014 - sun moon moon sun pt1 Ft. Acacia

My other half and I yap about our trials & tribulations through our illness of, Virgo.

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:02

Welcome back to another episode of the Combust Astrology Podcast. Today I am joined by the one and only so magical, absolutely amazing, spontaneously gorgeous in soul, spirit, and body. Kesh kosh. Big gosh.

SPEAKER_02 0:31

Oh, that was so sweet. Thank you so much. I felt all the love and the warmth tingles.

SPEAKER_00 0:39

I'm happy to have you on the podcast again. I said when I first started I'm gonna have you every now and then. And so you've you've hit episode 14. And here we are.

SPEAKER_02 0:54

Thank you for having me.

SPEAKER_00 0:56

Of course. Um wait, you sound a little low. Put the microphone a little bit closer to your mouth.

SPEAKER_02 1:03

How's this?

SPEAKER_00 1:04

That's fine. If you're gonna speak in that volume for sure. All right, just so you guys get a visual understanding, we are in different rooms on Zoom speaking to each other. Uh, we're gonna mostly just be covering astrology stuff and I don't know, questions. This isn't gonna be like a relationship episode or something like that, but it's definitely gonna dive into what it is we maybe see or don't see, um, and like aspects of the placements we have. And just to kind of show you from an astrology point of view, a lot of different things. We can also talk about that north and south node stuff we were talking about with when we were younger, how we acted versus when we were older, how our parents affected us, all of that. So with that being said, let's jump right into it. How are you doing?

SPEAKER_02 1:59

I'm doing well. How are you?

SPEAKER_00 2:02

Um grappling with with my age and what my future holds after reading reading The Defining Decade most recently, especially. Uh, thank you for that book recommendation. It's definitely put into terms the idea for me where I'm like trading in astrology are like amazing ventures of me, but they might not be enough for me. Or are they enough? Or is it the fact that I'm watching a fucking what is it? Is it the fact that I'm reading a book about future career stuff during a Mercury retrograde while I have my chart and my history? And I'm like, is this a good idea? Should I really be doing this? So stuff like that that's going through my mind.

unknown 2:57

Okay.

SPEAKER_02 2:58

What's your what's your biggest question that you have for yourself?

SPEAKER_00 3:06

Am I doing my twenties correctly? Do you feel like you're doing your twenties correctly?

SPEAKER_02 3:14

Fuck no.

SPEAKER_01 3:18

I'm so sorry. No. I think that's the point.

unknown 3:24

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 3:29

You don't ever get worried that you made a mistake along the way?

SPEAKER_02 3:34

Well realizing a lot of the things and being with you realizing that mistakes will happen. And then what are you gonna do about it though? Like whatever happens, okay, but what are you gonna do about it?

SPEAKER_00 3:52

Yeah, yeah, you're right. Mistakes happen and like going forward and changing and pivoting and doing all these other things or is something that I'll I'm I'm just so used to, but it's almost as if now reaching towards my sad and return, I'm like, should I be thinking way longer turn than I am now? And then I'm like, am I just doing things just to do them? Am I doing things because I feel like this is the right thing to do at this age? Um, how much of me is me versus how much of me is um my mommy or daddy? And and how much of that is like what's really making me do things and trying my best not to. Um, we both have air sign tenth houses. Um, yours being Gemini and mine, well, first and foremost, I don't want to over overshadow this podcast, just yapping. I really want you to feel like you have input as well, because you do, obviously, but even if there's something astrologically that could be daunting, I'd love for you to conquer it. So, one thing that I would say is how do you feel or interpret that your 10th house, Gemini, has been growing up?

SPEAKER_02 5:14

Hmm. Can you explain it to me again?

SPEAKER_00 5:16

How do you feel like the 10th house that you have being in Gemini with Jupiter and Saturn there has really kind of shaded and colored your childhood?

SPEAKER_02 5:31

Well, one thing that I don't like is I don't remember a lot of my childhood. But from recent experiences and hearing from my siblings, I was absolutely ridiculous. I was I was always all over the place. I was always beside them. My mom said I always uh march to the beat of my own drum. Used to call people names randomly, do a cartwheel and be like, hey, you're this. Like my first words was a cuss word. So like what cuss word um it was between what what'd she say? Shit, hell nah, and damn. So I got into this world like, damn, shit, hell no, I don't want to do nothing. But I was like, well, from what I can see, from what I can remember, and from what I'm told, I was just so fun and adventurous and always doing everything, whether it was outside, inside, playing with all kinds of toys, making all of my siblings laugh, not even knowing what I'm doing. But I was just so fun and just everywhere all the time. And even talking about it, it makes me feel good, even though I don't remember. But I'm like, that is me. I don't remember it though, but they remember it, and from them I can feel kind of what they were feeling.

