Can Trauma Open Doors to Spiritual Warfare? Healing Soul Wounds Biblically

If you’ve ever wondered whether trauma can open doors to spiritual warfare, this video will explain what’s really happening.

Many Christians feel spiritually attacked, stuck, or emotionally drained—but don’t realise that unhealed trauma and soul wounds may be at the root of it.

In this episode, we explore how the enemy can use fear, pain, and past wounds to keep you in cycles of oppression—and how to begin healing and reclaim your freedom through a biblical, trauma-informed approach.

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We explore powerful biblical themes such as:

* The accuser of the brethren and how accusation operates spiritually
* How people can be taken captive and influenced through unhealed wounds
* The connection between trauma, fear, and spiritual vulnerability
* Why inner healing and addressing root issues is essential for true freedom

This episode also unpacks:

* How childhood trauma, birth trauma, and emotional wounds can impact your spiritual life
* The role of fear, bitterness, and unforgiveness as open doors
* Why some forms of deliverance can feel overwhelming or unsafe
* A gentler, trauma-informed approach to healing and freedom

We also talk about:

* Spiritual attacks, oppression, and feeling drained
* The importance of healing your inner child and reintegrating wounded parts of yourself
* Why not all Christian teachings on trauma are helpful or accurate
* How to discern safe vs unsafe spiritual environments

If you’ve been told to “just pray more” or “just read your Bible” but still feel stuck, this episode will validate your experience and offer a deeper, more compassionate path toward healing.

✨ This is a space for:

* Survivors of narcissistic abuse
* Those struggling with PTSD, anxiety, or emotional wounds
* Christians navigating healing, deliverance, and sanctification
* Anyone seeking freedom from spiritual bondage and inner pain

💛 You are not broken. You are healing.

📖 Scriptures referenced:

* Job 1:6–11 (heavenly court and accusation)
* Revelation 12:10 (the accuser of the brethren)
* 2 Timothy 2:26 (taken captive by the enemy)
* Matthew 5:25–26 (accuser, judgment, and prison imagery)

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Healing sessions, deliverance teachings, and deeper dives into:

* Breaking the spirit of accusation
* Overcoming offense and torment
* Healing soul wounds at the root

Disclaimer:
This content is for spiritual encouragement and educational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health care. Please seek a qualified professional for any health concerns.
This video reflects Christian faith-based perspectives and does not provide medical or therapeutic advice.
If you are experiencing a mental health crisis or thoughts of self-harm, please seek immediate help from a qualified professional or local emergency services.

