Overcoming Chronic Illness, Trauma & Witchcraft | Healing, Deliverance & Faith in Jesus | TESTIMONY

In this powerful episode, Michelle shares her personal testimony of overcoming chronic illness, trauma, and spiritual battles. She reveals the pivotal moments that led to her awakening, including confronting generational curses, witchcraft, and toxic relationships.

Michelle discusses how spiritual encounters, discernment, and faith in Jesus transformed her life, emphasizing the importance of healing both emotionally and spiritually. She also shares how song writing and creative expression became a coping mechanism during challenging times and the lessons she learned about setting boundaries, recognizing spiritual gifts, and walking in empowerment.

Listeners will discover:
✨ How chronic illness and trauma can be linked to spiritual and emotional struggles
✨ The role of generational curses and witchcraft in affecting health and life circumstances
✨ Strategies for healing past traumas and breaking toxic cycles
✨ How faith in Jesus Christ can bring hope, restoration, and miraculous transformation
✨ The importance of spiritual discernment, boundaries, and understanding your anointing

If you’ve faced spiritual battles, chronic illness, or toxic relationships, this episode offers encouragement, biblical insight, and practical guidance for healing, deliverance, and freedom in Christ.

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Hey beautiful souls. Welcome back to my channel, Red Hot Troop Ministry. I'm so glad you're here. Today we are sharing my testimony, which is a whole roller coaster, a whole maze. I did prepare some notes so that I don't go off track because I always find it very difficult to share my testimony. It's just so detailed and so layered, but I also don't want to leave anything out because everything feels important. You know, if if somebody else is on a similar path, has a similar mission or anointing or has been through some of these things or is going through these things, I want it to give you validation. I want it to give you hope. I want you to understand that there is light at the end of the tunnel and that you're not alone. And even though some of this stuff sounds so crazy that we we can't talk about it to anyone really in the natural world because they just don't get it. I could not talk about this to my doctor, my therapist, anyone. So that makes it so much harder. And then when you try to convide in people, say peop people that you meet along the way, some of those people are just planted in your life by the enemy. And you think, oh, I can trust this person, but actually you can't. And it's like anything that can be used against you will be used against you sometimes when you have a specific type of anointing. And it's just such a hard journey to navigate. I want to tell you a lot about my process, you know, how I got where I am now, and it was just so difficult. Let's just get into it because I could just gibber on forever. Don't even know where to start. Like, let's start five years ago, because that's what everything in my life changed. And then we'll go back and give some background and context after that. Five years ago, my whole world shattered, literally. My foster mother, Carmel, died, and her husband, my foster dad, died 18 months before that. I was already battling this terrifying chronic illness. My symptoms were so scary. I was actually in the pit of hell, fighting for my life, and I didn't know I was in the pit, but I always said, I feel like I'm Christ. And eventually I realized that this was a crisis. It was a generational crisis, but I had been diagnosed with ankylosing spondylitis, Crohn's disease, fibromyalgia, showbran syndrome, and the list was just going on and on. They suspected MS, they suspected lupus. My symptoms were crazy, they were systematic, they were debilitating. I was in very, very severe levels of pain, and the pain was causing delirium in me because I started to develop gout in my jaw after my foster dad died. This was hell on earth for me. And the only thing that really helped me cope with the pain at the time was songwriting. So I started to really get into songwriting and music around that time when my foster parents had passed. That was a coping mechanism for me. It helped me to cope. I was really dealing with exhaustion, fear. I felt very vulnerable. I was taking a medication around the time leading up to my foster mother's death, and that medication was not agreeing with me. It was affecting my brain in a negative way. I was really barely functioning at the time, but I was still taking her to all her appointments, and I was trying to be present as much as I could. But because I had to give up work and everything at the time, I literally had no money. I couldn't even afford to buy us a cup of coffee on the way to the hospital. There was just all of these things, you know, it was the lack of money, my health issues, me losing the person closest to me, my safe person, who I was just so devastated by the grief, the unresolved grief from my foster dad's death, and then all the issues with my biological family, which I will get into. But there was a lot going on for me mentally, emotionally, and I had two young children at the time. Chris was working like six days a week. Me and him were not getting on, so I didn't really have any support around this time. Right after she died, I started to have flashbacks, and I started to remember my father being in a rage throughout my childhood. And this was inducing a lot of panic and fear and distress in me. I was somewhat aware that I was having flashbacks, but I was kind of confused about it as well at the same time because I had never had these types of memories before, and I didn't understand why I was having