Ep 25 l New Years Reflection & Celebration: Healing, Faith Strengthening, Recovery, & Self-Trust

2025 brought growth & healing: trauma work for my CPTSD diagnosis, career expansion, faith strengthening, intrapersonal divulgence, family relationship appreciation, friendship fine tuning. Each day, I got closer and closer to reaching alignment as my highest self.

That’s thanks to me, but it’s more of a thanks to all of you. My listeners, my supporters, my family, my friends - thank you all. 2025 has been the best year since my accident. Each year gets better and better as I own my new self, practice more gratitude, and dive into more opportunities.

The entrance to 2025 was a bit chaotic, the entrance to 2026 is peaceful.

I am so proud of us. I am so proud to be me.

Win most, lose some.

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If all the bad that I've been through hadn't happened, well, then I wouldn't be who I am today. And if I hadn't made all the mistakes that I've made, then again, I wouldn't be who I am today. And I'm really proud to be who I am today. So thank you, past me, for fucking up all the things that you've fucked up.

Almost dying taught me how to live. Being struck by a car left me in a three-and-a-half-week coma with 15 broken bones and 16 surgeries to complete, including brain surgery. However, I woke up from that coma in an even greater place than I ever foresaw for myself. How? The universe will guide you out of the darkness and into the light if you allow it. Often, spirituality comes off as too, too highbrow. I'm not about that. Welcome to the podcast that talks and teaches about it through the lens of humor. Together, we'll harness positive energy and use it to work with the universe, all while giggling the entire time.

Welcome to Gabriella Rebranded: When Most Lose Some. Wow, wow, wow— the last episode of the year. The day before the last day of 2025. My God, I am aging. Okay. Well, I come to terms with that.

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While scripting and preparing for this episode, I was like, “Oh my God… did I really just start Gabriella Rebranded this year?” Like, I can't believe it. It feels like it was just yesterday, but it also feels like I've been at this for such a long time. I think because I've wanted to do this for such a long time—it's just years and years of kind of coming to fruition—so even though it's just been a year that this thing has been live, it's just such an accumulation of my soul that's been poured into this.

And I started working on this podcast in November ’24, though it didn't launch until April of 2025. But every day this year, every week this year, I have thought about Gabriella Rebranded every day and every week. I've made some sort of progress in Gabriella Rebranded and this entire career. Even on my family trip to Cabo, I was doing stuff for Gabriella Rebranded from our lovely stay in Cabo.

Even when I wasn't doing things explicitly for the podcast, this podcast had just underlined and been in the background of absolutely everything I've done. And I've mentioned, I've said the words Gabriella Rebranded, I think, every day.

Actually, for Thanksgiving, because I truly needed a break… like, I was like, “Oh my God, I need a break.” I told my parents, I was like, “I do not want to hear the word ‘Rebranded’ until after Thanksgiving weekend.” I needed a break. I needed a break. I needed a break. Um, but I'm just so proud and I'm so thankful.

You know, just after being so beaten down and having everything taken away from me, I would love to say, like, “I had no idea I was ever going to be here. I have no idea I was ever going to come back.” Um, but the truth is, I always knew I was going to come back. I always knew I was going to be working at something that said something. It was just a matter of when and how I got there—got here.

But this whole creation is just such a testament to my grit and to my strength and to all the support and all the people around me who have bled so much love into the areas of my life.

As I told you guys, the first season was about figuring out what the fuck this is, and the second season is about expansion. And I'm so excited to bring that with me into 2026. And astrologically, I'm being set up for a lot of career growth and growth in my legacy and growth in my voice. And, you know, the stars tend to be a little too accurate at times, so I'm very excited to see where I'm going to go.

And I don't quite know where that's going to be, but I know that there's some things going on in the background right now that I'm excited to potentially share with you guys. I know, per usual, I have a million and one ideas about where else I could go, so really—it’s just… 2026 I’m very eager and excited to welcome, spiritually and mentally.

I did a lot of healing this year. I healed a fuck ton. I addressed a lot of trauma— a lot that I didn't even know that I had. And I started 2025 in a very under-healed, kind of chaotic place. And I am happy to say that I'm entering 2026 in a very stable— as grounded as Gabriella can be—place.

