Episode 16- Jury Duty & Dragons

Scarlett Davis

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Are you looking for some entertainment? Little bit of drama. Do you have some tea that you'd like to spill? Are you waiting for me to spill the tea? Well, then you're in the right place. This is the future. Single lady surviving and thriving through divorce I went through a divorce. What are you going through? Gimme a call. Holler at me. Future single lady@gmail.com or go to my Facebook page, future Single Lady. I'm Scarlett Davis and this is me telling my story. It's just for entertainment purposes and whether you just wanna laugh at me, yell at me, scream at me, or commiserate with me, have sympathy and empathy. That's fine. let's get together, let's hang out. what I thought, what I felt, what I was going through. This is me documenting my journey and what I went through as I fought and clawed my way through divorce. Sometimes it was smooth sailing and that was, that was great, but sometimes those seas got very turbulent. So that's it. Okay, so I gotta try a different posture because, um, I have to be up and moving around continuing on filling in the gaps. And I'll be honest, I'm looking forward to, um, when this is done and we can just get to whatever's going on in the moment, but there's about another month. Of this. So I hope you've enjoyed where we've been filling in the gaps, not just with the journal injuries, but also with some of the backstory. I just think it's really important to have a more complete picture of what's going on. I think that we've all can think of many examples that we've seen in the past where things looked one way, but then when you had more information. For, for the things that happened just before then, then it's a completely different story. I think we've seen this in the news. The first thing that came to my mind, um, specifically, there were, there were other things, but specifically the first real example I could think of was the movie, I think it's Dolores Claiborne. It's a Kathy Bates movie, and I think Jessica Tandy was the woman in it. With her. It starts off one way and then we'll just say that it puts, um, Kathy Bates' character. Framed in a really bad light. But then once you know the backstory, it is a completely different story. So if you have all of the information, you are better suited to make a more appropriate judgment. And of course, this is a 20 year relationship, so you're not gonna have 20 years worth of information. But hopefully knowing certain key things will, um, will give you a more informed position. Anyway, we're continuing on, this is February 27th and this is my journal entry from, actually, there are two of them from February 27th, 2024. I was too tired to write last night. Glad I got lots of stuff cooked and to spend time with my babies'. Happy face. They were a little complimentary over the seven can soup, supposed butter, rice, and not so much. Oh, supposed butter rice, not so much. And chicken was, but I got lots cooked. Husband called the kids to check in, but really he's asking about what I'm doing. That's okay because I'm sure it's overall good reasons rather than information gathering. Also, I pray he sees that I can and do cook. But have held back because he's insisted on dominating more than Frito Pie and Chee Chili. I can cook exclamation work and happy face. Anywho son asked someone to take his shift since he's still tired from the long shifts this weekend. So I nabbed another US night since daughter also didn't have police explorers either. Happy Face, they chose Raya and the last dragon. What do I love most about that movie? That one person sees that life can be better for all and does something about it while there ends up being conflict and great darkness, sadness, and struggle, what ends up is better than anything they could have imagined before. Not only are all joined together as de as desired in Kuman, but dragons are back bright, colorful, blessed dragons and their incredible magic. This is what I seek from my life and I know it's happening. I receive this and I apply and use it all for the greatest. Good. Thank you. Thank you, God. Jury duty today. I must get ready. Daughter and I game planned last night, and both kids know that I haven't gotten this stuff out of the living room because my plans. It got shifted when I had to go into React mode and had to do things not planned. Instead, I think they know anyway. She volunteered to take pictures for me, which would be a huge help and they may food savor some stuff for me too. Happy face meals are cooked so we can chill a bit more. I hope they unload the dishwasher. Dr. Stone's book came in yesterday. Happy phase. I keep wondering if I can read it at jury duty, but I know that's not realistic. Do me always wanting to do stuff double time, but it's not realistic. God telling me to chill. I guess that was the morning's entry. There's an afternoon one, uh, or evening one as well. I'm just gonna go ahead and explain on some of these things a little bit. So as I had said before. In the first couple of weeks. It really, in about the first month of asking for a divorce, my soon to be ex-husband spent a lot of time away from the house, as in, out of town for a week or two. Um, and so he was, like I said, he, he became father of the year. And he was always calling to check in with the kids, but he was always asking really. It wasn't like, Hey kids, how are you doing? How was your day? Or whatever. There might be a question or two