Transcript

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Hi, beautiful souls. Welcome back to Red Hat Truth, a home for the broken where healing begins. If you're new here, I'm Michelle and I help people heal their soul wounds and walk through their sanctification process with the Lord. And I'm so happy that you're here. If you're listening on YouTube, please hit that subscribe button. This is literally the best way that you can support our channel and help us to grow. We did hit 500 downloads last week on the podcast. So I'm actually so grateful for that. Thank you all who have consistently returned and who are really benefiting from these teachings and these healings because I really want this to be a safe place. I want people to feel seen and supported and loved. Validated is really important because if you have gone through abuse or trauma, there can be a lot of spiritual bypassing and let's not talk about that. Let's let's just forgive and let go, you know. And we can do that on the surface, but it often still lives in here. And then that leads to a whole lot of suppression and a whole lot of illness and a whole lot of disease. And we do not want to become permanently oppressed, you know, by the enemy because we are bypassing our pain. So it's really important that we are actually addressing our pain from the root. And that's what I teach here in this ministry, but doing so in a very gentle, trauma-informed way, and in a way that is going to bring healing and transformation and ultimate freedom to your soul. That is the goal, so that you can walk in your purpose and you can be all that you were always called to be, always meant to be, before these strongholds took root in your life. I apologize that there was no podcast last week. I was sick all week and my son was sick. I do believe that there was a demonic attack. I saw like this watcher spirit approach my house and I tried to cast it out, but then we all got really sick. Then, of course, this just exposed more wounds and trauma. Today, the Lord brought my son when he was a tiny little baby. We pulled him out of captivity and he placed him in my arms and we started to heal him. The root of this was during the birth, it was very rushed because I have an underlying diagnosis of ankylosing spandylitis, but it wasn't diagnosed at the time when I had both my children. So as a result, I had difficult pregnancies, difficult labors. Like going through pregnancy with an undiagnosed chronic illness like that is traumatic. And when they were born, both of them had to be rushed out very quickly because the pelvis was too swollen and inflamed, and it was really difficult to give birth. So I had one emergency C-section and one epesiotomy with V back with Scott, and it was very aggressive. And it it kind of traumatized, like shocked my body, I suppose, and both the children experienced some trauma as well. So today the Lord was just healing Scott's baby self and he kind of heals in layers. When he the first time he showed me Scott's baby self that needed healing, he only did so much healing on him. And then we come back to it again, and he does a bit more, and we come back to it again because this type of healing is gentle, and when you're releasing stored trauma from the nervous system, it can take a little bit longer sometimes. So today he touched the brain, and I saw him healing some sort of injury, a very mild injury in the brain, which I think possibly caused some mild autism in Scott. Not that he's ever been diagnosed or anything with it, because it doesn't really affect him. It doesn't affect his learning, it doesn't affect his social skills. He's fairly confident and happy, but he's never had much of an imagination and he's never really played with toys. And I always thought that was a bit strange, you know, because most children's imaginative play is really important and it's a huge part of their development. And this was something that he just never had any sort of interest in. And the Lord showed me that this was why, because of this m minor injury, which any sort of injury to a baby is not minor, but I guess when you think of how injured some children are compared to others, I would consider it mild, and I'm grateful and lucky that my children are healthy and they're able to thrive. Thank God. So when I say mild, that's what I mean. You know, he's functional, he's happy, he's confident, but he has because of this unresolved root in him, this opens a door for spiritual warfare where they can pull him captive, they can harm him. He was drained. Last night I woke at 4 a.m. and I saw a vampire spirit. And when I see these vampire spirits, I get so scared because they drain your life force. They make you so exhausted and so weak. I've been drained by energy vampires, and I know Scott has multiple times as well. I'm not sure why they only target me and Scott in this way. Like my older son, Kean, has never been drained like this. So I don't understand actually, if anybody understands why they target specific people. Is there is there a certain weakness? Is there so is there a gift? Is there something specific that they're targeting? If anybody has the answer to that, let me know because I don't actually know. But all I know is that I and Scott have been targeted by these vampires, and me less so in in recent years. I don't think I get drained as much because I cut all the narcissists out of my life. So I'm not really sure what gives this spirit a legal right to attack my child in this way, but we did pull him out of captivity, we cast those vampire spirits off of him and then healed this baby this morning. And it didn't even take long, you know. It took maybe like an hour, but I was active, I was driving, I was getting ready, I was eating while I was mentally working through this healing with the Holy Spirit. So it doesn't have to