Making Channeling Connections and my Experience seeing Bashar

This episode goes into me receiving connections with another channeler and seeing projections at Bashar's event that helped me confirm my own path and what I have been working on 

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Hi everyone, welcome back to my podcast season two, episode 14, Walking Your Souls Path. So I wanted to come on here and make a video on kind of some things that I have been um kind of working through and some people that I've uh kind of talked to. So I'm just gonna dive right in because I won't don't want this to be super long. I did record this yesterday. Like I did this whole thing and it was like 60 minutes, and I was like, dude, that's like way too long about like an episode, like it does not need to be that long. So I want to quit uh touch on like two quick things. So uh I was kind of feeling uh over the past like like two weeks or so that I really really wanted to engage with people that also channel because when I kind of like look online and stuff and like look to connect with people, I don't really um find people that that are accessible, I guess is the best way to put it, that I can just have like a very casual conversation with about my channeling. Funny enough, um, the person that I had a dream about, so I was catching up with him after he had gotten home, and we were just like talking, like catching up or whatever, and he was telling me that there was this woman that he knew um that he's known since like he was like a kid, and she channels, and she's like 70 plus years old, and she basically is like like a second mom to him. And her her name is Jill Madsen, and so I looked up her website and she does like readings, um, she paints, so she has like a whole section of like just like all this painting that she done because she also wanted painting when she started channeling, and so he said, if you want, I can connect you with her, and I'm like, Oh my god, that would be literally amazing. I'm just looking to have someone just to talk to, you know, because sometimes like all of this feels a bit lonely at times, if I'm gonna be really honest. Quick update. So I finished two paintings. Um, this one painting was uh the theme of it was two stories, and as I was like painting this and putting it together, I literally was just like, oh my god, this is like literally phenomenal. So I'm obsessed with this painting. And then the second painting that I finished was the theme was ancestors, and I just had this need to uh just like paint just like the energy of my ancestors um on a bigger canvas than I'm used to because I usually do smaller ones if you checked up my website, some of my videos. Uh I usually do like smaller canvases, but now I've been expanding to like bigger ones, and so I was given a message like I think a month ago, honestly, I don't really keep track of time like that anymore, that as I evolve over time, my paintings would also evolve, and so as I've been growing in this journey, walking down this path, trying to stay aligned, learning these concepts, trying to apply these like principles and techniques that I'm being taught, that uh my paintings would then uh reflect that. And so the painting, uh the two-story paintings that you just saw, and then this one, uh Ancestors One, I finished this yesterday and then I have it like hanging above uh my bed. I was just like, this is literally phenomenal. Like I am so grateful. So I finished these two paintings. Um, well, I finished two stories like like two days ago, but I do not hang anything up or post anything on my website until I have um taken a picture of it, added it to my content, and then I get to hang up and be like, okay, you're here. So that one I put in my bathroom. So like every time I'm in my bathroom, I could just like see it. Um, and so then I always talk about my dreams and how I have these like intense, lucid dreams that are just like phenomenal. And when I talk about them, I'm just cracking up and I'm just like so fascinated by these messages and these signals that I'm getting. And so I had this idea to create animations of them. So I couldn't exactly like because the thing is with like creating AI videos or like animations, sure, it sounds cute on the surface, but you have to like pay for like credits and then like certain things you want to do cost a bit more for the credits, and so it's like before you know it, you end up spending like between like 40 and 100 when you when you want to create because for me, I'm not gonna do like one video a month and be done. No, I'm gonna make like multiple videos. So I'm like, I wanted to find a platform that would allow me to like create animations like in my own way, but wouldn't cost me like an arm and a leg to do it every time I wanted to like just create a video that's not even more than like three minutes long. So I found this I found this website called Instadoodle that allows for and I don't know if you guys have heard of this YouTube channel called After School, but they basically do like breakdowns of like um like different points of like history and and philosophy, and they do this like whiteboard thing and it's like so cute. So I'm like, oh my god, I can do that about my dreams. So I will be posting my first animation video of my dream, um, of like my lucid dreams next like starting next week. So I'm excited, also excited about that. So once he connected us, and I asked him to because I I do feel like this is important because he has a relationship with her and she don't know me. So I was like, before we even talk to each other, uh I want you to kind of like reach out, let her know that like I'm interested in like speaking with her because I've looked on her website and she be charging, so it's just like I don't want to like just have this casual conversation and be charged like $170. Um, so I want her to understand the connection that we have because I literally had a dream about you, so that when we connect, she understands the foundation before we even go into that conversation. So