like that, but mostly he wanted to know what was going on in the house. So that's fine. I don't blame him for it because the information that he was getting was that I was cooking and on this particular night, uh, or the night before. On the 26th, I was doing a lot of cooking, so I like to batch cook instead of making a mess, a little bit of a mess every day, or a medium sized mess every day. I would rather do a lot of cooking at once while I'm in that mode and that energetic and mindset and everything, and then be easy about it later on. Uh, just warm up some stuff or if it needs to be warmed up or just go grab a few bites of whatever it is that, that I want. But definitely to have the food on hand already done because I've also learned that the harder I have to work to feed myself, the more likely I am to get something quick and easy, which is probably, um, dirtier. Like it's, it's gonna be more junk foodie. So. Yeah, and I, as you can see through this, I would rather have quality time with my babies, with my loved ones, or even just with myself than to be spending all day in the kitchen. So basically, I had tried out three different recipes. There was, uh, one of my friends had given me this recipe years earlier, and it was just called seven Canned Soup. So there was, it was literally a soup made with seven cans of stuff as well as some chicken. And I forget what all else. Turns out that it's actually very similar to something else that I was cooking already. And, um, this was, this was pretty decent. It was not bad. I will be honest. I, I like what I cook better that, um, what we call teeters chili. And I'm wondering if I should put these, these recipes. Uh, in the show notes so that you can decide for yourself. I also had a recipe for some, some butter rice, but, and that's why I called it supposed butter rice because, um, it wasn't, wasn't like what, what I, I would think of as, as that, but it wasn't bad. And, and if I recall correctly, I think maybe we even mixed it with the soup. I don't recall. Also, there was something that I decided to try with some, some chicken drumsticks. I had bought a package at the store and I cooked half the package. Was trying to just put something together, just explore mentally, um, with or with some things that I had going on, mentally thinking that, that it might work out. It, uh, note it did not work out, uh, the way I had had thought that it would. And that's okay. The thing is that I tried, I definitely got mocked for it. Isn't that interesting? Yeah, and and I don't mean like the big mocking, I just mean like she did what really? And how was that kind of thing. Because you know, that's what an insecure person is, which honestly. Is what a narcissist is. Really, A narcissist is an insecure person. They, it comes off as this incredible belief in themselves that they're so amazing, but really I think it's extreme insecurity where they're like, yes, I am awesome. I am amazing. Right? Right. They need outward confirmation of how awesome they think that they are. And if you need outward confirmation, then maybe you're not as confident and secure as you think you are. Isn't that kind of ironic? Hmm. Uh, it all kind of makes me think if one of the, one of my favorite movies growing up, and I still love it, and I, and I think about it, is the never ending story. And you'll hear me reference this many times, but. In the end, when Sebastian makes it to the Oracle, one of the tests that he has to face is the mirror, I think. I think it's called the mirror of truth or something. I, I don't know. Um, actually it's not Sebastian, it's reu, but turns out that a REU is Sebastian, and Sebastian is a reu. The mirror of truth reflects what someone. It truly is how they truly are. So atray you, the warrior, when he looked in the mirror, he was actually the cowardly Sebastian and the cowardly Sebastian was actually the incredible renowned warrior. Isn't that interesting? So that makes me ask of you right now, who are you? Who do you think. You are. Who do you think you are? Who? Five minutes ago before I asked that question or yesterday, who did you think you are? And if this, we'll call it the rule of opposites, if that is true. Then what message do you think that you're receiving right now as far as who you actually are? I'm willing to bet that it's better than what you were giving yourself credit for, and in this journey you will see that in many ways, I was Sebastian the coward. It was easier to deal with whatever it was that I was dealing with to let someone else dominate me and insist on having things their way than it was to stand up for myself. It was so, I, I received so much pushback in standing up for myself that oftentimes I didn't, it was just easier to let somebody else have their way. And then whenever I was pushed by my creator to stand up for myself, I almost chickened out. I was so fucking scared. So scared because I was going in with. With nothing. I hadn't prepared anything. I was completely leaning on God. I had known for years that I did not wanna spend the rest of my life with this man because this man was not the person I had married. But I didn't do anything other than mentally prepare and dream. I didn't financially prepare. I didn't start planting seeds in my children's head and I, I didn't do anything like that because I wanted to make sure that my behavior would never be viewed as manipulative, as coercive, or anything like that. Acting with honor and behaving morally and ethically that. Was more