Rest Here: Learning to Be The Daughter of the Most High God

Have you ever felt the painful disconnect between knowing who you are in Christ and actually living it out? That's exactly where I found myself this week—in a mental and spiritual struggle that brought me face-to-face with burnout, loneliness, and the challenge of truly being a daughter of the Most High God.

Growing up, I was conditioned to be a doer, to make things happen, to show results. I love how my earthly father provides for me—opening doors, making breakfast—but somehow I've struggled to translate this to my relationship with my heavenly Father. Why is it so hard to learn how to be God's daughter? The question haunted me until my therapist pointed out something profound: "God was allowing you to play His role, and when we play His role, we end up burning out." I was carrying burdens never meant for my human shoulders.

Through worship in my darkest moment, the Holy Spirit revealed that as a child, I'd made an "agreement with loneliness" that became my comfort zone. Isolation felt safer than vulnerability. While I'd rush to help others, I couldn't bring myself to receive help, fearing I'd be a burden. But God is teaching me to break this agreement and embrace the spirit of adoption instead. I'm learning to declare, "I belong to you, God," and to recognize that this belonging extends to a community of believers who want to support me. My journey now is about taking back what the enemy stole—my joy, my freedom, my identity as God's beloved daughter—and learning to serve from God's abundance rather than from lack.

Ready to break free from agreements that have held you back? Join me in this vulnerable journey of discovering what it truly means to be a daughter of the Most High. Subscribe to God is Real Love podcast where we help you understand your identity in Christ and share our real, messy, beautiful journeys of faith together.

Transcript

Struggling with Divine Daughterhood

Speaker 1 0:00

hi guys, hope all is well. Today I decided to go outside, to finally go outside. I ain't gonna lie to y'all. It's been a struggle these past days, mentally struggling like I know that god is still god no matter what happens. He's still sovereign, he's still steadfast, like I. I know that. But the question is for me is, as a person who knows how to feel, knows how it is like to be a princess and I adore it, I eat it up, I love when my father opened doors for me, when he makes breakfast for me, when he provides for me. My father on earth does that for me my question is for me why is it so hard for me to be to know how to be the daughter of the most high god? That is what I'm trying to learn how to do, because it's just. I can't wrap around my head. But why is it so hard for me to be the daughter of the most high god? Like I know that I'm his daughter, like I know why my identity isn't him. But it's the how that's my issue. It's how, because I know god is real love. I know that it's just. How do I? I want to learn how to be the daughter of the most high god.

Understanding Burnout and God's Role

Speaker 1 1:14

I'm a doer. I was taught as a kid to do things, to make sure I have things provided for me, and that was installed with me since I was a kid. Breaking that mentality. I thought it was going to be easy, you know, because I finally understood who I was in Christ. I guess it's not easy. Irving Sunday was talking about how God does surgery in you, and I guess this is a surgery that is being done to me. I guess that's what I need is to God to teach me how to be his daughter, to teach me how to allow him to provide for me, for he is the Jehovah Jireh, he's our provider. It's just the how that I need to learn to sit back and relax and be still and know that he's God, that he provides abundance.

Speaker 1 2:04

Sometimes I feel as though, like I need to know what's going on, and that's where faith comes in believing even in the unknown. Like I don't even like surprise parties because I don't know about them. I like giving surprise parties, but for me, I don't like surprise parties because it's like I don't know what's going on. I don't like surprise parties because it's like I don't know what's going on. I don't know what I should wear, I don't know.

Speaker 1 2:26

Instead of trusting and the people that are doing the party for me or expressing their love in their way, for some reason I need to have it my way. I know it sounds so bad, but it's just something that I've always. I guess it's something that I've been conditioned to always know what's going on, to have a plan. But God says for I have a plan for you, plan for prosperity. Not harm you, but give you hope in the future. It's like I need to understand that, no matter what the unknown is, god will always have my back, you. He'll always be there for me. He will let no nothing harm me. Yeah, it's me also when I don't trust God and I, trusting my own self, cause, honestly, if I'm being honest, y'all.

Speaker 1 3:16

My therapist said like who are you trusting right now? And I said and I was honest, I can't lie I said right now I'm trusting myself, but I know I need to trust God, understanding that I felt as though I'm losing control, but it was not for me to have in my hands. Anyways, you know, these past three days I've been having a feeling of great sadness, of loneliness and everything. Again, god bless him was saying that we need community and that basically being alone. Well, basically that's where the devil got you and god was not meant to have us alone. Or even in the beginning of time he said that man should not be alone and that's why he made eve for adam. Like I need to depend on my community more. And Sunday was just hard. It hit me like a train how the emotions built up.

