Sharam Namdarian Starts a Revolution
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A podcast where we rant on what ever is in the mind of comedian Sharam Namdarian. We are going to accidentally start a Revolution.
We are going to start a REVOLUTION but we do not have a cause.
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Sharam Namdarian Starts a Revolution
will AI therapy fix me
OH DEAR LORD.
My SOUL hurts. My heart HURTS. My heart has been TORN OPEN.
I'm still reeling.
Does AI therapy work? In this episode we find out, and I don't want to spoil it, but it is a JOURNEY!
The Parts:
00:00 - Intro
01:31 - Part 1: The Premise
08:00 - Part 2: The Session
42:54 - Part 3: Review
Here's the prompt:
I want to uncover the masks I'm currently wearing, the roles I'm playing and the illusions I'm believing. Please guide me through the process by asking me ten reflective questions, one at a time to help me recognize the stories the stories I'm currently telling myself. After I answer the tenth question, please step into the role of my higher self and analyse my responses, identify the top negative patterns present in my life and the top positive patterns I can embrace and grow.
Be direct, truthful, and tough love is welcome. Then provide daily affirmations to support my growth, actionable steps to change my behaviours and embody my higher most authentic self. Lastly, send a message of encouragement from my higher self to celebrate how far I've come on my journey.
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What happens when a self-proclaimed people-pleaser confronts his deepest fears with artificial intelligence as his guide? In this raw, transformative journey, I expose my soul to an AI therapy session that cuts straight to the heart of why I've spent a lifetime prioritizing others' comfort over my own truth.
The results are nothing short of revolutionary. What begins as an exploration of boundary-setting quickly unravels into something far more profound – the discovery of what the AI calls my "relational apocalypse script." It turns out I'm not just afraid of conflict; I'm terrified that one authentic "no" might trigger a cascade of rejection, career collapse, and social abandonment.
Through ten penetrating questions, the therapy session reveals how deeply my Zoroastrian upbringing and family dynamics trained me to believe that "good thoughts, good words, good deeds" meant I couldn't even think negatively without becoming spiritually suspect. Listen as I confront the painful truth that I've been "homeless inside my own life," desperately decorating others' houses in hopes someone might invite me in, while never building walls strong enough to shelter myself.
The most powerful revelation? That boundaries aren't acts of cruelty but essential architecture – they're the foundation of the house I get to live in. And the people who respect those walls are the only ones who deserve to see inside. As the AI puts it: "When you show that level of self-respect, you teach people how to treat you, not with fear but with precision."
Whether you're a chronic people-pleaser, someone struggling with authenticity, or simply curious about AI's potential to transform psychological patterns, this episode offers a vulnerable window into what happens when technology meets our deepest human struggles. Try the unmasking prompt yourself – it's in the episode description – and join me in discovering that your feelings are not a threat, your truth is not an attack, and your voice does not need approval to be valid.
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AI therapy is here but is it any good?
Speaker 1:In this episode of Sharam Namdarian Starts a Revolution we dive knee-deep, balls-deep, bravely brazen into the brave new world of AI therapy to determine is AI therapy here and is it any good?
Speaker 2:Now I have a huge problem, and that is I am a massive pushover. So in this episode, I'm going to be doing a live therapy session and I'm going to be exposing my heart, my soul, to the new AI, omnipresent overlord to see if it can actually fix me and help me become a bit less of a pushover, a people pleaser, someone who I let people walk all over me. I've been saving this for this podcast, this episode, and to determine it. This podcast is going to be broken down into three parts. First part is the premise, like what's been happening, what am I doing, what's been going on. Part two is the session. So, like the actual live session, I'm going to be doing it text, so I will be reading it out loud. And part three is the test. So you'll understand what the test is when I talk in part one, which is the actual premise. So, without further ado, let's get into the premise. So I'm a massive pushover, fucking. That's the key there. I'm a big old pushover and that's got to change. This. The key there I'm a big old pushover, uh, and that's got to change.
