How I stopped being an addict after flunking out of rehab

If life sucks and you keep turning to your phone, drugs, alcohol, porn, video games, or food just to distract yourself from your thoughts… you're not broken. You're not weak. You're experiencing a spiritual void—an energetic, metaphysical void that keeps you trapped in cycles of self-sabotage.

I know because I lived it.

I was addicted to everything—gambling, working out, money, popularity, sympathy-seeking, substances—you name it. I self-sabotaged every good thing in my life until I was facing a dead-end: homelessness, death, or prison.

But something changed.

👉 I stopped calling myself an addict.
 👉 I studied neuroscience, physiology, and metaphysics to understand how addiction works.
👉 I made peace with God (but not in the way you think).
👉 I learned from Gabor Maté, Joe Dispense, Naval Ravikant, Neville Goddard, and the Universal Laws.
👉 I discovered the truth about energy and how everything—addiction, trauma, and healing—is connected.

This video is my journey from pain to purpose. It’s about how to break free from the mental programs keeping you stuck and align with the highest energy source (God, Source, Universal Truth—whatever you call it).

🚀 If you’re tired of feeling lost, stuck, or unworthy, this is for you. It’s time to become a Champion of Life instead of a victim.

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if your life sucks, if you are turning to your phone, drugs, alcohol, porn, video games, food, just to distract you from your thoughts and the way you feel. It's a spiritual void. It's a metaphysical, energetic void. Trouble with substances, trouble with addictive behaviors, have trouble with God. I've self sabotaged every good thing I've ever had in my life. Something had to change or I was going to be homeless, dead, or back in prison. So, my name is Tom Miller, and I study metaphysics. Neuroscience, physiology, and basically how life works. So I can be a champion of life instead of a victim. In this video, I'm going to tell you a little bit about my journey through addiction, how I finally made peace with God and what I learned from Gabor Maté. So hold on tight with all your might cause I'll be rocking like this, uh, for the rest of the night on my mini mic. The first thing that changed is I learned about neuroscience, I learned about neuroplasticity, and I learned where addictive traits come from. So number one, if you're calling yourself an addict, stop. If you're calling yourself an alcoholic, stop. They're traits. They are personality traits, behavior traits, programs that we have in our brain, and they're not who we are. You have addictive traits. Fair enough. And here's where they came from. Thank you, Gabor Mate. If you had a very fight or flight childhood, especially if it started happening when you were still in your mommy's tummy, or it was tough childhood, where you didn't get a lot of eye contact, there's a part of your brain that's It doesn't form all the way. And so you will not have the same response to social situations, to human interactions. You won't have the same kind of dopamine release. And so when you finally try any dopamine releasing drug or any distracting behavior, whether it's food, alcohol, cigarettes, booze, drugs, gambling, porn, Phone, worry, it can go on and on. Turns out I've been addicted to something, had an addictive trait my whole entire life. It was working out, it was gambling, that was my first one. It was work, it was earning money, it was popularity, it was sympathy seeking, people pleasing, whining like a little baby until someone gave me a hug and said, Oh, poor guy, he had such a tough life. And here's the thing. It's not the behavior, the drinking, the drugging, the porn, the gambling. It's not the behavior that's the real problem. That's a symptom of the problem. Naval Ravikant said this and I 100 percent agree. All addiction is a sign of a spiritual void. That was true. There's a hole in our heart and we are not comfortable being by ourselves. So if you're always picking up your phone, Like I just got back from the gym, people are literally doing a set working out with their friend and they're getting on the phone in between sets instead of talking to their friend or like, wow, like people are just, It's that we don't want to be alone with our own thoughts. Our own thoughts are going. We're like, we have this ogre ish pain void, this pain energy inside of us that we don't want to deal with. And some of us take it so far that we use substances, alcohol, drugs, and a lot of people, food to distract ourselves. So it became very clear to me that I had to make peace with this higher power, and I have. In fact, while in prison, read the Bible, I Back to back. Cover to cover. One Reason was the only book I had for a while. Another book called the Bahá'u'lláh Giddah. I'm looking to see if I have it right here and I somehow don't. And I wish I did because I can show it to you. Really good. Um, Taoism. Judaism. Just study them all. Christianity, study them all. Jesus, love him. He's a spiritual