Why am I doing this? | ZFS 72

I turned on the camera today because I just needed to talk. Sean and Joe aren't here. It's just me and you.

I was suicidal at 13. I had ADHD, constant social anxiety, and spent years at the bottom of the totem pole in a private Christian school with 16 kids in my class. I joined the Army to prove I was worth something. I got kicked out of college. I got fired from two jobs. I became a corrections officer in Delaware prisons. And then real estate came along and I got everything I thought I wanted.

Rookie of the year. Selling 60 homes personally a year. Getting flown into Texas and California to consult. Speaking at events. Walking through millionaires homes. The wonderkid. And then one day I just asked myself is this it?

This episode is me walking you through the whole story. The ADHD and the fight or flight that ran my life for years. The army and what it really taught me. The real estate career and the moment the money button in my brain just shut off. The surrender that changed everything in February 2023. The garden, the chickens, the off grid projects, the microdosing, the meditation, the Bible, and why I feel more purpose making this content than I have felt doing almost anything else in my life.

I also want you to know exactly why I make this show. Not for the algorithm. Not for the money. Because I genuinely believe there is something bigger coming and I want you prepared when it does.

Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

Welcome in to episode number 72. Kind of unofficially of the Zach Faust podcast. Wanted to just turn on the camera, turn on the microphone.

SPEAKER_00 0:12

I mean, is it is it nuts to say I want to vent for a little bit? So for those of you who don't um know me or my story, I won't I want you to know where I'm coming from with this. Okay. Um When I was fifteen, I became a homeschooler. Um 14, because it was eighth grade.

SPEAKER_01 1:01

The reason was because at a family trip to Florida, I admitted to my mom that I was I mean, call it what you want to call it, 13, but suicidal. Um my my struggles with ADHD and my constant energy and uh and combination with you know certain things leading to me wanting to become this uh magnet for attention and validation in middle school, it it made it equal parts hard to focus on the subject matter and also created a world where I was the perpetual bottom of the social totem pole. Um I didn't help myself, but the people around me definitely didn't help either. I at that time had attended since third grade a private Christian school that uh the class size was about 16. I think 12 because I would end up going back there for junior and senior year. Um and things were different there junior and senior year because a certain group had left, but um I I was left from about the age of what's third grade? Eight, nine, till the end of eighth grade, overthinking every moment and wondering if the next word out of my mouth was gonna lead to me being the butt of the joke once again. Just constant social anxiety fight or flight is what I would have come to describe it or think of it as. So I I joined the military. I ended up taking a bunch of active duty contracts within the army as I joined the Army National Guard, but four and a half out of my six years would be pretty much full-time. I went overseas, did the deployment. Um and the same thing happened again. I I wasn't good, I wasn't fit to be a leader, I was hardly a good follower. And I spent most of the time coming out of that silence back into the social atmosphere, again, seeking that validation, seeking that social affirmation, and it again led me to not being able to connect with many people. And I wondered why. I hadn't learned how to socially connect well. I in fact, I at a time I'd thought to myself that anybody really who does end up, and this is the crazy part, and I promise we'll get to a point. I promise. Just like I'll let you know up front, I'm just gonna kind of vent. Sean and Joe aren't even here. This is just me and you. Um, and this is like the juxtaposition of it all, is I would I would seek affirmation, but I would demonize connection. Like I would, I would, I would seek validation of my worth, that I'm cool, that I'm good looking, that I'm uh that I'm worth it, that I'm that I'm fit, that I'm really good at something. But if that ever bridged into someone trying to form an actual connection with me, it was like, nah. And the reason for that is I had I had internalized this belief in myself that I'm so weird and I'm such a failure that anybody who bridges the gap to want to connect with me must be the same. And if I want to affirm myself as someone who's worth it, anyone who's sees me as worth connecting with needs to be kicked down because that's gonna lower my ability to seek external validation. Does that make sense?

SPEAKER_00 6:16

It might not. Then comes real estate.

