wants XYZ, you know, a more satisfying sex life, that wants to be, you know, sleeping better and feel more rejuvenated and rested, that wants to be feeling nervous system regulated and balanced and like turned on by their life. That version of you that exists over here, well, it's actually like a frequency. There's a code to this reality. It's a frequency code to this reality. What I believe and know to be happening in my sessions with people is we actually are accessing that frequency code. And then I'm you I'm using the needles in the grid to impart that frequency code on your physical being so that it gets to the mental layer, the etheric layer, the astral level, the physical body level. And that's how I look at it. All right, y'all.
KristinI have on Dr. Sarah Veda today. I'm so excited we connected. We're e-friends. We connected, we slid into one another's DMs. I absolutely loved it. And I feel like it's the beginning of a beautiful blossoming friendship. And I'm happy to share your gifts and your story and just see where this goes. Just stoked to have this conversation.
Dr. VedaMe too. Yeah, thank you for having me. Like you said, um, I don't know, our worlds collided on social media some way or another. And I ended up reading your book. Oh, yeah. And I was like, wow, we have so many parallels. We're same age, kind of like, you know, more Midwest upbringings, um, similar, some similar family dynamics, all the things, right? But listening to your story and vulnerability and authenticity, and then of course your um southern accent narrating all of it. Um, yeah, so I I felt like I knew you from that because it was well done. But I think we have just a lot of similar experiences that maybe have led us into this world of wanting to share with others, especially around, you know, the topics of sexuality and intimacy. Um, some of my favorite podcasts of yours and the guests that you've had on have been in that world. And so I just feel really grateful to be a part of this web of beings that, you know, has this vision to bring more pleasure to the world.
KristinYes, and you just you saying that, I'm like, if I have so much tears to my eyes and that and so much gratitude, I'm like, oh I'm like, thank you also for like re listening to my book. And yeah, I know that today it's like when people listen in, um, you know, there's Dr. Saraveda, but uh yeah, I would love to hear about some of those stories of the interesting parallels or like that, um, the kindred spirits and type of moment. So you said you grew up in the Midwest. Like, take me back to the younger you. Let's time travel a little bit.
Dr. VedaOkay, all right. Um so I was born in Reno, but I grew up in Kansas City. And what I loved about growing up in the Midwest is slow, simple family. Um, and so growing up a millennial, um, you know, I feel like I was right on that cusp of cell phones weren't in my life till high school. So I really have this very like nostalgic childhood that I look back on and it was just like playing in creeks, um, having fun, you know, don't come home till the street lights are on, type of energy. So growing up in the Midwest was special for a lot of those reasons. Um, in the same breath, I always knew that I was gonna leave. Like I had intentions to move to San Diego for undergrad. And then I ended up doing my undergrad at um University of Kansas, and then I left for San Diego right after college. But I just had this calling, you know, to kind of get out west. And I think some of that was just knowing that I was always a big thinker. Um, just like curiosity is my philosophy, right? I just have this passion for learning, and I've been, it's been very centered around like what's the nature of reality. So that started as a kid growing up in Kansas City, and I'll tell you one story.
KristinYeah, some of the I was curious, I was like, what I was like, what inside of that, or what was how did you become so curious? I'll let you tell the story.
Dr. VedaI don't know how I became curious, other than like part of me thinks that it was just like imparted into my like soul essence, and I came here and had needed that, you know, momentum to do the things I'm doing now. But I do remember a story that really sparked it as a kid. And I didn't really grow up religious per se, but um, you know, we were Catholic and I did go through first communion and, you know, eight years of Catholic catechism every Wednesday night for three and a half hours. And I was a good student at school, but I would bring that same like curiosity as my philosophy energy to CCD and was like getting in trouble, you know, like was scolded for the type of questions I was asked, was like, you know, like shamed. Like, don't ask that, not here, you know, we don't question these things. And I remember being like so turned off by that and thinking, okay, well, this isn't what I believe, you know, like, and not like Catholicism as a whole, you know, sure, there are parts of it that I appreciate, but I just remember like the energy of the teachers I had there. That's not what I believe. Like, not questioning, shaming people for questioning. So that was at like, you know, eight or nine years old. I didn't have like this religious upbringing, but that was a part of where the religion came in for me. And I was just turned off by that. I was like, that, and I do think and it that like um catapulted me into this, okay. Well, if I don't believe that about religion, spirituality, my beliefs, God, what what do I believe? And so that's like been my lifelong quest. And I think that I knew that that was gonna take me out of the Midwest.
KristinThat's so fascinating. And what a gift. And like, I don't think that very I mean, I'm thinking like worldwide population, like how many people actually take into consideration their questioning of their beliefs because it can be such a like safety or strong foundation. So I feel like that's such a gift to get have at that at that age.
Dr. VedaIt's pretty wild looking back, and that's why like when you asked, I do feel like there was something instilled. And I, you know, I have lots of different beliefs about like, you know, our souls and you know, kind of the evolution and the missions and all that, what we're doing here individually. But more than that, bigger picture, I really feel what it comes down to is like being curious um makes my life so much more playful. And I doubt that life. So I I did recognize that. I'm like, I don't want to be old and crotchety, like these teachers that are just so stuck in their programming their belief systems that you know they can't even entertain like a curious child. Like, that's not for me.
KristinSo yeah, I think that curiosity is definitely one of my values, um, or or looking at life through that lens to me, and and questioning my own beliefs and allowing them to evolve over time too. I there's this uh like I almost want to find it too. This quote by this philosopher. Yeah, Bertrand Russell said, I would never die for my beliefs because I might be wrong. And so I just love that if we don't look for like that self-inquiry discovery journey, and like does you know, I I kind of as you're speaking, it it resonates with it too, as far as like just something becoming in with a certain level of energy or or plopped down into this, you know, maybe a more conservative environment and then cata maybe catalyzing in a ways that we may not even be aware of in some capacity. Like maybe that reaction with you or interaction with you, maybe in that moment it had a certain energy, but who knows like what ripple effect it might might have had like later on in life, right?
Dr. VedaOh hundred percent. And I I'm confident that it had a big ripple effect because you know it it again showed me like, oh no, I don't want to be that stuck in a belief system because I might be wrong, you know, to your point. Like, and not only wrong, but like wrong for the now that I am. Oh, you know, like I I shift and I change, and if I'm so stuck in a programming or a belief system, I'm actually the one inhibiting, you know, my expansion or my growth because I'm running the wrong programming for you know that inversion.
KristinSo wrong for who I am right now. That is such a powerful statement. Yeah, it's flowing, it's flowing. That is god. I'm like, damn, that's a zinger. Um, and what I think of too is like I'm like betraying young, young you, little kiddo you, um, but they look to you. Um, but I thought I'm like, is that also a moment of the intuition, you know, coming online or listening to that or just knowing or like that felt like uh no this I don't know what this is, I don't mind I don't know what everything, but I know I don't want this. Or and um I remember feeling something similar at some point too. Okay, so then and then you leave, leave the town. I'm curious, like what yeah.