take up a lot of time or energy. It's something that you can do on the go sometimes as well. I just feel grateful for that healing. I guess I'm showing you how active this journey can be. If you're a family that's battling major oppression and you're all being targeted, and and you know that there is spiritual warfare happening in and around your home, and your children are being targeted and there's fear, then these are things that you can do to try and tackle that. And you can look back at the roots and the trauma and the things that you've been through, and the Holy Spirit will reveal it. And you can start to work through these things because that mother version of me who gave birth obviously had a lot of fear. And fear is the enemy's biggest weapon. So uprooting that fear, releasing it, giving it to God, saying, God, please heal me. Because that that fear of something happening to my child or of the worst happening, that still kind of replays on my mind sometimes. And again, I'm I'm so grateful and so lucky to have two healthy children and to have raised them and they're still here. You know, I've had this fear for 10 years. They're still here. So fear can really rob you of your joy, and we have to uproot it. We have to lay it down and give it to God and not let it steal any more joy from us because these are open doors and these are ways that the enemy can torment us and can pull us into captivity. There's a quote on taking souls captive. Let me just have a look here, because this is something that a lot of Christians don't understand. And I've had a lot of people kind of come against these teachings. Somebody referred to it as demonic, as my ministry is demonic, and somebody else was very skeptical because they didn't understand soul fragmentation or trauma or how that can cause soul captivity. So we have a couple of verses here. We see in the book of Job 1, 6 to 11, Satan comes before the Lord and essentially pleads a case against Job. Then in Revelation 12, 10, the accuser of our brothers who accuses them day and night before our God. So Job shows the scene where the enemy comes into heaven's courts and approaches the Lord and brings his accusations. Then we see in Revelation how this spirit accuses us day and night. It's like anything that can be used against you will be used against you. And this is the same if you have a narcissistic parent or a narcissistic spouse. They will use anything against you. It doesn't matter. And they'll twist as well. They'll twist and distort. So something that you said, maybe a slip of the tongue, you said something that you didn't really mean or it came out sideways, they will take that, they will distort it, they will twist it, then they will throw it back at you right at the right moment when they're trying to get one up on you, and you will end up shocked. Like, okay, what am I being accused of right now? This is what narcissists do. And to me, Satan is the ultimate narcissist. Then we see in 2 Timothy 2.26, after being captured by him to do his will, this is where the Bible clearly talks about being taken captive by the enemy. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. And if you have dissociated during trauma, which we often do when when things get very overwhelming, we dissociate, we leave our body, we will try to escape pain, we will try to escape terror, we will try to escape medical trauma. A child being injured during birth, that's a trauma. So they're temporarily dissociating. And then that leaves a spiritual vulnerability where the enemy can actually take that part of you that has left your body and pull them into captivity. Now this part of you can be tormented, they can be harmed, and we have to go back and we have to reintegrate them, we have to bring them back into the body, into the soul, but we also heal the root that the enemy is feeding off of. So that could be anger, it could be fear, it could be bitterness, it could be shame. There's different strongholds that the enemy feeds off of. So we have to heal the root, we have to heal the strongholds, we have to bring the fragmented part back into the body. And this is bringing you back to solid ground, bringing you back to safety. So then the enemy loses his spiritual hook. And I believe even without deliverance, that this can work. If you're a Christian that doesn't like deliverance and doesn't feel safe doing deliverance, you may not even need deliverance. You just need to heal the wound. That's why trauma work, like internal family system therapy, this can work because you're going back into the memory, you're healing the part of you that was harmed, and you're reintegrating them. And sometimes that's all you need to do because that breaks the roots, it breaks the chains. And then listening to worship music, listening to an anointed singer, that can be enough to break a chain off of you. So if you don't like the concept of deliverance, that's okay. Not everybody likes deliverance. I remember a lady did deliverance on me in a church and it just flooded me full of fear. And I didn't like it. I didn't like the way that it was done. It confused me and it scared me. And I didn't go back to that church because I didn't feel safe. So not everybody likes deliverance, especially when they're just praying and praying and praying over you and they're listing off lots of different demons or lots of different spirits because that makes you feel like you're contaminated and it's scary. And I don't think that's the way deliverance is meant to be done. I think that's a harmful way of doing it. And I also think that that's probably a mixture where the enemy, like the Holy Spirit and the enemy, are both kind of at work, maybe in some ministries. I know that sounds strange, but if a person has unresolved pride, if they have negative intentions, if they have an agenda, if it's more