How Your Desires Point You Toward Your Next Self

A desire hits you out of nowhere and suddenly your “normal” life feels too small. That moment is the doorway. I’m sharing a fresh download on why our goals, cravings, and curiosities aren’t random at all, they’re symbols from our higher self calling us toward the next version of who we are.

We talk about desires as “glitches in the matrix,” the internal emotional shift that breaks you out of your memorized identity, and why trying to force outcomes can actually slow everything down. I also tell the wild story of following an impulse to apply for a runway casting with zero experience, showing up with no makeup as a self-love challenge, and how that one choice kicked off a chain of synchronicities that landed me on Ujima Radio.

Then I walk through Bashar’s five-step formula for using excitement as a guidance system: follow what lights you up, do it to the best of your ability, drop insistence on results, stay in a positive state, and keep updating the beliefs that no longer fit. You’ll leave with a simple 24-hour challenge to track hunches and desires, plus a new way to see “random” wants (yes, even the Porsche example) as clues to your next identity shift. If this resonates, subscribe, share it with a friend who’s feeling stuck, and leave a review so more people can find the show.

Transcript

Desires As Higher Self Signals

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Hello my honeys, welcome to the Soul Leb Podcast with me, your host, Emma Jones. I am feeling so so inspired. I've had an absolute download epiphany and I woke up this morning at probably like 6 a.m. and I was stirring in bed for a little bit and this idea was just ruminating, and so I picked up my phone and it was probably about 7am at this point, and I voice noted my friend Jess because I had to get it off my chest. Yesterday I did a reel about identity shifting, how to go from identity 1.0 to identity 2.0. And then today I woke up with this whole new download of information on our desires, and it's something that I think I've known about, but it's definitely dropped down on such a deeper level, and everything this morning felt so clear. I was like, I have to tell someone, I need to tell someone, I need to share someone. So I thought, what a better thing to do than to create a podcast episode about this because I think it's really important for us to realize how powerful our desires are, and that actually our goals and our desires and the things that excite us are symbols from our higher self to move us forward to the person that we're supposed to be. So, in this download that I got, it was saying to me that our higher self gives us these desires and these goals or this inspiration or this curiosity to symbolize visually the version of ourselves that we actually are or want to be or want to experience. So I feel like there are many versions of ourselves, and I don't think it ever really ends, but I feel like we experience, you know, identity 1.0, 2.0, 3.0, 4.0, if we're willing to follow these desires to get us to more of who we want to be or to bring us closer to the true self. And as I was thinking about this, I thought about the mother bird up in the tree, and she's constantly sending out a signal to her young, and it doesn't change, it is consistent. That sound is consistent, and that is exactly like our guidance system. It is constantly calling us, our higher self is constantly there, it doesn't ever go away. We just tune ourselves out from it. But these desires that come through are almost signaling to us over here, over here, over here, you know, it's like calling us, like over here, over here.