And while it would be ludicrous to say I'm done completely healing everything in my life and my trauma and just everything physically—again, I still have procedures that this podcast has actually delayed me on getting done—so I still have some procedures that eventually I’ve got to do, guys.

But we're all always healing, so I'll never be done. I'm not saying that I'm done and finished, but I'm saying: we're good, we're good, we're good.

And that kind of sucks, because being healed and stable is a lot less funny. Being unhinged and chaotic is way funnier. But, you know, being chaotic has always been a little bit a part of my brand, so I don't think that's ever completely going to go away. I just— we are moving towards a place of it being chaotic good, and the chaos only affects myself. And I'm aware. I'm aware, and we know when to settle, and we're self-aware, and I know my limits. And it's chaos coming from a healed and good place. Micro-dosing chaos. We're going to be micro-dosing chaos. That's purely for the bit of it all and purely for the good vibes, and nothing bad, we hope, is going to ever come from chaos ever again.

But this past summer was the first time that I am confident in this version of my current adult self. This summer was the first time that I trust the girl that I am today to make long-standing decisions that are going to affect her future and the rest of her life. And I know what I want to do.

And I mean, I don't know—none of us truly know what's going to happen or what we're going to do next. But I know who I am. And I know what I want to give to the world. And I'm sure of myself, and I trust myself 10 times over. I've earned the right to trust myself. I mean, look at what I've carried myself through.

But I am finally so sure of myself. And I feel I've truly found self-respect in that I really respect the current version of me, and I respect her choices—every single one of them—as it pertains to her areas of life. I know what I'm working towards.

And while I don't know who or what is going to come into my life or leave it, I know that I've got it. I know that I've got it. I know that I've got this thing called life. I know that I can handle it. It's all going to be okay. It truly is all working out how it's supposed to work out.

As it pertains to my career, I am in a healed and stable enough place where I trust every single decision that I'm making in regards to it. And even if it's a wrong one—just because I'm new to this industry and everyone's going to make a wrong decision once in a while—I trust that every decision that I am making is coming from my brain being in an aligned place and coming from the most pure heart, and an aligned way of truly doing my best and truly trying to do everything from a place of knowing best.

Where I know that the career moves I'm going to make are good ones and strong ones.

At the beginning of the year, I don't think I would have 100% said that I'm proud of myself and I'm proud of this career. I think I would have said like 75%, maybe 85%. But now I can say with 100% certainty that I am handling this career and making decisions going forward as professionally as I can and as mature—fantastic.

And again, at the beginning of the year, I would not have fully meant that. But now I fully fucking mean that. And that's a great way to enter the new year.

This year, the anniversary of my accident—year number four—I officially said goodbye to the girl that I was before the accident. I said goodbye to Gabby. And that was really hard. And I love her and I'll miss her. But I endlessly love Gabriella. I endlessly love me.

And that doesn't mean that I don't have flaws. Of course I have flaws. We all do. But I accept them. And I am healing the ones that can be healed, and the ones that can't be healed— they're walking alongside of me and they're part of me.

And I love them too, because without them, I wouldn't be the Gabriella I am today, and I fucking love the Gabriella I am today.

If all the bad that I've been through hadn't happened, well, then I wouldn't be who I am today. And if I hadn't made all the mistakes that I've made, then again, I wouldn't be who I am today. And I'm really proud to be who I am today. So thank you, past me, for fucking up all the things that you've fucked up. Thank you, past things in my life that—times over.

The man who hit me with their car, thank you so fucking much. Thank you so much. I truly mean that. You might have ended my life, but you didn’t. So thank you. Um…

So my word for next year—my resolution word, if you will—that I'm trying to bring into the new year is peace. Um, peace is my word for 2026.

Um, as I said, I started 2025 in a very under-healed sort of chaotic place, um, and I don't want to do that again. Um, so my goal—and I'm doing that right now—but my goal for the entire year is just peace. Just peace in the world, peace in myself, peace in my relationships, peace in my life, peace in my career. I just always want to come back to a place of peace.

And because I did a lot of healing this year—um, a lot of trauma work—um, sometimes that was really dark and that was really scary. Um, you know, sometimes it was really, really fucking rough. But once you get through it all—um, once you go through all that terrible dark, uh, not very cash-money things—you get to a place of pure, grounded love and wholeness.

