Your Backstage Pass: The Story Behind My High Times Feature

Consider this your backstage pass.

Not just to a High Times feature, but to the moments, mindset, and magic that led up to it.

I couldn’t end the year without telling this story.

This surprise episode is me pulling back the curtain on how the High Times feature actually came together. What was happening behind the scenes. The mindset shifts that mattered. The quiet moments no one sees. And why this milestone means more than a headline.

This isn’t luck.

It’s alignment, consistency, and trusting the long game.

If you’ve ever wondered how moments like this happen, or needed a reminder that your work is adding up even when it feels invisible, this episode is for you.

🎧 Press play. You’re officially backstage!

Read the full High Times feature here:

👉 https://hightimes.com/women/stephanie-thegardentok-trenkamp-interview/

I couldn’t have ended this year on the Highest High of them all without your support. Thank you so much for being here. 💨🦋

Transcript

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Guess who's popping back into your earbuds with some epic news? Yep, it's the grand finale episode you didn't know you needed. Because we are wrapping the season up with the highest high of them all. An interview feature inside of High Time's magazine. This episode is your backstage path to how we grew this garden empire in record time. It's time to light up and level up, and welcome back to one more episode this season of the Garden Talk. Garden friends everywhere. When I tell you, I am on the highest high I never knew fucking existed. That is where we motherfucking are right now. Welcome back to an impromptu season finale episode. I could not end this year fully without doing this episode because ending the year, quite literally, ending the year with a 21 question interview inside of a national publication, the grandfather of them all, High Times magazine. Like High Times magazine is like we motherfucking made it. Like that's how I feel in the cannabis realm and cannabis world. I remember being such like a young teenage girl and going into the liquor stores. Like magazine used to be a thing when I was growing up. Like magazines were it. Like I fucking loved cosmopolitan and 17 and I loved magazines. Everybody did. They were everywhere. That that was our form of like entertainment. And whenever I would think of High Times magazine, I was like, oh damn, like that's like the cannabis magazine. Like that's like the it magazine in the cannabis world. And to have even been asked to have a feature inside. And let me tell I want to tell you something about this story because it is very stoner of me. And also, I'm gonna be honest with you, I had no idea who I was really DMing with. So there is, I'm sure you guys have heard of the Stoner account on Instagram. So there's an account, I think he has a couple million followers. It's known for like stoner memes. Well, when my when the Garden Talk account was first suspended, the Stoner account DM'd me, like letting them me know, like, you know, hey, just so you know, like I do know somebody who could potentially help you get your account back. So that was really our first like interaction. Thankfully, I had just gotten it back on a whim. I think you know, we've gone through what, I think two suspensions now, maybe three. Honestly, I don't know. Like, anyways, that's beyond the that's beyond the point. So I wasn't sure exactly, like I said, who I was really talking to. I do remember they said like Hustler. They also mentioned that they like had an account or something named Hustler, which I was like, okay, I don't know, like is that Hustler magazine? Like, I just honestly I was just like, I get that, you guys, I get thousands of DMs, but like obviously larger accounts who are DMing me matter, but like you don't really have a face to that account because it was a meme account, and so I had no idea who I was really talking to. I don't even remember if he told me his name, and maybe he did, but I forgot. Anyways, they had reached out to me asking me about my rates for you know creating content for their product. And for me, when it comes to any company who's DMing me, wanting to work with me, I don't promote things that I haven't tried first. I just think that that's I mean, talk about honesty, but I'm not just in this to make money, right? Money is great, we all need money, money is freedom, I fucking love money, right? But at the end of the day, if I'm putting my face and my name behind something, I'm not just doing it for the money, which is why social media works. Because I'm gonna tell you if something sucks or if it's good, but I'm not gonna sell you on something that I've never tried before because that's just seems asinine to me. And so that's kind of what I had said back. I was like, hey, look, I would love to, you know, work with you, but I need to like try your product first before I go putting my name behind anything. Because at the end of the day, when it comes to the cannabis industry, CB, you know, CBD, like the edibles, the gummies, the drinks, the flour itself, right? THCA, like hemp, all these fucking things. There's a lot of really great products out on the market, but there's also a fucking lot of shit products out on the market. Shit products. And I was able to tell back in the day when I was 16, buying it from my friend's brother's cousin in a parking lot, that the weed was bad because I straight up, when I tell you that, I mean, I don't want to throw the word gangster around, but when I was 16, if you are gonna fucking laugh, trust me, I know I'm not like I'm a gangsta in a different way. But when I was 16 years old, I and I purchased, I think I purchased like an like a nug of weed for like I think it was like 20 bucks. Remember, it came in those little tiny plastic um ziplocks, which would have like you know the acus