When Your Inner Mishkan Collapses, Rebuild it Even Stronger (Pekudei)

In this episode we are going to get into Parshat Pekudei, the final Parsha in Sefer Shemot! After many weeks working to construct the Mishkan, Moshe finally put it up. But it takes seven days of him constructing it and breaking it down, multiple times per day, until God's presence finally rests on the Mishkan. What is the meaning of this process? And what does it mean for how we relate to our internal Mishkan and how to make sure God dwells within us? We'll get into all of that and much more in this episode!  

If you want to follow along in the text, it is Nesiovs Shalom Sefer Shemot page reish ayin chet (278). You can find a pdf of the piece here. 

This week's episode is generously sponsored by Binyamin and Tova Bakaev in honor of Rosh Chodesh Nissan and a refuah sheleima for Alter Yonah ben Sylvia. Thank you so much to the Bakaevs for sponsoring this week's episode! If you would like to sponsor an episode of the podcast, please email Rabbi Charnoff at rabbicharnoff@gmail.com.

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Hello everyone. This is Rabbi Robbie Chernoff, and you are listening to the Hasidis for Life podcast, the podcast where we learn a deep Hasidic insight on the parsha every single week, and not only gain a new understanding of an aspect of the parsha, but explore how it can lead us to a more meaningful, vibrant, and spiritually uplifted life. In this episode, we're gonna dive into the final parsha of say, air Schmo parsha Ude. After many weeks of learning about the Mishka, it's finally time to put it up. But for seven days, Mosha puts it up and takes it down. two to three times per day, and yet the Shina never rests on the Mishka. Why this seven day process? What are we meant to learn from Mosha? Putting it up and taking it down unsuccessfully so many times? and how is that meant to impact how we relate to our internal mishka? We'll get into all that and much more in this week's episode. If you wanna follow along inside, you can open up the navo Shalom schmo to page and the peace entitled or simply go to the show notes for a link to A PDF. But feel free to just sit back, listen, and enjoy the ride most people do. This week's episode is generously sponsored by Binmen and Tova Bakiev in honor of Roche Kh Nisan, and a fuma for alter Jonna. Ben Sylvia, thank you so much to the Bacas for sponsoring this week's episode. Your sponsorships are what make this podcast happen. If you would like to sponsor an episode of the podcast, please email Rabbi chernoff@gmail.com or see the show notes for more details. Alright, with that, let's jump into the Cevo Shalom on Parsha. Ude. We are in Olum on par.'em on par. We are on page re The Peace entitled the title Meeting that for all seven days of the inauguration of the Mishka Mo Abena would take down and then put up the Mishka. we've come to the end of Safe schmo, and as we come to the end of Schmo, we've been spending the last four weeks building the Michan and this week ha, as we conclude safe schmo, we finally are able to put up the Mishka. And this is relating to the concept, that we'll see more explicitly next, safe air and safe ra. The seven days of the inauguration of the Mishka, culminating in the eighth day when the Mishka finally goes up, That's Parsha Shuni. The eighth day when there's the final inauguration and the Mishka finally goes up. But we're relating to the, going up to the Mishka here, the Mishka on a schmo level. The Mishka goes up in this week's parsha. And for all seven days leading up to the eighth day, when it finally stood, when the Shina finally came in, Mo Shado would go and he would put up and take down the bishan every single one of the seven days. He's gonna now quote that from the mi. It says, on the says, says that for all of the seven days, those first seven days of the inauguration of the Mishka, Mosha would take down and then put back up the Mishka twice a day. He attempted twice a day to put up the Mishka in a way where the Shino would come down and fill the Mishka and the fire would come down onto the M. And for each of those seven days, it didn't happen. It only happened on the eighth day. And not only did he try once a day, says re bar twice a day on his own. Moshe would go and take it down and put it up and take it down and put it up. Reina o Reina goes further and says no three times a day for each of those seven days. He put up the micka, down the micka, So on the top of the next page, we have to explain this in terms of this concept of putting up the ish so many times So he's already gonna jump into the answer. The whole purpose of a Jew and the destiny, which he was put in the world for is as the says, make for me, and I will dwell within them. The famous Josh make for me a mik in the singular. I will dwell with them, them in the plural. What does that mean? It doesn't say within it, it says within them, inside of each and every one of them. Meaning every single one of us has an inner mishka as a mishka inside of us. So A who is commanding us all of us to build a mishka, each one of us inside, build our inner mishka in our inner world, and I will dwell within them that a Jew sanctify prepare his body. To be a place for the shina to rest. Every single one of us is in Ola Kaan. Every single one of us is a miniature world. And so if each one of us is a miniature world, what that means is, is that each one of us has a center of that world. And the center of that world, just like the center of the universe, is the mish. The Mishka stands over the Evan Hasia. It stands over the foundation stone, the root of the creation of the entirety of the world, the center of the entire universe. That's where the Mishka stands'cause it is the centerpiece around which all of reality revolves. And so too, in my inner world, the centerpiece of my inner world is my inner Mishka, which all of my life and all of my Voda and all of