S1: Ep 2: The G Word

This second episode is just me, thinking out loud, driving to my yoga class at 6am! I want to talk about GOD! Eeek! I know, scary! But let's just do it. 

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Transcript

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Okay, so I'm driving to a yoga class and I just pulled over to open voice memo, I was just listening to, a podcast where they were talking about, it was Jay Brown talking to Rolf Gates and then afterwards he was kind of summing up and closing off the podcast and he said, Oh God, we mentioned, you know, we mentioned God in that. We mentioned God in there and I didn't plan to. In fact, it was recorded at a live event because it was recorded at a live event, he was like, right, I must be careful not to mention God. And I feel like I want to talk about this because this entire podcast. That I'm making is about being conscious, and to me that's about spirituality. It's not just going to be about that, it's about going to be conscious to the systems around us, and conscious to how much power we have, and conscious to, you know, all the different things. The main thing is faith and spirituality and I want to talk about all different faiths and all different types of spirituality and explore because I still feel like I'm a baby spiritually, my own spirituality, but we have to be able to, I have to be able to talk about God and I think I was planning on being like, every time I mention it, going like, God, whatever that means to you, the universe, soul, spirit, and of course that applies and I will keep, kind So I'm just kind of chucking that in, because I think it's important not to alienate people who either have religious trauma, or consider themselves atheists, but also are drawn and feel magic, feel love, feel conscious, but don't know what to call it yet. So just know that when I do say God, it's my, my truth, and do I think it's a man with a white beard in the sky? Do I sometimes talk about it like that if the kids ask me things then yeah, yeah, I do, especially my youngest. But what's really beautiful is, as your kids get older, so I've got six, 12 and 14. And when your kids are very little, they just take it on complete trust because they haven't given up on magic yet because they haven't rationalized themselves into a corner. Less so with my eldest, who's making his own way in the world. And also, he's in that very teenage spot of peak individuation, where he'd just be like, questioning everything. As he should. You know, getting annoyed with me. Whatever you think, I think the opposite. But my youngest two, speak to me about God a lot. My middle child particularly is very, just naturally, it's just innate. Like, she asked for a bible, and that's what I've always been like. And then I was in this cognitive dissonance spot for a long time, where I was As I mentioned in my first episode, I've always talked to God. You know, I was in the pool in Bali with a friend recently. I went to a yoga teacher training there. It was like a little add on 50 hour thing. Or 30 hour, I can't remember. The rest of the group there were doing their 300 hour. And I joined the group. And the training finished and we were in the pool. And we were talking about Bali, right? And how spirituality is just everywhere. in terms of the indigenous people, like their life. They wake up in the morning and so it's somebody's job, normally the woman to sit and make these gifts, the offerings. And they're all over the place. They're all over the pavement. They're all over the doorsteps. They're all over everywhere. Like these little back baskets, almost like little miniature sources made of like bamboo with flowers in, and you know, really pretty and, living, you know, beautiful, living offerings type of thing. That is their life, like their life is their faith. Like it's just everything, everything, everything, everything. And what stems from that is their family values and all the rest of it. But what I'm talking about and what I'm about to talk about is, the conversation we had in the pool, me and my, my friend around. You can come to Bali and particularly Ubud and feel, because it's such a magnet for the spiritual traveler, the digital nomad and, you know, yoga, yogis and things like that. You can almost feel like, Oh, okay, there's a uniform and there's a way to adapt it to act. And there's a way to be an okay. So spiritual people wear Marla beads, have tattoos, have a nose ring, wear baggy pants and drink matcha, you know, or cacao or like what I'm saying. this like stereotype, don't get me wrong, like, I fit a lot of those stereotypes, but like, what I'm trying to say is, sometimes spirituality can feel performative, and this is the conversation we had in the pool, like, you can arrive in Bali and feel a bit like, oh god, like, I'm not spiritual enough like these people, or whatever, and what I said to my friend was, I don't need any of those things, like, yeah, okay, I just got a tattoo, And I drink cacao and I do yoga. I was like, but I speak to God every night and I always have, since I can remember. And that's, that's my spirituality for me. And nobody knows about that. Nobody can take that away. And that's, like, you can do whatever you want. You can go to church every Sunday and still be an asshole, right? And don't get me wrong, I'm still an asshole and I'm spiritual. I was an asshole yesterday. But the difference, I guess, This is, I'm an asshole because I'm human and then I feel really bad and I speak to God directly about what can I do and help me and, you know, last night in bed I was an asshole to my youngest who is challenging but also just gorgeous, like literally in every sense just gorgeous, I could just eat him up, he's so gorgeous, but he's also challenging and we're exploring neurodiversity and all the rest of it right now, I hate it. He pushes my buttons big time. It's very full on being with him. He's a 24 7 child. School is the respite that I get. When we're together, if I leave the room, he leaves the room, or if I go to the toilet, he goes to the toilet. If he needs the toilet, I have to go to the toilet and stand next to him. He also is quite demanding for it and all these different things. He's challenging. I get to a point, like I'm either Mary Poppins and I'm a fucking amazing mum for like the majority of the time, but then I fucking lose it. And I'm just like, stop jumping on the bed, stop jumping on the bed, stop jumping on the