38 - I’m Not Interested in Being “Responsible” Anymore with Kyla de Clifford.

In this episode, ’m unpacking why I’ve started to push back on the idea of “responsible use” — at least the way it’s so often applied to women.

Because when we really look at it, “responsible” rarely means neutral or supportive.It usually means self-monitoring, self-correcting, and self-blaming — layered on top of bodies that are already expected to manage pain, emotion, cycles, stress, and capacity without much support.

This conversation isn’t about encouraging recklessness.
 It’s about questioning why women are so often asked to carry extra moral weight when it comes to their bodies and why cannabis has become another place where we’re expected to prove we’re doing it properly.

In this episode, I explore:

• How “responsibility” has become a gendered expectation
• Why women are taught caution while men are given permission to experiment
• The emotional cost of constant self-surveillance
• How self-monitoring disconnects us from pleasure, rest, and trust
• Where this messaging comes from — medicine, regulation, and wellness culture
• The difference between compliance and agency
• Why I’m more interested in discernment than rules

This is a quieter but firmer episode.
 Less about advice.
 More about power, agency, and what it means to be in relationship with your body without supervision.

If this episode feels uncomfortable, that’s okay.
And if it feels relieving — you’re not alone.