important to me than anything, so that if anyone, here's, here's one of my litmus tests, my, my thing. That helps me decide one way or the other how to behave or how to, how to do things or what to correct or how to correct it if my life were ever being done as a movie and as many. Is, there are many movies that tell stories about something in the past, and it's narrated by someone in the present time. Basically there, there's someone in the present time telling a story, and then that's where the movie opens up, and then you see the story. If my life were being told like that and it were being narrated from the point of view of my children or my children's children. Because hindsight is 2020, right? Once we know the impact of actions, things said and done or not said and not done, we tend to have perfect vision. So if my life were being narrated as a story like that, would my children be happy? Would they feel honored to say. That was my mom. My mom did that. Or would they feel a sickness in the pit of their stomach and lower their gaze and say, that was my mom. As I have often said about my father and other members of my family, I know that feeling. I know that feeling all too well and I don't like it. I have also, and if you'll remember, one of my things is, and this is something that, that I taught my stepdaughter and hopefully other people too, that the things that make you happy, remember, and the things that make you sad, remember, and then act accordingly. I also thankfully am very familiar with the feeling of, yeah, that's my granddad. My granddad did that. Oh yeah. My grandmother, she did that. Uhhuh. That's my uncle. That's my favorite aunt. That's my brother. That's my sister. That's my mom. Yeah. That's my dad. Yeah. That was my great-grandfather. That's my best friend. I'm also very familiar with those feelings too. And oh my gosh, this is stirring up a lot of things in me. Um, it's amazing how emotions do that, right? And thoughts and memories. So because I'm very familiar with all of those feelings, it is important to me. That ultimately when I'm no longer on this earth, that my children and hopefully my grandchildren are glad that I was here and that I did the things that I did, and I said the things that I said or that I didn't do or say. So that's the kind of authority that I like to think that I answer to. And do I do I presume to be perfect? Abso absolutely not. But I try, I put forth the effort. I give a shit enough to think about the impact that I. And making, not just right now, not when the pebble initially gets thrown into the still pond, but I'm thinking about the impact that I have. Once those teeny tiny ripples reach all the way over to the other edge of the pond or way down deep below to the fish or whatever that's resting in the waters down there, I think about those things. My mom and my horrible stepfather. He taught me about consequences. My stepfather wasn't always horrible, just like 99% of the time, but I learned a lot. And one of those things that I learned was about consequences. To think about the consequences of my actions before I took them to have common sense. There were a lot of things that I learned that I may not have liked the way that I learned them or the way they were preached to me, oftentimes by a hypocrite. But the fact is I learned them, and that's the important part. And if that's what it took to, to learn those things and to hopefully be a better person. Okay.'cause it's already done anyway. So I can either, um, hold onto it, uh, as a possession instead of an experience and let it get me down and block my energy. Or I can say, you know what? That was an experience. I experienced it. I learned from it. I'm applying what I've learned and I'm moving on with my life and my energy flows, and I'm lighter and brighter and happier for it, and I hope. God, I pray, I hope, and I pray that ultimately I have that kind of impact or better as in higher energy level impact on my children, the kid who was my stepchild, I hope. That ultimately, that's how my impact is viewed, but I have no real control over that. The only thing I can control is what I deliver and how I deliver it. And, but how it's received no control over that. It's kind of like sending a letter in the mail. I can send a letter in the mail. I can, I can. What is the old stuff? Spray perfume on it. Put a kiss on the, on the seal or whatever. I can, I can put a nice pretty pink envelope with a, with stickers on it and drawings. I can put all this love and care into it and all these beautiful words inside. But if it's received at all, it might get lost in the mail, how it's received, um, and any number of other ways. I mean. If it does make it to, to the, to its destination, will it be on time? Will somebody open it up right away? Will they look at it and see it in the, in the same way that, that I meant it, was it damaged in, in route? Do they just look at it and toss it in the trash? Do they even open it up? Did they just, you know, shred it immediately? Do they read it and then shred it, burn it, whatever. I don't know. There's, there's any number of ways. There's an infinite number of possibilities. How that letter, how that message could be received. And I have no control over that, do I? So ultimately, I'm responsible for me and what I send out into the world reception of what I send out into the world is based on the receiver and I think. Well, in the days before internet and streaming, I lived out in a very remote area of the state, and it