he did that. Um, and when once he like heard back from her, he was like, Cool, she knows you like you can reach out to her. So I reached out to her. So once I uh started speaking with her, I basically told her everything that had happened to me before ayahuasca, after ayahuasca, and everything up until this point, and even telling her, you know, like how I've been struggling a bit because there are times where I get these messages and I start like getting into these different things, and sometimes I I pause because I'm just like, Is this coming from me? Is this coming from my higher self? I like literally just don't know. And she goes, Yeah, that's and she and she was saying that that is show. Um, after I told her, like, sometimes I like struggle to try to like figure out, like, oh, is this me or like it's just like really happening? Like, how do I know these messages are like really coming from my higher self and not just like me just like making this up in my head? And someone told me in the very beginning that I have to listen with my heart and not with my head. And she was saying that, like, yeah, what you are going through is like that is channeling, like as you get more into it and you get deeper into it, yes, you start to question, but as you begin to trust that voice, um, outside like um as you begin to trust that voice that you are hearing that is leading you to something, you will learn when it's coming from you, when it's coming from your higher self. And she even mentioned something about um you I like have basically reached like a certain level, like before I was like in the learning process, right? It's like the best thing I can think of is like karate kid, right? He's over here being trained, but at one point he has to go on his own and you know do his own thing. Uh and she basically was like, everything that you're doing before before was like you learning, and now um we have been connected for you to kind of like move on to that next level. And I was like, wow, that's like absolutely incredible. And then she just kind of gave me like little tidbits of like groups that I could join and like different techniques that I could use, and just continuing to like trust that voice. And I even told her I was gonna go to um this. I don't know if you guys have heard well, I'm pretty sure you probably have heard of him at some point. Uh, his name is Brashar. So uh there's this guy named Daryl that channels this entity named Brashar, and he has been doing it for like 40 plus years. So two guys from my ayahuasca group did like a one-on-one session with him because at one point he was doing one-on-one sessions with people, I think like 30 or 40 minutes long or whatever, and each of them did one separately because they had some questions that they wanted um to be answered. And I've watched some of his stuff, but like nothing too crazy. But as this channeling has begun to like really take off, uh it I've been feeling a little like a little lonely, and I've been going into my bubble, and I've been working on not going into my bubble because if you've been listening, listening to me long enough, you know that like I love my space. Like my space is like my sanctuary, you know, like my apartment. I've curated my apartment in this space to like just be surrounded by my own projections. And I was talking to my sister actually the other day, and she was just like, Yeah, that's fine, you know, that like we know that you like you like your space, get it out, all that stuff, but you shouldn't normalize that. So I have been kind of working on going out, doing things, even if it's by myself, because I don't mind doing stuff by myself, just to get out of that routine. Um so I told her I was gonna go to uh Bershar show that Saturday, and you know, maybe it will lead me to some sort of connection, or maybe I'll like I wasn't 100% sure what I was trying to go there for, but something in me just needed to go. And I had bought a ticket in February, so it's just like, well, I'm gonna go. It was only like an hour and Tim change for me. So on so I had the conversation with her, thanked her, uh, and then I also had asked her, like, if I have any more questions or something comes up, because I don't have immediate access to anyone that channels like I do, if I could just like reach out to you and if we could just I could just like ask you questions, or just if I if something happens and I just want to talk to someone about it who would understand it and get it, can I just like can you just be that lifeline? And she said, sure, why not? Um, so she gave me her email and stuff. I was like, okay, thank you. So then a couple days later, I go to this Brashar show because this is where it gets interesting. So uh when I got there, I had this preconceived notion, which is totally on me, of like what I expected. Because I feel like people who know about Brashar know about channeling and they know about spirituality and awakening, and everyone's doing these like continuously fascinating things, you know. That's the idea I had in my head. Totally on me, totally on me. And so I get there and I'm just observing people, right? People are taking selfies, taking pictures. Some people have known each other from like other shows that they've come to, and I'm just observing, you know, for like 30 minutes. I'm not touching my phone because I just want to sit there and just like kind of feel out the environment. So the show starts, uh, and there's like this little intro on this projection, and then Daryl comes out and he literally tells the crowd uh goodbye, and then he goes into channeling. So in the beginning, sorry, skipped apart. In the beginning, when you're like entering in like the theater or wherever, you know, wherever show that you go to, they'll like, oh, if you want to ask Bashar a question, you can enter into this raffle. So it's like a raffle system. Because I was always kind of curious because I've seen like videos like online about people asking him questions, and I didn't know if they like signed up to do it or you know, like