Dr. VedaSo stayed in Kansas City growing up, super clue, like close group of friends. I I laugh because we filmed ourselves like with a camera, you know, because we didn't have the phone, but we were like performers. We were always like making these funny videos. I had this one friend growing up, Jordan, and she um was the big initiator of that. So I think that also with the curiosity is philosophy, it also really showed me like the power of play at a young age because we like played, you know, like literally any opportunity that we could. Um so that was exciting. And I also know I knew then my love for um, you know, being behind camera, like, you know, on stage, like I do appreciate those elements. But I was obsessed with San Diego, like from a young age, and I I laugh now because I'm like, wonder what that was. You know, was that just like some intuitive inspiration? And I'm like, okay, yeah, sure. But also I look at my childhood programming, like TV shows, and I'm like, say by the bell. Oh, Melrose Place, California Dream It. You know, it's like all the shows were in California. So I think like those images, palm trees, beach, you know, I was just like, I'm moving to San Diego. So at like 10 years old, I decided that. I told my mom, I also told my mom I wanted to be a sex therapist, like in third or fourth grade. No way. And she being the lovely, beautiful, super non-judgmental woman that she is, was just that's wonderful, honey. You know, like that's great. Like, all right. So I feel blessed that although I grew up in the Midwest, um, you know, and had some exposure to religion, nothing was like heavy, um, you know, really intense in terms of like very small-minded thinking or religion kind of controlling my experience. It was just like enough exposure to to all of it to appreciate it, but also want to grow beyond it. Um, so yeah, it was San Diego. I'm moving to San Diego, fascinating.
KristinAnd I also love and want to just, yeah, there's a lot of gratitude. And I have uh hold it as well as far as like growing up before phones and like living in our imaginations and playing and yeah, like that, not coming home, not not as much worry, right? Like we're just we're just running them up in the past room hunting for dinosaur bones, which are like cowbones and yeah, and then and yeah, and I'm like, what like the the iPad thing to hunt?
Dr. VedaOh man, are they getting to use their imagination is not just how yeah, that's a whole other very interesting in beyond kids, just like us as adults. Um, you know, whoa, a big part of like my practice nervous system regulation. And I'm just thinking, like, half of the time I want to just be like, I think we just need to put down our phone. You know, I think your nervous system will actually really find, you know, a balanced homeostasis point if we just put down our phones, you know, and like monitoring screen time and all that. But I loved the creative force as a child, like you're saying, and knowing that it wasn't gonna be posted on social media, compared, you know, it was just like innocent. And I do feel like some of that innocence is a little lost on the younger generations right now.
KristinThat's a point too, even in like just the dating space, because I had an interesting, I just matched with someone on Raya, and like we had a FaceTime session, and he's like, don't use this on your podcasts, and I'm like, just like having that, you know, I think that's a uh a more universal thing. It's like that because I see videos of people going on dates, and then if it's good or bad, they're like and like giving the the uh what transmission of a date to people, and then like not really considering as much the other person that's involved all the time. I was like, totally won't, especially when you verbally expressly tell me not to, like, completely honor that. And yeah, it is just interesting, like that space. And I don't want to get too veered off into that because I also want to circle back to like your discovery of pleasure and like did that come online for you at like an early age as well. Because I'm like, how did even sex therapists enter into your brain as like a that's a good question?
Dr. VedaYeah, um I do feel like I I had a lot of internal awareness as a young kid. You know, my mom always was like, oh, old soul energy, you were just kind of who knows what it was. But what I do know is that I felt I felt really embodied as a kid. Like I, you know, I played a lot of sports, so I'm sure that that helped. And then just having, you know, loving parents and especially my relationship with my mom, I know that was a catalyst for just like feeling confident and, you know, just a lot of acknowledgement and love and praise from her and as a younger woman and not a lot of shaming, if any, from my mom. You know, okay, maybe it came later on from my own self or other situations. But as a young girl, you know, for example, like I wanted to play around in makeup and um it wasn't like, no, you're way too young, or you know, it wasn't like this immediate like shutdown. But of course, they were like, okay, yeah, play with it. You know, it's so fun. We love to beautify ourselves. Um, you know, let's not wear it to school yet. You know, so there was like balance, you know, this is me in like fourth grade or whatever. So I feel like she did a really nice job shaping a lot of that confidence that I did feel at a young age. And I think that then translated to when I was stepping into my sexuality and, you know, when I got my cycles, you know, a 12-year-old girl. Um, I didn't feel like all of a sudden lost, like what's going on. You know, I felt like there was a preparation, there was a confidence, and there was a trust. And that significantly impacted, I think, like who my sexual avatar, you know, became when it was coming online. So that was a big part. I I would say that I've been connected with that, you know, from a young age because of that. And then obviously it's morphed and and taken on many versions and and many characters, but I do feel like, you know, it's been my mission. Like it's been my I'm I'm comfortable. That's an organic place for me. Um, you know, sexuality, the expression of it, intimacy, sharing. I'm not shy around it, even though um, you know, I do keep my personal life personal. I'm not like a post everything about my my private life person, but I love talking about intimacy, sexuality, the expression of it. So I'm not sure why at such a young age it was like, I'm gonna be a sex therapist. Um, I had an uncle that was a therapist and he worked with the relationships. So I wonder if that like, you know, influenced it on some level. Um I also wasn't monitored very much with what I watched. So, you know, there's the beauty of like I did have a lot of freedom, you know, as a kid. Like my parents just trusted me, and I kind of would be like, unless I do something wrong or get in trouble, you know, kind of like lead me to my my own. Um so I wonder if some of that influenced it, you know, like watching soap operas at such a young age and and 90s shows are the best. I highly invite any of your listeners to like go back and watch some like Melrose Place or 90210 episodes, but particularly Melrose Place, because 90s intimacy was like so sensual. Like I'm re-watching it right now, so I should caveat with it.
KristinOkay, I'm going to start re-watching it. I don't remember if I ever watched it in the first place.
Dr. VedaI'm going to Kristen, you're in for a treat. Oh, yeah. I mean, like the plot lines are crazy, but the intimacy in it is just like these sensual kissing scenes. You know, and then it's like it's this beautiful like foreplay unfolding, and it's not raunchy. They're never taking off their clothes, they're never really exposing themselves at all, but it's like sensual and and kissing for it and connection and talking. And so it's been interesting re-watching that as an adult and being like, whoa, that was like, you know, I was like eight watching that so show. So I was, you know, young. But I think that that influenced it for sure.
KristinUm, yeah, I definitely want to watch that now, especially as I'm like co-creating this TV show writing series idea. And but I'm like, I was like, oh, did you watch like the skin max? Like I remember like being a kid and watching scrambled images and like listening for footsteps coming down the hall. Yeah, having the channel, the remote ready, like, oh, you flip it back in HBO Taxicab Confessions.
