Overdramatic and Problematic

The Teenage Battlefield: Insecurity, Peer Pressure, and Drama

Silan and Maria Season 1 Episode 2

Silan and Maria dive into the messy realities of teenage life, sharing personal stories about insecurities, peer pressure, and how to navigate high school drama. Let's get real about the crushing weight of teenage insecurities. From uneven eyes to broken noses, we're diving into what makes us feel less-than and how those feelings develop in the first place.

One thing becomes crystal clear during our conversation: nobody is born insecure.


Remember to join us next episode when we'll be reading your stories and giving advice! Send them through to be featured.


Speaker 2:

Overdramatic and Problematic.

Speaker 1:

I'm Solange and I'm Maria, and I hope you are all having an amazing day.

Speaker 2:

That's the nicest she'll be to you.

Speaker 1:

Maybe you're having a mental breakdown, but it's okay. It's okay, we all have mental breakdowns.

Speaker 2:

Maybe you're in the middle of exam season, maybe you're at home.

Speaker 1:

Maybe you're walking your lizard, you know that's normal.

Speaker 2:

Do you know anyone that owns a lizard?

Speaker 1:

I actually do A friend in my English class owns a lizard. She loves her lizard. It's a bearded dragon.

Speaker 2:

I'm sure she walks her lizard. I walk my hairless cat, so I can't even hate. Well he's not. He's my flatmate's hairless cat. I will be mentioning him. His name is Elon.

Speaker 1:

Elon Musk. Yeah, that's what he was named after and I was like what a questionable choice. Sorry guys, I got sidetracked.

Speaker 2:

We have a few topics. So our topics today are we're going to be talking about insecurity, peer pressure and gossip.

Speaker 1:

Those are kind of our three but all intertwining together. Yeah, yeah, so it's not like all kind of three different sections.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, it's not like okay one, okay two, okay three. Yeah, I think we mentioned this last episode. We just yapped, so we're gonna come across these kind of naturally and hopefully maybe, yeah, we'll see, yeah, but I don't know, we're not very coordinated today are we not?

Speaker 1:

I mean I, I think we.

Speaker 2:

Oh, for those of you that can't see us and are just listening, I just gestured very aggressively because Solan is in a cute little tank top and a scarf and I am in a sweater because I'm freezing and she's like, oh, it's so hot. No, no, it isn't. It's like minus five degrees outside Shocking.

Speaker 1:

I knocked the mic like totally out of the way, but that's because I'm about to say something I'm really passionate.

Speaker 2:

Say something Really. I'm really passionate, it's pouring.

Speaker 1:

Let me say I'm really passionate about this. I had a miserable day today. I had a miserable day. I had a miserable day because it was raining Like it was pouring right. I like the rain, I love the rain.

Speaker 2:

I don't like being in the rain, but just wait, just wait. It makes me feel sticky.

Speaker 1:

I had a driving lesson this morning. You did, I did. Oh, you had to drive in the rain. Did you crash? No, I'm actually. Did you kill someone? No, hold on.

Speaker 2:

Okay, sorry, don't jump to conclusions Okay. I walked down my driveway.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, thinking that my driving teacher, so she's 10 minutes late. I did not bring an umbrella. My dad told me I should, but in spite of my father figure, I go. No, I am not bringing an umbrella.

Speaker 2:

Yeah.

Speaker 1:

So I'm in downfall.

Speaker 2:

Is that what?

Speaker 1:

it's called Rainfall.

Speaker 2:

Downpour.

Speaker 1:

Downpour For 10 minutes. Then I get into the car Right, and so my driving teacher has a.

Speaker 2:

The Pomeranian. She brings a Pomeranian dog and but you have to tell the story of the first time we got in the car with that Pomeranian.

Speaker 1:

I will, but she's meant to be like, I think, an emotional support animal for the new person driving, such as a teenager, such as myself.

Speaker 2:

It would not help me, I would just pet it the whole time.

Speaker 1:

No, I think it's actually an emotional support dog for her, because the Pomeranian wasn't there today and my teacher was on the edge. I am telling you it was an insane lesson and she was like we got stuck in all this traffic and I was late for school and she was like pull over, I'm taking over. And so I like pull over and she's like get out of the car, shocking, because she's like so like she's stressing me out.