was, there was this, I would, I would say overlap, but it was a lack. It was more of a gap between, so the two biggest cities that I lived between were Lubbock and Abilene. And so we stay out in the middle of nowhere and the radio signals. As strong as they were. Um, well, so there were basically three towns. There was Spur, SPUR, that's where I went to school. That's where I lived most of the time. There was Jayton, J-A-Y-T-O-N, and that's usually where I spent the weekends and then in between. And these towns were 25 miles apart, partway between. Between those two towns is Gerard, and that's G-I-R-A-R-D. It's 15 miles from Spur, 10 miles from from Jayton. And um, that really is just a spot in the road. I mean, you sneeze when you go through it and you don't miss it. Those, those stories that people tell about, uh, you know, you're from the country when you know the best spot in the road to throw a party or. You throw your parties based on what cop is working that night, or you give directions based on where the stoplight is or the flashing light. Mm-hmm. All of those apply. Uh, and the what we, what we call the ranch was basically, um, well, it was in the area of, of those three towns, uh, it was considered more Gerard, but it was, it was. The country. So anyway, um, some distance between these, these two towns where there's nothing, nothing but farmland or ranch land. And closer to spur, you were more likely to get, uh, stations broadcast out of Lubbock. Closer to Jayton. You were likely to get stations tuned in better that. We're broadcast out of Abilene. Well, that meant that you were, when you were around Gerard, you might have to flip flop from one to the other. Um, this was just the way life was. So it wasn't about what they were sending out. It was about my reception where I was and how I was able to receive it. The receiver, AKA, my radio as I was driving down the road, so just because one station was, was playing my favorite song, didn't mean that I got to listen to it or that it wasn't staticky or that it didn't drop signal halfway through right at the best part. And sometimes switching over to the other station. Oh, there's another really good song that I really enjoy. Oh, but it's right at the end. So that whole thing that was being broadcast, oh, I missed it. But I came in on the end. So that was a message being sent that I didn't, didn't really receive. Right, because it depends on the receiver. So anyway, welcome to The Wonderful Mind of Scarlet. What else? Oh, let me see. So I did, uh, all of this, this cooking and oh, so I was so glad to have time with my kids, man. One of our favorite things was for us to all hang out, have some good food, hang out, watch a, watch a movie or show, just that was some, some great chill out time for us. So this movie, Raya in the Last Dragon Raya, is. If you haven't, if you haven't seen it, I'll, I'll try to do a quick synopsis. So it's set in, I guess, in China. It's definitely in Asia somewhere. And there is a country that is, that basically there was a land that, there used to be dragons everywhere and dragons were all kinds of magic. And there were five different types of dragons, or I think it was five. Some of them were, were water dragons and uh, just they all had different skills and. Something happened. Uh, something was, I don't know, there was a battle or something. Uh, anyway, the country wind wound up being divided. And of course the, the story is all about Raya and in, in her effort to do something nice and kind, it wound up being a big, super crappy thing and it sent the whole country in. Basically in, in, in a state of disrepair of sadness and a lack of magic and no more dragons and everything. And she felt a great deal of guilt and sadness over her whole thing. And basically she was like, I screwed it up. I have to fix it. I know that there's got to be a way. And for years she continued doing battles as she was seeking something. What do you know? Lo and behold, um, she finds a dragon, the last dragon, and they do more battles in a different way and it gets really crazy and really insane. And, but then good happens. Good stuff happens. And then what do you know the nation. Is is together as one. Dragons are back, magic is back. It is this heaven like existence, especially compared to the hill that it was before. Definitely opposite ends of the spectrum. Very one side, very yin. The other side, very young, but it's a good thing. But they couldn't have gotten to that point if they hadn't gone through the crap. First, so I love that Kuman is what they called the country as it was altogether unified. I look forward to my kandra. It's coming. It's happening. I know it. And I'm thankful. I, I give, I, I live in gratitude for that already, so if you haven't seen it, I, I thoroughly recommend it. And if you have seen it, then maybe watch it again with that commentary in mind. I love that things are often portrayed in media, whether it's TV or movies or what have you. It it's portrayed as, as fiction. But it's really commentary on life in general. Um, there are messages everywhere, and it's funny, I was commenting to someone today, uh, they got, had gotten a notebook that had the serenity prayer, uh, on it. God grant me to accept the things I cannot change, the, uh, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Well, I told her, I said my version of that, and you'll hear this many times. Is God, guide me in your ways. Grant me the wisdom to see your guidance and the courage to follow it. So