When life answers you back

There are seasons where nothing feels linear, but everything feels alive!! Where answers arrive as textures, timing, and subtle shifts inside your body. This episode is a reflection from one of those seasons. I'm sharing what’s been meeting me as I’ve been learning to ask clearer questions, trust the language of my inner world, and notice how life responds when I do. 😏

What you'll receive by being inside this episode:

• A renewed sense of trust in your intuitive nudges and inner guidance.
• A deeper relationship with your own energetic sensitivity and subtle perception.
• Permission to explore your gifts without pressure, comparison, or hierarchy.
• A felt understanding of how beliefs, emotions, and patterns shape reality.
• New ways to look at repeating life themes with compassion instead of self-judgment. :)
• Insight into why certain relational or behavioral patterns keep looping.
• A soft but powerful reframe around self-worth, belonging, and magnetism.
• Inspiration to ask clearer questions of your spirit guides and how to listen differently.
• A grounded sense of possibility around healing, growth, and human potential.
• A practical, embodied way to work with gratitude as a living frequency.
• Loving encouragement to slow down and notice what's already working.
• A feeling of being less alone in your curiosity about consciousness, healing, and becoming!

Resources:

• She Who Flows: Guidance for Surrendering to the Divine Feminine and Witnessing the Miracles of Self-Love (publishes March 24, 2026)
• Charlie Goldsmith: Ennie app + Energy healing teaching
• Masters of Integration: Reveling in the Field of Infinite Possibilities by Elan / Andrew 👽

Transcript

Ashley Mondor:

 Hello, Hello! Okay. This is gonna be a hodgepodge of an episode and also my words are kind of fluffy, if that makes sense in my mouth. And so I'm probably gonna like trip up often and that's okay 'cause you're here listening to me and I appreciate you so much. Okay. So I actually literally wrote like a list out.

Because there's so many cool things I wanna share with you. Uh, where do I start? First things first, A number of you have asked me, have messaged me, have asked to be put on a wait list, have asked, you know, to be notified if and when I teach and attune people to angelic reiki. A little bit of context. I got my master level three and four in October, and then we were going to have a break and then a follow up one hour class with my mentor, and that was so that we could practice it and play with it and look through the manuals to see if we wanted to teach, you know, what questions did we have around that, around the attunement process, stuff like that.

I appreciated it because I wanted to see, all right, now that I've done it. What do I need to know? And so when November, at the end of November it came and she never scheduled it. I was like, Hey, um, I have questions for you. Are we gonna be able to meet? And she was like, oh yes, of course. So I'm gonna set it up in December.

And then December came and went. And I am like, well, I would really like to teach people this modality because it has changed my life. And so then. Um, January came and went and I was like, she forgot about this. She legit, she or she's so busy. And I'm like, what is happening? Because I have questions. So then, um, uh, two days ago I emailed her and I was like, Hey, I.

I understand that you're probably super busy, and I just have a few questions. So if we're not gonna get together, can I ask you this because I wanna make sure that I make this a very safe container for people, right? Like one of my questions is, is can you attune people to such high frequencies if they're pregnant?

Is there an age restriction? You know, I just wanna be really safe and cautious because the energy rocked my world. And so she didn't respond back to me, but she responded back to the whole group and basically saying, hello. I wanted to give you enough time to be able to practice and have these, um. Look through the menu, menu, the manual and things like that.

So what days work in February? She gave us two days, and so I told her I can make both days and I haven't heard anything back yet. So I'm hoping that I get my questions answered in February. So then maybe I can start opening up opportunities for people who are really curious about angelic reiki to come learn from me.

Or if anything, you know, they can always learn from my mentor. She usually has a class in April. What's interesting is maybe this is my own projection. I really wanted to teach people in May and it's February, and I don't know if that's too far out. And there's a part of me that's like, well, everyone can go learn from.

Um, Alam or Neilam, N-E-E-L-A-M. Serene, S-A-R-E-E-N. 'cause she's wonderful. Um, but I also know that some people wanna learn from me, right. Especially because I'm in it and I'm doing this work every day. So we'll just see what happens there. But I just wanted to plant that because I know a number of you have been like, when are you doing this?

And I appreciate it, and I'm like, maybe very soon. Um, okay, next up. Outside of Angelic reiki. I had such a synchronistic thing happen, and I am very grateful for it. So I'm gonna pull up this. S just so I have it. Okay. I, last year, uh, had the thought of, I'm like, oh man, I wonder what it would be like to learn from Charlie Goldsmith.

And if you don't know who he is, he is a world renowned energy healer. He has helped. People, I mean, do miraculous things with his energy work that he found he could just do naturally. And I was so enamored, and especially like him working with doctors and things like that, and the things that he's helped people from, like pain reduction, going from like a 10 to a two.

I watch people be able to move like their fingers when they haven't been able to do that for a decade. Like just mind boggling stuff from a health perspective. And so I had, um, last year I signed up for his teachings. And what's interesting with Charlie is that he doesn't make people pay for healings.

He makes people who wanna teach and learn this and be practitioners, they, they pay, which I think is wonderful, um, for those who resonate with that ability and actually have that capacity to be able to do something like that, um, from a financial perspective. So. I signed up and he had this membership where you could access his, um, all of his past live teachings and things like that where he teaches in, in those.