Speaker 1:

I get out of the car and I step in this massive puddle and I'm drenched. My socks are drenched.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, oh, that's like the worst feeling in the world Disgusting.

Speaker 1:

I have to go to school for the first two periods I'm freezing. My socks are drenched, my jump is drenched, my hair is drenched.

Speaker 2:

I look like a mole rat because all of my makeup has come off, but it's okay, because you look like that normally, so it wouldn't make much of a difference. Thank you, I love you. I love you too.

Speaker 1:

Anyways, I had to buy new socks at the. What's it called? How much were the socks?

Speaker 2:

The uniform shop. How much were the socks? Only $4.

Speaker 1:

Oh, okay, that's not bad, it was totally fine, but I had a miserable first two periods. It was the worst. Like I was so upset and I was so I was like shivering. And then I got these new socks and I was. I said to the lady I was like hey, is there anywhere I can put on these socks where no one can see my feet?

Speaker 2:

Because I didn't want to just put my dogs out. Yeah, your priorities in order, please.

Speaker 1:

There was like four people in the uniform shop. She's got to get her priorities. That's actually one of probably my insecurities showing my dogs, so that will tie in okay. But anyways, yeah girl, how after I got new socks I was really happy and I got a hot chocolate from the tuck shop and I was today as well. Yeah, see, in sync, yeah but yeah sorry, that was my um. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Speaker 2:

So that's why I had a miserable first part of my day but what does that have to do with you no longer being cold?

Speaker 1:

I don't know, oh no, I have no idea. It was just really I was really freezing and now I'm not okay. Well, because I'm cold curtis is cold.

Speaker 2:

I'm really hot. We are normal human beings.

Speaker 1:

I don't know what's happened here well, I was shivering at the start of the day. Now I'm now I'm hot, but anyways, so sorry for my little rant.

Speaker 2:

But no, you have to tell the story of the okay. So when she first did her driving lessons and she gets into this and she goes to get in the car I have not met my driving instructor right she pulls up and she's like oh, do you have any problem with dogs? I could have been allergic to a dog.

Speaker 1:

I could have been scared of dogs. She could have a deathly fear. She could be like I, could be petrified. I could explode from allergies.

Speaker 2:

yeah, maybe you could be like anaphylactically allergic, but she was just kind of like no more good. This is what her name um.

Speaker 1:

I, I don't know let's call her Gigi, gigi, my Pomeranian, but Gigi was already in the car like she should have texted me and been like hey, is it okay if I bring a dog? But no, she just shows up. What if I go? I'm I can't do it. She's just gonna leave and be like oh, I'll refund you like what?

Speaker 2:

oh bless, but thankfully you don't mind dogs yeah, I actually love dogs, thankfully um. I could not do a driving lesson with a dog. I would just be like, yep, we turn left at the intersection.

Speaker 1:

No it, it's the best Hi Gigi, hi baby Maria when I'm at a red light, I stop and I turn back and I'm like what Did we call it Gigi? I'm like how they do Gigi and she's just like smiling and I'm like I know I'm doing good and my instructor's looking at me like is this girl mentally insane talking to my dog? Yes, I am. Yes, I am. That was my fault for distracting us from our topic. Yes, do you want to start off with peer pressure or insecurity?

Speaker 2:

I think maybe let's, because it'll tie into everything like insecurities.

Speaker 1:

I think that's the biggest one we wanted to talk about today yeah, okay, I feel like every human being is insecure about at least one thing. One I said at least. I said at least um. But yeah, I think, especially as a teenager, because we're still growing up and we have so much peer pressure yeah, um, insecurities are a massive thing, yeah, in our lives.

Speaker 2:

Look I think, regardless of how old you are, like that's something you're going to go through anyways.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, of course I think everybody deals with that.

Speaker 2:

Like I know, like 50-year-olds that are insecure about stuff, like my grandmother is insecure and I'm like woman, you have birthed a child, you are close, you're like a very strong gust of breeze away from death. What do you mean? You're insecure, but like honestly, like no, like like I can understand it and like I can respect it because, like I guess we I don't know, we both have always been very confident people. Um, I think as definitely. As I've gotten older, though, I've found like there are more and more things that I struggle with, like it's hard, especially being like our age and stuff.

Speaker 1:

It's very hard.

Speaker 2:

Yeah.