my reality revolves around that inner Mishka. That a Jew has to make himself a palace For the ancient, who has been around since before the creation of time to fulfill this requirement of I will dwell within every single one of you. He's continuing to quote here from the, these poetic, from the poem that Mosha beautifully gives at the very end of the Torah, the second to last par of the Torah. So after that part of the pasta, it says it's underneath the, these eternal. Arms or whatever the poetry there means. So we understand it to means, RO what are these Ro that's talking about the, to cling to the ways of the a whose mere is the of Aava? He's always giving, He's always out there. Y is always more internal. He's withholding, holding back. what's the test that he's most linked to is a, where he's bound. That's his essence. To be bound, to be restricted, to hold in Ms. Neish, to be willing to give up of his whole being. To ku, that's y and Koa was the mid of Tifert, which has so many different aspects of it. Like the other Miot as well means truth and Torah and splendor and balance and all of these things that jakovino embodies. And brings into the world as the vo, the choices of the avo, the balance of the avo that's able to produce the Shava. But we're meant to reflect all of those miot. As we build that inner mishka, as we build our inner reality of kaha. A place that Aakash Bku can rest within each one of us. And if a Jew is able to do this, then he's able to fulfill that. He will send away all of his enemies from informants, say that there'll be defeated again, this is the main, a Jew to make themselves a Mik, a miniature Mishka. to build that mishka in my internal world, for the shina to rest in this world by resting in me, by resting within each and every one of us. Next paragraph he says. Vi, just like the Mishka is hinting to all of the upper realms, one on top of the other, on top of the other, there's many things which are paralleled in the Mishka. The human being is a microcosm of the Mishka. We parallel the Mishka. Our mind is like the our own. Our stomach is like the, our eyes are like the menorah. There's all kinds of different ways of making parallels between them. The one that I'm most fond of recommending is the Mabus introduction to Parsha Truman, where he goes into the beautiful parallels there, one of them being between the Mishka and the human body. And he gives his own accounting there of how he corresponds the body to the Mishka. And the other is is that the Mishka itself is a microcosm for the entire span of the universe, for all of the upper realms and how Akash Burko designs the universe. So that's what he's relating to here. So he says, as he saying, just like the Mishka parallels the universe and all of the upper realms, he says so too. Does it parallel the human body, like we just said, again, all drawing from the MALM and so many other sources that get into this topic and unpack these issues. And he says that a human being has, as we talked about many times before, lower middle and upper levels. There's three levels in a human being. Ham, the han, its first its deepest level is the, which has the A and the Then you have the, you have the Kodesh Rah. Outside of the Kash, you have the second chamber, which has the menorah and the Han. And then you come out to the courtyard and there was the outer, he says, so to in a human being. There's also going to be three levels. Ham again, as we've spoken about many times before,'cause he always breaks down the human being into this structure of these three levels. You have the ach, the mind, the lave, the heart, and the eva, the limbs. And just like the perfection of the mishka comes out in all of its aspects, so too does a person fully sanctify themselves when they sanctify all of these levels that they should be proper for the shina to rest upon them, meaning that a person sanctifies their mind? I think we talked about this in our, podcast on Parma. A person needs to sanctify their mind to make their mind a place for hash, to remove any negative thoughts, to remove Any issues in Una, any doubts, KU, any issues of faith? To purify the mind in a way where the mind can become a place where a Q Bhu can rest to purify the heart, where I remove all of my negative physical desires, my desires for physicality and instant gratification and purify in a way where AK Bojo can rest in my heart and make sure that my body, the loneliness of my body, that everything that I do is Ku Shama and not follow my own desires and raise that up to a kho as well. That every single aspect of myself should be purified in a way where AK Boho can rest in it. Just like the Kashian, the kodesh, and the er al new. based on this we explained, in a previous piece, the curtains that would be around the Mishka and around the. Around the courtyard du, which are hinting to boundaries and limitations in the context of he's learning this out from a suk by bha, that when the donkey was taking him, and the donkey saw that there was the angel standing in front of him with the sword drawn. So one of the times the donkey goes and he moves close to a fence. There's a fence on one side, says the Suk, and there's a fence on the other side. And he moved and pushed against the fence. And when he pushed against the fence, it damaged the leg of bilam. So what is he learning out Alda from the Suk that's relevant to us, that a Jew needs. Borders and boundaries. They need limitations. God, he says, what does it mean? God, there was a fence on one side and a fence on the other side. We all need to have a fence on one side and a fence on the other side. What's the fence on the one side? One fence on one side is on that we should have a fence in Torah and Voda to make sure that we don't go into a negative space when we're doing positive things, when we're doing Torah. When we're doing voda. What does that mean? It means That when it, when I'm involved in Tal Torah, there