The Glitch That Breaks Identity

SPEAKER_00 2:48

And they are like glitches. I saw it in my mind. I was like, okay, these are like these are like glitches in our matrix because if we are consistently walking, talking, acting in a current identity state, that is being reflected back to us. The things that we might want will be reflected based on the environments that we are in and the people we're around. So these new desires that feel almost out in the distance or almost quite possibly not achievable are way outside of our current identity. And really, we shouldn't be able to see or um perceive these things beyond our current identity, but it's because they are coming from source, they are coming from our higher self, they are a glitch in the matrix from that moment, momentarily breaking us out of our memorized self. And they produce inside of us either something uh of an emotion of excitement, or it might be curiosity, as I said, or inspiration. There's just this feeling of like, oh, that looks fun, or oh God, I'd love that. Oh my goodness, I I would love to have her life, or God, I would love to know what that car feels like to drive, or I'd love to live in a house that had this particular garden or a garage so I could da da da da da, right? There's this element of curiosity beyond our border of our current identity. And Bashar says, and I absolutely love Bashar's work, I've been following him now for the best part of about four years. He says, when you follow your desires, you naturally, the word, the key word being naturally, because I feel like we try and make everything so complicated. But when we follow our true desires, we naturally align with our true purpose. And we're always trying to find our purpose, aren't we? It's it's like, what is my purpose? I know I've asked myself that question so many times, and the more I continue on this journey, the more I'm realizing that your purpose isn't really something that you find, it's something that you are, but you are being that true self through everything that you do, and when you combine those two things the the truth of who you are, and then that filters into everything you do, that is your purpose. Like that to me is when it locks in, you are living on purpose, and so this state of reality shift, let's say, when that desire comes in, that inspiration comes in, you're like, oh, and you get this feeling inside, there's a shift internally. If you allow that desire to call you forward, and you allow it to shift your state, and you continue in that state, thinking and feeling what that desire is bringing up within you, you allow the universe to provide for you, and this is how simple it gets to be. And I have to remind myself all the time because I'm such a doer, I'm a dreamer doer. You know, I have these ideas, and then I can happily action them. I think that's a beautiful part of being an entrepreneur and a solo entrepreneur, is that you don't really necessarily need help. I mean, it can absolutely be a double-edged sword. I I can struggle with letting things go. Recently, I have been tested on that. I have I've made my first official hire. Uh, I have a videographer and a photographer working for me now, and he's actually taking work off of my plate, which feels absolutely delicious. But it is also a test to me to let things go and trust somebody else that can do it better than me, you know, not even as good as me, better than me, and train them to see how I see, but then let them have that creative freedom to go about doing what they do best and amplifying and elevating my business for me. So it's it's knowing and reminding ourselves that actually this gets to be so easy and the guidance, we are all tuned in. You know, mediums aren't special, they're just extra tuned in to what is already there. And these desires and these hunches and these moments of excitement and pleasure are our guidance system where the universe is like, I really want to help you be more of yourself, just let me help you here. Look at this beautiful object, isn't this nice? But we instantly shut it down. So rather than forcing our outcomes, which I'm so, you know, I'm I'm so familiar with that. I always think that I have to change matter with matter, and I forget that we are energy beings and we actually have a guidance system, and it's a higher self that's guiding us, and it's trying to give us these symbols to act on it, to create a whole different frequency and almost draw us to the higher version of ourselves. Like it's it's a lot easier to collapse time when we work in that way, rather than being like we've got a bleeding, like head to head and matter to matter, and I have to do this to change this. When we actually realise that we don't need to force the outcomes and we can follow these symbols and follow this little breadcrumb trail, we get to experience more effortless momentum and consistent synchronicities and more of that state of flow.