Speaker 1:

Personally, I have a very supportive family, like parents and stuff, and so I grew up not really with like heaps of insecurities. I don't think I actually feel like I might have had more when I was younger than I have now.

Speaker 1:

I feel really confident in myself. I don't want to say I'm like where I am is the place to get to, like I'm obviously I'm still a teenage girl, but I I'm no. I'm just saying that I try not to think of any negative thoughts about myself, like when I look in the mirror and I'm getting changed. I, I don't. I don't know if it's a thing I practiced, but nothing comes up usually into my head cannot relate.

Speaker 2:

Would you like to hear the list of plastic surgeries? I'm getting done, I would.

Speaker 1:

I think everybody would love to hear it.

Speaker 2:

Go Okay, guys, this is like. This isn't like. Oh my God, 100%. I hate myself. I'm getting a million plastic surgeries done. However, let's start off my eyes and people are going to notice this after I say it because it bothers me to my core, like it's a hatred I have, but my eyes are uneven and it's painfully obvious in every photo I take. My eyes are uneven. One eye is bigger than the other, so I want to get the smaller eye.

Speaker 1:

I have that as well in my photos, though, so I think everybody has it.

Speaker 2:

Yes, everybody has uneven features, but it's just like a little different. Mine is like startling, so I'm going to get my smaller eye lifted, which is a procedure. You get the lid lifted to the same size.

Speaker 1:

I think it's different to you, but I have whenever, like it's a school photo, I smile for the photo One eye is more closed than the other, like half closed and the other one is open.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, yeah, well, mine, they're just different sizes and there's nothing I can do about that. Well, I can't see different sizes. Well, thank you, but again and then, just because I am a teenage girl and I think everybody's thought about this at some point, I'm like do I just go full Kardashian, barbie doll and just get everything done? Because I'm like maybe I should get my nose done and maybe Well, I actually might get my nose done when I'm older Really, because Shocking.

Speaker 1:

Because Just wait, sorry I've broken my nose twice and my nose is actually really when. What do you mean? That was really loud. I did not know this. I've broken like every single bone in my body when I've broken. Oh, this is actually so embarrassing. This is so embarrassing. Okay, time wasn't embarrassing, but the first time I broke my nose I was with a friend and we were on a surfboard in still water.

Speaker 2:

Still water on a surfboard.

Speaker 1:

It was a broken surfboard, by the way, because my dad wasn't there. We grabbed the one out of the back of the shed with like cobwebs all over it, but anyways, she was hot. I was holding it for her while she was standing up and she fell and it flew up, turned and the bottom of the surfboard it hit up on, turned and the bottom of the surfboard hit up on my nose and the tip hit into my nose. So I had a hole in my nose and broke my nose.

Speaker 2:

That was the first time Did you summon the sharks. There weren't sharks in the water. How deep were you?

Speaker 1:

We weren't that deep, we were fine, it was like a little river. You could have recreated Jaws Salon. I could have. I could have.

Speaker 2:

Be, I could have, but I didn't Be safe out there. But the second time was embarrassing and I feel like I'm sorry. Having your nose broken by a surfboard in still water that's not embarrassing.

Speaker 1:

I was a child, come on come on, you were an embarrassing child. Accept your fate. Yes, I have, but my second one was as a teenager Well, early teens and it is very embarrassing. I feel like people might be able to relate to this. Oh, I sure as hell hope not, I was walking, I was got. Okay, I was on my phone.

Speaker 2:

Oh, there we go. Yeah, I was on my phone.

Speaker 1:

I was watching TikTok, oh God, and my house, yeah, because I actually live in Byron and the Gold Coast. So on the weekends and holidays I live in Byron. So in my Byron house we have glass doors. So I was on my phone on TikTok walking and there's lights on inside of the house and we have a glass door. You did not walk into the glass door, yep, I thought it was open and I smashed into the glass door. Yep, apparently Shocking, yeah, but anyways.

Speaker 2:

I might. I know fish with better sense of direction. I owned a goldfish and it never once clashed into the glass.

Speaker 1:

Is this podcast? Only you just being so mean to me? Pretty much, yeah, we're all about positivity and we love each other.

Speaker 2:

Not when it comes to salon, not when it comes to you, babe. Sorry, not sorry, thank you.

Speaker 1:

You're welcome. I appreciate it. You should, but that's why I might have to get my nose done, because it hurts when I touch my nose, because I've broken it twice.