them now. I was like, why didn't I remember all this before? I was very confused. But the flashbacks kept coming, the physical pain in my body kept rising, the reaction that I was having to the medication kept worsening. Then I went out on a night out with family. Family. And during that time away, one of their friends humiliated me publicly in front of everyone and started to verbally attack me, calling me dramatic and and saying that I need to be more positive and all this stuff. And I was very upset by that and very offended because I was going through a lot. And they obviously had no empathy towards me or my situation, the loss that I had just experienced, the chronic illness that I was really battling. And my whole family sat there during this interaction and allowed this to take place. I was very, very upset. I went home. My stress levels were already up here, but now they went up here. And I spiraled mentally and emotionally after this. I remember I just couldn't stop the thoughts, the anger, the anxiety, the stress that I was feeling. I felt so upset by everyone there. I was like, how could they come into agreement with all the things that she was saying about me? I was very, very upset by this. And my inflammation levels were very, very high as well. So I think sometimes when your inflammation levels are that high, you can tend to obsess and worry about things that you may at other times be able to let go or brush off. Whereas I couldn't, I could not let it go. I was making myself more and more stressed. And then came the worst autoimmune attack that I've ever had in my life, which induced extreme terror in me. There was a lot of medical negligence during this crisis, and I didn't get the healthcare that I desperately needed. I almost died during this experience. And around that time, a friend of mine, Joanne, who later passed away, she was in her 60s and she died a few years later, which I loved her so much. She was literally an angel sent into my life, and I'm so grateful for her because without her, I don't even think I would be here. But her and her whole church, they all prayed over me for days. And during that time, I had my first encounter with Jesus Christ, and he literally saved my life. I have a memory of him being at the foot of my bed, surrounded by angels, and I survived this crazy autoimmune attack that I should not have survived. And during that time, they dosed me up on medication. So they gave me loads of meds. Instead of sending me to the hospital, what should have happened was they should have called an ambulance. I should have gone to the hospital. I should have been treated by a specialist rheumatologist. They should have recognized that I was having a major reaction to the medication which was attacking my brain, which is a known side effect, and they possibly could have prevented some of this, but that didn't happen. Instead, they told me that their priority right now is COVID and they can't focus on me. So I wasn't important. I didn't matter. Instead, they dosed me up on multiple medications that all affected the brain, and my brain was already under attack. And then I started to have all these signs of psychosis. So I was having the flashbacks mixed with psychosis, mixed with more flashbacks. I literally just went loopy and I ended up in a psych ward for a week. See, this story is exhausting. I'm like, it's so hard to tell this story. There's so many layers. How can all of this happen to one person? And this is only the beginning. There is so much more to come. So if you're feeling overwhelmed right now by this story, just sit down, have some tea. Because it it does eventually get better. Okay, it gets better. Right now we're in hell. But I went to I went to the psychward, and that was awful for me because I had been through major narcissistic abuse. I had been through major gaslighting. I had been made to feel crazy my whole life. My mother had tried to convince me that I have bipolar disorder because she didn't want to accept my medical diagnosis. She had convinced all my family that I was suffering with bipolar disorder. So here I was in a psych ward. And all I could think about was they're gonna say they were right now. Like that I was so stressed over it. I was like, they're all gonna think I'm crazy. They're all gonna say I don't even have a medical illness now because this is the proof and the ammunition that they needed to use against me, you know, and everything was used against me and weaponized since I was a child. So even though I should have seen it as an opportunity to rest and receive help and care, I literally just felt like a bomb had gone off in my life and I was just so distressed. I also had all these confusing memories, the trauma memories, the flashbacks, which I had I was remembering being physically and sexually abused. I always knew that I was physically abused. I always knew that I was verbally and emotionally and psychologically abused. I remembered most of that. But the sexual abuse was very much dissociated. And when these dissociated memories started coming up to the surface, they completely destroyed me emotionally, mentally. I couldn't cope with that. And then when I tried to speak to someone at the hospital about it, or even when I got home from the hospital and tried to talk to the psychiatric nurse about it, they very much just fobbed it off. Like they didn't take it seriously. They thought that it was just psychosis, even though I had written down word for word all of my memories on a whole booklet of of paper. Because when I got to the hospital, I couldn't ground or relax, and I was just so stressed, and I was pacing and everything, and I was waiting to speak to a doctor. I was like, I want to go home, I shouldn't be here, I should have been sent to