Outside the Script
Outside the Script is a podcast about questioning the traditional life path and intentionally creating a different way of living.
Hosted by Amanda Curcuru, this show explores freedom-centered living, conscious motherhood, natural healing, and designing a life that prioritizes family, time, and personal values.
Through stories, reflections, and conversations, Amanda invites listeners to think differently about success, work, and what it means to live a meaningful life.
If you’ve ever felt like the traditional script wasn’t meant for you, this podcast is an invitation to explore another way.
Outside the Script
Identity Between Chapters: Learning to Trust Who You're Becoming
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Have you ever felt like you're no longer the person you used to be, but you're not quite sure who you're becoming?
In this episode of Outside the Script, Amanda explores the often-overlooked season of life that exists between chapters, the space where old identities begin to fall away and new ones haven't fully emerged yet.
After a year filled with unexpected change, uncertainty, letting go, and rebuilding, Amanda shares her reflections on identity shifts, personal growth, grief, trust, and what it means to navigate life's in-between seasons without having all the answers.
Together, we'll explore:
✨ Why every transformation requires letting go of an old version of ourselves
✨ The grief that often accompanies personal growth
✨ How to navigate uncertainty without rushing for answers
✨ The difference between being lost and being in transition
✨ Learning to trust yourself when life doesn't go according to plan
✨ Why the "hallway" between chapters may be where the deepest growth happens
If you're experiencing a life transition, questioning your next steps, or feeling caught between who you were and who you're becoming, this conversation is for you.
Because sometimes the most important chapter isn't the one you're entering, it's the person you're becoming along the way.
Hello everybody, and welcome back to Outside the Script. Happy Tuesday. I'm doing this on Tuesday. I usually do my podcast on Monday and Wednesday, but yesterday was such a full day that you know what? Sometimes this stuff happens, but you know what? It's Tuesday. I'm still showing up. So here we are. Um, so I'm gonna jump right in. Today I want to talk about something that I think many of us experience, but few of us actually have the language for. It's a space between chapters, a season where the old version of life no longer fits, but the new version hasn't fully arrived yet. The place where we you you no longer are who you were, but you're not quite sure of who you're becoming. And this is where I just find myself lately. Life looks different than I thought it would. And I think so many of us feel that way on a many different levels, and the plans have shifted, and the certainty that I once clung to has definitely been challenged in some way. And I've been using this analogy of like I'm standing in a hallway between two or two doors. One has already closed behind me and the other one hasn't opened yet. And while that space can feel uncomfortable and is uncomfortable in a lot of ways, and it's confusing and sometimes scary at times, but I'm beginning to wonder if it's actually where some of our deepest growth happens, which I do know. Of course it does, right? You need these hard times, you need these seasons so you can evolve. And so I want to talk about today, like identity between chapters and about letting go and becoming and learning about how to trust ourselves in spaces where we don't have all the answers. And I've been reflecting a lot lately on what chapter of my life is actually ending, and what's interesting is that it doesn't, I don't think about it as like a house or a business or even the mold situation or like a specific circumstance. I think the chapter that is ending is the version of me who believes safety came from having everything figured out. And it's not that like I think that we all have everything figured out at all times, because we definitely don't. Like God laughs at plans in a lot of ways, right? But the version of me who thought that I could find the right plan, the right business, the right path, the right answer, and that I could finally relax, then I could finally find security, then I could finally find trust. But life has a funny way of showing us where we're attached to our sense of safety. And over the past years, so much of what felt familiar has been stripped away: the house, the belongings, the routine, the certainty, the timelines, even some of my identities that I thought I would carry forever. And while I wouldn't have chosen these experiences, I can see now that they were asking me a deeper question. Who are you when all the things you used to define yourself by begin to change? And one of the things I realized that is every transformation comes with grief. But we really talk about that part. And we love talking about the growth, the healing, the becoming, and I do too. I love talking about all the good stuff. I am positive and sunny by nature. But what we need to be talking about is like what has to die first. Every major transition asks us to let go of something, an old belief, an old identity, an old dream, an old vision of ourselves. And there is grief in that. And not because it's wrong and not because you feeled, it's because it served us for a season. And I think sometimes people assume that if you're feeling lost, uncertain, emotional, um, untethered, something must be wrong. But what if that's that's like simply grieve and aversion of yourself that no longer fits? And like, what about if you're just standing in the middle of a deep transformation? And so, like I said, this image that keeps coming to mind lately is the hallway. Because most of us focus on one room: the room where they were, the room where they want to go, but we're not talking enough about the hallway, the in-between space, the waiting space, the uncertainty, the place where the old door has closed, but the new one hasn't opened yet. So that's where many of us rush. We panic, we try to force answers, and we just try to be very logical about it and very guilty. And we try to figure out the entire future. We desperately search for certainty. And what if the hallway has purpose? What if it's not a mistake? What if it's where we learn we what would it let's try this again? What if it's where we learn who we are without all the labels, without all the plans, without all the guarantees? Because maybe the hallway isn't there to, you know, punish us, punish us. I always I don't know if that's the right word, but it keeps coming through. So but maybe it's there to prepare us. So the question I've been asking myself lately is what is beneath all the labels? Beneath being a mother, a wife, a server, a business owner, a podcaster, a doula, a birth worker, a healer, a dreamer. Who am I when all those rules become quieter? Because all those things are a part of me, but they're not all of me. And maybe one of the gifts of being between chapters is that it invites us to discover the parts of ourselves that aren't dependent on circumstances. The parts that remain no matter where we live, no matter what we do for work, no matter what title we hold, no matter what chapter we're in. So if I had to sum up the lesson of this season that keeps teaching me, is it's trust. Not trusting that everything will go according to planned. Clearly, life does not always work that way. We all know that, we've all experienced it. But trust in yourself, trust in myself, trust that I can handle what comes next. Trust that I don't have to have the entire future mapped out because I think that is the way, or that I need to take the next step. Trust that uncertainty doesn't mean that I'm lost and that I'm falling behind. Trust that becoming often looks messy while living in it and being okay with that. I think so much of my life I believe confidence came from certainty. And now I'm starting to believe that confidence comes from trusting myself, even when certainty isn't available. So, and that's a very different thing. It's a very different thing, and it's a huge lesson and things that I'm learning and what I'm learning and processing and what's alive right now. So, if you're listening to this, if you feel like you're between tractors right now, I want you to know something. You are not lost, you are not behind, you are not feeling, you may be simply standing in the hallway. And while the hallways are uncomfortable, they are also scary. They're where old identities fall away, they're where new possibilities begin to emerge. And this is where we learn to trust ourselves in deeper ways. And maybe the goal isn't to rush the next chapter, but maybe the goal is to become the person who can fully live in it when it arrives. Maybe that's that's what I'm thinking. So that's it for today. And I'm gonna go enjoy this beautiful sunny day with my girls. They played hooky. We're gonna go to the beach. We really need it. We need to spend some quality time together. It's just been very busy. We moved into our summer rental, unpacking, just getting it like cozy for the summer. I've been working a lot, just so many transitions. So, you know what? Today we're gonna spend it together. We're gonna soak up the sun and it's gonna feel really good. And just gonna follow all the threads that will just nourish me for the next couple days because I don't have work. So that's what we're gonna do. So if this episode resonates for you with you, I would love to hear from you. And until next time, remember you don't have to have it all figured out, you just have to trust the person you are becoming. I'll see you in the next episode of Outside the Script. And remember, I love you so much. I'm grateful for you. Thank you.