Life Update: I’m Turning 30 & Moving to Australia… WTF?!

Welcome to my Life Update series — where you get to step behind the scenes and into my real life.

These episodes are raw, unfiltered, and completely unedited… just me sharing what’s been going on, what I’m moving through, and the shifts happening in real time.

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Hello and welcome to the Good Girl Rebellion Podcast. I'm your host Izzy, founder of Cyclica, and thank you so much for joining me on another episode. The Good Girl Rebellion is all about reclaiming your rhythm in mind, body and spirit. Each week we are unraveling years of conditioning to reclaim our wild, rebellious and intuitive truth. It is my mission to help women break free from society's expectations, help them reconnect with their feminine power, and live in alignment with the ebb and flow of our cyclical nature. So if you're ready to reclaim your power, reconnect with your wildest self and rise as the woman you were never taught to be, you are in the right place. Welcome to the rebellion. I am not gonna lie, I have tried to record a podcast three times so far this week, and none of them are sitting right with me. So I'm just gonna wing it and give you guys a bit of a life update and share more about me, more about what I'm doing, what I'm experiencing, what I'm going through, and just my thoughts on April so far. As an Aries, this is my time to shine, and this is I feel like this month has got some big energy behind it. So, do you know what? I'm just gonna wing it and I'm just gonna share my big energy because why not? This is my space where I can talk about whatever I want, and this week I'm just gonna give you guys a little bit of an update. So, first of all, it's April. Oh my gosh, this month I turn 30, which is wild. I cannot believe I am going to be 30 years old. I feel like yesterday I was like turning 18 and was celebrating the fact that I could go and drink legally in clubs and bars and buy cigarettes, and like fast forward 12 years, I'm just reflecting on the fact that oh wow, my life is so different. I I mean, I know I'm 30, it's not like I'm 20. I know I am I'm not old because I really don't believe that you are ever truly old until you tell yourself you're old. I feel like we are all capable of doing whatever we whatever we want to do, whenever we want to do it. But yeah, I'm just not I'm definitely not in my youth anymore. I'm definitely not the wild child that I used to be, but still wild in a different way, wild in a rebellious and I'm not gonna do as I'm told kind of way, not a little bit loose kind of way. So yeah, I'm turning 30 this month, and oh my gosh, it's a big month because I'm turning 30, and there's a lot in my social calendar, and then I leave for Australia in May. I am moving. Well, I'm going to Australia on a one-way ticket with a working holiday visa, and I have like the first four weeks planned out, and I don't have a fucking clue what I'm gonna do, where I'm gonna go, where I'm gonna be in six months' time, and I think that is like one of the most beautiful things that you can do. So when I was in Bali last year, I met loads of people who were working in the mines and like living in Perth, and I was like, Okay, the mines seems like a great way to make some money, like not actually like working. Well, I mean, I wouldn't have said no to working in the mines, but I was looking more at like office admin or doing something like in the offices, and I was like, Yeah, okay, I'm gonna do that, I'm gonna do that, and then I kind of had this realization that for me, living in the UK, I spend well, I work in the construction industry, I work in sales in the construction industry. That is like kind of like that's my skill here, that's what I've been doing for the last six-seven years. So, me going to Perth and working in a form of construction is like I'm just picking up my English life and I'm just pasting it. It's like copy and paste, just in a different country, and I kind of had this like a conversation with myself and this realization with myself, and I was like, Do you actually want to go and live in Perth, or do you just are you going to recreate something that is comfortable? Are you going to do something that is known? Are you going to are you copy and pasting your UK life in Australia? And I was like, I don't want to do that. The reason I'm going to Australia is because I want to do something different, I want to live and experience something new. So I have landed on the Sunshine Coast, and as I made that decision, one of my girlfriends who I met in Bali, who's now like one of my dearest friends, messaged me and said, Do you want to come and join me on this house sit on the Sunshine Coast in May? And I was like, How fucking yeah, I do. So that is what I'm gonna be doing. I have got we've got four weeks there in a house sit, and they're just gonna try and find other house sits and wing it and just kind of yeah, take every day as it comes. But I am going to the Sunshine Coast, and I tell you now, sitting here knowing that like now my flight is booked, my visa is in, I am going to Australia. I am so fucking excited because little me in a Izzy, little Izzy is so happy because the little girl that used to watch H2O and dream about