A Runway Impulse Without Makeup

SPEAKER_00 8:07

And I was very much reminded of this uh last year, I think it was now, it must have been about six months ago. I was cleaning up at work, and as I very regularly do, I multitask. So I think I was like scrolling through Instagram whilst trying to clear up the salon and lock the salon down, and I saw this advert come up for a model. So it was needed a model, runway coming up, it was in um Red Cliff Caves, and I was like, wow, that feels so cool. And I had that bodily shift that that curiosity, but it came with excitement and it was just an elevated state, you know. I totally noticed the shift. And before I really had a chance to consider it or let my normal logical mind come online, I had already applied for it. It felt like time just didn't exist in that moment. And I filled out the form and I put so little effort into it. I actually just took a photo of myself in the salon mirror so you could see me holding my phone up, and I just sent it because I didn't really I wasn't really aware of what I was doing. I just went with the signal. I was like, okay, this feels cool. I'm just gonna apply. What's the worst that can happen? And a week later, I got an email to say we would love to get you in for a casting. And I remember messaging my partner at the time, I was like, wait, what? I've just been emailed. They actually want me in. I have no modeling experience, no runway experience. I was like, okay, cool. At that time, I was trying to test myself to go without makeup. So I think I was probably on about week three, and it was really tough because I'd had a load of beliefs around wearing makeup and that I could only leave my house if I had, you know, my eyebrows done and a bit of concealer. And I really wanted to get rid of that to know whether I was enjoying makeup or it was becoming a crutch. So I thought, okay, this is a perfect opportunity to go to this casting without any makeup. And, you know, you're meant to go with castings without any makeup anyway, but this version of me hated going anywhere without makeup. I just didn't feel I just didn't feel ready. I didn't feel put together. I I felt quite self-conscious. I thought people were looking at me, but I I used this as a test. So rather than using it to confirm anything other than well, to confirm anything, really, I I still truly didn't think that this was going to be a thing. So I was like, okay, well, I'm just gonna go without any makeup. I don't know these people, I'm gonna use it to my benefit to break out of this, you know, belief system that is not true, and I am aware now that I can choose the beliefs that I want to believe in, and I don't want to believe that I am not attracted without makeup. That's a bullshit belief. I'm not carrying that around with me, especially with two daughters. I feel like I have a um a right, like a service to them to show as much self-love to myself as I possibly can, so that they can hopefully feel as much of that to themselves. Because when I was growing up, my mum would always say to me, Stop looking in the mirror, you're vain, you know, or the wind would change if you keep looking at yourself, or you keep doing that, or and and there was a constant reminder that it wasn't safe and it wasn't okay to like myself. So here I am, I'm dismantling these beliefs, and I'm using this opportunity that was has come to such a surprise to me to do that. So I get to the casting and I'm really open and honest, you know, and and she says, Why do you want this? And I'd done no research on the clothing or her. I felt actually quite underprepared, but I didn't want to know too much. I just wanted to be free and to go in there and just experience it for what it was. So she asked me, you know, why is it that you want to do this? And I was really honest and said that I just applied, you know, I felt really inspired by this ad, didn't think too much of it, and I thought, why not? But I'm also trying to test myself with um my standards of beauty and not wearing any makeup at this point in time. So here I am, I'm showing up at a casting with no makeup on, and I'm learning to love myself again through this process. And um, I think she loved it. I mean, I was quite surprised because I was just being my real self and I'm definitely not putting anything on. I was like, oh, I don't really know why I'm here, but I am, and here I am, and I'm breaking these beliefs with makeup, so hi. So then I did the walk, and the song could not have been slower. I am telling you, this was it was a Halloween runway, and the song that she's picked was basically what sounded like a ghost booing, like or like the wind. I was expecting some beat, you know, I could str up to like your normal catwalk, like the next top model kind of vibes. This was nothing like this. So the music had no beat, and it was really slow, and it was like not doing a good example of it. But I was like, I was thinking to myself, how the hell am I gonna walk? So I just again thought, Emma, just suck this up, you know, you're not gonna get it, just have fun with this. So I did the walk, and I laughed at the end, and I said, I'm really sorry, can I do that again? Because I that was awful, and we were all laughing, and it was quite lighthearted, which is great. So she was like, Yeah, sure, do the walk again. And um, she sort of explained, like, this is the beat that you step to. This song is extremely slow, I understand it, but this is kind of what you do. So I did the walk again, it went much better, but still I felt like an absolute awkward giraffe, so didn't expect anything of it. I'm sure you can guess where this is going, but in a week's time after that, I got another email to saying they absolutely loved me and they would love me to run in this catwalk. So at this point, I am absolutely flabbergasted. I never even used that word, but it's very, very relatable to this. And um, I was just in absolute shock. I was like, number one, they have picked me when I had no makeup on, which was a belief that I held that I looked my best with makeup on. I looked the most presentable with my makeup on. So all of a sudden, that belief has absolutely been obliterated. I've just received a modeling um, like a runway deal with no makeup. Wonderful. But also, I followed my instinct on a desire and that feeling that made no sense. I had no experience. I didn't really know why that desire felt so good to me based on the fact that I'd never done anything like that before, but I followed the scent. So as I received the SEMA, I thought, well, I better do a bit more research into this, these clothing, that this stylist, and just find out a bit more info because I have really gone into this so blind that it's about time that I know what the hell

