A Rambling Love Note To My Father After A Depressing Father's Day

I recorded this as a catharsis. I felt so much pain on Father's Day this year like I could not have fathomed. It was my first totally sober Father's Day. And I am no heavy drinker or much of one at all. I get a drink when I go to restaurants and I usually will drink when I venerate my ancestors so three times a year with them and an occasional dinner drink. This past year my GLP1 has made alcohol just absolutely undesirable so for the first time I drank nothing while venerating my father and the pain was crippling. I was depressed most of the day in a way I had not been in a long time. Sometimes I feel like the love has no where to go but it remains so present. All I could do was talk and vent. This episode is me releasing that as best as I could. I hope anyone else grieving the loss of a parent finds something of value here