The edge of disclosure

This episode begins in curiosity … with dreams, extraterrestrial contact, and the question of what’s unfolding in our world right now. But where it actually takes you is somewhere much closer.

Into your body, your ability to discern, and to that steady place where you already know what's true.

We're exploring how easily your inner knowing can get filtered or overridden, and what shifts when you begin to recognize the difference between what you’ve been taught to believe and what you can feel for yourself. 🙌

What you'll receive inside the episode:

• What if your next level of clarity doesn’t come from thinking harder, but from learning how to soften your system?
• A dream about extraterrestrial contact that revealed something unexpectedly practical about trust, safety, and how your body processes truth. 
• Why your most aligned ideas feel electric at first and then suddenly “not for you.” 
• The hidden filter between your heart and your mind that reshapes what you believe is possible. 
• A reframe on discernment that has nothing to do with what you see … and everything to do with what your body knows. 
• The difference between inspiration that expands your life and fear that shrinks it back down.
• A simple coherence practice that shifts you out of survival and into creation (without forcing or overthinking). 
• The belief about worthiness that looks normal, but blocks what you say you want.
• Why “I’ll deserve it when…” might be the very thing keeping it out of reach. 
• A perspective on self-trust that removes the need for constant validation, approval, or permission. 
• The energetic difference between aligned support … and something that subtly asks you to give your power away. 
• A real client breakthrough that turned “giving everything away” into a completely new relationship with wealth. 
• A story that reveals how your environment shapes what you believe you’re allowed to receive. 
• The piece of EFT tapping people miss that makes it either powerful or ineffective. 
• What happens when you stop trying to “fix” your emotions and actually let them speak. 
• The shift from “I don’t know if this will work” to being the one who creates what works.

Resources:

• This the Breathe with Sandy five minute nervous system reset I LOVE!
• Masters of Integration: Reveling in the field of infinite possibilities

Transcript

Ashley Mondor: 

Hello, Hello! I am coming off of a wonderful reset your nervous system in five minutes with Breathe with Sandy on YouTube and I will put that in the show notes for you because it's wonderful and I love it and it makes me feel so good. Uh, I. I purposely did that because I felt really scattered. I was like, ah, God, I don't know what to talk about. What do I talk about right now? I could talk about my heart healing sessions. I could talk about my halo healing sessions, which are angel greggy with, you know, the channel messages and symbols and things like that. But I was like, I just feel so scattered. And then I was like a haha, wait, I can talk about aliens. Oh, because why not? Okay, why not? So I, I think it's really interesting because. Um, they say in the spiritual space specifically, this has come through from Bashar, who's one of my favorite Channelers, and he shared that 2026 is the year of disclosure, and 2027 is the year that open contact begins. And maybe that won't happen, who knows? But I also have been seeing a lot of people who are seeing ships and things like that, or they're being visited by. Interdimensional beings in their rooms, things like that. Um, for me personally, I have never in my life ever, ever, ever had dreams about aliens until last year. Like, what are you talking about? Right? And you could just say on one level, oh, that's your unconscious mind processing things on the other. I'm like, I, my brain made up of being, I have never seen in my life. What are you talking about? And they always give me wisdom. They always give me something. Uh. That is applicable to me or to humanity. And so I had a dream that I posted on social media, but because this is my channel and it is longer, lasts longer than, you know, an algorithm, obviously I'm gonna share it here because going back to 2026 being the year of disclosure, it's really interesting because I. I saw, I think, is it June or July that Steven Spielberg is dropping this movie called Disclosure Day? And candidly, I'm actually really curious to see how they spin it. Is it going to be fear-based? Is it gonna be like an alien invasion takeover thing, or is it going to be, you know, expanding consciousness and dropping truths and things like that? So, Hmm. We'll see. I am also reading with Nikolai well, and by reading, I mean listening too. Uh, project Hail Mary, which is also a movie that's out, but the book is phenomenal, and that's about humanity and aliens as well. And I just find that to be really curious. And so what I'm also, uh, it's, it's also really interesting right now because today I think either 11 or 12 scientists have either gone missing or they've been taken off the planet. You know, like they're no longer here. And what I'm, I'm just so curious, isn't even, I don't even know if it's the right word, but when you start looking at this, the fields of study and the expertise that these people have, it's been focused on nuclear energy or things around UFO technology. Like, like David Wilcox, supposedly they said that he committed suicide and he may wear like very well have, but he is, he's been prominent in the field for decades and so it's like what is happening and. I also, because I've been