is still fences. To make sure that when I'm in my ste tova, I'm doing my A, that it's all going to the right place. That it's all still going to a kku. It doesn't start to twist itself, and the Torah learning itself and the Voda itself doesn't go into a negative place the example that I've given many times in the past of, you know, guys sitting and learning in the base, they're learning super late at night. And they're sitting there and you have two guys sitting over Gamar and opposite sides of the base Med Rush. And both of them are looking at the words. Neither of them can see anything. all they're seeing are blurry Aramaic letters. And it's just a game of chicken of who's gonna blink first and who's gonna give up. So that way the guy can say the next morning as he comes in, exhausted and unable to dive in shock.'cause never learn. Yeah. Well, you know, I was the last guy in the base measures last night. It's just for bragging rights and the learning itself can go in a negative direction. The Voda, again, same issues in the realms of Voda, right? A person goes and they wanna do a ED to make sure that when they're doing the Hasid, that they're not doing a hassid in a situation where the reason why they're doing the Hasid is to impress the girl. The reason why they're doing is to impress the boy. the reason why they're going and they're davening with such intensity. And sh and shuffling like a lu love is to impress the boys so that they might look at them and see they might be a good shuck. Like you don't use Torah for your own ends. You don't use a Voda for your own ends. So the idea there is, we always have to have fences up, Godette and aov, and our Torah and our Voda have the ghar up to make sure that we know what are the limitations, what are the things to make sure that when I'm doing this, toda it's Shama. to always check yourself, am I doing this for ego? Am I doing this for popularity? Am I doing this in order to get somebody's attention? Am I doing it cool? Shame shamayim or my letting things draw me away from that li Shamayim, that's the ghar that he's talking about putting up here. And then there's the other fence back inside. And there's the other gir on the physical side that when I got involved in physical things that they're only raised up to a Q bjo. When we eat that I'm eating, I have to eat. I'm a physical being and I have to eat, but that I'm elevating my eating to be for K when I drink, that I'm elevating my drinking, that it's for K but when I go for a run, I'm elevating that, that it's for Q Bku. When I go out to work, that everything that I'm doing in the office I have in mind, all of the Dini, MAOS, and all of the Sha I'm engaged in the physical world. That is ku. I'm going to class. Why? Because I wanna be able to eventually make money and raise a beautiful Jewish family in a Jewish home. I wanna be able to have a beautiful shaa, a beautiful Yom to, and send my kids to Jewish day schools and all the things that come along with that. So I'm coming to Clash Les Shama, everything that I'm engaging in the physical world. I'm not just engaging in it physically, I'm elevating it. Les Shama through this ham's leg gets damaged. Meaning Biam is the negative side. Biam is always coming to get us. How do we break down the hagel of Biam? What's hagel? the things that I become regular to, the things that I become accustomed to, the things that I become rote for me, I break down the rot. I'm no longer by rote just going and engaging in the physical, in a physical way, because that's what I've been doing. No, I'm breaking it down. I'm elevating the physical to ak. vin, And he's saying that all of this is an explanation for, these are what the kmar, these curtains that we finally get to put up in this week's parsha. We put up the curtains all around the mishka, all around the, all around the courtyard, because we have this mishka inside of us. We have this beautiful, amazing Mishka inside of us. We have our ade, we have our kos, we have our, and that's cool off. We want the rest there. But what do I need to do? I need to put up those curtains all around, those curtains that act as the walls in order to make sure that even though it's all of em, that it stays in a positive way. That it stays sha on a level of so, and that it stays sha on a level es and that's the, those are those curtains that I'm putting around the mish. So he says, we can also understand these, these curtains that go around, that were around the mish and the courtyard, Keith, that the curtains are an aspect. Without getting into the nuances of the Kabbalah here, which I don't claim to understand. Of the or of the surrounding light. There's an inner light, an or, and an or and a surrounding light. So he's relating here to the surrounding light, the light that surrounds us from the outside, which is hinting to the light of saying, which is always surrounding us. Like it says, when it comes to is everything. It says, all your muna, everything comes down to Una next. All of Torah, all of m all depends on the Una and the extent to the clarity which I have in Una that's being hinted to by the curtains that surround the Mishka, he's saying that the Una is surrounding us on the outside. That we need to make sure that we're constantly surrounded by a clarity of Una and the stronger our Una is. The clearer our Una is, the more it surrounds and protects and elevates my inner M, the more I have Una. In this day and age. Shauna itself is something which we just need to be constantly, constantly strengthened. Belief in the existence of a Q Bku in a world that laughs at us in a world that's a world of cynicism and atheism and agnosticism. That just waves off the concept of the spiritual, the concept of there being any deep meaning, waves it off and laughs it off. Una. No, the world is crazy, but we know that Akash Bur was here. And to strengthen how we're surrounded by that Una, to draw those, to draw those