SPEAKER_01 6:24

So I spend a few years uh after my military contracts expire and I go part-time. I get kicked out of college, I got fired from two different jobs for lack of energy and focus. I was installing police lights on police vehicles here in Camden and up in Newcastle, Delaware for the uh Department of Homeland Security. And then uh worked as a correctional officer for the Department of Corrections here in Delaware. Ended up serving in Smyrna's, uh James T. Vaughn, and Wilmington, uh, Gander Hill. Much better prison of the two. Gander Hill, much better prison of the two. The other one's like a summer camp. That must be where Jelene's at. Julene Maxwell. And then real estate. So real estate comes around in my life, and I have not figured out one thing I'm good at. I'm not good at friends, I'm not good at my marriage, I'm not good at at uh at really anything adult. The best thing I was the one thing I was really good at was physical fitness, uh sports. Throw a ball in my hand, I'm in. Ball at my foot, I'm in. I uh I was a shooting guard. I love basketball. I got to I got to be on the same court as some really uh cool people. I got to go to a naval academy camp and uh got invited to that, which is crazy. Um the stats were kind of juiced because I play for a small private school. I was averaging over 25, no biggie. To prove how much the stats are getting juiced, I also averaged like nine to uh nine to ten rebounds at six foot. So you put those two things together. And I got to play a game of 21, a really chill game with Brandon Jennings. Um I got absolutely destroyed in uh Hokes in the Athletic Club League against Elena Deladon. Um I got to be on the same pickup court and see the uh difference in athleticism between me and Dante DiVincenzo. Uh but sports only gets you so far in the adult life. And I tried as hard as I could. In fact, while I was a prison officer, I started an adult soccer league and it lasted for three years. Dover Delaware Soccer, you can look it up. Um and I I love that because I got to connect with a lot of people and I got to learn the basics of business and got to play sports. And then real estate comes along, and to be quite honest with you, it was like my last straw. I I wasn't good at anything. At least that's what I told myself. I I couldn't succeed. Uh, and and looking back, I was extremely self-destructive. I was my own worst enemy. I would trip myself up before the finish line if almost purposefully, if almost something subconsciously was creating this world where I I couldn't view myself as a winner uh because I'd so internalized externally from others that I was the opposite of that. Then comes real estate, and I gotta be honest, it's I'm really good at it. I was I was really good at what do I mean by good at real estate? Because a lot of people become a real estate agent because I love homes and I watch HGTV and I just I just want to tour people through kitchens and tell them this is a three-bed, two-path. And the Screamed In Sun Room. Four seasons room, if you will. No, I I joined because honestly, it was good money. Um at first I didn't think so, uh, but after my first sale, I sold a $500,000 home in 2017. 500k homes expensive back then, especially in Delaware. And I got my first check and I was like, holy cow, this is what I make in a third of a year as a corrections officer. And so in the dead of the night, I quit. I could tell that story another time. Everyone loves a good quitting story. That was a fun one. I just walked into my commander's office. He's like, You're giving you two weeks? I said, No, actually, I'm not coming back. He's like, Well, this is gonna look bad on your resume. I said, I don't think I'm gonna need a resume. I don't know. It comes off cocky. I'm I was very like curious. I didn't even know. I didn't know what I was doing as I was doing it. On the drive home, the hour-long drive home from Wilmington to Southern Dover, I was thinking, what did I just do? But that would be the trampoline into real estate. And I was forced to wake up early, grind late, weekends, holidays. I I've I've personally gotten six homes under contract in my career on Christmas and Christmas Eve. Um that's uh that's the first time I tasted quote unquote success. And man, it got me external validation.

SPEAKER_00 11:09

I'll walk you through it.

SPEAKER_01 11:10

I won Rookie of the Year in 2017. I started a team late 2018 because I started getting more business than I could personally handle at the time. By 2019 into 2020, I was selling about 60 homes personally a year, and our team was up over a hundred a year. 2021, 2022, I started getting invited to speak at events. I was being invited to private events, uh, to be a consult. I was being invited in to read into the sales mechanisms of different companies, getting flown into Texas, getting flown into Florida, New Hampshire, uh up to Maine, up to out into California, just to come in and look at people's marketing systems and sales funnels. I was getting asked to speak on stages as keynotes, I was doing crazy podcasts, I was walking through millionaires' homes, I was getting invited to parties and the networking events and the dinners. I was in. I was the young guy at the club. I was the Wonderkin. I was the guy that the sales gurus, like the Tom Ferries, you can look him up, you might not know his name, but he's a real estate guy, like brought me under his wing because I was the young example of his system. I was I was getting all the validation I could ever want.

SPEAKER_00 12:19

And then 2023 hits, late 2022.

SPEAKER_01 12:29

I can only explain it as okay. So have any of you like taken the opportunity to just ever ask if this was it?

SPEAKER_00 12:46

Like, have you ever gotten something in life that you always wanted, and then when you got there you realized there was never like a finish line?