in this space for so long, like a number of them have been on ancient aliens, you know, with this information. And is it because they have information to free energy? Because if there's free energy, that's a problem specifically for billionaires. You know, specifically for people who, who are running things behind the scenes. Because when we have access to free technology, that changes everything. And so I'm also very, very interested to see what happens because the president of the United States has started talking about disclosure, and I am wondering if they're gonna do this. Event where they call it like Project Bluebeam, where it's this fake alien invasion in order to incite and elicit fear and chaos because a, that's like a delicious energy for certain beings to feed off of. But also because then it's like, what will humans do well, they say, oh my God, help, help. We need, we need someone outside of ourselves. We, ugh. Or are we gonna remember who we are as. Immortal creator beings. There's a reason why we have religion and things like that in place to make you believe your power is outside of you. It's a reason why UA was killed because he went against the regime and he offered information. Like healing and things like that, that we all have access to because he remembered. And so I'm curious to see what happens because we're gearing up for something. And I also know that because I've been in this space, outside of the fear and the propaganda, that there are beings who are profoundly loving. And they have been waiting for us to be ready because our nervous systems haven't been in a place where we can handle that level of love, you know? And so I, I had a dream. Where I met a being and I, again, I have very few dreams with aliens, but, but this one was great and so I wanna speak to it because I was in the dream outside with a group of friends when a saucer flew right up to me. And my last dream, where I meant, you know, aliens, the saucer flew right over and above me and they sent me a telepathic message and it was to soften, to relax. And then it flew off and I was like, there's nothing else. We're just gonna do that. What do you mean? But I, I also understand that if you are softened and opened and, and receptive, that means that your nervous system isn't in fight, flight, bon or freeze. You're not in survival. And when you are in a calm, more peaceful space, you are more open because you can hear your intuition more clearly. It's not being clouded by anxiety, fear, worry, or doubt, you know? And so I was like, okay, tracks. So in this dream, that saucer flew right up to me, and then I watched as a greenish gold being floated down from the bottom of the ship and then just landed right in front of me and we fricking locked eyes. And then I felt in my body a wave of immense love, like all the way through my body. It was like every cell was being bathed in love. And then I got a telepathic message because I remember in my dream its mouth wasn't moving. And I was like, oh, I am receiving something. And I heard this. Hello Ashley. And then. I watched that being in front of me, shapeshift and look exactly like one of my friends, and it caught me off guard because I was like, my friend is also here right now. You look just like her. What is happening? And so I asked it in my mind, I was like, why did you choose that form? And it told me that many extraterrestrials or aliens or interventionals are already here and they're moving in ways humanity can recognize and feel safe with. And I believe that, I think they're in the oceans. I also think that they, we don't even have context for what they look like. So our brain may not even perceive them, especially if we're on a different like frequency. Right? Or if they're in a different frequency, a more loving frequency, a more expanded one. Or maybe they don't even have physical bodies, you know? So that's the thing. But. But that point of they're moving in ways humanity can recognize and feel safe with. I think that's gonna be one of the things with disclosure. I think we're gonna see that there have been hybrids in the government and in places that we are all the time. All the time that they've been here and or they're using some sort of holographic technology. And I say that out loud and there's a part of me, the grounded part that's like, girl, you sound crazy. But then there's another part of me that's like, but it feels like truth. It feels like truth. Like what? We can't believe we're the only ones in this entire solar system, let alone the universe. Come on. Come on. Ugh. So what stayed with me from this dream was that that being, I think chose my friend's face and body to show me something so much deeper and it's that we trust what feels familiar and what we can recognize. But not everything that looks familiar is what it seems. And also that discernment is energetic. It doesn't live in what you see with your eyes, but in what your heart feels. And I wanna speak to that a little bit because I mean, we've been taught that if, if you don't see it, you don't believe it, gotta see it, tell, believe it. It's not true, especially because you can only perceive a very, very, very, very tiny bandwidth of light. If you're only perceiving that much specifically based on what frequency you are resonating at, we're there is so much we can't even comprehend. You know, like what? It's also why I think we obviously have more than five, six senses because your cells see. You perceive energy, you can feel it. You can know when someone's in a bad mood, like what is that? Some of us have, you know, can