And there were so many, you got, like, there were so many videos and they were like an hour, an hour and a half, two hours long, and so you could pay a hundred dollars a month and access those teachings and recordings. Well, really they were recordings of the teachings, kind of, and I only did it for one month because I was very, very, very frustrated with how it was set up.

From an educational standpoint because he was going through his process, but he wouldn't really tell you what was, what he was doing, or he would say, yeah, I do this meditation, I drop in, and then it would be like, and then what? Or like, I just needed more detail. I needed it to be better structured. I think.

Um, I, I have a Virgo moon. Uh, so we're kind of like perfectionistic about that stuff, you know? So I only did it for a month and I didn't really get what I needed and that was okay. I just let it go. Right? And then, um, angelic reiki came out of nowhere for me, and that's energy healing. And I was so, so excited about it.

So I did that and you know, now I do that work. Um, and it was very interesting because. Like, um, Monday I had this thought come out of nowhere before I went to bed that it was like Charlie Goldsmith. Maybe someone has combed through his his videos and was better able to distill it into a formula or a framework that people could understand.

So I looked up Charlie Goldsmith. Um, energy healing and a YouTube video popped up of this woman and I was like, no way. And she was talking about what she experienced learning by proxy, by being in the live sessions with him and what she had experienced from a pain perspective like. Totally diminishing how she had long CVID and it went away.

And just like really wonderful things that I'm like, oh my gosh. But she didn't teach the process and so I was a little bit frustrated about that because I'm like, dang it, I came here for something specific, you know? And so then I hear in my mind comments. So I went to the comments section and the very first comment.

This person was talking about how Charlie is launching an app called Ennie, which is E-N-N-I-E, and how he is teaching people his process for free if they're looking to maybe be part of this app, and I'm like, shut up. No freaking way if that isn't such a synchronistic. Beautiful. Follow the Nudges trail, right?

Spirit Guide was like, Hey, pay attention here, baby girl. Here's the information you're looking for. This is why you feel called to it. So, Ooh. Oh my God, I'm so excited. Okay, so what you do is you go to Charlie's website and he talks about this app and. I'm gonna share with you about the app because I the, I'm getting so excited.

Okay. First things first, I'm just gonna read this for you. Any is this app and it says, be part of something groundbreaking. Charlie Goldsmith has spent more than 25 years developing a unique energy healing ability. Now for the first time, he's built a platform to test whether others can achieve similar results and to create new opportunities for energy healers to connect with people who seek energy healing.

This is your chance to be part of something exciting. Um, if you've ever wondered whether you have energy healing abilities, if you've already. See my words are kind of fluffy and soft. What if you're already an energy healer and want to validate your skills? If you wanna access energy healing and you would like to help test energy healers?

So the reason why this is so like absolutely amazing and needed is that testing is free and private. Your participation will help us connect with talented energy healers and move toward a trusted, accessible platform that serves people worldwide. So what is the app designed to do? And this hasn't launched yet because they're still in the testing phase.

This is a private platform that allows us to connect people who want access to energy healing with people who believe they have energy healing abilities, and collect feedback about their experiences. Build a database of energy healers who receive positive feedback from users, build a trusted global platform where the public can access energy.

Healers who receive positive feedback from users. This is not about building a business right now, it's about discovering what's possible. So how does the testing work? There are two groups, energy healers. There are people who want to test their energy healing abilities and users, people who want to participate in energy healing sessions and provide feedback on what they experience.

So sessions happen via the app. It's not online audio or video conferencing platforms. There's no video voice, photos, names, or recording of any type, any energy. Healers and users do not meet and they cannot contact each other. Users report their symptoms, um, the at their symptom level before, during, and after the session.

That feedback builds a picture of which energy healers consistently receive positive feedback. So who can be an energy healer? Anyone, you don't need to be a professional or have any formal training. You can use any energy healing method you prefer if it's your own approach, if it's Reiki chronic or another practice.

Or you can learn Charlie's approach if you'd like, which is, um, optional free video trainings that are in, that are made available in the app. So they, he shared some of the best candidates are people who have never tried energy healing before. The app is built to find hidden talent, whether you're brand new or experienced.

Do you have to use Charlie's method? No. You don't need to work in the same way Charlie does, but you can access his teachings before the session. If you'd like, any energy healing style is welcome. What matters is the user feedback. So who can be a user? We're looking for people with concerns that can be felt in the moment and may shift quickly, um, either during or shortly after a healing session.

If your concerns are stable and unlikely to change quickly, this testing phase may not be the best fit right now. We want to ensure strong energy healers aren't ruled out simply because a condition isn't fast enough to shift. So how does privacy work? There are no videos, photos, names, voice or recording.

Healers and patients never meet and cannot contact each other. Users cannot thank or message energy healers in order to protect both parties. You can delete your account and your data at any time. Your data will be fully removed. So this app is designed to be private and safe for everyone. So what are the sessions like?

You're probably wondering. They shared short and focused live through the app, but not through conferencing platforms. A simple timer will guide the session and sessions start short, but can be extended if the user is experiencing a positive effect. Users rate the level of their concerns before, during and after.