bed. And then I just lost it. And I was like, stop jumping on the bed. And he got upset because I like really shouted at him, but I did it. That moment wasn't isolated, right? It was after like four hours of me asking him to do things, him demanding things of me, I'm making excuses. I was an asshole. I shouted at him. So directly after that, immediately after that, you know, we're in bed, we're snuggling, I've apologized. He's, he's fine. He's fine. But I'm like, I need to do better. And so I have a private conversation in my head with God and with, I actually asked my guardian angels because I'm being reminded again and again. And like, my tattoo is alludes to my relationship with my guardian angel having always been there since before I was incarnated, you know, it's two women dancing across the stars. and she wants to me to remember to ask her for help. and I did, I was like, help me to be like, less reactive, like, give me more space, just give me a look. Capacity and going to yoga in the morning. All these things are giving me more capacity. what my point is The pool in bali like i've always had this relationship with god Because for me and and also having looked at having investigated that and touched on that a little bit and revisited Christianity and catholicism recently myself There are elements of it, just like an AA meeting isn't quite for me. It's not quite for me right now. that may change. I just know my God and I know and I believe that he's, the same God as for everyone, you know? It's just like, I believe that we all have different heritage and different indigenous beliefs that have been handed down and then organized religion was shaped. we went more towards that dogmatic, type of religion that was very harsh. I don't believe God is harsh. I don't believe God does judge. You know, I don't adhere to any of those old beliefs around related things, you know. Um, Um, okay, so I'm at my yoga class, so I'm going to go to my yoga class and then I'm going to continue this when I get out. Okay, so, uh, I did the yoga class, it was awesome. I really, really needed that. And it's helping me ground, right? So it's like the conscious but grounded thing again. you know, drinking coffee, talking about spirituality, I can become quite ungrounded. Going, you know, putting, parking the car, going to a yoga class. Yoga classes literally are very grounding. of course they can open channels and clear channels and you can feel into, spirituality and open your mind through yoga, through the asana practice, that's what it's for, right? To open your crown chakra, but also to stay grounded, to stay rooted. so I definitely feel more grounded. and what I wanted to say, I was thinking, lying there in Shavasana and I was coming out of the class thinking, where did I get to? And what I think I want to say is, it's like, imagining talking to an atheist or to, was it Richard Dawkins who wrote the God Delusion, you know, the many atheists around me and my family and stuff like that. I think what they would say is, where's the evidence, like where's the evidence of God? you die, and that's it. That's it, like you go back to the earth and that's it, and your consciousness stops, right? So what I would say to that is, the evidence for me is all around me and it's never not been there, and it's in the birth of a baby, and it's in a rainbow, and it's in the miracle of life. Women 3D print humans for fuck's sake, like, that's the evidence. and I'm not anti science, far from it, although as I said in the first episode, like, science is literally not my strong point, okay? I truanted a lot. Okay. and especially when it was science. But, my point and my belief is that God is science. Like God is all those things. Like, yeah, we can split the atom and we can do all these different things and we can get down to that molecular level. They're these, that's, that's God's recipe. Like is my feeling. and my knowing, like, I can't, I find it hard because I, I, I can get evangelical about things and I can want to pull everyone along with me. a lesson for me in this lifetime, a lesson for my soul in this lifetime is to not be like that. and, and to very much accept people and go, I love that for you. That's great. You please respect me too, you know, in reciprocity, you know, but I've just always known that and you could argue, you could argue, okay, well you were raised Catholic and you went to church. that's probably why you chose God. And it's like, no, I remember it before that. and it's just this deep inner knowing. and I think it was Wayne Dyer who was like the mentor of Gabby Bernstein, who's one of my favorite spiritual authors and thought leaders. And he said, you know, people say seeing is believing. Well, believing is seeing, like when you tap into that constant stream of wellbeing and that constant stream of oneness, don't get me wrong. There's a lot that isn't in that stream right now. Like. You put the news on and it's hell on earth, right? A lot of places. And a lot of people would obviously use that as evidence against God. I think that needs discussion in another podcast, possibly with somebody who's a lot more intelligent than I am to give answers to that. but I think it's like when you tap into that state, when you ask for signs, when you recognize and acknowledge that you are part of this universe, you are the magic of the universe. From the raindrop, to the squirrel, to the leaf, to the river, to the mountain, to the cat, we are all one, and we all have this, I believe, collective consciousness, but we've amassed into these separate groups of cells that we say, is this, or is that, you know, c'est une pomme, like the painting, this is an apple, is it? We call it an apple. Because it's spherical and it's green, is it an apple? You know? Like, when it rots to the ground, it becomes earth again, and then the cycle continues. you know, when we're born, where are we coming from? Like, where's our baby come from? Well, it's grown inside the mother, but the magic of the process at some point is beyond explanation, right? Like the life force, the thing that makes me me, the thing that makes you you. Personality, yes of course. experiences, trauma, bad and good experiences, absolutely. the way we were raised, absolutely. Epigenetics, nature, nurture, all of it, DNA, handed down, But when we go into the inner landscape, which has basically become my full time job, and I'm not very good at it sometimes, but I'm kind of, you know, it's like I