curtains of Una around ourselves, and the deeper level of Una, which is our relationship with Akash, Buna, faithfulness. My commitment of faithfulness to AK in the context of a marriage, a husband and a wife. There needs to be a faithfulness in that relationship. How is that faithfulness in that relationship maintained with a level of privacy, with a level of closeness? that a man knows that when his wife goes out and she goes out into the world, he knows that she is going to be faithful to him. That even though she's walking out of the front door. She's remaining within the confines of their mishka, of their kida, of their curtains. There's a s and there's a privacy, and there's an intimacy of their relationship that maintains, even if they're not in the same place, that when he walks out the front door to go to work that day, that she knows that he's not talking to any of his female coworkers in a way that's inappropriate. That he is not going to any parties after work in a way that he shouldn't, that he's not doing anything to speak about his marriage in a way that would be inappropriate. that when a person goes online, they don't share intimate details of their marriage with the world that I have the up that's being faithful. So to not just be ze our belief in a but to be constantly being ze, to strengthen our faithfulness to AK and our knowledge that he's being faithful to us. To surround ourselves with that, to draw those curtains around and be enveloped in the knowledge that I know deep down in my kishka, that Ak B exists and that he's connected to me and he's always faithful to me, and that I'm gonna be faithful to him. That even when I walk out of this beat me, Josh, where it was so easy to sit and bask in the glory of his presence. As I learn his Torah, I'm going to still be faithful to him when I walk out into the world, when I leave the bees, even though I just finished davening and it was such a beautiful time, and I was able to talk to a Kadish B and re and be with him in Tela. I'm about to walk out, but he's gonna be faithful to me and I'm going to remain faithful to him. I'm gonna keep talking to him when I walk down the street. I wanna say a paragraph to Hillam as I'm walking down the streets for call. So it's going through this a challenging time here in Israel. The sirens have started up again, and everything's getting a little bit crazy again. Then I walk down the street and I say a paragraph to Hillam. I don't scream it out. There's no need for Preuss. That's preuss. It's nobody else's business, But when I walk down the street quietly, I'm talking to a Kaddish Bal. And maybe, I know this sounds crazy, but maybe, maybe, maybe when I'm walking down the street, even just in English, to talk to Hashem. I know it's a wild concept, but to talk to a Kaddish Bal to say what you're thinking, to say, what you're feeling, to engage in that relationship and to say way, you see a couple that walks down the street and they're speaking to each other. They're very close, and they're sitting close to each other and they're speaking. You can't hear what they're saying. You can tell that they're very close, but you have no idea what they're talking about. I'm talking to Aakash Burko because even though I'm walking down the street and it's in a challenging place. I'm walking down the streets of Manhattan. I'm walking down the streets of la, I'm walking down the streets in a place where it may not be the most UA place, it may not be the most appropriate place. I may not like the billboards that are around me. I may not like what I'm seeing around me, okay? I'm surrounded by Una. I'm surrounded by a faithful relationship to AK Bjo, and I'm not letting my eyes stray in any way from AK Bjo. I'm not letting my mind stray from AK Bjo, and I'm standing there and I'm talking to him as I walk down the street. I'm thinking about the six cons mva. As I walk down the street. I'm focused on Aakash Bjo because I'm surrounded by the K, I'm surrounded by these curtains. I'm surrounded by the faithfulness to ak, and that's what he says here. The TO is teaching us four lines in on the second column, on page Reish. the tourist teaching us in this par of the mish the Jew needs to do inside of themselves in order to get to a place of m Mik them be a fortress for to live inside of me in a way where I sanctify myself in such a way where I'm sanctified all the way from my foot to my head, from top to bottom. In my mind, in my heart, and in my body at all levels of myself, they should be proper to have the rest upon them and there shouldn't turning away from me, God have the fences up around me. To maintain that kaha, maintain that privacy, that intimacy, that s in that kaha, that we have these fences up, that we have these curtains up in a way that we make sure that there is boundaries, that we shouldn't allow anything from the outside into our Mishka and not to fall out and to push out too far outside the boundaries of our mishka, and then it can be proper for the shina to rest within us. That's one level we haven't even gotten to the question of what about the seven days of the inauguration? So what's going on with the seven days of the inauguration? Hopefully he'll address it in the next paragraph. So he goes on, he says vi. So also in terms of the seven days of the inauguration, of the mishka, of the putting up of the mishka and the breaking down of the mishka, the tourist teaching us the way of a Jew. That even if I've ish worked and I've worked and I've toiled to build my mishka. And even after everything that I've done and all the work that I've put in, I listened to all of these em and I did the inner work and I've done the contemplation and I've built myself up. I've built up my internal ishka and after all of that, I sinned and I messed up, and I Amish completely fell. And the whole Mishka that I built inside of myself in Amish collapses. I've got nothing left. I sinned so badly. I messed up so