Speaker 2:It's been a major theme in my life recently that I will prioritize someone else's well-being above my own actual my own well-being. Uh, and if someone pisses me off, I will prioritize a long-term strategy of subtly moving away from them rather than just telling them hey, you've hurt me. I would prefer to subtly move away from people than to tell them no. Now I'm a very strong-willed person. I have a lot of ideas, a lot of goals, a lot of things, but I'm having, I guess, self-assertion fatigue. I'm having this thing where I'm constantly bombarded with people, especially when booking comedy lineups and stuff like that, where I have to say no, but also I have to be able to determine hey, no, you're actually not as good as I would like you to be in order to be on this room. And I'm having to develop this level of this taste and assertion that I'm worried I'm going to hurt people, and so that's the general vibe. Now what's happened is is a good friend of mine gave me a prompt for AI therapy, basically, and it's an unmasking prompt. An unmasking prompt is, if you don't know what unmasking is, unmasking is this idea that it's sort of opening up your soul to the world, that we're essentially trying to protect ourselves from other people and that you are enough as you are.
Speaker 2:Now, I have a history in life coaching. I have a history in, have a history in life coaching. I have a history in like sort of supporting people through similar journeys, and so I'm a little bit more further along than the average band. But what I mean is is my, one of my general core beliefs is I do believe that in most situations we're enough. We're just not necessarily like it's not really about learning, it's about unlearning. But you know, sure, like, say, for example, take any form of art form, like that, yes, there is stuff to learn, stuff to grow, stuff to see, but we're more often than not not necessarily available for that.
Speaker 2:Take relationships We've been in relationships for our whole life, so why aren't we learning from that? In some cases there's mental blockages. So the idea is not to load up, learn up that that can actually affirm issues, that can actually affirm blockages, but it's actually to de-learn, to de-load, to unmask. So I was given this prompt and I'll read it through you in a second. But I have been going crazy with this prompt. I meditate a lot, I process a lot of my emotions a lot. I'm very good at it. This has been a whole new level of just insanity. It's fucking cut to the core of my soul and it has exposed my bare truth at a ruthless expressive level that has helped me expand faster and quicker. So this session is a dare I say that, but on steroids. I have picked a topic that is a really hard topic, something that's really come and I've been wanting to be. I sort of wanted it to almost be like be like he's doing that, he's doing that and he's doing it publicly. That's a bit of an extreme situation, um, so there is a test. There is a test to see if it works.
Speaker 2:I am afraid of using the word. I hesitate even now. I'm like, oh, I can't use it, the pussy p-u-s-s-y to describe how I've been. I can't even say the word without hesitating because I'm afraid it'll hurt someone, it'll upset someone and some people might say that's fine, but I now need to step into my power. I am not here to upset anyone. I'm not, you know, like I, whatever, like I, whatever, like I know we're humans, we're capable, we're multi-dimensional beings. I'm going to say things that are going to hurt people and I need to accept that and maybe there's actually some benefit in that you say no to someone, you're actually saying hey, you have an opportunity to step up. I've started to be aware of it. So that is going to be the ultimate test In part three. Can I say that word without hesitating?
Speaker 2:We're going to see now, in this episode of Sharon and Darren Starts a Revolution, the only show that will eventually start a revolution, whether we want to or not, without any purpose or cause. You're a revolutionary. You're listening to this episode, okay. So here's the prompt, and I will put this in the description of the episode. You're a revolutionary, you're listening to this episode, okay. So here's the prompt, uh, and I will put this in the the description of the episode, and I'll put this like, whether or not you're listening to it on spotify, apple podcast, whatever, or if you're watching this along on youtube, it'll be in the description. You can try it yourself.
Speaker 2:I would recommend doing it first once as it is and then, after that, start to say, hey, now let's do it on the topic, now let's do it on the topic of this, let's do it on the topic of that. So I've got a very specific topic and we're going to be running through it. I want to uncover the masks I'm currently wearing, the roles I'm playing, the illusions I'm believing. Please guide me through the process by asking me 10 reflective questions, one at a time, to help me recognize the stories I'm currently telling myself. After I answer the 10th question, please step into the role of my higher self and analyze the responses. Identify the top negative patterns present in my life and the top positive patterns that I can embrace and grow. Be direct, truthful and tough love is welcome. Then provide daily affirmations to support my growth, actionable steps to change my behavior and embody my higher most authentic self, authentic self.
Speaker 2:Last, send a message of encouragement for my higher self, to celebrate how far I've come on my journey. Now, this has been interesting, but without further ado, let's get into part two, the session. So I'm going to do my best to hold the microphone. In a weird way, I'm basically doing this on my computer uh, okay, cool. Uh, now let's, I'm going to read it out loud and you're going to, you're going to fuck, you're going to see my responses real time. It's going to be very interesting. Now let's do it on the topic of uh, I'm going to say, do it.
