I Am Not What They Said About Me

In this episode of The Edwards Table, Amy reflects on the weight of gossip and the often unseen impact it leaves behind. She shares how careless words—whether spoken by others or believed internally—can begin to shape identity in ways that aren’t true.

Looking back on a deeply personal season, Amy reads something she once wrote to herself while struggling to untangle the lies she had come to believe. Anchored in Scripture, including Psalm 139, her words serve as a reminder that identity isn’t defined by opinions, assumptions, or past wounds—but by the God who created her.

This episode is both a gentle warning about the wake gossip leaves and an invitation to return to truth: you are not what others say—you are who God says you are.

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Hi, I'm Amy Edwards, and welcome to the Edwards Table. This podcast is all about real conversations, the kind that come from life, love, family, friendship, and all the messy, beautiful parts in between. I started this show because I believe in redemption stories and in sitting down together to talk about the things that shape us, heal us, and sometimes just make us laugh. So grab a seat, take a breath, and join me. Because there's always room for you here at the Edwards Table. Well, hey y'all, and welcome back to the Edwards Table. My name is Amy Edwards. I am your host here at this Edwards Table podcast. Thank you so much for everyone who is joining me today on this journey that I have been on for a very long time of healing and restoration and redemption. Um, a beautiful story that has been knit together. And if you've been joining over the past month, which was April, I cannot believe we've already jumped into May. Wow. Um, but I was sharing some of my favorite passages of scripture and like stories of the Bible and things like that. It's only been a few, right? Because we were only in four weeks of April. Um, and there are many, I will admit. But the last two weeks, I actually talked about either a passage or the the whole chapter of the book of Psalms, chapter 139, and um just kind of talked through what that was for me and why it was. And I thought I was gonna sit down today and talk to you about the next story, but as life would have it, I shifted. And um, as I've been prayerfully considering, like, God, what do you want me to share with people? And what is gonna be effective? Um, two things. One is a situation that I've been dealing with lately, and I just want to talk more about that because as a woman, I find that we as women, for whatever reason, can get really ridiculous with ourselves and with each other. And um, because I am a Christ follower, God calls me to an expectation of striving to be like Christ, right? Try to be more and more like Jesus. And so I'm just gonna talk to you more about like the situation and kind of what I've been struggling with and yada yada. And then the second thing is is I want to leave you today with um, I don't even know what you call it, a journal, I guess, or just something I wrote to myself. And this was back in the mid-2010s. So I want to say it's like around 2016, 15, but don't quote me on dates because I'm horrible unless I have to know it to remember. But I know it it's been several years ago. Um, and it kind of became a mantra of mine uh that God just kind of laid on my heart as I was struggling at that point in this whole healing journey that I've been on, with um we had moved out here to Texas, and um I was trying to balance being a wife and a mom. And then um I also took on a full-time job, and that was in special needs ministry, which was phenomenal, and I was very thankful for, albeit God had me there for a very short two-year season. Um I wrestled with myself, like who I am as a woman, and just as Amy, just Amy, right? Um, and so at the end of today, I'm gonna close this out and just share with you kind of what I penned during that time. Um, and a a good portion of that comes from Psalm 139, like how God laid that on my heart was by reading his word and like hearing from him about this. And so I definitely I hope you'll hang around for the whole episode today because definitely want you to hear what he gave to me. Um, and it's something I share often uh with other people who I know are struggling with loving the person they see in the mirror. All right, so um as I said beginning of this uh episode, I didn't really anticipate coming on talking about this today, but the more I prayed about it and the more um I asked for clarity from God, like what is it you want me to say and how do I do this? Um and I think just being still and listening. So I don't know about you all, but as a woman and for you fellas listening, just be patient because I'm guessing if you're listening to this podcast, you probably have a wife and or you are looking to get married, and so it's applicable to you as well, being a partner or learning to become one, right? So guys and girls wired very differently when it comes to many things. One in particular is how we um handle things from an emotional standpoint. Now, not to say that guys aren't emotional beings because they definitely are, however, they typically are wired to um solve a problem. So it's see the problem, create um a strategy to solve, solve the problem, and move away from the problem because it's been solved, right? As women, we tend to put that lens of emotion into it, and we bring in all of our experiences to that one thing. So we are excellent multitaskers, but at the same time, we also can get really bogged down into our emotions. And I think me personally, and I'm gonna talk for me personally about how