SPEAKER_01 12:59

Like, whether it's making money or being happy, or or that car that it's on your dream board, or that vacation you dreamt of going on, that once it's achieved, it's like you realize the excitement of attaining it was was more of the reward than actually getting there. Like the endorphins you gained from the run felt better than crossing the line. Like if you ever asked, like, is this it? Like if you ever gotten to a goal, gotten to something that you were, you know, your past self would have been proud of you achieving, and you realize, whoa, this I didn't get filled with the happiness. My life isn't all of a sudden peaceful, my my marriage isn't all of a sudden perfect, my mental isn't all of a sudden guarded by stainless steel. It's it's it's all kind of similar, except maybe now I just have more money, or maybe I just now have more followers, or maybe I just have more achievement externally. But did I gain anything? And if I were to keep gaining, where is the quote unquote finish line? Is it when I make a certain amount? Is it when I become self-sufficient? Is it when I have a business big enough I can sell it? Is it when I have uh enough clout socially that I can monetize it? And once I monetize it, like, how long do you do that? Is that not my life? Is I was an agent, a team leader, a broker at one point, a coach, a consultant, a speaker. And in every realm, I I kind of ask myself, like, is this just a hamster wheel? I run on this hamster wheel to hopefully one day have a bigger hamster wheel. You know, and and the and the bigger hamster wheel can provide more jobs for people. That's incredible. And through the service we were offering, which by the way, I think out of the hundred realtors that you put us up against, we're top, we're top one percent. We we we really actually try to bring value. So, yes, I'm bringing value to more people with the more marketing that we can do. And and now you're in 2026 as we sit. People ask, do you still sell? I don't personally, but our team, we're five deep, and we'll sell well over 120 homes. We're more profitable than we've ever been. We're selling more homes per head than we ever have. And you know, 2022, 2023, I at the time I started asking, look, is this all it? And I went internal. I started getting locked into things like Wim Hof and Dr. Joe Dispenza, and I I came back to Tony Robbins and Mel Robbins and the gateway tapes and affirmation and reading and started uh shortly after I started microdosing as well. I still do to this day, by the way. I don't talk about that a lot. I love I love the science behind the neuroplasticity that comes from that. Um I started cold plunging, I started seeking pain in in the most healthy of ways. Um, instead of inflicting myself subconsciously with failure and and self-sabotage, I instead chose to find the pain first. I was waking up early, I was going on the runs, I I had broken my leg, and and then I got right back into it. And I was I was seeking silence and meditation and analog activities. And soon I started uh growing a garden, and all of a sudden my my relationship started to get become more fruitful, and I found myself uh seeking less validation from others and more being at peace in the moment, realizing that the moment is all that really truly exists, and that everything around me is just an energetic reaction to whatever I'm and feeling internally, the the universe is whatever I portray it as uh in a sense. And though I I I I understood that to an amateur level, um some of the meditations I felt were really powerful. I felt releases, I cried like a child sometimes. I remember one specifically um where I said a prayer before, so uh going into this meditation, just asking for asking for um just asking for silence. Asking for silence is just my brain hasn't shut off for twenty-nine years, and um you know, you realize at a point that not only has this damn ADHD created all these tabs open my memory, but 29 out of 30 of them have been either negative speakers towards myself and or um ego boosters through external validations and chasing the wrong things, you know, through my 20s chasing everything external uh from a drug to a drink to a party to a girl to a DM to Lust. I loved me some circuses, I I loved me some external validation, and why? Because I couldn't find it internally, and I asked for silence, I asked for surrender February 2023.

SPEAKER_00 18:33

I wrote that word down, surrender.

SPEAKER_01 18:38

Because I was convinced after after after years of going and going and going and grinding and doing that I thought life was something you grab after. But I'd shortly thereafter learn it's something you fall back into. It's something you you don't lean into and grab life. It's not where you find the enjoyment, it's not where you find the fulfillment. Where I began to find it is when I actually laid back and fell into life and allowed this universe to be rigged in my favor. And it's when I started reading the Bible again and and going, and you can believe what you want in the Bible, and quite honestly, I think there's so much room for very valid debate around its validity, around uh the history involved in not his life and his what he taught. I think it's very legitimate, but the the the resurrection, um, the the Paulism that comes just after the gospels, the the validity of when revelations is being portrayed, all of it, like religion as a whole, as a as a as a system of control, got it. We we're on the same page there, okay? Um, but that doesn't that doesn't belittle the words of Jesus Christ as they're written in Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. In fact, Matthew is so deep in in real wisdom around life. Um, and again, you can believe what you want. That's that's super cool. But I advise you just to read it from a just like you're reading Plato or or you're reading one of these Stoics' writings, like just to read it and understand the wisdom that comes from what he was teaching. And um in early 2023, I gave I gave my life to that effort. I decided that I I think I I'd been propagandized into what giving your life to God really was. It wasn't some magical prayer, but instead it was actually giving myself up to this universe, to the one that God created. And personally, I believe you gotta believe a lot more to believe that nothing created all of this perfectness than someone or something did. Um, but this isn't spiritual.