a medical hospital. I had a literal medical emergency, so I don't understand why I was sent to psych. You know, I was literally freaking out over all of this. And I started to have all this drainage as well coming from my gland around this time where I was spitting out all of this foamy liquid and it it tasted very acidic. It didn't taste like saliva. But again, one of the nurses there kind of gaslit me and they were like, That's just spit, Michelle. They literally thought I was crazy. And then when I was like, I feel like I've been poisoned because this tastes like poison, they were all like looking at me as if I was just mental. So they didn't take this medical issue seriously either. And I was still spitting all this stuff out for a week when I got home. And eventually I spat out like this massive saliva salivary stone. So the gland was blocked, and there was obviously an infection there, which wasn't treated. Instead, I was just treated as a psychotic patient and I wasn't treated fairly. Some of the nurses were very snotty to me as well. My hair was all matted and there was a massive knot in the back of my head. They thought that the knot was there because I just wasn't taking care of myself. And I was literally like, I wasn't able to move for two weeks. I was in extreme pain. You know, I literally crawled to the shower. I collapsed in the shower. I collapsed in the hall. I thought my neck was broken because the pain in my neck was so crazy. Like they had no idea, you know, the level of pain, trauma, fear that I had just been through. And then they were there like mocking me because my hair was all knotty and they were like, Do you not brush your hair? So I was like, what kind of hospital is this? That kind of staff. I don't like these people are meant to be in the caring industry. They're meant to be taking care of patients, you know, doctors, nurses, psychiatric staff. And this was how they treated me. And I was like, this is just literal craziness, you know. But anyway, after that I just stuck to myself. I did my own thing, I listened to music, I stretched in the day room, I did some meditation, I tried to rest. I avoided most of the staff and I started to interact with the patients and I made loads of friends while I was there, and they realized after like three or four days that I'm not actually crazy at all. And they were like, okay, we think you can go home. So I think if I kept trying to prove to them that I do have an infection or that there is all this drainage or blah, blah, blah, then they would have just really reinforced, oh, she's not mentally well. But the fact that I stopped trying to prove it to them and just ignored them and did my own thing, they were like, oh, she seems stable now, let's just send her home. But like I wasn't stable at all. I was completely traumatized. I had all this confusion around the memories, wondering, are they real? Did that happen to me? And I still had this chronic issue in the glands that had not been resolved. And after that, it got worse. The gland literally became really badly infected. It spread to my tonsil, it damaged two of my teeth, it caused so much chaos for me, and I needed surgery to deal with that. So this chronic infection kept returning, and it caused so much stress for me over the next couple of years before I eventually had surgery. So my conclusion is that during that health crisis, I believe I had sepsis. And I know that sounds crazy because a lot of people think you can't survive sepsis or you you could be missing limbs if you had sepsis. Sepsis is very, very, very serious. But like I said, the Lord did appear to me after Joanne was praying over me for hours. And during this attack, the level of pain in my neck was like level 12. The circulation had been cut off in my legs. I collapsed so many times. I couldn't move. By the time the attack calmed down, I slept for like three days. And that was before the psychosis, before they gave me all like this cocktail of drugs, which just sent me absolutely loopy. And the reason I went loopy was because of again the trauma that I had experienced combined with the memories, combined combined with the medication. So it was a whole thing. Anyway, talking about that makes me tired because it was just so much trauma. It was literally one of the worst things I've ever gone through. But it was also one of the best things because it triggered my awakening and suddenly I was seeing the world differently. The world felt very spiritual to me all of a sudden, and my gift started to activate. I started to really understand the gift of discernment that I had been blessed with, even though at the time I I just thought I was an impact. Whereas now I understand that the empat is the satanic version of it, the true gift is discernment. And then I started to really get more into prophecy and healing and deliverance over time. But I also went down many rabbit holes during this journey as well. Because I didn't understand the whole occult thing. I thought that it was okay for me to engage in things like mediumship and tau in the beginning. I was chasing my foster parents in a lot of ways. I had this major unresolved grief. The grief wasn't just from their death, the grief was from my childhood. Because I had spent the first four years with my foster parents after being rejected by my mother at birth and being rejected by the whole family because she was a mother out of wedlock. She was 15. She brought a lot of shame on the family, and she wanted to put me up for adoption. So instead I ended up going into foster care for four years. But to me, my foster parents were my parents. They were my safe place. They were literally mom and dad, you know. And then when I was four, it was like, okay, now you gotta go home to your real parents. And