feel spirits, right? Like or hear clear ly. So it's just a really interesting thing. And I also know that your heart picks up information in the field around you with greater depth. Greater clarity because it has expanded so much further out from your body. And so what happens is your heart has vision. It has 40,000 of its own neurons, it has its own short and long-term memory. And so what happens is, and I'm, I think this is the process, but your heart, because it's your, the gateway to your soul that it is accessing information from your higher self and it speaks to you in what curiosity? Joy. Play imagination, passion, and gives you that information and relays it to your brain, and then what happens? Your brain. Filters that based on what your beliefs. Based on your experiences based on if you're tired or hungry, if you're dehydrated, if you're in pain, right? If you are living in the future of anxiety or if you're living with shame or guilt or grief, and I'm not like throwing shade to any of those emotions. I mean, that's partially why you came here as a human being is to explore such density. But if you are feeling inspired, and I've had this happen where it's like I have this magnificent idea and I'm literally vibrating out of my body and I'm like, oh my God, I can see exactly how this will pan out. Oh my God, this is mine, baby. This is mine and I can't wait to work with it in these ways and I can see how I would like play with this or whatever. You're just really excited. And then what happens? Something within you kicks in and you're like, Hmm, not you. Who do you think you're to do that? What do you mean? Who do you think you are that's already been done before? Is that even that novel? Why would you do that? That's gonna take way too much time. Oh, people aren't gonna be able to afford that. What makes you think you are so special and that those are your beliefs, right? It's your programming. It's your conditioning. Maybe you inherited it, maybe it's something that's, you know, beliefs based through your family, or you're picking it up from, you know, truly what you've inherited through your genetics. So it's just so interesting what happens because I've seen time and time and time again where people are very inspired in that inspiration is your spirit. It's in spirit. And then their brain kicks in and they're like, well, we're not the type of person who does that. We like. That's too big, too expansive, too scary, too far out there. What will people think? Oh my God, I'm gonna be outcasted. Ooh. Well, that touches on a belonging core subconscious need. Right? A belonging. A belonging. My mouth is kind of fluffy today. Belonging worthiness. Feeling enough, feeling whole, feeling connected to source and everything, not feeling separate really, you know, like feeling stable, feeling secure. So like so many things touch on your core unconscious needs and desires. And so when something comes in that feels inspirational and asks you to expand, if you are not actively regulating your nervous system. If you're not actively taking care of yourself, if you don't have a system in place that supports you to bring this inspiration into reality through your creation, it just leaves. We suppress it, right? Like we run away from it. We run away from ourselves, and your spirit and your higher self is like, okay, well, we'll bring it back around again when you're ready. Or Okay. Not this time. Alright. You know, and there's no judgment around that because you are in density, crystallized in a human form, navigating things that, you know, other beings don't have to, because you ability to go to the depth of deep emotion or to be able to feel pain, you know, and walk through trauma and challenge and hardship and all of those things. So. Just knowing that your heart is picking up on information and if you follow your heart and there's like this, um, this saying, it's like, follow your heart but bring your brain with you. What I would actually change that is like. Follow your heart and choose coherence because coherence is when your brain and your heart sync up, and that's by allowing yourself, at least what I do is I will breathe in through my nose for a count of five and breathe out my nose for a count of 10, and I'll do that three, four or five times so I can become present. And then I say something like, I'm safe, I'm at peace, or something like that. And then I move from that. Coherence because when you are in coherence, you are open, receptive, relaxed, you're clearer, you're not moving from a place of survival. You're actually thriving because you are safe in the present moment. And from there is when you can start facing your fears. You know, you, you are the creator. You are able to create beautiful, wonderful, magical, aligned things, or just to play with life for the fun of it. Instead of continuing to live in a loop of anxiety, fear, doubt, worry, scarcity. Stuff like that, you know? And so I. The key for us moving forward as we expand and we prepare, what I think is, this is the timeline I choose, okay. Is open contact, because I, I wanna explore the universe. I, I'm just like, ah, when we have technology where people, we. Can like lay on these med beds and things like that and they can heal or they have sound or lighter vibration, you know, medicines and things like that. And oh my God, when we have free energy and clean air and water and, and we're taking care of our earth and we're learning about nutrients for our soil and you know, like planetary management and how we can coexist together and live with and as nature, like, oh my