Synchronicity Leads To Radio

SPEAKER_00 14:41

this is all about. So I went on her page and I saw that she was also a host of uh Ujima Radio. The same thing happened. I read that sentence and the that ignitement, that ignited excitement came all over me again, and I thought, oh my god, that is fucking cool. That's all I thought. I was like, that is so cool. And I noticed at this point that that feeling was very similar to the feeling that I had when I saw the ad for the runway. So this time I wrote down on a post-it note, I will be on Yujima Radio in three months' time. And I popped it on my notice board I have in my kitchen. Thought nothing else of it. I was like, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. That feels very cool to my system. Something's exciting me about that. Fine. My thought process on it was that I would need to go through this stylist that I did the runway casting with, try and pull her to the side, get chatting, talk to her, and tell her that I have a podcast and a book club, and somehow try and worm my way onto the radio. No idea what I'd speak about at this point. God knows. But that was the only path I could think it would happen in. On the day of the runway, it was it, I mean, it was really well managed, but it was the first one I had ever done, and it was a lot. You know, it's you're you're back to back, you're back in the in the wardrobe getting your outfits changed. Like the outfit changes are so quick, and then you're back, and it was in a cave in Redcliffe, and you know, it was pitch black, dark, they had lighting, it was great, but there was a lot to contest with, so I didn't even consider pulling her to the side. And she was super busy as well, making sure it ran well. Anyway, I got talking to the videographer on that night, and he was like asking me what I did. We went and got coffee on the break, and we were chat, chat, chat, chat, chatting. And little did I know that he was also a host on Ujima Radio Radio. I had no idea at this point, right? I was just talking to him, asking him about videography, and I said, Look, I'd love to connect you with a friend of mine who is in the film uh production sort of industry because that's kind of what he wants to get into. So I was like, please send me your details. I'd love to connect you with my friend Laura, she would be great. And um, that was that. Did the runway, absolutely fine, went home. Two weeks later, I get a text message from this videographer saying, absolutely love to you, Emma. I would love to get you onto Ujima radio. If it sounds like something you ever want to do, please let me know. We'll get you on. The following Wednesday, guess where your girl was? I was in the Ujima uh offices, and this at this point I wasn't going to record. I asked if I could just come there for a day and just be a bit of a flyer on the wall because I know how belief systems work, and I wanted to make sure that I was feeling like this was super doable or achievable. Bit like the casting, like having an understanding of the environment that you're going to be in, I think is really good for your belief system to get on board. So I went there, was a flyer on the wall, got to know the systems and got a feel for what it felt like to be in the studio. And then the following week, I was in on Ujima Radio and I was just talking about my business and you know how I went from a five-day week to a two-day week. And it was unbelievable. And what I did in that process was just journal and visualize the person who would be on this station. I mean, I didn't really do much of it. The desire that came through, that excitement that came through was enough. And so it's understanding that really we just need to follow those little desires, those little things that come online.