spades on it or whatever. And I had gotten weed before. I had gotten it, taken it home, like looked at it, and then was like, if it was Bammer weed, which there was a ton of Bammer weed around, I literally brought it back to the person and got my money back. Like when I tell you this is how fucking bold I was back in the day growing up, especially when it came to weed, like I knew, I felt like I or I felt like I knew my shit. Like realistically, I didn't fucking know anything, right? But also I was very close to people in the game who were doing it illegally at the time, but I've always had cannabis in my life. Like I have never when I tell you, I know, and I don't want it this to come off like like fuck this bitch. But when I tell you that this is what I know I was made to do, this is what I know I was made to do. Because even at fucking like 16, 17 years old, like being just thrown in it, like even though like my dad, I hope like most of you should know by now, like my dad's a cop, my uncle's a cop, like my godfather's a cop, like my husband's a cop, my brother-in-law's a cop, and then here I am, total fucking like rebel, black sheep. I would always do whatever the fuck I wanted, regardless if somebody had an opinion about it or not, because that's just always the person that I've been. And I feel like that's the person that each and every one of you should be. Like you should never take somebody's opinion or somebody's no as a definite, definitive answer because it's not. And this is why it's hard for me with people who get so overwhelmed about things and they think that it's like an indefinite thing. Like you look at your bank account, and for some reason you think that that's an indefinite number, like, meaning that's the number that it's always gonna be forever, and that's just not how life works. And so when I knew or had this like urge to do something in my life, I don't give a fuck what obstacles are in my way, what people are telling me, like, no, you shouldn't do this. Like, I really didn't ever listen, like, I mean, I would listen to other people's opinions. Yeah, that's how you have a conversation. Somebody talks, you listen, and then you talk and they listen, right? But that that noise, as I call it, would never stop me from doing it anyways, and I think that that's the biggest lesson, and this is also what I'm like teaching my boys to do, is that like take even like my opinion on things about what it is that they want to do in their life, like they shouldn't take that as like an answer to them, like they need to figure it out on their own, you need to figure it out on your own because the only regrets that you're gonna have when you're older, and I talk to my 88-year-old grandmother about this all the time, is all the things that you didn't do. Because you're like, well, what if I did do it and it would have worked out? And so that's that's how I've always lived my life, and cannabis has always been present in my life, even though I feel like to a lot of people, getting this interview in High Times magazine, like seeing it from the opposite perspective, because I'm a Libra, right? I'm like that scale where I can always see both sides to something. Like, that's what makes me really good too about like being a voice and posting on social media, and even when I was in like makeup and like talking to people, like the customer service and things like that, is I can see both sides to things, and so I can see how this may seem like really fast for people, like, oh my gosh, like she just started posting about this. I can't believe already she like got this feature in High Times magazine because not to toot my own fucking horn, but because I still don't feel like this is like real, and to a lot of people, a lot of people in my life personally, like family and stuff, don't understand. But also to the contrary of that, a lot of people that used to be in my life right now, if they were to see Stephanie was in High Times magazine, they would be like buff, duh. Does that make sense? Because I've always been the stoner girl, like I've always been a cool ass stoner chick who just would do whatever the fuck that I wanted. Not to say that there weren't consequences to that, because I've had a lot of consequences and a lot of failures along the way and a lot of hurt, just like most people do, because that's life. It's beautiful, it's beautifully chaotic and tragic at times, right? It really, really is. It's beautifully chaotic and tragic at times, and what most people don't understand is it's about living in the present every single day, and just knowing that even though you're experiencing something or seeing something in front of you right now, like the numbers in your bank account, or you know, maybe you're just like your relationship's not working out right now, or like there's like maybe negative energy going on, that doesn't mean it's gonna stay like that forever. And the moment that you change those feelings inside and that energy inside yourself changes and you check yourself, right? You check that voice that's in your head because that voice that's in your head isn't necessarily you, you're the one listening to the voice, but the voice that's speaking for most of the time, those are just your programs that you've, you know, had for your whole entire life. And so you need to listen to the voice, but then check it because you can choose to think and believe and feel something differently. And this is what I tell my boys all the time. And I know I can't I'm kind of getting off topic over here, but I feel like all of this makes sense for this whole thing to come full circle as to like how and why this interview came about. And like I said, as much as maybe it feels like, wow, I've really I haven't even been posting, like the garden talk account didn't even exist like a year ago. It hasn't been a year yet. I think the year anniversary