Playing with life

What happens when your world starts to feel a little more responsive, connected, and a lot more alive than you thought it was?

This episode moves through stories, lived experiences, and real-time reflections that stretch the edges of what we think is possible while staying deeply rooted in self-trust, curiosity, and your own inner authority. :)

What you'll receive inside the episode:

• A story that reminds you how powerful it is to follow what genuinely lights you up. 
•  The shift that made life start to feel more playful and more responsive.
•  What begins to open when you expect to be supported in ways you can’t predict. 😎 
•  A real-life example of alignment unfolding in ways you couldn’t plan. 
•  The energetic practice that’s been changing how I experience my day-to-day life.
•  What it feels like when “receiving” becomes something your body can actually hold.
•  An experience watching a famous psychic medium that stretched my understanding of connection, intuition, and what’s possible. 👀
•  Why perfection isn’t required to trust what’s coming through you. 
•  A perspective that softened my relationship with getting things “right” 

Resources:

• Monthly membership // Sovereign Alignment Frequencies (SAF is a living, frequency-led space for women where growth, leadership, creativity, and expansion happen naturally through connection, resonance, and shared elevation. If you're excited to join, we would be so honored to have you!)
• Aubrey Pruneda (Astrology-based branding + design and alignment mentor)
• Matt Fraser (psychic medium)

Transcript

Ashley Mondor: 

Hello, Hello! Today is gonna be a short one because I am. Devouring a Netflix documentary called, uh, trust Me, the False Prophet, and it's about, uh, the rise. I'm gonna read this from Google, the rise of Samuel Bateman, who claimed to be the heir to Warren Jeffs, and the couple who went undercover to expose the FLDS polygamous group. Um, I really am so curious. I've always been curious about psychology and specifically around cults because. People think like, I could never fall for that. And there are so many people who are like, I had no idea. And so I, I'm always curious about power dynamics and what, how people use energy, how they speak in a way. That gets people to basically, I don't even know how to explain it, but like to lose their sense of authority and their sense of self. And I'm, and the only reason why I feel like I've always been drawn to this arena and these types of people is because. I want to always be rooted in sovereignty and understanding, you know, how to uplift people and to never have it be some type of like guru thing or never. I never want that. And um, so that's why I'm watching this and I'm like in the middle of it and I need to finish it, but, uh. A few things. So something so cool on Buzzsprout, which is my platform that hosts my podcasts. Yay, Buzzsprout. We love you. Uh, they created this new opportunity where, you know how we have friend mail here? Well, they call it fan mail on Buzzsprout from a friend mail. Uh, you can send me a voice message. And I got one and I cried because I'm like. No way. This is my real life. Like I get to hear, I get to hear your voice and your energy and your accent if you have one, which she does, at least to me. And I loved it. I just, oh God, it's so fun. So if you ever have a question for me or. You know, something like that. Maybe ask me and then I can bring it into this podcast. I'll like stitch it in or something, and then you can hear yourself talk, which would be so fun. Um, and also, I don't, I just like love hearing the energy behind your words outside of that fun feature. I did get a friend male from, um, a woman named Lisa, and I just, I love this. She, she says, hi, Ashley, it's Lisa. Oh God. It just makes me so happy. Okay. I am like, Hey Lisa, how you doing? And so she shared this from my previous podcast and I wanted to bring it to you just because I freaking love it. Okay. She said, um, I had to grow up in an environment that left me feeling like we were in an environment of lack and scarcity, and that has gone with me my entire life. That is where that, that is where I belong in that space of scarcity, and I don't like it. About four years ago, I was in a dead end job. It was my identity and it was killing me, and I finally took a leap of faith and I said, I'm done. And spoke with my husband and I walked away from that job with no other job to go to. I stayed home for about two weeks and soon realized that that was not something that I enjoyed either. So I spoke to the universe and I said, I want a job that I can work part-time where I can have full-time benefits and I can make more money than I was making at the job that I just left. And then you words. Words, Ugh. And the universe handed that to me. Ah. I'm like, mew celebrating. Um, I was gonna say it again. And the universe handed that to me. And leaving that light and leaving that lifestyle has now allowed me to start my own business. If you heard that that was a bus, you probably didn't hear it. Okay. Hey, bus. Um, Lisa continues to share. I sell freeze dried fruits and vegetables. Feeding others has always been part of my sole purpose, and this business allows me to do that and give back to the community and to, and to those in need. I'm