I have dealt with things in the past versus now, is I am a very emotional human being, albeit I don't like to cry in front of people. I'm not a super duper emotional girl in front of others. That I tend to hold that for me and my family, um, because I'm sure if my kids are listening to this, you're like, uh mom, please, like you cry all the days. Um, but like I'm I'm not usually forward in front of all people sharing emotions that way. Um and I am not someone who enjoys drama. That is because I have fought tooth and nail since a very young age to not be in that mix. Now, if you know me, if you listen to this podcast, you may hear that I have um maybe an animated voice. I use my hands a ton. If you're watching, you see my hands flailing about all the time. Um, I am very much an animated human. I am very much a dramatic human. I love, for instance, when I read stories to my children, to read them with voices and sounds and all of the animated things. I love a good picture because of someone's tone and voice quality and actions and how they bring a story to life, right? But y'all, full stop, absolute period, when it comes to living in drama. I do not do it and I don't tolerate it in my life. And that has caused a lot of, not I shouldn't say a lot of, but it has caused some situations for me to have to deal with personally in creating healthy boundaries, in having the ability to use the word no, not as a cuss word, but as a comfort word, to be able to tell someone, no, I'm not gonna participate in that, or no, I don't want to be a part of that. And so if I find myself getting sucked into drama and I don't pinpoint it very quickly, so I let myself kind of get sucked in, and then I start getting really emotional. And if you're watching, you'll see I'm splotchy. I'm literally red and splotchy on my neck and chest right now because this fires me up so bad. Like I see red when I start hearing about drama. And I have had some things of late that have transpired around me that have kind of pulled me in, if you will. And when that happens, I tend to lean into my own thoughts and my own feelings, and I don't go first to God and say, Lord, help me. Help me because I know this tongue of mine. Oh my gosh, y'all, I have a mouth of a sailor when I get angry. I am not gonna lie to you. That is honest, it's transparent. If you know me, you're like, yes, girl, I've heard you say all the things. Um, and not to say like I'm just out there all the time, but I mean, it is something I struggle with when I get angry. I go very quickly to popping off and being not only sarcastic and sassy, but I don't lose an argument. Meaning, when I engage, I engage in an argument because I am going to win. And that doesn't have a price tag on it, I'm willing to pay it. Okay, again, not telling you this because I'm proud of that. I'm just telling you this because I'm honest about who I am as a human. Okay, so never lose an argument, very sassy, very strong-willed, have a mouth of a sailor sometimes. Um, and I do not like to engage in drama at all. If I notice, as I have here in the recent past, that I've kind of gotten pulled into it a little bit, which means then I go back and I listen to some of the things I've said to other people, and I may have gossiped some, or I may have continued a story on that really needed to just be listened to and left alone instead of feeding it, if you will. Um and I'm grateful that now I see that in myself rather quickly. Um, now that doesn't mean that necessarily I act on it fast. There are times where maybe I do um, you know, gossip alongside of someone who's who's been gossiping about a situation or something. Or maybe I will, like I said, continue the story. In other words, somebody will start to tell me something and then I'll throw some stuff in there, right? Well, bottom line is this it really makes me nauseated to watch women do this to one another. It infuriates me to hear women tearing other women down. And my why behind that is this. Um, I was sharing a story actually with a client not long ago about um a situation that I dealt with where someone was being very passive-aggressive in their communication back and forth. Um, and this happened to be a gentleman that I was speaking with, and I just said, you know, it just frustrates me when someone has those roundabout ways of telling you, like, I don't know, you've made a mistake, or I disagree with your opinion, or whatever. I'm very much a straight shooter. I would much rather you come up to me and say, hey, Amy, I read what you said and what you said really hurt me, and here's why it hurt me. Like I would love to have that kind of a response from someone versus you going to a third party telling them things and then it getting back to me from a fourth party or a fifth party that has been involved in this whole round robin discussion about things I didn't even know were going on. And so I was just sharing with with my client, we were talking about this, like in business, how to deal with things and whatnot. And and I said, you know, I think sometimes people misunderstand me as a not because I'm a woman, partly maybe, but mainly because I have this like super syrupy, sweet voice. And I know this. This is my southern size. I'm not at all gonna change it. I'm not taking voice lessons, I'm not going to a speech. Um, I can't remember what they're called, but like someone who teaches you how to have these stellar speaking skills and whatever else. I am who I am. This is part of Amy Edwards, and I'm very proud of my southern season of life. Like, and that is a substantial part of my life. Sorry, Texas, y'all are not Delta South. Texas, we're our own thing here, okay? We're