There's no video, no sound, no personal chat, and you can't fake results. Only true improvements will be shown through the data. So how many sessions should an energy healer do? They shared more sessions equal better data. We suggest aiming for at least. 10 sessions to give yourself a fair run. You can do more if you'd like.

There's no limit. And then, um, what if I have an off day as an energy healer? They share. It's expected. Even the best energy healers have sessions where things don't click. You can test as many times as you'd like. There's no judgment, no public scoring and no penalty. So how are results used? We are looking for repeatable, consistent effects across multiple users.

Energy. Healers who have different areas of focus or interest. Energy healers who show strong potential will be invited to progress further and may be included in the next phase of the app, which is a paid platform. So what if I don't pass? Which was my fear. Hey, ooh. Um, there is no pass or fail. All results are private.

You can try as many times as you want. If you're not getting consistent results, nothing changes. There is no judgment and no exclusion. If you show promise, you may be invited to test further. Is there a limit to how many energy healers can participate? No. We are casting the widest net possible. If you can do this, we want to find you.

So if you are. Curious. You can go to um charlie goldsmith.com and I'll put that in the notes. Join the email list and you'll be invited to register as an energy healer. A user, or both invites will go out in waves as testing expands. Okay. What's the cost? Nothing testing is completely free for both users and energy healers.

In the future when tested and trusted healers are made available for booking energy, healers will be paid fairly. Sessions may have a fee, and affordability will remain a key value. Will there be group energy healing? Not in this phase. We start with one-on-one sessions to ensure the cleanest possible data.

Um, but group energy healing may be explored in future versions. So do I need insurance to test as an energy healer? No. The app is designed with all necessary protections for this testing phase. You do not need external insurance to participate as a tester. Can I keep my private practice if I qualify?

Yes. This is. Um, designed to add opportunities, not take any away. Will the EPI inter International, international, oh Lord, yes. Um, it's going to launch in English on iOS and Android and then expand to other countries as languages and testing continues to grow. Will Charlie be testing? Yes. Charlie will test, um, anonymously through the app.

Just like all the other healers. The goal is to discover many gifted energy healers, not elevate one person, and that made my heart flutter. Okay. Um. Let's see. What is the long-term goal? Identify talented energy healers who can produce consistent results. Create a trusted platform where the public can access these energy healers, help energy healers build a meaningful income and help reduce the burdens of people who want access to energy healing worldwide.

Summary. The search starts now. We need thousands of energy healers and thousands of users. Even if you can't participate, sharing this with others makes a huge difference. You could help uncover hidden talent and bring energy healing to those who need it most. That's why I wanted to bring it to you because I was like, if I'm lit up about this, I wonder if other people might be too.

So I.

I signed up and right when you sign up, you are invited to apply, right? You, and they ask you spec specific questions, kind of like a Google form, um, but cuter. And so it's like, do you practice energy healing? What types of things do you do? What? Have you experienced as results, like percentage of pain reduction or things like that?

And I shared, you know, I've been doing this since October, 2025, really as a business. So I couldn't like say, you know, I've had 52,000 clients have a 70% pain reduction or help people heal, things like that. But I did talk about how people feel relaxed and how people feel the energy and how, um. How they have their own breakthroughs and insights and things like that.

But also I haven't primarily focused on pain and suffering and chronic illnesses. I have been more like people are curious about their spiritual gifts and seeing if they feel into these certain energies and what they experience, and then also the channeling aspect that I bring through of symbolism and messages from ascended masters or your higher self or your spirit guides or the angels, all that stuff, right?

I translate those symbols. Um, I kind of shared some of that, and then the moment that you apply, you get access to Charlie's teachings and I loved it. It took me about three hours, three hours and some change to walk through it, but this was everything I was looking for last year. Everything specifically, and the fact that it is free is just a gift.

So. In the intro, you get to meet Charlie, you get to hear about Charlie, um, some of the things he experienced, how he realized he had this gift. You hear from two doctors and then you have the tools of healing. These modules are introduction to the tools he uses in every session, energy movement, the zone visualization and thought processes.

And then after that he has live healing examples. So you see 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, um, five different live demonstrations that he held. And what's so cool is you watch him go through his process and he's also explaining the process, um, a little bit. In more depth and then you hear him ask questions like, what is your pain from a level of 10?

Now what are you experiencing? Okay, how about now? What shifted? How about now? Okay. And then you watch people who have chronic pain, who have like swelling or they've never been able to like walk down the stairs like normally, or they have, um. Raynauds are like, like all of these different things. You're watching these people with this chronic pain.

He walks them through it. They have a significant shift or reduction in their pain in that session. And then he talks about how Well, that's amazing. And I'm always after the data, right? So it's great that we can do that. We can like drop that pain now, but now we're gonna wait 24 hours. So then they wait 24 hours and those same people come back and you get to hear, okay, what shifted for them?

Did they notice anything different? All of them notice something different. It was so amazing. And then he helped drop their pain more fully and, and then also like empowering them. Okay, now that you have gotten to this place, right? Let's talk about nutrition. Let's talk about hydration, let's talk about sleep.

Like there was one woman who hasn't slept well for like so long, and she said for that night, for the first time, she slept like all eight hours. And he was talking about how it was like dropping the inflammation so that she could actually sleep so her body could repair itself. And I just, I loved it.

