Playing The Fool

Welcome to the PLAYING THE FOOL Podcast, I am your host Jarna Saunders.

I am a proud as fuck Life and Relationship Coach and personal development nerd, with a HUGE passion to get every single woman in the arena of their own lives.

I have over 10 years’ experience coaching 100's of women and couples.

I've been where you may be right now: for years I sat on the side-lines of my life, stuck in fear, in my head, in the past of that ONE TIME I was put back in my corner and I let it cripple me with fear.

That was until one day when the PAIN of staying hidden was too much to take and I made the choice to get my butt in the ARENA of MY OWN life.

To take the risk of looking like a beginner, looking silly and GOD forbid looking like a FOOL.

My promise to you is to show up here in all my parts and seasons with my heart proudly on my sleeve, gate keeping nothing but asking us all to WALK OUR GOD DAM ARSES out of the corners we were never born to exist in.

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Playing The Fool

Episode 38: Did I Do Enough?: The Episode That Breaks my Heart

May 14, 2026 • Jarna Saunders • Season 2 • Episode 38

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In this episode, I open up about my journey through motherhood - the highs, the heartbreak, the healing, and everything in between. With Mother’s Day just passing, I found myself reflecting deeply on what it really means to be a mother, the emotional weight many women carry around this day, and how profoundly motherhood has shaped who I am.

I share honestly about becoming a mum at 23, hitting rock bottom by 25, navigating depression, separation, shame, and feeling completely unequipped to parent in the way my son deserved. I talk about how personal development became the turning point in my life - not only helping me learn how to love myself, but teaching me how to become the safe, grounded, emotionally available mother I wanted to be.

This conversation is for every mother who has questioned herself, carried guilt, wanted to do better, or is learning to break generational patterns while raising children. It’s also for anyone navigating healing, self-worth, and the lifelong process of becoming.

Thank you for being here with me for this one. It’s one of the most vulnerable conversations I’ve shared on the podcast.

If this episode resonated with you and you’re wanting deeper support in your relationships, communication, emotional safety, or self-growth, you can work with me inside Tender or through Relationship Coaching, where we explore these conversations in a really supportive, honest, and transformational space.

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You can find me over on Instagram at @JarnaSaunders or visit my website at jarnasaunders.com