I was like, Wash, that's crazy to a four-year-old. I couldn't imagine telling one of my kids, you gotta leave, you gotta go live with this other family, even though I'm the one raising you. And I understand that the foster system, this is very common. They think this is normal, that this is acceptable to do that to a child. But I'm telling you now that this is not acceptable to do that to a child. That is not okay, that is never okay to remove a child from the people who have raised them for the for the first four years of their lives and place them with someone who literally feels like a distant aunt, you know. It's not that I didn't know my mother, I did know her, but she wasn't mom to me. So this literally broke my heart, it crushed me. It was a major abandonment at a very young age, and this literally caused absolute hell on art for me later on because grief can cause very real illness and infirmity in your body. So this level of grief and the rejection that I experienced from my foster dad, I don't think I saw him for a whole year after. And when I did see my foster mother again, I was very crushed by something that she said because I think I said to her, I want to come home. And she was like, Oh, you are home, you know, and so casual. And it completely crushed me, because I had probably placed a lot of expectation and hope in one day I will go home. But no, they were like, This is your home and you're staying here. And I wasn't happy there. My mother didn't really bond with me. She had no patience, she was almost aggressive at times. He didn't give me the food that I liked or the food that I was used to eating, and then she would get really angry at me for not eating her food. Then my father moved in and he was really abusive. So together there was a lot of gaslighting and neglect and emotional neglect on her part, and on his part there was major abuse, trauma, physical abuse, sexual abuse. They both psychologically abused me, they both gaslit me. This went on for years and years, and I never told anyone about it. When I was nine years old, there was a very violent rape that took place, and this was a few months before their wedding. Now I could have dates and times a little bit mixed up here, because again, these are dissociative memories, so it may not have happened in that order, or it may have been different ages, but that's what I've pieced together myself as I've been working through these memories with Jesus, and it took me like four years to understand for sure that these things did happen, that I didn't just make these up, I didn't imagine it. This is real, these are real memories. So there was a very violent rape when I was around nine, and I was brutally choked during that attack. And for years I've had nightmares of being choked. I've had vivid memories of it. I've always protected my throat. I struggled with infirmity in my throat, lots of pain, a demon there that was attacking the tyrite, attacking the jull. So this literally haunted me in a very big way. And I had to go through a whole deliverance process to get free from this. For years I had flashbacks, dissociation, sudden memory surfacing, but I would push the conscious memories away. So they would show up in my body, like emotionally and physically. I would have emotional flashbacks and physical flashbacks, but I wasn't having the conscious memory because I would always just push them away because I was too afraid of them. I did make the decision to go no contact from my parents in 2022, I think it was. And that was a very hard decision, and I really struggled. Even cutting my mother out of the kid's life was very hard for me. That was a massive decision. It took a lot of strength to do that. It really took the Lord pushing me to do it to close the door because we were being attacked by witchcraft, which I will get into in a minute. Severe witchcraft. And it was affecting the children, it was affecting me. And every time the kids would go there, I would literally panic. Because I was like, it's one thing cutting them out of my life while I try to work through this and figure this out. But cutting them out of my mother's life felt very wrong to me. And I was like, how can I if I don't even know the truth? I don't even know if these memories are real. I don't know if this happened to me for sure yet. And I was so confused, so stressed. Then I was like, if there's even the slightest risk that something like that could happen to my children, then I just can't risk it. So then I wrote them a letter and I said, due to severe abuse, I can't have you in my children's life anymore. And I closed that door. But then everyone was angry at me. I became the villain, of course. Before this, I was still somewhat in contact with my sister. I was still trying to stay in in touch with her. Like there was almost twelve years between us, and we were very, very close growing up. You know, I was literally like a second mother to her and I adored her. Like I can't even explain how devastated I was when she rejected me. So she was like, I can't believe you cut the kids out of their lives. She was like, How could you do that? She was so upset over it and so angry. And then she rejected me. She was like, I can't have any more part in this. And at the time I couldn't even tell her, like, these are my reasons why. Because I didn't I didn't want to throw a bomb at her life, and it was just really hard. It was so hard. I didn't know how to tell her the truth, and I I felt major shame as well around it, like so ashamed. I had been really badly silenced by my father. He had threatened to murder me. He had threatened to take me out into a field and shoot me like a dog. He had put his hands around my throat multiple times. He had told me from a young age, if you tell anyone