And I feel that's where I am, or I think that's where I am now. But I'm sure it can be even more so. It definitely can be even more so. We're all always a work in progress. And 2026 is going to be about really claiming that and enjoying the grounded love that I found, and the acceptance that I found, and just continuing that into the rest of my life.

I'm in a place now where I welcome the world and all that it has to offer. And I wasn't entirely welcoming the world at the start of last year, because I don't know what's coming next in 2026, and I'm really excited about that. And in 2025, that terrified me—not knowing what came next.

I was so desperate to try to figure out what was supposed to come next. And I was living in imposter syndrome, and I was trying to prove myself to others and also to myself, and it was just in this very sort of rattling-a-rat—like my soul was rattling around, if that makes sense. Like it was just a—uh—this, all this kinetic energy with no place to go. That was my soul. That was what was going on inside me.

And I think my heart rate was like constantly a little up, and my cortisol levels were constantly through the roof. I think that's the fear I had within me of not knowing what the next chapter was going to look like.

An injured brain hates surprises, including good ones. An injured brain hates surprises. That's why I say I have to know the exact day I'm getting proposed to, and exactly when it's happening, and how it's happening, and where we're going to be—because I don't like surprise. I don't even like good ones. My brain doesn't like them.

And I didn't like surprises before I got hurt, even good ones, but now that is fucking horrific. Um, so not knowing what came next fucking terrified me.

And I was gonna start this thing in the new year, but I didn't know how, and I was so, so scared. And it caused me to be a little reckless at times, especially in the beginning of my injury, but even, uh, sometimes now.

Throwing me off my schedule and messing with my routine just sent me— I want to say “sends,” but it hasn't happened in a while, but I guess still “sends,” because when it does happen, whatever—but throw me off my routine, throw me off my schedule, chaos, not knowing what comes next—sends me into the worst emotional spirals, the worst episodes that I've ever had, my worst breakdowns.

And something that I've really had to learn, and something that I've had to be okay with—and it's perhaps the hardest thing I've had to learn and be okay with—is to accept surprises and be okay not knowing what comes next.

Because the truth is: being in an unstable environment and being okay with it—accepting that you don't quite know the plan or what's going to happen next—just accepting that and being at peace with it… that's the most stable place you can be. It truly is.

It's the most stable place you can be in: allowing whatever comes next, even if you have no idea and it might be fucking crazy, but just welcoming that and accepting it and being okay in that peace with that.

A huge part of my healing has been—and a huge part of everyone's healing should be—embracing surprises. Because the thing is, none of us really know what's going to come next. That's kind of how all of life works. All of life is just surprise after surprise after surprise.

When you think you have it the most figured out is when you actually have it the least figured out. And when you think you have it the most figured out is when you welcome the most chaotic surprises.

So truly, my advice to everyone—and what I hope everyone does this year—is embrace surprises. Bring peace to every surprise that life is going to throw at you this year and for the rest of your life.

So thank you guys for coming with me, and let's figure all of this out together no matter how rocky it is. Thank you for making my 2025 and helping it land in such a settled, whole, healed, loving, grounded place. Here's to seeing what 2026 has for all of us.

Remember to love, remember to allow, remember to accept. Try to always confront things from a grounded place, but forgive yourself when you don't—because we all make mistakes, we all have slip-ups, we all have bad days. And if you say you don't… um… don't be a narcissist—just admit that sometimes you fuck up. We all do, okay? You wouldn't be a human if you didn't.

If someone hasn't told you today: I love you. I'm grateful for you.

Now stop fucking listening to me and get out there and see what 2026 has next. Happy fucking new year, everyone.

This has been Gabriella Rebranded. As always, when most lose some. And I will see you in the next year.

Oh my God—Gabriella Rebranded is now going in two years. It's not been an entire year yet of this podcast being live, but it's the second year started of me working on it. And this podcast is going to be live in two separate calendar years: 2025 and 2026. That's a fucking win. That's a fucking win.

And to think this started from a place of losing—because it was so delayed, the launch date was so delayed because of the fires. Oh my God. Oh my God. This has been amazing.

When most lose some. Okay, bye.