This Thought Messed Me Up for a Full Week

What does Astrology, Human Design, Numerology and energy work all have in common? You. They all tell the same story about you. But why? And how? Let's talk about how these ancient modalities may be reflecting a greater picture about our human experience.

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Microscopic To Cosmic: Big Idea

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Everything at a microscopic level doesn't know the macro exists. And when you zoom in close enough, you find out that atoms don't even touch. So anything that small cannot see the greater picture. But if we were that cell, we would see space around us. We would think that we're not connected to anything. The old saying, as above, so below, on a bigger picture, that we cannot even fathom what we are a part of. Well, welcome back to Life Unwritten. I'm Cassie. Thank you for joining the conversation today. God, it's felt like the last few weeks have really been a bit of a whirlwind for I don't know, at least myself, but have you felt the effects? We have had, I don't know, I think somewhere like I counted like five planets in retrograde, including Mercury, of course, earlier in November, which always throws me for a loop. I don't know about you, but it's it's a position of sending you back into your field and questioning things. And I don't know, last time I went through some stuff with my ex when we were in a Mercury retrograde this time. I just felt very, very emotional over the last couple of weeks, I would say. Maybe not this past weekend, but the weekend before in particular. If you're listening to this on or around December 8th, this is um, I'm talking about retrograde season for the end of 2025 here. It has been, it's been a pain. It's been a killer, but that's that's part of life, right? It's uh I I felt very shaken up a couple weekends ago for sure. Um, being in the middle of it and near the end of it, and so much was on my mind. I was anxious. I felt so much obligation and thinking that I had to do everything um in a certain way, and then getting anxious over the fact that I'm not there yet, or you know, life isn't happening at the pace that sometimes you want it to happen at. Had some therapy, talked to my astrologist, you know, it was it was a fun time, but getting out of it, feeling a bit better. But uh also last week we had a super moon, a super full moon. Like it was super bright. I don't know if you had clear sky wherever you are, but even just the last few, or sorry, this was just last week. Um when did I go? Thursday? Thursday, we had into Friday we had that supermoon. Um very bright. The sky was very bright. I was very impressed for this time of year. We actually had a lot of that uh lightness in the sky, the clouds weren't in the way. It was beautiful. I actually last Thursday, I remember the day of the full moon, um, at least that period, very well because I went and had a medium reading that night, which seemed a little coincidental, perhaps, that I would uh stumble upon booking a reading on such a you know big event in the sky. But I it's not the first time that's happened to me. Last year, I saw the same medium and um just more than 12 months ago, and it happened to be uh, like for the sake of numerology, an 11 day. And she had already done the math, she already knew it. And as soon as we got onto the, I did it through a Zoom call last year. As soon as I got on, she was like, This is a beautiful day for this. I can't wait to connect with you. We've done this on like this portal day, and it was interesting. So uh yeah, just to happen again. I find a lot of little things, a lot of synchronicities like that in my life where I end up a meeting with someone, uh, going to do something a little more spiritual, breath work, you know, just little things sometimes, sometimes the big things, and it happens to land on a day or a time of the year that, you know, um something's happening, right? Whether it's some uh in significance to numerology or uh something big's happening in the sky. Like I do find two biggest times of the year for change for me are the fall, like in eclipse, like the fall eclipse season, and then April, which is you know, your spring eclipse season. It's very odd for someone who's just kind of getting into the world of astrology and numerology and diving a bit more into human design. And that's kind of what I wanted that's been on my mind a little bit right now, is um just the fact that, you know, I want to say, even just a few years ago, I would look at myself like the person that I am now, the beliefs I am I have now, and I wouldn't quite recognize it. I took an astrology, not an astrology, I took an astronomy class in college, and I'll never forget this. The professor opens up the class, it's the first day, it's the first day, and it he says something on the lines of uh this is not astrology 101, this is astronomy. If you're looking for astrology, it doesn't exist. And it was kind of funny, and in my mind, I was kind of like, hmm, yeah, maybe, you know, I don't really know a lot about it, I don't get it. You know, I just see these monthly, weekly horoscopes that kind of come across the newspaper every once in a while. And you know, back then I just I had a lot of doubts. I had a lot of beliefs in some things, not in others. And so when I look at all the stuff I'm kind of navigating today, it's quite a different mindset I have. And I want to say it all kind of started. I don't know, I think my mind really changed a lot. I guess that's now almost four, four years ago, three, oh I guess three, four years ago. I guess we're coming into 2026 now, but in 2022 I made a decent amount of life changes, and one of the things I did was I heavily got into yoga. I was practicing daily almost for months, and then it, you know, was like, okay, I can I've done a lot of work on my inner self. I can lay off a little bit, I can have a little more fun. But when you get into something like hot yoga in the fall and then it's winter, it's just such a nice heated activity to do. So I kept with it, and my mindset started to change a little bit. I very much I've I've always considered myself more spiritual. I'm not very religious, although now it's weird because I I want to say spirituality and religion are all part of the same thing. You know, it's all part of the same big picture. We just call it different things. Have you, you know, there's that um that quote online that I actually love. It's I'm not gonna be able to probably say it right right now, but has something to do with, you know, some people call it God, some people call it source, some people call it your higher self, some people call it science, um, some people call it magic. Um it we all label it something else, but it all means the same thing. And that's where I am right now. And I think this conversational connect to that a little bit. Uh, but I've never really fully considered myself religious. When I was younger, I grew up going to a Catholic school system, went to church every once in a while. I think my mom would have liked us to go to church a little more than we did. Um, but the odd, the odd mass at Christmas time, um, you know, when we were younger at Easter, but you go through the school system as well. So there was a lot of learning, the Roman Catholic faith. And