Did Childhood Trauma Open the Door to Offense, Accusation & Torment?

If you constantly feel accused, on edge, or trapped in cycles of offense, fear, or emotional torment, there may be a deeper root behind it.
In this episode, Michelle teaches how offense, accusation, and spiritual torment can take hold after trauma, rejection, or emotional wounding—and how to break free through Christian healing, inner healing, and deliverance.

This is not just about spiritual warfare—it’s about understanding how wounds, beliefs, and agreement with lies can open the door to ongoing torment, inner criticism, and isolation.

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In this teaching, you will learn how to:

✨ Identify the spirit of accusation, offense, and inner torment
✨ Understand how trauma and rejection create access points
✨ Break agreement with lies, fear, and control
✨ Heal wounded parts of your soul through truth and prayer
✨ Use forgiveness to release emotional and spiritual bondage
✨ Take authority in Christ and walk in freedom

This message is for anyone who feels:
constantly accused or criticised internally
easily triggered or defensive
isolated or disconnected from others
stuck in cycles of fear, control, or suspicion

You are not meant to live in torment.

Freedom comes through healing, truth, and stepping back into alignment with God.

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Disclaimer:
This content is for spiritual encouragement and educational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health care. Please seek a qualified professional for any health concerns.
If you are experiencing a mental health crisis or thoughts of self-harm, please seek immediate help from a qualified professional or local emergency services.