SPEAKER_00 6:58

Thank you for sharing that. Honestly, I agree. I I do feel you uh I I do see you as someone that can be really silly and happy go lucky. And that's why I asked about how you think your 10th house affects you, because it's really just the way you perceive to want to shine into the world, but it always stems from what it is you had to deal with when you were younger. And your fourth house, having Sag, Pluto, and Chiron in there, you know? Yay, it's really just not wanting every day to be the same and wanting everything to be an adventure. So, like now, as you're getting older and you're pushing 40, you know, just kidding, you're you're pushing your 30s, and you're thinking about, well, what is it that I should do? And for anyone out there listening, if you have an air sign 10th house, like realize that you you don't have a definitive plan. Like, if you're an Earth rising, the whole point of being an Earth Rising, like my theory, is we just gotta play it cool. Like, we know what the fuck we're doing, but we don't. Capricorn, Virgo, Taurus, we don't know what the fuck we're doing. We're just trying to make it look like we do, you know. I definitely feel like for myself having Aquarius 10th house, I'm just like, uh, you know, this is where like this morning when I was telling you, like, should I go back to school? Like, my second house is Gemini. And I'm just like, okay, so at some point in time, I need to accept that it's not gonna be the same thing. I'm gonna need to yap. And for you, like having it in Libra, I feel like the past year you've been able to venture into aesthetics and seeing what it is that you like, and you know, whether or not it really does relate to you, and whether or not it's just kind of just what you feel like is good for the moment. Because having a Libra second house is so much about exploring that. What do I like? What do I feel like right now versus Gemini? Yeah, outfit change or career change.

SPEAKER_02 9:20

Oh, yeah. Um that too.

SPEAKER_00 9:23

But it always does come back to just doing it anyway, and I definitely feel like that's something that I've taken as an inspiration from you. Of where even while you weren't working, you still treat everything like it was a new endeavor to fully commit and to enjoy it and try it. And I'm like, wow, I really find that to be such an awesome trait that you have. Whether or not you realize it or not, I think it's such an amazing, beautiful expression of your Mars and Leo.

SPEAKER_02 9:54

Thank you.

SPEAKER_00 9:58

So, what else? What's on your mind?

SPEAKER_02 10:01

Oh my gosh. So trying to learn more about astrology in general, you know, I showed you my little cheat sheet. And I have it right now. It's just well, from learning from you, it's like understanding my own chart so that I can understand what else I can see, so that I can put it into perspective of the world. So like if I can understand what my chart means, and then I can um have a better understanding as to what I am to expect from the world around me. Which is which is really interesting and very hard. Because to be honest, have you taught me I don't like seeing myself. I don't want to see that, like I don't want to see it. I don't wanna see me. And I like, well, now we can joke about it. I'm like, I don't want to see me, like, I don't want to see that. And now I understand why. Well, I don't fully understand, but I can have an idea as to why I don't want to see that. But now I'm like, why don't I wanna see what I don't want to see? It's so it's so interesting, and then me trying to be perfect, the the Virgo, you know, first house. Ooh, sun and rising. No, it's gotta be perfect, okay? Remember what I was telling you, you gotta get right or get left. That's how I feel about life.

SPEAKER_00 11:26

Wow.

SPEAKER_02 11:27

Gotta get right or get left.