Right, because this is a dance, like the healer can't do all the things right. It's also about having that patient come in and also take responsibility and, and feeling empowered to be able to do so now that the pain is. Less severe. So I just thought that synchronicity was amazing and his teachings just wonderful, honestly.

So, so wonderful, so clear. You can start, like you start. By doing it on yourself and working through his process and things like that, he guides you through it. It's wonderful. So if you're looking for something free and you're looking to maybe start playing with energy in this way, I highly recommend getting in on this.

It's February, 2025, so I don't know if this will be like this in the future, obviously, because they're in the testing phase. Um. Like even if you don't necessarily want to be part of the app, the testing app, just getting to learn this, and then who knows? Maybe you will feel something, maybe you'll feel compelled to practice on other people.

Maybe you'll feel compelled to just try for the fun of it, knowing like, again, there's no judgment. You could have a hidden gift. Right. Um, there was also this little voice in me that's like, what if I can't do this? What if I don't have, like what if I don't have the, isn't that funny? I do this work now.

I've literally heard from so many people that they feel the energy, that they see colors for the first time or they have epiphanies or whatever. And that's just my brain. Just saying like, oh, you're expanding pretty quickly here. What if, so I just wanted to bring that to you because you know it's fun to learn more about your gifts.

Right. And you know, if you can help other people with them too. Wow. Now that's magic. Right? All right, I got that. I got that. Okay. I, I'm looking at my list. Sorry. You can't hear my thought process, obviously, 'cause you're, you're living your life. Um, oh, I did that. Okay. I, mm

Ooh, ooh. Okay, where is it? I'm also gonna put this in the show notes. Guess what? I'm so excited. I am part of another book that is publishing on March 24th, and it's called She Who Flows Guidance for Surrendering to the Divine Feminine and Witnessing the miracles of Self-Love. And I, when I was invited to write for this after, um, after the last book that I was part of.

Which is soul rising, which is more about spiritual awakenings and how we had that happen and how we navigated this. This one is more around the divine feminine, like way more around it. And I was like, well, first thank you for inviting me to write. Wow, what an honor that means so much to me. And then also I was like, well, what the frick do I even write about because I haven't really.

Or Mm, how do I say this? Accessing my divine feminine has been the journey of a lifetime. I shut that down when I was a child. Like I learned that to be feminine. It was not safe. I learned that as a child, like so many of us probably have learned, right? Like, you're not taken seriously. It's not safe, it's dangerous.

Uh, you could be hurt for it. Um, it's not safe to follow your rhythms or the seasons, even though that's what nature is, right? Like, um, intuition was blocked for me for so long because I didn't trust it. So I was like, what the heck do I write about? And then I had an epiphany that rocked me and I'm like, oh, here we go.

So I am, I am so. So proud of this chapter. I, I'm giddy. I am so

like, I'm just gonna pat myself on the back because it's this chapter that I wrote is Art and I'm just gonna call myself out about it because I need to celebrate it. Because it, it just flowed through me effortlessly. And so I'm really excited because you can pre-order for Kindle right now and um, that's like 9 99.

And then physical books and things like that. We'll be launching on March 24th, 2026. Um, so far, unless there's any hiccups. But I'm gonna put that in the show notes because. This book is going to be magnificent, and it's right on time, right? Like we are, we are living at a time where the divine feminine is coming back online, and we get to witness this, and we get to be the embodiments of it and having people share their stories who have already accessed this or have aligned with the divine feminine, you know?

And you get to receive that and maybe have your own epiphanies or your own awakenings or your own, you know, like, oh, I have been guided here, you know? I also think it's just wonderful. I may have talked about this before, but um, there is a man named Chris Bledsoe who had an entire experience. I think I have shared this, but still it aligns.

I'm gonna tell you why. Um, he had this experience where he met the, the lady basically, and it was this beautiful goddess like woman, and she was so mothering and nurturing and unconditionally loving. And she shared that the star of Regulus will align with the sphinx on. Easter of 2026 and that a new knowledge will be accessed, and I think that that timeline is available as more people continue to be love.

And I'm holding hope for it, right? Like, no. What I've noticed is most beings who are galactic or who are, you know, like, um, spirit guides or anything like that, they don't really ever share timelines because probabilities change, right? Like there could be a massive shift that changes the trajectory of where we walk.

And it's just interesting to have this man, Chris Bledso, who has been studied by the Vatican, by the government, things like that, share that information. Also because you know, like even Bashar had shared, and he wouldn't do this for so long, but he shared finally like, we have a very high probability of open contact happening in 2027.

And so it just feels like, well, she who flows this book is coming out in March and helping people access this level of wisdom that maybe opens something inside of them. Or helps them remember something important about who they are. And then maybe in April, you know, we get access to information. Which is just like, I'm so excited because there's hidden treasure everywhere.

Just and like even hidden knowledge of, you know, the divine feminine and how it was suppressed and you know, Mary Magdalene's story and the goddesses and char, all these beings who were written out of our history on purpose because of their power, right? Like because of patriarchy. And so it's just interesting that all of this is clicking into place.

And it also makes me think, you know, if we are more loving and um, people are awakening to the truth of who they are, why? Like that's going to raise the consciousness of our collective, of humanity, of the earth, right? And that is how open contacts can happen with more ease. Because what I've been learning is that galactic beings.

