
Future Single Lady: Surviving and Thriving Through Divorce
One woman's adventures, trials and tribulations while forcing a departure from her life with a narcissistic man- ups, downs, and all-arounds!
Warning! May Be Triggering!!
Future Single Lady: Surviving and Thriving Through Divorce
Episode 17- Move the Merry Go Round!!
Scarlett Davis
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email: FutureSingleLady@gmail.com
Okay. Future single lady here, Scarlet Davis. Um, continuing to tell my story. I just read my journal entry for this day, one year ago today on February 28th, on, uh, 2024. And boy, is it, is it good? I loved this. It's kind of a long one. Oh. But I'm so thankful for it. I. I hope you really like this too. Good morning on. What would normally be the last day of February. Happy face. Fell asleep with TV on again. Contacts, and still no alarm. Phone not not charging. Hello? Well, yeah, and woke up to dishes being slammed around in the kitchen, remembering daughter's baking. I got up to go see slash hang out with her this morning before she went to practice. No baking, but it was good to get some hugs and sugars in before she left. I haven't seen the boys. This is talking about the outside cats in, at least today, well, junior yesterday morning, but that's it. If they got or get picked up, it's probably for the best garage. Could be used for storage and not be afraid of cat piecemeal. And the cat food husband just bought would be, would last for at least three months. He's coming home today though, I don't know when. I rarely. Oh, oh, I really wanna get things. Pine salt. That's basically the, the cat pee treatment. And I'd really like to have my bed made today as well as get lists checked off, happy face, take pictures. Then maybe I could focus on my room, happy face. And then my vision board, not gonna lie. Now that husband is doing the bills, paperwork and stuff like that. Uh, minimal that comes my way. Has, it's definitely lessened. Friday may be when I deposit son's money and the cashier check's husband gave me gasoline money and return the stuff to the store. I'd like to get it done before then, but time, literally time and money filled up yesterday with gas and. Gas price went up 24 cents while I was filling up. Thank you. God, thank you that you nudged me to get gas straight from jury duty. Thank you. Thank you. Happy face. I look forward to a lot more blessings like that from, from listening to you. Happy face. Pretty self-explanatory there. Just looking to get things done and being grateful for the things that that happen. I mean, literally gas price was going up 24 cents a gallon. While I was filling up. That's wow. You know? Okay, so here's where it gets really good. This is that evening. I got so many things done, porch rug pictures and packed away stuff in the living room and stored in the garage. Happy face. Contact with attorney. Happy face. Official response sent. Tomorrow's client. Came in today and surprised her. Grandson's happy face. So tomorrow morning is open for my daughter's track meet. Only turns out that she doesn't run until two o'clock in the afternoon. Stuff taken to work and mostly put away. Uh, husband came home and not talkative to me at all, and won't even look at me laughing with tears emoji. I literally wrote that out because I don't know how to draw it, but I just think it's funny. Uh, felt I felt a choking on my throat, so I sent that energy back from once it came and took away its power to lame happy face, ate my chicken and wild rice, half an apple, half an avocado, and lit a new candle. Pineapple and mango. Hawaii cards called, so I shuffled it a lot. Laws of cards spoke. These are the Oracle deck that I bought when I was at Myeloma Lomi Lomi training in Hawaii and. Yeah. Um, I think that Oracle cards are just ways of delivering messages. I believe that my creator speaks to me in a lot of different ways, and I just am open to receiving messages in a variety of different ways, whether it's through numbers or cards, or running into someone who I haven't seen in a while, or just whatever. I shuffled a lot in lots of cards. Spoke ua, oneness with spirit, the God or goddess. To illuminate or lighten to illuminate Ola to heal. To cure rapid recovery. Kahuna priest, expert in any profession. Kamani heavenly child, hoko to fulfill service. Ika. Strong, powerful, sturdy inner strength, Koa, brave, bold, fearless courage. To be right with Integrity. Manawa time. Turn season, true presence, EU to focus. UA Puah. Loyal, faithful, steadfast, loyal to self. Ka hidden meaning. Mcc Wild, untamed, inner Wild. So those were the words, basically. Each one of those, I mean, it was a lot of, lot of cards. I don't know how many that was, but those were the words and their, their translation and what they mean. So I'm so glad that I did things this way. It says, wow, let's break that down so I can build on it. And with it happy face, every cell of me is Source, the true source. Creator, embrace my oneness and my spark of the divine in my everyday life. Happy face, Homa Lama, and everything I do. Bring grace, love, respect, gratitude, and compassion to even the simplest task. Embody the good vibes and let my light shine. Ho ola. Accept what is and be like water going with the flow Kahuna. Expertise is within me. Honor that and share it with the world as God creator has shown me to. Kama Ani, I am a magical child of heaven. Creating my real my reality, moment by moment. Balance my inner world, in outer world in my magical ways, honor and support myself as I offer my gifts to the world. In service. In service, in balance with self