not southwest, we're just Texas, period. Full stop. Um, Delta South is East Coast, borderline Texas. So, like Louisiana East, we got you. Texas, you're your own thing. And then you head west, you can call Arizona further out. Great, wonderful west. There's your geography lesson to anyone who was questioning. No, but that when I think about like my southern accent, it comes from Tennessee. Um, and like southern rules. There are southern rules that you abide by and adhere to just because that's just how we do it in the South, if you will. Um, so moving out here very different. But I have to be so honest. I have been flabbergasted at the fact that family or friends have the actual audacity to do this to one another. Like I understand when you get frustrated with a person and maybe you vent to another person prayerfully, it's a spouse or a parent, it's not you're going to some friend and you're just dumping all of this junk on them because that definitely turns into a gossip train, right? But like, for instance, when I vent to John, and there are times where, bless him, he is hurting for me and he wants to fix it. And I'm like, I don't need you to fix it, I just need you to listen to it. Um, but this was something that I just I still am flabbergasted. Like I can't fathom if you call yourself someone who believes in Jesus and you're chasing after wanting to be like him, um why stirring the pot feels like the right thing to do, like gossiping and dredging up, I don't know, people's past or fabricating things about people or whatever it is that's going on, right? That in my head just doesn't compute. I don't understand that because nowhere in scripture have I ever read that that's who he is and that's how he functions. Nowhere in scripture have I ever read that that's what he wants us to do as his followers, right? He wants us to serve one another, love one another, treat each other with respect and kindness. Um and if we are fellow believers, we're to call each other out when we see someone slipping. So for instance, witnessing someone that I know, now not just, okay, also let's pause and think about this. I'm not saying y'all to jump on social media and give someone a lecture series because they say you're they're a Christian and you say you are, and then it becomes your mission in life to then go pick apart everything they do and tell them all the things. You don't know them, okay? You don't know them. So I'm not saying go to some stranger and call them out. What I'm saying is if you're in the same church family, right? It's your circle, the people you know and you love and you do life with and you worship with and all of these things. If you see someone in that in that circle starting to slip away, it is your responsibility to talk to them about it and bring it to their attention. Like, hey, I I've noticed maybe you're a little off lately because I saw you acting this way or saying something or whatever else. Now, again, this is not a lesson on how to go talk to someone having a hard conversation when you love them or whatever, but just to kind of separate the difference between talking to someone because you care about them and wanting them to better themselves, like to grow their faith and grow in their relationship with Christ, versus acting like you have righteous um judgment and you can tell someone that they are in the wrong and you know better than they and la la la la la. Because option two I just described is us jumping in God's seat. That's taking him off the throne and putting us on it and becoming the judge. And there is only one judge, only one. And I'm very thankful for that because I'm gonna tell you right now, if I were the judge, it would not go down well at all. And the fact that Jesus said, we will be judged according to the measure that we judge others. So, in other words, however you size people up, whatever your list looks like, if you have a tape measure that they have to, you know, like measure up to or whatever, be prepared that that's then what you're gonna be standing up next to. And I'm not saying that in a literal sense, because quite frankly, I've never been to heaven. I have very little uh knowledge other than what I've read in scripture, and even then I'm not always really clear on it. Um, but what I am saying is very much like when Jesus stood beside the adulterous woman. I don't know if y'all have ever heard that story, but there is a story in the New Testament in the Gospels where uh this woman gets caught, y'all, in the act of committing adultery. I mean, first and foremost, can you even imagine, right? This posse of men finds you in this other man's bed or wherever you were, I don't know. It doesn't give those details, but like you get caught in the midst of an adulterous affair. You can fill in all of the blanks. So as the Jewish law was of the time, she was brought um to the whole religious group of men that were then going to judge her. And the law was written that for the man and the woman to be stoned. What's interesting is quick fun fact, only the woman was brought. So, what does that probably tell us? Probably the man, full potential to have been also a religious leader of the time, but because he had friends in high places, if you will, he didn't get brought up to the stoning spot, if you will. Um so they all have stones in their hand, and this woman falls at Jesus' feet, and the religious leaders are like in their minds, ha, we've got him now, because they keep trying to trap Jesus to find a reason why they should get rid of him. And this time around, they're quoting the law of Moses, which is way back in the very beginning of the Bible, back in the Old