how that worked. So it's basically a raffle system. So in the beginning, they'll like call people's tickets, they'll call people's tickets, and if your tickets pulled, then you like go and you line up and you can ask whatever question you want to ask. Um, so that happened in the beginning. He like basically tells the crowd goodbye, and then he like literally like between like 10 to 15 seconds, he's like going to this thing of channeling and like going under, right? Because Daryl literally leaves and then Brashar comes. Which I really want to know more about that. Like, where does he go? Is he conscious? Is he there? I don't know, but I'm gonna look that up because I channel, and someone had asked me this the other day. Like, what like are you conscious when you're channeling? Like, I've never um gone, like just completely like blank down, and I wasn't I wasn't conscious of what was going on. Now there have been situations where I have been channeling, um, where I am I want to say being scolded, could you see cara body? Uh or uh I was being told something that I really needed to know, and there was this energy coming through. That's the best way I can describe it. And this energy is just strongly speaking, like just speaking out loud, right? It could be in light language or it could be in English, and um and like I'll be and they'll just be speaking, just um just like two people having a conversation. And there have been times where I kind of like want to interrupt and say something, and they'll be like a katisnaambata, and they'll just continue speaking and letting me know what I need to know. Uh, but again, I'm not like going anywhere, you know, I'm not like blagging out, so I'm curious if the same thing happens with him. Uh, but anywho, so he goes and then they start this QA, right? And they're calling numbers, so all these people are like lined up asking questions. So the first woman, and again, I didn't know what exactly I was going there for, but I know I just needed something. Uh, I just I just didn't really know what. And so this first woman get gets up there and she's talking about how she's like building this app. She's building this app, and she, but the app isn't working, and it's supposed to help like cleaners find um clients or whatever, easier, something like that. She's like, I've been so frustrated because like it hasn't been working. And he was asking, like, well, have you sought help for it to work? Have you been uh doing this? Have you been doing that? And she's like, Yeah, I've been doing it, like nothing seems to be working, yada yada. And he's like, Well, how do you feel about once that's fixed when you go to like go to the next thing? Have you thought about that? And she goes, like, uh, not really. So he's like, Oh, so you haven't really been thinking about like what happens next. She's just kind of been stuck in this place of like getting frustrated because it's not working. And so she just kind of stood there for a minute. She didn't really say anything. Because what what usually happens, but I thought was really interesting, not even for her, but for everyone that went up there. Uh, most of them. Because some people had really direct questions about like history and like timelines and all that kind of stuff and technology. But what he would do is is he would ask them a question to counteract their question. Like, you're asking me this, but have you taken the time to reflect on how you feel internally? That do you really want it to work? Are you ready for the next step when that is finally fixed and then you're moving on and you're kind of like, you know, keep on um progressing, you know, for this app? And she hadn't really thought that far. And she had hit a point where she had just kind of been so frustrated and involved in the problem that she stopped looking beyond it. Oof, he ain't even say that I did. So it's just like things like that, right? And I thought that was interesting because obviously I have been like working on my content and like posting more episodes, getting on camera, even that makes me um still getting more comfortable with that, and so I'm slowly progressing in this and not getting caught up, especially like in the numbers or in the moment, uh, like kind of stuck in the moment of like this, this, this, this, this. It's like, no, this is happening, and then that is going to happen. Live presently and then keep moving. So the next girl, uh, so the next girl asked about uh she had all she has always felt like she has never been chosen in relationships or people that she wanted relationships with. And when I first saw her, I was thinking like, girl, this girl was gorgeous, absolutely gorgeous. And I'm thinking, like, who cares about other people? Like, just choose yourself, like, and and they will come. But for her, she didn't see herself the way that um others saw her, and he said something really interesting to her. And again, he answered the same question like, do you want to keep you know, doing that? Do you want to be this way? Like, how do you like like what what essentially do you want for you? Aside from those people, what do you want for you? And he said something like, Um, not everyone is going to be your audience, like 99.9, 99.9% of the people that you interact with aren't always going to align with you, but that one percent that does are the people that are meant to hear you, see you, and align with you. And again, I thought that was so interesting because again, here I am kind of like um building and creating, and at times I'm just like, I wonder who is even listening to me. I wonder who's even looking at my stuff. But at the same time, I'm reminded because I am solely connected to my guys, creepita, uh, that that does not matter. Like a couple weeks ago, I was given a message that like the numbers literally do not matter, they do not exist, especially since they're outside of you. That what really matters are the people that connect with what you're saying and that hear and that hear you because you could have a million people that like click