for me making the Instagram the Garden Talk Live was I think in January. I think maybe the it'll the middle towards the end of January is when I decided to finally like, you know what, fuck it. I'm gonna go all in on this. I remember the the exact conversation I had in the kitchen with my husband before I even had this podcast, the name, the logo, all of it. I was like, I'm gonna do this. Like, this is what I'm gonna do. And I'm sure inside he was like, you know, because my husband's also like me and my husband are polar opposite when it comes to I am such a glass half full type of person, and nobody could ever convince me otherwise. And my husband is a glass half empty type of person, and so you know, there's a lot of kind of like, even though I'm sure my idea to him was like really crazy because he's such like a practical person, he has to be for his job and his career. He has to look at all the negative side of things and like always have a plan and always be like on mentally because that's what he, you know, was born to do for him. But for his wife being a complete opposite, I think he was just like, Oh yeah, that's great, right? This is like a great idea that you've had because let me tell you something. I've had a ton of ideas before, but I feel like that's the point of life is like if you're able to like everybody's able to have these ideas, but it's about following through on those ideas. And I have, I followed through on a lot of ideas, and I just realized, you know, I think when you have an idea and you go for it and it doesn't work out, that doesn't mean to just give up. That just means like, hey, you take your experience and all of the things that you learned, and then take that and try something else, right? Because I do feel like everything that I've done in my life has led me up to here, and all of it makes sense. You know, I graduate, I was a C student at best in high school. I was always a stoner, always a creative person. I was always drawing and doodling and all of those things in class. Um, and right out of high school, I went to cosmetology school because I was like, well, this makes sense for me. I'm a creative person. I was always the girl doing, you know, my friend's makeup. Like, I've always loved makeup. So I went to cosmetology school for hair. I fucking hated doing hair. And quickly after that, I got my license. I actually still have my license to this day because the fucking discount. Um, I uh got a job at Mac Cosmetics. And I worked as a makeup artist at Mac Cosmetics for almost a decade. Like that was like all through like my 20s. Like I had the fun, I went to the parties, I was the girl dressed in black with all the makeup on. Like, and I feel like that job really helped me get out of my shell and really talk to people more because I always kind of had like a fear, a little bit of like public speaking. Like when I was younger, if I got called on in class, like I would turn bright red and get like super flush. Like I didn't like being the center of attention. I still don't like being the center of attention. Like in real life, like online, yeah, I'm a whole personality, but in my real life, like I'm like fucking chill. And I don't like to be in the center of attention, and I don't like to go out to like crowded places because also a part of me, like, I've already done all that, and maybe I will again at some point in my life, but I'm such a family, like wanna be home with my kids, like and my home and my husband and my dog type of person right now. But the reason why I'm saying all this is because it all matters, it all matters to how we really got here and got such like an honorable feature, I feel like. Um, and so I just feel like my story matters. If anybody cares, you're probably like, okay, Steph, like if I can get to it. But I do feel like everything in your life is for a reason. And you even though maybe a lot of those things that you did in your life didn't work out, like again, the makeup thing, and then I started my own brand, Fake Ink Beauty, and I did the brow tattoos, and I also, while I was working at Matt Cosmetics, I was in school at the Art Institute of California, which is actually gone. I don't even think, I don't know if any of I think they they went bankrupt. But I was doing graphic design, which how I got like my designer skills and how I learned how to do so many different things. And now obviously, you can just pay$12 a month for Canva, even though we paid like six figures for my associate's degree at the art institute. Um, all of it matters because it gave me all of the skills that I needed with a design, with social media, and with the branding and all of those things. Like all of it matters. And when I first started social media, I saw the potential, right? You see other people doing things that you're like, wow, that would be cool if I could do that too. Like, what's stopping me? Why can't I do it? Like, let's just go. And the response was amazing. I was born on honestly, I was born to do social media. Social media is like the perfect stoner, like introvert, quote unquote job. Like, I feel like this is a lifestyle more than it's a job. I feel like job just sounds like fucking boring. Like having a job that just sounds like fucking, it sounds like work, which I feel like everything's a lot of work, but it just doesn't sound like anything I wanted to have. Who wants to have a fucking job? It just sounds like you hate it, like it already just sounds like hate. And so um being able to be in social media, and like I said, before I was posting about gardening content, if you if you guys have been here from the very beginning, a lot of you have. I know, and I appreciate you, and I appreciate your support, and I hope that if anything, this just shows that like just because you did one thing before, it doesn't mean that you can't do another thing again. Like, I love Gary V. I don't know if