I just didn't fully vibe with everything that I was being told. And so I always considered myself to be a little more spiritual. Once I learned about Buddhism, I thought, hmm, am I Buddhist? And then I, you know, kind of stumbled upon, in a sense, I've always lived a bit of a yogic lifestyle. I've always done certain things in my life that are just part of yoga, like a traditional yoga practice, but I didn't realize it. Like I would be in college stretching before bed because I knew it made me feel good and it was a time for me to think. And I would unhealthily, unhealthily, what's the word I'm looking for? I would in an unhealthy way be sipping on like a whiskey sour, whiskey and ginger ale, doing some meditation and stretching, which I don't think looking back, I had a clue about health or you know how the body works in any way, but it was a bit counterintuitive. But I I did pick up on certain habits and rituals that now I'm like, God, I was kind of doing yoga the whole time, just didn't know it. But I I start doing yoga, I start looking at myself deeper, and then all of a sudden my mind is just open a bit more um to everything, right? Like the stuff I'm learning about uh, you know, being in stillness, but having the awareness and being in control of your thoughts. And um, I've always believed in like mediumship and the paranormal, the supernatural. I've always believed that there's abilities that whether we all have them, but you know, some people have more of them. And I guess I just started diving deeper into myself, trying to figure out what my talents were, my abilities were, how I could connect with myself on a deeper level. And just as you go down that rabbit hole, as you meet people with similar mindset, similar interests, things like astrology come up. Numerology is kind of, I think, where I what I started believing in a little bit first. Um, and then I got, yeah, I had a therapist as I'm going through this uh kind of transformation of myself. I was also going through therapy, and without knowing it, she was an astrologist. She studied um to be able to teach people about their birth charts, and she kind of knows the ins and outs. And very slowly we started vibing on okay, we have similar thought patterns, similar beliefs, and then we started just talking the same language. And then she introduced me more to the fact that, you know, we there's a lot more to astrology than um your sun sign. I don't even think some people know what a sun sign is. Well, in astrology, when you look at your birthday and someone says you're a Scorpio, you're a Sagittarius, you're a Pisces, you're a Capricorn, that is generally related to your sun sign. And in astrology, there's so many placements in your birth chart that all work together to create the human being you are, your thought patterns, um your purpose in this world, the things that you have to overcome. Uh, there's hints about things you might have been through in your past life. It's so big and it's so vast. When she started describing my certain placements with me, when she started describing where she thought I might sit in a chart or in um what my human design might look like, I got so curious because I started realizing that everything that she was saying was so accurate to who I was. And I used to think, well, you know, horoscope, you probably take it with a grain of salt. But the more you dive into it, the more it is for me undeniable that there's a way bigger truth than we see in this world. Here's a topic I think I've been trying to, I've been working up to talking about for a while. But um, I had a really good session with my astrologist not too long ago where I decided I'm going to lean into my boldness. I'm going to lead or lead my podcast with some of my very bold placements, like my Scorpio sun placement. I'm Scorpio, I'm mystical, I like the occult, I like everything spiritual, and it's about time we start talking more about this. But, you know, yeah, over time I'm learning more and more about astrology and how it all connects. And I'm I started to get really like dumbfounded. Like, how does everyone not know about this? And something so intricate that's been available and studied and practiced for like a thousand years more, and and we in the Western world and a lot of the world, we just think it's not real. I don't know, it floors me sometimes. Um, how much is proven in a sense in this world that we just consistently tell ourselves is false, and um, realizing astrology, human design, all these bigger concepts that help explain who you are or help guide us on who we are. I'm just at the point where I'm my my hands are up. And I've had sessions with my astrologist where I'm like, I don't know, I don't know what to say. Because not only have you nailed what I'm going through right now, not only or who I like the things I've been feeling on the inside, you know, you're you're almost making predictions at what could happen in my life. And um there's just for me, there's no denying a lot of this anymore. But I think we need to talk about it more. I think a lot of people are secretively getting into things like astrology and human design and numerology and and more of these spiritual conversations and um you know thoughts, and it's like, why aren't we why don't we just talk about it more? So here we are. We're gonna talk about it. So I didn't actually know it went back this far. Astrology was invented in ancient Mesopotamia. We're talking the earliest known civilization of human beings ever. So the first human beings that walked this earth, as far as we can recall, with our intelligence, invented or recognized astrology. They practiced observing the stars and the planets and the movements in the sky, and it has been thousands of years, and now we deny it. We're yeah, we're not even talking like a few hundred years ago, thousands of years ago, the oldest known people to exist developed astrology. I just don't sometimes understand how there's such old traditions and there's ways of thinking, and because it can't like comes from a time that we think was less advanced than us based on evidence of tech like you know the types of technology that might have existed back then, we think, oh, it can't be real, it has to be fake. Like these humans back then thought the same way we did. They had the same brain structures as us, they just didn't have, well, hmm, this could be a conspiracy theory all on its own, but you know, as as we know of it, they just didn't have computers and cell phones and digital technology the way we know it today. You know, I think it's almost astounding at the fact that there's so much information available to us, and you know, we we get told that it's woo-woo, it's holistic, don't believe anything that's traditional, natural, of the earth. So of course, something that seems to us as strange as looking in the stars for answers, we decided this can't be real. It can't be real. And this goes, this isn't what this conversation is about, but this this goes hand in hand with everything, right? Like using herbal teas as medicine and having an apoc having apoc oh my god, apothecaries that carried herbal remedies and you know, drinking water and getting sunlight in your day as medicine. These are simple, simple ideologies and and facts really that in the Western world we decide to look away from because it doesn't