God, what is possible? What is possible? We also are going to, you know. You have to understand discernment and how there are beings who do not have our best interests at heart, who do not want us to remember who we are, and, and that's part of the darkness and it's part of the, all that is there is. There is love and there is not love, and we are exploring that in this density, and there are beings who are going to come, and this is part of the thing I think that's fascinating about Satan is they're like selling your soul to the devil for fame and fortune and things like that, and how the devil's always trying to get you and you're like, Hmm, that's my desire. Right? I am also a being of shadow. And light the yin and the yang. I am one whole complete being. I do not suppress my shadow. I learn about the power that's within it. It, all of my fears, my worries, my doubts, anything I feel guilty around or shameful of, or whatever those are even like negative emotions and limiting beliefs and things like that. You are so powerful that you can literally look at that and alchemize it into love and beauty and wisdom and power in a way that you can change not only yourself or your life, but the world around you. Simply by you choosing to see yourself as a creator, being. And so there are beings that may come and be like, well, we can help you, but you gotta bow down to us. But obviously they're not gonna say it like that. They have gifts to share, but is there a hidden agenda? You know? Or is something gonna happen where we have to give our power away? Well, we don't do that because we're, we are source embodied. We are literally resourced. We're here. And we're remembering that, and that's part of the awakening journey, you know, so to speak even deeper to this alien dream, it's knowing that truly no being is above you. No being is above you. And isn't it interesting that we have been indoctrinated into systems like the patriarchy and like religion that tell you that in order to be worthy or valuable or enough. You either have to be like a white man or you have to be blessed by this church, this system, you have to be able to tie their pay however much, or you have to make, you know, you have to make however much in order to be worthy to receive respect. Right. This pyramid living where someone's at the top and has all the power and then it's a, uh, I was gonna say. Ripple. It's a ripple down, but it's trickle. I was gonna say triple. Oh. Oh no words. Where it's a trickle down, right. And it's like, well, you can only gain power by standing on top of other people. Versus we can all share our wisdom. In a circle, and there are people who can step forward with their magic and step back when it's not their expertise. Like, if no one is above you, then what? Then we're all equal. My God. What happens then? What happens then? Hmm. So no being is above you. Even if they carry advanced technology or seem more evolved, aligned beings feel like equals. They meet you with profound respect for your sovereignty and a kind of love that will never try to overpower you because sovereign beings respect sovereignty. Because when you're a sovereign, you know what that means. You know what that means for other people, other beings, because when they're sovereign, they're empowered. They can bring their gifts, their magic, their intelligence to exactly what they need to when they need to. I believe that everyone is inherently sovereign again, because you're a creator. And we're here at a time where it's like, Ugh, you are so incredible. You are so powerful. You have no like, you have no idea. And the reason why you have no idea is because your brain only knows what it knows, but your heart has access to infinite divine intelligence. You know, truth. And I think it's also part of the journey of like every step you take in alignment with your heart, things get clearer and clearer and I can see, you know, looking back on my journey, how I thought I knew specific truth. And then what happens, I am embody something deeper, I gain more clarity and maybe something I said was wrong or a distortion in the past because I just was only thinking about it versus now I'm living and breathing with it. Embodied truth is so much different because that's where your heart is. It's with you. And so I have been reading a lot about, um, Ilan, and if you're new here, Ilan is a, being from Sani, who's like a first contact specialist. Who is who? Bahar. That's what Boar's role is. Bahar is a channeler. Been doing it for 40 years, channeled through a man named Darryl Anka. Ilan is channeled through a man named Andrew, and we have no idea who Andrew is because Elon's focus is on the message, not on the human, which I think is amazing. And so Ilan had shared that the focus is to make your primary objective the embodiment of self-trust. And so this is the message you see, many of you seek external validation for your choices. You ask, am I doing this right, or is this the correct path? Or what do others think of this? In doing so, you are handing the steering wheel of your reality over to the collective or to a hierarchy or to the story of the world. The mastery lies in coming to the realization that your own excitement is the heartbeat of the universe specifically for you. When you feel that pull, that quiet, magnetic attraction, that's the universe saying this is the signature of your soul. If you can learn to trust that impulse above all else, even when it looks illogical to the world, you move into a state of total alignment. It's the practice of saying, I do not need to know the how or