currently working on being able to prepare freeze dried meals that I can hand out in a crisis situation with a bottle of water, and the recipient has everything they need to have a nourishing meal. I'm building relationships with the homeless as a starting point of this journey. It's all moving so fast, it's hard to keep up. But this is what fills my soul and brings me joy. Thank you for giving me a place to share, especially in a world that wants to suppress joy and success. And I read that and I was like, shut the front door. This is everything to me. Are you kidding me? Like getting to, oh God, getting to be part of your journey and knowing like what your heart wishes to just expand into and, and seeing how you're gonna like love people in this way. I. God, I'm so honored. I'm so honored like that. That is everything to me, and I think what's so cool is like. You, you're following your heart. You know, you're, you are just walking the journey step by step. And things are panning out in the way that it's meant to. You know, and that's not to say there won't be challenges or whatever along the way, because that's how we learn and grow and discover and expand and all those things. But to see that like your heart and what you wanna bring to the world is from such a pure, beautiful place like. You're helping create that new earth energy, you know, that, that new way of living and being, and I'm just so honored to have you here. Like, God, that's so cool. Uh, so I just wanted to share that with you because I think it's inspiring to listen to people's stories and to hear what they're doing in the world and what motivates them and what brings them to life, you know? Um. And it's just expansive, so Yay. Okay, let me close that 'cause I just wanna make sure I spoke to it because I freaking loved it. Okay. A little fun thing today. It's been really interesting, the energy, and I wonder if this has been happening to you. For most of my life, I have not been the type of. Manifesting human who can get something like immediately, except for sometimes very, very few instances. Has it been Sometimes, and I'm talking like I'll be like, Ooh, I love Olive Garden and to get like unlimited breadsticks and then I'll get to go to Olive Garden that night. But, and by me not like facilitating that, it'll be like, oh God, I really wanna do that, or whatever. That's such a silly example, but it's just, I think probably 'cause there's less. Mental blocks around receiving like free breadsticks. I don't know. But lately it's been really interesting because I'm starting to notice that usually things that have taken, you know, months or years, really years to manifest has been, the gap has been closing. And I think it's just because I've been so playful with life. Like I decided, you know what? Life is not that serious. We take it way too seriously. We came here to be playful and fun and childlike and living in awe and wonder and creation and joy and, and you know, all those wonderful things, especially during a time of great darkness. So how can we play with life for the fun of it? And so it's so interesting because things have been coming into my field that I'm like, what? This is so fun. I love this. For me as an example, I think, uh, in December or January I was like, man, I wanna, I want a water filtration system because I live in the city and Nikolai and I have been going to get these like huge jugs of water, get like gallons and gallons of water. And you know what? That's great and I love that we have access to that, but they're heavy. I don't wanna carry them. And we were spending so much money on this water because we have two dogs and three cats. And so a lot of our water is going to our furry friends because you know, we're like, you deserve quality water. So I was like, man, I would so love a reverse osmosis system that like, you know, connects into our waterline. And I didn't even tell Nikolai that. I didn't say a dang thing, but you know what? Last weekend he was installing that. Yes. I love that for me. I love that for my animals. So that was cool. And then, um, for so long, I have my website. It's built on Showit platform because I got hooked into a brand. They're called Tonic. I love them. I think they're wonderful storytellers and they create really beautiful websites. But the platform Showit that I'm on is not my joy or my jam. Um, because I basically have to do double the work. So you have like your desktop and you see one version, and then it's supposed to be, God, what's the word? My it people know this. Ugh. Where it can like flex for mobile. I know, I know. There's like a word for that. It's escaping me. That's cool. Uh, my brain wants to try and find it so bad. No brain. It's okay. So. I basically have to do double the work. And so anytime I have to update my website, I am just not thrilled about it. I'm like, my God, I wish I could have help, you know, doing this because I just cannot stand it. And also, I've been wanting to rebrand my whole website and things like that for so long, but you know, I'm not about to do twice the amount of work if I, if everything is working, which it is. And so. Um, a few months ago, this incredible woman came into my field and she had watched a single TikTok video of me speaking about, I don't even know, honestly. And she sent me a