superhero. So is Buddha. So is Lao Tzu. So is the figures in the Baha'u'llah Gita. So is Muhammad. I mean, all of them are saying the same thing. But you know where all of these spiritual laws came from? Something called the Universal Laws. I like to call them the Universal Truths. Breaking the law, breaking the law, yeah. Universal Truths. The Bible is derived from Universal Truths. So the laws of metaphysics, how the universe operates, Oh my gosh, these are truths that apply to everything, and it's basically what the Bible is based on. It's what all the spiritual texts are based on. It's what Hinduism is based on. And the lineage of religion, it all starts from these universal laws. And one that's really popular now is the law of attraction. Like attracts like. But these universal laws created scripture in the Bible. In fact, if you go to my courses, you'll see me break it all down. When I realized that there's these universal laws governing the quantum mechanics of the universe, and they have been forever, everything made sense. And for me, God became G O D, get over defining it. I love every religion because they're all right. But here's the thing, None of them are wrong. They're all correct, and they all stem from these universal laws. Everything's energy. God is an energy system. God is pure love, light, and life. Energy. And for me, God means G O D, get over defining it, because we don't have to fully understand that there's a source where all energy comes from. And there's a law of relative energy, the law of energy transmutation or transformation, meaning energy can't be created or destroyed, only transformed into different forms. It's amazing how everything made sense. As long as we believe that there's a higher source of energy, the highest source, and that source of energy is pure love, light, and life. And it goes through, call it your spirit or your soul, and it comes into your body, and as long as we can let that in, we have access to this infinite intelligence. You don't have to beg it, you don't have to plead with it, you don't have to, it helps to write. And write your thoughts and make sure your desires are really clear, but you don't have to beg, plead, get on your knees. You don't. It doesn't work that way. But you do have to align your thinking, your intention, which is your emotional state, your desires, and your actions with what you want. And by what you want, it's not as simple as saying, Hey, I want this, or is it? It's a matter of becoming the type of person. Who has that big one? I want to be rich. Okay. What would an abundant, prosperous, wealthy person be like? They wouldn't be scared of not having money. They wouldn't be stingy. They wouldn't cheat, lie. So you start embodying these values, and you start aligning with those emotions. You start feeling as if the desire is fulfilled. Neville Goddard, very famous metaphysicist from long ago. Brilliant. There's another guy named Thomas Trottle. They were before, that was even before, um, Napoleon Hill and Dale Carnegie. And then came Eckhart Tolle, and Gary Zukav, and Tony Robbins, and Joe Dispenza. It's the same exact information. All of it's the same. It's from the universal laws. The hermetic principles, also from the universal laws. When you understand that everything is energy, including the highest source of energy, which we'll call God, I like to call the truth, because it's like the ultimate truth of universal truth, call it the source, the vortex, the vortex. The universe source energy for God and see we'll just like to call it Jesus. It doesn't matter what you call it, but just to call it something and talk about it and tell other people about it, but not embody it and actually align with it. It's useless. So if your life sucks, if you are turning to your phone, drugs, alcohol, porn, video games, food, just to distract you from your thoughts and the way you feel. It's a spiritual void. It's a metaphysical, energetic void. Only energy. It's just energy. You are energy. Everything is energy. This flow that we get from this highest power, it's energy. It's non discriminatory. It doesn't care what religion we call ourselves. If you asked me what my religion was, by the way, I would say love, light, and life. I'm a life champion. Champion for my life and champion for the lives of others. But aligning with the ultimate truth and that ultimate truth is the source of all light. It's always available and it's always there. Last thing, if you had a tough life situation, like for me, my friend Luke had all the video games, always had food in his refrigerator, two parents that both worked and gave him money and snacks and love and compliments. And he has some chores, but he got them done, had fun and played. And Nick got to his little games and soccer games and all kinds of fun stuff. My childhood, exact opposite. I love going to Luke's house. In fact, I'm pretty sure they got sick of me and sent me home, but I just wanted that to be my life. And for a while, it was really resentful. Here's the deal. We have a life force called a soul called the Holy spirit. Call