SPEAKER_00 20:58

The point is, I started to surrender to life, and life got a lot better.

SPEAKER_01 21:06

My mental got better, my spirit got better. I was pushing myself again, I was in the gym, I was doing all the things that were good for self-development and reading the books and meditating and pushing myself, but now doing it for different reasons. Now, shortly uh after that would happen, as it so properly timed, as it oftentimes is, the market would start to shift. And in that early 2023 time frame, I really feel like the button in my brain that wanted money got shut off.

SPEAKER_00 21:43

It really did, it got shut off.

SPEAKER_01 21:46

Um because it's just a piece of green paper, and people are starving across the world, um, and we have enough money to feed them. As a country.

SPEAKER_00 22:03

There are countries, third world countries, that are already struggling. And we're bombing them.

SPEAKER_01 22:14

We have enough money to ensure those that served our country aren't homeless, but yet that number keeps going up. More people addicted to drugs. More crime. Cr financial crime, like thefts, car thefts. Like look LA is insane right now. I know that's a small microcosm.

SPEAKER_00 22:37

And not the entire country, but I started to just want to help.

SPEAKER_01 22:47

Because I watched the middle class stream get ripped out from under you. I accidentally signed up for a front row seat of it as a real estate agent. I signed up for it. I got to watch someone that worked at a deli making $40K a year be able to buy a home. Two bed, one bath, 15 minutes from town, $1,000 mortgage payment, no closing costs, USDA loan, 100% financing. In English, they paid $0 to close on a home that cost them $1,000 a month, and now they own a home. They made $40,000 a year and had a $640 credit score. That was very normal. I I a lot of the people from the college that I got that I got kicked out of, from the National Guard unit that I worked at uh to the high school students I graduated with, I was getting them homes. Veterans moving into moving into Dover, PCSing, got them into homes. One one income, one E5 income could get them into a home. Maybe it's a town home, maybe it's a small ranch, but I could get them into a home. Sorry about the tip of my nose. I think you ever get one of those pimples like right on the edge of your nostril, and it's the most infuriating thing. And then when you go to pop it, it like makes you cry. That's gonna be me tomorrow. I feel it coming out. I need to stop touching it. Oh, I just realized I left my sleeves on from the gym. Use my sleeves. Everything's okay. I'm just wearing them because I'm old now. I'm 32. On the uh on the incline press, I want to ensure that my elbows don't crack up hard and sever in half, you know. Under the gruesome weight of 60-pound dumbbells.

SPEAKER_00 24:17

Not crazy, but we're working. And so I started asking questions. Why is everything more expensive?

SPEAKER_01 24:33

Why is housing going up in price while wages are staying stagnant? Why are we printing dollars and not putting them towards what could solve our problems? Why are we favoring banks and corporations? Why are there record profits while people are struggling? Why is the average American's economy getting summed up in the stock market? And I started asking more and more and more and more. Who's the Federal Reserve? How were they founded? Who founded it? Why did they found it? Who was involved? I want to learn about all seven of you. Oh, I learned about three more. Let me learn about all three of you. Who were you connected to? Why did they do it? What was the purpose? What was the benefit? How did that lead into the Great Depression? How did that lead into FDR's New Deal? How did that lead into Bretton Woods and 1944? How did that uh how was that affected by the 1916 Dodge v. Ford case? How did that uh come out of the 1907 State Bank Panic, the 1895 uh gold bailout by the Rilchilds and the Morgans? What was going on in the Civil War? How was that funded? Let's go into the bank panic of 1837 and and August Belmont coming into America. What are we looking at from Andrew Hamil uh Alexander Hamilton to Andrew Hamilton with the central bank? What's going on here? Uh, you know, to modern times, we get the the savings and loan crisis in the 70s and the uh the reagonomics of the trade unions being ripped apart and the tax brackets being shifted, and you get into the ATT Communications Act and NAFTA 93 and the repeal of Glass-Steagall, one of FDR's Great New Deal uh pieces, one of the biggest pieces. Glass-Steagall allows banks to be whatever they want. The 2004 SEC margin rule change, allowing for banks to use money and gamble and speculate on with money they didn't have, and go figure that's what caused the Great Depression, and go figure this is what ended up causing 2008. And then you get money printing and BlackRock advising the Federal Reserve and the money printing, weakening the dollar to the point where assets begin inflating. And I have to ask why. And Richard Canteen in the early 1700s said anytime we have money to the monetary base, only three people benefit banks, governments, and asset holders. And I see it clear as day. Those are only three people that have really benefited since 2008. And and then you see Citizens United. And I I and I've skipped over so many. The the the the the the Powell memo in 71 was humongous. We we can go a million times deeper into things like NAFTA and Glass Steagall, but all the way through there, you you have that we shift up how mortgages are done in 2010. We have uh the Toxic Asset Relief Program run by Mr. Paulson uh and Ken Lewis on a documentary with PBS, uh PBS Frontline. It's called The Age of Easy Money, shows the document saying the government forced them to take billions of dollars and it flooded into executive payroll and bonuses. And now most profit funnels into stock buybacks. Now most money, in combination with the Palm Memo and Citizens United, flows into elections and corporations are now funneling their money into legislative decision making to the point where now German billionaire corporations like Bear trying to give you Hodgkin's lymphoma for the sake of profit. In the army, they they they had this phrase, and I think it's a civilian phrase true too, but it they said it all the time when we were deployed. If you see something, say something. If you see something, say something. If you see something, you say something. And that just had to do with bombs. See something, think it might be an ID, call it out. You're an E2, don't matter. Call it out, call it out. You see something suspicious, someone suspicious, something you think could be life-threatening, mission-threatening, call it out.