Um, their consciousness operates at such a high frequency that if they're around humans, right? It tripwires our fear. We are like amygdala, our fight or flight response, the quote unquote reptilian brain shifts into, I'm going to die because the, that. Frequency of love is so high that when it trip wires out within you, it brings up all of your shadow and your density, and that feels extremely scary.

Versus if you are doing things to slow down, if you're being more present, if you're finding meditation in your own way, if you're sitting in silence so you can hear yourself more clearly, if you are looking for beauty in the world. If you are sharing love in, in small meaningful ways, right? Like treating other humans with kindness, not battling them on Facebook or other places, you know, being the embodied example of the divine feminine, of surrender to the flow of your life, of honoring your magic and speaking your truth and having boundaries, and again, being, just being love.

Why wouldn't we be able to have these experiences? Also, what I'm super curious about is. Bahar talked about this, where when you, when we, humanity, whenever this happens, we're gonna get access to the truth of our entire history. Everything that has been suppressed, written out, the truth of it. And what happens is because we've had beings here the entire time, whether they're in the ocean or cloaked or whatever, recording human history, we're gonna be able to see Atlantis and La Maria and all of these other incredible things.

Because they've been recording it Holographically. Can you imagine what it will be like to see the truth? Wow. We have been lied to in so many ways. In so many ways. So to be able to access the truth, because we were so willing and brave to be able to incarnate now and to be able to be loved. And to share love and light and to be our true, authentic selves and to follow our hearts and to share our hearts with others.

You know, like to be part of the catalyst that changes everything for the world. If you don't feel so freaking proud of who you are and what you are and the light that you bring. And I understand, like for me, for so long, I'm like, I wanna bake a. Make a big, meaningful impact. I wanna make the world better.

I wanna make it brighter. I wanna make it more loving. Like, why can't people see we can live a different way? Right? I just, I'm like, oh, what can I do? And then you're like, you just be you in every moment you can. That's all you impact, exactly who you're meant to impact. Because when you drop a stone in water, it ripples out and you trust that that impact lands where it's meant to as it's meant to.

In exactly the way that it's meant to. And when you live your life in that way, and you trust that your energy is moving things towards the right direction because you are being a vessel of love, this is how we change the world together, and it's why you matter more than you could ever comprehend. Okay.

Oh, okay. Also, I am reading a book right now called Masters of Integration. This is why I said it's a hodgepodge of things, uh, because I wanted to bring something that I read in here that I thought was just fabulous. So Masters of integration. Um, is, it's called Open Contact Mindset edition, and it's reveling in the field of infinite possibilities.

And this is a book by Elon that's channeled by Andrew. And if you've been here for a little bit, you know that I share some of his works because I think he's wonderful or they're wonderful interdimensional beings. Um. But this book is, is interesting because it's like a educational manual and I can only read chunks of that at a time.

Versus I have another book coming that's channeled by a clear heart song and it's Anna, a Grandmother of Jesus. I know. I'm gonna fly through that. Uh, oh man. I fricking love books like that. Okay. Like I, like I read one Dolores Cannon book that's channeled. I have another one about. Mary Magdalene and the Enes, and that one's channeled.

And it was about Jesus' life or yeah, she was life and I just loved it. But this one reads more as an educational manual, and Elon actually shared in the book like, you are not meant to breeze through it. You're meant to take it step by step, and you're meant to sit with it and contemplate and act on what you learn.

And so the beginning of the book talks about your beliefs, your thoughts, your emotions, how that, you know, facilitates your life. But there was a picture that I shared on social, but it went away because it only lasts for 24 hours. But I wanted to speak to it on one side. Well, it's a left and a right column, and the title of the column is different.

Different. Did you hear that? Did you hear that word that came outta my mouth? Different. Is that delicious and different? Oh god. Oh, thank you for your grace. Okay. Different beliefs, different results. So on the left hand side, it's this column and it says. Actually in the middle it says express belief. So it says on the left hand side it says, I am not worthy of joyful relationships.

And then you get to go down the column of that express belief in what happens. So when you think, I am not worthy of joyful reliefs, joyful relationships, um, they show you next the emotional resonance to a belief. So that one is discordant or chaotic or not aligned. Then if you flow down the chart, it says anxiety.

That's the emotion that you feel. If you believe you are not worthy of joyful relationships. What's the thought? C, no one ever truly values me. Well, what's the action? Then? You disengage or you isolate, and then what's the outcome? You're overlooked by others. I saw that in myself, um, because for so long it was really tricky for me to grow my business, and I was like, no one sees me.

No one cares about what I have to say. And so then what would happen? I would absolutely be overlooked by others because I didn't have that core belief. And so what Earth wanted to mirror that to me, like my consciousness mirrored that back to me. So that was the left side, right? That discordant belief.

Now on the right side for the express belief, the opposite, I am inherently worthy of profound love and connection. Well, the emotional resonance to that belief is coherence, it's alignment, right? So what's the emotion? Anticipation. What's the thought that you would have? I am excited to meet people who reflect my worth.

What's the action? Engagement and social ability. Right? You're probably more likely to connect with other people. You're probably more likely to share. You're probably more likely to speak up for your magic, right? And so what's the outcome? You're valued by others because what you emanate you receive. And um, I wanted to bring that to you.