swimming in the Australian ocean and playing mermaids and being in the sun with just like the Australian culture, with like they don't live to work, they work to live. It's like a whole different concept as an English person, it's just it's like the golden, it's like the golden land, somewhere that I have dreamt of for as long as I can remember. So yeah, little Izzy inside me is so excited. I'm gonna go out and live my Australian mermaid dreams. And also the Sunshine Coast is somewhere that somewhere that I didn't even ever think was like possible. And this is like another I suppose a little message of today is you are so worthy of your wildest dreams, like you are so worthy of the things that you think are out of your reach because they're not, nothing is out of your reach. If you believe you're worthy of it, you're worthy of it, and the universe has no other option but to arrange itself to give you what you think you deserve. And I tell you now, this is so relevant for me with Australia. I was perfectly happy with going to Perth, kind of like winging my life, creating something that I was like comfortable in and potentially like a corporate role. It was very comfortable, it was very safe, it was what I thought I was worthy of. And then I had this conversation with myself. I asked myself, what do you actually want? Like what if you took away all of your fears, all of your imposter syndrome, all of your oh, but I don't quite fit there, all of your conditioning, all of your insecurities, if you took it all away, what do you want? I want to be on the East Coast, I want to be on the Sunshine Coast, I want to be where I've always dreamt of being. So I decided I'm worthy. I decided that's what I'm gonna do. And the minute it was so weird, like my phone was on Do Not Disturb, and basically the same hour I decided that that's what I was gonna do. My girlfriend texts me and asked me if I wanted to join her on that house set. It's like as soon as you decide the universe will put things into play and it will deliver. You just have to believe that you are worthy of it. So yeah, I asked myself some hard questions, I did some shadow work, I did some reflection, and I decided that I'm worthy of the East Coast and the Sunshine Coast, and the universe delivered. So gosh, yeah, I actually cannot believe that I'm going. And I think it's also a really important message is that if you have a calling, I mean, this is something, this is a hill I will die on. If you have an urge to do something, if you have a niggle inside of you to visit a country, visit a city, leave a relationship, find a new friendship, talk to that person, go to this coffee shop, go to that beach, go on that walk, anything, you just have this little niggle inside of you, like, oh, I should probably go and do that. Go and do it, go and do it, because nothing, nothing bad can come from following your intuition and discovering the places that it calls you to. Because I truly believe when you are called to a destination, a person, a experience, there is a lesson there waiting for you, or a version of you waiting for you that you need to experience to move into the next level of your life, to move up into the next timeline of your life. So, yeah, I have so far followed my little intuition niggle around most of Southeast Asia, and I've tried to go to Australia before two years ago, and it just didn't work out, and now is my moment. It's yeah, it's the time when I know I can go, I don't have to return to the UK for anything. I am completely free and independent. I have no home or serious career or any kind of ties except for obviously my loves, my friends and my family. So other than that, I have no like serious ties to the UK, and now is the time for me to go, and I feel like everything always works out exactly as it's supposed to. So I've had a niggle to go to Australia for so long, I would say probably for like over ten years, and it's never been the right moment, and now is the right moment. I mean, as long as I make it there, I will make it there. I will make it there, but I leave. I leave a month today, so so exciting. But yeah, if there is somewhere in the world that calls to you, it's because something there is meant for you. So as I am being called to Australia, if you have somewhere that is being that you're being called to, you need to go. You need to go and you need to discover it, and you need to follow your intuition blindly across the world. That is one of my intentions for the year, is I will unapologetically follow my heart, my soul, and my intuition wherever in the world it shall guide me. So take that little nugget and unapologetically follow your heart, your soul, and your intuition wherever it takes you. Because nothing good can come from your comfort zone, nothing good can come from staying in the place that you are now. Nothing good comes from the known. If you want serious growth in your life and you want to become something, if you want to become the version of you that you know your soul was put here to be, you can't do the same thing you've always done. You have to push yourself out of your comfort zone. You have to allow yourself to show up in ways that, yes, okay, people in your life might not understand. Like the majority of people in my life do not understand