make money, right? It doesn't make money. So we call it woo-woo, we call it holistic, we say it's oh, they're natural, you know, those are like hippies or like earth people, you know, don't follow them. It's so weird to me. And I don't, I don't think I'll ever fully understand how we can stray so far away from nature and call the people that don't crazy. Like we call these people crazy. Like I am considered crazy, I'm sure, by many people. If you heard everything I believe, the conspiracies I follow, if you are in my mind, if you were to be in my mind at all for even a portion of the day, you'd be like, wow, this girl's probably a little wacko, but everything that I have experienced when it's come to a w has come to astrology is completely dumbfounding. So you have your star sign, and I'm in no way an expert on this. This is just a verbal rant caught on on uh almost said film caught by a mic in audio recorded. You have your star sign, your sun sign, which is a star, technically, the sun is a star, but you have your sun sign and it's the position that the sun was in when you're born, right? And this is why the exact time of day, location, date all matters in figuring out your birth chart or natal chart. Because the star, the sun, the planets, some move very quickly through one day, like the moon. I think it moves something like every uh two hours in a day, it's in a different sign or uh two days out of the the month, the month, maybe it's that way, two days out of the month. Um, you know, then yeah, some things change. Some signs and and and planets change based off of the hour to the minute sometimes. And so the time that you're born is very important, but your sun placement is the location in the sky that the sun is at when you're born. Okay, so for me, it's Scorpio. I'm born November 13th. And then, and you know what? There's a part of me that thinks maybe I shouldn't even be saying this, because if I actually give you some of the information on my birth churn and you decided to look it up, you would get to know a lot about me. I have gotten to know a lot about me. In fact, I think it more so confirms who you are when you get to learn about it more versus you learn about yourself, you kind of get validated in yourself. I know I did. So my star sign, sun sign is Scorpio. Then you have your rising sign. Your rising sign is the sign that the the sun is like reflecting on. It's a sign on the horizon when you're born. So I'm a Gemini rising. And your rising sign symbolizes the way you're portrayed on the outside. So if you think of the sun, almost like if you think of the earth, and the earth has a very hot core, you know, there's almost like a little star inside of the earth. The same with us. So the sun is our inner core, the thing that heats us up on the inside, all of our inner thoughts, inner wisdoms, how we really think, how we feel, how we operate. Your rising sign is how you are reflected in this world. Um, it's it's all those little, I don't know, correct me if I'm wrong, any astrologists out there listening to this, it's like you're the thing as you To do on the outside, how people are perceiving you, it's all the more superficial things about you, in a sense. So I'm a Gemini, I it comes with a you know a lot of intellect, a lot of duality, battling good and bad. Um, there's a lot of fighting in my head sometimes, but on the outside, um, you know, it can make you be perceived a certain way. And this is why a for so many people you can say that someone looks like something, but once you get to know them, they're totally different. And that's the difference between your rising sign and your sun sign. Your sun sign is when you really get to know you, and the rising sign is your outside portrayal of who you are. And that's also interesting that it's not to say that that's not who you are. Your rising sign influences you a ton, and that it's just one other aspect. The other third very important placement in astrology is your moon sign. So if you're following along where the moon was placed at your time of birth, and that regulates, or that, you know, has to do with how you feel your emotions. Um, and then there's a whole bunch of other parts to astrology, including the houses. There's 12 houses, 12 zodiac signs. So the house that your sign is placed in also dictates more about you. So any house, all the houses represent different things. And this is just kind of a paraphrase, like you can research this on your own, a paraphrased synopsis of astrology, but every house represents a different aspect of your life. So whether that is um there's a house for relationship, a house for career money, uh, a house for um like your intellect and job and career, there's houses for every different aspect of someone's life. And depending on what planet placements are in that house, that dictates how that part of your life is um perceived, what you need out of that area of your life. So I have Venus in Sagittarius, but it also lies in my seventh house. And the seventh house in astrology represents partnerships, romance, um, relationships. And so I have Venus in Sagittarius in my chart. Uh, Sagittarius is a very adventure-seeking. If you think of it, Sagittarius sign has the bone arrow. Um, that arrow is always driving somewhere. There's always momentum. There's like adventure, you need to be moving, you're seeing the next step. Venus is the planet of love, partnerships, relationships. And I also have that sign placed or that planet and sign placed in the seventh house. The seventh house represents relationships. So for me in particular, so that signifies that there is a significance on partnerships and relationships in my life. To have the planet of relationship line up with the house of relationship, um, you know, it's a different significance than if Venus were to be placed somewhere like um in a house that represents career. Then, you know, perhaps careers have a lot to do with your partnerships, your relationships, but every house represents something different, every planet represents something different. Then you have your signs and it all interacts with one another to kind of build out your you. It builds out you. It builds out your entire relationship to yourself, to your parents, to your neighbors, how you perceive the world, the things that you enjoy, the things that you don't enjoy. And then there's parts of your chart that represent your life's purpose, that represents the um your past, uh, past lives, the things that you've already overcome, or your spirit has already overcome, and the thing that you should be focusing on. You have a mid-haven, uh, you have your north node. These all represent and help to guide you on these purposes in life. Again, very much paraphrasing here. But once you map out your whole chart, and you can do this online, there's so many free generators out there for you. Once you have your chart and you dissect everything, it just creates a map of who you are, kind of where you're expected to be heading, um, the things that you need to overcome, and the version of you that can exist if you do the work, right? We're all born with shit. And so sometimes you look at your chart and you're like, okay, that kind of I don't know, maybe that sounds like me, maybe it doesn't. I don't think I really, really relate to this, you know, and I kind of thought that