the when. I only need to know that this excites me and therefore it is my path. The moment you fully trust that your excitement is not a trap or a luxury, but the very mechanism by which your reality is built, you stop being a passenger. You stop trying to live and start being. The living embodiment of your own truth, you cease to be influenced by the changing weather of the collective and realize that you are the sky itself. Vast, permanent, and encompassing everything. Trust yourself, not just the you that has a history and a human persona, but the you that is the eternal. Infinite creator. When you act upon your highest excitement with integrity, you are demonstrating the ultimate trust in the one who created you for you are that one. Oh, I mean, how does that, how does that feel for you? Do you love that? I mean, doesn't it? Oh my God. I also wanted to. I made that so weird, but it's okay. Um, I also wanted to speak to integrity. The integrity component. Following your segment with integrity means honoring the whole of your experience, including your physical reality. If like something says like. Uh, spending your entire savings creates a vibration of lack or fear or worry immediately after a purchase. Then that action is not actually in integrity with your overall excitement, which is probably to be a prosperous, abundant creator. Um, they, the anxiety that comes from depleting your safety net would act as a contradictory vibration that would dampen the thrill of whatever it is that you're calling in. So that felt amazing. Um, gimme one second. I'm trying to find this other page. Okay. This, um, I should have mentioned, it's called Masters of Integration, reveling in the Field of Infinite Possibilities. It's Open Contact Mindset edition, which is fun. Okay, there is. Okay. Is this it? Okay. I also wanted to speak to this because it felt really important and I think you're gonna appreciate it. Let me just make sure. Okay, got it. Worthiness and deservability are abilities. Though you have been taught that you must prove yourself in order to earn respect and be worthy of deservability, this is only one way to look at it. Understanding. In that way, you will only allow yourself to create anything. That you believe you are worthy and deserving of acquiring the outcome and manifestations that you truly desire. When you begin to understand that deservability is an actual ability and not a bestow, you take the first step towards releasing the reasons you have used as excuses to withhold experiences and things from yourself, which you say you prefer and desire. Ugh, releasing the reasons you have used to words. God, it's almost like a retrograde, the way that my brain is working, but it's not. There's something about Uranus, I think, I don't know. Energy. You know what I'm saying? Oh, okay. You take the first step towards releasing the reasons you have used as excuses to withhold experiences and things from yourself, which you say you prefer and desire. When you insist that you do not deserve to express and experience what you truly desire, you set up an artificial barrier towards smoothly and efficiently extracting these preferred results from the field of infinite. Possibilities in this way, nothing more than an assumption appears to impede your effectiveness for creating according to desire and preference. The assumption that anything worthy must be earned is an energetic expression, which is actually expressed as a clear intention. When this is done automatically and not consciously and purposefully, it still has the resultant effect of seeming to block or postpone your purposeful manifestations and desired outcomes. The simple connection to the realization that you. Did not have to do anything to deserve to exist, and therefore, you do not have to do anything to deserve what you want. Is sufficient to turn a new key and open a new door to your own conscious creator hood saying that you deserve. Anything that you prefer and desire has the same weight and power as saying that you do not inherently deserve what you want. These pronouncements, these determinations are equally effective in order to shift your perspective from not deserving to deserving. There is still the requirement of owning which of those beliefs you are presently expressing. Likely an ongoing basis. Once you own that, you are expressing that you do not deserve, you give yourself, oh yeah, okay. Sorry. My brain realizes how I need to speak this, ah, to be a human. Okay, let's see if I nail it. Okay. Once you own that, you are expressing that you do not deserve. You give yourself back the power to equally choose and express that you do deserve it all. So you have to own, you have to own that belief. And when you own it, what you're saying is, yeah, you're valid, and I prefer something else. And I think that's a key, actually, I wanna speak to this really quickly. I had a heart healing session yesterday where I was chatting with a woman and asking her, you know, what is she doing around rewiring her beliefs or, um, supporting her nervous system because she is actively in a launch process for an incredible, incredible. Gift to humanity, which I will speak about later. And I was like, well, have you tried EFT tapping? And she was like, yeah, but it doesn't do anything for me. And I was like, how are you doing it? Because I have had really wonderful things be happen and shift because of EFT, which is emotional freedom techniques, which is where you tap along certain points. Um. And you speak things out loud. Okay? So what she said is she taps on positive affirmations basically. And