Dr. VedaOh yeah. Yeah, that was a good one. Um, all the girls in my in the basement, same thing. Like, oh, but honestly, like I feel like sometimes they'd be like, Yeah, mom, we're watching Taxi Cab and okay, girls, you know, like so. Again, there wasn't a lot of shame or like be scared that you're watching that, or that's and I I wonder how much that influenced, like, was I too young to be watching that at you know, in middle school? Maybe, I don't know, but I don't think so in the sense where what it what it didn't do was like instill this like, well, why shouldn't I be? Or oh my god, I'm gonna get caught or uncomfortable. So that was kind of special. Like my house was definitely the one that like we would go to to, you know, kind of watch what we wanted to, or like I don't know if you did the AOL chat rooms.
KristinOh, wild.
Dr. VedaYeah.
KristinGirl. I was having a black long those, and I'll tell you this one is kind of like the opposite side of that, like feeling the shame. And because I remember like dialing up on the internet, um, you know, they can't see me, but I'm like rushing my hair and like ASL, and then sometimes I'm a 17-gemale California because California lives also always like somewhere in there, and cyber sex and like communicating with people, and like who knows? And then I remember one day my stepdad had printed out all of the conversations. There was some kind of software on the computer that he had had back then, and I was just fucking mortified. I was like, You're you read this? What? And there's that taboo element. I was like, tell me not to do it. I'm only gonna want to do it more, and I'm gonna get more creative and inventive ways I can do it, like a drug dealer-like, you know, uh pay-per-minute phone back in the day. Um, when you tell me I can't talk to boys on the phone, and so uh I'm gonna like sneak around, or then when I go to my dad's house, I have a lot more freedom. So I'm gonna definitely log off in them and and have my late night gab session. So it's interesting.
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KristinSo you bring you in the I guess you were in those chat rooms too.
Dr. VedaOh, yeah. And I mean, I look back and I'm like, oh, our childhood was so innocent. I'm like, well, you know, there were parts of it that I'm pretty sure were not that innocent. But um yeah, it was still just different. I don't know why it felt so different. Obviously, I think every generation is like, oh, you know, my generation and the way we grew up, and there's we have nostalgia for it, right? I mean, it's it's full circle. But I think all, you know, all generations are exposed to a lot. And and of course, now with technology and you know, like we couldn't get on our phones and you know, look at adult sites and do all that. So it's like, I don't know, there there was a barrier to some of it, um, you know, that's been shifted with technology and stuff. But yeah, I was definitely always curious about it, you know, and always kind of wanted to see and know and be like, oh, what's going on? And then, you know. Sex in the city was like a big part of um so I guess that probably was like me in high school watching that. And I really identified with Samantha. You know, I was like, she seems to be having the most fun. Like I just remember thinking that, like, and obviously it's a show, right? There's characters, but of course they were playing archetypes of women and looking back, it's now obvious, you know, the archetypes and Samantha's this overly sexualized, you know, prowess with you know business woman. Yeah. But I I do remember, of course, feeling a little bit of each of them in me, minus Miranda. She just bugged me. But um, I was like, oh, Samantha, you know, she's empowered. She's, you know, got this mission and this career, and she's um able to tend to herself and then has all these like fun, wild experiences. So I remember like that influencing, you know, kind of the development of my sexual character, if you will.
KristinAnd then I always, yeah, she had a lot of witty comments too, or zingers and just like just like a I know who I am type of energy and not apologizing for it.
Dr. VedaYes. Her like unapologetic confidence definitely spoke to me. Um, I felt like I had a lot of that, but still it was like next level. Um, and then I always had boyfriends, you know, like I was kind of in like a lot of two-year, but I always liked being partnered up. But another big influence of my, you know, kind of sexual character to your question of like when did pleasure come online for you? Um my high school boyfriend cheated on me. And I found out in class and I was just like devastated, you know, just like guy turned around in the classroom. He's like, Yeah, are you still with so and so? I'm like, Yeah, and he's like, Well, and I'm like, you know, just mortified, panicked, just heart pumping, you know. And it was like a very tragic experience for me because it really more or less was my first love. Um, you know, the person that I lost my virginity to. So there was this other component of like giving yourself in a way, and then just feeling like, whoa. And then maybe also having like a little too much confidence at this time that that time, like, oh, this wouldn't happen to me, you know, like, and then it does. And um, that propelled me into like a lot of self-help books for relationships. Oh, wow. I think at 16, that was kind of another big trajectory point of like, okay, well, why did this happen? Sometimes, you know, you don't know the answer, and it's not about that, but I was asking that question, and then I was like, oh, okay, relationship books, intimacy books, getting more into um just healthy ways to relate, but also just learning about relationships in general. So that was pretty pivotal, pivotal.
KristinYeah, how cool to pick up those books at that age. I mean, I feel like that would have saved me a lot, a little bit of strife in my mind. But I mean, I but I at the same time, like I love all every moment, like even the good and bad, I like because I like who I am today. I did a lot of learning by a living.
Dr. VedaSo And that's the best way. I mean, you know, I mean, to go through the experiences, that's another thing. But I'm also like an obsessive reader. Um, I really, really like to read, and I always have. So that wasn't unusual for me. Um, but yeah, the type of book and and going to Barnes and Noble, you know, and like when you'd actually go to the bookstore, and I remember just like sitting in a corner. I'm trying to remember the first book. Um, I know the author.
KristinI was just gonna ask, do you remember by chance like the book?
Dr. VedaBecause I'm like, oh it was like Ilana von Sot. Um yeah, I'll have to I'll have to come back to you with the name of it, but she was, I want to say um MFT, married family therapist. And I think like she got on Oprah's list like years later, but um I can't remember why that one, other than it just spoke to me, but big turning point, big turning point.
KristinAnd then did you go into school too, like knowing, okay, I'm I'm loving this these relationship books. Like I want more like in your like um undergraduate bachelor's like study focus, or did it shift or change at any time, or did you just kind of like okay, I have my north star?
Dr. VedaThat continued to be my north star because it still felt in alignment with like I'm gonna be a sex therapist. Um, so psychology degree, you know, was always planning on that trajectory and then going and getting my master's for marriage family therapy. Um and then, you know, college was just one big party fest. Um I loved every part about my college experience at KU. Um, but the classes I don't I did not get that experience of like connecting deeply with either a professor or class in undergraduate. Like I had a lot of friends, and they're like, oh, you know, I'm learning all this. And I'm I just felt like, really? Like, what am I missing here? Because I'm in the place I want to be with psychology. I'm trying to learn about, you know, the the path that I want. And I just feel like, ugh, like, why are we talking about the same things, you know? And I was like really disheartened by the psychology curriculum in general. Um, it was kind of the same old thing with Freudian stuff, the way that we handle mental disorders and the DSMV and like all these things that I was just questioning if like I was feeling aligned with that. So the pivot point came after college when I was like, I don't know if I want to go into traditional therapy and be bound, because that's what it started to feel like by and not in a good way, um, you know, like by all of these parameters, insurance, what I can say, what I can't, you know, like that started to feel like, you know, suffocating. So that's when it shifted for me. I was like, I actually think I'm I'm gonna maybe go a different path. I moved out to California, San Diego, um three months after I graduated undergrad. And it was actually um with my ex who grew up in San Diego. So he's like, I'm going back home. Do you want to go? And I was like, this has already been you've arrived to escort me to, you know, the land. Yes, I will come with you to San Diego. So that was very, you know, kismet, right? Like meeting the one person from San Diego that goes to Kansas City. Um doesn't happen a lot. So I moved three months after, and um, his mom was like a big leader at one of the spiritual centers here. So that was just a cool link into like metaphysics and yeah, some different ways of thinking. Um, this this center was specifically science of mind, blah, blah, blah. So I was like, I'm gonna take a year off. I'm gonna gain residency and I'm gonna go deep into metaphysics. And then I went back to school. Well, well, my doctorate.
