Outside the Script
Outside the Script is a podcast about questioning the traditional life path and intentionally creating a different way of living.
Hosted by Amanda Curcuru, this show explores freedom-centered living, conscious motherhood, natural healing, and designing a life that prioritizes family, time, and personal values.
Through stories, reflections, and conversations, Amanda invites listeners to think differently about success, work, and what it means to live a meaningful life.
If you’ve ever felt like the traditional script wasn’t meant for you, this podcast is an invitation to explore another way.
Outside the Script
The In-Between: Trusting the Dream While Living the Life You Have
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What do you do when you're deeply grateful for the life you've built, but you know your soul is calling you toward something more?
In this episode, I'm sharing what it really feels like to live in the in-betwee that season where your job pays the bills, your responsibilities are full, and your dream is quietly waiting for the space to grow.
As a working mom in my forties, I know what it's feels like to juggle work, family, relationships, and the desire to create something that truly lights you up. I also know the sadness that can creep in when you wonder if you'll ever have the time to fully step into your purpose.
But lately, I've been learning that dreams aren't built through constant pressure or rushing the timeline. They're built through patience, deep trust, and continuing to take small steps while life unfolds around you.
If you've ever felt like you're caught between the life you have and the life you're working toward, this conversation is for you. Together, we'll explore why the in-between isn't wasted tim... it may be the very season that's preparing you for everything you're meant to create.
Because what is meant for you will happen... even if it doesn't happen on your timeline.
Hello everybody and welcome back to Outside the Script. Happy Monday, Happy Moon Day. It has been such a busy weekend. I hope everyone had a really great 4th of July with their family. I had to work, but I had last week off, and it was really just so special to spend time with my family. And I spent time with my sister and her children. And we went to the campground that we grew up. When I was younger, my parents had a seasonal site up in the White Mountains. So all summer I would spend my summers in the White Mountains, just roaming around. And it was just such a core memory, and just it was just such nostalgia to be there with my sister and all the kids and just talking about all the good times. Yeah, we both um, so my sister is my half-sister, and we share the same dad, and we had different moms. Um, but we have lost, she's lost her mom, my stepmom, and we have both lost our father. He has passed on. So we just kind of really feel like we try to cultivate and celebrate all the good times that we had with my stepmother and my dad, and her mother and my dad. So that felt really good. Today I want to talk about something that I've been thinking about once again, and so much of what this show is about is like me just sharing my journey and this like space of being in between, a space of where working a job that pays the bills, but it's not your sole work. And we're like showing up for responsibilities and for family and for life, but there's always a deeper part of you that knows you're just meant for something more. And you know, you're not confused about what you want, you're just learning how to hold it, I feel like, in a lot of ways. And I feel like you have to go through these accumulations of lessons while life is still happening. And for me right now, I feel like it's just kind of like a mix of just everything. It's like a whole bag of heaps of gratitude and some pressure, but that's like something I'm really trying to lay off of is pressure because that's been a big, um, a big lesson for me is you can't really create from like insane pressure on yourself. I mean, yeah, you can, but it's not sustainable long term. And I don't think it comes from this place of alignment and source and flow. And also, I feel like I'm feeling like heaps of hope and lots of exhaustion. I'm so grateful for my job. I really am. I'll I'll say it to the day I die. I'm just so grateful for my job. And I love it, you know, but it's not obviously it's not my passion. It's not where I want to cultivate all my time. But this is the season we're at. And I'm in a season where I can feel how much like I'm holding all at once as well, and just like the accumulation of this whole last year of the mold and the moving and the multiple moves and being sick and my daughter being sick, and you know, relationship, marriage stuff like just all the things, all the things, you know, work, life, kids, and now the kids being on summer break, dreams, taking care of myself. I just I definitely feel like I am just at capacity. I feel like I'm doing pretty well. I'm staying afloat, but I know it's like not sustainable long term. And not because anything's wrong either, but it's because everything is just kind of, I feel like, happening at the same time and just like being in the middle of it and still having, you know, this dream that pulls me towards something that feels like my soul work, something that makes me feel alive, joy, something that I can build that feels like my own legacy and something that is um something I can pass down to my family, my children. And I believe that soul work isn't just a job, it's something that lights you up so much that you lose track of time. It it feels really good. And I love the saying when people say, like, it doesn't even feel like work. I haven't worked a day in my life, but they're clearly working. And I don't feel like it's about escaping any type of responsibility, but it's like about moving towards something that feels fully alive inside of you. And for me, I don't want just ease, I want meaning. I I want to work hard towards something that actually makes me feel really awake and in my life. And, you know, if I'm being honest, there's a fear that does sit underneath it all, and that I might never get around to it, that life will stay too full, too busy, too heavy, and that my dreams will stay something that like something that's just you know stays in the ethers and that never fully grounds. And when that fear shows up, you know, it does bring like this deep sadness. But you know, that's you know, what I'm learning, I will say, is like dreams don't come from extreme pressures, they don't come from forcing myself into burnout and urgency, they don't come from trying to rush my life and to happen faster. I'm learning that dreams come from patience. It's truly just patience and from trust and learning how to actually be in my life while still building what I'm called to build, and also letting go of timelines, my own timelines, because I believe that okay, I should have it accomplished by then and this and this and that, and really just dissolving, putting it on a timeline because whatever is meant for us is going to happen, but it just may not happen on our timeline or the way that we envision it. And so I think it's the hardest thing, and I think a lot of us have a hard time is like just like really trying to enjoy the journey along the way. And even when you don't have it figured out yet, even though I keep saying that, I just don't even think we ever have it figured out, but maybe we do, maybe you don't. I don't know. I'll ponder that, right? And most of all, it's just like this deeper trust in source and God in universe, whatever you want to call it. Like this is really deep, unwavering, unshakable faith and trusting that I just really have to trust whatever's meant for me will happen. And I just have to really trust that it's probably just not going to happen on my timeline. And so just trying to look at it too is like maybe this in-between isn't some delay. Maybe it's a development. Maybe the season is of being at capacity, isn't blocking the dream. Maybe it's shaping me into the person who will be able to hold it. And so that's like kind of the stories and like what I'm trying to like flip the script on that, because I've mentioned and I talked in other podcasts of like where I was getting into like all these loops about things, and I had to really shift my mindset because so much is life is just around a mindset. So I had to like really just like kind of flipped flip the script on that one. And then I I did see a lot of shifts, and it was really profound. So if you're in a space right now, working, parenting, building, surviving, dreaming, I just want to say to you, you know, you're not behind. I'm gonna keep saying that too. Like, we're not behind, we're not missing it. You're just in it, and maybe the work isn't to force the dream into existing faster. Maybe the work is learning how to trust yourself enough to let it unfold. And that is the quick in my short message. So it's it's it's all happening for us. Let's just keep trusting. And thank you so much for listening. I'm so grateful for each and every one of you. I love you. I'll talk to you on Wednesday. And until next time, keep going, keep trusting. And remember that even when life feels full, your dream is still forming underneath all of it. All right, stay true to you. I love you. Talk soon. Bye bye.