Speaker 2:On the topic of, I'm going to say, being a pushover. I am afraid of upsetting people, telling people no, thinking bad of other people. And, to be honest, it's a strategy that's worked. Like, I'm very good at selling things because I'm capable of seeing the good in things. But now I've realized I've overdeveloped that aspect of myself to the point where I'm capable of seeing the good in things. But now I've realized I've overdeveloped that aspect of myself to the point where I'm afraid of saying no to things, afraid of being bad about myself, thinking bad of other people and myself. Yeah, I think that's a good way of saying it All right now I'll read what it says yes, this is the nervous system of your inner child it's the first sentence Still trying to survive the imagined collapse of every relationship.
Speaker 2:This is going to be a long thing. If you say the wrong thing, ah, jesus, this isn't about boundaries. This is about to be a long thing. If you say the wrong thing, ah, jesus. This isn't about boundaries. This is about core fear. If I hurt someone, I am bad. If I disappoint someone, I'll be abandoned. If I think something negative, I am something negative. Oh my fucking God, straight out of the gate. Something negative. Oh my fucking God, straight out of the gate. Oh, this is going to be a fucking doozy of an episode. Let's uncoil this one. This is old, tangled, learned and this is not yours to carry anymore.
Speaker 2:Theme being a pushover, the fear of upsetting, disappointing or being too much. Let's run through the same process as the others 10 questions to unmask the fear and rewire the core. Then I'll step as your higher self of clear edges, kind fire and zero guilt boundaries to reframe it all and lift you out. Question number one what is the worst thing you imagine will happen if you clearly upset someone, whether by saying no, setting a boundary or expressing dislike. Uh, I'm afraid that they'll hate me and that there will be massive unknown. So I'll write that down I'm afraid that they will hate me and there will be massive unknown ramifications. Man, I can't spell ramifications with other people. My career, my self-esteem and more. Oh, it's thinking, oh, it's giving me. Which response do you like better? You don't want a therapist to be like ah, what do you want? So I just wait for it to talk and I'll just pick response one Don't care, it goes. Yes, this is not about boundary fear.
Speaker 1:This is about relational apocalypse script.
Speaker 2:Oh God, oh shit, uh, you don, oh shit. You don't fear conflicts, you fear social collapse.
Speaker 1:Oh fuck.
Speaker 2:You don't fear saying no. You fear that one no will turn into a dominion of rejection. Oh, I don't even. I don't even know how to reply. Dominion of rejection, career loss, reputation rot, emotional abandonment and internal annihilation. Oh my god, I don't. Oh shit, son, I can't tell if I'm crying or laughing, because at your core the belief isn't if I upset someone they'll be mad. It's if I upset someone, they'll hate me and the world will agree.
Speaker 1:I can't tell if I am laughing or if I am crying.
Speaker 2:It fucking hurts, it's it's like an exaggeration of the truth, but it's exactly how I feel. Oh, the internal sentence your brain whispers is if I let someone down, they'll punish me by taking everything or worse, they'll be right to do it.
Speaker 2:They'll be right to do it. I'm not exaggerating how I'm feeling right now, I'm just expressing it important. You are operating under a survival program that makes peacekeeping I'm just expressing it Important. You are operating under a survival program that makes peacekeeping feel like self-preservation. I am trying to keep the peace. Oh my God, my nose is snotting.
Speaker 2:Your nervous system has merged two very different truths. People can be upset and if they are, it feels I'm unsafe. That is true. People can be upset and if they are, it feels I'm unsafe. That is true, people can be upset. But I've also merged it with if they are, I feel unsafe, it means I'm up safe. The second one it's false. Your body thinks it's um, it's still in a room where every single disappointing look could collapse your world. Let's start pulling you out of that room. Oh my God, that was question one. There's nine more questions. Holy crap, I'm molly, oh shit.