KristinBut yeah, that was a bit of yeah, and when you do first open to metaphysics, like is there anything that stood out? I was like, oh, like this. This is the juice or part of the juice.
Dr. VedaSo yes, I felt like I was finally reading the material that I was hoping psychology made me feel um with metaphysics. And you know, for people that aren't familiar, like metaphysics is just literally like what's beyond physics. So when I think about a driving point in my life being trying to understand the nature of reality, my own belief systems, and why I'm here, those like three fundamental questions for me. Um, physics has a lot to do with how our reality is structured, right? We've got gravity, we've got, you know, how energy and mass, like physics is kind of the bigger programming of how we participate in reality. Well, metaphysics is like, yeah, but let's go beyond that. There can be more. And also, physics can change. Some people are like, yeah, it's the law of physics. Yes, but even still, the laws of physics can change, maybe slowly, maybe you know, over time. But so metaphysics was like just making me feel like that sense of connection to the nature of reality, um, answering some of the questions that I was asking for myself, not to say that there's you know one belief system, but science of mind was probably, you know, my one of my first and biggest influences. I had read The Secret, the book. I don't know if you read that. Yeah.
KristinThat was my gateway drug. My parents sat me down before I left for college. I was like, you're going to watch this. And then also, like growing up, my mom had visualization, like, but we would drop me driving. I don't know if it's like you're, you know, back and forth between parents' houses, but we'd have these dream big sessions and visualization. She's like, So tell me about your life. I'm like, you know, I'm living in California and I'm an I'm an actress or a writer, or I, you know, the storytelling flavor. And I remember my stepdad asked me, like, take money out of the equation uh equation. What would you want to do if that wasn't a worry or a factor? And I was like, stories for sure. So I feel very lucky that I did have like that paradigm shift in a way, whether it was looking at a map of a religion and seeing, like, oh, I likely only believe what I grew up around. So then what do I believe? Kind of similar to your story in a way earlier. Um yeah, and yeah, and then reading the secret and the doing the vision boards and and like seeing a result, and then I'm like, oh, there's something to this.
Dr. VedaAnd so so that that was totally my gateway drug too, the secret. And that was actually for me, that was in college. Um and I remember feeling the same as you being like, okay, well, I'm gonna try it. But I do know that when I'm reading this, this feels good to think of myself as like this active co-creator of my life. Um, yes, I like that. That's like empowering, not like making me feel small. Um, so that resonated. Um, you know, circle two years later, I'm now in California. I'm exposed to the spiritual center here, and their premise is science of mind with Ernest Holmes. Um he was like heavily influenced by Alan Watts. Um, and then shoot, I'm I'm spacing on the other person, but Neville Goddard, maybe or yes.
KristinOkay, so I was like, he's like back in the day back in the day.
Dr. VedaSo that's what I started reading. And I think it was, you know, I wanted more from the secret. I I knew that the secret was like a little commercialized and and whatever it was still profound, but it was simplified, right? For people to be able to like make it tangible and practice it in their life. Well, what science of mind gave me was like, you know, kind of the underbelly of where the secret came from. So science of mind is very much the principle, you know, you're creating your own reality, the forces of nature and other humans and how everything influences it. And it's poetic and it's um deep and yeah, it was meaningful. Um, so I was taking different courses. Um, the science of mind book is, you know, rather large, very different than Scientology, by the way, for anybody listening.
KristinUm but I think yeah, I'm pretty sure uh my 365 daily read is Ernest Holmes. I'm not, I have to like double check, but I'm pretty sure.
Dr. VedaYou don't already hear his name a lot. He kind of, you know, it's like a little bit more uh discreet.
KristinI remember seeing those copies of science of mine uh laying around. Like I knew that they were reading it, and Esther and Abraham Hicks were you know, they went on their cruise and all that so it's like yeah, but you don't hear about him a lot or as much.
Dr. VedaYeah, and I I feel like because it kind of you know um evolved into like commercial and Abraham and all that. Um, but science of mind foundational for me. And then of course it did introduce me to a lot of the things that we're talking about. Abraham came next. Um, and I was, you know, read all those books and was just again fascinated and felt good to read this material and and empower myself as a creator. Um, the most influential series I have ever read came in 2013. Um, and they actually heavily influenced the Abraham material, and it was Jane Roberts and the Seth material. So um it's it's either seven or eight books, and the first one is Seth Speaks, you know, similar premise. They're basically connecting to this consciousness and they're streaming information and you know, beyond where is it coming from and all that? It's just like, does it feel good? Do I like reading this material? Does it relate that like that was what I was interested in? Um, but the Seth material was definitely the most life-changing material I've ever read. And that's kind of a big statement for me because I read a lot. So was that and without talking about it for too long, really the the premise of what the Seth material introduced me to was multidimensional expression. So it kind of took all the stuff that I was learning about with creating your own reality. Um, I studied a lot of Eastern religion in college, metaphysics, kind of the quantum world, and it really like put it all together and it helped me to understand multidimensional expression as a human, how that relates to physics and metaphysics, the nature of reality, strength theory, all these things. So it was like it kind of felt like it, you know, wrapped it all up in this like cohesive place for me when I read that. And yeah, gosh, 13 years ago.
KristinSo wow, that's awesome. I love though the also um the sparking of the co-creative energy in you. And so then that leads, okay, I'm like, okay, now how did the path of um like Eastern medicine and acupuncture come online from all this beautiful cauldron of stuff you're cooking up as in your co-creative soup, you know?