you guys follow Gary Van, I don't even know how to say his last name, but call him Gary V. Look him, look him up, you'll be able to find him. He said this when and I saw him, I was listening to him in an interview podcast, and he was saying how it's never about like this or that. It's always this and that, you guys. Like, yeah, I was a makeup artist, and and I also did brow tattooing, and I had my own beauty and brow studio, and I did graphic design for a while, and I did high-ticket affiliate marketing for a while, and I used to design stuff for people, and like I do gardening content now, and I help brands with like you know what I'm saying? Like, it's okay that you've done a bunch of things, and maybe those things didn't work out, but each and every one of those things gave you a stepping stone and probably some sort of skill or knowledge of something you didn't have before. And the reason why I'm saying all this, number one, I'm fucking hella high because I fucking took that, I didn't even tell you guys what I was smoking with, but the um Alien Labs XJ13 puts you on another fucking level. Another fucking level, unless you have high anxiety, don't do it. It's full sativa. Um, also, shout out to Jane West, who I will be having on my podcast very soon. Jane West is a beautiful designer of all things gardening, like some of the most beautiful stuff I've ever seen. She sent me so many amazing pieces of hers from her 20s collection, which is fucking beyond. This is not sponsored, by the way, but I just wanted to shout her out because I think that she's a force to be reckoned with as far as a woman being in this industry. And um so stay tuned. Hopefully, we'll we will for sure we will get a date on that come 2026. But um I'm just I'm so fucking stoned right now. And when I just get get a mic and I'm home alone, you guys sitting in front of my fireplace right now, I couldn't have the dog in here because the noise of him walking around with his high anxiety. Merle, my dog. Anyways, I don't even remember what the fuck I was saying because I'm so stoned and I feel like I'm just rambling now. But um, you know, some people would question like my credibility in the space, right? In the cannabis safe space. Like, what's your credibility? Like, do you even grow? Like, do you are you even like and no, that's the thing, guys. I think that's the coolest part of this whole fucking thing. No, I don't grow. I have friends, very, very close friends, who grow, but have I ever grown myself? No, I can't even fucking keep a succulent alive, okay? I do not have a green thumb, like naturally. My husband sure does, and my mom does, and like my whole family does. So I'm hoping, well, I will in 2026 I'm actually gonna attempt to grow my own flower. So I will be documenting that experience, but you don't have to have come up or be a part of the industry with like the growing process, or like, you know, you went to school for it, or like all this knowledge, like in order to fucking make it is what I'm saying, right? You don't have to have there are no specific rules. I feel like a like society has put specific rules of what success looks like in all of our heads, right? I mean, TV, all of it's like propaganda, everything. Everybody owns, like there's only a few families in the world and they own fucking everything. And so, with everything, basically, you know, they're always trying to program us in some way, shape, or form. And so, this is what I'm saying is that success looks different for everyone. There are no check boxes anymore for success. You like before it was like corporate career, four year college degree, master's, PhD. You know, you wear a suit and tie and you carry a briefcase, and that's what success was, but that is not what success is. Maybe it is for you, but that's not what it is for me. And it certainly doesn't have to be for you out there if that's not your fucking thing. I think that that's. Not success. I think that that's modern day slavery. Honestly, if I'm just like gonna be fucking ripp for real, like I always am, like honestly, I give two fucks, you guys. But I honestly feel like the corporate job, the nine to five, the salary, the like five three percent raise, if that, the working Monday through Friday, the two days off a week, that working 24-7, like that is modern modern day slavery at its finest. Like we really all don't own anything. Like realistically, like we're all renting things, right? I mean, yeah, I have a mortgage, but like you own the bank. Like the bank really owns your mortgage if you don't pay it, and like, yeah, I have a car, but actually I have this car payment. And yeah, we do have some things that we own outright too, which is great, but still, like if you don't make a payment on the one thing, they're gonna fucking come and take another thing from you. Do you know what I'm saying? Like, we're like, and that's what I want people to wake up to, I think is the biggest thing when it comes to their life and even what they're doing right now. Like, if you're not happy, if you're not comfortable, if you feel like there's something more out there for you, use your current job to fund your fucking dreams. And stop putting so much time into your job that you hate and use that extra time and energy into, you know, focusing on your dreams and what you want to work on. And I think I said this in the last episode too. Like, I feel like that's so important for people to know out there. Like, I'm not, I would never tell anybody, like, go quit your job that you hate right now. Like, no, that shit is fucking funding your lifestyle right now. But maybe not go the extra mile. And maybe just only do what you need to do to get by at that job while you use, like I said, all of your extra time and energy into the things that you want to do. That's what I did towards the end of my career at Mac. When I tell you I called in sick every fucking