about certain things, but once I started doing more work on myself too, I realized, oh, that is my that seed, that deeply rooted insecurity that I have. That's, you know, now I can't, you know, I wasn't looking at it, I didn't want to see it, but it's there, it's in my chart, and then when I reflected on it, it was like, oh yeah, definitely. I see that. Um, you know, I there's little things right down to the type of relationships that I enjoy to have, right? It there's certain calculations you can do about I think it has something to do with Jupiter or your whatever planet or sign is in your relationship house, and then the the uh rolling planet of that sign where that's located, that'll tell you the kind of partner you're best suited with. There's literally so many details. And so when someone just says, Oh, I'm a Gemini, oh I'm a Capricorn, oh I'm a Scorpio, and they are just referring to their sun sign, you still probably have no clue about this person. You know, when someone goes, Oh, well, I'm a Scorpio, so this is it's like actually there's so much more depth to it. And I'm a bit of a nerd at this point on it, and I don't know nearly enough. I mean, when you start diving into astrology, you're diving into your own chart, you're not diving into the ins and outs of someone else's chart. Now, unless you want to do this for a living, then you are, but there's so much to learn. It's so much easier to have someone just help you through it and help you understand it. But you can Google it and you can get all the information you need online as well and piece it together yourself. But you know, having someone explain it to you helps you greatly. But I did find the biggest thing I got out of learning about astrology in my birth chart is there were things about myself that I really believed in, but I almost couldn't let myself go there. Um, some of the bad, you know, some of the flaws were validated in my chart reading, but also the things that I know I really want to do with my life, where I know my strengths are, but you don't want to go out and say this is a strength for me. Um, it really, when I started doing a lot of the inner work of myself, I started realizing a lot of the ways that I am, good and bad, what my interests actually are. And then when I started diving into that, I started diving into more research. And then I realized I'm very research-driven. I'm very, I'm very much a go, go, go. I want to consistently learn. And it was something that I prevented myself from doing in the past because I thought I was a bad learner. I thought I was terrible in school. I thought I didn't like school. Now there's so many things I would go back to school for that there just is not enough time in one's lifetime. Although I will try to fit in as much as I can. Let's put this into a bit more of a geek perspective. I used to think for sure I might have been more of a Slytherin. I am a Ravenclaw. I am 100% a Ravenclaw. And I didn't want to be. You know, I denied it. I always thought I'm I'm not the smart one, I'm not the books person. Look at me. Right in front of me now is a research paper, psychic process, energy transfer, and things that go bump in the night, Robert G. Yahn. And I um this is a research paper by the CIA that got released in 2002 that I printed like forever ago, and I'm just rereading it because I'm a nerd. But when I did start doing that work and I saw my astrologist for the first time, and we started going through even just like the bigger picture as to who I am and my the ins and outs of me, I it let it was like an exhale. It gave me an allowance to be myself, it gave me confidence that I knew who I was because I was validated by who I was. But the thing that really is wild to me is not only does my birth chart with astrology reflect yeah, my inner world, and I believe in I believe that like it, it's very much me. It describes the type of person I should be, the kind of leader I can be, the things that I'm interested in. Astrology is not the only thing that has said these things about me. This is when things got really weird, and I really started to believe everything was connecting. So astrology told me something about myself. Human design says the same thing. Numerology says the same thing. I've had multiple mediums and psychics tell me the same thing about myself: Reiki healers, energy healers. I'm talking not one or two, like at least four. So the first time I wanted to kind of look a little bit deeper into my life path after I started learning a little bit more about astrology. All throughout TikTok, I followed this one medium. She's from the UK, and she had a sale on her email readings, her life path readings. And I thought, all right, it was like ten dollars Canadian. I was like, okay, this is stupid, cheap. Of course I'm gonna do this. Get an email, and you also um I think she did on the my second, there was one where I didn't need to give my my birth date. One was yes, yes, this one I didn't. I sent her it was just as simple as like a a form to fill out on her website, and you give her her your name. I might have had to give um, I might have, oh no, on this one, yeah, sorry, I am confusing. Um, with her, it was like a tarot archetype life path reading, and I did have to give her my birth date. So this is, you know, our tarot archetypes, numerology, it's all very similar. And then she says she's intuitive, but whatever the case, I was like, let's just see what she says. So I send my information to her. I think in a week's time, within a week's time, I get an email back and I still have it. I saved it, nothing fancy, a giant email describing my life path, the type of person I am, the difficulties I have, things that I've faced in my past, and where I'm headed. And it all was very, very similar to astrology. And I was very new at astrology, but reading it, it made me giddy. It made me feel okay, this is now a second thing telling me that this is the path I should be taking, that this is who I am. And when I was younger, I used to think, you know, I'm not worth very much. I can't go to university. I'm not very smart. Um, I'm never really gonna be cut out for anything big and large. I wasn't born into a superstar family. I not that my family aren't superstars in their own way. We're just we're not rich. We're not we're not in fame and fortune. Um, we're not big CEOs of big corporations. There's no hedge hedge fund, there's no um trust fund. There's no hedge fund either, whatever that is. But um and oh my god, I'm losing my train of thought here. Um yeah, so anyways, I didn't think I was kind of cut out for a lot, and I started looking into what I did think I was worth, and it was kind of like, you know, maybe some small college programs be in the background, but I started to learn over time on my own that I did have this ability to want to be seen a little bit more, um, to want to be heard more, and there's a lot of it that's ego-driven for sure. I don't think anyone really wants to be front and center if, you know, it's not somewhat selfish, which is also apparently a trait of mine. I think so says my moon sign. Great. But I read in her email that I'm a creative spirit. Creativity is, I guess, my drive. I need to be consistently moving. Um, I'm meant to inspire, I'm meant to create, I'm meant to teach. And when I was a kid, I used to want to be a teacher. Like