SPEAKER_00 11:31

Uh to have Virgo placements. By the way, this episode, I don't care if no one else listens to it and it gets zero views. There will be no timestamps, you know, because I just want it to actually just be a conversation. And probably how podcasts should really go, but um, don't feel pressured. I'm gonna say that. That's me giving you uh a release of the pedal on that perfectionism. I don't I don't blame you for not wanting to see yourself. I didn't want to see myself when so at the start of our relationship, and I'm obviously not putting our business out there, but I hurt you in a way that I never thought was possible in terms of your trust by just being me. And it's something that for a little bit I struggled to grapple that I did wrong, but I realized it's it's a perspective of the fact that you said it was wrong to you because that's how it affected you, and that's something that I couldn't emotionally accept for myself, that I was imperfect as a partner. And that Virgo shit is no joke because having my yeah, having my um come on, Virgo moon, come on, Virgo Moon. Having my Virgo moon, the Juno. Let's pull up this delectable chart. The Virgo moon, the the the Juno and Virgo, the North Note, and the um Lilith and Virgo is so like get right or get left. Yeah, it's no, it's it's worse, it's it's like do right or die. Like it's so much more extreme. In fact, I argue that like it's hell in a way. Yeah, it's the Scorpio. We'll talk about that too. What's it like being with a Scorpio man?

SPEAKER_03 13:30

Useless.

SPEAKER_00 13:33

Oh, you missed us to say, okay. Um, no, I'm gonna let you get it all out.

SPEAKER_02 13:40

Um I'm gonna let you get it all out. I'm gonna eat my own podcast.

SPEAKER_00 13:44

Wow.

SPEAKER_02 13:45

The good, the bad, and the dark.

SPEAKER_00 13:47

The dark. There is a lot of darkness in there. You've seen it. Um, but back to the Virgo.

SPEAKER_02 13:55

Put the sun in there a little bit.

SPEAKER_00 13:57

Yeah, yeah. I will say having a fifth house Virgostallium like that is just like it really is do good or just die. Like when it comes down to it, I want to think I'm a moral person and I'm better than other people in terms of like being a good person, but I just feel like it's my chart. Like, I feel as though if I didn't have my Virgo moon in conjunct Saturn and Aries, and then squaring my Venus and Mar placements, I really feel like I'd just be doing shit just for me. But that Virgo moon, when I tell you, it locks me in the trenches of servitude that I just can't do wrong to people, and I just feel bad about it, to the point where me having let you down at the start, and then going through that whole process of feeling like I had to get your forgiveness, but in reality, it was just you needing me to just sit there with you emotionally, which I like realized. But it's like that Virgo thing of it almost feels like when I think of Virgo when it's capitulating and it's stuck in that mode of like, I didn't do anything wrong or I can't see myself, it really just comes down to a person that feels as though they're being chased in a scary movie by like I don't know, I I'm not gonna say one specific thing in case it's copyright, but some scary monster, and they have like this this this key chain, or I don't know, like 50 keys, and it's dark, right? And they have this key, like this key chain that's like got so many keys, and they're jingling it in their hands, and they're just trembling and they're afraid because it's like I need to get through this door that's gonna give me safety and it's gonna make me feel good, right? It's just coming through. It's like you got you got this door, and it's like if I just get through this door and I close it, then I don't have to deal with the monster on the other side, right? And I can just run away from it, but like you're shaking with the keys in your hand, and it's like the keys fall, you're hearing footsteps, you know, all these possibilities that every key holds, only to realize that if you just turned around and faced it, you would be free and you wouldn't have to lock yourself in this perfect other side, and you can just deal with the unknown, which is like Pisces. It's dark, it's unknown, it's confusing, but you could sit with it. But until you actually want to accept that you're not perfect, you don't know, and you know, you have to be able to change, Virgo will really ruin you. And it did for me emotionally a lot. Like it, it it was just anguish just to sit with the fact that I'm not a perfect partner. Because in my mind, I'm like, besides traumatizing people as a Scorpio when I was like younger than 22. I like to think I like to think that I'm like actually like a good partner, or like I'm a good person, and that's what that Juno moon does. That Juno really wants me to feel like, yeah, you are, you know, whether it's mommy issues or or whatever, it just wants me to feel like I did a good job, and not feeling that way from someone I care about and love is just daunting and traumatizing.