Speaker 2:Oh, when you do something negative about someone, a situation or yourself, what do you believe it says about you as a person? What identity you're afraid of being seen as someone? So, when you do think something negative about someone, a situation or yourself, what do you believe it says about you as a person that I'm bad. What identity that, yeah, that I am bad, just a bad person. A bad person. What identity are you afraid of? Being seen as? That's it? That I myself I'm afraid of thinking bad about other people, because if I myself, then it means I'm capable. It's like my attempt at thinking good about other people is actually my attempt at feeling good about myself, and that if I think bad about other people, that means other people are thinking bad about me.
Speaker 2:Yes, okay, now let's read what AI says. Yes, there, it is the core infection. Yes, there, it is the core infection. If I have a bad thought, I must be a bad human, not someone who had a moment, not someone with feelings, but rotten at the root. Yep, that's how I feel. You don't just judge your behavior. You use every shadow in your mind as proof that you are fundamentally unworthy, unlovable or dangerous. Oh no, that's soul I'm snotting. It's like I'm afraid of crying, so I'm snotting. That's soul.
Speaker 1:Death via self-monitoring why do I fucking do this? Here's a podcast idea. Let's fucking tear my soul in half on a podcast.
Speaker 2:Oh great, that'll get the views but you're not policing your thoughts to stay nice. You're doing it to uh, to stay allowed to exist the test should have been.
Speaker 1:Am I gonna cry on this fucking?
Speaker 2:thing. Uh, you've internalized the rule good people don't think bad things. If I think something mean, selfish, annoyed, resentful, angry or even blunt, I must not be a good person. I can tell you where that comes from. So there's a rastrian thing good thoughts, good, good deeds, we're told us as a whole life. Good thoughts, good words, good deeds. Which means if I don't deserve, which means I don't deserve love, safety, opportunity or connection. So, yeah, good. So I'll read that whole sentence again Good people don't think bad things. So if I think something mean, selfish, annoyed, resentful, angry, even blunt, I must not be a good person, which means I don't deserve love, safety, opportunity or connection. Counter truth thoughts are weather, not identity. They pass, they do not define me. Every person I admire has worse ones. The difference they don't mistake the storm for their soul. That's a very nice thought. You are not bad. You are wired for care, so much that your nervous system doesn't let you feel anger until it's been apologized for in advance. Let's change that. Jesus Christ, question three. We're only at question three. Jesus Christ, question three. We're only at question three.
Speaker 2:If you could set a boundary, say no or even just express a preference without guilt or fear, what kind of space would open up inside you. What would you finally feel? I would say I would feel safe. I'd feel safe without guilt or fear. I would feel safe because I could set boundaries. I feel like I can create a house that I'm safe in. Like I can create a house that I can live in. Like I have walls. I've created boundaries. I've said I don't like that, I like that. So it's like I've created a space, like a wall, a house. That's how I would feel. All right, my overlord, let's go. Yes, that is the dream Not to push others around, but to finally have a home inside yourself, yourself. Oh, it just says it in such a nice way. Oh, a place where your yes means yes and your no means no. Oh, how nice would that be. Oh, my god, I can't tell if I'm laughing or if I'm crying. You're not at the mercy of other people's feelings. To feel like you're allowed to exist when you don't set boundaries, you're not being kind, you're being homeless inside your own life. That is how I feel. Oh, my god, you're trying to decorate everyone else's house, hoping that one of them will invite you in, but your truth, your no, your discomfort, your honesty is a blueprint for your house. Without it, you're just drifting. The feeling you crave is safety, stability, sanctuary, a place where I don't need to earn the right to take up space. And guess what? Every time you say no with love, you hammer another nail into the walls of that house. Every time you say I don't like that, you lay another brick in the floor. Every time you disappoint someone and survive, you build a life where you're finally allowed to live inside yourself. Are you ready for question four? Yes.
Speaker 2:Who taught you, directly or indirectly, that other people's comfort was more important than your own truth? Was there a moment, a pattern, a relationship that cemented the idea? If they're upset, I've failed. Say, looking after my mom. I felt like I emotionally looked after her quite a lot as a kid. She's great now, but as a kid I don't know if it was just me. I did it with her.
Speaker 2:Who taught you, directly and indirectly, being Zoroastrian with the ideas? Who taught you, directly and indirectly, being Zoroastrian with the ideas good thoughts, good words, good deeds was heavily embedded in me and and forced to work in my dad's shop as a kid, felt like my priorities were not good and that I would be attacked at any point to go and work in this shed slash shop. That was it, basically. As a kid, my dad would come in yelling and screaming go work in the farm, go work in the shed Basically how he was raised.