badly that I've destroyed my inner Mishka ish, don't despair. Beautiful, beautiful. He says, no. You get yourself up immediately. you dust yourself off, and you go and you build it anew. You put it back up. The, it's prohibited for a Jew to start getting depressed from this. Not talking about obviously clinical depression, If it's just a feeling of feeling down to get lost in it, it's us. He says, and even after such, such a messing up, even after such a fall where you worked so hard to build up your mik and it ma falls apart, you have to go back and build it again. That this is the, of the seven days of the Han going up to break it down and to put it up again. There are times in life when yes, we work and work and work and we've worked for so long. It could be that we've worked for a week. it could be that we've worked for a month. It could be that we've worked for all of Ana Olive or all of Ana, olive and abet or I didn't go shabe or I went for both an ABET and I've been up through a whole year of college and I stayed strong. Two years of college, all of co whatever it is. and after that, and I can't believe it. Everything that I built up, I built up so much kaa, so many gaar. I was so careful and I was so thoughtful and I was, and everything was to the TI knew exactly limit limitations, and I never saw it coming. I never saw that, I got swept up and I didn't realize, and my friend said they were going on a trip and I didn't realize what the kind of trip it was gonna be and where we were gonna go. And I can't believe what I did. I was so strong and, and I didn't realize, and then I started dating and I didn't understand the importance Of having UD beyond even the regular limitations of UD and I messed up. I was walking with friends and I just, the peer pressure got so intense. I didn't realize that they went, got into a challenging place religiously, and I didn't know what to do and I made a mistake. I went home and I thought that I understood how to deal with my family. My family put so much pressure on me and all of these different ways, and you could have so many gaar in place and you've spent so much time building up your KAA that you're just flying. You have ra has inside of you and you mess up so bad. You mess up so bad that it's not that one of the Caleb of your mishka become Tam. You look around and around you are just the tatted remains. The curtains are on the floor, the planks are on the floor, the Kali are on the floor. The whole thing has just imploded and we all have times in our life like that. And we look around and we sit on the floor and look at the broken tatters of our inner world, of our inner religious life. In connection with the Q Bou. The Chena that was with us is in here because my mishkin is in tatters. And, and what's the point? It took me a whole year to build this. It took me two years to build this. It took me five years to build this. It took me forever to build this. What's the point? And Monu says, I'll tell you what the point is. I'm gonna go, I'm gonna go as Mo Bannu. You think anybody else other than me can build a mish gun? He wouldn't say that'cause he's an, but we know that that's true. You think anybody else, other than Modo could build a mish gun? And he goes, and he says, I'm going and I'm gonna build the mish gun. We're ready to go. We're inaugurating the mish gun. And he puts the whole thing together. Mossino, no Sina, no Sina, no fire, no nothing. And everybody's like, you can imagine. 600,000 people. There was no Netflix. there was no movies, there was no television. There was nothing to look at except for clouds and sky and sand and wind. 600,000 people come out and watch one superhuman being go and with his own two hands build the entire miskin, the holiest person in the world and nothing happens. I would totally understand if Mo like turn to a kish B and, and I don't think we would be shocked, he turns to a kish say, ha kish, where are you? Ha kish BI don't understand ha what went wrong? And we see great people over the course of AK to such a thing. The first time that Yeshua sees defeat at the hands of I, he turns to ha Kish. He says, well, I don't understand. What happened? How could you leave me? Not in a way, he lacks faith, but he is talking to a gun sparkle. He's hurt, he's upset, he's confused how a gut sparkle says, take it easy. Go to the tuum and figure out something's wrong. If I what didn't let you in, then something's wrong. Most of you doesn't even ask. He takes it down. It's okay, we're gonna do it again. Aren't you embarrassed? Why would I be embarrassed? We did everything exactly Scottsboro who said, and he wants this mish gun and he didn't want it right now and it didn't work out fine. We're gonna do it again. And so he goes and builds it again. Okay, didn't happen again. Fine. Let's try again tomorrow. And he's not deterred. We don't see anything, leave his spirit. and he never turns to a kaku. He knows what a kaku told him. He knows this is what he's supposed to do. So he goes again and again and again because even if it doesn't work out. It doesn't matter. My whole purpose of being a Jew in this world is to fill myself and fill this world with the Q Burko, fill the world with the Q Burko, with the Mishka, fill myself with the Q with my inner Mishka. And if it doesn't come this time, if I make a mistake, if everything falls apart, if the whole thing collapses in itself, fine, let's go. Let's build it again and again, and again and again as many times as it takes, because that's why I'm here, says And according to the opinion of who says that he took it up and put it down twice a day, every day for the seven days, he says that's hinting two the morning and the nighttime that mo's teaching us how to relate to the Mishka going up and down in the times of light and at the times of darkness. That there are times in light. There are times when things are going great and never we trip and something goes wrong, we trip