weekend, I called in sick every fucking weekend and they never fired me. I went on maternity leave right after that, and then I quit because I was done. Like, I like, yeah, I had this job. Having a job is great, great. You're like a guaranteed income, but if you're not happy there, you need to use that job to fund your hopes and dreams. So back to the High Times magazine and the whole thing. I get a DM saying, you know, this person from the Stoner meme account, who again, I don't have a face to this person. I don't even remember what the person's name is. I don't know what their credibility is, except for the fact that they have an account that has a couple million followers. So that's credibility and it was verified, right? But is this person really writing for high times? Like, I honestly wasn't sure because it wasn't very, it was super informal, which I love because I'm an informal person. Like I swear, I cuss, I'm just like me, and I don't, again, I'm not built for the corporate HR P's and mind your Ps and Q's world, which I don't think any of you have to be if you don't want to. So, you know, he had messaged me, hey, I would love to do this. I'm a I'm a writer. He said, I'm a writer for High Times magazine also. And I would love to, I think he said I would love to do a feature. I can go back and see exactly what the DM said. Um, and so, you know, like what's your email? Send me your email and I'll send you the interview questions. And of course, I was like, wait, is this like real? Like, I think the whole time I was doubting it. I was doubting the legitimacy because I still didn't know who this person was. They had just emailed me again from the Stoner account the questions, and it was just like High Times magazine, and it was just like, you know, a dock of like questions, 21 questions, and I was like, first of all, I was like, damn, this is well, this is actually a lot of questions. Second of all, I was still excited, and I actually had almost created a video being like, hey, there's like something that might happen, but I also like when you have shit going on that people maybe don't understand, and you also like don't want to hear the opinions or disappointment if it doesn't happen, don't fucking tell people. Like, you don't have to tell anyone your hopes and dreams, you don't have to tell anyone what it is you're fucking doing, right? If you need to protect your piece and you don't want to hear it anyways, and you already know it's gonna be negative, and like you also like you're still kind of unsure about it, don't fucking talk about it. And I feel like a lot of times what happens is people are just yapping their mouths with no action behind it. So, anywho, so I get the questions, I finally fit like finish all the questions, I send it back to him, and I'm just like, whatever happens, happens. And I like I mentioned it to my husband. I don't think I think my husband was probably the only one I told because I was just still so like I honestly wasn't sure if I was even gonna tell him if I'm being honest with you, because if it didn't end up being legit, I just didn't want, you know, I mean, we've been married for 11 years, and with your husband, like I just didn't want another thing. It was 1211, 2025. So it was almost a week ago today that I got the DM from the Stoner account. And it and and by this time I got the email, I think I saw that his name was Joe on there, but I never even looked him up. I honestly was like, I don't even know if this guy's legit. Joe, I don't know if you've ever you'll ever listen to this at all, but Joe Vargas is actually a big deal. Come to find out, he also has the Hustler account, which I believe has a couple million followers on it. He has the Stoner account, he has his own um, I think, CBD company and products, and he writes for High Times magazine. Yeah, he has 1.5 million followers, Joe Vargas. Shout out to him by legalmeds.com. This is not sponsored, but he's been in the game for a long time. And I honestly had no idea who this was. I honestly had no idea until the article came out who this was, because I saw his face is on the article, and then I like looked, and then it was like he owns the hustler page, and I went and it was like him, and I was like, holy shit, I actually think that he's beefing right now with Grant Cardone for some reason. Um but when he messaged me and said, I'm gonna be posting it soon, and then he sends me the link. When I got the link, I think I was outside gardening smoking weed and recording some content, and interesting enough, the night before, a package had accidentally got delivered to my neighbor's house, and he brought it over, and then I opened it up that day, and it happened to be a High Times magazine and a raw Christmas sweater because you know uh High Times is now owned by um Josh, the founder of Raw that we're building. And it was a sweater and like this other cool, like little candy candy candy cane pipe, and then that day I got the display link to the article. No, I don't think that this is ever going to be printed in a magazine, unfortunately. Like God could only hope that would be so fucking cool if it was. But now with you know the publication being taken over, you know, I think that they only print for special occasions. I mean, let's be honest, like when's the last cannabis content on TikTok bought? I never bought an Imagine. My family never buy this magazine until I finally decided what to say fuck it, like start putting it on Instagram that my family and like family friends, magazine started to see the content. And at that point, it's like there's no turning back. So I did get a lot of like chatter, of course. People are like, oh my god, oh my god, did you see? Like, I can only imagine what people are saying, but I don't give a like recent article because there is nothing more validating, there is nothing more fuck you in your motherfucking face than having a few features inside of High Times magazine. Like, fuck you. Like, look, Ma, I made it. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, I'm not just fucking getting high on social media for no fucking reason. Like, that's dumb. There's a reason behind it. Like, if there's no reason behind the stuff that you're posting, what's the point? If you're just wasting your time just scrolling and not actually posting and it's not actually doing anything for you, you're not learning something, you're it's not helping you get ideas, like there's no point. It's just a deep, dark rabbit hole. And trust me, I've been down all the rabbit holes. I love to do it sometimes just to check out, like I'm a big reality show junkie, like I love the conspiracy theories, like I love all that shit. And so, of course, there are times where I just fucking zone out, but I am intentionable, I am intentional about why I show up online. I'm doing this to build something, and I do feel like that shows, right? That shows, like I'm just like, fuck it, like let's just go. This is what we're doing. And just to be like recognized for that, and the validation that it gives me, just I think as a person, like I said, like my teenage self is just fucking like high-fiving myself, like screaming, like hugging myself because wow, what a dream, right? This is my dream, and this finally does feel like this is it, Steph. This is what you're supposed to be doing. Like, it should feel like that. Whatever it is that you're doing right now in your life to like earn, like to make a living, to wake up every day and get to do, like, it should feel good. It should feel you should feel clarity around it. You should have so much clarity around it and have it feel good that you're doing something you love to do and you're still able to create and generate this freedom from it, which is essentially just money, right? Money gives you options, which which gives you freedom, which is what we're all after here at the end of the day. Money, though, is energy. Like, if you never feel like you have enough, you never have enough, right? That's energy. That's the energy that you're putting out there. Like you think that you have to see that number on your bank account to make it real, but that's remember, like, that's not a forever number on your bank account. That number there isn't ever like not gonna move, whether it's up or whether it's down, but that really depends on you, right? I'm very so much into energy, which is also why I think social media works so well, because you are giving the people online like whatever it is you wanna give them. And so if you're trying to entertain people, if you're trying to get people to stop and listen to you in a world full of like billions of users and like our attention spans are just getting shorter and shorter and shorter and shorter and shorter, you need to bring the motherfucking energy and stand out on camera, even if you're not like that in real fucking life. Did you hear what I just said? Even if you're not like that in real life, you can be whoever the fuck you want to be online. And I feel like that's the most important thing. Because you know what happens when you start like delusionally being somebody that you're not really like in real life online, and you make people think that you are that because you always secretly have wanted to be that, is you actually start to become that. Does that make sense? You fake the confidence until you finally feel confident. That's the secret. Like, I didn't have any fucking game in this space. You know what I'm saying? Like the game I had in the cannabis space was I've just always been a stoner, always been around people in the industry. Like, I love it. I'm I'm very like good at talking to people, I can entertain people, I can, you know, I I'm I make people laugh, I make people feel relatable. I'm not afraid to be on camera because I've been doing it now for so long. But in the beginning, I had no idea what the fuck I was doing. Like no idea what the fuck I was doing. You could be whoever it is that you wanna be on social media, and then when you when you continue to show up, because repetition, you gotta do it every day, every day, try a little bit more, a little bit more, a little bit more, just like working out. Every day you do a little thing, one more thing, one more thing, one more thing, one more thing, and then six months in a year and you're like, holy shit, I'm fucking strong, I'm in the best shape of my life. It's the same fucking thing. You show up, you create content, you edit a video, you do that email, you make that post. Every day you do one thing, you make mistakes, you get better, you make mistakes, you get better, you get better, you make mistakes, you get better. Like that's how life is. It's redundant. You guys, you're all living in the same fucking life every single fucking day. Wake up to it. It's about waking up to it. Honestly, I didn't want to fucking record this podcast right now, you know? There's a reason why I ended the podcast for this season because it's fucking like go time for like families and fucking the holidays. It's Christmas time. I have presents to wrap. I'm the one buying everything. You're a mom, you're trying to do the cookies, you're trying to take your kids to school, you're trying to, you know, your husband, like friends, family, like it's a lot. It's a lot. It's a lot. But it's also so fucking fun and so cool because these are like the best, these are my favorite times of the year. I love the holidays so much. I'm like staring at my Christmas tree, all the lights are out, like wrapping the presents, you know. This is like this is what it's all about for me. And I could spiral the fu I could be spiraling the fuck right now. Like honestly, I'm staring at boxes that I need to fucking throw away. I'm staring at boxes that I need to wrap. I'm staring at laundry, I'm