message and she was like, Hey, Ashley, you know, like, um, she just wanted to reach out to me and usually I don't, it, it almost felt like she was gonna pitch something to me, and usually I don't ever. Entertain those things, those messages anymore, because I've been in business in May it'll be nine years. And you see a lot, you see a lot when you've been in business for almost a decade, you know, and, and you pick up patterns and all that. But there was something about her energy that I was like, I'm gonna just see, I'm just gonna feel it out. It's gonna be, you know, out of a place of curiosity. And if she pitches me, you know what? Okay, fine. Whatever. She didn't actually pitch me. She was talking about how, and this was so out of her comfort zone, but she was reaching out to me because of how much she appreciated my energy and how she felt aligned I was to the work that I was doing and how I am the embodiment basically of what I do. And I sat back and I was like, well, hey, what? Thank you so much for being so kind and seeing me in that way and also like to message me. 'cause it's scary to talk to strangers, you know? Um. And so she actually created this incredible community that I am a teacher in and, uh, because of her, and I just like. I'm just so in awe of how these things are coming together and I will link this community, um, it's sovereign alignment frequencies. It's SAF and I am one out of a few teachers actually who she felt into and felt like we were aligned enough to be able to teach on specific things. And so I'm teaching about, you know, so like heart led sovereignty and more about your heart and embodiment. And whatever else I get to, you know, I get to actually teach on, which is so cool. Are you kidding me? Like, what are you talking about? And so. Um, outside of now, you know, getting to teach in this gorgeous community that she's creating from a place of just like total, total alignment, she's creating exactly what she has needed. And, you know, I'm just so honored to, to have been asked based on a single TikTok video where she felt into me and was like, you, and I'm like me. Um, but she also does branding and she creates. Like beautiful, just authentic branding. When you look at her stuff, I'll link it. Um, I think you would be, I think you would be like, whoa. But she has been helping me with my website because I just am so flustered by it and I just, I'm really enjoying the ease of this collaboration in this partnership and just so in awe of the way that spirit works when you're like, okay, like the right people find me at the right time, and she's absolutely one of them. And I'm just. So happy to be in her field and just to know her and getting to know the people who are in this community that she's building, like, oh my God. And side note, like I'm not, obviously I'm not the only teacher, but she has other people who are like coming in and they teach on like womb healing and feminine energy and self-leadership and just I, Ugh, like what are you talking about? That's so cool. I went on a little tangent there. It's good. It's good. It's good. Uh, so that was another thing that I manifested. I have one been wanting help forever and now I have this incredibly talented woman who sees me and she's helping me make these changes, which is so cool. And outside of that, I also have been getting like random gifts from the universe. And if you follow me for a while, you know that I have this process where. Every day I put my hand on my heart and I breathe in and out through my heart and I let my exhale just like lengthen for twice as long. So take an inhale through your nose for like a count of five and exhale out through your nose for a count of 10. And you just keep breathing that way, and you can imagine that that breath is moving in and out of your heart space so that you create heart brain coherence. Which is basically where your system settles and you're not in flight. Flight, fight fawn or freeze, uh, words. And, um, after that process, usually I'll do this when I'm driving, I will say out loud. Um, I invite my higher self source love light to infuse into every breath, every cell, my heart, my mind, my body, every system, every level, my emotions, my whole being, basically. And you can say whatever you want, but I'm inviting my higher self. To infuse into my whole being. And I say that out loud and then I keep breathing. And after I breathe, like I've started noticing, I can actually feel my heart, I can feel the energy of my heart, and it feels like this like tingling sensation and it feels warm and glowy and that sounds so silly, but I'm telling you that's That's what it is. It's kind of like what I think a care bear. How a care bear feels and how they radiate energy, right? So I go through that process and I'm breathing and. And sometimes, like if I don't feel my heart connection, um, I will imagine like my cats or my dogs or Nikolai or you know, a, a beautiful memory. And I, and I bring up those memories because they make me feel a sense of appreciation or joy or love or excitement or, you know, care. And it's a genuine feeling. Right. And I've noticed that that's. Key. And then what I do is I will say out loud, uh, universe, show me how good it can get, or universe, show me how aligned I am. Um, and then I'll say, source, please bring