and mess up. In a time of great light, I'm flying, things are good and something wrong. Okay fine. So get up and keep going. Things are good. Why would you stop now? And there are times ne when it's momish dark and everything, just, everything's so bad as it is. And now the whole thing's collapsing. Ne all I had left was this, was this ne all around me. And even that you're gonna knock down, even that I can't hold up on my own, even that I can't even maintain. Ne what's the point? KU says, no, put it back up. Motion says no. Put it back up. In the dark times you also put it back up. It doesn't matter how pathetic it looks, KU wants to be with you. You have to put up that Mishka, you re-put up those walls, you re-put up those curtains and you reestablish a sanctity in a caa and boundaries and limitations. It'll get stronger and stronger, but it doesn't matter in the light times, in the dark times, if it comes down, I put it back up. Who says that it was three times a day that took it down and put it back up. He says that's because if he put it up and took it down three times a day for the seven days of the inauguration, that means in total he took it up and put it down 21 times. We're gonna skip over the parentheses, um, in the number 21 who, RIA and the number 21 is the RIA of the name that only comes up once in Humash. Who was talking to Monu when he first speaks to him at the burning bush and he says, what should I tell Rael, who is this God that introduced himself to you? He says, my name is Ette. I'm gonna say the name. You're not supposed to say the name. I'm gonna say the name for Clarity. He says, my name is A, so we say it because it's name of Ashem we say, so is 21. because is the name of Chuva says, wow. What does the say, the name is all about? What's the name? EK means I will be. So who says I will be is I will be, I will be there to redeem you now. I'll be there to redeem you in the future. But says the Ur, what does it mean? This name Ek. What does it mean? I will be, as it relates to me and my Vos, that it means that a Jew is accepting upon themselves that I will be, it's the name of Chuva Ma. What was was. Um, but from now ek I will be something totally different. I'm gonna be a totally new thing. Top of the next page. I'm gonna be a totally new creation. everything that I was, and until now, you're right. I was one thing and I tried and it was great. And there was has Sina and there was a Mishka and it was wonderful. And then it failed, fine. It was great and it failed. So now I'm gonna be better. I'm gonna be something brand new. Some of you that never was before. The, even though a person accepted upon themselves so many times to be a certain way, I'm going to be good. I'm going to be pure. I'm gonna be committed to AK and to and mitzvahs, and I'm gonna be strong in this mitzvah and I'm be strong against the Vera and I'm gonna be strong in doing this aspect of em. And I'm gonna be committed to this level of serving a cottage. Bur, and I committed myself to it. And I put my whole being into it and I still fell. I still fell re fine. I'm gonna do shva, but doesn't mean I'm gonna do shva. I feel bad for what I did. and I admit what I did and I cry my eyes out to for what I did. And then Truva, not juva, just to get back to where I was. I'm gonna create something that never was before. And all of those commitments, I built the previous Mishka and it's still fell. Game on. Let's build a stronger mishka. Let's refortify those walls. Let's reimagine the foundations. Let's build an even more glorious tapestry. Let's keep all of the negativity out in a way that we never imagined before. We're gonna make the walls even stronger. We're gonna make the even bigger and more beautiful and more purifying. I'm gonna make the menorah so much brighter. I'm gonna transform myself in a way that I never thought I could, because if I could still fall after all I put in, then I could be something greater because I can overcome it. I will be something even better. Chuva the name of Chuva, so Mo, it takes it up and down 21 times, er. Why taste hint to the name Eya, the name of Chuva? The idea that you take it down and you put it up your whole life. You're taking up and putting down the Mishcon every single time. You're designing it better and designing it better, and designing it better. Every single time it comes down you go. Amazing. Fantastic. That's a tremendous opportunity. Now I see where the weak points are, and I'm gonna build it stronger than it ever was before. It's an amazing, amazing thing. In the new job that I have, I experience it frequently. I'm now a podcast producer. So one of the challenging aspects of the job is that every time that you come up with a draft, you spend days and days working on this episode of a podcast that you put, all kinds of thought and structure and you pick every word carefully and you make sure that everything comes out perfectly and you wanna make sure that all the inserts are right. And then comes the big day. What's the Big Day Podcast Feedback day? And you take this piece of audio that you've worked on for days of your life that you know every word of backwards and forwards that you've worked on. And you put it up on the chat for everybody to listen to, and everybody gets to give their feedback and you're waiting for it. Everybody's like, it's amazing, it's glorious. And everybody tells you, I was bored here. I didn't understand here that insert didn't need to be there at all. I don't understand why you even brought up that topic at all. Why is that still in this episode? And everything that you thought was amazing comes crumbling down. And the first time you do it, you just wanna crawl up into a ball and never get out again. You're like, forget it, I'm just gonna quit. And evidently, no matter what field of podcasting you're in, that's what feedback is always like, every podcast producer, evidently goes through that experience, and you go