care, aligned with my highest truth, ika unwavering strength, inextricably connected with the infinite res, the infinite resources of the universe embrace adversity as growth and transformation opportunity. Koa silence the lies of fear boldly. Stand by my higher calling pan. Embrace, embrace the freedom and be effective easily by living in integrity. From my core values in all that I do, manawa timelessness helps me make better choices about what to keep, what to let go of awakening my whole being, being expansive, embracing the divine, the divine interconnectedness. Be totally present or be fully present in all ways. Focus on my highest life path. Puah. Heed my inner knowing, maintain my power, keep it kauna. Knowing I'm loved and supported. I can see the messages everywhere. And I do Mac unleash my inner wild in art, music, movement, and self-expression. No, I apologize if I butchered those, those words or pronunciations. Um, so I have two main messages that all of that I, I summarized it. The first one is because I'm one with a creator, it is my task to illuminate others and help enlighten the world. I have authority to do that as I am an expert in this field. As a child of God, I seek. Um, I seek to be of service and help us all get to the other side quickly and rapidly. I'm strong and fearless because I know that I have integrity and I am in alignment with the true source. It is the season to serve and honor myself as I do so and see. I follow the hidden, supportive, yeah, and follow the hidden supportive messages I see everywhere guiding me along the way and do it with wild abandon. The second summation is. I'm one with the divine, so let my light shine and bring grace, love and respect to everything I do, no matter how large or small, embrace what is and go with the flow. God created me as an expert to complete my tasks, so use that and my limitless resources to create everything needed to complete the tasks. Taking care of myself each step of the way, as I perfectly maintain balance in all ways. Growing from adversity and applying what I learn as I stand strong. Fearless and with integrity as I change the world from the past, the present, and the future all at once. As I complete my life tasks in the greatest manner possible, effectively listening to my higher guidance, my inner knowing, knowing I am eternally loved and supported by the greatest love ever, I see and follow the hidden messages that are here for me, and I do so with great animalistic abandon. What? A great message, and then I drew a couple of things. One is, I think you've heard me say that I, I like this idea of being a lighthouse and shining the light in the darkness, helping others see what is out there, whether it's dangers or just light on a path. So this lighthouse is on a rocky island surrounded by turbulent waters. Waves crashing on the, on the rocks, but the light is shining bright. I'm that lighthouse shining my light. I also drew, so it's a heart, so I, I keep calling it the heart sunshine emoji. So it's a heart with rays of light coming out from, from around it, like one would typically draw sunshine, but in this case, I also put an eye in the middle of that heart. Because the seeing, seeing is it's, it's a big thing. Eyes are also the window to the soul. Um, but seeing with your heart and in your heart, I think is a whole other kind of knowing. I feel that that is when we see from our heart. Maybe even into someone else's heart. I feel like that that is one way that we are more in alignment with the creator. So this is, um, it's really amazing. I am so blessed that I'm so glad that I listened to my intuition and that I pulled cards and got those, those messages because I really feel like that this sums up. My purpose, my life mission, and I know that we, we all often have a tendency towards imposter syndrome or that we try to project that on others too. Like who am I to be telling people this and that, and how they can transform their lives, whatever, you know? Well, you know what? My creator created me for this purpose and. At some point you'll, you'll hear that I learned. Well, I did tell you that I learned about human design and that's literally what I'm designed for, so yeah. It would be foolish for me to try to use my equipment, my design, my software, my software, my hardware, my, my, all of it to use it for a purpose, not which in as as intended, I mean, would you use a laptop as a hammer? No. I mean, you could and it could get the job done, just not as effectively and not without damage and. A whole bunch of other things going on that are not what you, just what you've intended, right? But if you use a hammer as a hammer, isn't that so much more effective? And if you use a laptop for the purpose for which that laptop is intended, much more amazing things can happen, right? With that laptop, you could research things. You could create things, you could enjoy some leisure time, you could do all kinds of things. So if I am designed as a projector who is here to guide people, uh, wouldn't it be best if I do that? So that was my journal entry for the day. We will continue filling in the gaps. I hope that you're enjoying us. I hope that this is inspiring you to speak your truth, to learn what it is that you are really here designed to do. When you look in the mirror, who do you see? When you look inward? Who and what do you see? I hope you see some amazing things and the things that. Aren't as amazing as you might would like them to be. Great, because you know what that is? That's an opportunity for change. Take that, that thing, whatever it is, mentally sprinkle some little magical