The Medicine Spoke
he Medicine Spoke is a soul-baring podcast exploring healing at its root—from the womb to the wild unknown. Hosted by a mother of five and nurse turned spiritual seeker, this show dives into the raw, often unspoken layers of trauma, emotional inheritance, psychedelics, and rebirth.
Each episode is a blend of storytelling, reflection, and remembrance—sometimes solo, sometimes with guides, therapists, or fellow travelers on the path. From a life-altering Ibogaine journey in Mexico to breathwork, rage release, motherhood, and the echoes of what we felt before we had language—this is a space for the ones who never felt quite at home in the surface world.
Whether you’ve sat with plant medicine, cried in a therapist’s office, or screamed into a pillow at 2 a.m., you’ll feel seen here.
The Medicine Spoke
Why Healing Feels Lonely
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In this episode, I open up about the hidden side of healing — the part no one prepares you for. The silence. The fear. The free fall that happens when you finally choose yourself after years of living for everyone else.
I share the deeper layers of my journey: becoming a mother at sixteen, losing myself in responsibility, finding my identity in nursing and leadership, and the moment Ibogaine broke everything open and showed me how to be alone with myself. I talk about stepping away from a career that no longer aligned, facing the quiet, releasing distraction, and learning to sit in stillness without fear.
I also share the role my husband played in supporting my healing, how I reclaimed my voice through this podcast, the spiritual messages from my morning rituals, and the tools that helped me find peace when the loneliness felt heavy.
If you’re in that uncomfortable space between who you were and who you’re becoming… this episode is for you. You’re not broken. You’re not behind. You’re not alone.
You’re coming home to yourself.