the first statement being redundant because I, I feel like that the creator, creator always guides us and just, we may not always be aware of it or notice it, but the thing is, it doesn't matter how much we notice it or are aware of it if we don't have the courage. To act on that guidance. We haven't done squat. We haven't done squat. It doesn't matter if you're in the darkness and someone turns on the light, if you don't open your eyes to actually see we, we have to be participatory, right? This isn't just laid back and everything's done for us. We still have to participate. Anyway, uh, I had jury duty that day and, um, so one of my, one of my changes in perspective of that was, uh, I tend to get moralistic and, well, one is I was a being a sheep and following like everybody else. Oh, a jury duty, try to get out of it. Uh, and I had realized at, at some point that, you know. If people are too afraid or too self-centered or whatever to step up and do their civic duty and not actually have their voice and their judgment heard in the world. If I'm not willing to do that, then do I really have any right to be upset with anyone else who doesn't come forward and do their civic duty? Well, I know. No, I do not. Perhaps I should not be a hypocrite. Perhaps I should do the right thing. Perhaps I should do my civic duty. So I was actually, I guess, kind of hoping to, to get jury duty that, um, let me, let me serve my time, let me do my service. Turns out that just by being there, that a lot of stuff was settled. And so 30 minutes we were, we were outta there. Oh, um, spoiler alert, uh oh. I also learned through all of this that my kids, they're very spoiled. It doesn't matter that there was a new dish prepared for each of their meals. If it had to be warmed up, it wasn't fresh, and my kids are spoiled with fresh. Okay. All righty then as far as being in react mode. Okay, so the stuff that was in the living room was stuff that the, the ex-husband didn't want and I didn't want, so I was wanting to sell it and needed good pictures, and my daughter was willing to, she had offered to take pictures for me so that I could lift list it on marketplace or something. But I had gotten served and so I had to go into react mode and had to do, um, yeah, I didn't get to do what I had planned was, was the point. And so she, uh, she wanted to do some cooking. My, my daughter is an, is an exceptional cook and she wanted to, to do some baking, which I believe is also therapy for her. And, um, so she didn't do those things. And, um. So I still had to do it. Dr. Stone is Dr. Heather Stone and, uh, about thyroid and I, I think I would love it if I could interview Dr. Stone. I think that would be phenomenal because I'm willing to bet. Well, I know that there are large portion of women who have thyroid issues and it's typically hypothyroid and it's probably actually Hashimoto's. We, we can talk more about that later, but, uh, I would love to, to interview Dr. Stone also. Um, this is a, um, a great example of me always trying to do too much. I, I, uh, I'm seeking balance between doing too much versus doing too little. I had, yeah, try trying to find that, that pace, that place of stillness where I'm doing just the right amount. Not too much one way or the other. Anyway. Okay, so back to the afternoon to the evening journal entry. Jury duty was over in about 30 minutes, I ran into someone who had, I hadn't seen in a while. We did PTA together. Um. I got to work on legal stuff for a long time, undisturbed and totally lost track of time. I sent a response to, to a lawyer and radio silence. Got 2023 working income minus sales tax processing fees and tips and gifts down. Um. I tried to find, uh, an IRS form. No luck. Haven't heard from the lawyer about it either. Sent last two income tax returns. Also asked if I can give to, to ex-husband for radio silence. There don't see why I can't. I was talking about giving him income tax returns. Daughter wanted to make chocolate croissants so she didn't take pics of stuff. Also, she's also aware of. Money slash food situation at least somewhat. Don't know what time husband is coming home tomorrow. Chicken Did not get food savored. I am significantly less happy that my room is junky. Feeling not magical at all at the moment. Bed still not made because it's smells like cat pee. Didn't treat front room entryway, rug either. First thing in the am I think happiness homework equals checking things off the lists. Happy face, Robinhood done. Also, seeing that I make less in tips and gifts than I thought. Average is only$575 a month, so I'll have to readjust for that. I need a team for my work, emails, website, blogs, et cetera. Today's traits were calm, peaceful. And I feel like more receiving, receiving of peace in a calm manner. Success, I think, I didn't eat my non-dairy chicken salad, but I totally scarfed the seven canned soup and Fritos again, right flow. I'm feeling called to focus on my on the end. Oh, right now. Right flow. I don't know. I'm feeling called to focus on the entryway, rug shoes and area. Then pictures. Maybe move to Wednesday. Not sure. Need a notebook listing. My homework was so busy that I forgot my two 30 call with Kelsey. No alarm evidently, but it's okay. I keep thinking. What's the John Travolta movie where he is an alien race that takes over earth. I, I love me and I feel so happy and peaceful about my life and my future. Happy face. Thank you, creator. Heart, sunshine, emoji. Happy face. Alright, so that sounded really, um, really