Testament. Um, I think the Israelites, you know, the folks who were out, ate the manna and the bread, the bird and all that thing, and hopped around the mountain a few times, were in the wilderness for 40 years. That's the Moses parting the Red Sea. Um, but they were quoting this law of, you know, it's a it's supposed to be both adulterer and adulteress are stoned. Um, they kind of left out the the both piece, right? Just brought her, and then they had stones literally ready to stone her. So she goes face down in front of Jesus, and one of the men says, you know, is baiting Jesus for our all intents and purposes. He's trying to get him caught, if you will, in a in a like messing at the law. I'm I'm losing words today, sorry. But like they were trying to catch him doing saying something wrong. And so Jesus is just, he's down on the ground and he's drawing in the sand. Um and he says to them, you know, for any of you who who have not sinned, let you be the first to cast your stone. And he says nothing else. He doesn't get up and walk around, chat, hang out, whatever. He just stays there. And um remember, this lady is face down on the ground, and eventually Jesus asks her a question, and she lifts her head and realizes that the men are gone. All of them are gone. Because, see, here's the thing, yes, we all can cast a stone. I mean, of course, there are people out there that we can say, oh, I haven't done A or B. But the flip to it is is that we also can say, I have sinned my whole life. Like I have done wrong my whole life. I have never not been on this planet and made zero mistakes. That's the reality in my thoughts and my actions, both ways, right? And I just think it's such a beautiful story that Jesus teaches. And in that story, I can see myself both ways. I can see myself as one of the angry religious leaders with a stone in my hand, ready to, you know, throw down on somebody because I caught them doing the wrong thing, right? But then the flip to it is I can still be that same person, that same religious leader. And once I've heard Jesus' voice speak to me, very quickly I realize I'm out. I'm done. I can't throw a stone because I personally am not without fault. I can't say that I have never sinned or that my sin is that much better. I mean, that is hilarious to say, oh yeah, well, I didn't sin as badly. Quote, badly as you did. Okay, that's not even logical, right? And so I can see myself both ways, and I can see myself as the adulterous woman. I've committed horrific sins in my life. I have been in the middle of the stoning pile where people have absolutely come at me and come ready to absolutely decimate me. I've been there. I've been there in the world, I've been there in the church world, I have been there many times, unfortunately. But I mean, good grief. I've been on this planet over 51 years. So like things happen, right? Life happens. And the beautiful part of those really messy, hard times of getting ready to be stoned, if you will, is that because I do have Jesus in my life, he very, very clearly reminds me that I, albeit sinful, I have a sinful nature about me, he has loved me and I have accepted him, and therefore he has washed all of that sin out of my life. So every time I make a mistake from here on out, he is able to say, I've already forgiven it. I have already taken that to the cross and it is gone. And so that really came to mind today and like over the past several weeks, just some different things, like I said, going on in life. And I just I I just want to get on here and and prayerfully be able to speak to someone who's listening. Um if you're a woman and you find that you are always the source of information, I'm gonna tell you, friend, I would take pause before I was sharing information. Because when you're the information giver, always, typically you're stirring pots, you are trying to keep things going, and those things typically are drama-filled, and they're not good, and they're not of God, and they're not what God calls us to, right? And if you're the adulterous woman and you are face down on the ground and you have a throng of people around you getting ready to throw down because you've made mistakes and they've they've figured it out, or they're calling you out. It doesn't give excuse to bad behavior or poor choices or wrong choices or wrong lifestyles or whatever the thing is, right? I'm not saying that what you did or maybe are doing is the right thing, but what I am saying is it is something that God can completely and totally forgive. And he does that with us doing very little for him. Our one thing that we're asked by him to do is to follow him. So to accept that Jesus is our Lord and Savior, like, yes, I believe you went to the cross, you died, and you forgave me of all my sins. And because I believe that, now you're in charge of my life. So I'm gonna go wherever you tell me to, I'm gonna go wherever you lead me to. It's that simple. It literally is that simple. Where it gets tough is just like when we're working out. Um, it's the daily grind. It's the getting up and agreeing to say yes one more day. It's when we just like when we struggle with addiction, it's getting up and agreeing to say yes to ourselves one more day instead of the addiction. Yes, I'm going to choose me over alcohol, me over pills, me over food, me over pornography. And by doing that, by saying yes, I pick me and I don't pick the addiction, I'm moving away from it. So every day we say yes, we move further and further and further away from what was of us. And I think that's what is so gorgeous that we're allowed the opportunity to have that kind of movement away from things. Sometimes some of us have this