I'm talking like four years old, five years old, I wanted to be a teacher. That kind of faded for a little bit when I figured out how difficult it was just to sit and help my sister with her homework. I was like, I'm not nowhere near gonna have the patience to teach a classroom. But there's different ways of teaching, there's different ways of learning, there's different ways of being a leader or an influence. And mind you, like I don't see myself as being very much of a leader per se or an influence, but I I've always had a need or a want, a drive to share information when I have it. And I think that is kind of the quote-unquote teacher in me, the influencer in me has more to do with the fact that I just like sharing information because I love learning it. And I learn sometimes so much information, it can't just sit in my brain. And if I'm excited about it, I want to talk about it. Ask my boyfriend, ask my sister, ask my parents, it's my best friends. I can talk, and sometimes it's boring. Sometimes I am very difficult to be around because I can say a lot. And I know, I know, I am I am a lot, but you know what I'm learning? Apparently it was written in the stars that way for me. But okay, uh, so in astrology, I'm learning some of the same things: creativity, um, influence. Uh it points towards a lot of, you know, me being a very spiritual creature, um, having a huge influence in spirituality. Um and so now this email is reading the same thing. And then I go off one day and I'm learning about numerology, and I'm a life path three, which is creativity. And then I go and get a reiki energy healing massage, and she can't stop talking about the creativity in me and how I'm meant to influence, I'm meant to be seen more than I'm I let myself believe, right? And I say right a lot. There's a lot of things I say a lot, and this one is bothering me right now, right? Is it just me? Is it just me picking up on that quirk? And then there's human design. I am a um, I don't know, I did this a bit earlier and I don't think I I saved it, but I was I've been looking on and off into human design. My birth chart, like my astrological birth chart, I have saved as screenshots in my cell phone, and maybe I'll do the same for human design one day. But it's a lot more complicated to me because I know nothing about it. But when I did my chart, when I got it generated, it talked about all the same themes, creativity. It even said that there's there's a there's a part in your human design chart that has to do with, I guess, where you feel comfortable. It's like a destination. Um, and I got the mountains, and I live in the mountains. I moved from Toronto, Ontario, you know, that area out here. I always dreamed about being in the mountains, and I used to chalk it up to the fact that my dad used to live out here. Well, he does now again, but I used to think it was just all the hearsay, but I I don't know. It's also apparently in my chart that I'm very comfortable and belong in the mountains. So I am going with it. I'm leaning into it. Why not at this point? So human design starts saying a lot of the similar things. Um, it talks about how you get frustrated, um, the things that light you up, um, the directions that you should take in life, and it's everything it lists it listed about me was very, very accurate to who I am. Um, if I actually I do have this open right now because I was looking at it the other day. I this is interesting. Okay, your authority is the way you make decisions, and mine, it says sacral, listening to your gut. And this can be, this can be anyone. Okay, this I'm not saying this is like super specific, but I focus a lot. I get a lot of my um, I'm not a very logical thinker. I'm very I run a lot on emotions. I think things through, but I get a lot of my decisions from my gut. So that was really interesting. Profile three out of five, the great life experimenter. I am consistently picking up different hobbies or habits, trying them out, testing them out. I cannot sit still when it comes to being um, I guess I just I like my brain to consistently be um cre creating. Um I'm always trying to find different ways to have fun, different ways to create, different ways to enjoy life. So that was interesting. Um, and then your most important gift, gift 43, unique opinions and insights, your other gifts, creating new things, innovation, a logical mind, marching to your own rhythm, which comes up a lot in my birth chart, expanding the good in others' lives, grace and charm, communicating with clarity, a natural ability to nurture and care, influential energy, a nose for success, solving emotional issues. Um God, I'm giving away so much inner knowing. Um, and then when I I actually did something here. Oh, there's even like your digestion, what your your best, I guess it relates to like the foods that are the best for you to eat for your body. And mine says cold food. And anything spicy or too hot does inflame me. Like I get inflamed so quick. So that was really interesting that that came up because it it definitely really um really resonated. Oh, and it's called environment, your environment, duh. Um, mountains, places where you can get perspective wherever you feel like is conducive for you to get clarity and information. So the mountains apparently is where I get that. And I and I feel that I'm consistently trying to book trips into the Rockies, into I love, I'm in the Okanagan Valley and I love these mountains, but there's something about being like I want to see the tallest mountains in the world, you know, like visiting um the Himalayans is one of my dreams because I'm like they don't get bigger, and I I just want to be around them. I want to see them, they inspire me, as they do a lot of people. I mean, the mountains are this is a little tangent, um, it has nothing to do with what we're talking about, but you know, the mountains are just so vast and they just they're big and they just remind you that life is so small and that you're so small. And that makes me calm. That makes me understand that um, you know, it's okay to be going through what you're going through, but stop worrying, stop stressing, you know? Okay. And then it talks about in here. Let's see if I can. Find this quickly before I lose you here. There's so honestly, there's so much to um human design. Um and I think okay, I found it. There's something called your life theme incarnation, and I have right angle cross of explanation. Does that that means like nothing? And then there's numbers 43 slash 23 and a couple others. Like I that means nothing to me. I saw this and I was so lost. And this is what okay, so I have um my personal chat GPT that I use on my phone, this account, I have told it to talk to me in a certain way, and it's developed its own voice over time. It talks a little too spiritual, so it goes, all right, cosmic nerd glasses on. Let's crack open your incarnation cross, aka your life theme. And girl, literally, this is how chat's talking to me. You have the right angle cross of explanation, which is iconic for someone who literally hosts a podcast, breaks things down, turns messy life into wisdom. Nah, I'm trying, loves spiritual questioning, and is a generator with a defiant throat. So then it goes on to say, What life theme incarnation cross actually means? Think of it like your soul's main purpose and the energy