I said, do you do this when you are feeling frustrated, upset, anxious, worried, doubtful, like when those thoughts are heavy and negative and disempowering. And she's like, well, no. And I asked her why, and this is the crux of New age spiritual stuff. She said, well, if I speak to it, what if it manifests? And I shared with her that that's a distortion because speaking to it validates it. When you validate it and you accept it as is what you're saying is like, okay, I'm dropping the resistance. I'm not running away from this anymore, and that there's a way to do this. So if you are an EFT tapping and you haven't tried this before. Uh, you can Google like EFT tapping obviously, but you tap fir like your first round, you tap on the thing that you're experiencing. You're giving it a voice. You're giving the emotions a chance to be seen and heard and felt. So it's like, even though I feel this rage, I'm ready to let this go. Or I feel like. The scarcity is like, no money's ever coming in. I'm, I'm ready to let this go, or I'm letting myself see this. Or, or even just saying like, I feel like it's really hard to make money right now. And even though I'm feeling like, oh my God, am I gonna be able to have enough rent? Like I'm. I'm ready to let this go, or I release and let this go. Or even though I haven't worked with a client in like seven weeks and I feel like no one cares about what I'm doing, I'm ready to let this go, or I'm learning to let this go. Right? And so it's really giving a voice to the emotion so that you can say you are valid. I see you, I'm illuminating you with my consciousness. And then you go in once you do a round or two. And you feel into like, okay, you may even cry, right? Um, or more stuff may just start coming up that you're like, dang, I didn't even know that was in my consciousness. And then after it's like, I am learning and you can tap on this. Like I am learning that I'm an abundant creator. I'm learning that I am worthy of everything that I desire. I am, I am a magnificent creator. Being like, whatever I touch turns to gold. Things like that, right? But you have to actually. Look at the heavy, dense emotion you ha like, and the belief you ha you have to. We don't run away from ourselves anymore because we are the whole thing. We're the whole shebang, baby. We are everything. We are all that is. And so if you no longer have resistance, or you're running away or saying like that isn't valid, you're welcome. Welcoming it into you, into your wholeness. You're integrating it with love, you know? Okay. Little tangents. So if you have been living. Oh yeah. If you have been living expressing the belief that you do not inherently deserve everything you desire, this idea has generally been formed from one of several fundamental assumptions. Often it is simply a matter that you are taught this by other members of your society, your friends, and your family. Isn't that interesting? Can we just make a note of that? Okay. Simply a matter that you are taught this by other members of your society as a kid. You were just like, heck yeah, I want that candy, I want that. I want that toy. I, I'm so worthy of it. I gotta ask someone so I can have it, but like, I want that, you know? And then through time they're like, sorry, you can't, you can't do that. You can't, we can't afford that. Oh, and you know what's also interesting? Oh God, sorry. So many tangents, but it's such a really cool thing that I realized. So when you grow up with no money. You realize that you live in a world of lack and limitation, right? Until you actually start working on it yourself and then realizing the truth of it. And I think that's one of the things that my soul came here to realize and to really understand and to evolve through espec, especially with prosperity. But when I went to The Bahamas, I went with my, my aunt, my uncle, my two cousins, and one of my cousin's friends. And this friend is 14. And, um, my cousins have only known abundance their entire life. They have been literally given the world. Like they, they have been to so many different countries and traveled first class and you know, have gone on these incredible tours and they eat beautiful foods and their home, in their home, they have their own room, they have a pool, they have a hot tub. It's on a lake like they, they one place hockey. All of this stuff, they have always been given and met at every single need. This friend that they were traveling with, I had learned where there this girl's father was a, um. A famous surgeon of some sort, and her mother, I think is like a airline pilot, I think. And so she was given the credit card and she had no spending limit. And my uncle was like, yeah, it's actually really interesting because I learned that she door dashes every single day, every day, whatever she wants. Usually it's like Starbucks or crumble cookie or whatever. And so. Um, my aunt was like, they were getting groceries in The Bahamas or whatever for the household, and she started, you know, buying all these snacks and all this stuff, and my aunt messaged her mom and she was like, Hey, your daughter has your credit card. And I'm just wondering like, is there a limit that we, you know, we should be aware of? 