this will happen or that'll happen, he'll kill himself, he'll kill me. He had told me that nobody will believe me, that everyone will think I'm crazy, that everyone will turn against me. He spoke all these word curses over me. He made a vow of silence with me as well, making me pinky promise. So there were all of these things which had kind of tied me in a web, in a witchcraft web where this had formed a curse. Silence over me. And that Christ had to be fully broken before I felt safe enough to actually speak my truth. And this was really hard for me to actually even just show up. The first time I shared my testimony was about nine months ago, I think, with Denise when I was working in the ministry with her. But we deleted all those mess because I restarted the ministry by myself. So when I first talked about all of this stuff, I was literally crying, shaking. But right now I feel more confident speaking my truth and speaking up about it because that price of silence has been broken and I'm no longer afraid of him and I'm no longer afraid of the consequences of speaking the truth. A lot has changed and I have grown a lot. Let's talk a little bit about the witchcraft because I've mentioned it a few times. This is when it gets complicated, okay? So in 2020, when I had that crazy autoimmune attack, let's rewind back to the woman that night out with my family that humiliated me. I believe this woman put a witchcraft curse on me. She went home from the pub that day, she did a load of voodoo on me, and there was all these pins in my heart, there was pins in my glands, there was lots of witchcraft, and this contributed to that crazy autoimmune attack that I had. After that, every single moon cycle, the witchcraft would repeat, and I started to have even more severe witchcraft attacks. So the witchcraft became really, really crazy. Recently I wrote a book on it, actually. I'll put the link below, but I have a book on witchcraft with all the prayers that you need to get free from it. I also have a book called The Six Pins of Narcissistic Abuse, which again talks about how to break free from the generational curse of narcissistic abuse. So both of these books are really good resources. If any of this sounds familiar to you, that was the start of my journey with witchcraft. I didn't really suspect witchcraft until like 2022. Around that time I started to realize that this isn't just an autoimmune disease or it's not fibromyalgia. I had I had often called it a curse. But I started to realize that this is actually witchcraft. This is spiritual. I'm being assaulted, I'm being attacked, I'm being targeted. And it turned out that I was being a targeted I was being targeted by multiple sources. So there was a coven coming against me, which included that woman, my father, and my father's cousin's wife. I believe those three are involved in the witchcraft attacks that have attacked me for years. There was a woman at work that put a witchcraft curse on me like ten years ago before I had Keen, and I ended up having a very traumatic childbirth due to that witchcraft. And my finances and everything dried up as well as a result of it. Then there was generational witchcraft, which was in the bloodline. This would attack me, causing multiple generational curses. There was also the Marine Kingdom witchcraft, which was happening due to me engaging in the occult. So all of this had to be broken off of me. And that took a long time. Because when you're being targeted by witchcraft, they're actually targeting your wounds and your weaknesses. So if you have lots of trauma, if you've been through a lot of narcissistic abuse, for example, you're going to have fear, shame, confusion, rejection wounds, abandonment wounds, injustice wounds, betrayal wounds, you're going to have buried rage and anger, all of these things, bitterness, unforgiveness. So they're going to feed off of all of this and they're going to keep you trapped in infirmity and sickness until you heal those soul wounds, forgive everyone, and get fully delivered and healed from it. So that was the process then. Once I found God properly in, I'm not sure when it was, like three years ago, I came home to Christ fully, even though I had had that major encounter in 2020, I didn't really understand any of it. And it was it was a it took a bit of time. I went off exploring all sorts of spiritual things. And it wasn't until three years ago that I really came to Jesus. I had another encounter with him where he delivered me from the pit where I was being attacked by multiple demons and I was really buried under extreme symptoms and distress and fear. And I saw him approach me and he touched me and everything left me all of a sudden, and then I passed out. I woke up the next morning with him sitting beside me on the bed, and it was actually Easter Sunday. So I knew this was major for me. This was a new stage of my awakening where I had found Christ and it felt so significant. After that, he started to really heal and deliver me and teach me all about the generational crisis, teach me about pharmacia, teach me about witchcraft and how to get delivered from all of these things. So the pharmacia, because I had been through so much medical trauma and so much medical reactions, it allowed this spirit of pharmacia to attack me. And this was one of my biggest battles, you know, this alongside the witchcraft, because they're both the same demon. It's a demon of sorcery, which is witchcraft. It attacks any medication that you have in your body, any medical trauma that you have been through, especially when there's witchcraft arrows being sent against you. So I was really, really battling this on a major level, and I still pray against it every single day to protect myself from it. Because the fact that