it your essence, call it your presence. It's the thing that makes your fingers move the same things that makes flowers bloom, but with ours, we have this soul, this essence, plus we have a physical body. Now we have this intellect and free will where we can have beliefs and choices. My theory hypothesis is before we get into this physical body, our soul, which needs to evolve still, makes a deal for our life situation. We get into a life situation. With limitations, with obstacles. One, because we agreed to it before coming onto the earth. Two, the harder your life situation is, especially if you're one of those guys out there like me, who didn't have a dad, who doesn't know their biological dad, and had a stepdad that was a complete, what's the word I'm looking for, oh yeah, a hole. Then, I mean he really was, he sexually abused people, beat my mom in front of me, killed himself in the car, I mean it's just nuts how bad it was. But that's why we're supposed to turn, to this higher source of love and light to make up for what we're not getting from our parents. Those of us who have life situations that are lacking the parental love, it's because our role is to turn more to this higher source energy. And to let it flow in without as much resistance. So when I stopped resisting Source Energy, God, Love, Light, and Life, and just let it flow into me, everything started changing. Mostly my peace of mind, my clarity, what I was put on this planet to do, what I feel great doing. And I learned to let go of my past mistakes because they were just like corpses I was carrying around. I learned that everything's connected and everything's energy. You and I were connected, but our ego, our mental structures, our energetic operating systems, they don't allow us to feel connected yet, but we're waking up more and more humans are waking up and realizing, Hey, I'm more than my physical body, but I don't really like that religion or that religion. And that really, you don't have to, you just have to believe that there's an energy source higher than the sun higher than our physical bodies. That connects and flows through all things, that is nonjudgmental, fills us with as much love as we can handle and take, or choose to take. And with that, we can create the life experience that we desire. In fact, that's what we're supposed to do. That's what our mission is. To take this infinite intelligence, universal wisdom, universal source energy, bring it into physical form, and turn it into something beautiful that we share with others. More on this later, but to wrap it up. You're not an addict. You have addictive traits. There is a God. You don't have to call God. Nor do you have to get on your knees, nor do you have to worship or you just have to love and let love flow. Because unless you are loving, love can't flow through you. And trust that there is always love available in the form of energetic currents happening at quantum, beyond quantum level. And you have a receiving center for it and that's how manifestation works. That's how magnetism works. It's this energy. Everything is energy. God is energy. So don't worry about God being mad at you. Not at all. That's your ego. That's your past, your mental structures. Mine too. And it took me 50 years to finally come to terms with this and just, Hey, it doesn't have to be that complicated. God, get over defining it. Yes. I had a shitty childhood, but guess what? I've always had all the love. That I was willing to receive, and now I can let it flow into me, share with you, and I hope that at least one, maybe five people watch this and say, Hey, I'm open to that. I'm gonna let some more love sharing to me. I'm gonna believe that there is a non judgmental source of love, light, and life energy that Can help me because when we feel that spiritual void, we don't need to reach for those addictions. We don't need to keep self sabotaging. We don't need to keep repeating the same mistakes. We don't need to keep whining and complaining about how bad life is because we see a different perspective. Our awareness wants to expand. Our soul wants to expand. That's one of the universal laws. It's our ego, our brain, our mental structures are getting in the way, and I'm here to help change that. Changing me. And changing you because we're all in this together. We're all connected. We're all energy. All right. I'm sending you love, light, and life, and I love you. It's inevitable. We all have love for one another. It's just, we also have egos and fears that stop that love from flowing in the physical realm, but it's there. All we have to do is remove the resistance. All right. Until next time, go forth, share your love, share your light. And create something with that because that's what we're put on this planet to do create with love share alleviate suffering and Live as life champions. I'll see you next time. Oh, yeah, you know what to do if you like it I want this message to get out to as many people as possible So if you're not going to make the videos at least share them with someone that this could help, please