about them than it is about God, you know, sometimes that can give the enemy a foothold. So now this person is operating in mixture. And when there's a lot of mixture happening, that can cause confusion and it can cause the deliverance process to be a bit contaminated. And then you end up experiencing confusion and fear and even captivity from that. So for me, I've learned that not all deliverance spaces are safe, not all Christians are safe, not all churches are safe. And it's up to us to discern and to find out what is safe for us. So I'm not pushing deliverance on anybody. If you have a root of trauma in you, it can be healed through trauma therapy. And it can be healed through sitting with that pain and releasing it from your body and then just doing simple commands. If you're not comfortable with like a full deliverance prayer, you can just say, I command the accuser to leave me now at the very end of that healing journey. So it can be done in a gentle way. And I think when you have a lot of trauma, more gentle deliverance is definitely needed because we all we already have fear. We already struggle. We already have PTSD memories, we have flashbacks, we have nights where we feel haunted by memories. And sometimes that can feel like a demon, and it's not always a demon. Sometimes it's a it's a trauma that's surfacing. And yes, demons do feed off of these things and they torment us, but they have to have a reason to be there. They can't just come in and attack you for no reason. And this is something that used to stress me out a lot because I started to believe that if I watched a prayer from a person who had a demon, that I would then get attacked by that demon. And I started to become so afraid of Christianity and of everything to do with the church, because when you're operating in fear, you're not feeling safe anywhere, you know. And sometimes deliverance language can just reinforce that fear and can actually make it worse. So I think for somebody who has been traumatized or has been controlled, who needs to feel more independent in their healing journey, then this is a really beautiful way to do it because you're focusing so much more on the emotions and the things that you have gone through, but not just digging through pain, but uprooting it so that it loses its hold on you. So it's important to understand that as well. You're not just digging through the pain and focusing on all the bad things that have happened to you because that can actually trap you and it can keep you stuck. So it has to be for the purpose of getting free from it. I'm only going into the memory so that I can free that part of me and get them out of there. That's it. That's the goal. The goal is not to sit in there for days or weeks and stew on the pain and the things that have happened. Because if you do that, then that root of bitterness can actually grow ticker. And we don't want that. We want to uproot the anger. We want to let go. We want to give it to God, put it at his feet, say, Lord, help me to release this to you. Because I don't want to be angry. I don't want to be tormented by this pain any longer. So it's it's not that you are stewing on your pain. You are freeing, you're becoming your own rescuer. You're climbing into your memory so that you can rescue yourself, past versions of yourself that are still trapped. I remember seeing a video by what's her name? Ali Beth Stacky, I think her name is. She's a conservative Christian nationalist, maybe. I'm not sure. She's very, very political, obsessed with Trump. She referred to it as babying yourself when you're like doing inner child work. She was like, we don't need to baby ourselves and we don't need to go back in time and do all of this because there is no parts of your soul that are back there. I think that for somebody who has such a massive audience, her teachings on this topic when it comes to trauma, I think are very, very harmful. But unfortunately, there's a lot of people in Christianity that agree with her and that believe her. And there is no healing when you're mocking somebody for healing their inner child. I'm sure this woman has not gone through SA trauma as a child, or has not experienced somatic PTSD in her body every day for years, has not had flashbacks and nightmares every night, because if she did, then she would understand that her black and white framework and her simplistic way of viewing scripture and the world doesn't fit in to a neat little box when it comes to trauma. I just urge you not to listen to people like this or be influenced by people like that when you're on a healing journey like this, because it is complex, it is diverse. Humans are not neat and tidy, and we don't fit into little boxes. And God doesn't put us in boxes, and he also doesn't fit into a nice little box. You know, God is diverse, he is vast, he created the whole world and everything in it. He understands how complex we are, even at a cellular level. We are complex. Scientists and medicine still haven't figured us out because we are so complex. God designed us and he understands us, he understands all our emotions, he understands our pain, he understands our trauma and what we've gone through. And sometimes he needs to walk with us through that pain, through that valley of the shadow of death, so that we can overcome the fear. Sometimes when you have so much fear and you're so paralyzed by it, and you have never confronted your past and the things you've gone through, sometimes you need to walk through that valley with the Lord by your side so he can show you that you're safe right now, that you're not there anymore. You're you're rescuing the parts of you that were left in the dark and left to suffer and left in pain, the parts that were neglected. And when when people have these dogmatic beliefs, they can be very harmful and they can cause people