Dr. VedaYeah, I love that vision. Co-creative soup. I think it all of that stuff led me, you know, to Eastern medicine. So essentially, like I was studying that. Um, I started practicing energy work. I was, you know, trained in some traditional modalities, Reiki, EFT, um, different certifications. And I was like, okay, maybe, maybe this is the type of therapy, you know, that I want to do and and focus on. And that was where I spent a lot of my 20s, was just continual learning and then doing energy work. And then I got into another specific study, and it was beyond energy work, and it was going into the realm of frequency medicine. So once I tapped into that and just the incredible wormhole that that can be, because that frequency medicine also takes the components of all the things metaphysics, energy medicine, multidimensional perspective, understanding the quantum world. And it says, okay, now let's use that as a medicine. And I was like, whoa, okay, so I'm gonna go into that. But to answer your question of like where Eastern medicine came in, um, that's kind of a funny story because in my early 20s, right after I moved here, I thought about going to the program. There's a really it's actually the number one school for Eastern medicine. It's called um Pacific College of Health and Science. And so they have a San Diego, Chicago, and New York campus. And so I was like, oh, the the campus is right in San Diego, you know, maybe that's what I'm doing instead of my MFT. But I was like just too gypsy, you know. I was like, I don't know, I want I want to be able to free move around, like play more. So long story, I couldn't commit. Um, and then you know, it came up like one other time in passing. And then in COVID, I was like, hmm. And I thought about it again, and it like came from somewhere else. And my sister, my older sister, called me the next day after I had that thought. She's like, this is really random, but remember when I came to San Diego and you know, we went and like got that pamphlet for the school? Well, I just opened a book and it dropped out. And kid you not, Kristen, the next day I was on the phone for my interview with the school. You know, I didn't look at the curriculum, I didn't go toward the school, and I really didn't know what I was fully getting into, other than it was just like synchronistically aligned, and I was trusting that. And I was signed up two weeks later and started a four and a half year program. Wow. Oh, that was that was kismet. Wow.
KristinI love that. I want to expand too on like the frequency healing and and being there and like under having like what came up for I'm like one, like that gave me full body, like what I think of just truth thoughts. Sure. About some of those like inexplicable synchronicities, God winks or divine wings, whatever we want to call them. Um, and and nudges from your sister. It's like just like wow. It's like it's an awe-inducing moment.
Dr. VedaIt was special, yeah. Cause I'm always like, give me messages, you know, point me in the direction. And that was just like okay. And I'm glad that I didn't go really deep into like, well, what is this? What could because I don't think I would have signed up again, honestly, if I would have really known um what I was getting into and how intense and demanding um the program really was. And I love school and and I'm good at testing and all, you know, but like with that said, it was still the only school in programming that's really challenged me. Um, yeah, I wouldn't have done it. So I'm glad that I just like went with it. But essentially I knew that um, because I had been reading about it in different frequency medicine literature, acupuncture is frequency medicine. Let's get absolutely at its core, it's working with, you know, our bioelectrical system, right? Whether that's through the nervous system, whether that's through um, you know, just blood flow, fascia, um pain points, like alt pain pathways. It's working with our electrical system. So when I think of frequency medicine, I think of something that can shift and adjust somebody's frequency to a more optimized state of existence. And acupuncture is an energy medicine, acupuncture is a holistic medicine, acupuncture is ancient and has wisdom that's related to being connected to nature and all these different systems. So it spoke to me for many reasons, but I knew at its core it was a frequency medicine and it was going to take what I was studying, learning, and doing with clients at that time further and deeper. But I had a lot of clarity. I was going into the program to focus on acupuncture for sexual vitality and longevity.
KristinYeah, that didn't shift because the other words that I wrote down underneath there were like turned online, sexual vitality. I'm like, what can I do with threats? I'm like, tell me how long, like, I'm so curious. Like, I want to know how like the acupuncture, you know, helps or yeah, shifts. I don't even know if I'm to formulate the right language for a question right now, as far as like the energetics for it, um, or realign or harmonize an individual um to bring on more of that sexual vitality or or how to live that or yeah, or embody it.
Dr. VedaIt's interesting because a lot of people don't know that there are many different styles of acupuncture. Um so I didn't know this before I went to the program. So it's like when you get acupuncture, sure, but what kind? You know, is the practitioner honed into a specific lineage of it? So there's classical, there's traditional, there's Japanese, there's pediatric, there's orthopedic, there's and they're very different approaches and styles, even though the the Chinese medicine diagnostic ones doesn't shift. Like, you know, we look at the tongue, we feel the pulse, we're trained to have these 10 questions, you know, for our intake. Like that kind of follows through with a lot of them. But let's say an orthopedic acupuncturist, you know, they're using 75 needles that are this long. They're going into, you know, your sacral area, really getting into, you know, all the different muscle bellies and the motor points. And like that's not what I do, right? It's a totally different style of acupuncture. So I always like to let people, you know, know that because a lot of people don't. Like they're different styles.
KristinThat's true. And now that you mentioned it, I'm like, I just got a different style in Guatemala. And when I say it was Japanese, it was like completely different than the one I experienced here in Austin at Alive and Well. And um, I'm curious about like the style that you you practice, and yeah.
Dr. VedaYeah, so I was um it. Exposed to you know mostly all of it. Like in our clinical internship, we could um specify and get on like a certain shift if we wanted to, you know, practice ortho or Japanese or focus on women's health. Like different supervisors had different shifts based on what we wanted to specialize. Not one of them, provided any anybody focused on sexual wellness in the way that I am. So my program was pretty void of that, to be honest. Um, it's an integrative medicine school. So we're trained like 40% Western, 60% Eastern, and we're trained to be practitioners that can work hand in hand with you know other doctors, Western medicine, chiropractic, whatever it is. So integrative medicine is the entire goal of the program. So I appreciate that because I think it, you know, provided for a well-rounded training and reading labs and understanding pharmacology, how those interact with herbs, anatomy, physiology, um, you know, physics, like it was more than I thought, right, that it was going to be with the Western medicine. Um, but with that said, none of the styles were like really, oh, yeah, that's it, you know. And I had practiced energy medicine now for, you know, 12 years before I went into school. So I was very familiar with working with the energetic body without using, you know, anything other than my hands and crystals and oils. Um, so I was like trying to find something that would connect in that space, um, a style that resonated. And I was like, it's not this, you know, what is it? So I had to go like beyond the school and I found esoteric acupuncture. So this um brilliant man based out of Orange County, Dr. I hope I'm not butchering his name, Song K. Um, he developed this esoteric acupuncture. And this has probably been around for I want to say like 25 years now. But long story short, Kristen, what it did is it basically took everything that I had been studying, the frequency medicine, the metaphysics, the quantum world, the multidimensional, you know, all the things that I listed over here. Um, and it said, now we're bringing in acupuncture and Eastern medicine. And here's how to work with the subtle energetic body, the astral plane of the being, um, you know, the physical, mental, the emotional. And it's based on what's called like grids. So um, unlike traditional acupuncture where you use LI4 because it's the command point or because it works for headaches or pain, sure, I still do a little of that, but it's more or less we're creating a grid on the person's body and we're creating a you know sacred pattern, right? Using the points, and we're opening that person up into, you know, a new expression of themselves, whether that's them trying to release, you know, trauma, release old programming, um, to sleep better. We're literally like creating this grid to open them up to this expanded version of themselves. So esoteric neuropuncture was like, I found, I found it.
KristinWow. I'm totally coming to see you, girl, for more than one reason. I'm like, yes, please. Because I think it's interesting and I feel it sometimes, like with the nervous system capacity and expansion and how much like we can hold in a way, even like the joy and the good, it feels like I'm meeting a an edge or a different level of embodiment as all these cool and new and interestings are coming into my field. I don't know if does that make sense?