on your stuff and you know all these numbers are like kind of going up. But are those people really understanding the message that you are that you are trying to translate? Are they really understanding, you know, you and where you're coming from and what you're trying to build? And I'd rather have like 10 people that I mean there's gonna be more than 10 people, kitiba. Uh, but I'd rather be in a space to have like 10 people that get it versus like having like 10 10,000 people that download it and only and only like not even half of those people like understand, and then they're just asking questions or just making comments that don't even align with anything that I'm talking about. Because then at that point it's like you're you're more worried about quantity, not quality, and so that also hit me. So then there was this other lady, um oh, someone's seduzy. Uh, and and I think at this point, this is when I kind of decided uh on the decision to leave early, which I'll talk about in a second after. We're talking about this lady and then the next lady, and then because I don't want this to be super long. So then there's this one lady. So this one woman walked up and she um she basically introduced herself and said that she has been. Oh, also pause. One other thing too I want to mention is that anytime anyone up there and said, Oh, thank you, Prashar, for changing my life, he immediately said, No, you changed your life. And I think that's also something really, really, really important um to note because what I have noticed, and again, this is just an observation. I'm pretty sure there's people out there that are like, you know, kind of doing their own thing, but what I've noticed when it comes to like these people who are super spiritually awakened and who have like thousands and thousands to millions of of viewers, that they always thank that person for how they turned out to be or how they changed. When in reality, all that person is is a messenger. Like everyone has a job to do uh in in in different areas of life and in in this 3D reality. Everyone has a different job to do. No one is doing that work for you, no one is like stepping into your shoes and doing this, this, this, this, and that, and all of a sudden your life is changed. You have to do that yourself. So I really loved that anytime someone came up and said, Oh my god, Bershard, like thank you for coming back, like thank you for like changing my life, it's been incredible. He went, Ana, you changed your life. Like, you did that for you. I didn't do anything, I just simply helped you. So that's important. Because I because like I feel like there are people who get really stuck on um like figures who who like say all these like break down these fascinating things and who like tell you how to manifest and frequency and vibrations and all that stuff, and all of a sudden, like, oh my god, you changed my life. It's like, no, you changed your life because all they did was give you the information. What you choose to do with that is totally up to you. She could cycling into this woman. So this woman um interests herself and she was like, she's has been a he's been healing people for years, and she wanted to know um, how does she deal with the frustration of dealing with people who come back or who don't listen to her? Okay. Now, she did mention that she could turn it off, like she she could feel people's pain before they came to her, and she said she could turn it off and she could turn it on. Okay, that's important to know. But she still had gotten frustrated by these people not listening, and they wouldn't always come back right away. Sometimes they come back like after a year or like three years, whatever. And so she and so she was asking him, like, how do I deal with that frustration? And and this is when I kind of got kind of like, I don't know what's I don't know what's happening, but like this feels like a lot. Uh where she kept trying to make her point when Brashar would say, Well, if you just said you could turn it on and off, then you know, how would you be getting frustrated with them? Not listening to you, how could you do that? And she was like, she started really like going in and like rambling about how, like, no, it's not that, it's just like uh like I just want them to listen, and they're not listening to me, and and I I tell them what to do, and they don't do it. And and then at one point, he had like gotten like his voice had like started like pepping up, and he was just like, No, no, no, no, no. He's like, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. Listen, you can only give people information. What they choose to do with that is that has nothing to do with you. And the first thought that came to my mind is this woman has been spending, and she was like between she looked between like 50 and 60. She has been healing people for years, and my thought is that and and I have this experience because I talk about uh my friend who I did energy work on, which is an incredible experience. And even I understood, and I I just kind of do it here and there, right? That like, sure, I would love to see him advance and do all these kind of things, like he's zipping, zooming it all over the place. But that's not my business, and that's not my place. Like, I would want someone checking in with me, ask me to do this, ask you that. Even with the guy that I had a dream about, even when I spoke to him, I said, you know, I feel like you are at a threshold and there's a decision that you need to make. But regardless of what decision that you make, I will always be here for you, and I'll be here to support you in any way that you need me to. So, how could she be healing people for 40 plus years and have that frustration? And again, everything is energy, right? So she's helping these people and healing, she is a facilitator. That's it, she's not a healer, but she is a facilitator of like healing and helping people. So, how could she be uh creating this frustration, which is energy and expecting that person to still uh uh be able to change