Um, right before I share this other thing that I wanted to, um, have you contemplate, but along the line of that, it's really interesting. So last night I'm like, I'm hodgepodging it here. Okay. But it'll be linked, I promise. I, I asked my spirit guides out loud before I went to bed. I was like, Hey, team of light.

Can you please share with me what the next step is in my career? Can you please make it crystal clear and repeated so that I know without a shadow of a doubt what my next step is? And so I went to bed. And I woke up in a dream and I found myself in Northeast Minneapolis, and we were at a community gathering and we were celebrating something truly, just profoundly magnificent, something so magical.

And while I didn't know exactly what that was, I was like, whoa, the energy is electric. There is live music filling the atmosphere. I see food trucks, you know, lining along the street. I just, oh, I feel so alive. And I see that there are different booths there from different businesses. So I see off into the distance this booth, and it's like white light and I'm like pulled to it.

I walk up to the booth to read the name of the business to see what it is, and it says in big, bold, all white letters. Oracle. Oracle, aura. Oracle ura meaning time in Spanish. And the moment I read that, I repeated it in my brain in the dream. I was like, oh wow, it's that. That's so clever that it says that.

And then I woke up. And as I was thinking about that, um, first I was like, time Oracle or Oracle of time. What does that mean? You know? And also, what does the word Oracle really mean, right? It's like a title, but what does that mean? And all of a sudden, out of nowhere in my mind's eye, I have a vision that I am pulled back to a session that I had last week where she looked at me and she was like, oh my God.

I have to tell you something. I have never been told something by a therapist that I don't know. And oh my God, you blew my mind. And she was like, oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God. And I was like, well, what is happening? But I realized that my gift is, I can see. I can see, I can see through things. I can see the underlying currents, I can see patterns.

I can see your looping consciousness. I can see your unconscious beliefs. I can see why your emotions fuel certain actions. I can see how your beliefs and thoughts link together in order to make you run these habits in these patterns. And so, just because I think you may be curious and um, I talked about this on TikTok, but still.

Not everyone listens to me on TikTok. Um, what had happened was, so the. The pattern that she runs is she saves people, she saves her friends. She goes so far above and beyond for her partners. She rescues people, she saves people from themselves. She just, she gives and gives, and gives and gives to her detriment, and as a result, she carries the weight of the world on her shoulders.

She is constantly anxious and she doubts herself. Right. Well, I realized after she had talked about. Something she had recently done and why she was so anxious about it. I was like, oh, this makes so much sense. I can see why you have this pattern running. And she was like, why? And I'm like, the reason why you are rescuing and saving people is because of what happened to you in your childhood.

And so we went back to that moment where she had a whole circle of friends, a group of good friends, and they decided they didn't wanna be friends with her anymore. And they all abandoned her. Can you imagine being a child and having all of your friends just leave without telling you why? So as a kid, she internalized that, right?

I don't belong. I'm not safe. I'm not worthy, I'm not lovable. And because she was abandoned, what did she do? I'm gonna do anything in order to find safety. I am going to maybe call in friends who are takers. I'm going to call in partners who can't see me and who cause me anxiety and who make me go so far above and beyond in order to receive love.

So she's going and just like running a pattern because she wants to find belonging, she wants to feel safe. She never wants to feel that loneliness again. That like, what if no one, like, what if I don't attract someone? Who can hold me, who can hold my heart, right? Like, what if no, there's no one better than who I'm with right now, even though this person is extremely toxic.

And so when we went back to that root of that pain of that wound, and she could see it with way more compassion that like, now she can see, oh, my energy attracted these people to show me this wound. I'm seeing now that if I am trying to rescue people from themselves, what will they learn? Right. Like her having that quote unquote abandonment moment, especially as a child, locking that in as something inherently wrong with her and never getting closure and understanding what she could have done differently for her to go so far above and beyond for other people at her own detriment right now, now that she has that clarity and the awareness for why she does what she does.

Unconsciously now we work at an energetic level. Right now we start installing beliefs of like, I am worthy no matter what. I am lovable because I exist, like my confidence is magnetic to the right people. When I am not rescuing people, I allow people to learn their own lessons in the way that I had to.

And it's not that you can't be helpful, of course, but I also recognize that wound in myself. Like, if I could help all of these people, they'll love me. How could you not love someone who wants to help you all the time? And then you realize there are people who just wanna take because they don't know any differently because they've always been supported and always been rescued, and always been enabled, right?

And so if I can fulfill a role for you that helps you feel less pain, am I not a good person? Don't you wanna be with me? And then they take advantage. And you let them continue to break your boundaries because you're like, what if you're the best? What if I'm not worthy of attracting anything better? And I now, you know, I'm on the other side because I'm with a partner who loves me in ways that absolutely blow my mind that I cannot believe like a man like that exists.

But then I'm like, wait, but I exist. Someone with a heart like mine exists, you know? And I just had to be able to fall in love with myself in order to be magnetic and have that reflected back to me through Nikolai. And so our work together, um, for my client, which I'm so excited about, is having her get on board with that belief because I know what's possible for someone when they love themselves unconditionally, when they see their patterns more clearly, and then they choose from a more empowered place.