SPEAKER_02 17:34

So I get that Virgo need to be perfect, and for you having it in the first house, whoo wee, you see them degrees with your rising, your mercury conjuncture rising, so it's like forgive me as I as I tear your shit through for like a solid 60 seconds, but it's like if you can withstand, if you can withstand rain, like if you can literally sit in it and just like I just wanna like I see a person, I just want to dive and dissect everything that I see could be not wrong, but could be better and fix it and make it better. Like I'm telling I'm giving you all the sauce and you're eating your shit dry. Like I I have all the I feel like I have all the answers, like I can help you. I can't help me, we're not talking about mirror now, but I can help you. But it's it's like seriously, it's like, oh, I see this. This is how it could be better. And then I realized with this relationship, it's like when I've done that to you, it's like, hold on, what do you what do you mean? Like, what do you what are you talking about? Yeah and I'm like, no, like look, like look. And then uh just with things in general, like I see it and I I believe I can make it better. That is that is literally part of everything. I'm like, ooh, I can see this. How can I do it better? I even um remember a time whenever you gave me a compliment about being so cool about how I put the window down and up, and I was like, oh yeah, it's cool, it just seems like more efficient if you do it this way because it's quick, it's quick. And I was like, that's that's what it feels like. Like, listen to me, I can get you to your I can make you make your shit straight faster. Just listen to me. If you want it, if you want your shit straight, get and just listen to what I have to say. But I know with the other places it comes off as a bully or like being so harsh. But I'm like, everyone deserves the truth, but how I give it is questionable.

SPEAKER_00 19:44

Yeah, how I give it is questionable. And do you want to be given what you give out? That's what I've learned with within.

SPEAKER_02 19:52

Sometimes no. Sometimes like, why are you telling me that I'm perfect? What do you mean? It's not me. That's not me. Like, it's embarrassing.

SPEAKER_00 20:05

Yeah, that's why I started I started actually calling you perfectly imperfect. You know, Saturn and Pisces was tearing us up, both individually and then also in our relationship, and given our sinistry, that shit was hard, you know.

SPEAKER_02 20:22

And it whooped our ass like your kid just got out of the tub with mom ready with a belt. Like, I'm talking, go get a switch and it better be a thin one. Or wow.

SPEAKER_00 20:34

For those of you that don't know that reference, congratulations. You were not raised in the belt. I know what that means, and I hate that I do.

SPEAKER_02 20:44

Um I mean, can't sit down for at least 30 minutes after the whooping. Yeah, don't try to put can't even put your hand back there, go make it worse.

SPEAKER_00 20:56

Exactly. You know, I definitely I sit with that because I'm just like, we really just chose hard mode, you know, knowing each other for like two, three weeks, and then like I'm talking somersaulting from like the hundredth foot all the way at the top of the building straight into a pool, and expecting not to get hit with reality, which was like realizing that at certain speeds, water might as well be concrete, and then getting humbled so quickly in this relationship, both with for me, Saturn in my 11th house, and then all of the female friendships that I had that I realized that like they either weren't actually my friends or they just were draining my energy. And I'm saying this because this is my experience, right? It's not like I don't hate women or don't take it that way, but realizing once we got into our relationship, like I couldn't sustain all of my friendships, and a lot of the issues circled around. The friendships that I had with women that did not have firm emotional boundaries. I spoke about that in my last podcast with Charlie, but it was such a huge thing for us because it led in me just sharing stuff all the time with my friends and not seeing it that way. And the way that you brought it up, which was like essentially gossiping with my friends and not realizing it, and that being such a crucial issue, which I don't blame anyone else but me. I don't even blame my friends that I don't have anymore for that. Um, but it was a violation of our trust because I'm sharing myself, even though it's a habit that I was used to, it's still an issue. And then to learn from that, to realize that like being a perfect partner is not real because Saturn in the 11th house, opposing my fifth house, is like, I gotta make a choice, right? How is it that I move forward both in friendships and in this relationship when I say I'm committed? And it's more than just the fact that I'm loyal to you, but the commitment stems in other ways that I never perceived while I was with myself or even in past relationships. Um, you having the guts to kind of call me out on my ship, but honestly, I think it would take a Virgo because even my Virgo friends before would call me out on my ship, but I I I assume they just didn't feel like they had to go all the way like you did. No, because they're not actually no, I'm not. Summarizes us. You know, even though we we we go at each other, I think what we do for each other is way better than what anyone else outside of our relationship can, in terms of just being like, this is the reality of the situation, this is what this is, you know.

SPEAKER_02 23:52

The perfect mirror. That's exactly what we are.

SPEAKER_00 23:55

Yeah, and sometimes I don't want to look in that fucking mirror.

SPEAKER_01 23:58

Like when I tell you the cover over it, bro.