because that energy because everything is energy, energy energy never dies, it has to go somewhere, which means but she's trying to help this person and then getting frustrated with them and then they ain't listening. I was just like, how could they listen to you? I was just like, if anything, it it creates this like unspoken tension that you can't see, and so when there's tension, there's resistance. Unknowingly, she is causing their resistance, and she wasn't, and she was hands down arguing, like she was talking over Brashar, and Brashar was like trying to get the point, and you could hear the crowd because it's an energy, right? Everyone's just like listening, tuned in with this woman on the microphone, and everyone is kind of feeling the same thing, like she is not getting it. And I was thinking, like, why would you pay, why would you pay money and then get picked, ask a question? Because it's a raffle, so it could be anybody at that point, just to go up there and try to make your point and argue with this being that is taking its time to tell you, hey, you cannot force people to do something that you don't like. Like, that's not your place. All you're here to do is deliver a message, do your job, and send them on their way. It could hit them two days from now, three days from now, a year from now, six. It does not matter, that is not up to you. And so at one point, she's like, I get it, I get it, I get it, I get it. And he had to raise his voice, like, obviously, you're not getting it, like you're not getting it, and they are just talking over each other. And I just thought, ugh. Because I always have this idea, and as I age through life, I realize like this is not the case, that as people get older, you know, they get wiser, right? Um, which is maybe a little bit of a bias because of what I'm choosing to do with with my life in in in comparing, not always comparing, but reflecting, reflecting on like reflecting on where I've been and where I'm going, and all that other stuff. But you have to do that on an individual, like an individual basis, like you can't force someone to do that. And so, uh, when she came up there and was and there was like a bunch of back and forth, I just thought like even you really don't know what anyone else has going on, truly, and I learned that more and more and more every day. That people just like her making choices, and they're and in their own private moments, you know, they are fake, they are trying to figure it out, and sometimes they aren't they they're just not there, like they were they are trying to get there, but they are not there, and so when she went up there, you know, going back and forth, and it was also interesting too because like her whole body language was like shifting, and like so she was she was not only at like asking about why she's getting frustrated, but then began to get frustrated with him, and like you could just tell in her in her face and like just her energy. That homegirl was just like and I'm just thinking, like, girl, like you are getting this information like straight from something higher than you. Just like learn to be silent and take it in, and some people have to learn how to do that, but again, she is over here helping other people, so let that sink in. Then it was this last woman, okay. Um, well, last on my list, because I just had yeah, so I should mention that doors opened at like 10. It started at 11. There was a break around like 1:30, I believe, in the documentary. Then there's more channeling QA's and there's meditation, all that stuff, right? So I got the schedule like two or three days beforehand, and I'm thinking, oh okay, I'm about to get my tickets worth. But then after this first one, I was like, okay, we don't, we don't need to go back. Um, but I appreciate this this event, I appreciate this experience. So this last woman comes up, and the first thing she says, again, thank you, Brashar, for coming back, being here, yada yada yada. So then she proceeds to say, uh, I'm and I am uh um head of this like community that follows you very, very closely. Okay. So she starts asking about uh like questions she has internally about like her path, her journey, like tapping in, furthering her spiritual awakening, all this stuff, right? And again, this woman is older, and most of the crowd was pretty older too, like they were older. So the first thing he goes is, well, I created this like five-step formula, which I know nothing about because I kind of have done my own thing, but still kind of curious about it in some way aspect. Um, sorry, in some way, shape, or form. So he says, Um, well, yeah, I created this like five-step formula, or like, are you familiar with it? It's like if you just follow that five-step formula, it tells you everything that you need to do to progress and continue progressing. So he goes, like, are you following it? And she goes, No, not really. And everyone starts laughing. And I'm thinking, how are you in charge of a community? And you lead this community that follows him very closely, and you're and you're up here asking a question about something that you kind of already know the answer to. If you would have just followed the steps that he laid out in his formula that your group should already know about, and I was really confused by that. And again, it hit me that like you can give people information, but how they choose to use that is on them. And at times, even like because this Q ⁇ A was like an hour and some change, like it was it was long, okay, and you just have people kind of like asking questions, going, like sitting down, asking questions, going down, sitting down, and all that stuff. And so there were times where he would get like where you could tell like he was getting frustrated. And and it happened in the beginning, like here and there, and I was also kind of like, why that's happening, but now I get it because it he does like these things all the time, like he goes to these conferences, these shows all the time, and he just does this like all across the country. And so to sit up