Sefiras HaOmer: Starting Low... and Reaching Great Heights

In this episode we dive into the unique time of year of Sefiras HaOmer - the seven week period between Pesach and Shavuos! The Midrash tells us to make sure to take the Omer seriously, and that by keeping it, we will merit to inherit Eretz Yisrael. What is so special about the mitzvah of Sefirat HaOmer that the Midrash puts it on such a pedestal? And why does it assume we would not have given it proper attention in the first place? We are going to get into one of the deep lessons of Sefirah in this week's episode!

If you want to follow along in the text, it is Nesiovs Shalom Chelek Bet page shin chaf bet (322). You can find a pdf of the piece here.

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Hello everyone. This is Rabbi Robbie Chernoff, and you are listening to the Hasids for Life podcast, the podcast where we learn a deep hasidic insight every single week and explore how it can lead us to a more meaningful, vibrant, and spiritually uplifted life. In this episode, we are learning about Sphera oer. The seven week period between Pesach and VUIs. The measures tells us to make sure to take Spiro ha oer seriously, and even says that by keeping it, we will merit to inherit a Israel. What's so special about the mitzvah of S er That the Meres puts it on such a pedestal. and why might we have not given it the proper intention in the first place? Through these questions, we're going to get into one of the deep lessons of Sphera in this week's episode. If you wanna follow along inside, you can open up an to Paige Shin Habe, and the piece on ER entitled er, or simply go to the show notes for a link to a PDF. But feel free to just sit back, listen, and enjoy the ride most people do. This week's episode is sponsored anonymously for a refu Shaima for Sara Boss Tulsa. Thank you so much to this week's generous sponsor. Your sponsorships are what make this podcast happen. If you would like to sponsor an episode of the podcast, yes, you please email Rabbi chernoff@gmail.com or see the show notes for more details. Alright, with that, let's jump into the Devo Shalom on. We are in, we are in the second volume of the additional volumes on the Modi. On page hin which is entitled Al don't Let the Mitzvah of S become light in your eyes. It says in says, you should make sure that the mitzvah of S is never light in your eyes. You always take it seriously at, because it was through the mitzvah of ER that was able to inherit. That's why says the me God says to, I will give you and your children after you, er uncondition, that you keep my covenant, the azo, and which covenant is that? Claims the mi, that's the mitzvah of ser. the mitzvah of the OER is what allows us to inherit Erit Israel. Say this is a wild, this is a crazy, it's very clear in the context of par, that when who says to Nu, you get to inherit Elle on condition, that you keep my covenant, the mitzvah of my covenant. What mitzvah is it relating to? It's the Mitzvah of Bris Mila. And the Jewish people for all time get the mitzvah of Bri Mila at the end of par. And it's clearly showing us that you get to inherit Elle to the extent that you keep the Mitzvah of Mila. Why is the me seemingly randomly connecting this to the mitzvah of the Ooma? How can we understand that it's in the of the that and the get to inherit? How do we understand that? We also have to understand the fact that the me, on its simplest level is telling us not to take the MI of the umer lightly. GRA meaning it seems like the me is coming to address a problem. What problem would the me be coming to address by saying, don't let the Mitzvah be light in your eyes. It seems to be addressing that we would have thought or allowed ourselves to let it become light in our eyes to not take it seriously. What's the Hava Amina of the Med Rush? What's the presumption of the Med Rush? We're assuming that people would take Surat Omer lightly in and of itself. Why did it say, don't ever take it lightly forever. That seems to be implying that there's some sort of eternal aspect here that we need to relate to. So he says in the next paragraph, we go through different periods in our life. There are times in our life where we have what's referred to as. Where our mind is bigger, our mind is larger and times of where our minds are. Smaller times when we have God hin a broad, expansive mind where everything seems clear, where I feel connected to a Q Bku, where I feel clarity in am my amuna and my connection to a Q Bku in my learning and everything's firing in all cylinders. My mind is working in a way of a v. And then there's a time of ka mo where my mind feels small, where I'm desperately struggling to try and just schlep myself to shul and schlep myself to the next mitzvah and schlep myself to the next UD where I'm struggling and seeing K in my life in a way that's meaningful. And I know he's there, but everything feels very small. I don't see the big picture. And he