me a surprise today. And I then I just go throughout my day expecting surprises and I get them. And I know that that works with the law of assumption, where you assume and then you receive. And then also I ask, and then I res like I receive with a full grateful heart. And so I get surprises in the form of like synchronicities or brand new connections that end up being fabulous. Um, like with the woman I just mentioned to you, her name is Aubrey. She's a magical human being and I just, I love her. Um. Like the reverse osmosis system that I got, or I've had coffee bought for me, or lunch bought for me, or dinner or, you know, just wonderful things. Well, one of the things that just happened last week, which was so cool, is that I got to see Matt Frazier, who is this, he's. Positioned as America's top medium. And so my mom's friend, who is a wonderful human being, she couldn't go and she was like, Hey, would you like to go to this? And I'm like, listen. Absolutely what I'm in. And so it was at, uh, this really big casino, which was basically an hour away. And uh, I took my friend, which was so cool, and I know nothing about Matt Frazier, nothing outside of, you know, him being America's top medium, which usually I just take with a grain of salt, right? I was like, okay, well you talk to people who have crossed on the other side. That's cool. I saw, I've seen some videos of him talking about, you know, loved ones and things like how they communicate with you and symbols and synchronicities and, and feelings and stuff like that. But I haven't followed him. And also I have never really been the person who has needed mediumship readings. I think. I am very lucky because, you know, my immediate family, everyone is alive and my partner is alive. I all my grandparents, they are not alive. They are on the other side. Um, but because of what I, what I believe about the other side, I think I've never had this like. Longing or this need, because I know they're always here. But it was really cool because I'm like, oh, I get to watch someone who does this for a living and who is, you know, very well known for it. I mean, and if he's well known, he must be pretty good. So we go in to see Matt and. There are these like rows and rows and rows of like really long rows of humans sitting there. And, and this is like at a, pretty much like a big auditorium or a huge like event center basically at this casino. And so you're sitting there and it's really interesting because you can feel the energy of there's this like pure hope that maybe, maybe they'll be called, you know? And. I'm like, please God, don't call on me. Do not call on me. I don't wanna do this. And part of the reason why is because there are hundreds of people there and they have two huge screens on the side of the stage. And so what happens is. Okay. Matt comes out and he shares his story about how his grandmother had the gift of mediumship and how she would read people using playing cards. Right? And her, her husband never knew what she did. He worked three jobs and he, he shared that like. She would have someone over and he would be like, what are you doing? And she'd be like, we're playing cards. Well, really she was, she was reading and sharing messages. Right. And then his, Matt's mom has the gift too, and I think she lean's more psychic. And then Matt was born and Matt is. Has had this gift his entire life where he could, he can see people who have crossed on the other side, and he was sharing how, it was actually really frustrating growing up because he said it was like his room was connected to all of the cemeteries because there were so many. People in his room who wanted his support and, and he would be so afraid, right? Because he didn't learn about boundaries and, and stuff like that. And so he would run up to his mom and he's like, mom, there are all these people. It's so scary. And, and like, I, they're dead. I know they're dead. And she was like. Oh, Matt, like what are the messages they have? Instead of being like, what? Um, we're gonna help you establish better boundaries, you know, and, and taking it at your own pace. But now flash forward, this is the work that he does. And it was really, really cool because I brought my friend and my friend is open, but she leans more skeptical, which I think is, you know, healthy and grounded where I have grown up with this my whole life, right? My mom can see spirits and this is just like a normal thing. And so we're sitting there and if Matt calls on you, the whole row has to stand up and I can't imagine. Having to stand there. And if you are chosen, if a loved one comes through for you and they pick you, you gotta hold the microphone and everyone is watching you on the big screens. Everyone around you, everyone is standing for you and they're watching. You probably cry and I'm like. I better not get called on like grandparents. I love you, but like there are people who have way more pressing matters, who need, who have much deeper grief, who need to hear, you know? So I set that boundary and it was honored, so thank God. Okay, because I would've sweated through my whole shirt, but. It was so cool because after Matt was talking and telling his story, he all of a sudden, like he was like, yeah, and your grandmother, he was pointing to the crowd like Your grandmother