said in the first episode, I grasp it and then I slip some. I grasp it then it slips away. It's that knowing, that sense of knowing when you drop in. It's like, sometimes it happens for me at the end of, I'll hold my breath and then I'll get this spark of knowing or this feeling wash over me. And it's like that knowing that I am more than this body. I am more than this personality. And so are you. And so is everything. And we don't want to spend too long there either. Because I fell a lot of times. Sometimes in spiritual discussion with people, I've actually felt quite scared and quite spooked and it makes you feel quite emotional talking about it now because it's like, once you grasp that, It can almost feel like a grief, like, what? Like this is all just for this lifetime and it's going to slip away from me and it isn't the main thing. but it also gives you, an inner knowing and it makes you let go of petty crap. It makes you put on the news and feel worried and And so I feel like, you know, this podcast episode, I wanted it to be about, we've got to talk about God. And so I'm going to call it something like, you know, we need to talk about God or the G word or something like that. you know, I call that God, I call that God. And I call all spirituality, all faith, all religion. It comes from the same source, but it gets fucked up along the way. through identification with the ego, through identification with the ego. I want to end up in a place where there's, you know, this and that in the afterlife. I personally don't know what's in the afterlife because I've never died. But I feel like I know that there's more, I know that there's I believe that there is more because I feel like put aside all the personality, put aside all of the everything we've just talked about, there is this inextinguishable part of us that's our soul. And I was talking to Stanley the other day, my six year old, and he goes, there was something on TV about ghosts. Oh, we're watching Ghostbusters, the one with the girls in, which is by far better than any of the others. I absolutely love that one with Kristen Wiig and Melissa McCarthy. It's really funny. And I was watching it with Stan and we talked about it. About ghosts. And I was like, look, ghosts don't really look like that, but like, do you believe in ghosts? And he was like, yeah, they're real because when you die your body dies, but then there's the rest of you and that's a ghost. And I was like, absolutely But I was like, do you understand though that ghosts are the soul, but also ghosts don't look like this? Like they don't have green slime. Like they don't, swirl around the city causing chaos. and he was like, yeah, it's a silly movie because they made it to have fun or something like that. and I feel like there's just this part of us that can't die. And I feel like, for me, and bear in mind, I readily admit I feel like I'm embryonic and my spirituality and this podcast hopefully is gonna be a great learning opportunity for me to learn from other people. But I believe at this moment in time that we die and that our soul goes on to incarnate. In some of the form, not necessarily human all the time. I feel like probably human I feel like I've lived many other lives. I actually have my Akashic records done, and it's something I would love to get into more and learned to read them myself. I know the process. I've read a book about it, but I've never practiced it. AIC record or the Ashier is, is kind of like this library, or it's kind of like a ethereal library if you. Like an ethereal database where every single thing that's ever happened is recorded a CIC records Reader will open the records, and kind of like a form of mediumship, dip into them and be like, this was where your soul is incarnated at other times. And until in yoga, we're taught that, until we, get into a cycle that releases us from karma, until we realize that all of our actions have calmer. And until we stop repeating. The same thing. We will be caught in this cycle of keep, keep being reincarnated, keep being reincarnated. And that's why it's pointless to try and drag other people on a spiritual journey. They're here in this lifetime to learn their soul lessons, not ours. And that can be the person you're married to. It can be your kids. and it's nice to connect with the people that are on a similar journey, but knowing that and realizing that and being taught that as well has helped me release any pressure a little bit. to be like, Oh man, my husband's not on the same spiritual journey as me. Like that's okay. Like it's totally fine. is it nice when I hear my kids say things like that they believe in souls? Yeah, of course. Totally. I try not to influence it too much. I just go, yeah, that's what I believe too. I like that. but you know what? They'll get to 14 too and be like, nah, I don't believe that anymore because they want to individuate and it's not cool to think what your mom thinks. So I'm going to run this up because I'm approaching the area I call home. And I just wanted to put that out there that I, that going forward in this podcast, I'm going to record a few more episodes and then put it out there. I will refer to God, but my God might be different to your God. You may be Muslim listening to this and your God is going to be a different God to my God in your realm of understanding. But I would love to just put it out there that when I say God, I mean the universal life force behind everything, not necessarily a Catholic God or a Muslim God I believe that that is how the world works and how the universe works. so please don't be offended. please send me an email. Hello at rachelbradyyoga. com with your thoughts on the subject and feedback, and don't worry as well, it's not just going to be me rattling on during car journeys. I am going to record quite a few just on my own, just to kind of shape, what this first season of conscious but grounded will be, as it takes shape. And then I have lots of really great guests that I want to invite on, friends and connections of mine in this spiritual kind of area. please leave a comment, or email me or follow me on Instagram, Rachel Brady yoga. and thank you so much for listening. I really do want to hear from you and engage people in the discussion. I feel like so many of us were raised religious, dropped it, and now we're looking for something. let's just have a conversation, and be respectful of each other's opinions, Thanks for listening have a beautiful day, bye bye.