says, and I'm sure that this concept exists in general and throughout the, I never heard him use this phrase before, but then there's ka then there's having a, like, not just the times that are rough and I, okay, I know I'm slipping from minan to minion. I'm schleping from learning to learning. Okay. I'm making do Until things get better. Until things get clear. But then there's times momish where it's just the small of the small. my capacity to see the depth of a Q Bku in my life and in the world is just minuscule, and we have those times in our life. Again, we're not questioning in those moments. Does a Q Bku exist? I know he exists. I'm not questioning if life is meaningful. I know it's meaningful, but I don't see or feel any of it. I feel empty, I feel distant. I feel like I'm just, I'm doing what I have to do, but I don't feel anything that's going on. I'm not saying that this is Kano s but even this past Chavis, I was sitting and doing my, knock in the morning. I'm continuing to work on my project of trying to complete all of Nir, and. I got up and on SHA this morning, so shul, even in Shuls here, they start later than usual. You know, normally I go to chakras at like 6 45, 7 o'clock in the morning, and my shul on Shaba, it starts at eight o'clock. So my body gets me up at the same time every day. It doesn't really care what day it is. So I wake up basically at the same time. So on Chaba it's actually very nice. I get up, I get myself together. those of you know me. I get my morning sunlight, I get myself, settled. and I sit down to learn and I get in a few pra of NA before I even go to shul. And I learned a few pra and I got up to go to shul and I felt like I just felt nothing. In fact, I didn't even feel nothing. It felt like. I felt frustrated by my learning and I'm learning safe air, and there's beautiful nua there, and I just wasn't connecting, and I had to stop and sit myself down and ask what's going on? That I'm sitting down and reading the gorgeous nevus and sometimes the painful nua of Yael, and I'm just not feeling it, and I'm feeling the opposite, that I feel so small, that I feel so disconnected. Just a few weeks ago I was reading some nevus in Yuhu and like flying and those were also some very tough nevus, but I felt connected. I felt everything made sense. I felt the, the desire tova and to connect to Akash, BHU and Da nva. Even though spoilers we don't achieve in the end, and we do get kicked out our cell, we don't go through the hormone. But, but even that moment, you're like, no, CAEL. Turn it around. You're reading, you reading. I'm like, I'm not there. I had to sit down and take myself back. Why am I feeling in this place of smallness? Is there anything that I can do in this place of smallness? I may not be able to move, and we'll see if he'll tell us how to get out of a place of cottons or how to deal with being in a place of cottons. But my question was, can I get out of it? And if I can't get out of it, how can I change my perspective within it? We all have those times and you could say, you know, okay, so you had a rough day or two of doing knock in the morning and okay, this make, it matters. My voter shame everyday matters. Our voter shame. Every single one of us, our voter shame everyday matters. How do I turn that around in those times of cottons and especially cotton, the ship of cottons, how do I deal with that? How do I go through that when I'm dealing in a place where I feel s small Again, that was a light example. Definitely in a situation where I'm going through real, legitimate personal difficulties and I just don't feel ya, Hashem, I don't see him in my life again. I don't question May, but I don't see him in my life with all the challenges that are going on. I. I, I'm suffering from this illness and things aren't going good at work, and the person who I'm dating, things aren't going the way that I thought that they were gonna go. Or I'm arguing with my wife, or I'm struggling with one of my kids who I can't get things together with. Whatever the stage of life I might be in, where I'm just, all these things I'm piling. I'm like, K, I don't see you. Where are you? And so my Ning is distracted because I'm thinking about all these issues and my learning is distracted because I'm thinking about all these issues. And wondering why I'm sitting here to learn. I'm sitting here to da, I, I wanna serve you, and I can't. Why is it so difficult? So he says, he says, when it comes to Bri, Mila, right, which was the mitzvah that Ara definitely got in the context of inheriting er L. If you keep the mitzvah of Mila, you will inherit er L. See, he says, when it comes to the mitzvah of Mila, that's given at the real cottons of a person on a very literal level. Meaning who gets a when a boy gets a how? He's eight days old. There's, there's no in there at all. He doesn't understand. There's no deep concepts. I've never seen a baby so far stop before the mohel goes to do the milah and say, excuse