SPEAKER_00 28:25

I I I see an economy that's trying to rip the soul out of you financially, and I'm calling it out.

SPEAKER_01 28:32

Um, if I was making the content I'm making now, uh eight years ago, I probably wouldn't be able to say what I'm about to say, but I'm not making this content for me. At least I don't think I am. Maybe I am. Maybe in ten years I'll look back and realize how selfish I was being. May maybe. Maybe I'll unlock that there were there were deeper ulterior motives. Maybe the the outward affirmation is still prevalent in my decision making. Um maybe the reason I want to go to the gym is so I can look good. Uh I I I don't know. But uh I've turned down sponsorships, I've turned down promotions, turned down products and and links and bios, and going out to let me fly you out to Colorado and we can sit you in front of our team and we can talk about how to get more sales. Like You want me to sit in front of your squad and tell you the best script to convince somebody that you're the best agent to utilize? Is that the culmination of my existence? Is is that the the highest and best use, the haboo uh of what I should be doing on this planet, this spinning rock in the middle of space. I'm supposed to be telling sales agents to really add no true value to the transaction one way or the next. There's a very, very, very, very, very small minority that I believe that does, uh, but I know the majority of the people in that room won't be. And I'm supposed to just fly out and tell you the magic words to say and the videos to put together, full well knowing 85% of them won't do it anyway. That's what I'm supposed to do. I'm supposed to teach these nincompoops that passed a 99-hour online course with no formal education around transacting the largest asset that a normal everyday American's ever going to come in contact with, the largest transaction they're ever going to be a part of. You're supposed to tell me that my job is to go give blanket advice to a group of all of them, knowing that 80% of them probably aren't even gonna be agents in three years. Heck, this whole business might be underwater due to AI in 10.

SPEAKER_00 30:44

That's that's what I'm doing.

SPEAKER_01 30:49

And I guess I could just sell homes here in Delaware and just keep chilling out to retirees that want to move to Delaware because it's low on taxes and we still got beachfront property. And yes, pound for pound, I think we're one of the best beach states in the entire country. Come out to Rehobut or Bethany, it's fire. Just chill, it's not touristy. Um, so I believe in the product, but man, I used to really believe in what I did. Getting into a home, like you, it's an investment, it's a forced savings plan, and it's your shelter, it's where your family's gonna grow, it's where you can have memories, where you can have your dog, it's where you can plant a garden, it's where you can do stuff. Like I having to ask the landlord if you can change out the dishwasher and full well knowing that's probably gonna be his dishwasher when the lease ends, that kind of sucks. That kind of sucks. But with today's interest rates, you're basically when you buy a home, just renting it from the bank. You get a 50-year mortgage that's renting from the bank, except they won't fix your what your dishwasher.

SPEAKER_00 31:43

Prices are way too high.