So. All of that to say, if you are looking for clarity in your life and you want support from a spirit guide, ask out loud, ask for clarity and for repeated messages, and maybe it will surface in a dream like-minded. Or maybe you will have repeated messages in a song lyric that hits you in your heart, or maybe you'll read a sentence and it'll be reflected back to.

Like in the radio or in an ad, or maybe a friend says the exact same thing or something similar and you're like, whoa. I'm present and aware enough in order to catch that. To see it, to see that reflection. So really, it's my invitation to you to ask for more support and just pay attention. Slow down enough to be able to see or hear what's in your field, because they're always, always supporting you.

And when you ask, like you will receive, you have to trust that, you know, okay, first I need a drink. Oh.

Okay. To the book Masters of Integration by Elon. Uh, they talk about thought forms and how, um, thought forms are a complete simulation. You can explore its angles, feel its textures, and test its emotional consequences and refine its details all without the leg or commitment of physical action. This is the true purpose of imagination.

It can be considered as your quantum simulator, so. As an example, when you ruminate or spiral consistently running the same simulation, which is dwelling on wor worly, uh, I'm gonna, I'm gonna re-say that for the sake of myself. So, when you ruminate, consistently run the same simulation, which is dwelling on a worry or reveling in a desire, you are hardening the, that non-physical blueprint.

You are adding layers of detail, energetic intensity, and. Stability, making it an increasingly probable and potent candidate for physical manifestation. You are quite literally rendering your reality in the non-physical realms before it ever appears on the screen of your physical life. Oh, doesn't that make you say like, gosh, I'm so cool.

Oh, okay. So thoughts as the focusing lens of perception, the universe, all that is your expanded self, contains every possible reality, every piece of information, and every potential experience all at once. Right now, it is a field of infinite possibilities, overlapping data. There is no inherent need to create the reality you desire from scratch.

It is your job to select it from the infinite menu that already exists. Thought is like the focusing lens of your consciousness. Although a thought may seem to pull something out of a void, this is not the mechanism. Thoughts act like a precision lens that brings a specific preexisting frequency of reality into sharp focus while leaving all other frequencies blurred and imperceptible in the background.

When you project a thought of lack, you are not creating lack. You are adjusting your perceptual lens to focus on the already existing universal frequency of lack. Which is technically an abundance of lack. Oh, making it your dominant, experienced reality. When you switch to a thought of abundance, you are simply refocusing your lens on the parallel frequency of abundance that is always there.

This is why you find what you look for. Your thoughts literally dictate what slice of infinite. Hmm. See, and I, we were in the flow. And my brain jumped ahead and my mouth couldn't keep up. This is why you find what you look for. Your thoughts literally dictate what slice of the infinite hologram you are capable of perceiving, subsequently attracting, and therefore finally experiencing.

So a thought, especially one that is repeatedly energized by focus and emotion, is not merely an ephemeral wisp. It becomes a structured, semi tangible, energetic object in your personal field, a thought form. This thought form has its own vibrational signature, and like any object with mass its own gravitational pull, I.

This mental gravity is what attracts circumstances that are a vibrational match. A persistent thought form of anxiety is an energetic magnet that will relentlessly pull anxious situations from the field of probability into your direct experience. Conversely, a stable thought form of gratitude and appreciation becomes a powerful gravitational anchor that organizes the quantum field around you into experiences, people and objects that give you even more to be grateful for, rather than merely thinking thoughts, you are building a constellation of energetic anchors in your consciousness and your physical life is the direct experiential result of their combined gravitational pull.

There was one more thing I wanted to share, I think. Ooh, okay. You're only allowed to share like 300 words I read. Maybe quoted with proper credit given, I hope. I hope this doesn't go over 300 'cause I'm not trying to get in trouble, but I wanted to share this last part with you. Okay. Gratitude is a potent high frequency attitude that has its own distinct thought patterns, and also emotions and actions when individuals are generating gratitude.

This projects a high frequency vibration that is capable of creating an interference, wave and thought patterns. Very often thought patterns are generated in a situation to ponder what's wrong so that it can then strategize how to fix the perceived problems. Employing gratitude shifts the perspective to ponder.

What's right, this shift in perspective changes everything so. Like if you've been in personal development, they talk about gratitude being the thing. And I think sometimes, maybe not sometimes, but often when we hear things repeated, we start taking it for granted. Or it becomes this like, platitude, it's 12, 12, hey meira me, um, this platitude.

Or it's something that's like, oh yeah, well we already know this, but do we really act on it? Like we forget that it's this potent frequency. Right. And when you read like, no, no, no, my love, gratitude. Shifts the perspective to ponder what's right and that shift in perspective changes everything. It's because you're literally changing frequency and when you look again, like what it said, what you look for, your thoughts literally dictate what slice of the infinite hologram you are capable of perceiving, attracting, and therefore finally experiencing.

Does that make you feel so powerful? So often our brain is stuck in like survival. And we're trying to figure out how to get away from pain, how to get away from this confronting issue, this struggle that we have, right? It's like, oh, and then we keep focusing on it, and then we keep ruminating on it and we keep going on this downward spiral of our own personal hell.