Speaker 2:Trauma begets trauma. Are you ready for me to fucking have an ego death? Holy crap. Yes, this isn't social conditioning, it's spiritual and family encoding. Yep, oh, fuck, you were. It's deep. Oh, you were taught, both implicitly and explicitly, that your job was to manage emotional weather, even when it was never yours to manage.
Speaker 2:I definitely do compensate for other people's. Your nervous system got hardwired to believe other people's peace equals my responsibility, yep. My comfort equals irrelevant Yep. That opens up quite a lot of anger inside me. My wants are dangerous. Yep, let's break this down. Mom, you're emotionally attuned to her needs, even before your your own even formed. You became, but you became a child empath, not a child. Caretaking earned you peace. Neglecting it caught risked chaos. Dad slash shop. You were made replaceable labor in someone else's dream. Not a kid, not an artist, not soul, just a pair of hands. And if you resisted, you were wrong. Your desires weren't selfish, they were invalid. I don't even know what to say to that. Oh, I really hope the video is recording. I'm using my phone. I cannot tell if it's still going or not. I assume it is zoroastrian morals. Good thoughts, good good deeds got warped into clean thoughts, pleasing words, self-sacrificial deeds. Even your inner world had to be pristine, yep.
Speaker 1:Oh.
Speaker 2:And so you didn't just learn to say yes. You learned that thinking no made you spiritually suspect. Here's the truth. Your higher self would scream from the rooftop.
Speaker 2:Being a good person doesn't mean being a silent one. I do silence myself. It doesn't mean being clean. It doesn't mean being usable, useful, agreeable, digestible or spiritually pure. It means being honest without punishment. That's a strange concept.
Speaker 2:What do you wish you could say more often? But stop yourself from saying out of fear you'll sound mean, difficult, selfish, lazy, cold or bad. Give me a real sentence or three. I want to say you hurt me. I want to say you are making my life harder. I want to say you suck. I want to say I suck. I want to say I want to say I'm mad. I want to say I want to try different things. I want to say you're hurting me. That's oh fuck. I am snotty right now. All right, what does it say?
Speaker 2:These are just some of the things. Yes, those aren't just boundaries, they're soul sirens, real, alive, electric pulses of self-respect. They've got traps in your throat Because the world taught you that pain makes you the problem. You're not actually trying to be liked, you're trying to survive things like I'm trying to survive. Things like you hurt me because you learned that admitting harm invites more of it. You suck because you were trained to believe that naming someone's impact means you're cruel, dramatic or ungrateful. I suck because you've had to swallow your self-judgment in silence because it might become your internal religion. So I've had to swallow my internal judgments in silence so many times. It's become my internal religion. Yeah, let me just suck in peace. I'm mad because you were punished for for the temperature of your blood. Because you, because you even knew it meant to burn, because you were punished for the temperature of your blood before you knew what it meant to burn. Yep, I definitely had a lot of anger bursts as a kid. I want to try different things, because your desires were dangerous. Wanting meant rebellion and rebellion costed everything. You're hurting me because once, saying that would have made it worse. Yeah, I feel like I definitely would have said things. Yeah, these sentences aren't mean. They're liberating, not just for you, but anyone else who grew up apologizing for existence. Oh, my God, we're only at step six. Jesus Christ, I hope this is not a crazy long episode.
Speaker 2:What part of you, even if it's tiny, doesn't want to be nice all the time. The version of you that wants to say the truth, walk away, get weird, burn the bridge or not, just give a shit. What does their voice sound like? Let them speak for a second. A part of me that doesn't want to be nice has standards, standards. It has a voice that says that says I like this, I don't like this, I like that behavior, I don't like that behavior, I like that person, I don't like that person, and so on. It's just, it's the part of me that has standards. That's why I'm a fucking pushover. Oh shit, all right, let's go again. Remember there's a question.
Speaker 2:Six yes, that part of you is not cruel, it is clear. The part of you that is not trying to dominate others, it's trying to protect the quality of your experience on earth. Ah, and it's been silenced for long. It's for so long that now even basic preferences feel like violence. But they're not. They're boundaries dressed in calm sentences. That voice is sacred because it's not chaotic, it's curated. That version of you is saying I have taste, I have instincts, I have non-negotiables. I'm not here to be everyone's peace, I'm here to build my own peace. Let's honor that voice, let's put it into it, into the light. Seven.