SPEAKER_00 24:03

You know, and I love you, and I'm realizing the fact that I can I can tell you that you piss me the fuck off sometimes means I really love you because I'm I'm not worried about you like leaving me because of the fact that I'm able to actually express emotion with you. And that's something I did not do enough in past relationships. I think, especially like as a man, you get conditioned to be like, I'm not gonna say happy wife, happy life is a horrible thing, but it's definitely like you just shrink yourself and then you don't feel like you can sit there emotionally. Um, and you know, I'm not this is not about to divulge into like red pill rhetoric or stuff like that, but please definitely that idea that you can't fully trust a woman or you can't feel safe or talk at your deepest emotional sense with a woman. And I would always reject that, but realize that I never did it at a point that made me vulnerable. I just share shit that I didn't give a fuck about and be like, yeah, you know, it's whatever this happened to me. Um but for you, I'm gonna speak on it a little bit and then I'll let you like carry off because I'm not gonna talk about your experience and your point of view. But astrologically, Saturn being in your seventh house and then sitting there with Pisces opposing your first house is quite literally the definition of having another person humble you in terms to say like you're not what you think you are. And you know, for it to feel romantic, for it to find for you to find a long-term partner, but then also audit yourself to be like, yeah, maybe maybe I need to be the one that doesn't have everything together, and my partner does for once, because you know, that's the thing. It's difficult. That's what Saturn and Pisces did for us. I came into this relationship thinking I was perfect as a man and what my partner would need or what my wife would need. And I met you being like, no, like you got some of it, but you know, and then me walking in showing you that like you shouldn't have to try as hard, you shouldn't have to do all these things, but also what's it like to be in a relationship when you're not holding all the power because you know more than the other person?

SPEAKER_02 26:34

Yeah, that was that was definitely a reality check. And I was like, uh, you literally know everything, and I'm like, that's annoying.

SPEAKER_00 26:45

I don't know everything, but yes, he does.

SPEAKER_02 26:48

Yes, he does. Yes, he does. Don't try to play. I could go ask him a question about something right now, or he knows somebody who does. Yeah, so yeah, you know everything, but it's like, dang, what what do I do? I remember I told you sometimes I feel useless.

SPEAKER_00 27:08

Wow, as a Virgo saying that? That's crazy.

SPEAKER_02 27:11

Exactly. Double Virgo, I'm like, I feel useless, like what do I do here? What the hell? I ain't got nothing to do. And it's just like, well, that's the point. You don't have to do anything. Nothing needs to be done. Just be. I'm like taking in my boots. Like, oh this is difficult. This is very hard. And have as we as we experienced me asking for help. I have gotten better, a lot better. I come to you with everything now. But it's like, at the beginning, not doing it, not asking you for nothing. I wasn't even when I was struggling. And I mind you, I forgot. I literally forgot because I didn't take care of it as soon as I got it, but I forgot. And then it was like, it's due in two weeks. You were like, you're like, Kaisha, what the hell? Like, what did you just tell me? And I was like, I literally forgot. Every time I looked at it, boom. Out of my head, out of my mind. And then you were like, get it done. That's what I learned from you. As soon as something happens, you gotta handle it right there and there. Right. As soon as it happens or it's capitalized, it's not happening for me. Because if when it's out of sight, it's out of mind for me. Like with I think we've experienced with autism and ADHD. It's literally if it's out of sight, it's out of mind. Like a child paying peekaboo. They really think you're gone. The child really thinks you're gone. And then they come back, and you come back and they're like, Oh my god, that's what things feel like for me. If I can't see it, it's I'm not thinking about it, it's gone. Or if it's not emotionally tied to me, it's gone. And I don't I don't think about it until I have to think about it. And then it's like, Well, you should have thought about this two months ago. And then um you being with me through dealing with my own shit that I caused was annoying. And I was uh I was like, Yeah, I did this, but I gotta ask for help. I'm like, Liv, do you know how to type this in? Can you read that? What does that say? Can you read this to me? I don't know what this letter means. I don't know how to do this. Can you help me? Can you look at this? And I had to go through that and realizing, yeah, I caused my own mess, but once again, what am I going to do about it?