me, I need to say like, what is going on? You know, he is like, why am I being changed public like this? What's going on? and then he starts screaming. You give him little pinky's worth of, wine and he starts to come down a little bit. No idea what's going on. That's the cotton, the ship of cotton. There's no there at all. Top of the next column and the whole aspect of MAH is that the baby is being Mackay, the mitzvah of brim with his body without any ka at all. The baby can't have kana. There's no kana at all. It's the biggest mitzvah for the baby. and yet it's D through this mitzvah, which is at the lowest point of smallness. Ra through that Avram is promised your children will inherit ra. Ra does brim when he's 99. but after that it's eight days old for everybody starting from Yk, eight days old brim. We have this concept within when Get the Mitzvah, Raza er, they got the mitzvah when they were at their lowest, they got the mitzvah when they were in Ka. Like Mitzva Mila without do. In fact, you could even say the baby had more DA than cla. So when they were doing omi, a baby at least gets eight days. We were one day old. We left Mitri the day before. We were one day old as a nation and starting from one day old, we have to count day one. See, USA omi we're our lowliest points. We've been alive Monish for one day as a nation. We have no das at all there in that way. When we left, like we've talked about in the past that the Met, which says that we were like a fetus in the womb of the mother animal, the mother animal ra, and we were the fetus inside of the mother animal. And because of that, we were surrounded by meats drying. We got our whole life forced from meats drying. Were miss, we were monish immersed in the for ninth level of Tuma. We were monish immersed in the TMA of Mitri to the greatest degree possible without there being a point of no return. If we hit 50, there's no way back. We got as far as we could possibly go because gestated within the context of Mirah. We became a nation within the context of Mera. And so we go down, we absorb from Mera and all of that Tah. And we get to the 49th level, like we've talked about in the past 49, Connecticut, 49, that we have the 49 levels of TMA that we fell to. And so we have the 49 days of SP oer. Each one is purifying one of those levels. The seventh sp. Each one of them is comprised of all seven. And so over the course of s Omar, we go through every single one of our mitos who have to purify everyone. there's no mi that's untouched. We're fully immersed in the two of me trying. We're a fetus in the womb of the mother that has been trying. De and it's because of that the Corban er itself, which kicks off Surat er. It's brought from Ur, it's brought from Barley, which is the Food of Animals we talked about in the last podcast. It's brought from the Food of Animals because we're on a lowly, animalistic state, ki we were monish like an animal fetus in the womb of the animal. And we're birds. We're an animal. We're a physical nation with animalistic instincts. We're still Israel. There's still a core of Una. There's still a core of a drive for kaa. And for 49 days, we have to remove all of that tuma and bring every aspect of ourselves, all four, nine levels out of tma. And and that's what AL'S saying. So that's why the matters tells us don't let the Mitzvah of S be light in your eyes because you have to keep my covenant. You have the mitzvah of Mila and like that is the mitzvah of er. And because of that, Avra was able to inherit Erra. The NuMo, just like the mitzvah of Mila, where we're completely physical beings, where there's no godless. It's all s, and that brings us into becoming a Jew. That's the mitzvah that makes us a Jew and allows us to inherit Erergi RA out with at all. But it's through that that Avra has promised that his children, by doing BAH and keeping Bila, will be able to inherit the land, Kim, so to by the mitzva. Don't let it be light in your eyes even though you are in the lowest of places. We were fully Tam. There was no Khans. There was no Kdu yet. We weren't there yet. We built and we built and we built for four, nine days to the desert. So we got to Mat Torah. We didn't have the Torah yet. We had nothing to work with at that time, and we internally were not in a place to work with anything. At that time. We were in the, we left Egypt and it's because we we're at this lowliest place. The smallness of mind, and it's through that we're able to achieve Torah. It's an incredible thing. I don't think he's saying this, but when I quickly just scanned it over before we started, I was thinking that almost every time with any group, when I start discussing sata omi, the question that I always ask is, and I think it's actually in the description of the last week's podcast, is. Why? What's the meaning of a q Barko asking us to count 50 days. He wants to see if we can count to 50, like, yay, Clauds Don can all count to 50. Like, good for you. Is that