staring at dishes, I'm staring at things that I should probably clean. It's never ending. It's exhausting. Because when you think about all the things and then you start to spiral, it's exhausting. And so that is when I'm like, check myself, bitch. Check yourself. Bitch, you're doing a good job. Bitch, you're doing a good job. Every time I start to spiral, I check myself. Because remember, you're listening to that voice, and that voice is telling you that you're spiraling, but realistically you're not. Because what are you trying to do a million things for? It's okay if you don't put the laundry away right away. It's okay if you don't get to wrapping the presents today. It's okay, it's gonna be alright. You do what you can today, you do the little things to get you one step closer. And then tomorrow you pick up the rest of the slack. I honestly don't even know where the fuck I was going with that. Oh my god. Honestly, you guys, I just I just want I just hope that you listening to this right now, like you know how special you are, and you deserve to live a life that you fucking love and you're excited about. And even though every day is not gonna feel exciting, because I feel like that's just life, right? You get wrapped up to into family and friends and all the busy things that you need to do. I think just remembering to take some time to check yourself and like mentally know like you're good. Like take a deep breath, like everything's gonna be okay. Like you did as much as you could today, which was the best, which was the best, and also ask for help from the universe. I ask for help from the universe all the fucking time. Like the universe, for the most part, already knows what it is that you want based off of like the energy that you're putting out. And so check your fucking energy. What's the type of energy you've been putting out? What are the type of thoughts that you've been thinking and not recognizing? Let's, you know. I understand that life gets overwhelming and shit happens. Listen, my grandma just had a stroke, and my dad just had surgery on his dominant hand, and he's supposed to be hosting Christmas, and you know, they live a couple hours away, and so yeah, there's a lot of fucking shit happening in the world, and there's a lot of stress that can be put on you. But at the end of the day, everything is always working out for you, and you need to remind yourself, that voice in your head, of that every day. Because again, faith is just believing in something you've never seen or experienced before, and you need to start believing in some in yourself because that's probably something that you've never seen or experienced before. Check your thoughts, check yourself, know that it's all working out. Remember that, remember that voice in your head in your head when you start to get overwhelmed, shit is starting to go bad, and you're starting to like stress out on yourself, like you're not enough, you're not doing enough, and you need to just listen and remember what Stephanie said here on the garden talk, go smoke some weed, and then in your head, just be like, bitch, you're doing a good job. Bitch, you're doing a good job because you are. You are. You just need to get back into alignment with yourself because you've been out of alignment for so long, and it's okay. Because whatever happened in the past doesn't matter. We're not focused on what's happening in the future, we're focusing on right now, today. How could you feel good right now, today, in this moment? And that is what we're all forgetting because we're all focusing on way too many things. Like, my kids can't even focus with like how out having their iPad on, and they have this video games, and like I'm trying to ask them something, and they're like zoning out, and I'm just like, what is happening to this world? I am so happy that I grew up in the time and the era that I did. I'm an 86 baby. Shout out to all you 80s babies out there, even my husband's 78. Like, we're in a different time right now, and we all need to remember and come back down to earth and reality a little bit by constantly checking our thoughts. And the reason why I do love cannabis so much is because it brings me back down to myself into alignment with me. It really does, and I'm sure it does for you too, if you're out there listening to this fucking podcast and listening to me ramble right now. Bring yourself back into alignment. You have to remember to do that every single day and just don't stress out if you didn't get the laundry put away, if you didn't send that email when you should have, if you didn't post, you know, out right on the time you did, if you still need to do Christmas stuff, like if you still have shake, it's okay. It's alright. All that stuff's gonna be there for you tomorrow. All that stuff's gonna be there for you when you're ready to get around to it. Focus on the things that you can control right now in the moment. Focus like make a list. I usually like to I always love to like make a list and focus on what are the most important things for me to do first and then I'll do the other things. So hopefully I just appreciate you guys. Honestly, I'm still just like the High Times magazine, you know. I feel so good about it because like I said, it even though it maybe doesn't make sense to a lot of you out there, it really does make sense to me, especially with all of the comments and messages and DMs and just the overwhelming love from all of you guys out there. This is for us. This is for us. This is for all of the gardening moms out there, garden dads, grandparents, gardening people. This is really for the gardening people. It's not just about the gardening moms, it's about for each and every one of you out there that has ever felt, you know, ashamed of or not enough, or you, you know, question yourself, or you feel bad, you know, when you're smoking, like you feel like guilty