SPEAKER_00 29:54

Yeah, I'm I'm like I've said this so many times where I'm so grateful for this relationship. Like, you are the definition of the outcome of an amazing Saturn experience, and I say that because you knowing all the shit that I went through at the start of my Saturn return, but even just you being able to say that now, like I'm so proud of you because Keisha year ago was not saying anything at all. And I'm so proud of you because one thing that I really enjoy about you is I do find you really cool, I find you really different, and I find you to be like what people expect of you when they look at you, and then the real you, and I I just love the variety. You're like 30 people in one, and I'm not calling you, you know, mentally unwell or anything.

SPEAKER_01 30:51

But that was true.

SPEAKER_00 30:54

I never feel like I wake up and I'm bored because you're you're just ready to do something else, and that's something that I'm grateful for our sinistry for. And I know people in the audience are probably like, yuck, get a room, but you should be happy because when you find this, I I want you to find this. We got really lucky that we have sun and moon sinistry both in Virgo and Scorpio, and I say that you're the best outcome because, and this is not to attack this person, but I was in a relationship prior to you where I got the moon, but I did not understand my own emotions, and I self-sabotaged it in a way, and whether or not we had our quarrels about a lot of things, but just like you, she did her best to like help me when I entered this Saturn and Pisces, going from extremely well off financially to being like less well off due to circumstances I couldn't control, which was another thing about that perfectionism where Saturn was like, all right, you got Venus and Mars and Sat, you've been riding that wave. What happens if I take that from you? What happens if the swamp dries out? How do you survive? And so going through all that, and I've shared it a few times, but it's truly been such a landmark life thing for me. Where after what I've gone through and now being stable and good financially again, I really just feel as though, you know, I'm I'm not, you know, you know when they say that if you ask God for peace, he gives you war and all that. I'm not asking for any problems. I'm just putting that out there in the universe or God or whatever be it is. I am not, I don't need that no more. I am not, okay. But I will say that I feel as though I can conquer more than what I thought I could, especially if it's not health related. And even then, like I've had two surgeries within that time. Like when I think about it, I've had so many different things that I just and you say, like you enjoy the fact that I get up and I just do something, and that has come from life. That's Saturn and Aries. And we'll talk about that a little bit, how that differentiates for us, but I really feel as though having you to speak to as a mirror through the Saturn return was great conversation. When people would get readings from me, you know, um, people that had Sun and Mercury in Virgo as well, or there are Virgo risings or Earth risings, and they'd ask me questions. I found myself oftentimes telling them the same advice that I that we would be going through, like very often. And I'm grateful that I have you as I know you've you told me you've been grateful that you had me going through that, because um going through experiences of Saturn transits and doing it alone, unless you have like a 12th house or sixth house, can be very daunting. Like our society would be around community and we'd have other people to lean on when we go through very tough times. And so, no matter where you are at, whatever Saturn this is, if this is still up and God knows when, you know, hopefully you don't feel like you gotta go through a Saturn transit by yourself. And it doesn't have to be a relationship, it could just be friendship, you know?

SPEAKER_02 34:20

Yeah, y'all got it. You really do. It's it's honestly, I would say as someone who's learning about astrology and who doesn't know much, I honestly would say just ask yourself like now what and afterwards what are you gonna do? Like now what? This is what I'm in. What am I gonna do afterwards? Like seeing what you're in and being okay with what you're in, but then also being like, okay, what can I do from this? I think that's that's literally it. Like, I see my shit, how am I gonna take care of it? And then as someone who is also very emotional, it's okay for you to feel your emotions and to feel whatever you feel about it. But also again, what are you going to do? That's what I've learned and that's what humbled me, because I my emotions have been everything my entire life. But it's like, okay, so what are you gonna do about it? Like I'm angry, I'm sad, okay, what are you gonna do about it? But my house, but my li Okay, what are you going to do about it? And that that has been the biggest thing. No matter what anyone or what anybody that's listening may be going through, see it for what it is in all its entirety and all its glory, all its shit, all its annoyingness, and ask yourself, what what can you literally do about this? And if you can't do anything, let it go. If you can't do anything, then don't do anything. There's nothing you can do. But if you can do something, if you can go outside and pick up a leaf about it, do it. The smallest thing you can do, do it. But if you can't leave it alone, put your hands up and leave it to the universe. Jesus take the will and all that.

SPEAKER_00 36:10

Jesus take the will and all that. That's funny, but it's true, and that's really it. And it's not even like we're perfect, we still blow up, we still have disagreements.

SPEAKER_02 36:27

We had a disagreement this morning, but it's still like an hour ago, exactly.

