Day 23 𖦹 GROWING UP

Day 23! Most of the day is spent with Phoenix and Jeremiah, what joy. See ya tomorrow :)

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SPEAKER_03 0:00

Okay, day twenty-three.

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Free tea!

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Thirty days of free tea in Mary Hernandez Park.

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Oh hello. Okay, day twenty-three.

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Day twenty-three, Michael Jordan.

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LeBron, rather. Oh. So tell me, what were you like as a little kid, Miles?

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Super like sensitive and shy.

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Cool, huh? Uh-huh.

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I was very scared of the world. I think it was just a lot to take in.

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What's your name?

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My name is Phoenix. Phoenix?

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How old are you?

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Um four.

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Are you excited to grow up?

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Yeah.

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Why?

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Because um I get to have a car.

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Because you get to have a car?

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I'm gonna get my driver's license. When we come to the park, my dad plays basketball, and me and my brother went to school at any time.

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My dad's mom, who I never met. Do you like being her like singular advice to my dad when he was growing up was don't wish your life away.

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How do you like to spend your time, Phoenix?

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I like to spend my time where my dad and my brother playing in a park.

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Do you want me to?

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And it's another way of saying, like, oh, I wish it was summer. And anytime my dad would say anything along those lines, she would like curtly respond with, don't wish your life away. Like, this is it right now.

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The sound of a swish.

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A very prevalent fear amongst I think our generation, just like this stage of life, is are you sowing seeds where you want to?

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Are you good at basketball? And I'm good at riding my scooter. Yeah.

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And like the decisions that you make now are going to inform your life for the rest of it.

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What's been your favorite year? One, two, three, or four? Four.

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Yeah.

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Are you satisfied with how you spend your time?

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Uh honestly, I feel like I'm never satisfied.

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It's just when it's when it's summer, I get to go to the beach. My daddy bought me the swimsuit. He bought you a swimsuit? Mm-hmm.

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What color is it?

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Uh, he didn't tell me what's the color yet. I think it's gonna be pink and purple. And when the and then when comes the the the beech wiggles.

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I'm just starting to barely touch on who I really am and like what I want to do and where I want to be. I nitpick on everything. I'm a perfectionist, and then I fear having something imperfect, and then I'll be like, I'm just gonna change this, and I'm just gonna change this, and I'm just gonna and then I never stop until I hate it, or I outgrow it, whatever comes first.

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The best part of being siblings is that we always get our s our children's stuff. Like I got my sister ice cream yesterday.

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What's your favorite flavor of ice cream?

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Uh sh uh sh um chocolate.

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Oh, I like chocolate too.

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Oh, that's the same. What do you think? Same.

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I always just thought that I would start my life at some point out in the future. And I kept saying that all the way through and I never started. And then life just was always something else.

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How do you like to spend your time, Jeremiah?

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Uh play with my friends, chew bumblegum, do push-ups every every morning.

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Are you scared of getting older or are you excited for it?

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Both?

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How come?

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Because I'm scared because then I have to have kids, but the most thing is that I get to do whatever I want.

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I remember like looking in the mirror a lot and just trying really hard to imagine what I was gonna look like as an adult. And like all of the images in my head were like not good.

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You're nervous about having kids.

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Yes. Okay, I want to say something.

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You're looking good and you're doing good.

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From all the people from New York. If you're nervous, this come to me.

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I struggled with like manic depression. I believed that I wasn't in control of the. So here's where the story goes. My thoughts. Like my thoughts were my thoughts, and they were just there and I had to experience them. And I, you know, like five or six years ago realized that I didn't have to dwell.

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So I need to show you.

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Yeah, I like I had a business, I had all these employees, I had a house. And I was like, oh, I'm gonna my business is gonna go bankrupt, my house is gonna collapse, or I'm gonna, you know, whatever, go broke or whatever. And I had this, you know, very wise friend that said, let's pretend all of those things happen. Now what are you gonna do? And I was like, oh, I'm I guess I'm gonna go live my life. I'm gonna go do all the things I wanted to do anyway.

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Okay, I know how to get up. No, no, we're gonna be. What does it feel like up there? It feels like sticks that that's hard. It feels like sticks that are hard? Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 6:27

I am, or anyone is, completely free. As long as they're not completely attached to the thick, whatever the thing is that they're afraid of losing or afraid of pigeons, but not of climbing trees. I don't know if you can relate to that at all.

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I'm afraid of that's really the thing. It's like I'm afraid of losing.

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I mean, but you will lose of them all.

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Shiny, try you, shot. You wanna hold us? I guess so. I already got a flower. Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And then now what are you gonna do?

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Okay, now we're gonna get that. I'm gonna show you that in the car. Let's go.

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Oh my god.

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Miles. Six oh one.

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Six oh one.

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And uh, how are you feeling about tomorrow?

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Uh noah's taking over, so expect havoc.