has passed and you sir. And he was like, you, your son has passed. And so they run the mic over to this guy because he nods. Yes. And he's wearing like a black baseball cap and his wife is next to him and his son is next to him. And he's standing there and you can see he's kind of like a little bit on edge about it. And he was. Starting to talk about your son has passed and he, you didn't hear from him. You didn't hear from him for like quite a while before he died, and the dad nodded and he said, yeah, I didn't hear from him for like five or six months. And he was like, and so your, your son actually has. So much anxiety, I can feel it in his body. He knew he was gonna die. He knew. He knew. And the dad started like tearing up and he was like, yeah, he was deployed and um, he was killed on deployment and they basically knew that they were being raided. And, and then he was like, and you're, you never got his dog tags. You, you were never able to receive those. They can't find them. And the dad started crying and he was like, yeah, I just really wanted his dog tags. And, and the Matt was like, I'm sorry, you know, speaking on behalf of this son, but it was like, I'm so sorry, you know, like, those are gone now, but you have my memory. And um, and then he was like, and you know, you're working on a car right now, this like. Whatever type of car. He didn't say the type of car, but he was like, I see that you're working on something with like automobile. I see parts everywhere and they're in this, like they're in the garage and all this stuff. And the dad starts like tearing, like crying even more. And he is like, yeah, I'm working on a, I'm working on this specific car. Because it was the project that me and my son would do together. And so then Matt was like, this is validating that he's still here. He's still helping you with the car. He's always been here. And he was, he's like, I wanted to apologize for not speaking to you for like five months, six months and stuff. I was going through my own stuff and, um, you know, the fear of deployment and what if I, what if I never talked to you again and all these things and, and I just watched this family. Both be in awe and like deep, deep gratitude for the sheer level of precision that Matt had with these symbols. Like to call this person out out of hundreds of people and to know that it's his son to know that he was in, um. That they haven't talked for a while to know about the car. And he pulled through other symbols, which was amazing. And so then, um, he, he shared the rest of what he needed to, and then he called on another person, this woman, and, and she stood up and she felt like pretty apprehensive. And she was like, oh, or Matt said, your father has died. And she was like, yeah. And he was like, oh, he's. Showing me there's like a lot of inflammation specifically with the liver. Oh, he had cirrhosis. Oh, he was an alcoholic. That was what Matt was pulling through, and the lady started crying and she was like, that's exactly what, and then he was like, I, I'm, I'm meant to share with you that your father, he's, he's apologizing and he's saying, I'm so sorry that I became the man. I promised myself. I never would. I became my father. And then Matt saw that this man's father, her grandfather was stepping forward and how he had died of alcoholism also. And then they were talking about how, um, there was like, he was like, why am I, I'm seeing beers. Like I'm seeing all of these beers on his grave. And, and the lady, oh my God, she was like, yeah. I stayed after the memorial until everyone left and I had a few beers and I left them. I left them on the grave for my dad, and I'm sitting there like what? That, that is so. So everything about this is so specific, you know, and, and then she, or he was like, I'm also seeing this thing. It's like a, it's a hoe, but it's not a hoe. I don't know. I'm from Rhode Island, like, I don't know what these gardening things are, but it's not for gardening. And she was like, oh yeah, it's, it was some sort of thing for worms and how her and her father would go and use this tool and it's just, it's so cool because he didn't have the language for it, but it was so like the moment he hit on it, she lit up. And you got to watch her just like feel that feeling of having her, her father be right there with her and being like, yeah, he's literally right here. He's here all the time. He's here when you are doing X, Y, and Z. Like, and validating that experience for her. And then he shifted. To this woman way, way back, um, in the, in like some of the farthest seats. And he was like, I just wanna let you know, thank you so much for buying the cheap seats. And I'm like, yeah, this is amazing. And, and he goes, and she stands, she's holding the microphone and she has her arms crossed and he was like, your ex-husband is coming through. And she was so. Stonewalled like, Ooh, ooh. She wanted nothing to do with this. She, she stood there just like flat faced, arms crossed guard up, and he was like, your ex-husband is saying that you didn't want him to be the one to come through. You wanted your father. And then she started softening a little and he was talking about how, um. This man, he was like, I, I'm so sorry for all of the debt I put you in and for running up all your credit cards. And