there's still some legal rights there. I have an amalgam feeling that I need to get removed. My finances and everything were attacked so badly during all of this that I wasn't able to go and get that taken care of yet. But I know that I will soon. So there's just been a lot of different layers to this, which is why I find it very difficult to share my testimony because there's a lot of different things that I was battling from the narcissistic abuse to the dissociative memories to the witchcraft to the pharmacia to the generational crisis and all the grief that I had been battling for years. It was a whole healing process, and the Lord had to guide me through it day by day. It was like a full-time job where I would get up in the morning, I would plan out my day with the Lord, we would spend hours working through soul wounds, healing soul fragments and doing deliverance, working it around my children and my home. And I wasn't able to work during this time. I didn't have the energy. My day today was very unpredictable because I didn't know when a witchcraft attack was going to come or when the pharmacia was going to flare up. So it was just impossible. There was no way I could have worked a side job while doing all of this because I was very sick at the time. I was also dealing with major trauma. So I spent a lot of time working on my music. I released a couple of songs, created the books, created the ministry. I was planting these seeds along the way. I was like, okay, Lord, I know that you're gonna bless me, you're gonna turn our financial situation around. And I was just putting all my faith and trust in him to do that. And Chris was working full time and working overtime to provide for us, you know, so it was hard on him too. But it was worth it. This needed to happen in order for us to break the generational crisis and free me and the children. I really learned how to take authority spiritually, you know, how to step into my authority through Christ, how to pray, how to do deliverance, how to really take control, how to remove fear and terror and come out of agreement with the enemy in every way, closing all these open doors, you know, through repentance, true forgiveness, true healing. This was a whole process that I walked through so that I could experience freedom and empowerment and so that my children could be free from these bloodline crises as well. Because the bloodline crises were huge in our family line. I believe my father's family, there were a lot of pirates and stuff, and it dates all the way back to Exodus and Egypt. Pharaoh, the Lord has shown me multiple times that I am battling that same crisis of Egypt, where Moses had to fight against Pharaoh. It's very similar. And he has referenced that journey multiple times because the generational crises in my lineage are just so severe. And that's part of the reason why I was chosen and sent to this family line because the generational crises were so heavy and the Lord needed somebody strong enough to break them. And he does send people on these missions. So if you're battling with something similar, it's it's possible that you are the curse breaker of your family and you're meant to do the same. You're meant to step into your power, you're meant to break all these chains, and you're meant to free your bloodline, free your children. And the Lord is going to bless you for that. He's going to turn it all around, he's going to change your situation completely, and you just have to trust him. Last thing really that I'm going to talk about today, and I can't believe I actually got through this testimony in under 40 minutes, and I'm not overwhelmed. Wow. Because normally it would just completely overwhelm me. But where I'm where I'm at currently, I believe I've accepted a lot of it, you know, I've accepted the fact that I'm no contact from my family, that there's no going back, you know, I'm I'm probably never gonna have a relationship with my parents again or with the extended family. I have kept the door open for my sister. If she chose to come to me and wanted to hear my side of the story and wanted to reconnect and and have a relationship with my children, I would be open to that. But when it comes to the rest of the family, I just feel like there's too much trauma. There's too much water under the bridge. I've been through too much, and I don't want to risk having any soul ties or open doors or chains that could bring that generational inequity back to me. But I feel like the Lord is protecting my sister and he is watching over her and he wants her to ultimately step into her purpose as well. So I I do pray for her frequently. I I miss her a lot and I'm very sad about what has happened, you know. I wish things were different with her. Like I never expected to lose someone so dear to me. And if somebody told me that that would happen five years ago, then I probably never would have pursued all of this, and it needed to happen that way. The Lord needed me to break the chains and get free and to heal from this trauma because it was killing me. It was literally killing me. My health was in in a dire state, which risked death. And I I had to walk away, I had to put myself first. And it was the hardest thing I've ever done. But I don't regret it. I don't have any regrets. And I mean, to me, the most important thing is my relationship with Jesus and my family now, my children, my little family unit protecting them. Because when that door was even slightly open, when my parents were still involved with my children, my father would buy them really weird gifts, you know. He bought them this weird rubber snake back from Africa. He bought them like this toot, some sort of animal toot, you know, these are witchcraft objects. He he bought me an evil eye a few times as