Ep. 20 - Voice

Is my voice me? Am I my voice? What is it and how do I discover and translate it across all aspects of my life? I am starting a new journey to discover just that. Come with me. I hope you find ways to uncover your real voice, too.

Transcript

Tara 0:04

This is It's Only in Trying, a weekly podcast about the beautiful messiness of becoming. Okay, so lately I've been thinking a lot about my voice and how I translate that into different mediums. Like when I'm having a conversation with someone, I feel so in flow and it feels so easy, but then the second I go to write something or polish it up, it's like all knowledge of how I am and how I speak just evaporates. I just have no way to translate the wit that comes in a real-life conversation to a speech or something written or a presentation. So what do I do to find my authentic voice and be able to recreate it? It's a confusing thing to acknowledge that I actually have no idea what my voice is. I just speak and then I have no recollection of like how or why those words came to me. So then it becomes really hard when I want to be able to give a polished presentation or write something meaningful. It's like three different people are doing all of those things. There is the Tara that speaks in a conversation is light and humorous, and then there's the Tara that writes a presentation that is serious and fact-driven, and I don't know how to marry the two. At least not yet. I'm hoping I can start discovering that, figuring out how I can recreate my authentic, genuine conversational voice, and then start translating it to things like this podcast or speeches or writing. So, like most people on the internet now, I have asked some type of AI to give me practice tools to find my voice so that I can figure it out and reiterate it over and over and over again in different mediums. And I'm gonna take everyone here on the journey with me. All three of you that listen consistently. So the first step that I'm taking is just to journal. Get the thoughts that bang around in my head every day out on paper so that I can see what it looks like instead of just replaying the same conversation in my head over and over and over again. And the tool is meant to help me find the things that I want to talk about or that I am thinking about over and over and over again. The topics that start emerging are the things that I might be most interested in and be able to speak on. So far, I have not found a pattern in the things that I want to talk about, but it is really interesting that I have this flow between sometimes being angry, sometimes being happy, sometimes just wanting to tell a story. So maybe some of it is just that I really want to be a storyteller and tell the parts of my life not as myself but as somebody else, so that I can both get out my feelings and be able to see it from a different perspective. So I guess this episode is really about nothing other than just get my feelings out about how having a voice and knowing how to use it is an underutilized tool, and nobody ever teaches you how to do it. It's a lot of trial and error and ups and downs, and I'm hoping this figuring out and finding of my authentic voice and being able to translate it to other mediums will help me just feel more comfortable in who I am and confident. I guess that's the real point, is that I'm hoping that this discovery of my true voice is what gives me the confidence to keep just being myself. So, more to come on this, I promise. I've got a whole list from the internet of things that I should try, people I should read, and I'm gonna start sharing that one episode at a time, what I've been doing, what I've been discovering, and also how it's changed me. So thank you everyone again for listening. If you have any comments on how you find your voice, what lights you up, how you've discovered your authentic self, let me know. But until next time, just remember, we're all doing better than we think.