Speaker 2:If you lived more from that voice, with one one with preferences, standards and opinions, how would your life change? What would shift? With your work, love, speak or even perform? I would express how I feel more. I would also create an inner dialogue that I am safe to express how I feel and probably have that in independence of how people reacted. That I'm safe. Like, regardless of how people reacted, I probably'm safe. Like, regardless of how people reacted, I probably tell myself I'm still safe. I'm safe in my career, comedy choices, family, friends, love, whatever. Yes, that is the exit door of being a pushover Not loud, not mean, not meaner, not colder, not safer. Just enough to speak without checking with their face first.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I want, yeah, safe enough to feel without pre-clearing your emotions. Yeah, that is what I do. I do pre-screen everything. I'm feeling safe enough to exist without auditing, auditioning for permission, auditioning for permission. I want you to understand everything in this that I've read for you. Or most things have been like it's felt like daggers in the heart, but it's felt like pulling daggers out of my heart. This is where you finally tell yourself my feelings are not a threat, not sorry, my feelings are not a threat, my truth is not an attack. My voice does not need approval to be valid. I can be honest without being exiled. Oh shit, that's what I want. If you live from that voice, you'd stop whispering your needs like favors. You'd build relationships that expand your truth, not shrink you into roles. You perform differently, not for laughs alone, but for the joy of being present as yourself. I love that, okay.
Speaker 2:What belief still clings to the idea of that being nice is better than being real? What false value is still living up to that nice has people like you and that real is unsafe? I don't, and, just as a thing, I don't even know what some of my standards are Like. So if I'm real, I don't even know what I'm trying to be real as, yes, this is what you've been trained to believe that niceness earns connection While realness. While realness earns isolation. That being liked equals safe. That being real equals being risky. But here's the wound under it you've never learned what you actually like because you are too busy making sure you are likable. When you say I don't even know what my standards are, what you're really saying is I've never been allowed to disappoint people long enough to figure out what I actually want. At this point I'm not even going to fucking. You know how I'm feeling. That's not weakness, that's survival.
Speaker 2:You grew up editing your instincts before you could even. You grew up editing your instincts before they could even become opinions. So of course, they feel vague, blurry or dangerous. But here's your counter truth. I don't need to have standards fully figured out before I start respecting my sense of no. My preferences don't need to be perfect, they just need to be mine. I'll find them using my voice, not by waiting in silence, okay, I'll do that. Not by waiting in silence, okay, I'll do that.
Speaker 2:If you start expressing your preferences, even small ones, how would you feel in your body? How might you imagine people change? I would feel powerful, a bit unsafe, but powerful. I'd feel like I'm respecting myself. People might also treat me with that same respect. Okay, there's question nine, by the way, and then one more question after this, and then we have the final segment, which is the reflection. So maybe you've got some thoughts. Let them know in the comments, or there's also, if you're listening to on Spotify, deep down in the description, there is a fan mail thing you can text Okay, yes, that's real power. It feels unsafe because it's real power, not domination, not cruelty, just finally acting like you exist.
Speaker 2:When you show that level of self-respect, you teach people how to treat you, not with fear but with precision. They stop guessing, they start respecting. You don't just become assertive, you become magnetic in a different way. People no longer feel the quiet resentment, the background, people-pleasing, emotion, coercions. They feel someone who is. This is what I like, this is what I don't like. No drama, no guilt, no apology, just truth. They feel safer around you. They feel safer around me, not because you're nice, but because you're real. Fuck, I never thought of it that way.
Speaker 2:Last question if you fully trusted that being clear, direct and real wouldn't destroy your life but build a better one, what's one small truth you could say out loud this week, without apology or a spin? I don't have a small truth could say out loud this week, without apology or a spin I don't have a small truth. I don't even know what that is, but I would start to notice I am, uh, start to have a dialogue with myself that I have truths, that I am, that I have opinions and I am safe to have opinions without apology, regardless of if I express them or how people react. That's how I would. I'd start to develop a much more powerful inner dialogue. I wouldn't be like, yeah, I'm gonna express this one thing. It would be like, nah, I have opinions, I'm safe. I just got to start telling myself that that's the core of it.