through it every single time. It doesn't get any, it feels better, but it doesn't change every first draft, every second draft. That's just what it's like. And it's an amazing thing because it trains you to go in and say, I'm about to put this thing out there that I think is great. And the beautiful thing is, is that there are five people out there who are listening to this, who are committed to making this as great as possible. And what they're doing is, is with professional love and care, pointing out all of the weak spots that I couldn't see, all the blind spots that I couldn't see. And now for the next week, I'm gonna go back and I'm gonna take this thing, which was great. With the knowledge of those weak spots that could have made the whole thing collapse in on itself. I'm gonna fortify it in the way that it never was before, and sometimes that I've had to do this also. I'm gonna start from scratch because it was so bad. I didn't even realize I gotta just go back to the foundations and rebuild the foundations. That's a very human, daily work, non oriented example. It doesn't hit as hard. It definitely hits harder when it's my avo hashem. It's this inner world, this inner mishka that I've built up for so long. But if something is able to break that down, if something happens where ne I break a mitzvah, I break a commitment to Nevo Hashem that I never thought I could break. It is, it's terrible, and I have to do chuva and Kira. I'm gonna clap. S all of that's true, but Chuva, my whole ishka came down. Mo was saying, great, it came down, build it stronger. Don't just build it the way it was before. Build it strong. You see so many people who going, rabbi, I keep messing up. I keep making a mistake. And no matter how much I say, I'm not gonna do it again, I'm not gonna do it again. I'm not gonna do it again. I keep making the mistake. How many times I've looked at somebody and said to them, I have a question for you. You've messed up seven or eight times. Have you done anything differently in those seven or eight times? Or do you just keep making the same commitment and then failing again? Like, no. I'm like, I recommit. I'm like, great, but it's not working. Like you're telling me it's not working. So let's dig deeper. What precautions can be put in place? How do we strengthen the walls of the mishka? How do we strengthen the curtains of the Mishka? Your mo, the Mishka just came down three times in a day. It didn't stand, it didn't have the hin rest in, it didn't stay. He doesn't just go back and build the same. Can you imagine Monu doing anything twice exactly the same way? Can you imagine him not upgrading his es hashem every single time? Of course he is. Every time he's coming to it with a freshness, whether it's not stom that we're reading this partial, we're talking about these issues on which week? On the week of par. This is it. This is the week, this is the month in so many pieces, points out this month is for you. What does it mean this month is for you? It's on a whole new level. It just like outside the whole world is renewing. It died. It died over the winter months. The trees were dead. The flowers were dead. The outside, everything was cold. It was dead. It was rainy, it was snowy. Nothing was growing, nothing was there. Everything is dead. And somehow it's coming back to life. There's a whole Hines in the world that's happening right now. That's what Pesa is all about. We can monish be 210 years slaves in Egypt and be dead to the world, dead in. Rni is dead in every way, and we can momish start a whole new thing. We can come out a whole new people. There's a chu in Nissan Par this week, Acho in Nissan, a brand new reality in because I, as you can always be ade, there's nothing new under the sun. And he's right. There is nothing new under the sun. We're above the sun, we're above the constellations. We live by the moon, not by the sun. always comes back and it comes back new and fresh and different where reality of his, every single time I break down in my vo hashem, every single time a michan comes down. I don't just rebuild it, I rebuild it better. I sit down and I pour over Every single one of the plans. Every single way that I built it and I build it stronger, and I build it better. If I'm remembering the statistic correctly from, uh, Dr. Kovi, Dr. Pulitz often quotes this, that they did a study about the difference between the top 1% of brain surgeons, I believe it was, and all other brain surgeons we're already talking about an elite class of people here. What makes them the top 1%? Was it their iq? Was it the scores on their tests? Was it the final grades in medical school? what's the thing that distinguishes them? Is it their morning routines? Is it the type of coffee they use? Like, what's going on? There was only one differentiating factor across all the 1%. Everybody else, when they made a mistake in brain surgery, and that's a person's whole life. Somebody dies on the table, somebody's irreparably damaged. You can imagine the weight that there is on a person. All the other 99% explained what went wrong. Listen, the, it wasn't the scalpel that I wanted. The assistant who was with me wasn't doing what she was supposed to be doing. There was a delay in this. There was all of these reasons why this one went wrong. For that 1%. They never externalized what went wrong. Here's what I did wrong, and here's what I'm gonna do better next time. They never allowed themselves to externalize failure. We're human. We're going to make mistakes. What makes a person the top 1%, so to speak, in Avo Hashem? I don't externalize my mistakes. I did. I spent years building this Mishka and it came down. It dam down in the worst possible way. I'm not going to deny it. I'm not gonna bury my head in the sand. I'm not gonna lie to myself to make myself feel better. I'm gonna own it and instead of either ignoring it or getting depressed and never getting back up again. How can I make a stronger mishka in a way that it's never gonna fall like it felt before. Powerful stuff. Let's just finish the paragraph. The that. Even if a person accepts things upon themselves and a person Moish falls completely, their whole Mishka falls apart. Ari falls apart again. This person had the Sina with them, and they sin so badly that the leaves they accept upon themselves that now They're going to rebuild themselves in a way where they'll be deserving of the Sina again. And now even more than before. And the SLO number says even further, He says even further that the name 21 times 21 times 21 is the Gtri of Emmett Ti. What's the truth that even if I accept upon myself again and again, again, I'm gonna do it better. I'm gonna do it better, and I keep falling EK 21 times. 