Speaker 2:

We can get them done together. It'll be like a bonding trip. Yes, so that. But to be fair, most of my family has gotten it done because we my dad's I need to stop hitting this. We mainly have deviated septum. So what's a deviated septum? I actually couldn't tell you, but it what? How do you know you have it, but you can't tell me what it is?

Speaker 1:

it's it's something no hold on. I have to sit back in my seat for this. So you're saying to me that you you might get work done on a deviated septum, and I ask you, what is it?

Speaker 2:

and you, say I don't know. Well, it's just like I don't know, but all I know is it makes it hard to breathe and then it winds up with you basically getting like a free nose job. So I'm doing it for, like the vibes, um, and then probably some other stuff, like like, while I'm at it, also, um, this will be getting paid for by the strip club I will be joining once I get my math exam results back um, real any who's? So, as I was saying, um, yes, I actually don't know what I was saying all of your work.

Speaker 2:

Oh yeah, so I'm getting all that done. Um, because the aesthetic I want to bring to the function is just absolutely fake, like like I want you to be able to look at me and like not guess how old I am, like that's, that's the vibe I want to go for yeah, but do you really want to look fake?

Speaker 1:

yeah. Do you think like insecurities form by themselves, or do you think that they form through? Other people commenting or peer pressure definitely other people.

Speaker 2:

I don't think anyone is born like insecure. No, no one's born. No, no one pops out, it's like huh. Well, I realized that I was born yesterday, but I actually don't kind of like the way that I don't have hair in my head. Like no that doesn't happen.

Speaker 1:

I don't know. Do you remember being a baby?

Speaker 2:

Maybe it does I actually remember up to really early. I remember the day I said my first word and I think that breakfast. Okay, stop. You're looking at me like I'm insane. You're going to look me up.

Speaker 1:

Okay, well, just continue with what you were saying. What was I saying About people?

Speaker 2:

I agree.

Speaker 1:

People aren't born with insecurities.

Speaker 2:

They're formed through other people making comments and I think that's when I was little I was one of the most confident people I knew and up until I think I started going to high school I was still quite confident. Like I went through a lot of um. I went through like a lot of bullying, a lot of home stuff and that still never got to me. I guess in my physical appearance the bullying definitely didn't help me feel confident with my like personality and myself. But I don't think it was until I got to like maybe year eight and stuff that I actually started letting people's words affect me and I think that's kind of what happened. It's either when you let yourself um you feel, yeah, you know it's not even when you let your guard down.

Speaker 2:

It's when you you you allow someone else to dictate how you should feel about yourself or when you're having that guard that you're supposed to have all through watching someone else, and then you know criticizing yourself and I think social media is such a big role yeah definitely it's.

Speaker 2:

It's hard, being our generation with social media influences and telling you what you should like look like because, like, at the end of the day, beauty standards are totally unattainable and I think, and they also beauty standards change all the time. It's actually shocking, but like soap brows were a thing, and then you know they were like the most popular and then everybody was like, oh my God, I hate them. They're so ugly, they're so bad.

Speaker 1:

They like went completely out of style.

Speaker 2:

I don't think anyone really did Like. I didn't like them. But then now feathered brows are making a little appearance. They're not bad actually. They're just kind of like soap brows, but just a little bit more tastefully. Sorry, I don't know why we went all tangent about eyebrows.

Speaker 1:

No the point of this was saying that beauty standards are always changing, so even if you change your appearance. For a beauty standard, it's going to change in like a week a month, a year. Like it's not going to stick.

Speaker 2:

Well, unless a beauty standard is uneven, eyes Like I'm getting my surgery, I'm getting my surgery Right. You're going to have to get rich for that. And again I say, my strip club If you want to. Venmo me, I'll start a GoFundMe.

Speaker 1:

I think as a kid and as a teenager there was still peer pressure, but I think it's so different. Going from primary school, I feel like peer pressure maybe who you hang with, which is still now, but like who you hang with what you do with your hair or whatever. But as a teenager I feel like it's gone to the next level, like peer pressure about vaping and peer pressure about do you smoke, like it's just like a a lot a big difference, big jump.

Speaker 2:

I have a little bit of a different kind of like hot take on that. Yeah, I think, obviously, like I'm friends with people, that vape, I'm friends with people that smoke, yeah, same, of course.