what it's all about? And Chuva, I think a little bit. The answer is on a certain level, yes. Q Barko says, I see you. You've been under terrible servitude in Egypt for over 200 years. You're broken. You held on by a thread. You held on with Una. You got out with Mila and Dam Pesa. You held on to three things just to connect to your Judaism. You came out with nothing. There's no kavana yet. Yeah, CLA stern. Let's start simple on a certain level, and he's gonna go deeper than that for sure, but I wanna suggest Yeah, just count. All I do is count. Just just count one. Today, say, today's the first day. Next day all I have to do is just count two. Today's the second day. That's it. Yeah. You did two mitzvas. Now, today's the third day. Three MSOs now, and you're slowly building yourself up over oer. Yeah, maybe by simply counting. Coach Barko says that there are times in life we are gonna feel small, we are gonna feel disconnected, we are gonna feel like nothing's really going on. And you know what? Just do the simple actions. It's not enough to do the actions. We need the kavana. We need the excitement. We need the connection. Of course there is. And now Barak, you open up a sitter and you look inside Forsa er and there's Li, and then the bha, and then Teem and then Anna, and then re ola, and then the sphere as are, put it. Yeah. There's all that. Sure. Great. The same way that, again, in the previous episode last week, I was saying as almost a sense of frustration at the fact that in my community, in the sh multiple shoes, every sh I've been in, in this community and the council, er, they, it's just, that's it. Nu and there's no pause, there's no reflection, there's no connecting to it, there's no, all the other stuff is gone and, and on a certain level, okay. There's a lister in that too. If you say the BHA and you say the day, if you're in a place of, he did a mitzvah, and every day by default, you're progressing. Today's day one, today's day two, today's day three. Oh. But if today's day three and I'm still counting, then that means I've already done three mitzvahs and I'm moving a little bit further. Maybe I can start to connect a little bit more. Maybe today I will say, maybe I'll just throw in that line after at least I'm ing for the base of to come back and I can just bring that corban again one day in the future. And I'm taking that kalas and I'm starting to open it up and trying to reach a place of godless again. There's certain days of Syria, I've had a more challenging sphere, us O Omar this year so far. Hopefully it'll turn around. Hopefully it'll get to God. I'm hoping. There are times when I've been in shul and I know that I've distracted and I'm exhausted and I'm not focused and I'm nervous that I'll forget. I try to say it afterwards, but my say was a little bit long and then they say it very quickly and then do's finished and I got her into the next thing. So I'm supposed to say it right afterward and I try to say it right afterward, but I need, wanna make sure to say it with time and with focus and with care. And there were some days where I was just like, you know what? I'm not feeling it. I'm not there and I wanna at least make sure to the midst of Sphera. And it was very depressing. Just say the raha and then the number and then that's it. And that was it for the night. And maybe this is the answer. Maybe this is part of the answer. Sometimes yes, just saying the aka just saying the number. I'm connecting to you. No deep kaas. I don't get what the spheres are. I dunno what the mitos are. I dunno what netra is. I, I don't know. Today's the 50th day of the over you told me to count. I'm counting. That level of KA of just doing and being in it in the KA with the understanding that it will bring you to the God. The baby has no kavanah in mah, but he becomes a Jew and he inherits hers. His start through mah, we say oer and we don't take it lightly. We take it very seriously. Even if I don't feel it every time, I don't understand why am I counting similar? What am I counting for? Today is 27. It's not lava er, it's not Cheney. there's no special explosive moment that's happening right now. Duh. Today is 23. I dunno. But yeah, today's 23 and I count it perhaps, perhaps I'm projecting, but perhaps that's, a little bit of what he's saying here But what he is definitely saying is it's through this mitzvah, recognizing that we start out in a place of smallness. Where all I can do is count, but there is an expectation that over the course of these 50 days, I am progressing and I am growing, and I am developing, and I am purifying as I go through the process of sphere, that that's what allows me, monish, the midst of sphere, omi, to transform myself from an animal to a human being. From barley to the of VUIs. For me meet and just having walked one step outta Metri and still feeling the schmutz of mitri on me, it's becoming a malach, an that doesn't even a body by rah what gets me there by definition. It's er