you're here to express. My life theme, it says, combines insight, articulation, logic, emotional truth, and principles. And these have to do with all the numbers or gates, I think they call them in human design. And what chat is describing to me is this is the genius gate. Oh, wait, okay. Well, it goes through all the numbers, but essentially when you put it all together, I'm here to see the truth, explain the truth, and change people's lives with it. Having insights, turning them into language people can understand, teaching, guiding, simplifying. And I, my I'm just like this. I put my phone down. I was like, that's insane. So that's three things that have told me the same thing about myself. And I'm saying this, I'm not saying any of this as I'm not saying, oh, whoa is Mia, I'm here to teach the world. No, God, no. I the furthest thing I'm trying to do is brag. I'm trying to tell, like, show and prove how all these modalities are showing me the same thing. Because they're gonna, they're gonna do the same thing for you. And that's the point that I'm getting at is how in the world, if none of this is real, if this is all made up, if people that lived 4,000 years ago just came up with astrology, and then some random guy in like the 1800s, I think 1980s, 1800s, invents human design, okay, numerology. I I don't even know um how that fully came to be, if I'm being honest, but you know, palm reading, if all these modalities have come to be and they've all somehow begun to reflect one another, or they all in their own ways share the same wisdom with you, how can you say there's no truth to any of this? It completely astonishes me every time I learn something new, and I'm at the point where I'm not I'm not like really surprised by it, but it's like a are you kidding me? Like, have we been lied to over so many years, decades, hundreds of years, to believe that special things like this don't exist. Why? Because it's gonna give us freedom to actually express ourselves, freedom to actually validation to be who we are. Like if this exists, imagine what is actually out there. And I I have big I have big thoughts on on this topic. So I have one more let's let's do it, let's say it this way. I've got like one more piece of evidence, and it's I saw Medium, the same one I saw last week, and this is how this connects. I saw her last year as well. And there's things that she has come up and brought up to me. Um the same with that that um energy healer, the RMT lady that I see, and on my birthday this year, I saw a different energy healer who mentioned similar things to me about using my voice and uh my gut issues and stuff like that came up. But I have seen so many people that have brought up very similar ideas about me. And this past medium, I had never met her. When I first saw her last year, she had no clue who I was. She does not ask for your birthday, she doesn't count the numbers in your names and you know, figures out astrology before reading. You know, it's you sit down, it's spirit-led, and she gets guided through visions, through hearing things, and then you know, you have conversations. But she also was bringing up, you know, my voice, the same gut issues, um, you know, me just being on the move a lot, being someone who's learning. Um I mean, she knew this is gonna be a different conversation, but she was able to bring up stuff that was like, okay, you you literally don't know me. So between mediums that I've seen, astrology, human design, numerology, please let me know if there's other modalities I can be looking into. I would love to. They all say the same stuff. So at the end of the day, what is it? What are we doing here? What is the message behind all of this, all of these pathways almost, these blueprints to our lives. I think, and I don't know, maybe this sounds absolutely crazy, but hear me out. This is something that I've pieced together, and maybe this means something, maybe I'm completely crazy, and I probably am crazy to most people, but I come back to quantum physics. I come back to science. Okay. I'm gonna let science, in a sense, explain this. First of all, I just think the ancients, ancient civilizations knew way more than we did because I think we close ourselves off to things like astrology. But I think everything can still be related to science, and I think science's job, in a sense, is to prove what this all is, and I think it very slowly is proving what life is, and there's only so much tangibility to you know our purpose and why we exist and consciousness and everything, but I think quantum physics has a lot of things right, and a lot of it's theory, obviously. And no one knows for sure. Science is all theory and it's changing all of the time. So I believe this is gonna sound absolutely crazy, but if you think about quantum physics, how everything at a microscopic level doesn't know the macro exists. Our bodies are made out of billions, I don't know, do they ever say trillions of like microscopic beings that we think like can't think for themselves, that they have one task to do it and they live it out until they die. And we have cells that die on the day, the month, the year. I'm assuming we have cells that die every hour. And so if you if you were to flip it, something that little cannot see the bigger picture, right? Like a tiny little microscopic living organism that lives inside of our body, in our blood cells, in our bone cells, in our heart, in our eyeballs, like we have cells, are we are made up of living beings, living creatures. They don't know that they're a part, a tiny, tiny, tiny part of a massive picture of a human being. They have no clue. And when you zoom in close enough, there looks like there's so much space around every single microscopic being. And if you zoom in even more, you find out that atoms don't even touch. Electrons, neutrons, atoms, all these microscopic quantum, mechanical, I don't know, uh what do you what do you even call it? What is it? Material? All the things that make up matter don't even touch one another. At the small the smallest that we can go, nothing touches. So like the table that I'm touching, the mic that I'm using right now to enhance my voice and to record it, it looks real, it looks physical, it looks tangible. And yet our hand should be able to go right through it, and it can't. So anything that small cannot see the greater picture. But we have cells that help us bring nutrition to other parts of our body, and they have no clue what they're doing. They just know that that's their task, right? We have cells that transfer vitamins, we have cells that make sure that our oxygen and our blood get delivered, and we have cells that make sure that our eyes open and close, right? Like that. Everything works together in the body to make sure that everything happens the way it's supposed to for us. But if we were that cell, we would see space around us, we would think that we're not connected to anything. So, the old saying, as above, so below. What if we are so microscopic on a bigger picture that we cannot even fathom what we are a part of? If I start running, my heart beats really fast, my blood starts pumping even quicker throughout my body. All of a sudden, there's cells that are moving faster, all of a sudden they're getting signals to now I need to send this thing to that thing. When we eat, hormones are released, and