I just, I had a problem. And um, and then they got divorced. And so he was sharing this and she was nodding in agreement, right? And, and he was saying, can I tell you the truth? And the lady, she nods or whatever. And he's like, so you know that when you got divorced, he ended up dating a lot of women and you thought, oh my God, how is he, how has he already been with so many women? And, and he shared, and the message that he's giving you is that. He never found love. He was always looking for what he had with you, but he was so ashamed for the way that he treated you and your relationship that he never had anything like that again. And you watched her just completely like every muscle softened, right? And I'm like, whoa. It's also so interesting to be in the crowd and watching these things come through that I'm like, that is extremely personal. Like, oh God. But I'm very grateful, right? Because. The, again, the symbols are so precise. And then he was like, he was about to switch to another person and he said, oh yeah. And um, I'm getting a name. I'm getting the name like, um, I think. John or Jonathan, and she looked at him and her jaw dropped and he was like, oh yeah, your ex-husband is telling me that if I didn't say his name, you would've thought that this was all just like a coincidence. And she brought the mic up to her mouth and she was like, I literally said that while we were entering this ballroom. I was like, if he comes through and he doesn't gimme his name, it's not real. Oh, what? Man, man. And so then flash forward, I also wanted to, to bring this up to you, but he. He called on this lady and he was like, oh my God, your grandma, she's on the other side. And they're like, yeah. And he's like, oh, you're wearing her earrings. Those hoop earrings are hers. And she was like, yeah. And like she's there with her sisters and her mom and all this stuff, and talking about how she basically had dementia towards the end and she wasn't in her right mind. But also when she did come in, sometimes she wasn't always happy to be there because she was in a home. Um. And, you know, she wanted to be around her family and all that, but she understood on the other side why they did what they did. And it was from the best place that they, you know, it was from a full heart for love for her and why they, why they had that process. And so it was interesting because Matt was like, oh yeah, and you know, there's this woman, Helene, do you know Helene or whatever, and they were like, no. And he's like, well, oftentimes I will get a name and it's maybe someone who had lived with her in the place that she's bringing up or whatever. But, and he had done that a few times with a few other people where he didn't totally nail the symbolism or the name, or they didn't know the name, and he shared that, you know, oftentimes after they will come through. Again and be like, oh my God, Matt, like that was so and so, or that was blah, blah, blah. Um, because what happens, I think if, if they don't actually know the person, I mean, that's one thing they may not, right. But what I've noticed is if you have a microphone in front of you and you weren't expecting to be called on, and you weren't expecting to have hundreds of people watch you, and to be up on a freaking huge screen, I can only imagine that your system is like. Very dialed in and also probably freaking out a little bit. And so you may not access the memories or the information that you normally would be able to if you were in a more relaxed state. Right. But outside of that, what I appreciated is that there are things that he didn't get totally right. And some of them people were like, no, I actually don't even know that person. Not like, not like the person who had died, but like someone closer. Or whatever. What I appreciated, I was like, he's not a hundred percent accurate, and he has all these people here who are excited to hear from him and hoping to hear from their loved ones. And while he wasn't a hundred percent accurate, he still knocked it outta the park. And I think that that's really helpful for me specifically because I've had so much fear around being wrong, and I know I've shared this in the past. Podcast episode where, uh, a remote viewer who trained with the government and then teaches people how to remote view as part of this program. It was through the Monroe Institute, so it started with this, God, what's his name? Bob, I don't know. Is it Bob Monroe? It's probably wrong. I don't know. Uh, but he, he was a remote viewer and then he taught other people. And so one of the people he taught was holding this program for the Monroe Institute, and I remember her saying something that I was like, whoa, what? She said, being wrong takes nothing from you and. I'm watching this man, Matt, have again, hundreds of people who have paid between like one 50 to 300 plus dollars to come watch him use his gift and to tune into people. And he still wasn't a like a hundred percent right all the time. And he did not die and he wasn't outcasted or shamed. Right. And I'm like, okay, this man does this every single day as his living, you know? And it was really interesting because as I was sitting in the the seat watching these people, I was watching their body language. And I also was tuning in to see like. I like, not obviously