fairy dust on it and transform it. Transform it into whatever the fuck you want it to be. Because guess what, sweetheart? You have that power. You have that authority. You are the authority on you now, just like I did, I had some outward guidance that said, pull this card. Pull that card. This card jumped out. Okay, fine. What does this card say? Oh, that's a mess. You know, taking it all that, whatever this is, you know, um, is a message for me. Sometimes it's a warning, I'm not gonna lie. It's not all fluff and nice and oh, amazing stuff. Sometimes it's like, mind your place now you might be, you know, uh, and you'll see that sometimes with the angel numbers and angel letters that I speak out about in the future. But these messages, when I pulled those Oracle cards, when they jumped out at me, that was the message. I claim it. I might have had someone else shining a light on something, someone or something divinely guided to shine a light on me being a lighthouse for me. To me. Saying, this is what you are, sweetheart. This is what you are here to do. This is where you have the authority. This is why you have the authority. Now use it. You have the programming. The computer is turned on. Now run the fucking program. Same thing for you. That was my message today. I received that. I received that one year ago, and I receive it again today.'cause you know what? I needed that reminder. I needed that encouragement. And even though I had it in the back of my mind somewhere in my periphery that this is my job, this is my task, this is what I'm here to do. I needed that reminder that, Hey sweetheart, guess what? Remember this, this happened. This happened because that was a message for you. Don't forget it. You got a job to do it, to do, you're doing it. Keep up doing it sometimes. Well, did you ever write on a merry-go-round? I don't know about you. Well, I, I saw a meme one time that, um, referred to a, to a merry-go-round as a flying death trap. And if you ever played around on those like I did growing up, then you know that the goal was to get that big heavy ass hunk of metal moving and to run so fast, pushing that, or better yet to get somebody else to run so fast, pushing it. So that you jumped on that thing, or you were on it and you were flying around and the centrifugal force was so great that you almost went flying off of it and we, what a great shift that was because that made an amazing ride, which it occurs to me that that centrifugal force pushing things to the side instead of just gravity pulling on us, that shift is what we love so much. That's a physical shift. What about a mental shift? Isn't that what we've been talking about already? So coming back to the, the merry-go-round, this big hunk of metal, sometimes there were jagged edges that he had to, don't grab that part, it'll scratch you, or it was rusty or whatever. But when it was at a standstill, you had to push and push and kind of dig in and get it going and push, and then the steps got easier. We got some momentum going, and then you can run. Then you can run, you're running, you're running, you're, you're running as fast as you can now jump on right. Or if you're pushing for your friends, then you're going as fast as you can until you can't go anymore, and then you stop, and then you just stand in one place and you use your arm and you grab those things and you keep pushing and pushing and you maintain, and you maintain and you maintain. You're standing in one place, but you're maintaining because once you get that fucker going, it's easier to maintain. Right? That's like what we're talking about here. Getting the movement, the motion started taking the first steps. That's not the easiest thing in the world, not in the beginning, but once you get going, stand still and just maintain, stay in one spot and put one hand out there to poof, poof, poof. Keep it going, keep it going, keep it going, keep it going. Way less energy expenditure, right? But you gotta get started and that's okay. That's great. Once the ball gets rolling, and I say this and I picture Indiana Jones and. Uh, I think it was Temple of Doom, uh, whichever Indiana Jones movie it was, where he's got the big boulder that's like eight or 10 feet in diameter. Right? Um, and it's rolling behind him. And he is running because that thing that once it dropped, once it started, once it got going, he better get that bleep out of the way because he was gonna be squished like a bug. Indiana Jones was running for his life because he knew that that ball was rolling and it was gonna keep on. Get the ball rolling, get the ball rolling on whatever it is that you've gotta do you. So even if it's just a small step, fine, because it's still a step. It is still a step forward. Going back to the playground analogy, to the merry-go-round. If you're on the playground and you are sitting under the tree resting up against the trunk, trunk of the tree and just looking at the merry-go-round. Okay, great. You're still, you're still outside. You're getting some fresh air. That's great. You're leaning up against the tree, which some people say that's where we do the best grounding and the best absorbing of knowledge because trees have wisdom. And that's why pretty much every wise figure, especially in, in, in Eastern art, is shown as sitting under a tree. Isn't that amazing? So you can sit under the tree and have all the wisdom of the world. But if you're still just sitting under that tree, leaned up against it, absorbing all the knowledge and grounding out all your negative energy, great, great, great. It's not a bad existence, but if you're looking at that