awakening in our life, and we're able to turn it like a switch off in our life with our addiction or with our struggle. And other times it becomes like it's referenced by a couple of different folks in the Bible about becoming a thorn in our side. So it's it's a daily struggle, it's a daily grind. It's a I wake up and I'm thinking about this, or I don't, I wake up, I'm not really thinking about it, but daggamin, if it doesn't pop up later in my day, you know what I mean? And so it's more of that grinding out daily, grinding out daily. But at the end of the day, when it's all said and done, no matter where we are in our lives, and no matter what we're doing in our lives, if we truly are wanting to follow after Christ, it is not only our expectation, but it is absolutely our responsibility to make sure that the words that come out of our mouths are sweet. And I heard this is the way I remember it. So there was a pastor back in Memphis, Tennessee, his name was Dr. Adrian Rogers, and he was the pastor at a church called Bellevue. And if you ever want to hear some wise words with a southern sass accent, Dr. Rogers is where he's where it's at. Like he's the bee's knees when it comes to all things southern, and then like a really good one-liner to really drive a point home. And I will never forget, I've I have like noted several of the things that he said along along the way, and I have them tucked away, and every once in a while I'll pop them out. But there's one in particular, and it goes something like this: not a direct quote, but something like this. Be careful of the words you choose. Be sure that they are sweet to the taste, for one day you may have to eat them. I don't know about you, but hearing that makes me stop and think about what's going to come out of my mouth. Do I do it every time? No. And do I have to ask for forgiveness? Yes. But what I can say is this: if you struggle with being in the middle of drama, like you enjoy it, it's like you you feed off of it. It gives you energy and it gives you excitement and you like to hear everybody's gossip and all of the things. What I would challenge you with is this. What if you replaced those things, right? The need for that kind of adrenaline rush from other people's drama? What if you replaced it with something? Like maybe find a good book series to read, or find a good thing maybe to watch or listen to that gives you kind of that sense of excitement, but it does, it's not at the expense of another person, right? Um or maybe when it become maybe it's something you struggle with and it's like really something you cannot do on your own, that's when I would strongly recommend that you pray to God and let him know that you can't do this without his help. And let me reassure you, nothing that you can or I can do, can we do without God? So you're not telling him anything he doesn't ever, even that he doesn't know, but what you are saying to him is that you trust him to help take you through it and help you maybe change a little bit about who you are. Yeah, that was just kind of where I landed today in terms of I just feel that there's this, I don't know, icky, gross kind of a thing. And I've heard so many people, like I've had people come and share things that are going on in their life, or I've had stuff that I've been experiencing. And I'm just like, it it can't, it can't keep going on, like in terms of my life and the and the people that I hear this from. I want to be able to pour into them, and I also want to continually work on myself, you know, make myself better, more aware, more cognizant of of when the drama starts up. And um, yeah. So that's kind of what I wanted to leave you with today, in terms of just my thoughts and like what story I went to in my mind with that was definitely to the adulterous woman. Oh, and great news, y'all. If you don't know the story, it's beautiful. So at the end of the story, finally Jesus speaks to the woman, she looks up, and it dawns on her that it's only she and Jesus standing there. Because what they all realized was none of them were free of sin. They all had sinned, clearly more than one time. And uh, if you notice the notes in that story, she had too. But none of them felt that they could actually throw that stone at her because they were no better in terms of number of sins. Such a beautiful story. And I'm so thankful that Jesus does that for every single one of us because none of us are perfect, y'all. None of us are perfect. And if we know that we're not doing something right, hopefully we're making the right choices to choose a different path. Because, you know, gossip, not a good thing. Not a good thing. The wake it leaves behind the people's lives that it hurts, it's just, it's gross. I just don't like it. I'm not a gossip gal. I don't like it at all. So before I close out today, you're welcome. I didn't drone on for hours and days. It's probably best when I get really fired up because I can't talk as much. The Lord does not allow it if I ask Him to like frame my thoughts and my words. Uh because John Edwards would tell you, I can go on for days when I'm upset. Um, but I want to close with this. This one, this one piece that I wrote, like I said, all those years ago. And it comes from a lot of different scriptures that I've read over the years, kind of a compilation, if you will, when I was struggling a lot with making peace with the woman I was looking at in the mirror and truly loving who I saw. Um, and back in a time when I was very much feeding in the drama and feeding in all of the crazy and and and buying into the lies. I don't know about you, but like the the gossipy lie stuff, it's really easy to buy into. It's