The Rainbow Connection
THE RAINBOW CONNECTION is a podcast for mothers navigating the sacred, often silent path of pregnancy after loss. Each episode holds space for real, vulnerable birth stories—from women who have experienced miscarriage, stillbirth, TFMR, or infant loss. Some are holding their rainbow babies now. Some are pregnant again, and others are still trying to conceive after loss. All are sharing the truth of what it means to keep going after life-shattering grief.Here, you’ll hear stories that aren’t often told—the ones full of fear, strength, heartbreak, and hope. These are not your typical blissful birth stories. They are stories of angel babies and rainbow babies. Of cesareans and unmedicated births. Of belly births, vaginal births, and everything in between. Most importantly, they are stories of resilience. Of courage. Of a love that endures.We believe a rainbow isn’t just a baby born after loss—it’s a bridge: a connection between what was lost and what may still come. A symbol of strength, love, and healing.If you’re pregnant after loss, trying to conceive, or searching for hope after pregnancy loss, this podcast is for you. You’ll walk away feeling less alone, more seen, and deeply validated in your experience.
The Rainbow Connection
“Every Pregnancy Was a Happy Pregnancy” — Carmen Grover on Miscarriage, TFMR & Finding Joy Again
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In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, I sit down with Canadian mom and pediatric nurse, Carmen Grover, to talk about her eleven pregnancies — including early miscarriages, TFMR, the second-trimester loss of her daughter Kaia Bell, and the long, complicated road of pregnancy after loss. Carmen speaks so beautifully about the memories that tether her to each of her babies, the moments that nearly broke her, and the ones that helped her begin to heal. This is a tender story of grief, motherhood after loss, and finding hope again.
We talk about:
- Carmen’s first pregnancy and the early losses that followed
- The heartbreaking diagnosis that led to the TFMR of her daughter Kaia Bell
- How writing became a way to hold, honor, and remember each of her babies
- The complexity of pregnancy after loss and learning to celebrate again
- Parenting living children while grieving the ones you never got to raise
- How partners grieve differently and the strain loss can place on a relationship
- What it looks like to honoUr all of her babies as her family grows
- The unexpected ways her children continue to teach her about love and grief
- Finding healing through community, ritual, and small everyday moments
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Carmen:
Carmen Grover is a Canadian mom to eleven babies — four in her arms and seven she carries in her heart. A pediatric nurse and gifted storyteller, she speaks openly about miscarriage, second-trimester loss, TFMR, and the complex emotions of pregnancy after loss. Carmen’s writing and quiet rituals have become the way she continues to honor each of her babies. She shares her journey in hopes that no parent walking through grief ever feels alone.
Instagram: @adiarytoourbabies
A Diary to my Babies: Find Carmen's book here
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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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