by definition and it's hard and it's challenging and it's a fight. It's the day in a day out fight, but that's what gets us there. You see it by call you, sir. Also, You see it in Hummish and the story as it unfolds in the first year in the desert, they come out of me trying. They walk to the Amsu and they get to the amsu ready. They have questions, which is understandable. the Egyptians are behind us. The amsf is in front of us. Are we gonna survive? And Aho splits the sea they walked through. They had the greatest vu that ever was greater than the Vu Zi. They had the greatest VOA that ever was in Shi. Three days later, Mara, the waters are bitter. Everything's bitter. I can't see any sweetness in life, Kanu. A few days after that, I'm going to give you bread from the heavens. Whatever you do though, don't leave it over. We leave it over. I'm gonna give you extra on Arab chais. Don't go out on Chava. Go out on Chavez. We ask God Burko when there's no water again. Hi. Ava comes in, attacks us because of that, and we fight our arch for the first time. When is all that happening? If it's happening in the hummish between and Par and Ka, sat and par tro, the answer is, it's happening. Er is par and after Chris Yasu and after Shiat, it's difficulty in cottons and difficulty in cottons, one after another, after another, after another. We're just struggling with the KA protocol. We're limping our way. Through the process of serum through the road to RC nine because it's a challenging move to become kado, to become tower, to remove Metri from inside of us. Not just to leave me trying, but to remove and expunge metri from within me. It's a very challenging process. Last line of the page here. He says, and that's why it says us top of the next page, you should count for yourselves from the moment you bring the O of waving the to bring a from the day that you bring the Omer offering mi, that's hinting to the lowest place in oneself, where one's mind is in the place of the lowest s. If char, you can get from there, it's guaranteeing you that you can get from there to the highest, highest you can get from there to Matan Torah. You can get from there to purified on all four dead levels standing by a kou, receiving the Torah, getting married to a kou with your soul, flying out of your body up to a kou. You can get from A to B in those 50 days. And even when you're starting in the lowest place dka, when you are starting in the lowest place you can get from point A to point B. The, and that's what it means when it says, I remember your, That we walked to the dangers of the desert, remembering the, of our youth. What is the of our youth? What's the difference that we walked after him in a lush pasture or in an arid desert? What's the difference? I remember the, that you walked after me, that you followed me, that you connected to me when you were so small, when you were just born as a nation, when you were so small in your mind. You didn't understand me yet. You didn't see me yet. This heaven heavens hadn't opened yet. You didn't get the tour yet. But you followed me anyway, even though you didn't totally understand. You trusted in me. You believed in me. You connected to me. You committed to me even when it was hard, even when you were in small mind madre that is through this, to begin to be able to reach the greatest divides. It's a really powerful concept that we're in that place of smallness that sometimes yes, to embrace that I'm in a place of smallness and that's okay. And to engage with that and say. I accept my reality as it stands right now. I accept that I'm in a place of cotton, maybe even cotton, ship of cotton. I'm in the lowest of the low place in my mind. I don't see clearly, I'm just starting out. I feel like I'm, I'm starting out fresh, like I'm starting from scratch. But if I commit and I just keep doing one mitzvah, another mitzvah. Ah, where are the ana of the Ari? Where's. where's the umption of her giving me, three, four hours of preparation before he says is AKA okay. so always, I'm not the umption of her, and sometimes I'm not even the best version of myself and I'm still doing the mitzvah. And somehow by doing that, by embracing the fact that I know that I'm in a place of smallness and continuing to Courageously March forward nonetheless in May. Avodas Hashem, that is what is part of building the momentum to getting back to him and to getting to the greatest heights in so many areas. I mean, you can turn to whichever field you want to turn to in whatever guru or. Leader in their field and they'll all say the same thing, that it's so easy in this day and age to be successful, perhaps even easier than it's ever been. Why? Because everybody sees success in all areas. Everybody sees success and they try. Most people when they don't immediately succeed or they have setbacks or they have issues along the way, they give up. It's such a small number of people that persevere and continue that move forward despite the