really easy to listen to what other people say and think and other the worldly things, right? Social media, the movies, music, advertisement, good heavens, the way clothing is made. I mean, for heaven's sake, it's just everywhere. It's everywhere. And I got to this place of just being fed up. And I was like, God, I don't like this. This is so frustrating to me. And from that came this. So let me read this to you. I am who you say I am. It's a truth that has taken me so many years to accept. It's not what my past tells me, not what my family tells me, not what my friends tell me, not what the world tells me, not what social media tells me, not what the movies tell me, not even what my mind tells me. I am who I am because I am who God says that I am. He created me. He planned for me. He desires me. He loves me. He died for me. He rose from the dead for me. He saved me. He forgives me. He knows me. He never leaves me. He never stops loving me. He never quits forgiving me. He never keeps a list of all the things that I have done wrong. He never breaks a promise. He never says he's too tired. He never says he's too busy. And the beauty of knowing that I am who God says I am means, that I am enough because he is sufficient. I am whole because he is the healer. I am peace-filled because he is the Prince of Peace. I am never alone because he is the Alpha and the Omega. I am not wary because he provides me rest. I am not lost because his word provides a light to my path. I am forgiven because he is my redeemer. And you are too. And don't forget in Psalm 139 what it says. Let me read it to you. You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise, you perceive my thoughts from afar, you discern my coming and my lying down. You are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue, Lord, you know it completely. You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from you, Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there. If I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me. Your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me, even the darkness will not be dark to you. The night will shine like the day. For you created my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, and I know that full well. Search me, God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me into the way everlasting. Friend, I hope you have the best. Rest of your day, beginning of your day, great week, month, whatever it is that you are starting into. And I pray that Psalm 139 will resonate with you like it does for me. And I truly hope that you know that because you are his, it doesn't matter what everything else tells you, your past, your present, the people around you, the things that the world tells you, you are exactly his creation. And with that, he can bind up your wounds, make it all beautiful again. And you know why I can tell you that? It's because he did it and does it for me. Remember, y'all, there is always a seat for you here at the Edwards table. And I hope you will continue to join me this month of May. I'm actually opening up my cooking spot on my channel on YouTube. So over there, I'll be doing awesome recipes that you will see me literally right here. And that's why this little guy is seated next to me. This is my sourdough starter, Oscar. You're welcome. Um, but yeah, definitely pop over and give me a give me a subscribe and a like and come jump in the kitchen with me and let's make some yummy food while uh I pop on every week and come share more of my story and uh why I love Jesus so much and how much he can help you. And I know it not because I've read it, albeit I have, but because I've lived it. See you next time, y'all. Well, hey, y'all, and uh just want to pop on here really quick and share a little exciting news. I know a few months back, I think I kind of would did a little teaser of some cooking that I was gonna do in my kitchen, and I've continued working on that in the background, but I haven't launched anything out officially. So here's what I would love from you is pop over to my YouTube channel. So there is the Edwards Table YouTube channel, and in there you will see the podcast, you will also see some shorts that I pop up there from time to time. But excitingly enough, as well, will also be some cooking videos. So I know that for some of you uh the kitchen is not your favorite spot to be. Um but I will say I've got a lot of yummy recipes and I'm confident there are some that you're gonna really enjoy. So the month of May, I will be making a meal over a couple of different videos, and um I tested out this brand new recipe and got my whole family's thumbs up approval on it. It is um a pork loin roast and uh it was delicious. So I serve it two ways and I walk you through how to make it and then how I serve it. So you can serve it for dinner hot, you can let it cool and get cold in the fridge, slice it up, make sandwiches. I've got all of that ready to go. Um, and because we all like to cook in in this kitchen, uh, this is my buddy Oscar. He is my sourdough starter. Uh so I'll have him go in some. I've got some great dessert recipes, some awesome breakfast things I make. Really and truly, I just love being in the kitchen and it has felt silly not to share that. So please come join me over on YouTube. Definitely check out all of the fun recipes, and I make sure you can pop on the link in my bio and you can hop over to YouTube. Otherwise, it's always at the Edwards table. You'll see everything looks identical. This girl's mug is what you're looking for, and then uh you'll know you're in the right spot. Cannot wait to see y'all there. Catch me in the kitchen, y'all. See ya.