well, before all of this craziness started. And I know that he's into witchcraft. I know he's doing shamanism and sorcery or whatever, because I've seen visions of it. The Lord has shown me. He's shown me that the fact that my father has come into agreement with witchcraft has given the generational witchcraft legal access to me. So he actually made it worse and almost caused my debt multiple times. And that generational witchcraft was also attacking my child, Scott. Scott became a sacrifice for the Voodoo King. So it was literally crazy. In order for me to protect my family and to break all these crises, I cannot have any contact with these people because they're engaging in witchcraft and control. And narcissism is one of the first types of of witchcraft that enters our lives when we're young, if you have a narcissistic parent. I'm gonna go into a lot of detail on that next week. I want to talk about witchcraft, the roots of witchcraft, where it comes from, why narcissism is a form of witchcraft. And that that really is an open door. It's an entry point. It can wreak havoc on our lives. I have grown a lot. I'm different, I'm honestly a different person now. I'm a different version of myself. I no longer shrink in fear. I have very strong boundaries. I know who I am. I don't care what people think of me anymore. I do what I need to do for me and for my family. I have the strongest gift of discernment ever. I literally sense everything around me: evil eye, ill intentions, dodgy looks, all of it. I see it all so clearly. If anybody has any sort of demons around them, I see it, sense it. I'm able to deliver them quickly or able to remove myself quickly because it could be potentially dangerous for me or my children. So my gift of discernment has become stronger than it has ever been, to the point that the Lord is able to now use me to become a weapon against darkness. And I'm just so grateful. I'm grateful for everything that he has done in my life. There's other things as well that I have left out in this testimony. There were some people who were a big part of my story, my journey. There was a friend that I had for three years who honestly was a big help to me in the early stages. Her support, her care, her love. I really appreciated. And I had never had a friend like that before, and I was very grateful for it. But later I realized that she was actually mirroring my mother wounds, my mother trauma, and she was keeping me in a chronic state of stress. And unfortunately, she also still had witchcraft spirits around her, and she was influenced by the ruler demon, Beasle Bob. The Lord revealed this to me because she was seeing lots of fogs and stuff, and this demon was actually blocking my anointing and delaying me through her. So there were things along the way that happened like that. There was another witch that offered to help me. She presented herself as a healer. She said, I know you're in a lot of distress right now, let me help you. But then she placed a curse on me and she trapped me in my five most aggressive memories. So then I had constant trauma memories to the point of absolute hell on art until we were able to break that curse, which which took two years to break that curse. If you're on your journey right now, you need to understand that Satan will bring people to distract you. And sometimes they will come in the form of these angels of light. You think this is my best friend, this is my sister in Christ. This but sometimes these can be like weapons of darkness coming against you to block your anointing, to sabotage you, to delay you. Sometimes the Lord allows it because he is still working on you, he's still strengthening you, and it may serve a purpose for a time, but then he will remove it. Who again tried to gaslight me and make me if I didn't go through some of these experiences, I wouldn't be able to teach on these things now. Because these are all forms of witchcraft. There's witchcraft in the church, there's witchcraft in your family, if there's narcissists, there's witchcraft in the occult, there's generational witchcraft. So this is something that we need to understand in order to break free from it. It's something that we really need to understand in detail. So I'm going to really get into that in next week's podcast episode. Stay tuned for that, guys. My transformation has been unbelievable. Like I feel like I am a walking miracle, a walking testimony for the Lord Jesus Christ because what he has done in my life is just miraculous. You know, I went from being in the worst shape of my life, battling the worst infirmity, battling witchcraft, battling my own family and their friends who were all into all this satanic crazy stuff. The fact that I have broken free from all of that, I have stepped into my power. Our family has healed. We are literally moving into the best season of our lives. Our breakthrough is here. I just feel so empowered. I I feel amazing. I feel grateful. And none of this would have been possible without Jesus. So all glory goes to him for everything that I have spoken about today. I could go into more and more and more detail about all of this stuff, but then the video would just never end. But if you have any questions, if there's anything that confused you, anything that didn't make sense, anything you want me to talk more about, just put your questions below. And I just want this to encourage you that if you are battering with similar things, there is light in the dark and there is hope. And you're going to come out the other side and you're going to be more empowered. You're going to be the strongest version of yourself. You're going to be a literal warrior against darkness, and no weapon formed against you will prosper. I love you lots, guys. I will see you in the next one. Bye.