Speaker 2:

But I don't, I don't, I've never, I don't think I've ever experienced peer pressure to do those kinds of stuff. I've, and I think which is really funny because it was always like a big thing, like we always had to watch the education videos of like someone is going to try and force one into your mouth and then make you inhale, say no, like no, no one does that. You think they want to share their vape. They're spending like 50 bucks. Um, yes, many people share their vape. No, I'm saying they do, but like, I'm saying like they're not going to force you to if you don't want to.

Speaker 1:

Well, the thing is is that I personally haven't had peer pressure about vaping, but I have friends who are in classes and people will be like do it? Like they're trying to like force on them. So I personally haven't had peer pressure about vaping, but I've had friends around me who have.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, it's kind of what I was saying, like anything that happens like in life sorry, I'm trying to detangle my necklaces um, there are things you can control and then there are things that you can't, and I'm trying to detangle my necklaces. There are things you can control and then there are things that you can't, and I'm giving up on that. That's something I can't control. There are things that you can control and then there are things that you can't and the things that you Can't control yourself. Yeah, and so things like, and how you let situations affect you.

Speaker 2:

So, insecurities what you choose to do that is a decision affect you, so insecurities, what you choose to do, that is, that is a decision if you keep hitting this mic.

Speaker 1:

But it's such a hard decision it is.

Speaker 2:

But it's because, like, like you could turn to me right now, if you're like maria, I actually hate your uneven eyes and I could be like, okay, fuck you too. Or I could be like, oh my god, I know, they're so awful, I hate them too. I'm gonna kill myself, which actually, to be fair, if you actually did say that of me, that would be my reaction. So I can't even like hate, but I'm like I know, I know, but anyways, um, but that, like you know, that is something that I'm, that I'm letting affect me, yeah, and it's so hard to to sit here and to say, no, you shouldn't let that affect you, because obviously there are things that affect us. Like, I know you've been in so many situations where you've been upset and I've been in so many that I've been upset, yeah.

Speaker 1:

Everybody gets upset.

Speaker 2:

It's a normal human emotion. Yeah.

Speaker 1:

It's a normal human emotion, but to be insecure or stuff like that, like everybody is. So I'm not saying like don't be, but that is a decision that you can make.

Speaker 2:

That is something that you let affect yourself, but it is hard and it takes time.

Speaker 1:

It takes a lot of time. I think I and we're still like.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, look, I used to not let things affect me. I was very adamant, like people could say whatever they wanted to me and I'd just be like okay, well, fuck you, I don't have red hair, exactly because you don't. You, your hair isn't red. You don't believe you have red hair, you don't think that about yourself and you're no? No, what do you mean?

Speaker 1:

it's a metaphor, something about us which is, I think, pretty cool. We have a lot of experience to say about this. Me and Maria have both been to private schools, public schools, small schools, big schools, schools in other countries and overseas. We we've been to private schools, public schools, small schools, big schools, schools in other countries and overseas. We we've been to so many and changed so many times to all different schools. So we have been like we've been to tiny bush schools, we've been to gigantic public schools. Yeah, we've done it all. Yeah, so there's a lot of difference yeah, with exams, especially like it's they.

Speaker 2:

They shortened my time and I'm like are you out to get me? Like do you actually hate me? Harder and shorter what yeah, at my old school we got twice the amount of time. So now I'm sitting here and you are telling me I get maybe 90 minutes to complete an exam. Actually go and like jump off a cliff, kindly.

Speaker 1:

That's like a hundred pages. You know who else.

Speaker 2:

You know who else can go jump off a cliff. Maybe they're already dead, I don't care. Revive yourself, that might. Don't cancel us Anywho. Who are we talking about? Whoever invented mathematics? Oh, okay, die, okay. Why did we need it? Why did we need it? No, no, no, why did we need it? No, let me cook really quick. Why the hell did we need it? We evolved, or we were made, or whatever you believe in. We could have been hunters, literally. I would have been so happy just trotting about gathering my little berries, dancing around a bonfire, skidding some sheep and making like a nice little, like coat for myself, like literally. Why did you have to put me in a school? Like no, no, women fought for these rights and I don't want them.

Speaker 1:

Anyways, who becomes a math teacher?