what I'm doing, they do not understand why I would not want to settle in the UK where all my friends and family are. Why I wouldn't want to like get a job and get a house and be secure. So many people can't understand the fact that I am happier and more at peace on the other side of the world. Like, with I feel more secure and happier and more grounded in the idea of flying to Australia and knowing like four people in the whole country than getting a mortgage and buying a house in the town I grew up in. That makes me feel sick. The idea of settling down in the town I grew up in just doesn't, it's just not what I was born to do. And of course, everybody is different. That is just what I that's just my path, that's just my life, that's just my experience that I'm sharing. Obviously, the idea of flying to Australia with no plan, no friends, no solid structure makes the majority of people feel sick. So we're all independent and unique, and that's what makes everything beautiful, is that nobody wants the same thing because how boring would life be, and how boring would our existence be if we all just wanted to do the same thing. So, yeah, I am trusting my intuition and trusting that I'm just gonna take the first step and the next step will be revealed. I think that is such an important message in allowing yourself to lean into your intuition and follow it blindly, wherever it shall guide you, is knowing that whatever happens, you'll be okay. I know that if shit hits the fan, there's always a plan B. I can always come home, I can always do something else, I can always figure it out, but that's also because I have the belief in myself that I have myself, whatever happens, whatever situation gets thrown my way, I know, I wholeheartedly know and trust that everything is resolvable, everything is exactly as it should be, everything is a lesson, and everything is resolvable. I have got myself in every single situation that I get myself in. So yeah, I'm blindly taking the first step. I'm gonna go to Sunshine Coast, see what it's like, try and find a job and take it from there. So watch this space because I'll do a few more of these kind of like life updates as we go and just keep everybody posted on my journey and what I'm doing, and just so you guys get to know a bit more about me and like what's happening like behind the scenes, because I've also shared a little bit on my Instagram, The Cyclica, about my journey at the moment with my menstrual cycle, because oh gosh, it's been a journey. So I came off of hormonal birth control, gosh, I think in 2021, and I got the copper coil, and I had the copper coil for like two and a half, maybe three years, and it was just not a vibe, it was not a vibe at all. It did me like serious damage. And if any of you have had the copper coil, or if any of you know anybody who's had the copper coil, you will know you get seriously heavy periods, seriously painful periods, like the whole thing's just painful because let's face it, you have a piece of copper and a piece of plastic in your uterus, like your body just doesn't well. My body did not want it in there. So I had the copper coil taken out about 18 months ago, and I have had no conception I've not been on any contraception since then. I've like just been getting to know my female body again, and in this time, I have been going through my menstrual cycle educator training, I've been really dropping into my body and what it means to be a woman, and what it means to be a cyclical woman. I have really been embodying what it means to be cyclical, and I have absolutely loved it. And then I've come home from eight months travelling in December, and January I had my bleed, and then I haven't bled since, and it's April, so I'm supposed to be due on my bleed if I kind of like hadn't missed a period, like if I was still on schedule, I would have been coming on my bleed like next week, so that will be my third bleed that I've missed, and it has thrown me the fuck off because I have spent so long in tune with my cycle, showing up in a cyclical way, showing up in a way that means I can adjust my nutrition, I can adjust my movement, I can adjust what I do with my life and how I show up to not having a cycle at all and not knowing how to show up because I'm so used to aligning my life to my cycle and my hormones and the ebb and flow of being a woman. That when my cycle isn't there, I just I'm I feel so lost, I feel so lost, and it's really interesting because it's like when I've come home, every single aspect of my life has like fallen apart, every single challenge has been brought to the surface, every single thing I needed to. I've basically been shown a great big fucking mirror, and every single thing about myself that I didn't like, that I brushed under the carpet, that I didn't accept, that I didn't respect, that I didn't look after has been highlighted in fucking bright bold colour. Like it is it's everything that's been brought to the surface, and this has re this has really been one of the toughest few months of my life, I would say, because there's nothing actually like there's nothing like in my life that's quote unquote wrong, but I have just been going through all of my inner turmoil. I've been doing a lot of shadow work, I've been like seriously looking at who