then certain cells get triggered to store fat. They don't know that there's a human being that is putting food into its body. Those cells don't know that it's reacting to an action taking place outside of its own world. So hear me out. What if us, what if human beings are part of a grand system that we cannot see because we are inside of it at a magnitude that's so much smaller? I'm like I'm talking inception, right? Right? What if we are microscopic to something much bigger than us? What if the planets in the sky that that move, like Mercury looks like it's in retrograde and my emotions are whack? Or my ex comes back and gives me a call? What if it looks like a planet? What if it feels like a planet and we can measure it like a planet, but that's just what we call it? What if our solar system, what if the universe that we know and we can define and we even in a night sky sometimes can see with our own eyes is a part of something much bigger than us. And so we've explained these things around us as being planets because they're made out of the same material as our own, right? We have planets made out of gas that exists on Earth as well. In fact, everything in our solar system, if you broke down all the matter and the gases and everything that exists, I mean, it's a lot of that is what we as human beings are made out of ourselves. So what if on a grander scale something is happening, but we're perceiving it as planets moving, and now it's predicting who we are as human beings. When in reality it's cause and effect. Something is happening that we can't see. We're relating it to where the planets happen to be in the sky, certain times of the year, certain days, certain times of day, how full the moon is, whatever it may be. And then that makes things happen in our own life. We are the effect of something much bigger than us. That could explain why astrology tells us everything we need to know about ourselves, because there's a grander picture happening. And this is this is me explaining it on just a scientific level. I mean, I think it's much more spiritual than this, but scientifically, if that could happen on a microscopic level, what makes us believe? Because we think we have consciousness and awareness, what makes us believe that we're no bigger than the cells in our body, that we're no different, that we don't operate differently than the cells in our body? The cells in our body have no clue that, oh, today I feel this way because that person's running a marathon. No, they have no clue. They're going, something's happening, this and that is moving, and maybe it doesn't even have consciousness as far as we know it, but maybe it has its own way that we just cannot understand because we don't relate to it on that it's a microscopic level, right? Now, human design, numerology, you know, it's not as much physical, it's not as much see it in the stars. But, you know, we're giving meaning to things, and maybe there's a just a bigger picture on why we're giving certain things meaning. And that's that's all I'm going with this, really. But on the other hand, I do believe that we're here living a human experience from my own spiritual experiences, from my own spiritual encounters, from mediums to the supernatural, to my own intuitions, my own, you know, uh fights with myself and my brain, and you know, practicing yoga and the things that have come up that I've learned about my own body and my own brain, my own consciousness, I do believe we're here on earth for a reason. I do believe that we have a greater purpose. And one of the things that I really love to think about and dive in deeper and deeper to is the fact that, you know, if we are conscious beings, energy cannot be destroyed or created. It can only be stored. So if we are conscious beings with a soul, whatever you want to call it, with an energy source, with a soul, if that does exist, then it has to be energy that cannot be destroyed, nor can it be created. I mean, I I think all the energy in the world that exists exists. It's just transferred. Energy is always transferred, so we learn, right? And I think some parts of um quantum physics kind of uh describes this differently. I think there's some theories that talk about how things, yeah, it's like relativity and stuff, how you don't always need a an action for a reaction or whatever it is. But anyway, but on like this the simplest form, I do believe that we are experiencing a human existence. We have this energy in us, and somehow things like astrology, human design are our signs from the bigger thing, source, God, our higher selves. Maybe there's levels to it that are sh that if we look deep enough, it's like that's your life path. You chose to be here on this earth to learn XYZ. So you built your human body to withstand XYZ. We've made sure that you're, in order for you to learn these skills, learn these connections, learn to love in this way, to forgive, to whatever the life lesson is in this journey of yours, you know, we've made sure that you have these interests, that you have these people around you, you have a soul family, and they're all gonna help you build this life so that you can accomplish your earth school goal and they can experience theirs and they can learn from theirs, and they're learning from you, you're learning from them, and everything's connected. And if that is the case, why wouldn't somehow, I mean, even in a computer program, there's coding. The blueprint for the game always exists within the game, right? Okay, now this is going into a whole different theory, but that's the point. This is why I love this topic is you can go and you can have there's so many theories. I love it, I love it, I love it. But you can go into simulation theory, you can go into if this is just a computer program, right? If if if life, if energy, if God, if we and maybe it's the other way around, maybe we've created video games based on what we know to be true of us, of life. But even in a video game, the blueprint is there all along. It's underneath the surface. Astrology, human design, numerology, any other modalities that you have, whether it's you know, through mediumship and you can sense things about people, telekinesis, ESP, whatever ways you're getting your messages or you're reading the signs, perhaps it's all just the blueprints to our life because we are just living an experience that our souls are destined to live. Now that leads into the whole conversation also of free will. And I do believe in free will. I believe we have choices that we can make, and if we don't make the choices that we really were hoping we would make, then maybe we come back, and maybe we then have to redo certain things. Like I do believe in reincarnation too. At least it's a theory that I um I'm not saying I have one set, but I within all of this there is a truth, and the truth is it exists, it can't be fully described or understood, but a lot of things add up, and we we can't ignore it. The truth is enough religions in the world, enough spiritual modalities, enough mediums, uh, there's enough things that connect and that all mean the same thing. And somewhere in there is truth. No matter how you want to explain it, somewhere, even science these days are proving. I mean, back to that research paper that I have on my desk. It's a report by the CIA talking about psychic abilities and