Speaker 1 4:09

I didn't know I was going through burnout until, of course, I talked to my therapist and she put the symptoms together and she's like you're going through severe burnout and I'm like how did I get to this point? She said God was allowing you to play his role and when we play his role, role we end up burning out, basically because we can't play God. That's too heavy on us, especially because we're humans and that's the role I was playing, that I can do it all by myself. I think it's this thing, honestly, because I was conditioned at a young age, like I said, to do work, to do it by myself, to make sure I have it. The results my dad would say show me results. I took it literal. So I worked and worked until he saw the results that he wanted and I was trying to live for man and not for God. And it got me to this point where the loneliness hit. But this time was different Instead of leaning on the feelings, I leaned on who I was in Christ and who Christ was in me.

Breaking Agreement with Loneliness

Speaker 1 5:05

I leaned on to him and I did praise and I worshipped. And after praising and worshipping, he revealed something to me. He said, elen, when you were a little girl, you made an agreement with loneliness. And I was surprised. He said you made an agreement with loneliness. So, lord, lord, I come in disagreement with the spirit of loneliness, I said, and I come in agreement with community, I come in agreement with the spirit of adoption, because I'm not alone. I am your child, I'm your daughter, I belong to you, god, I belong to you. And because I belong to you, I have, because I belong to you, I have a home, people, and I do have Christ-centered people in my life. I do have a family that loves me and care for me. Like I have that, like I don't mind people coming to me for help and having them lean on me, because I'll be there in a quick second. My sister need me, I'm coming, but it's just me.

Speaker 1 5:58

Leaning on them is the issue? It's that that I don't feel like I deserve community. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to bother them or to say I'm a burden to them. I know that's not true, but why I? I just feel that way and it's got to the point where I need to lean more on the truth and not the feelings. And that's what I'm doing. I'm leaning more into who god is in my life and not the feelings. Not that I'm not acknowledging my feelings, because I must acknowledge that they're there, because how do you heal a wound if you don't acknowledge that it's there? I'm feeling sad. It's there, I know that it's there and the root cause the Holy Spirit has showed me. I must not dwell in that feeling. I must not reside there, because if I do again, I'm going to make an agreement with it. I'm going to get comfortable in it.

Speaker 1 6:50

Guys, I used to when I say I like being alone. I liked it because it was where my comfort place was. I made I see the Holy Spirit revealed to me. I made an agreement with loneliness, so much so it became my comfort place. Was I made I see the holy spirit revealed to me. I made an agreement with loneliness, so much so it became my comfort place. Like my comfort place was the dark in my room watching netflix on my phone. That is where I felt most comfortable in and the holy spirit revealed to me.

Reclaiming Joy and Freedom

Speaker 1 7:15

It's because you made that agreement that you felt comfortable in it and it opened doors to depression, and depression relapses. But I tell you, I take back everything that the enemy stole from me. I swear that song, all authority, has been in my mind this whole week because I truly do take back what the enemy has stole from me my joy, my freedom. I take it back because I allowed him to take it when I made that agreement, knowingly or unknowingly. When you make an agreement with a spirit, you allow the enemy to take what is meant for you, but I take it back in the name of jesus christ, for it is my joy, my freedom. When the sun sets free, it's free indeed, like I know who. Indeed, like I know who is my provider, I know who is my God, I know who I belong to. It's just knowing how to be a daughter of the most high God is what I'm learning. So you know, ladies, this is God is real love podcast, where we help you understand your identity in Christ. And this is my journey, you know, know, taking you guys along with me, because this is vulnerability, transparency and truth.

Learning to Rest in God

Speaker 1 8:25

So, to summarize, I am learning how to be a daughter of the most high god. Learning how to be the daughter of the most high god, learning how to be his daughter first before his servant, learning how to serve from abundance and not from lack, because he's abundant, god, you know, yeah, it's hot, but I'm loving the sun right now because I do like tanning, but that that's my week. It's been a struggle, but god have been showing me that he's still good and he's still god. He's still sovereign, he's steadfast and I'm learning to rest in him, because there's a Hebrew saying that goes I have that in my room God rest here For the Lord, rest here, and I'm going to learn how to rest and delight in him. We need to learn how to do it together. So I think that's part of my journey Is to learn how to be the daughter of the most high god. Okay, so I hope this helps whoever is watching.

Speaker 2 9:25

So take god with you and he will take you far in the name of jesus, I'm taking back what the enemy stole from me. The one who sets me free has all authority. The one who sets me free has all authority. I'm taking back what they're giving me. It's all for me. In the name of Jesus, I'm taking back what they're giving me. It's all for me, for the one who sets me free has all authority. For the one who sets me free has all authority.