The Medicine Spoke
he Medicine Spoke is a soul-baring podcast exploring healing at its root—from the womb to the wild unknown. Hosted by a mother of five and nurse turned spiritual seeker, this show dives into the raw, often unspoken layers of trauma, emotional inheritance, psychedelics, and rebirth.
Each episode is a blend of storytelling, reflection, and remembrance—sometimes solo, sometimes with guides, therapists, or fellow travelers on the path. From a life-altering Ibogaine journey in Mexico to breathwork, rage release, motherhood, and the echoes of what we felt before we had language—this is a space for the ones who never felt quite at home in the surface world.
Whether you’ve sat with plant medicine, cried in a therapist’s office, or screamed into a pillow at 2 a.m., you’ll feel seen here.
The Medicine Spoke
Between Death and Peace: My 5-MeO-DMT Story
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There’s a part of the healing journey nobody really talks about —
the quiet after… the Gray Day… the place between fear and surrender.
In this episode, I share my Gray Day after ibogaine and my 5-MeO-DMT experience — the fear, the letting go, the visions, the tears, the prayers, and the deep peace that followed.
You’ll hear about:
• what Gray Day actually is
• why the silence is so intense
• my 5-MeO-DMT experience and what it felt like inside it
• the moment I thought I died — and what happened next
• releasing shame, mom-guilt, fear, and old stories
• meeting God, surrender, and rebirth
• what integration felt like when I came home
• and how all of this led me here — to you
This is the story of how the medicine broke me open and helped me start again.
And this is only the beginning — the next episodes dive into life after, integration, and how I began learning to truly heal.