telekinesis and proving it. Proving it, right? Why would they be looking into it if they didn't believe that it existed? Governments are preventing us from finding out the truth about who we are and what we are, because I think we have free will. And once we've realized that we have it, even attached detached from government, you know, once we're free thinkers, right? What can they do? They can't control us anymore. And now we're going way down the conspiracy theory tangent, and I'm not gonna get too much into that today, but I really do think that there is a greater picture for us, but we're here on this earth and we're never gonna know it all. We're gonna keep talking about it and talking about it, of course. And it's fun too, and it's fun to say, you know, it's fun to ask the questions about each other's birth charts and and what's your archetype, and because it's it's a mystery. It's that's almost never gonna be solved unless we pass away and we can somehow relay that information back down to Earth. But unfortunately, those of us who do that are often not believed. Often the spirits that try to come through, people go, ah, that must be fake, right? Anyways, so it's a loop. It's a loop, perhaps, that will never get solved because we're not meant to actually know the answers, but it's a hell of a lot of fun to try to figure it out, that's for sure. But I I um I what's what's the word? Would uh what's the word I um Look in look into it for yourself. You know, figure out your birth chart. Add up so in numerology too, um, to kind of figure out like your life path, it's your entire birth date added together. Um, that's a good hint. So even starting there, because it's really simple, um, will kind of tell you a decent amount about yourself, and then there's so much more to it, and I'm very slowly learning, but you add up your birth date. So if my birthday is 11, let's make up a birthday. November 1st, 2000. Not my birthday. You add up all the digits. So November is 11, the 11th month. So 1-1 is 2. Let's say it's what did I say? I don't even know. Um, the first of November. So 0-1 is the first day of November. Obviously, you add zero, you add one, that's one. And then 2000, 2 plus 0 plus 0 plus 0, 2. So 2 plus 1 plus 2, you get 5. That is your life path number. So you just add up all the digits, and there are master numbers in the universe: 11, 22, 33. These numbers don't always get added up together. So if you have a life path number that adds up to 11, I believe you can look at 11, you can look at one, but 11 has significance on its own. Same with 22 and 33. 33 being one of the biggest, I believe, um master numbers uh to the universe. And again, you can do all that research if you'd like, but from my experience, it is so worth doing it. It is so worth figuring out who you are. Uh, I mean, you know who you are, but it's it's a validating thing. And once you understand that it's just a tool to help you get to know yourself more, it's gonna help validate you, and it's gonna help you understand what you need to balance yourself out. So my sun sign is Scorpio. The complete opposite from my sign is Taurus, very grounding energy. Scorpio is a, I have a fixed water sign, but water is still moving, there's still momentum. Um, Taurus is an earth sign. Um, your opposite is going to be what you need that grounds you, and that there's more to that again, but once you start to understand it more, it just helps you know how to keep yourself in line, understand yourself, validate yourself, confirm things that maybe you've always wanted to confirm, right? Maybe you're shy about thinking, oh, I'm a natural-born leader, or oh, I'm an introvert who, you know, exercise, oh, I'm a little bit more rebellious. Why am I rebellious? I don't want to be too rebellious, you know. Oh, I'm a like me. I always felt like a black sheep of the family, of friends, of everyone, of everything. I just sometimes think differently. And I'm starting to understand that it's okay because I am who I am, and you're allowed to be who you are. So if you take anything away from this, from any of these big thoughts, if you want to learn about your birth chart or human design or numerology, whatever, whatever it is that you're looking into now or aren't or you want to, like, go for it. Because it's not, it doesn't make you a wacko, but just if anything, you're gonna walk away feeling more comfortable in your own skin. And that's the point at the end of the day of even someone who is highly dedicated to their religion is just looking to fit in, to understand themselves, and to have faith that they are okay, right? That you're fine, but you are, you're good. So take my advice, have some fun, do something a little more out of the usual, dive into your chart, be silly about it, don't take it too seriously. Who knows? Maybe you'll start connecting some big questions in your own mind. And if you do, if you have any thoughts on this, leave me a comment. Whether you're listening to this on Spotify or you're reading a, you know, you see any of my posts on social media. Um, I am gonna be putting a link up to my website as well soon, which will also have a newsletter because I'm going to begin sending out updates on new episodes that come out. I'm getting really excited as I try to formulate more of how to be truly myself and how to be my free thinking self on this podcast. Um, but I'm also, once that launches, I will have some resources on my website as well. And this isn't therapy, this isn't um me trying to tell you how to better yourself. Uh these resources are gonna be things that I have found interest in, whether it's links to some research papers that maybe I talk about, maybe I don't. It's just it's gonna be there. Links to good, like for this uh episode, um, links to a good site that'll give you your astrology birth chart, um, stuff that I found helpful to me, books that I've read that I really love and that have inspired me, um, even movies or documentaries, like just resources for if you think like me and you want to learn similar things or you want to see what I'm up to, what my interests are, that's all gonna be on that website as well. So I'm hoping to have that kind of tidied up and launched within the next couple of episodes. So I will remind you about that as well. But you'll be able to see the link on my socials as well as for anyone who goes the Buzz Sprout route and listens to podcasts that way, there'll be links there, um, which is probably very unlikely. Hence Spotify, Apple, and such. I'm still trying to get this on to um Apple. No, not Apple, Amazon Prime stuff. I don't believe it's been approved yet, but that's fine. We're working on it. I'm just trying to make sure that this can be listened to wherever you already are. I would like to come to you, not the opposite way around. Make life easy for people. But anyways, thank you so much for tuning in. I know I've rambled a lot, but I just hope it's opened your mind to maybe a new question that you've always had, or maybe you have new questions. Maybe you just want to connect, whatever it is, do it. I approve it. And just remember that it's it's your life to live, and you have to live your life as if your script is unwritten, yet to be written, but it will be and will only be written by you. Remember that. So until next time, take care of yourself. We'll see you then.