SPEAKER_00 36:34

But it's just the fact that we've accepted that we refuse to blow up and to just deal with it, even if it takes time or whatever.

SPEAKER_02 36:43

Um, and going big coming from you, even if it takes time.

SPEAKER_00 36:47

Come on, I know, I know, growth. I know, even if it takes time. The one thing I hate hearing about that's the downside of Sagittarius, even if it takes time. What time? What now? I'm at the airport now, I'm in that four-hour TSA line now.

SPEAKER_02 37:08

Time, man. I can't even spell time. This man, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 37:12

For those of you that don't don't know, right now, if you're booking a flight, make sure that you are giving yourself a lot of time because there are four to six hour wait lines in most of these commercial um places. Just thought I'd say that. But anyway, oh yeah, go ahead.

SPEAKER_02 37:33

No, what were you saying?

SPEAKER_00 37:34

You first.

SPEAKER_02 37:36

Oh, I was gonna say something I just thought about. And well, dang, I could go on forever because we're getting close to time.

SPEAKER_00 37:42

But what time? There is no such thing.

SPEAKER_02 37:46

Well, getting close to me having two departures.

SPEAKER_00 37:49

Oh, right, yeah. I had to cancel so fast just to talk to you, but I really and we'll finish the conversation. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 38:00

Okay, well then I'll save that for I'll save that for the other half. Cause I don't know.

SPEAKER_00 38:04

Okay, write it down though. Like, write it down so that you save it. Write that down. Um, because I definitely want to talk about the notes, but maybe we could stop here and just really just enjoy. Um, I know that I've always said that we could totally have a podcast about our relationship and it would teach people a lot, but we also have Scorpio placements, so it's like, you know what I'm saying? Mind your business, but I feel as though if we if we interlace it astrologically, then we can do so much good work for people through how they see us without them being like stalking us because the moment this shit gets out of hand, everything's getting deleted.

SPEAKER_02 38:48

Yeah, I was like, I I could definitely do that, and I could definitely see that because we've been able to literally sit with each other and be like, this is what you did to me, this is how it affected me, and you pissed me off, and I didn't like that, but I still love you, and it's one thing I wanted to say, oh my gosh, I don't like when I'm mad at you because I still want to be right underneath you, but like for you, it's like you need space, but I'm like, I'm mad, but like, where are you going? Like, I'm mad, but I want you to be right here. But it's like you need your space to deal with your emotions and how things make you feel. But it's like I need you right here so I can feel it, but still know that you still love me. Yeah, and that's that's been so difficult not to take it personal, which is what I've been working on, trying not to take everything personal. And I'm like, that is that's hard.

SPEAKER_00 39:40

Yeah, that's but it's it's a really good thing you work on it because that way you're anti-rage bait proof. Like, I don't even rage bait you for real, but I'm realizing that me passively, no, no, no, no. Me passively being like I'm gonna say jovial, like like playful with you in that way has made you better about it, though, because now other people can't rage bait you, you know what I mean? Because you'd be like, my husband, literally, like he I he literally, yeah, like so good try, but no, you know what I mean? It's it's kind of like how siblings will um will like teach their sister how to fight, which is something that like I know we'll talk about that on another episode, but the way our sinistry is, we really do many different roles, whether it's like being a parent, being a sibling, or being a partner. We we really interlace and astrologically being with you is like dating my best friend. It's like I get to have a friend because your chart, first and foremost, with my chart is a friend. So I feel like I have such a privilege to go through that.

SPEAKER_02 40:57

Oh thank you. Yeah, my bestie, my bestie for the resty.

SPEAKER_00 41:03

Yeah, as long as I don't die earlier than expected, but I know I said die.

SPEAKER_01 41:08

Okay, I cut it off because you just see all right.

SPEAKER_00 41:12

We'll we'll come back in episode 15 and we'll talk about family stuff with the nodes and whatever else you want to share. Like I said, I'm not I'm not putting timestamps in this. This is for the people that actually care.

SPEAKER_02 41:26

You know, just want to listen.

SPEAKER_00 41:28

That's it. All right, go ahead and get ready. Thank you so much for listening to this episode.

SPEAKER_02 41:34

Thank you guys.

SPEAKER_00 41:35

Love you guys, love you guys, and have a great rest of your day.

SPEAKER_02 41:39

See you later.