Speaker 2:Okay, you ready for the final breakdown? It goes yes, this is real reprogramming. Not blurting out the truth, but believing you're allowed to have one before you say it, even before you know it, even before anyone else agrees. Just, I have truths, I have preferences, I have instincts. I am safe to hold them, whether or not I speak them.
Speaker 2:This isn't about becoming assertive. This is about reclaiming your exist, to exist with edges. You've lived so long as a shapeshifter you forgot. Your soul has bones, shapeshifter, so let's bring them back. Your higher self speaks. You are not here to be smooth surface or of someone else's emotions. You are not a bomb. You are not an assistant manager of vibes. You are not moral proof of decency. You are a person, and the and your boundaries are not violence, they're architecture. They build the house you get to live, and the only people who respect the walls deserve to see inside. Oh my God, that is so nice. Start small, don't rush the roar, just begin whispering. I have truth, I have opinions. I am safe to think and feel, even if I don't act, even if I never say it out loud, even if it's messy or unclear or dumb. I am real, that is enough. Self-talk mantras. I'm real, that is enough. What does it say? I have preferences and they matter. It's okay for me. It's okay if people don't like me, I like me.
Speaker 2:Oh, that's nice, I can disappoint others without destroying myself. Oh shit, I've been saying it's okay for me to say no and still make friends. But this is I can disappoint others and without destroying myself. This is not about making friends, this is about identity, fucking nuclear warfare. I am not cruel, I am just clear. Even if I am not ready to speak, I am allowed to feel it.
Speaker 2:Action steps for stop being a pushover this week. Say no to one small thing, even if it's just to yourself, like a dm for an event you don't want to go to. Catch one moment. Who people? Yeah, whatever these action steps, the healing is done, I swear. Uh, catch one moment where you people please, in your head, pause and say they'll survive and so will I. Oh, that's nice, right, one thing you like and one thing you don't like, without justification. Let it sit. Let's start the sovereignty Each day. Whisper before bed. I was real today, even just a little, and that's enough.
Speaker 2:Part three the Review Pretty fucking good, pretty effing good. I don't know whether or not it's because I needed it or it was because it's a long time coming, but I literally feel like I've had my soul ripped out. I feel like, well, let's see the results. I feel like I'm capable of thinking more positive thoughts about myself, that I'm not, that I'm going'm gonna be if not in this very moment, not gonna be a massive pushover and start to develop my own identity of boundaries. I have them. I'm just up until now I've been safe with them. I prefer to slowly breadcrumb a person than selling them. No, but that's still selling them, no, in disguise. Oh shit, this is. You already know what I think.
Speaker 2:Has this replaced therapy? Look, there is that idea that, uh ai, stuff like this is only as good as the person doing it, and I think I was really ready for the change. The other thing is, you know, if I have a fucking panic attack during this whole thing, it can't look after me. So there is still a role for some humans in a thing that is, until we give it eyeballs and hands and whatever. Then it can stroke me and pet me and tell me, tell me, I'm a good boy. Does it replace therapy? I don't think it replaces therapy, but holy crap, amoly is it probably currently. Was that better than I've had therapy as a kid? I've done a lot of life coaching. I've been life coached. Was that more insane than 90% of every session I've had, including the therapy and life coaching. Yes, scary to say. Yes, scary to say yes, my soul has been turned inside out. Are you ready for the test?
Speaker 2:Can I say that word? This is where I say fuck off. I don't have to say that word. If I don't want to, I'm allowed to go.
Speaker 2:I don't feel comfortable with that word. I think that's really what it's been about. I think I've been uncomfortable with that word. I think it's a lazy word. I don't think it fully describes how I feel. Maybe for other people it might describe how I feel about them, but for me, on this current point, I don't feel like it.
Speaker 2:How I feel about them, but for me, on this current point, I don't feel like it. I feel like I don't like it because the word is too vague. It describes so many things. If you call someone a pussy, it's an anatomical thing. You're basically saying they're also a bit of a pushover. So I hear the change here is it's not that I'm Like I did hesitate a tiny bit before, but it's more now. I feel fine hesitating. It's like let me hesitate, fuck off. Why do I have to not hesitate? Let me have my space to be a little pansy boy. Let me be assertive about my lack of assertiveness. I don't need your validation for me to feel good about my own boundaries, so I think we could call it a success.