Dr. VedaYeah, and I I think that honestly, that's what a lot of people that I work with at least are experiencing, where they're trying to expand into a new version of themselves, but they don't necessarily even have the details of, you know, what it is or where to go, but they they feel it, you know, they kind of feel the ceiling maybe of where they're at. I think that's where multidimensional living comes into play so much in my practice, my beliefs, my lifestyle, how I treat it. Like it's it's fundamental because how I see reality is it's multidimensional. We have many aspects of ourselves, we have many characters, and we're not meant to be trapped in one of those characters and then peanut butter across all the other versions. Who I am as Dr. Veda is very sacred to me. I love it, I appreciate it, I honor it, but it's not who I am hanging out with my girls, you know, in Vegas two weeks ago. Like, no, like so we need the freedom and the reprieve to be uh larger in our expression. Um, so a big part of you know, these sessions and my work is tapping into people's multidimensional being, right? If it's like a frequency, and essentially a big part of the frequency medicine is saying, okay, well, this version of you that wants um XYZ, you know, uh a more satisfying sex life, that wants to be, you know, sleeping better and feel more rejuvenated and rested, that wants to be feeling nervous system regulated and balanced and like turned on by their life. That version of you that exists over here, well, it's actually like a frequency. There's a code to this reality. It's a frequency code to this reality. What I believe and know to be happening in my sessions with people is we actually are accessing that frequency code. And then I'm you I'm using the needles in the grid to impart that frequency code on your physical being so that it gets to the mental layer, the etheric layer, the astral level, the physical body level. And that's how I look at it. So I believe that you know I'm acting as a temporary conduit to tune into that frequency of that multidimensional expression, essentially like sync up, download that, and then give back to the other person. But I really feel like it's a session between them and their expanded multidimensional expression that's trying to speak to them, you know, and then I'm just tuned into how to do that.
KristinOh, so badass. And so it's interesting to me like when I think of like nonlinear time, and it's like that version is like whispering, or I I feel and believe it's like that version of us, like like my longing sometimes, like longing to write a book, longing for something. Um, I feel like it's like a whisper or a nudge from a future version of myself, giving me to that in the present moment.
Dr. VedaAnd like I love absolutely.
KristinSo I love the language and how you depicted the frequency and multidimensional being an essence and kind of like bringing it together.
Dr. VedaCause it can also be overwhelming, right? Like, let's say we have no context for that type of living, but we also know that like, you know, something's something more is calling to us or we're not feeling regulated. Like it can be overwhelming. Like it's like, okay, great. Well, how do I access that? And you know, the short answer is just taking deep breaths. I feel like a big part of my, you know, sessions is reminding people that the breath is the way that you really receive, right? It's duh, it's obvious, we need it. It's our it's our life force. Like that type of breathing for 90 minutes alone in my session. I'm not exact, I feel like it's doing half of the work because it's difficult for a lot of us. It's like, oh, take deep breaths, and then I'll watch somebody take a few deep breaths, and then you know, belly will go flat, breath gets restricted again. Take deep breaths. You know, so a lot of the session is just me going back into that because I feel like that's actually how you download the frequency. So that that version of yourself that you're talking about, you know, you get messages from her, she she's telling you what to do. I don't think that we can access that if we're not in like deep communion with our breath. So that's a big part of it too. It's just like, you know, how much of that can we connect to on our own? A lot. You don't need me to do that. Um, you know, but if you enjoy the experience, you want to learn, you want to have active motion or all the other components, but I'm an advocate and believer that we are all connected to that multidimensional self. And if we really honed in on our breathing communion, you know, committing to just checking in and regulating through the breath, that insight, that wisdom, that intuition, you know, it flows.
KristinI'm curious, do you think that stillness is incorporated into that breath? Or can you be having those breaths and on a walk or moving as well?
Dr. VedaUm yeah, that's totally individual. How I would catch it is like whatever your body is needing that day. You know, it could be in like a really good sex session. It could be while you're eating or it can be doing nothing and laying and meditating. But I think like if you're listening to your body, but more importantly, if you just ask the question, like, hey, you know, what do I need today in terms of like my breathing practice? Do I need to go do it on a walk? Do I need to? I think your body will tell you. So I think that they're all valuable and it's more just about tuning in and and listening to what is coming for you that day, that time, based on where you're at, what you're doing.
KristinI think that's a a good point too. Like um, some days like now I'm like, my body's calling for horizontal. But you know, or like but that makes shift um like sun, like Sunday or Monday, whatever day it was, it's in the fucking zone. And like I was working a lot in that flow state, like ah, but breathing, like yeah, it's all like interested. And I and I love for people to hear that too. Um, that it offers a lot of choice and variety. Um, instead of like, it's this way, and it's like, no, you can actually kind of create your own.
Dr. VedaI am not a fan of how optimization and self-care and biohacking, and I mean, especially out here in Southern California, I can't speak to other places, but it's become like a new full-time job for most people, so much so that what I'm seeing in my clinic is that people are coming on actually more stressed because of their health routines, their biohacking they have to do, the information, the the wearables that are tracking everything that you know it's like overload, um, you know, to each their own. And I know that there's value in all of it, but my bigger point is that if your self-care practice, if your, you know, health and wellness routines that are, you know, on your daily basis are creating more dysregulation, um, you know, go in a different direction and like just stop for a minute and check in, breathe, and be like, what do I actually need? Do I need 15 supplements a day? You know, do I need to cold plunge then sauna and go to yoga and take my peptides and, you know, again, not dissing on any of these beautiful modalities, but it's just the intensity of what has me optimization and self-wellness that I'm seeing it's bringing all of the pleasure out of that journey, and I'm not a fan of that.
KristinOh, that is so fucking powerful of a of this like viewpoint, I think, too, because Austin is such a hub, and I see it, and I feel like it's also a way of you're operating in this sense of I'm a project to fix versus I'm a miracle to explore, or like feeling better or more pleasurable, like you mentioned. Um, and then I also think about like the energy that's going into like the foods that I eat, or like, oh, I have to eat this to, you know, or like sometimes if my body is craving a fucking piece of dark chocolate or a piece of our fried chicken, like maybe that's what I need. Maybe that's the most nourishing and compassionate and thing that I can do for myself.
Dr. VedaI mean, yes, in the sense of like, right? We'll know if we're in balance. Our body tells us pretty quickly most of the time, you know, like, okay, you ate too much fried chicken this week. Okay, you know, and then you you keep finding it. But I do not believe that, you know, wellness should be completely void of pleasure in play. And I'm just seeing a lot of that right now. And I think it's a big mission, you know, with my clinic. So the turned-on clinic and turned on living to me is about, you know, bringing pleasure in play into as much of our creations as we can, but also just like the the acceptance, the trust and surrender, not that everything has to literally be turning you on in your life, but you can be turned on by anything happening, by the acceptance of it, by the surrendered state of like, okay, well, I'm trusting that this is happening because it's meant to move me here or, you know, this is next. So that's an expression of turned on existence. But I think what isn't an expression of turned on living is not being present. So the more scattered that we get, the more, you know, directions our mind is going in that pulls us away from presence. And I'm just not convinced that turned on living can be found without presence. And the key to presence is those deep breaths. So yeah, like kind of enough is enough with some of the optimization for me. Like, and again, you know, I'm trained in it, I understand it. I it's a huge culture in San Diego. Um, but I totally get that.