SPEAKER_01 31:46

And even if you can afford the home, which by the way, NNR reports median home in America requires about $110,000 to $115,000 to afford. It's not just the home cost, it's the insurance on the home, it's the taxes for the lot, it's the health insurance for the family, the childcare for your young family, the student debt you're paying off because you needed the degree to get the job that you have that doesn't pay enough for you to live the American lifestyle. God forbid you get a car that isn't an absolute clank, that isn't an absolute lemons falling apart. God forbid you're doing that. A used car off the lot, the median's $514 a month without taxes and insurance. Which I mean, some people are paying like $200 a month for, by the way, for one vehicle. What happens when that vehicle needs new tires and you're forking out $1,200 of money you don't have? People are putting things on credit cards, utilities, groceries, on pay later services. Am I supposed to just sit and chill? I could, I suppose. I I nothing's stopping me from stopping all of this right now, which by the way, this YouTube channel and Spotify combined are netting $900 in monetization with no sponsorships. That's the total income derived from it. By the way, shout out anybody in the dollar club over on YouTube. We're gonna get you access to the corruption map early. Um, the reason we're not doing it public at first is because it's not done. We figured that was a good fair way. It's only a dollar, you're supporting us. But I don't want to take any of these deals. I want to remain independent because we're occupied. We're occupied by billionaire elitists that only have a lust for power and money, mixed with Zionists and nationalists that want to use religion to gain more control and money and cause more war. And I'm supposed to just sell homes and pretend I don't know that. I'm supposed to just operate within the capitalist system that allows the industrial war machine to go murdering on, and I'm not supposed to talk about it. I'm supposed to talk about price per square footage? I'm supposed to talk about price per square foot? That's what you're telling me I'm supposed to do? To point out to the boomer who doesn't understand the difference between electric and oil-based heat. I'm supposed to do that? I'm supposed to explain to him for 15 minutes how to call pores oil so they can come and fill it up every three months, and you can even get it on a quarterly uh lock so that they come out and do it without you having to call them. Because if if if you empty it out and you don't call them ahead of time, they're gonna have to charge you another fee for basically getting it started back up again. They got to do like a leak test. You don't want to pay for the leak test. Get the quarterly re-up so it's automatically drawn from your account and you don't have to pay that fee. I'm supposed to explain that to the 67-year-old coming down from Manhattan that sold their casual $870,000 house that they bought for two blueberry cobblers in the 70s. I'm supposed to teach him about the differences in heating here in Delaware, and that's why I'm here.

SPEAKER_00 34:52

And here in 2026, I'm doing this.

SPEAKER_01 34:59

People still hit us up from all the marketing that I worked on for the past eight years. Incredible team. You can Google the Loft team, leave us a review if you want, if we brought you any value. In fact, on Facebook, there are Zionist bot accounts calling me a pedophile on our Facebook review page. It's Loft Team, you can look it up. Even though I think we went ahead and uh disputed those. Maybe they're down. I don't know. But if we've ever brought value to you, you could always leave a little friendly review. Helps the agents on the team, feeds them, and I'm feeding income to people, which is which fills me. Uh, you know, in a world where Gen Z struggling the most, Sean on our team, you know, I'm able to help support him, want to get him paid more, Joe, same thing. Uh that's incredible. That's awesome. And I I want to be able to grow that so I can help them better off financially so they can achieve their dreams and what they want to do in their life. And I want that for you, but at the same time, I can't just sit here and be some sales guru or coach you through life financially, even though that's what I wanted to do. Hear me. What I wanted to do was get to the end of the sales world, succeed enough that I'm self-sufficient, and then go back and teach others how to do the same. You know, the wake up early, the grind, the mental toughness, the sales, the finance, the marketing, the content. I love it. I love logistics. I love psychology. I love why does this piece of creative uh perform better than number nine? Why is the description seeming to create more watch time on this versus this caption? Like, I love the psychology of these things, and I know a part of that builds into why we're doing well here, talking about whatever the fuck we're talking about these days. Probably. I'm not blind to that. But um, I just realize I'm shooting this by myself, and there's there's a at least a 3.7% chance that something's wrong with this recording, like the camera, the audio is not working, and none of this is ever gonna make it out. So if you're hearing this right now, it made it out. Thank God. We're 40 minutes in. Thought this would be a quick little 20-minute set, but um, yeah, a lot just a lot of people ask me why I'm doing this today. That's why I'm doing this today. I took up a new lead on a Leaf on Life. I'm falling back into the universe and trying to do what it needs. I'm trying to bring value on spinning on this mar uh this marble in space. And it seems like this marble and space is controlled by ancestral billionaire families and Zionist adjacent elites that want nothing more than to have created a macro corporate favoring neoliberal economy that benefits them solely in the forms of money and power accumulation. And I love you, and I want you to know that so that you know that this economy was built right now for you to fail. I'm not saying you're going to. In fact, I believe in you, and I know there's gonna be a select portion of you who do succeed. And in fact, in fact, if I were to say and state a purpose of mine that I can feel out loud to you, is um, I feel that people, or I should I say the mission I'm on now is that the people who are around my voice, whether one a hundred or a thousand, that the percent chance of you succeeding and having a life you're proud of and feel virtuous about is more likely from having been involved in our content sphere. That's what I want. I I'm not stupid to think, or I'm not stupid and think that you know, all of you who listen, you're all gonna succeed, you're all gonna do. I'm not gonna spit bullshit, right? But I but I want you to have a higher likelihood. Like we just did a video on how to survive a wartime economy. Maybe we'll do more like how to. I just posted a couple shorts on Instagram and TikTok. I say shorts like they weren't both 10 minutes long on five tips I gave to young men to live a whole, fruitful life. We talk about whole wealth on this channel. Brain, body, spirit, and then wallet. Wealth has little to do with money.