challenge in any area. When you start looking at statistics of what it takes to be successful, even on something as small, like this podcast, I looked at the numbers before I started. This podcast is relatively small, but despite the fact that in my mind this podcast is relatively small, the number of episodes, the number of viewers of this podcast is greater than 50 to 75% of podcasts that exist. Not because it's high, but because we're in the double digits.'cause we just keep going. This week I was almost like, I don't know, things are a little bit crazy. Again, I'm in, it's having a rough transition back into, life after pe I was like, no, there's no reason to miss. I love learning with you all, whether you're with me here on Zoom Live or whether you're listening, whenever you're listening on whatever, in our platform, we're listening on and love this, and you come and show up and I come and show up and we do this thing and we're showing up, and that in, in of itself, that's success. Think of how many more people think of how full shuls would be around the world if the person didn't just miss the first time and then the second time and then the third time, and then just not bother going anymore. The shuls would be bursting the base med rush on every campus and every little corner in whatever work you go to where your shuls, when you have opportunities to learn. First thing, if we didn't skip the time when it felt hard. And kept it going, and kept the continuity and got back on our feet and kept pushing and growing and growing. And then suddenly you can't imagine life without minion. And then suddenly you can't imagine life without learning in the base. Mentors, you can't imagine life without doing your weekly ade. You can't imagine life without doing your weekly share with an amazing group of people, some of whom are sitting in front of you, and some of who are listening. You never even will get to me. Keep going. Even in the small moments. keep going. Even when their energy's not there and the excitement's not there and the motivation's not there, you just keep going and it builds and it builds to something incredible. Mila is hinting to that, but it's not obvious. But when you think about it's, but it's not obvious but's. No. Kavana and Bri. Mila. By the baby. By the MO Health for sure. By the sandik. For sure. By the father. Hopefully tremendous, hopefully. But by the baby, nothing. Has got tremendous kaas for us. I didn't think about it like that. Frame it like that. If it's like Bri, Mila, a Kku is kavana for us. He's the Abba, he is kavana for us is tremendous. He has great imaginings of who we are and what we're going to become. But for us, today's day one. Today's day two, how I could just count the days for a K Barco and start from there. So I get to 50 and become somebody totally different over the course of here, over the course of the move from Kass to Godless. Next paragraph. The, and so what he's saying here is, is that this is teaching us ish when it comes to serving a q. A, that any mitzvah that the Jew does, even if he's in the lowest of places in his kavana, in his mind, he has no da, there's no qana going on. He has no idea what he's doing. He's just literally doing the action. Don't let the mitzvah be light in your eyes, ever. And know that through doing this, you're doing tremendous things. the world is shaking, shamayim is shaking when you're doing these mitzvahs, but I don't know what I'm doing. It doesn't matter. KO told you to. Who is the infinite creator, and he said, I'm telling you this action is meaningful to do it and it's meaningful and it's gonna do something, and you do what the infinite creator said. It happens. It's happening. The change in the reality is happening to you and to the world. When you do that mitzvah, you have no idea. You're doing fine. Why does God burko care? Put on the right shoe and then the left shoe, and then tie the left shoe, and then tie the right shoe. Like who cares how KU does? And he said it's important. Even if I'm, I'm like, ah, who cares? No, who cares? And I don't know why. I don't know what it means. I don't know, but I'm doing it for a, and therefore it is meaningful and I'm changing myself in the world in ways that I can't even imagine. Even with no kavana, even with no understanding of what's going on. and I is changing the whole world. I'm changing the whole world. Even if I'm in the lowest place right now, rX through doing that, just counting 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, just counting to 50 through, just tie my shoes the right way I can get myself from the lowest place to cab. I can get myself from the lowest place of K Arts to RA to a place of internal guus. To internal and even on the inside, the, the lowest level, the baby doesn't any below kavanah. There's no ana by the baby. The, and yet that mitzvah is what a K says. That's how you're gonna inherit through that. That's how we get to. and that's the ka. When