KristinLike, I'm I I'm in the pep time game. I'm in the like I I love saunas, I hate cold plunges, you know, like I I like to move my body. I am also lazy as fuck sometimes. And I'm like, I so I I just love that like offer and invitation for to for someone to explore, potentially, for me to explore more too. Um, there's something else. Like, yeah, I just while you're speaking, I was like, yeah, you can literally get turned on by anything in a way, and I don't know why this team up the other day. I guess it was around judgment or fear of judgment and stepping into being more seen and and in that space. And I was like, how can I get turned on by judgment? How can I get turned on by by you know haters? Or I was like, okay, I'm like, I'm like, I'm getting curious with that. Like, my nerves, oh, as or like some haters, you know, like you're playing like shifting that, and because I there was a moment where like I feel like people came for me and it like just fucking rattled me, and I was like, Do I really want to even do this? Like amplify or have a mission and in the sexual space and share my story. And and I took a step back. I was like, I'm gonna fucking reassess. And then like, no, it's fucking true. I do want to do this, and so I'm like, how can I do it in a way that also serves me at the same time?
Dr. VedaI love that you're asking that question because it it's been you know fundamental in my life too. Like it's vulnerable being in the sexual health and wellness space for all sorts of reasons. Um, there's definitely, you know, shame and judgment that comes your way when you're openly speaking about things, even if like in the way that I'm doing it from this like um, you know, medically advised space, it's still like, whoa, um, interesting. Um, but what came up for me when you were talking about like playing with, you know, the haters and all that is this amazing book that I read during COVID um with my partner. And it's called Existential Kink, and it's by Carrie and Carolyn Elliott. She's since then changed her name to Carolyn Lovewell, but she has a heavy, you know, psychology background. She did a lot of Youngin studies, which I'm very into, my Youngin studies. And this book was life-changing for me in the sense that it gave me an understanding like of how to essentially, you know, existential kink, the premise is that you're gonna kink out, you're gonna play with those parts of your lives that like you do not want. Like, why am I creating this? You know, why am I creating the haters to come and the judgment and like something that's either like that or that's reoccurring in your life, and you just don't know why you can't get out of that program. Like, what is it about me that's attracting this or calling it in? And her whole premise is like, because at the deepest subconscious level, you know, your shadow essence actually wants that. You want it. And I think that in itself is a powerful like reframing, right? For anybody, myself for sure. I was just like, oh, okay, yeah, I I want that on some level. And it's not like all of a sudden this became, you know, like a fundamental belief immediately. My system is like, I'll play with that, I'll see how how it goes for me, and then I'll try it on. If I like it, I I'll keep it. If I don't, I won't. So I started playing with it and all the things that were kind of challenging me or really hard or just sucked, and I, you know, didn't like this. Oh yeah, I want that. I want that. Actually, it turns me on, you know, to like the haters turn me on the challenges, they're they're erotically exciting, you know. Yes. I feel like instantly what it does, like the way I'm looking at it from, you know, an energetic world, it changes the frequency, right? It just out of resistance and into like acceptance and flow. Chinese medicine, we call that no stagnation. Um, in the frequency world, you know, what you resist persists because you just keep calling in that exact same frequency because you're so focused on resisting it. So I feel like a lack. Yeah, exactly. At the fundamental level, existential kink is basically shifting you to a different frequency, getting you in a mode of acceptance and play. And that in itself often changes, you know, the experience that you're not wanting to keep creating. So, like, you know, James and I will be like, Oh, are you EKing that? You know, we have like a word, we're like, You're EKing that, you know, like you actually really fucking want that. So it's been a playful thing in my life, and it reminds me of what you're talking, and I've most definitely used that framework for um being in the sexual wellness and and health space. And you know, I I haven't gotten, you know, too much pushback, thankfully, but I'm I'm still newer. But like even a couple YouTube comments, I'm like, okay, Karen, like, you know, you you you or I really wanted, you know, this introduction. Cause like, so it's or you're welcome.
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KristinNo, I love that bucket too. And because there's always like, what part of me likes this? What part of and I and I told it to my friend too. She's all who is always having like money or financial strife and stress. And I was like, I don't know if you're in a space where you you can receive this right now. I want to offer a question where it's like, what part of you likes or gets off on this? Like you're proving yourself to you that you can do it by the hair on your chinny chin chin, or you're proving your resilience. I mean, I'm like, these are just some like introspective or things that I'm kind of gathering. It could be completely false. But I'm like, I just want to offer the inquiry question. I hope that's being a good friend.
Dr. VedaWell, it's a it's a great question, and it's a great question for anybody listening. Like, if you if there's something recurring or that you just really don't want in your life, but you have like just entertaining, you know, the perspective for a minute, like what part of you wants that? And then that question alone, I feel like, is is explorative. That's gonna prompt you into some sort of internal investigation that, you know, will bring you some insight, whether it's directly related to that. But I just feel like asking that question, like you're saying to your friend, and just like putting that in somebody's awareness, what part of you wants that? And if you're really triggered by that question alone, well, that tells you a lot. You're just in major resistance, you know, like if something immediately is like no part of me wants that, it's like, okay, well, let's look at what the body language is telling us when you, you know, yeah, because it's it's saying otherwise, you know, that that something, something about us is is calling that experience in. And there's wisdom to everything I believe in. And personally, you know, my belief is that everything happens for a reason. So I find a lot of trust in that alone. But the EK component of it makes it fun, kinky, and playful. So that's just like a yes for me.
KristinYes. I know speaking of kinky, I'm like, I have under quantities. I've only listened to a few episodes, but like quantumly keeping it. I'm like, I love the title. I love like I remember being in the bathtub and doing one. I'm like, this is fucking fabulous. Um, like more of the meditations or social guiding what I'm just like, oh, so yeah, I'm like, I want people to check out your podcast as well. I'm like, it's yummy and juicy.