Speaker 2:

I like okay, in the nicest way possible. I think math teachers, most, most of them, some of them, a careful few are really smart and then, like they're really really smart, but they just they, they don't know how to teach. And then the other ones, like that's with all different. All the other ones are they're the best teachers in the, but they just don't understand their subject. Or you've got the miracle few that can do both, but I've actually yet to encounter one Really Like. They're the myth, the legend, like I've heard of them, but I've never actually met one. No, but your genuine question though what goes actually? What goes into choosing like any career? Because I'm just like how?

Speaker 1:

do you know? How do you know what you want to do? How do?

Speaker 2:

you wake up one day and you're just like I want to teach math. How do you wake up one day and you're like you know what I think I want?

Speaker 1:

to be a firefighter. Anyway, what I wanted to say. What I wanted to say yeah, I believe in you.

Speaker 2:

Is that, even though, kind of want to do when we're older, we still have no idea what we want to do. We have no idea. You fucking want to decide to be a pilot, like sorry, no but that would be one of like 50 options, 50 other things.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, like, I'm gonna do everything I think, absolutely like. But like how are you supposed to know what?

Speaker 2:

you want to do? Like what if you wake up one morning and you've been like an accountant for the past like 15 years of your life and you're like, um, actually, no, I want to be a skydiving instructor. Sorry, like, I've planned my life out, I've got a timeline. Like I, do you want to hear my timeline? Okay, I'm okay, maybe ready. Okay, I'm getting into, I'm studying diploma, probably a diploma of business next year. I think I've like decided on that one, me too. Yeah, diploma of business.

Speaker 2:

Then I'm to go to university and I'm going to get a double degree, a Bachelor of Laws and a Bachelor of Arts specialising in dramatic arts, and then after that I'm probably getting my Masters in whatever area of law I choose to specialise, and I'm going to go be a lawyer baddie. However, I also want to get married, because I also want four kids before I'm 30 and my timeline is very tight. And so everybody's like are you gonna take gap year? No, I don't have time. I need to be married. I don't have time. I need to be a successful lawyer and a successful actress and I need to win an oscar and I need to have my children and I need to own my perfect little house on like a big, like apple orchard, like guys, you don't understand the vision maria hi, you obviously do know what you want to do with your life.

Speaker 1:

Okay, you have it planned out.

Speaker 2:

You want to give me the funds. No, I'm somewhere in between that. I also need to get all my like 10, like 15 surgeries done. So, like guys, I don't get any sleep at night.

Speaker 1:

I stress, I do that's the plan nudes being shared and leaked. Yeah, are so big at our age I, I don't think I know, personally, I do. Well, yeah, I was about to say thankfully, but it's, yeah, it's.

Speaker 2:

I can imagine it is shocking, so, so painful because I think it's different than it getting just leaked to like a couple of people when this stuff happens.

Speaker 1:

I'm guessing it's full pressure on the other end to send one, because the only time I've heard of Did I just roll my eyes.

Speaker 2:

The only time.

Speaker 1:

I know of people who just like send them out to everyone are guys. I haven't heard of a girl.

Speaker 2:

I know girls and I think it can be both ends really Stuff like that, like peer pressure and specifically pressure like stuff like that, like prep, like peer pressure and like of course pressure for stuff like that. It doesn't just come from guys that they can be guys and girls, of course.

Speaker 2:

I know, like I, and I think it's like, at the end of the day, again, you, you, if like that's something you're not comfortable with and you're aware that's something you're not comfortable with, that is a decision that you are making and I think, if you know that you don't want to do that and again, I know how hard this is to do, but it is a decision that you just kind of have to like it's a phone, at the end of the day, it's a phone Like it's not. It's not. It's not someone in the room with you. Yeah, like no, it's which, like I will for you.

Speaker 2:

But but, um, but um, like it's someone on your, it's someone on your phone and like I've I've dealt with like randos, like people that I don't even know being like um. See, that's where we're different. No, I don't actually kindly take you and your non-existent vocabulary and seek mental health.

Speaker 1:

That's where we're different, because I don't accept or add anybody that I don't know. But I know you do. I would, actually I would love to know, because I know heaps of people do that.

Speaker 2:

No, no, no, I actually want to ask you a question.

Speaker 1:

I know most of my friends do this, but I would love to know why you just like accept or add like random people that you don't know on Snapchat, because to me, in my head, that is just like I would never do it. Can, I can, I can, I can.