The Five Step Excitement Formula

SPEAKER_00 18:17

And Bashar has a really good um formula that he says to follow, which I'll go through now. So it's got five points, and it's all about how we can use our guidance system best to live our lives in the most easiest, effortless way. So point one is follow your most excitement. Just like I did with the runway, that felt extremely exciting. I saw it, I applied for it, I didn't think about it. Same thing I did with like Ujima. I I saw it, I wrote it down, I posted it note, you know, as if it was gonna happen. And I just let the universe do its thing. Number two, do it to the best of your ability and take it as far as you can until the interest naturally wanes. So with the runway, you know, I I did the best that I could. I wasn't hard on myself, I knew I'd never done anything like this before. So I wasn't expecting to get it, but I did put all of my effort into it. I got there on time, you know, I was really professional. The same with the runway, I got there really early, I made sure that I was really easy to work with. Number three, act on your passion with no insistence or expectation or assumption on what the outcome could be. Keeping a loose touch on whatever it is that you want is the best way of getting it quicker. The more you constrict and grab the thing, and you're like, I'm gonna be this or I'm gonna get this, or if I had applied for that thing, and then I was consistently emailing and saying, you know, I've I've applied for this, am I gonna get any feedback? That's me trying to control the outcome. I just did my thing, felt the impulse, and left it to the universe to be. Follow that passion with no insistence. Same as this podcast, you know, I don't have any expectations of where this will go, but I absolutely love doing it. It's such a passion of mine that I put my all into it. I make sure that it's good. You know, I want it to be something that brings value to people and helps people, but it's also just my passion. That's not something that I need from this. I don't need it to bring value if it does great, and that's what I would most enjoy, but I don't have that as an insistent outcome. I'm just letting it be and letting it flow and just being consistent on that passion and doing it to the best of my ability. Number four, choose to remain in a positive state no matter what happens. Again, with the runway as an example, when I messed up the first walk, I could have chosen and said, fucking hell, I'm not made for this, and this is embarrassing. Because there was two people watching that I'd never known before, and the music was just not what I was expecting. But instead, I just laughed and I was like, this is fun, this is silly. I'm walking like an awkward fucking giraffe. I even said that to the lady. I was like, I'm really sorry, this I look like an awkward giraffe. This is I've never done anything like this before, but I'm having a lot of fun, so thank you for the opportunity. And it's that, it's staying in the positive state. I had no expectations, and I was really positive about the whole thing, even though I messed it up. I thought you don't need to, when you try and micromanage or you try to be too hard on yourself, you are just constricting. You are stopping the flow, you are stopping the universe flow. Number five, consistently investigate your belief systems and release and replace the unpreferred beliefs. Your fear-based beliefs are not all in alignment with your preferred self-to-be. A great example of this was the makeup for me. You know, I, as soon as I applied for it and I realized I got the casting, my belief came in to say, oh, you can't do that. You know, you don't look great without makeup. You, you know, I have specific things that I don't like without concealer, and it's it's not real. It's not a belief that I want to carry forward. It doesn't align with the person that I want to be, especially if I want to be casting for model runways and shoots. You have to be comfortable in your own skin. And so I was letting go and choosing beliefs that I wanted to keep and the ones that I wanted to let go of. So that is a formula. So follow your most experience. Excitement, do it to the best of your ability, act on your passion with no expectations, choose to remain in a positive state and consistently investigate your belief systems.

Stop Forcing The How

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Because the physical mind does not conceive or generate ideas. When I heard this and realized this, this has been very, very powerful to me. So I'll read that again. The physical mind does not conceive or generate ideas. The purpose is for it to perceive what the higher mind is conceives. So it's like you've probably heard this before, like a radio transmitter. It is just the radio box, it transmits the frequency of the idea, of the desire into its box and it conceives the idea. A bit like us females, we, although we do create life, but we conceive the idea through the male, right? Like we're we conceive the idea. So if we think about it that way, we are never the ones in control of the ideas that come through, or we shouldn't be. And when we are, they're probably nothing new and nothing that's going to point us in the direction of our purpose and of our true self. So if we think of the physical mind, so the physical mind is designed to experience the physical world. So it focuses on the now and the perceived how things occur, but it is definitely not designed to figure out the how things will happen. And that's where we get stuck. We think, I want this, how am I gonna get it? Same as when I applied for this runway, and then I saw that she also was a host on Ujima Radio. My mind tried to kind of figure out the how. It's like, oh, I'll get her, I'll pull her to the side, I'll tell her what I do, and I'll ask if I can come on a radio station. Because I was able to let that go because I was too busy on the runway night anyway, the universe could come in and be like, hun, we have a much quicker way. Just let us be. We know what you want and we will figure it out for you. And that's exactly what it did. The higher mind conceives of the ideas, it sees the broader picture, the multidimensional picture, and operates outside of our linear time. So we think that, oh, okay, I want this career, and because I'm looking externally at the not the property ladder, the career ladder, it's going to take me seven years. That's the physical mind trying to change matter with matter. The higher mind can see beyond time and space what you want and can find the path of least resistance to get you there if you just allow it to be and you follow this little breadcrumb scent trail of these little glimmers of desire. So there's a bridge in between the two. The higher mind communicates its concepts to you through your emotions, specifically by guiding you towards a higher excitement. So anytime you feel that little bit of excitement, that is the bridge. That's that moment of the glitch in the matrix that is showing you a way out, showing you a way to be more of yourself. So our our job really is to be aware of that shift in emotion that we feel when a new desire comes online. So it's like our spiritual GPS, let's say, our sat nav, um, that is always guiding us. It doesn't stop. You know, it's it it's and yeah, I guess it just never stops, really. It's that consistent stream, it's a bit like the radio station. It doesn't really matter what station you tune on, the radio is always on. You might not be listening to Kiss, but KISS is always on, it's always available, it's always in the background. So acting on the trigger and and or acting on the desire is then triggering almost like a domino effect of opportunities. And and as you've seen, it went from having a runway or a model experience for it to instantly like within weeks, it went straight into be me being on a radio station that I'd never even considered four weeks prior to that. I didn't even think that that could be a thing for me. So following these and getting more familiar with that