I am, the foundation of like how I view myself, what I want from my life, how I show up for myself, how I respect myself when nobody else is looking, how I talk to myself when no one else is around, how I actually look after myself, and yeah, it's been a journey. And in that I've had this really kind of like low and negative point where I wasn't happy in my skin, I wasn't comfortable with like who I am, and I kind of got myself in a really negative mindset, and coinciding with this, I also lost my period, which I have gone to the doctors and I've had some tests just to make sure that there is nothing kind of like going on under the surface, and everything has kind of come back fine. I'm still waiting for an ultrasound to see if it's potentially maybe PCOS, but I'm not really sure if it is. We will find out, but I do genuinely believe it's because of stress, it's because I was so unhappy with myself, and I caused myself so much mental physical stress from feeling this unhappy that yeah, I lost my period, and it's been a journey because I now I've never not had a period, I've never not I've never missed like I've never lost my period, I've never not had a cycle. Even when I was like on contraception, I always was in the contraception where I had a bleed, and my bleed in a winter is my favourite season. It is the time of my cycle when I feel the most connected to myself, when I feel the most feminine, when I feel the most intuitive and witchy, and I don't really know how to put it into words, I just feel like this raw, wild, untamed version of myself, and I haven't had that, and it's really triggering because I miss it. I miss my bleed because I like it. I like having a cycle, I like the ebb and flow of the cycle, but that's another thing that I'm being forced to face is detachment. I have to detach, I have to release all. My kind of expectations for how things are gonna go because everything is out of my control, every single thing in life is out of your control, and the minute you can accept that, and the minute that you can allow yourself to just flow with whatever comes your way is the minute you win that life because it's the minute you understand that whatever comes and whatever goes and whatever you have, whatever you want, is irrelevant because you own nothing, and nothing owns you, you owe no one anything, and no one owes you anything, and that kind of realization is freeing. So, yeah, I feel like this is a divine lesson, as always. Everything is a lesson, and it's about just kind of like releasing my expectations of how things should be and how things should flow. And yes, obviously, something is going on internally, and I will figure it out and my cycle will return, but until it does, I am just surrendering to the experience, and I am kind of understanding what it's like to be somebody who doesn't have a cycle, to be someone who hasn't had a cycle, to understand what it's like to not have a 28 to 30 day regular cycle, because that's what I've always had, and what I've always known. So I think that is all from me on my little life update. I will be back again with another life update this time next month. I'll probably do one every kind of four weeks just to let you guys know what's been going on, where everything, how life has decided to unfold once I have landed in Australia, and what the future hasn't hold for has in store for me because who the fuck knows what the future has in store for any of us? So yeah, watch this space. I am so excited. The countdown is on, it's my last what is it? I'm 30 a week tomorrow. I leave four weeks on Monday. Yeah, the countdown is on for the next big adventure. So now is the time to pack up my life in the UK, pack my life into a 23 kilogram suitcase, say goodbye to all my loves, my friends, my family, all the people here who I so deeply care about, and yeah, see what the future has in store for me and go on this next adventure. So let me know in the comments if you have enjoyed this episode and if you want to hear more about me and little life updates and yeah, what's been going on with my life and what I'm experiencing, what I'm going through, and what I'm learning in the process. Because this is the thing, I think with social media and podcasts and YouTube, just all of this kind of platform content, we feel like it has to be perfect, and we feel like we have to deliver a strict, regimented message. But the thing is that people learn through experience, and me sharing my experience in this uncut, unfluffy, real way, may help somebody with something they're going through in their life, may give you inspiration to follow your intuition and your soul's desires to the other side of the world. So, yeah, sending you all my love as always. If you know somebody who this podcast episode may resonate with, who needs to hear this message that they just need to stop taking their life so seriously and go after what they dream about, then make sure you share it. Make sure you follow the podcast so you never miss one of my weekly episodes. And you can find me on Instagram at the Cyclica for all things menstrual cycle wisdom, mindset, and magic. I hope to see you there. And if not, I will see you again next week for another episode of the Good Girl Rebellion podcast. All my love, and I will see you then.