for gardening for in some way, shape, or form. Like it's it's interesting that they make us feel guilty, but yeah, they're like, here, take this pill, because that doesn't seem so guilty. But really, it's worse for you. I'm not even gonna get into that at the end of the day. You guys, you guys are all here for a reason. And if I could just help you guys in some way, shape, or form, just remind you of who you are and how special each and every one of you are. You really do only have this one physical, like this life right now. I feel like I've lived multiple lives. I honestly feel like each and every one of you this probably isn't your first life. That's just like how I am. I do feel like this is we'll never have this body that we're in again. You know what I'm saying? We're never gonna have this experience that we're currently in right now. And so I think the most important thing that you guys can do is just fucking enjoy it. And if you don't enjoy it right now, figure out a way to fund your dreams with what you're currently doing so you can live a life that you love because you're all creating your own realities. So if you're not happy in your current situation, ask the universe, God, source, Buddha, whoever the higher power you think is out there, ask them for clarity because whatever you ask for, it will be given to you. It really will, and it probably won't be in the way that you expect, though, but you're definitely gonna get it. So if you again, if you keep asking for shit, you're gonna keep getting shit. And I'm gonna end this episode because I don't want this to be too long. I still have so much to get done, but I did want to make sure that I created this because this is a milestone for all of us out there that women have a space in the cannabis world. Gardening moms have a space in the cannabis world. Don't feel ashamed about who you are. My 88-year-old grandma liked hated the cannabis content I was creating. She thought I was just getting high and just posting it on the internet until she read my interview. And when I tell you how proud she was, she's like, I need to write a book and you should do this and you should do that. And she's like, now I fully understand you and what it is that you're doing. When she didn't know that before. So I feel like this is just like really giving us like. Making one more positive step in the direction of normalizing cannabis use for anyone, whether you're a mom, a grandma, a dad, a grandpa, just a regular person. Like, I don't care who you are. If utilizing cannabis makes you feel better, you should do it. Especially because we all know it's a safer alternative, despite what, you know, they fucking try to put out into the inner onto the interwebs at the end of the day. So I'm here for you guys. I'm with you guys. Thank you guys so much for being here. The reason why this happened was because of each and every one of you. This wasn't just a me thing, which is why I wanted to make this episode because it was because of all of you. It was because of all of us. That's how this was actually possible. This was the validation you all have been looking for. I might just be the vessel for it, but I'm really giving all of you a voice who maybe don't feel like you have one. Because at the end of the day, I also understand that maybe you love cannabis and you want to do what I do, but it's not legal where you are. And like it's you don't, it doesn't have to be cannabis content that you can create. Create whatever it is that you feel like happy about. Like if you were stuck in an elevator with somebody for hours, like what did it, what it, what would you talk about? That's the type of thing you should create a life around, around. Something that you love, something that you enjoy, something that's worth living for, something that's worth fighting for. Because this is worth it, honestly. All of it is worth it. And I just love you guys so much. And I just this is really for all of you, each and every one of you out there. Again, I'm gonna link the article in the show notes. It's a long article, I'm telling you. Everybody that was like, holy shit, like, you know, my neighbor across the street, he is a secret soner, but he was a high school teacher for English, and he actually kept praising me, like about how how articulate it was and like the way that I spoke, and he's always praising me with the way that I talk, even though it's unorthodox and I swear and all of the things, and I do obviously make grammar mistakes, but um just the amount of support from all of you guys, I uh I it doesn't go unnoticed, even though maybe I don't get back to your DMs. I apologize. It's really I'm I'm trying to balance it all, but there really realistically is no balance to it. I kind of just like I live, I thrive on chaos almost like and so nothing in my life is put together, even though it may seem like that. But you guys really, I'm a human being, my house is messy, I have laundry, I have dirty dishes, I have, you know, I have to clean stuff. Like I'm just a normal person, but but also I'm me. Like there's no there's never gonna be anybody, any other person like you. Like we all are made up of our own DNA. And so I feel like that's the cool part. Like, there there is no glass ceiling. There is no ceiling to what it is that you can do. And even though people have told us or we've seen things or experienced things that made us think that way, that still doesn't have to be true. Honestly, you guys, this year has taught me that nothing is random. Not the timing, not the work, not the waiting. Ending the year with a high times magazine feature isn't the peak. It's the motherfucking proof. Proof that when you actually stay aligned, stay consistent, and really trust in yourself, things will shift in your favor. Season one is now officially complete. Season two is calling Same Garden, Bigger Harvest. I'll see y'all in the next episode.