SPEAKER_00 39:14

Um Yeah, I just want you to live a better life.

SPEAKER_01 39:22

I want you to realize your self-worth isn't your net worth. I want you to understand this life is indeed beautiful, though it's filled with corruption. It's filled with darkness, it is filled with spiritual warfare. But I want you to disconnect. I I want you to go on the walk. I want you to stare at the wall, I want you to reset your dopamine centers, I want you to take a 30-day fast from the world and all your vices. I want you to try to gain back control of your life. You may feel like it's spiraling, you may feel like your habits are out of control, that maybe you feel self-destructive, maybe you feel alone, maybe you feel desperate. Maybe you feel like your sleep pattern's off, maybe you feel like your diet's off, maybe you feel like your relationships are off, or that you just feel edgy. You feel irritable, you don't feel yourself.

SPEAKER_00 40:07

Can I go as far out on a limb to say I think that's purposeful?

SPEAKER_01 40:13

And a 30-day fast from media, a 30-day fast from your phone outside of whatever you may need it for for work or just basic family connection, which by the way they make like dumb phones for that. Maybe it's a five-day fast followed by 30 days of intermittent fasting. Maybe it's getting your first week of walking around the block, maybe it's getting out and starting to do a walk at the park, maybe it's bird watching, maybe it's playing sudoku, maybe I don't know. Maybe it is reading the Bible, maybe it's reading the Quran, maybe it's digging into what the hell Buddhism is. Like I there has to be deeper connection for you other than what's going on in this life. Though I talk about what's going on in this life in the modern times very often and the history that led us to why we're living the life that we're living today in America, it doesn't change the fact that you live in a first world country where you are indeed able to go out without risk of being hit by a bomb, um, without uh or with grocery stores and gas stations and gyms and parks and places where you can disconnect. And we have that. I want you to be able to disconnect. Because you've been sold a materialist lie that is capitalism, it it can only operate based off your consumption.

SPEAKER_00 41:23

It can only operate if you're taking out debt. Exit. I'm growing a garden, a big one. I'm so proud of it.

SPEAKER_01 41:34

I should do just like separate updates on my garden and my homestead. Built a chicken coop, built a fence, built out a 24x21 garden with trellises and cucumber tunnels and pallet pyramids and bamboo stick huts. I enjoy it. I really do. Building garden boxes. I just used uh concrete blocks to create one garden bed. Now I'm surrounding it with some uh two by fours I'm piecing together from uh from another project. I I've gotten us water barrels now. I got two filled up 250 gallon water water barrels. I'm gonna slowly start siphoning into 55 gallon drums that I'll have in my basement. I'm uh digging a hand well pump, driving my own well. Delaware has a high water table, so very achievable. Um I'm running a I got this Bluetooth thing that can attach to my um my hose spigots. I'm gonna be programming to uh basically go to an irrigation drip system and sprinkler system on a timer so everything gets scientifically the exact amount of gallons it requires. I'm getting more into like hydroponic gardening, uh learning, you know, what like you can even involve fish in it. There's so many things I I'm doing in my 2027 plan. I'm I'm gonna get the the solar panels up on the pole building, the shed, and the house. And if I can get 25 in total, I should be able to get our home at least uh partially off-grid, at least the internals of the home off-grid.

SPEAKER_00 42:56

Like I enjoy it. But I simultaneously realize the reason why I'm doing it's pretty dark.

SPEAKER_01 43:08

And I want to join that darkness uh with community. And maybe at the end of the day, the reason I make this content is to be able to find other people that see it too.

SPEAKER_00 43:20

Maybe I'm doing it so I don't feel alone. Maybe I'm doing it so I don't just feel like a a number, a piece of the system. Maybe because ultimately financially I'm good. My wife and my daughter are fine. Own a home. Have a car that I own outright.