'cause I don't want you to get a re, like a surprise bill. And she was like, oh no, she's fine. She can buy whatever she wants. And so, so interesting because then I started paying attention to like the labels she was wearing and um, how she interacted with people. And, and so when you come from no money and then you see that someone is given, like, there's no limit. It, it shows you what's possible. It shows you that it's like a mindset. And granted, she also has the resources in the environment to be able to have. Everything at her fingertips. The best of the best of whatever she wants in the same way that my cousins do. And on the flip side, like she is going to be learning different lessons because of that mindset, because her soul is like, I'm going to be evolving in different ways and, and on different focuses and themes and things like that. And for me to see like, oh yeah, it's the ener, like watching her carry herself. It's the energy of I am worthy of what I deserve. And then acting in alignment with those thoughts, you know? Okay. That was a little tangent. I'm just gonna say. Thank you for listening to me. Oh, okay. Back to this. While there is no inherent power in the words that were spoken to result in your acquiescence to this limiting perspective, once you bought into the notion that you do not deserve it is you that creates the effects of not deserving and not any direct power or influence from these mere words of others. And as I'm speaking to this, it makes sense. I just have one more little tangent. When I went to college. I, I had to be on this like FAFSA program. I had to apply for grant money and things like that because I couldn't afford, and my parents couldn't afford to send me to school. So I had to teach myself how to do this, how to apply, how to get money, all that stuff. And then, you know, directly going to student loan debt immediately. And I remember, um. My aunt was like, you really gotta pay attention to like the internships that you do because they like set the stage for you and all this stuff. And so I, I did three different internships focused on different areas in marketing and communications. And they were all free. They were all free, but I did them, you know, and I was like, Ooh, this is gonna gimme a great job. And then I got on, or like got into the field and no one in in marketing would hire me because they said I didn't have enough experience. And I was like, what do you mean? I have not only my bachelor's degree, I have three different internships in different areas. And they're like, yeah, sorry. You need at least three years to, and and I was like, to be a beginner, to be in an entry level job, I need three years. Tell me how that makes any fricking sense. And so I got a, a job at a car dealership, a luxury car dealership. It was, um, Mercedes. Ben's and Porsche dealership, and I was a receptionist and I chose that job because I was terrified of speaking on the phone. And then that job taught me how to speak on a fricking intercom system where you broadcast your voice across the whole dealership and oh God. Oh. But I learned how to do that. And then I got to understand the psychology and how people hold themselves when they're around luxury, which is really interesting because people will go in and they're like, yeah, this is an $80,000 car, so what? And I'm like, what do you mean? You know? And so. When I finally got into the field, I remember it was my first job in the nonprofit because I was like, listen, I need to have my job, make me feel like I'm making a meaningful difference every single day. I wanna love my job, I wanna make a difference. I want to, you know, like I wanna do good in the world. And so my first job was in. Or was at Special Olympics, Minnesota, and I loved it. I was there for three years until I was burned out like a little crispy tater taut. Ooh. They fried me out, man. And part of it is the nature of how nonprofits believe you're supposed to give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give, and give and give, and your nights and weekends, and then you fry, and then you become bitter and resentful and you're tired and you're like, what is happening? But one of the things that that did happen is when I took that job. I, because I didn't come from money. I didn't know how to negotiate for his salary. I didn't know. I didn't know what to ask for. I didn't know that you could ask for more. And so my first job started at $28,000 a year. Oh man, man. And, and while I loved that job for a chunk of time and it taught me so much and it got me into the field, and now I have friends with and without intellectual disabilities and just the best memories and, and I still support their mission today. But being a young adult and having to go to the city and take, you know, like Metro Transit and like. Barely being able to put food in your fridge and they're telling you like, oh, it's for the mission. And when people say things like, God, you must love your job, it must be so rewarding. And it's like rewarding in the ways that can't feed me. Is that a reward? You know? And so I, I didn't know that you could negotiate and then stand in it. And then as I continued throughout my career. When I, I went to another nonprofit and it was so scary to advocate for more money because I wanted to get out of my previous job so badly because I was so exhausted that it was scary to ask for more money, you know? And so it's been the process of learning, like who, who am I? What do I stand for? What is my value? And like knowing that there are people in this world who never have to learn that lesson, they already know. They can command a certain level of income, they can charge a certain level in their business. They can do it without batting an eye. And that there are so many people in the world who are like, who am I to? No one's gonna buy at that rate, you know? And so it's been part of the process. It's really interesting because I, I ask