there, uh, show after show, having people ask you questions, and you're answering the same question over and over again, yeah, I get frustrated too. But at the same time, he still shows up and gives them what they need, but he still reinforces that, like, hey, the information is here if you want it. Uh, I I already have it, but I'm still gonna answer your question. But at the same time, like, it's there, like, you can access it anytime. You just have to kind of like tap in and lock in. And again, she was older, and I just thought, like, shouldn't she know that? You know, but then here am I, you know, feeling like I don't know about this whole channeling thing, and I'm not sure, even though I have been re my beliefs have been reinforced by my own experiences, by my own guides. But here I but here I am sitting in the sitting in the seat questioning what I have the ability to do. So, how could I judge them for being like, well, hey, you know, like you should already know this answer. When I was kind of questioning, see, past tense, I was I was questioning what was coming through. So that at that point, that's when I decided that I just didn't need to be there anymore. Like, I wasn't sure what I needed going in, but at that moment, I was just like, I feel like I got what I needed. I guess this event is like till seven o'clock, but I was like, I I don't need to sit through uh another another hour of Q ⁇ A. And I've already seen like bits and pieces of his documentary anyway, so I was also like, I could just look that up online somewhere. And also too, in the beginning, the woman um who announced him before he came out was like he uh you have access to like he has his own like uh website, and so everyone that attended the event will have access to you know the recording of that whole show. So I was like, if I really want to finish watching it or I really want to look into it, I can simply just look it up. But from like the first three people that went up there, I realized that they were my projections, and there's things that we want and things that we need, and what I needed in some way, I needed reassurance that what I had been going through and what I had felt was real. Because interesting enough, uh, everything that he had talked about and different things that he had said, I had already heard in my journeys, which is documented in my journals and even in um my episodes when I talk about like my journeys and these messages that have come through. So I have been already kind of told that information for some reason. Again, I I wasn't really sure what he was going to talk about or what was gonna come through, but everything that he had said and even answering these questions are things that I have already heard, and if there are things that I really want to know, or if there are things I really want to tap into, I have the access to just simply uh meditate, reflect, and connect it to source to be able to ask those questions myself and then kind of go on my merry way. I do not need to seek guidance outside of myself because I am an open channel, and if I really want that information, if I want to really want to get that information, it is easy for me to do it. The only thing that I really need to start working on, which I actively started doing anyway, is feeling more confident in the person I am becoming and the information that is coming through to actually speak on it and speak it with confidence and to really really trust the process because all of this is a process. And I was listening to someone the other day, um, his name is um Brother Yusuf, and he was saying that, like, when people kind of get to this point of like, oh, okay, I'm like locked in, like we've reached this point, you have like more work to do, and that is so so so so true. That like people have said this before, like, once you get to a certain point, it's like oh okay, I'm doing it, you know, I'm learning this, I'm learning that, like, but then it's like, oh, okay, there's like a whole there's like other levels to this, and there are there's more levels, there's more growing, there's more things to do, and as I continue in that journey to learn more and expand more, even if it gets a little sci-fi, because I was talking to a friend of mine the other day, and I was like, bro, I I literally feel like I'm living um in a sci-fi movie, like I legit feel like that um a lot of the time, and it used to drive me crazy. Like I used to be like, I am like losing my mind. There's like no one that I can talk to that would get it, and I kept saying that, and but I kept like going through the process, and along the way, I've had conversations with people that are like, oh no, yeah, I get that, yeah, that happens, and they were kind of brought to me in this very beautiful way, and by me kind of like walking the path, staying aligned, they naturally came to me and gave me what I needed so I could be like, Okay, I'm not worried about that. I'm gonna continue to do what I'm being asked to do. I'm gonna continue to share my story, and whoever it connects with, whoever is listening, whoever is like locked in and they're on their own journey or their own path to like figure it out. More power to you, you know. Uh, because at some point, listening to other people talk about vibrations and frequencies and staying aligned, like, yeah, like you hear that stuff, but sometimes that feels like noise, it feels like noise, and there are times where I just literally sit in silence for like an hour, and I just like relax in that stillness and that silence because that sometimes helps me three times as more than listening to someone talk about like how to stay aligned and manifesting. Like sometimes I just want to just sit in silence and then reflect and then understand this is where I am, this is where I want to go, this is what's blocking me. So let's work on that and then let's move forward. So I'm doing more of that to reinforce my own confidence as a woman, as a being in this world that is trying to expand and grow so that I don't get stuck in a loop ever, ever again.