into their energy or anything like that because consent, but, but I started feeling like this energy pouring into my bindu chakra, which I learned about this, I think last year. It's this chakra point kind of at the top and more towards the back of your head. It's like a very, it feels like, at least to me, like a thin tube kind of, and I felt energy, like energy pouring into that specific place. And then out of nowhere I got the most intense, intense pressure in my left ear. Like it was like. My mom calls it ear drilling. I don't know how else to describe it 'cause it's the only way that, you know, that I couldn't understand. But it was so intense and I, I didn't, I sat there like, well what am I supposed to do with this? You know? But then I had the thought come through from the back of my head, and this is gonna sound silly, and I'm just saying it because it's so silly, but as I was watching him up on stage and like talking to people and helping them find healing, I was like, I can do that. And I literally sat, my body shook, and I was like, what? Who? I did not just think that thought, because in my life I have never been someone who wants to be up on a stage. Okay. I'm like, no, no, no, no, it, no. And so I'm like, and I also am not a medium, so that doesn't make any sense. And I kid you not, I'm sitting there with my friend and she looks at me and she goes, I think you could do this. No, but I thought, wow, the synchronicity of that is like really crazy. Or maybe we tuned in telepathically, you know, in the same moment or whatever, but it's just some, you know, something curious for me to sit with because like on one hand we all could be up on stages, you know, someday so many of us, it's going to be like so easy to. Communicate with the other side and to actually validate that and to hear it and feel it, and see it and know it and smell it and taste it and all those things. And so we look at people who have the gift now and we're like, man, at least for me, 'cause I've always wanted to be a medium, I have always wanted that gift because I thought what could be more healing than helping someone realize that? The afterlife isn't afterlife. It is true living, and that your loved ones don't go to hell, right? They're not sinners. It's not this horrible, awful place of suffering. It's like they're there. They're there, and if you knew that they weren't lost or gone, that fundamentally shakes up your worldview, especially if you have a fear of death when you know that you're not actually gone or lost, right? If this isn't the only shot for you to be alive, if you actually realize that you are so much more expanded beyond this 3D crystallized reality of this tiny fractal of light that is you, I mean, would you live differently? Would you look at things a little bit differently? Right. Uh, especially because I have a friend who. His mom had recently passed and she was a beautiful, wonderful human, and he doesn't believe in the afterlife. He thinks this is one and done. And it's really interesting because he was hanging out with his family recently and they would have bonfires like in their yard and neighbors would come over. And so they've had a neighbor for 30 years that they've connected with. Um, just like super grounded dude, right? Well. Recently he had been going to my friend's father's house, the one who, he's his neighbor. And he was like, when is your family all gonna be together? And you know, like the, the dad was like, well, I don't know. They're all busy, right? But it just so happened that recently they were all together and they were talking about their mom and all that stuff. And this neighbor came over and he was like. Visibly shaken. And he was sweating and he was like stumbling through his words and, and he said, have you ever heard of a medium? And they looked at him and they're like, no. And he was like, your, your wife, your mom has been coming to me because she has messages for each of you. And she knows that it has to come through someone like me because you know and trust me. And this neighbor has never, ever, ever, in 30 years shared that he's a medium. And so now it's really interesting because my friend and their family, one, one of them is religious and wants nothing to do with it because they think it's the devil speaking. Um. And my friend is kind of nervous about it because he thought that once you die, you're gone. And what does this mean? Especially because he spent his whole life being terrified of death. He remembers vividly as a child how scared he was of death. Um, and so when you find out like, what if this is real, you know, well, well, what does that mean? And, and I'm not going to push him, obviously. But, but my friend who went with me to the Medium event, that's her boyfriend, and it felt like a really wonderful synchronicity and a gift to have someone that he loves go to something like this, to watch Matt be so incredible, so specific. So how could you have ever known that? And she gets to bring that up and maybe open his heart. A little bit more, you know? So those were some of the things I wanted to bring to you today. Weird, magical, fun, mediumship stuff, and I'm so happy you're here. And I love you. I love, I love everything about you, okay? I hope you have a wonderful magical day, and I will talk to you later.