to stay stuck for longer because they're actively telling you not to heal and not to deal with your pain, to just bypass it and pretend it doesn't exist. And we know by now that if you have a chronic illness, if you have been battling for years with your mental health, we know that that's not possible. It is not possible to just bypass something that lives inside your body and that never stops tormenting you, where you have been really fragmented and really traumatized. And it is like taking a vase and just smashing it. Sometimes when you go through repetitive trauma and you're developing complex PTSD over time, because we do have a complicated nervous system that that remembers all the dark things that we've gone through, our body keeps the score and it remembers. So when you are fragmented and you have all of these parts of you now that are responding to your environment and overreacting to your environment, and your immune system is overreacting and it's attacking all your healthy tissue and your healthy cells, this is a problem, you know, and we have to address it. We have to deal with it, we have to try to find a way to find safety and peace again within our soul. Because that that soul is tormented, has been crushed, and is in captivity because the enemy uses all of this to open doors in our lives and to pull us into captivity, and then use that as a way to block your joy, block your purpose, block your destiny, because you can't walk fully in your destiny when you are so sick all the time. And that's what the enemy wants. He wants to keep you sick, keep you stuck, keep you in fear, keep you in chains. Her beliefs go against modern science, go against all the research on trauma, go against proven techniques that that are proven to work, go against all these medical diagnoses of complex trauma, dissociative identity disorder, PTSD. I don't know how somebody can sit there and be so sure that they are so correct on all of these things when we have so much proven research and also ignoring all these people's stories, like saying, Oh, I went from being sick, exhausted, mentally ill, addicted, living in crisis mode every single day, to being transformed, being healed, being delivered, being sanctified, being cleansed, uprooting all my trauma, addressing my pain, and becoming the best version of me. These people are not just ignoring the research, they're also ignoring the testimonies, and it's blasphemy. I know that's harsh, but it's the truth. It's blasphemy of the Holy Spirit when you are dogmatically refusing to acknowledge other people's experiences, their real life experiences, the trauma that they have endured. Jesus sat with people who were broken. He sat with people who were in pain. He spent his whole ministry ministering to the broken, ministering to the sick, ministering to the injured. He didn't sit on a pedestal promoting politics and speaking for Trump, you know. I know I've gone way off track here, but this teaching is so harmful and it's so dangerous. If you believe that mental health isn't a real thing and it's just something that was made Up by the world, I literally urge you to go and talk to God about that because I don't think it's very Christian to erase people's stories and their experiences and their backgrounds and things they've gone through and tell them to just bypass all of their pain and just get their crap together and just get on with it because that's not real life. And to me, that is somebody who has been so conditioned and so programmed to be a certain way that being any other way would would trigger too much fear or too much confusion, too much stress, too much chaos. Because they've been placed in such a restrictive little box, you know, that breaking out of that box even slightly feels terrifying. And I empathize with that. I really empathize with it because I know what it's like growing up as a person who went through significant abuse and trauma, and I felt like I was put in a box and I had to spend years breaking free from that cage. And I think it's the same thing when somebody is so indoctrinated and so controlled in their beliefs and in their thinking that they're also in a different type of cage and they need help to come out of that cage. But it starts with questioning yourself, you know, questioning your own beliefs, questioning your reality, and asking the question, could I be wrong? Because that's what humility is. Pride says, I'm right, my way is the only way, my beliefs are correct, and I'm going to follow Donald Trump off a cliff. All the things that that man is currently doing in the world is not Christian. But yet people like this will follow him to the death because it suits their political agenda. That's not Christian. Because being Christ-like means questioning and means noticing when something is not right and not following it. No matter what the outcome is, no matter what the results are, you stick up for the small person. That's what being Christian is. We're not following the big people at the top. Like we're not supporting church leaders even when they do harm and they abuse and they cover up, you know, cover up culture. Like being Christian is about not supporting that and is about supporting the victim and the person at the bottom, the person who was trampled on, the person who was wounded, the person who was weak, the person who was hurt. Because Christ was a lamb and he was slaughtered. And the very people who are speaking for him today are the very people who wanted him crucified back in the day. So the church really needs to do better when it comes to this. Healing is the number one thing that I believe helps us to renew our minds. Because I've seen a lot of Christians talk about renewing your mind through scripture. But I've also seen a lot of Christians who read the Bible every day, who weaponize the Bible, who hold