Speaker 2:

I can I rant. Firstly, I don't do that. I don't. I used to. Yeah, you used to A couple of Like. I just like well, my friends just added everybody. So it's like oh, okay, like this is what we do now. So peer pressure yeah, it was not even peer pressure, just kind of like wanting to fit in.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, try and fit in, and I'm like this is actually so stupid.

Speaker 2:

Like why am I getting hit up by like 50-year-old Ted? Like, please, you have children. You have a fake account. I never had one. I've always thought about being like, oh, like, I want to like stalk so and so, but I'm like I'm not gonna like make a fake account to do that. I changed my mind. It is my biggest passion. But something that having that account has made me realize is I went on it and I just added like 200 random people that we didn't know Less than 48 hours. Over 200 and something. People added me back and I'm like you have no idea who I am. I'm non-existent. I am non-existent.

Speaker 1:

My photos are from Pinterest.

Speaker 2:

What are you doing, babe?

Speaker 1:

This is why you get stalked, please.

Speaker 2:

I could be 80 years old. You're lucky that I'm literally just a teenage girl.

Speaker 1:

See, that's exactly where all of those terrible stories not stories like they happen, but things come in where obviously people online aren't who they say they are. Yeah, and I'm like that's shocking, that's actually shocking.

Speaker 2:

And she my old account. I'm not gonna say who it is, because I'm still gonna use her um, but I merely just use her to stop.

Speaker 1:

You don't know if somebody like follows you, you don't know who they are.

Speaker 2:

I would suggest checking if maria follows that I do mainly just use her to like stalk the ops, because I have so many and I'm blocked by so many and I'm like no bitch. I need to know what's going on with your life Really.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, Because with people who are I leave people in my past.

Speaker 2:

I don't. I unfollow them. I never look at them again. I don't want to. You know how I'm following on my old account this one person bitch Sorry, that was a really aggressive from when I was like five years old and I met her when I was in like daycare and I was still in Brazil and she was the granddaughter of the principal of our school and I was on the swings because I love the swings and I was swinging and living my best life and imagining that I was like a Disney princess and I could talk to the birds. And this birds and this little brat comes up to me, pushes me off the swing, it sits on my swing and when I'm like, who do you think you are? She's like I'm actually the granddaughter of the headmistress, tried to snitch on me. I did.

Speaker 1:

She did not say that, fuck you, but in like five-year-old vocabulary, but like I was like five and I bit her and I was like, okay, you want to try me?

Speaker 2:

I did. I was like I did, I was like, well, you're like okay, yeah. And then she bit me back and I'm like okay, yeah, I'm like okay you were in the wrong you were in the wrong, I got revenge.

Speaker 2:

You do not have the right to now bite me, wow, anyway. So she's getting followed because I need to. I'm preying on her downfall. I do not let things go. I think I said this last episode. I am a hater to my core. I don't let things go so like, if you do me dirty, I will give quite a few chances actually, I do give people chances but once that's over, I will find you and I will stalk you and I will spend the rest of my life waiting for the day you die. Anyways sorry.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, I was waiting for the rant to end. I am a kind person at heart. Yeah, I like to think, but I the thing is, is that Maria gives people quite?

Speaker 2:

a few chances.

Speaker 1:

You don't, and I if you screw me over, I maybe will give you one more chance, but then that's it, Because I don't let myself get hurt again. If I can see that you have hurt me, it's not happening again and I leave you in the past. Anybody who has hurt me in the past I do not follow them. They don't follow me. I've blocked them on everything and I don't want to think about them can't relate.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, I, I think it would. I think it would cause me more distress. Not distress, that's a big word, yeah, but to keep on keeping up with their life and looking at them and every time if they like a post, I'm like, oh my god, like I could not live with that, because that's just like that I want to leave it in my past and get over it and work on something better. That's not me, but I honestly like.

Speaker 2:

I respect you, thank you, and I support you from afar, because over here I am following the every move.

Speaker 1:

Oh my God For the future, when you're going to come with a machine gun.