A 24 Hour Desire Experiment

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hunch. So what I want you to do is for the next 24 hours, it's not gonna be a long thing, just 24 hours. I want you to become more aware of these little hunches and these little moments of, oh, I'm gonna take a different route to work today. Or, oh, I'm not gonna do, I'm gonna go to that coffee shop today. I'm not actually gonna do my housework today. This is something my friend's been uh practicing with recently. She's just been leaving all her housework and just go into a coffee shop and doing loads of art, and she has felt like elated. And yes, okay, she has to come back to do her housework, but you bet she's in a much better mood and has more energy when she comes back after giving herself that time after following her true desire to clean her house with, right? So let's follow those impulses, even if it's going to the toilet when your body actually signals to you to go to the toilet. All of that is tuning us to listen to our inner voice. How many times do you think, oh, I really need a wee, or I really need I'm hungry? Like that's a classic for me. I'm hungry, but I work through it and I don't actually feed my body when I need to. But maybe if I followed that hunch and I went to the shops and bought some bread, I might bump into somebody and they might tell me about a festival this on that they got free tickets of. You know, like it really truly happens that way. It's just listening. So give it 24 hours, see how you feel, write down all of the moments that came up, especially any big desires, ones that maybe you can't act on now, but you maybe a car drives past you, for an example. I've got recently, I saw a picture of a Porsche, and it came up on my feed, and I felt the same feeling, and I was like, oh, oh, okay. I've never considered wanting a sports car before. That's not something that's ever been on my mind, but I also do really recognise this feeling, so I'm like, okay, so I've put it on my vision board, and sure enough, Pinterest is now providing me all these incredibly beautiful Porsches, which they are absolutely stunning. And I know that this Porsche is just a symbol, and sure, maybe I will end up with a Porsche, fine, but I know it's much more than that. It is symbolizing so much. It symbolises if I can afford to get a Porsche, that to me shows that I'm in overflow with my money. I've got enough money to spend 150 grand on a Porsche, then bloody hell, I'm, you know, financially free at that point. It also makes me feel like I want to dress up a bit better. The thought of getting into a Porsche and opening that door and sitting in that leather, I want to be in my best clothes. I want my hair to be did, you know, I want to be looking fancy. I want to see my polished painted nails when my hand is on that steering wheel. I want to be wearing my best jewellery. And you see how like elevated that makes us feel. Like it changes and shifts our frequency. So that's the newest one for me that I've been playing around with. But getting familiar with that feeling, write them down, write the big ones down. Don't be afraid of what they are, write them down. And in the next episode, I'm then gonna go into uh the resistance that comes up and talking about how to move beyond that resistance of our current belief systems that aren't serving this new desire that is coming through. So, ooh, I hope that you've enjoyed that um podcast episode because that was so uh so inspired. Like I said, I woke up this morning and I thought, God, I need to get this out. So uh thankfully, my friend uh listened to my whole seven-minute voice note, which was a podcast in itself. And as she was listening to it, somebody heard my voice through her voice note. She must have been having it on LiveSpeaker, and he said, That girl has got a really good voice for a podcast. And I thought, do you know what? I haven't done an episode for a while, and that was just a signal to me from the universe to say, you time to get this down on a pod so that someone else can listen to it. So yeah, I hope you've enjoyed that. And I will see you for the next episode when we're talking about releasing the resistance towards your desires. Bye, honeys.