When if you were to start looking for the good. The things that make you feel, even the tiniest sense of gratitude, that's actually so powerful. And if you shift into, or if you shift from what's wrong into what's possible, oh my God, then you start seeing more possibilities, right? You start having things come out of the woodwork, or like they talked about from the hologram.

Then it gets to be your lived experience. And so I started this last year where every single night before I go to bed. And you may already do this, peop some people journal journaling is amazing. I am kind of lazy about that specifically, but every night before I go to bed, I look for 10 things that I feel genuine gratitude for.

And when I first started, I did it wrong. I was like, oh, I am grateful for the free coffee I had today. I am grateful that Nikolai made me breakfast. I am grateful that, um, this person booked in this. I am grateful that I have seven sessions with this person. Things like that. If you know why that's wrong, because I'm just going through the motions.

Just because I think that I'm grateful for something doesn't mean that I feel grateful for something, and that has been part of my lesson in my whole life, is that instead of just, you know, using my brain to experience things and to think my way through things, it's like, oh, the feeling is the key because the feeling is your energetic.

Signature. It's what you're broadcasting. Yeah. Your thoughts become things, but they become things through your emotions, your actions, and you know, the power behind what you radiate. And so now what I do differently, and feel free to take this, of course. Oh, there are rainbows all around my room. I love that.

For me, that that means the sun is out. Thanks son. Um, first water. Sorry.

Ugh, my voice. It's like I can only talk for so long. Um. Hmm. Now before I go to bed, I look for 10 things and I feel it. And by that I mean I will let myself relive the moment that made me feel grateful, like. Yesterday, Nikolai made me the best latte. We got a latte machine because he was spending so much money going to get coffee.

And his friend was like, you could make stellar lattes at home. And I was like, you don't need that. And now I'm like, oh, we needed that. And so now he makes Nik lattes. Oh, so great. I made that up. By the way, if he ever tells you anything different, it's because he knows I made that up. Thanks. But he made me this latte with something that looked like a beet at the top with the foam, and he put like just a little sprinkle of cinnamon.

And he brought me this mug and it was so warm and creamy and beautiful, and I let myself sit with it and I was like, oh my God. In my mind I'm like, I loved receiving that mug from Nikolai. I loved the little detail he put into it. I loved looking at the light in his eyes when he delivered it to me because he was proud.

You know, um, I was reflecting about. Something that I read in a book that I was, not this one that I just shared with you, but I was like, oh my God, I'm so grateful the way that that sentence hit me. It just made my heart so happy. You know? Or I had a message from, um, someone I'm working with right now, and it was so loving and kind and I realized like one of the things that I do is I don't really.

Sit with things and just immerse myself in it. I'm always moving to the next thing and the next thing and the next thing. And it's because I'm like, I gotta keep moving. Right? If you don't keep momentum, then what happens? And that's something I'm rewiring. But she said she was like, you. You need to sit with the impact that you've had on this person.

You fundamentally changed her life through her awareness. Because of this, she probably will not run these certain behaviors that will lead to this specific life. And I don't wanna talk about it 'cause it's pretty sensitive, but we broke through something so profound and when she said that I was like, oh, so before bed, I'm like, I am.

So like I really. I feel so seen from what she shared with me and just like I replayed what she said in my mind, just so I could really sit with it. And so I do that for 10 things, usually seven to 10 things, right? But I really try to look even for the smallest, smallest, tiniest detail, like the way that my kitty looked at me or something, or you know, something that my mom said to me.

Or something I read online that just moved me, and I just really sit with it. And today I woke up to new money in my account that I didn't know was coming, you know? Um, and so really just like letting yourself feel the beauty of your life and focusing on it so that more can be surface to your awareness and just play with it.

So it's like learn from my mistakes. Also just take this and run with it. I promise if you make it a daily habit, you are going to be in awe of what happens for you. Okay? So this was a hodgepodge of things. Uh, again, if you feel called to learning from Charlie, that's free right now. I highly recommend even if you feel like you don't wanna test, but maybe you do wanna test, maybe you wanna see, you know, like just for fun.

Try that. Um, angelic reiki, I'm hoping to teach and attune people soon, hopefully in May. Right? I'm, I just, I'm not trying to like, I. What's the word? Take anything away from em, you know, in April, even though I was considering April, who knows? We'll see. May, well, who knows. Okay. Um, she who flows is coming out on March 24th and maybe something you learned today moved you or was impactful.

If you feel like sharing it with me, I love hearing it. One of my favorite things is when I get fan mail, not because it's like, oh my God, I have a fan. It's because I'm speaking to intelligent human beings with hearts of gold. I see that reflected back to me in the things that you share with me. And there's something about my energy, like I learned from Kim Capano, the Hawaiian High seer.

He said that my soul color is blue and green, and part of that means I require reciprocity. And I, I didn't realize it, but I really do. Like, I love hearing from you guys. I love it. I love it. I love hearing like a shift that you have or something that made you step back and like reevaluate something or you know, like you tried an exercise and you loved it, or you tried something and it didn't really work, but then you had an epiphany about something else, about yourself.

You know, like it's just fun to be alive with you. Because I learned so much about myself through you and through your experiences and your willingness to listen and to be with me, and you know, the way that you share love moves me. So as I say, and as I mean, I love you so much, and I hope you have a wonderful magical day.