it like a sword in their hands, who use it to hurt other people and to control and suppress and to kick people when they're down and to literally keep women and children in chains because people want control. They want power. And I've seen this happening over and over and over again. Scripture doesn't always renew the mind if you have a lot of pride in your heart and if you're reading it through a distorted lens, then that's not going to renew your mind because you're going to continue to run with your own narrative. You're going to continue to listen to your own nonsense. And I've seen this. So by really renewing the mind, it's about confronting what's in here, what's in your heart. Lord, reveal to me what is in my heart. If there's pride in me, show me. If there's ways where I am not walking in humility, show me. Because the fruit of the spirit, I went to a church where they didn't even know what the fruit of the spirit was. I never heard them talk about it once. And I remember we were sitting doing Bible study, and it came up in John 15, I think it was, where we were talking about pruning. I can't remember what verse it was, but it was talking about the fruit being cut off and thrown into the fire. And of course, the pastor and all the people there just thought it was talking about hell. Like, oh, we're all going to hell, because this is what this church would teach all the time. And I chimed in and gave my two cents about it, and I said, Well, those people who are not bearing fruit, they're showing up in their flesh. So they are in pride, ego, witchcraft, control. The Bible in Galatians tells us exactly what the flesh is, and it basically describes a very narcissistic person. I said, The fruit of the spirit is love, kindness, gentleness, peace, humility. And the pastor kind of was surprised because he had never heard that perspective before. And I was like, How, how have they not heard that perspective? I thought that was like the fruit of Christianity. I thought everybody knew this, that as Christians, we should be bearing fruit. You will know them by their fruits. This is what the Bible says. This is the first thing that we should be looking for in somebody who's going to minister to you before you let somebody lay hands on you, before you let them pray for you. Are they showing up in the fruit? Are they humble? Are they kind? Are they patient? Are they gentle with you when you reveal something difficult? Because if they're not, that's not the fruit of the spirit. That's a different spirit behind that person. And they haven't crucified their flesh. A person who hasn't gone through crucifixion should not be ministering, should not be pastoring, should not be looking after vulnerable sheep, because when you have uncrucified flesh, and we we all have uncrucified flesh, okay? So we can all make error. And there's always going to be an element of error in almost every ministry, every church. There's going to be some error. I'm not perfect. I taught things a year ago. When I look back, I'm like, maybe I shouldn't have said that, you know. We're all growing, we're all transforming, and we do have error. So I'm not saying that there's no room for that because we're human and we are going to make mistakes. And this used to scare me so much as a minister for Christ. I was like, what if I trip on a stone and fall flat on my face, you know? And the Lord is like, I'll catch you. Because He walks with us even through our error. And we're not always going to get it right. So I'm not expecting perfection from these people. But if there's no fruit there, if they're harsh, if they're critical, if they're dogmatic, if they're nitpicking at you, if they're controlling, if they're invasive, if they're telling you how to read the Bible, which Bible you should read. If the whole church are reading one Bible and they all get all their research from one Google site, and everything is so controlled and so filtered, and they watch everything that their children watch or read because they're so afraid of them being exposed to some different way of being. Because one, it's fear, where they really fear for their salvation, and they think if we step even slightly outside of the box, we're going to lose our salvation. That's not Christian. That like that's not the New Testament. That's not what it teaches, first of all. But second of all, Jesus walked with sinners. Because being a sinner is not as evil or as bad as everybody thinks it is, you know. We all have sin. We've all struggled with things. Like for me, this week I've been working on a root of bitterness in my heart, my 16-year-old self, who still hated my father, hated what he did, wanted justice, wanted the truth to be revealed, wanted him locked up. Like, there's parts of me that were so traumatized and who are still holding on to that anger. And does that mean that I should just be orchestrated and cast out because I'm in sin? No. Jesus holds space for my sin. He sits with that 16-year-old version of me. He ministers to her, he heals her heart, he's patient with her, he's gentle with her, he knows what she went through, he knows that she was deeply wounded, and he wants to help her feel safe again, to put down the control, put down the fear, let go of the need for justice and put it in his hands. But that's a process. I have to gently walk with this wounded version of me to help her be free. And then that means that I'm going to experience so much more freedom in my walk with the Lord as well. Because I've been through a heavy season where I haven't been feeling much joy. I've had a lot of chronic symptoms, my kids have been on well. It's been really difficult. And I believe that this is one of the roots. Like, there's a spirit of torment there that torments me so badly because of this route. And when we judge each other for our sin and we elbow each