merry-go-round and you're thinking that merry-go-round is just wasted, if it's just sitting there, that merry-go-round is made to move. That merry-go-round needs to move, but you keep sitting there under that tree, not moving, not taking a step, not not even leaning forward, let alone standing up or walking towards it. Well, if you're just sitting there, then you're just sitting there. It's one thing to know that something needs to happen and to know that you have. The power to do something about it. This goes back to my prayer. God guide me. Okay, God. The, the guidance would be the knowing that the merry-go-round needs to move the wisdom to, to see the guidance. Okay. Yeah. God, I know that you're telling me that the merry-go-round needs to move and that I have the power to do it. The courage though, remember that's the big thing, the courage to follow that wisdom. The courage is standing up, leaning forward, standing up and taking the steps to walk towards the fucking merry-go-round, and then putting your hands on it and then adjusting yourself so that you're in the direction to run around. Pushing that merry-go-round and then taking the steps to push, push, push, push, push. Until you get it going as fast as you want it to go, it requires action. Change forward progress. It requires action, and it, it occurs to me that this is also underscoring something that Stephanie Gas said yesterday. Action. It requires action. That is the courage to follow the wisdom of seeing the creator's guidance in your life, but even a step. Is a step. So if you're sitting on the playground and you're leaned up against that tree, sitting down on your butt and all you do is lean forward, okay? It may be a baby step, it may be a small action, but it's the first action. And then you stand up. Great. That is another step. Yes. You may not be pushing the merry-go-round yet. You may not be riding on the merry-go-round yet. You may still be 10 feet away, but you've gotten your ass up, so celebrate it and then take another step and another, and another, and another. You will get there. You will get there. You might even trip and fall along the way, but you know what? You've already begun the forward momentum. So if you fall down, fine, get your ass back up. You've already started the journey. Keep it going, keep it going. Because that's what you're here to do and you know it, you know what you are here to do. You wouldn't be doing it if you didn't. That thing inside of you, that essence, that knowing that is your authority. That is your authority to do what the, what you've got to do. So get your ass up and do it. You are divine baby. Work it. I love you. I am so incredibly grateful that you are here with me, that you are sharing this journey with me and that I, oh man, I, I'm so freaking ecstatic that I get to share your journey with you. I really wanna know what you're doing today. I really wanna know what is the step that you have taken? Was it the, just that the light bulb clicked on above you that you were like, oh yeah, that's the thing. Okay, great. What was it? What was it? I'm asking not because I wanna be nosy. But because I wanna celebrate you and I wanna cheer you on the light that just came on for you. I want to be a mirror and reflect that light out, not just back to you, but out into the world. Isn't that amazing how light can be reflected and it makes the light grow? You don't have to be blinding with it. I want to be the mirror to your energy. I wanna help shine your light out into the world. I want you to see how beautiful you are because you are. You are absolutely so freaking incredible. There is a reason that you are here today. There is a reason that you are here today. There's a reason that I'm here today that our paths crossed, we're helping each other. Did you know that this is not a one way street? We are helping each other. Energy. Energy is not just a one-way street. It is a back and forth, and it's all around different energy has different wavelengths and it behaves differently, but it's not just these one way parameters that we seem to like to put on everything. It's a connection and it flows. It doesn't matter whether well these constructs of time don't apply. So it doesn't matter when I spoken into my phone or when I edited this message or when I published it. Energy is not bound by time. Past, present, and future are constructs, Kronos and Kairos. I think they were the Greek gods. Or Roman, maybe it's, maybe it's Roman. I forget which. I'm gonna look up that story so that I can give better stuff on this. But basically Kronos time and Kairos time, those are two different things. Kronos, which is the root word for chronological, which depicts an order, a time order. For things first, this and then that, and then that. That is the time like we're used to. Two o'clock comes after one o'clock. One o'clock comes after 12 o'clock. February comes after January. That kind of time, chronological order, first this, then that, and last came. Chiros is different. That is what I like to think of as God time, where everything is happening all at once. Some people depict it as different dimensions, um, an overlapping of time as we think of it. I would love to find someone who is more of an authority on that than me and interview them. If you know someone, let me know. Reach out to me, future single lady@gmail.com or message me on Facebook. Fu your single lady. I love you and I'd love to know what steps you're taking. I had love to know what light you're shining, where it's pointed, how brightly it's shining. Clue me in, spill the tea. Let me see. Love you my friend. Glad you're here.