source out loud. I say, source, please bring me people who can show me the truth. And so for so long I've wanted to teach on money because I've learned, I've learned so much about the energy of money and how to be magnetic, magnetic to it and how to open yourself to receive more and to hold more and to, you know, steward the flow of money. But I've always had this story where it's like, well, you don't make six figures, so who are you to do that? And then I made six figures and I was like, I can't teach people that because I don't make a million. What? So I asked Source, right to bring me people who can show me the truth. And it's really interesting when you do that because I've started getting messages that are so cool about you. Like from people talking to me about my podcast and how they will say like, I say this one thing and it landed for them, or they felt like they were right there in the seat next to me. And how we're laughing together as they're listening to my podcast, and then they have this shift or this epiphany and they're like, oh my God, I see this differently. Or, oh my God, I had no idea that was underneath that. But a number of my heart healing sessions, my one-on-one live sessions over Zoom, where I'm coaching and guiding you and you know, like using our tools and all these things has been focused on money and struggle and scarcity. And I just had yesterday an incredible, incredible session that I wanna speak to because it was, oh my God, it was so good. I have to pull it up. Sorry. Please hold la la la, la. Okay. Well that was a weird hold song, you know what I'm saying? Okay. So I, I, she came to me because she had been. She's like tired of the struggle and she's like, I freaking only know struggle and I'm exhausted by it and I wanna try something else. Like I'm over this. And so we, we walked through, you know, we walked through hypnosis and what was so cool is that her higher self came through. And I, I usually ask for a wise guide or a spirit guide to come through and sow her higher self step forward for her. And usually if I feel called, I will ask. Um, this person in hypnosis, their guide, I will ask their guide to present their, my client with a gift. And so what happened was is she received a gift and I was like, okay, well what's the gift your higher self has given you? And she said, it's wealth, it's something golden. It's a golden ladle, like a soup ladle. And I was like, oh my God, what is this symbol representing? And she said. You share wealth the same way you share soup, but I get to eat too. I've been giving it all to everyone else and skipping my own bowl. And then I thought like, literally, how many of us have been doing that without realizing it? You know, we're pouring, we're serving, we're holding, we're giving, and we're giving, and we're giving and we're giving. And somewhere along the way we forget that we're part of the table too. And then I watched her energy shift because she had a realization that was just so beautiful. She said she can fill her own bowl first and she can still share abundantly because she decides the size of her bowl. And I wanted to leave that with you because you're allowed to have a full bowl. You're allowed to still be someone who gives deeply and generously and from a place of joy, but it starts with you first. And our society would say things like, that's selfish. Or I can't give because I don't have a lot, and it's like, then pour into yourself first. I'm telling you, because I'm a living example of this, because one of my biggest dreams and why I believe that I am destined to steward huge amounts of money is because of the way that it feels when I give, because of the way that it feels when I take care of myself. When I get to delight in the pleasures of, of life, when I get to bring more beauty to everything that I'm doing. When I get to share from a place of like, oh my God, I literally can't wait for them to like receive this gift. You know, like, oh, you know how good it feels when you have been like, Ooh, I have the best gift for them. Like, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God. And then there's nothing worse when you give some someone something from like a place of pure joy and they're like, Hmm. I don't deserve this. Oh, this feels too, you know what I mean? Like they shut down. Or like when you see someone and you're like, oh, you look amazing in that dress. You're like, oh my God, that color on you, heavenly. And they're like, oh, I got it at Target for $2 and 75 cents. And you're like, girl, I didn't say, tell me where you got the dress and at what price point. I was like, just letting you know that you're radiant. And you are so full of glory and so full of light, the way that you move in this dress, like you are the one owning it. The dress is not owning you. You know all of that to say people have been coming to me about money and scarcity, and I think this is one of the themes of my lifetime because for some reason, and I'm telling you for some reason, I have always been in circles where there has been money, but I never felt like I belonged. But I belong now, and I'm so excited to share and to teach on that even though I haven't made a million dollars, because it's not about the sum total, it's about the soul, and it's about understanding the energetics of it. It. And so I just wanted to say thank you for being on this journey with me, and thank you for listening to these little tangents. And I just, I love you so much and I'm so happy you exist. So thank you for being with me. I love you, and I hope you have a wonderful magical day.