21 times, 21 times. I promised myself times 21 times. I promised myself I would do better, that I'm gonna do it differently this time. And I keep falling 21 times, 21 times. If I still commit myself, no, I'm gonna do better next time. Again, not to just do it again. I try to change something and tweak and change and tweak and change a little bit better, a little bit better, a little bit better. Gonna take them back. And that's what the tourist, teaching us through the seven days of the, the seven days of the inauguration that took it up and down 21 times in seven days. No matter how much I take upon myself and fall, keep coming back and accepting upon myself again until I Amish build myself a fortress. My mishka is built up and built up and built up to be a place where I God borough, who caress for eternity. The Mishka is such a special thing. We don't give it enough. In my humble opinion, I don't think we give it enough consideration. and Loftiness, you know, we think about the Mishka as simply the temporary dwelling place of God. Until we get to the Bean, we can finally build him a home. I actually learned the today in Schwabe, where Ek turns to and says, I wanna build him a bias. He says, I wanna build him a bias. And Na says, okay, so go ahead. And KU says, no. Tell him no. And part of what he says is, I never asked for a house. Did I ever ask for a house? You came up with that David, not me. And because you asked for it, you're gonna get it and your son's gonna build it. But it was such a powerful moment. I never saw the PKI in that way. Kara responds and says, I never asked for a house. What did I ask for? This is not in, I asked for a ishka. The whole ghost is a, Kara was for me to always be with you. Was for me to give you a dwelling place that as you traveled in the desert and you traveled through all of your travels throughout history, because the majority of your histories is a kaku. It's gonna be an exile. It's not gonna be an arts Israel, and it's not gonna be with a beam. The majority of your history is gonna be in exile or on the road, which all of exile is really the road back to Ari now, ultimately the road to being firmly established forever in er, Israel. But it's gonna be on the road. Ade, the Mishka is the main thing. The Mishka is the main part of history. To live with a Mishka and to live as a Mishka, that we live in a way that no matter where we are has that. I'm gonna dwell with you even when you're, I pure, it doesn't matter. I'm always with you. To always have the mishka with us. That no matter where we are in the world, that we build our bat and our bat. That we build our shuls and we build our places of study and learning. We build our internal places that we build spaces in our home to learn and to, and most importantly, that we build our inner mish who's traveling within me no matter where I go. That's the Mishka My Rebi points out based on a gamara. I believe in na Vora. that they took, where did the Mishka go? So the Mishka is the walls. The mishcon is those curtains. The Kali went into the base of Minta. What happened to the, do you think they just threw away the Mishka? Mishcon says the gamara was buried underneath the spot where they built the bays onik and says me so powerfully. What does that mean? That even when the bes onus was destroyed, what was never destroyed, the Mishka was never destroyed. He says, the Mishka is the foundation of the Be. The Mishka is the foundation of ultimately what we want, which is a permanent home in dwelling for kahu, the at the ash in the centerpiece of the world on the ash in the centerpiece of Yola, of course, but that can come and go. The Mishka is never destroyed. Akash who's presence with us is never destroyed because that is dependent on one thing and one thing only, to the extent to which I build my Mishka inside, and there are going to be times in our lives where that Mishka is going to get broken down, or I'm going to mess up so badly that I tear it down, that I trip and fall and knock the whole thing down with me. But just like it stayed with me, even when the base of English went away and it stayed with me. Even if I went into Gales, it could go back up. Can Monish go back up And Moschar was putting it up and taking it down and putting it up and taking it down. Seven days, two times a day, three times a day to teach us. It's always gonna come down, but you always gotta put it back up and put it back up with Chuva and put it back up with, to put it back up with his something new. Some way new that I ever did before in a way that's closer to a q. Should bless us to fortify our Mishka. And every time it comes down to Amish, put it back up, stronger and better that we build within ourselves, a place for Ajo to rest with us no matter where we are in the world, in exile, in Gales, in Ula, and wherever we are. And through building up these hubs of kha and Mishka and Shina inside of us in all 600,000 places around the world that will be able to bring them all together, unite them as one, as one, claral, as one, Mishka, as one Mik, and see the rebuilding of that beta in its permanence. 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