Explaining the "Two Stories" Painting

This episode expands on the painting as I felt inspired to create an image that represents the faces of the stories we are torn by  

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Welcome back to my podcast, Walking Your Soul's Path, Season 2, Episode 15. I have become obsessed with this painting. And when I first started to uh create this, it was about me. I was picturing myself in this painting. When I was creating it and how I was feeling about like this world that I'm tapping into, but this physical world that I am in, and how I often feel trying to balance the two. But then I realized that's not even about me. It's about all of us. All of us who are torn between two worlds. See, every soul has a path. Every soul has a journey. But then that path on that journey has its own story. So the people that we walk past on the street, the people that we interact with at work, our friends, our mother, our fathers, our sisters, our brothers, all of those people have a soul, and they have a path and they have a journey. And so here we are interacting with all these different people. And we have these conversations, we have these laughs, we have these memories, and then we see them, and we look into their eyes, and sometimes we can sense that there's something else there, but we just don't know. Our lives get too busy, so there's a question we want to ask, and then we feel like it might be too inappropriate to ask, so we figured, oh, okay, I'm not gonna bother with that question, or I don't want to like intrude. But then the person has a story to tell. But we stopped learning how to ask. We've stopped learning what it feels like to feel someone else's energy when it is off. What it feels like to look in someone's eyes and just know that they're not okay, to know that something is wrong. Doesn't matter if you're on the street or seating at someone's desk, if someone isn't okay and we choose not to ask, what does that say about us? We don't want to bother them or we'll ask them later. But why? See, isn't that the thing? You can hear someone and feel someone in different ways through their eyes, through their mannerisms, through their odd behaviors. And you could look at them and you judge them on how they're acting or or the things that they say, and you wonder what is what's going on with this person. But people don't stop to ask. Are they okay? What's going on? Ah, because then that would take you. Mean you'd have to go out of your way to find out. People have become so selfish and they have forgotten empathy because it's easier to just not ask because that's all you've ever been doing is not asking. Ah, Corata. Because we stopped asking, we have spent our entire lives just passing people like ships in the night, not wanting to know too much, because oh, I want to know too much, I got too much going on. I ain't got time for that. Okay, and then that person goes and they say, That has nothing to do with me. Whatever they have going on has nothing to do with me. If there are no accidents, and if nothing is a coincidence, then if at the right time, at the right place, that person is crossing your path, and you sense that that person isn't okay or there is something wrong, and you choose not to ask, not to wonder, not to be bothered to hear their story. Because maybe something inside of you isn't ready to hear, it doesn't want to know. Because if you asked, then you would hear things that you would understand that would make you want to reflect things in your own life. That is tough, isn't it? To hear someone else's story and you resonate with it, and you feel it, and you feel them in that moment. It's like, oof, I understand. And then you leave that person after just that conversation, and you go back into your own life, and you think about the conversation. Sometimes it plays over and over again in your head. The things that they said, the things that they are going through, and you start to look at your own life, and you wonder, how can someone go through all of that? And here I am. Choosing not only not to be present, but continuing to suppress the thing is with having two different stories, right? Or should I say, the thing is, is with having two stories, and you look at all of us living here in this environment, we all have two stories. We have the story in the face that we talk, you know, very service level about, oh, it's going on this all right. I got this going on. And then there's the other story. That when you're home and you're by yourself, and you're sitting in silence, and this wave of thoughts and ideas, and things that you have to do, and things that you don't want to do, and the things that that these interactions that happen to you, and you just kind of hold a carisy or all these different things start coming in, and you just suppress it because it's too much to handle, because that person didn't want to ask you what's going on, they didn't want to ask if you were okay, and even if it did, you'd be like, Oh, okay, I'm fine. But then you go home and you're not okay because you don't want to bother someone else with your story, and someone else doesn't want to bother hearing your story, and everything is energy, core iba, everything is energy, and so that has to go somewhere. So that interaction that you have with someone and you failed to weigh, and so that energy started between you two. Well, that has to go somewhere, and since you don't want to deal with it, well, guess what? It's gonna be put on that person or that thing that you're avoiding doing that you know you've been putting off over and over and over again. That's energy, and that has to go somewhere, and you don't want to deal with it, you don't want to be bothered with it, and so you have this unspoken tension towards that thing that you don't want to do. All of that is energy that is creating then its own story. We spend our time not wanting to deal, not wanting to think. We're just moving all the time, moving, moving, moving, moving, moving, moving. But where are we going? You're telling all these different stories, but yet you're still in the same place. How is that possible? Hmm, because you're telling a story, but no one's reading it. You have all these stories internally that are being that that are being told, that you were feeling, that you are you were constantly having these things like algorithms playing in your head, but then who's reading your story? Who's listening to your story? Only you. So then you're trapped in your own head, so therefore, you are trapped in your own story, and that's scary. Because then you feel isolated, and then you feel torn. Because like no one understands, no one would get it. But how can anyone get it? How can anyone understand if you're not telling anyone? So then you create your own hell. Just because you're not physically in prison doesn't mean you're not in one. Because the moment that you say, no, I'm okay, I'm fine. Ah, Koriba. You're choosing to stay in that prison that you've created for yourself. And in that box, you are telling a story, but no one is listening. See, we hear these stories about people in prison who are locked up 23 hours a day. They're just in this box, pacing, doing things to get attention. And you don't think we do the same thing? We act out because we suppress. The energy is rising, and the world around us is changing. And the more that we suppress, oh, it doesn't stay hidden. It's even harder for it to stay hidden, and we act out through some snide comment or through some selfish act. All of those ways that we choose to not act, then we act up in other ways, and we think because we're not acting like that, oh kada, oh, we're fine. Uh it's not that bad. Oh, okay. It's not that bad. Then why are you even acting up at all if it's not that bad? If it's not that bad, then why aren't you talking about it? Why aren't you telling someone about it? Why aren't you doing something about it if it's not that bad as the other person? Hmm. Because then that would be too hard. That would be too difficult to understand. Because then you'd have to look within. Kati show weta. And you'd have to deal with it. Now that's bad, isn't it? Because you couldn't compare yourself to other people and to their story. Because you'd have to read your own story. You'd have to reflect on your own story. Then after reflecting on it and after reading it, you would then have to go and tell someone. Because something in you would be like, I need help. I'm not okay. We've lost this idea that it's okay not to be okay. Not everything works out the way that we want it to. Not everything goes the way that we want it to, and that is by design. You can't tell your own story and write your own story and not want someone to read it. Our souls wants someone to read it. They want someone to hear it. But when we don't tell our own story, we allow people to tell it for us. And then it becomes something that we don't even recognize. A person that you don't even recognize. And then what does that person do? Ah, there goes another story. Well, that person goes and does that. But if you don't recognize the person that you're becoming, are you in control of your own story? When you lose the desire to create, you're no longer the creator. You become a puppet. And a story you don't even want to be in anymore. Ah, but because you didn't take the time to stop and tell your story to someone, you figured, I don't want to, okay, it's fine. Alright, we go. Uh, we move on, we do this, we do that, we don't keep moving, we reflect in me. And then you hit a point where you didn't tell that person anything. You said that you were okay, and then you were okay, and then you sat there and you reflected, and you kept saying, but then you kept moving, you kept doing all these different things, and then you ended up in a place you didn't recognize because you're on autopilot. Kind of like that movie, click. You fast forward so much because you're just moving, moving, moving, moving. Gara toi, gara pi ta on autopilot. You forget where you are. See, decisions are portals, and decisions are different paths that we can take. Not everything happens on this in some like movie like production. It happens. And the small decisions that we choose to make, but we don't make any decision, we aren't moving.