What My Life Has Been Teaching Me Lately (The Threads Are Starting to Show)

In this episode, I step back from trying to label everything I’ve been learning and instead notice the pattern underneath it all.

From health and the nervous system, to moving, nature, healing, and everyday life, everything has started to feel like one continuous conversation instead of separate topics.

This isn’t an episode about having answers. It’s about recognizing the threads that keep showing up again and again, and what they might be trying to teach me.

What happens when we stop trying to force clarity and start listening for the pattern instead?

Transcript

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Hello everybody, happy Wednesday, happy Mercury Day. Hopefully everyone can hear me okay. I don't have my mic. Um I'm up north on vacation, taking a little holiday with my family to, you know, be in the mountains and be in nature. Yeah, and so today um I just want to kind of like reflect on some of the lessons and the things that I've been learning lately and yeah, and just the things that I've gone through, like with my health and my environment and my nervous system, and just even the way you know how I'm returning back to the earth and nature, and yeah, they're kind of I feel like all just kind of point to the same thing in a lot of ways, the lessons that I've been learning and integrating, and so I just want to slow down and just speak from that today, and you know, not that I have anything figured out, and you know, I don't think anybody has ever has anything you know figured out to be honest. Seriously. Um, but I think sometimes we don't realize what we're learning until we actually pause long enough to hair back in our like just to hair that back or reflect on that, you know. And so one of the big biggest things that I've learned, especially through my experience with the mold and moving, getting rid of all my belongings, the health challenges, is that um your environment is not just the background, it's a part of the body experience. And for a long time I thought that healing was you know the right foods, organic food, uh the right supplements, routine, the right thoughts, positivity, and all the all those things, you know, which aren't all very important, but I started realizing something deeper sometimes that the body isn't asking for more input. The body isn't always asking for more input. Huge, right? It's asking for a different environment: air, space, light, safety, and those things are not like should never be like kind of like second thought. They're foundational, and that's one of the ways that um that I'm like really you know, seeing health on a deeper level, and it's not like I didn't know these things, but like I alluded to in the last episode, like you know something, you know it, but then it'll circle back around, and then you'll get the lesson a little deeper, and then it will circle back around and you'll get it a little deeper, and then I'll circle back around, and you just keep on getting it on deeper levels. Um because now I like and another question like I say to myself is now I don't just ask like what do I need to fix, it's more like what is my body living inside of every day. And so that's like been one of my questions or things that you know I think about. And so another thing is that I've talked about in you know, other episodes, and another big lesson for me is the nervous system and uh how powerful it is, and like for me, I never really gave too much value or put too much emphasis on the nervous system because it was just like such a buzzword, and everybody like the nervous system, the nervous system, and it was like kind of annoying to me to be honest. Um, but the nervous system is really important, and uh when the nervous system doesn't feel safe, everything else gets really hard. Sleep, digestion, emotion, clarity, energy, it all just shifts. And I used to like just kind of push through that, but now I do see it differently. The nervous system is not something to override, it is definitely something to listen to, and most of what we call healing is actually just the body slowly slowly remembering to um remembering and bringing it back to safety again, and you know, not forcing change, not chasing perfection, just coming back into this regulated um state. So that's been huge, and that's still unfolding for me. Another thing, um, just you know, as I, you know, slowly return back to my roots in herbalism and embody that and as it unfolds, you know, I used to just kind of more be like interested in herbalism and the herbs and nature and seasonal living and gyre and all that, of course, but it feels like it's becoming something else, and it's also becoming a way of understanding life, and you know, I love how nature does not rush healing, it doesn't force growth all year long, it doesn't see rest as failure, it cycles, and I feel like the more we can pay attention to that, the more I I can pay attention to that, the more I realize that so much of the human struggle comes from trying to live outside of those rhythms. So now I don't just look at nature as something beautiful or you know, i I look at it more as like something that is has so much intelligence and wisdom, and it's something that we all can learn from. Yeah, I'm excited for my journey and my unfolding to keep unfold unfold that to keep on unfolding for me. So another thing is um there was a time that I would just be gathering information 24-7 all the time, always in trainings, sometimes two or three at a time, you know, learning about healing, pregnancy birth, uh holistic health and healing, spirituality, everything. But at some point that has started to shift and it has, you know, recently and even last year, I was in college uh for a full year studying graphic design, but uh I just because knowing something isn't the same as like living it, and that's a big thing for me is like I want to start embodying the things if I'm gonna go train in something, I want there to be a level of an embodiment and time spent within that. Um so now it's like how do I actually live this? And I feel like that shift is gonna be like shift will become that shift from consuming to embodying is definitely probably one of my biggest internal changes that I'm like moving through. Honestly. Um just the whole idea of like embodiment, true embodiment. And when you see other people who really embody something, I think, and they really embody like their job or their line of work, it's I think a beautiful sight, and I just really love witnessing other women who are fully um embodied in whatever it is that they are so passionate about. And another thing I'm learning over and over again is that healing does not move in a straight line. I don't think anything does. Um, and these days, uh, where things are starting to feel a little more clear and aligned in the days where everything feels like it's moving backwards as well. I'm starting to understand that the nervous system doesn't like learn through perfection, it learns through repetition. And that's been a big one repetition and consistency and through safety, um of being present again and again. So now I try to like relate healing to uh less of a destination, and I'm trying to look at it at it as more of a relationship. So yeah, those are kind of some of the lessons that I have been learning along the way, and some of the shifts for me, and I think the biggest shift in all this is that I'm I've stopped trying to separate it into like categories. I used to think that like learning about health and herbs and nervous system or personal growth, but now it feels like more um in like in a relationship with life itself, if that makes sense. And uh, I feel like life keeps teaching me things and the same things, but in like different ways of like slowing down, pay attention, notice what your body is telling you, notice what nature is showing me, notice what happens when I stop forcing everything into place. Huge, you can't force shit to happen, you just can't, it just doesn't work that way. Um doesn't for me anyway, so and I don't think I need to fully understand all of it yet, and I don't know if I ever will. Maybe, maybe not, doesn't matter. I just think I need to keep listening and being still, and um because somewhere in all this there's a rhythm forming underneath everything, and so I'm starting to trust that if I keep paying attention to it, uh it will keep revealing what I need to see next. That's the hope, that's the intention. So, anyway, um, I love you all. I'm so grateful for you. I'm going to go get back to my family and go get to the lake, and I will talk to you in the next episode. Bye for now.