Dr. VedaI appreciate that. Yeah, it was um I used to blog, so I think by nature I'm a writer, you know, I'm really comfortable pen to paper like you. I know you talked about that a lot in your book. Um I'd love to write. It just feels, you know, all sorts of things. Divine, connection, releasing. Um, so blogging was kind of always my thing on my old website. And then I got away from a lot of it um in school. And and my doctorate program was just like intake after intake after in, you know, it was just constant input. It was actually very challenging to stay balanced in that program for that reason. Um, I did my best, sometimes better than others throughout those four and a half years. Um, but the constant input, you know, I kind of got away from writing and and sharing. And, you know, although you're in the clinic at my school from day one, you're like observer, then assistant, one, two, three, four, then intern, then senior intern. So you are treating, you're exposed. So that's kind of like a little output, right? But still like 90% input, you know, 10% output is what it felt like during school. So the last year of school, I was like really feeling suffocated by that. I was like, I need to get that channel of output flowing. And I was like, you know what? I think it's time for a podcast. I think it's time to just share some of my perspectives, you know, have these be very bite-sized, intentional, um, more or less feel like kind of, I call it like a sexy sermon. Like, you know, you're going to your sexy sermon for the week and like you would church, you're getting the message, you know, to like kind of play out throughout the week, questions to ask yourself, tangible practices that I give every week to like, you know, instill that in your reality. And so I was like, you know, I'm I'm gonna do that. And that was like very vulnerable for me, um, in all sorts of ways, but amazing, and immediately felt that like, you know, current of input output get more balanced. And and then it's been really exciting because of you know, different dynamics it's brought into my world of people listening. But yeah, it's it's it's been a good journey. I think you were referring to the hypnotica erotica. So I have like three or four, I think. Yeah, I'm like, yeah, yeah. And that's like really drop in, you know, to um a meditative space. And and I joke with um my man James because like I have many voices, just like you know, we're all multidimensional. And I've got my like soothe, calming podcast, and then I've got this like screechy, like annoying voice that I do when I'm luteal. I was like, Can you do your podcast voice?
KristinUm podcast for sure.
Dr. VedaOh, one of my was like, um, it kind of reminds me of the old 1-800 number, like the sex line. He's like, Your voice is I'm like, honestly, you know, has the feed of course there's been feedback, oh, it's you know, insightful and wonderful, but a lot of the feedback, your voice, you know, and then I think about frequencies. And I think about a voice as a transmission. And that's what I loved about listening to your book, too, like the frequency of somebody telling their own story and doing it in like such a heartfelt, vulnerable way, again with your like beautiful southern accent. I could feel like the frequencies of the stories you were telling were being imparted through your voice. So voice is voice is important. I get it.
KristinVoice is powerful. And that's how I even that's what was the impetus for even wanting to start this. It's like, okay, I know I need to use this moral. Let's get some reps in. Um and like, yeah, I do feel way more comfortable writing. So I'm like, okay, have you run? And um, yeah, it's just been it's been a fun journey and and it's brought awesome people into my life. I don't even know how like we found one another, but I'm glad that we did. And I feel like there's some intersection of that, right? And um, yeah, I was super happy that we met and like I've been able to I want to I want more. I'm like, um, there's a part of me that's like taking church, mama. There's a part of me that's like, I want to be on the next baby trip.
Dr. VedaSpeaking of Vegas, I have a Vegas personality. Oh yeah, Pie Gao. Um that's that's a game actually, and I don't even know how to play it, but I was like, that's kind of what I remind myself of like kind of you know, this I love, I love to go gamble. You know, I like this is like two, three times a year. I love to just like go to Vegas. Roulette is my game. It's intuition based, right? It's like fun and playful for me. I'm like, oh, what number am I feeling? I don't want to go there and like do stressful math. Like that is relaxing to me. But some roulette, um, an espresso martini with reposado. Sometimes I have like, you know, a visor on. I'm kind of intense in the casino. Um, so that's my normal Vegas personality. This last Vegas personality with my girls was like me and you know, nine of my closest best friends. And that was another version, but so important to just like play, right? It brings back that element of like how to bring more pleasure into your life. Well, make sure you're playing and you know, make sure you're playing with loved ones like my girlfriends, having them there and us all being just like silly and laughing, you know, it's like all is such medicine. And I know that's not the first time that you know anybody's heard that, but it's just a reminder and it gets very easily put to the background with a busy life.
KristinI guess that gets on the back burner, and that's a top value of mine as well. I'm like, how can I play more? And and it's there's even like biblical references to it as well, like returning to like your childlike, and I think of like childlike wonder and like seeing it through the lens of that eyes like how can I be in awe of life and then play and ask questions or be inquisitive or yeah, and be fucking silly. And it's like because there's a part I'm like, I don't feel like a grown-up. I'm an adult.
Dr. VedaI get it. And what you just said reminds me of like one of my favorite quotes that's always stuck with me. It's um from Byron Katie, and it's if you're not in awe, you're not paying attention. And that is a good, you know, kind of North Star for me too. It's like, I mean, this whole day, you know, like here we are, you're in Texas, I'm in California, we've never met in person. We have this like online friendship, we have similarities with lifestyle, how you know, upbringing, passion points, we've connected because of that. And, you know, now we're getting the opportunity to like share that with other beings that are gonna tune in. Like, that's pretty magical. I mean, a hundred years ago, literally, probably would have deemed been deemed magic, you know, to connect with somebody in another state like this through Wi-Fi. And so I love the if you're not in awe, you know, you're not paying attention. And it's always a good reminder for me if I'm feeling scattered or like, you know, oh, I'm just getting through the motions to like come back to that and find something that I can be in awe about. Nature's the easiest way for me to do that, you know. Just going outside and roses, yeah. It's it'll immediately kind of drop you back in.
KristinI feel like I think it goes back to Rot Marie saying too about that breath. Like, okay, I'm gonna have to take a deep breath and like take a look at my wow. This is this is a pretty cool thing. I'm on this rock in space. I'm getting to do some really cool shit and smell this fucking hard as hell. And I get to have some really beautiful moments too. I'm like, where are we? 133. I'm like, damn like unfortunately, or I have a oil change appointment for my car. So I'm like, I wish I would have even had it further and further out. But I so I guess um with that side, I feel like I need to wrap our conversation, even though I don't want to end it. I feel like it's a to be continued. Um yeah, exactly. Maybe it's San Diego, maybe another virtual, who knows? But I've absolutely thoroughly enjoyed this conversation with Anthony.
Dr. VedaMe too. Yeah, thank you for having me. I feel grateful um to just be sharing a little bit more about um, you know, kind of where Dr. Veda came from. I think it's helpful for people to get to kind of know that side of, you know, whether it's a practitioner, just somebody that you're going to see like for any sort of, you know, service, wellness, like, you know, I like to humanize that. Like I'm a fan of, you know, I'm a person on my path doing my things. I don't know more than you necessarily or have it all figured out. I'm not healing you. I'm just really passionate about serving people to expand into a more pleasurable, turned-on existence. And however I can do that, you know, I'm grateful. And if this conversation brings some of that to your listeners, like that's just a win. That's a win. I think it's done that and more.
KristinThank you so much, I mean.
Dr. VedaYeah, thanks for having me.
KristinHave a good day. Thank you for being here, love, for listening with your whole heart, for listening to the very end, and for walking this wild path with me. If today's episode stirred something in you, whether a giggle, a tear, or a full body yes, don't keep it to yourself. Share the magic, leave a review, drop me a note, or send it to a fellow sacred rebel who needs it. And remember, your story is sacred, your desires are divine, and your mess is part of the masterpiece. Keep showing up, keep feeling it all, and keep turning your life into poetry. Until next time, stay wild, stay tender, and stay true to that beautiful soul of yours. All my love, Kristen.