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This Recording Will Self Destruct (S2 E4)

C-Dub Season 2 Episode 4

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Dear listener, yea I'm back been gone for 60 days taking care of my mom. Give me 3:36 minutes of your time tonight and I'll give you an intimate peek into my life behind the podcast.  While credit goes to songwriters: Fredrik William Ball / Joseph Alexander Angel / Robyn Rihanna Fenty for this beautiful song “love on the brain”, I will take the full credit for singing it to you tonight like it had to come out. Now everyone leave, I’m talking to John.

I miss you John, and I am sorry how I handled my part of us at the end. You are worth everything and anything I can give you. I did the work and know how.

You enjoyed my ways with words, and that’s how this whole podcast was born. Meeting you felt like a twin flame (literally, I’m an Aries moon) I’m so triggered to create in the liminal space where we left: a podcast, a serial r/UnburdenYourMind where I became the writer you saw I was day one, a sexy audiobook, a cover song, crumbs to riches. I am untrained at singing and took this first shot at it for you- your imprint went so deep it activated the creator in me John. If someone tore your imprint out my heart and laid them down on a track, that’d be this here and no I don’t know how to edit this. It will be flagged one day for IP rights and taken down. I hope it resonates to your frequency before that day. Between us, what were the chances I had her birthday? And that wasn’t even the craziest thing that happened between us. You are one in a million babe. After this, maybe I'm more than r/thatpodcastgirl - you tell me. 

"There is no where left for this dialogue missing you to land, so I'll turn it into a beautiful monologue on the way out. " 

xoxo *read these lyrics I don’t lie

And you got me like, oh
What you want from me? 
And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high
Baby you got me like, oh
*I love when I fall apart
So you can put me together
And throw me against the wall

Baby you got me like ah, woo, ah
Don't you stop loving me 
Don't quit loving me
Just start loving me

Oh, and babe I'm fist fighting with fire
Just to get close to you
Can we burn something, babe?
And I'll run for miles just to get a taste
Must be love on the brain
That's got me feeling this way
It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain
And it keeps cursing my name
No matter what I do, I'm no good without you
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain

*Can you keep loving me?
Just love me, yeah
Just love me
All you need to do is love me
Got me like ah-ah-ah-ow
I'm tired of being played like a violin
What do I gotta do to get in your motherfuckin' heart?

Baby like ah, woo, ah
Don't you stop loving me
Don't quit loving me
Just start loving me 

Oh, and babe I'm fist fighting with fire
Just to get close to you
Can we burn something, babe?
And I'll *ring your *RING camera just to get a taste
Must be love on the brain
That's got me feeling this way
It beats me black and blue but *YOU *fuck *me *so *good
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain
And it keeps cursing my name (cursing my name)
No matta what I do
I'm no good without you
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain

-And just so we're clear, I had my eyes closed envisioning you the whole way. 

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