cryptic, I guess. So the whole thing, uh, about, so about the food situation. So my children knew that I won't. I had a budget for everything, including a food budget, and my kids knew, not because I told them, but because they just knew their dad. That, and, and I think he may have told them that he cut me off from all income. The only income I had was what was already in the bank, which was a lot of debt and whatever I brought in through my work and that they, they knew that their dad was, was being ugly financially and. So even though there was money in the food budget, I think my daughter was, um, just very keenly aware about it. Yeah. Uh, basically some stuff didn't get done. I, I was following the, the OG band Dino kind of stuff. Never start the day with, without having a game plan for tomorrow or whatever it is. And so I was trying to, to do that, but. Finding the balance between not overdoing things, not giving myself too much, and um, uh, what is the word? It starts with an I intimidating myself. That's something that I've done a lot. I've learned that if I have a list Okay, great. If the list is too long or detailed, I, I have a history of intimidating myself and I erase that I. Am reprogramming that I, yeah, again, trying to find that balance between things, happiness, homework was basically the stuff that I had to do because of the divorce. That was my viewpoint on things. It was my happiness homework because this was about my future happiness and the things that I had to do to take care of it. Robinhood was, I had tried that investing thing with the app and I had here and there. I would put in some money here and some money there wound up losing because I didn't, I invested in stuff that wound up going down. So I think of about the$2,500 that I invested, uh, it was somewhere around 2,500. I lost about a thousand. Uh, so basically I had done, um, the homework on that was showing how much I had invested and when, where the money came from, which it came out of my tips, and also showing that it had lost in value. I think I probably also closed it out if I hadn't, if I didn't do it, then I, then I did it soon because of course he was going after my assets and I was showing that they were paid for with gifts. And also that it had lost money. And so if he wanted half of that money, well then he could also pay me for what I had lost. The, the lack of investment or the loss of it wound up not being an issue because I just cashed it out and used it to pay my attorney's fees. Um. Yeah, just focusing on getting things done and whether or not I got them done. My two 30 call was because I was part of Kathy Heller's, VIP deal, uh, for Boldly Abundant. And Kelsey, I don't recall her last name at the moment. Uh, she was a coach, and so I missed out on that call. And then this John Travolta movie, I, I forget the name of it. And I realize now, now that I've. Been kind, kind of clued in a little bit about the Anunnaki. That again, and this is, this is another place where something presented as fiction might actually have more truth to it than we realized or something. I don't know. So whatever that movie was that, uh, I don't know why that kept coming up around me or in my thoughts, and I had never actually seen the movie. I just knew about it generally speaking. Or in the most general terms, sometimes there are messages for me in, in things like this. So I don't know what that, what that was. But, uh, anyway, at this time I was feeling very happy and very peaceful about my life and the things that were coming in, in my future. Very grateful and happy, just about everything. Life was, was pretty good. Uh, um. Even though I'd been blindsided a few times, and one of the, one of the things I've seen time and again is that when, when things are on my own, when I'm left to my own attitude and devices and stuff like that, life is good. It is really good, and it's easy to be chipper when I'm not being challenged and I love the attitude or the advice or whatever that Oh, you think you're evolved? You think that, that you're, um, a, a highly evolved spiritual being or whatever, go get in traffic, go drive somewhere in traffic because you're gonna be tested. And it's only when we're actually tested that we learn how strong we really are. It is easy to maintain balance when what you're standing on. Isn't being shaken. If you've ever been in an earthquake, then you know what it's like to have your world literally shaken, shaken out from under you been there, done that more than once, so on my own, great attitude, balanced, happy. In a good place, but there are challenges coming and let me tell you, well, episode one, if you listened to it, you know my world was shaken. That was me down on my knees begging and praying for help, and you should have seen and heard me the next day on the way to court. Once we catch up. You'll join me back there. And then there's a whole lot of other twists and turns on this journey. So some of them rather, rather surprising. So that's me, that's my journey for the day. And, um, we'll keep, we'll keep filling in the gaps. We'll, we'll get her done. We'll be like Larry, the cable guy and get her done. In the meantime, I'm Scarlet Davis. The Future single lady, and this is my story just for entertainment purposes. I'm not qualified to give advice in any way, but I'd love to hear what you have to say. And if you have some advice for me, I'd love to hear it. Love you my friend, future single lady@gmail.com and future single lady Facebook page.