other out and we close the door, and we're like, well, you're not welcome here because you're struggling with this, that is not the way Christ ministers. That is not how he helps people. And it's a big lie. So when you see these very dogmatic Christians that are not really showing up in the fruit, but they are speaking with such authority and such confidence, and they truly think that they know what they're talking about, even though they have no experience in that field or that area, you just have to be so careful not to be influenced by them. Because ultimately, this is about your freedom. And if you want to get free, you cannot be listening to people that actually, it's like an attack on your discernment. The Lord showed me that when you when you surround yourself by people who don't see you, don't get you, go against your beliefs, think very differently to you. And he's trying to raise you up in a certain area of ministry, that's actually a constant attack on your discernment and your perception. So you have to be really careful who you surround yourself with. Because if you're being called, like say for me, being called to minister in that trauma area, but not having any backup, any people around me who understand my calling, who validate it, who support it, that can be dangerous for me. So it's about going where you're called and ministering to the people who are able to receive you, and also surrounding yourself with positive voices that even if if you're in error, even if you make a mistake, even if you're struggling, they're not disqualifying you because you're having a bad day or a bad week. They understand that we as humans struggle, and it's okay to struggle, and we don't have to show up perfect all the time. We don't have to pretend everything is okay all the time, because often it's not. Often that is just image, surface level, and it's not the truth. Behind closed doors, that person could be suffering more than any of us realize. And I think there is a huge element of suffering happening under the surface with people who are so dogmatic, but they refuse to open that door, they refuse to address it, and instead they project it out and they cause a lot of harm. And this is dangerous. So just protect yourself from this type of Christianity. So just coming back to healing the soul and allowing yourself to be ministered to and to get free, because this is so important. When you're really struggling, it's really easy to be negative and to crack the whip at yourself and be like, I should be healed by now. Why am I not healed? Why am I in pain? Why am I struggling? And we can get angry at God, we can get frustrated, we get frustrated with the journey. Then somebody comes along and they're like, But there's freedom in Christ, so why aren't you free? And you're like, get away from me, because it just feels like it's coming at you from all angles sometimes. That's how it's felt for me. Where I sometimes just felt so overwhelmed by the people around me, where on one hand they didn't understand my work at all, and they threw a lot of accusation at it. And then on the other hand, there's Christians who just want to spiritually bypass everything and jump over it and pretend. And then there's me in the middle trying so hard to stay on track and confront the enemy and the things that he's feeding off of in me. Some people think that I'm just digging through dirt and overthinking and overfocusing on my trauma, but that's not what I'm doing. Literally listening to the voice of the enemy that is still tormenting me, and I am following it so that I can cast it out because it's feeding off of very specific wounds in me, and it's doing the same for everybody. We can come along as deliverance ministers and say, I command you to leave in Jesus' name. It'll leave, but then it's going to come back later on. And the Bible says it will bring seven more back with it. It'll bring more tormentors to torment you. So that's not how deliverance is meant to be done. Like, remember Jesus sitting with the man by by the river, I think it was, where he said, Do you want to be well? Do you actually want to get better? Because this man, his whole identity had become his affliction, his paralysis, his inability to function, and the fact that nobody would help him. And he he was really consumed by that. Like, nobody helps me. And this is really hard. And of course it's hard. He was going through something very difficult, but I think the Lord was saying we can make that our identity and we can become very committed to that story that we've been replaying in our minds for a long time. And it is about changing the story. Like you, there is an element of shifting your mindset that needs to happen in order to break free. So you have to recognize where am I staying stuck? Where am I choosing not to move forward? Where am I allowing myself to continue in that old pattern, that old habit? Where am I giving fear permission to stay? Where am I allowing offense to take root? Am I truly looking for joy? Or am I very committed to my pain? I have fallen into this trap as well at times where I've just felt no joy whatsoever because when you're digging through pain, it can really suck you in and it can become very heavy. So I think it's also important that you are finding joy, that you are still living your life, even while you're healing, that you have a routine, that you're going out meeting people, that that you're going for a walk every day, maybe joining the gym, doing things that are good for your body, good for your mind while you're healing, so that you're not just stuck in pain all the time. And then having a supportive community around you as well is important. For me, I've been quite isolated since I left the church because I didn't really have much community before then, anyway. So that community didn't align with