SPEAKER_01 43:55

Have a a life I'm I'm happy with and proud of, and projects that I enjoy. Field working on. I mean, I've dirt under my fingernails at this exact moment. It's kind of nasty, but life of a gardener. Got 13 chickens now. I mean, I I I I sincerely could just go back to selling homes, but there's a deep part of me that just doesn't want to. Makes me want to do this. And uh I thought to turn on the camera and and say this today because I just wanted to be clearer on where my intentions are. Um could this become an income creating self-sustainable content machine, a media company? Uh I don't know. Maybe. Maybe.

SPEAKER_00 44:38

Um I'm surrendered to it.

SPEAKER_01 44:44

Wherever this path leads, wherever the path leads, wherever I'm called, wherever I'm supposed to be. I was supposed to be in Kentucky two weeks ago and I was there. You know, and I and I told Tiffany Seancy, the person who put that together, uh, got us linked up is, you know, tell me exactly what you need me to do there. I'm I'm very militaristic with that. Tell me exactly what I need to do, and I'm gonna work. And whether it was door knocking, exit polling, content creation, interviews, whatever it was, I was there. I was helping other people set up their podcast, doing guest spots, whatever was required of me. And and I have that same mindset today of, you know, whether or not this world continues on the same way for another 10 years, or there's a revolution meetup in uh DC, you know, I'm ready. I'm ready to do what's needed, and I gotta be honest with you, in the weirdest way possible, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 45:40

I felt a certain way when I was deployed. Felt selfless. Felt patriotic.

SPEAKER_01 45:48

Dude, I realize I was protecting poppy fields and supporting the military industrial billionaire-led system. No. My parents were dual military, it's just what I did. I felt really patriotic about it. It was deep. I felt like I was doing my duty, and I felt like I was serving this world's purpose. At least the nation's. Can I tell you in the weirdest way, and this may not make sense to you, but when I'm doing this, I feel the same way.

SPEAKER_00 46:24

And I feel there's something bigger down the line that you and I are gonna be responsible for undertaking.

SPEAKER_01 46:32

Maybe for this entire country. And I ask that you protect yourself and protect your brain and protect your most vital asset, which is you, your living and breathing body, brain and spirit. Because one day the call might come in. And the day to prepare won't be that day. The day to prepare will be yesterday. Whether that's getting your home off grid, whether that's getting your brain relocked in, or getting the extra fat off that you've been dying to get off. I mean, whatever it is. Choose you, choose your growth. Because you can't help the people to your left and your right if you don't. I love you. I want to help you in any way that I can. And I'm I'm I'm dedicated to doing that on this channel. Me, Joe, Sean, all three of us. Love you. I mean that. I'm not just saying that. I love you. Thank you for making this piece of content a part of your day. There's so much you can listen to, there's so much you can take part in. And still for the life of me, I I can't believe when people sit and listen for 51 minutes, 52 minutes of yapping. So I appreciate you and and I don't take the views on this content lightly. 800 views, 8,000 views.

SPEAKER_00 47:50

That's unfathomable to me. Take care of yourself. Take care of yourself.

SPEAKER_01 48:02

Push yourself in all the right ways. Take time and silence to realize who you are versus who you've been told you are. Fight for the people to your left and right, first by selflessly correcting who you are, growing in who you are, learning about who you are, and getting closer to the purpose of your unmarked soul before anyone said anything to you, before you had any exterior influence, any exterior vice, anything you were drawn toward, before any of that. What is the purpose of your unmarked soul? I'm still on the chase for that. But uh I hope you you do the same. I love you. I think you're incredible.

SPEAKER_00 48:41

I've seen the other people, they're not nearly as incredible as you.

SPEAKER_01 48:58

By the way, the secret to the Trump thing is like you you gotta get the cadence right, you gotta get in the back of the throat, and then you add like the New York. So someone said, like, the flow is like that that Watkin guy. Chris Christopher Watkin talks in this very odd cadence, and his voice kind of carries past his words, like kind of like lets it drape on. And then you put it in the back of your throat, add some hand motions, deepen it ever so slightly, and add a little bit of that New York accent. And see, I'm losing it right there. Something's wrong right now. I'm not locked in. I'll get locked in. I've seen people lock in. He's one of the greatest. I'm looking at you right now, and you're gonna lock in, baby. I love you. I'm done playing around. Let me jump off here. For the seven people that probably listen to this random podcast. I love you so much. Tell me one thing you're grateful for in the comment section. I promise to respond to every single comment on this episode, both on Spotify and YouTube. Love you so much. And by the way, once again, uh, if I breezed over it, we are going to be releasing uh, for those who are already part of the Dollar Club on YouTube, the corruption map to you privately, uh, to be able to examine uh the museum of corruption we've created so far at your own leisure from Epstein to Israel to our own government and banking system. Love you so much. Have a great day. Talk to you later.