they say, don't ever, don't ever have it be light in your eyes. This is something which is forever. It's something we need to hold with us forever. direct for Judah. Always have that aspect, that continuous aspect of a, and this is the key. If I do everything that I can right now. I shouldn't sell myself short, but sometimes, sometimes I'm low. Sometimes I'm not feeling it. Sometimes I'm out of it. Sometimes I feel small. Sometimes I can't see the bigger picture. If that's actually true, I say fine. Usually the bar's up here, bars near the floor. Right now we know that you, me, everybody else we're looking at the bar. It's right above the floor. That's as high as it's going. Fine. That's the bar today that I'm going to cross. I'm gonna cross that bar a again, and in that I succeeded because if that's where the bar is right now, then crossing it is succeeding. Mat, according to where I'm at internally, according to my situation. If I do that, then you to inherit Israel. It's an incredible thing. Again, to keep coming back to the same examples. But those are the daily examples that we struggle with. Davin every day. Sometimes it's hard. Sometimes you don't want to get outta bed. Sometimes you don't wanna schlep to minion. Sometimes you don't wanna walk through the rain or trudge through the snow or schlep through the heat. many of the women who are listening to this may not even go to school on the weekday. Sometimes you just like, there's so much else going on. You already turned your phone on, and somebody's calling you and somebody's selling your name out from the other room. You have 18 million things to do with day's about to get. I, I can't even, it's not gonna happen today. Yes it is. Yes it can. What if it's not gonna be the best one? Okay, so it'll be the best one. The bar got lowered for today. The bar got lowered for right now. So whatever level I'm at, that's the level that I demand of myself. I'm going to continue to da. I will dive in chakras today. Forget about, it's a whole different ballgame. I'm gonna dive in. Even though it's hard, I can't find a minute to stop. My boss is yelling at me. I have a final exam coming up in college, in grad school, and, it's a final exam in the winter and you know, ski is at like four 30 in the afternoon. And if I stop for a minute, I'm gonna lose what's going on with the group. And I, I don't know if I stop now in my work, I'm gonna forget the idea that I'm in the middle of, and I'm about to be able to finish my project and my boss is demanding that I got it in yesterday. There's always stuff going on. Or, you know what? Throw all that away. It doesn't matter what stage life you're at, I don't feel like dominating today. I don't feel inspired. I feel distant and I feel down and I feel far away. And I feel I'm, yeah, I'm opening it up. I'm opening it up'cause I DA every day and I keep going even KA and I learn whatever my daily goals are in learning every day, even cotton. I do my Per or my RA or my four PRA. Of Humes. Of Mishna. I do my daf. Yomi of Gamara I'm reading an English book. I said 10 pages a day. I do the 10 pages. I'm not feeling it great. You're not feeling it. Nobody's judging you. I'm doing it anyway because that's my Voda in the S. And through that, through that and pushing through one day the next day, the next day, 50 days Hava, it only lasts 50 days. Omar is teaching us at the 50 oer. Yeah, at the beginning. I'm just counting. But the way I count on day one and the way I count at 49, it's a whole different world. I went from an animal to a human. I went from Mitri to Sini. I went from Guus to ula. I went from PHA Arts to ra. I transformed, and it started with saying, today's day one should bless us that we shouldn't have times of Kas. We shouldn't have. Where things seem small and feel small, we shouldn't have it. But if we do through the a theda of the beginning of Sira m, which is, it doesn't matter, I'm still going to go forward and through that I'll be to have those place, those moments of smallness of mind. But if we do to push through it to get to the God, to get to Kabbalah, sat Torah, to get to becoming like a maah. Per we should get to the place where we started. All I could do is say, today is day one and I had nothing else. I'm a baby. I had Mila. I had no idea what was going on. And get to a place where I'm ma like a malach, standing by a Kash Bur who's singing his praises and looking back and smiling at where I came from and knowing that that was the road that got me there. There's by all of us, Thank you so much for tuning into this week's episode. If you enjoyed the episode, please rate the podcast and hit the follow button and join us every single week for a new episode on the Parsha. Once again, thank you so much to our sponsors, and a reminder that you too can sponsor an episode of the podcast email rabbi chernoff@gmail.com For more info or to share any thoughts, comments, or feedback on this week's episode. See you in the next one.