my calling or my purpose because they didn't understand what the Lord is asking me to do. They they were operating under a very different framework, and they also weren't very open or receptive to trying to understand. I haven't found a new community yet, and that's been very isolating and very hard. But I recognize that I do need some level of community in my life and need to try and put myself out there, maybe going back to my musical friends or joining the gym or something. I don't know. I need to do something because this season of isolation has been so heavy, and the enemy is really using it to torment me as well, because there hasn't been much joy. So just be aware of that as well. Like there can be ways where we are showing up in a way that is more harmful to ourselves, and we have to confront those things as well, and we have to say, okay, I'm gonna make the change, even if it's scary, even if it's hard, even if you have that fear of rejection occurring again in your life. But allowing yourself to trust again and to not close off your heart is probably a very important step to creating that life that you have ultimately been striving towards. Because if if you're like me and you've walked away from your family, you've gotten no contact, maybe you've left a church community, maybe you have gone through a period of isolation. It is about taking steps forward to learn to feel safe, learn to trust again in community, even if that just means one person, because it can really make a difference, it can bring joy to your life. Lately, I I find myself feeling kind of resentful, like even of Chris, because Chris is going to work every day. He has friends at work that he sometimes goes for a pint with, his mother sometimes goes to bingo with him. So it to me it looks like he has this full life while I'm just kind of sitting at home all the time. And I lost all my friends, I lost all my community because the enemy was attacking me so hard. And it really was that I was being attacked. These people were attacking me. It it wasn't just me being paranoid, there was a level of attack that was happening in different environments, and in a way, I didn't really have another choice. I had to isolate at one point because the attacks were just so crazy. That's what the enemy wants. The enemy wants to force you into isolation and then never feel safe enough to come out again, but then he's winning. So you have to be like, okay, it's time. I'm not gonna let you destroy me anymore. And there there are gonna be people, again, that the enemy are gonna try and use, you know, if there's somebody who has a little bit of envy in them, somebody who's prideful, somebody who is threatened by my calling or what the Lord is doing in me. They're gonna try. But it's about me being so strong and secure and stable in what the Lord has done in me, that I'm not fazed by it anymore, that I'm not offended by it, that I don't care anymore, that they're just a fly on the wall. They don't bother me, they are not important. I'm gonna keep doing what I do, whether they like it or not. It's about having that thick skin and not letting the enemy win. But I think that's easier when you have people around you that support what you're doing, support your work. So having a couple of friends that understand, you know, that that this is your calling, and they're gonna say, keep going, no matter what, just keep going. Sometimes we need that encouragement as well. If you've been in a rut, if you've been struggling, just know that the Lord does have a purpose for your life, He has plans for your life, and sometimes we can get very stuck and even frozen in time, and that fear can really paralyze us, and the rejection sensitivity can take over. And the wounds from our past, those voices can be very loud. And this is a way true, you know, where you're not just bypassing it and hoping it will all go away. You're not suppressing it to the point that it's destroying you from the inside out, you're just moving through it gently and slowly, and you're letting yourself release, feel, integrate, heal over time and cast out whatever's tormenting you. And it is a way forward. It's a way through that valley so that you don't have to stay stuck there and you can start to reclaim ground and take your life back, take what the enemy has stolen back and get free. I do have a book, The Six Pins of Narcissistic Abuse. This book is for anyone who has been abused in this way by a parent and maybe struggling with generational inequity and different altars and thrones, spirits that try to keep you stuck in captivity and in torment. This has to be uprooted, it has to be dismantled. Because when you have all these strongholds within you, like the fear, shame, confusion, unworthiness, these wounds that can become deep in our souls, these are pits that the enemy can use to block the anointing, block your destiny, and keep you stuck in torment. So you really have to heal those wounds and you have to try and break free. This is available on Amazon and I will leave the link below as well. And if you would like to sow a seed into this ministry, that is greatly appreciated. It really helps me to continue to show up and do this work, but it is obviously not obligated. Friday I am releasing a healing on sabotage and confusion, I think it is. I created it last week. So that will be out on Friday on my YouTube. And then next week I will have a podcast episode on breaking the spreaking the spirit of offense, accusation, and torment. And hopefully I'll be feeling a lot better by then as well. Because I'm definitely being tormented by this spirit that is attached to my 16 year old self. But I'm hoping that that's going to be cast out this week. Hopefully today. So I will see you guys in the next one. I love you lots. Bye. Remember to stay close to Jesus because freedom is yours.