Speaker 2:

You know, I have this one plan to like. I'm not saying I'm ever going to act on this, but I do have a plan to harass this one boy that I've known since I was in year like seven I think. In year seven we had like a major like falling out and I wrote, like me and my friends wrote like a song. It was actually a little bit mean, but we wrote a bit of a song and we it was like a little jingle, like it was funny and he laughed but it was a little bit mean, like I can accept that now, and I used to sing it every time I saw him. And then year seven, me, her plan, he just he ended up ignoring me like he just fully like pretend like I didn't exist, which, honestly, like I respect that. Like live your unbothered life. And then you know, even after I like moved on, like I don't, I don't have anything against him now.

Speaker 2:

However, year seven, me did have a plan that I was going to wait years in the future, find out where, where he lived, find out if he had a wife, he had children, infiltrate myself in his children's life, teach his children the songs so they would sing it to him, and then his wife, his wife listen, his wife would learn the song and then everybody in his life would be singing this song. The radio plays the song, his most listened tune on Spotify. He listens to the podcast. We're playing the song. His most listened tune on spotify is the song he can never escape. That's actually really good.

Speaker 1:

I want to see this happen. It was gonna.

Speaker 2:

It was gonna start suddenly. It was just gonna start with like one of his children and then another one, and then his wife would pick up on it and, because it's so catchy, everyone is singing it. Then his co-worker singing it. I'm gonna date his boss. His boss is gonna play the song within the office. I am going to record this song and bribe myself.

Speaker 2:

It's going to be in Woolies, yeah bribe myself to a Grammy so that if he ever decides to watch any award show ever, it's me singing the song and you're the one who did him dirty. Yeah, I let things. I clearly let things go, guys, but now I've got absolutely nothing against him. Am I saying that I'm not gonna follow through with my plan? Absolutely not catch me in 10 years and ask me how it went.

Speaker 1:

I have I have a hatred journal. Um, do you actually have a hatred journal? Oh, maria, wow, polar opposites. I let go of everything in my past and I work through it. Maria has a hatred journal like a bird book. That is so petty.

Speaker 2:

I am petty Every time someone upsets me or makes me really angry. Best believe you're going in my journal. No one's ever seen it, no one's ever found it and I have multiple versions of this. I've been keeping a hatred journal since I was in year three.

Speaker 1:

I'm trying to give the people listening advice, but I think I need to take you to therapy. Like what is?

Speaker 2:

I thought we'd be here really nice like give, give the other teenagers advice. Listen, I said this. I said this in the first episode do as I say, not as I do, because I can tell you, be the bigger person, rise above it you know, like your only insecurity is the thing that you are letting other people tell you, the things that you are letting yourself believe, and you, you know you control your own narrative.

Speaker 2:

You can let things go. You can let things not affect you. I can tell you to do that and I am right. I am right, yes. However, when it comes to myself, I'm literally just a teenage girl and, at the end of the day, I am going to be petty as fuck.

Speaker 1:

You know what it At the end of the day, I am going to be petty as fuck.

Speaker 2:

You know what it's fair enough, and I just hope, as an adult, that I don't have to still take you to therapy, but it's okay, I am Maria's therapist. Amen, and with that, and we are your therapist.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, so with that, do you have a quote of the day? I do have a quote of the day and I have been saying it through this and it's just one word. It's not that exciting, yeah, but it's yippee because I've said it throughout. But it's just like I don't know. I love it, it's positive, and when I'm happy I just do it and I'm just like yippee the day is positive and every time mine is a negative.

Speaker 2:

Mine is I don't know if I've said it this podcast yet, but mine is shocking, with the emphasis on the shocking.

Speaker 1:

So you're like have I said it yet? You said about five times on the podcast oh, I did Well anyways, shocking.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, it's like, oh my God, but it's just like shocking and you can say it to like anything. I feel like it's really versatile and it applies to a lot of things. But that is my quote of the day. I love it, Thank you, I love.

Speaker 1:

Get out. But with that I guess we leave you to sulk in your rooms because there's not another episode yet.

Speaker 2:

I would cry too. It's okay, we hope you have an incredible day.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, a lovely, lovely week Full of shocking yippies, all of that jazz.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, and you know, if you feel the need to steal my inspiration, please take a hatred journal, make one, it's a great sense of relief and remember to send through your stories.

Speaker 1:

Our next podcast is going to be reading stories and giving you advice, Stories, all of that, Anyways with that we love you all.

Speaker 2:

Have a wonderful week, oh, and remember to stay overdramatic, oh and problematic. Bye, bye.