Transcript

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Hi, beautiful souls. Welcome back to Red Hat Truth, a home for the broken where healing begins. I'm so glad you're here today. If you are new, I'm Michelle and I help people heal their soul wounds through the law of power and transformation of Jesus Christ, where we walk through sanctification, healing, uprooting strongholds, and ultimately experiencing freedom so that you can walk in the joy of the Lord and walk in your destiny and your purpose that the Lord has for your life. If you haven't subscribed yet to my YouTube, please do so because this really helps our channel grow and it helps bring in more people, which is amazing. We did reach 500 downloads a few weeks ago on our podcast, and I'm just so grateful for that because it means that we are growing. Even though growth has been slower than I would like it to be, because I'm constantly being attacked by delay and sabotage. And I feel like every time I feel close to breakthrough, something comes to block it. And the Lord actually shows me these spirits, these blocker spirits, and this moth that tries to eat the harvest. It's crazy how all of these things just come and they swarm. And the other night I was asleep and I felt something attacking my hand, and my whole hand was like this. And that's that's the enemy attacking the works of your hands because they don't want it to succeed. I believe these things gain access to us through our wounds, through our trauma, through our pain, and they can cause lack and poverty and delay sabotage. The number one thing, if you love this ministry and you're experiencing fruit from it and it's really helping you, then you can really help support this ministry by subscribing, by liking, by engaging, by sharing it with a friend. If you know a friend who's been through abuse or trauma, share the ministry with them and help bring more people because the enemy really wants to sabotage it and has tried time and time again to sabotage me. And it's exhausting when I keep showing up and showing up and showing up, and then another attack comes. It means everything to me. So I'm gonna continue showing up. There are ways to support the ministry. If you want to buy one of our books, if you want to sow a seed, if you even just comment and share it with somebody else, these things really help us. It's been very difficult. And everybody keeps saying to me, You need community, you need community, you need community. But then I go into a Christian community and they instantly want to stop all my work. They want to control me, they want to pull me under their wing and they want me to do everything their way. And to me, that's a spirit of control. That's a danger zone to my nervous system, red flags. I'm like, no, this doesn't feel safe either. So I don't know if anybody has advice on how somebody like me can gain some level of support in my calling, where I have some community around me that understand my calling, understand the work that I'm doing, and they're not trying to stifle it or put out my light. Today we are talking about how to break the spirit of offense, accusation, and torment. There is a particular kind of torment that many believers carry, and it often comes after being abused, going through false accusation, going through rejection, or experiencing church hurt. It doesn't just stay in your past. It follows you, it speaks, it accuses, it isolates. Over time, it can really begin to turn you against people, to turn you against the church, to even make you question your own calling. The Bible calls Satan the accuser of the bret brethren. I don't know if I'm saying that right. Revelation 12, 10. So we know accusation is not a small issue. It's a spiritual strategy that the enemy uses, but this kind of torment doesn't just attach to you randomly. It gains access through wounding and through agreement. So again, this is about going to the root, going deeper into the body, locating the wound, healing the trauma, and casting out that spirit. So what this can feel like is a constant inner critic or a mocking voice, suspicion towards others, that person's not safe, that ministry is not safe, don't listen to that prayer, oh, don't go near that person, fear of being misled or harmed, emotional agitation, especially at night where you can't sleep, isolation from community, and loss of joy and trust. Jesus said the thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy in John 10 10. And one of the main ways this happens is by distorting your perception and disconnect disconnecting you from love and truth. So some signs that you may be dealing with this, you constantly feel on edge and you feel spiritually unsafe. You struggle to trust people, even healthy people. You replay past wounds and you feel stuck in them. You feel driven by fear, control, and suspicion of others. You feel isolated or cut off from the body of Christ, and you hear internal thoughts that are harsh, mocking, or condemning. And often underneath all of that is deep emotional pain that never got healed. So how we identify the root then? Jesus said, Every plant that my father has not planted will be uprooted. Matthew 15 13. So we don't just deal with the surface, we go to the root, and common roots include bitterness that we see in Hebrews 12 15, unforgiveness, fear, rejection, or control as a survival mechanism. And very often this goes back to childhood wounds or abusive or critical environments, or being falsely accused or misunderstood. When you have gone through abuse, many abusers are narcissistic in nature and they love to accuse. They love to falsely accuse, they love to label, they love to call everyone false prophets, they love to isolate communities and churches and shelter people and say that's not safe. Don't do this, don't do that. It can actually become a stronghold throughout the whole church, not just one person. It can become a stronghold within the whole community. And people are not allowed to freely express themselves because everything has to operate within their framework. That's the same in a narcissistic family where everybody has to fit the mold and everybody has a role to play. And if you step outside that box, then you are a threat. So let's talk a little bit about fragmented parts. I've talked about this a lot in my other episodes. Last week I went into a lot more detail about this. After trauma, parts of us can remain stuck in the moment, and that part of you may still feel afraid, unsafe, under attack, or like they have to stay in control. This can cause a lot of anxiety and fear and stress and maybe even arguments where you're fighting with the people around you because you're clinging to control and you may not even understand why this is happening, but it's because there's a part of you that just feels very unsafe or is maybe angry because they were hurt. And when they're triggered, they can react as if the past is happening again. This is what happens when you have complex PTSD. You are being triggered, you're having emotional flashbacks, you're having floods, and you're being pulled back in time to these old versions of you, and you are starting to digress emotionally. I've even seen this happen in my children, where my children will sometimes digress back to an old version of themselves when we're in the middle of healing a wound or a trauma. And it can be very subtle, so it may not be obvious, but sometimes I'll be in the middle of healing something in one of my children, and they will have a big emotional outburst, and they will cry and wail, and then they're fine five minutes later. And it just proof that it's working because my child is having an emotional release and then they're experiencing freedom from it. So we can't ignore these parts of us and we can't override them. We have to bring them into the light and let God heal them. He heals the brokenhearted and he binds up their wounds. So, how do we remove the enemy's access then? This is where deliverance becomes complete, not temporary, because the Bible tells us that if you cast out a demon without completing the deliverance fully, then it's just gonna go get seven more tormentors and come back. I've definitely experienced this. We have to heal the wound, we have to heal the root so that it can't come back. It has nothing to come back to. So we have to acknowledge it honestly, what happened. Don't minimize it, don't bypass it away. We say, that hurt me, that was wrong. I felt very unsafe. I was rejected, I was attacked. That was abuse. And God will meet you there in that truth, not in denial. He doesn't want us to be in denial. He wants to remove the blindfold, remove the veil that may have occurred during abuse so that you can see the truth clearly. Because the Bible says the truth will set you free. And then we f we forgive. Forgiveness is not saying that it was okay. It's saying I release them, so this no longer has power over me. Because the enemy uses unforgiveness against us. That's why the Lord doesn't give us a choice when it comes to forgiveness. He says that we must forgive, and that's to save us from torment. That's to protect us because when there is bitterness, it can give the enemy a foothold and it can become such a stronghold, and it can really block joy and freedom and good things from happening in your life. Ephesians 4, 31 to 32, get rid of all bitterness, forgiving each other just as Christ forgave you. So we break agreement with the lies. This is really crucial. Out loud we say, I break agreement with the lie that I am not safe. I break agreement with fear and control. I break agreement with every accusing voice. And I also like to declare positive over this as well, where I say I am thankful that the Lord has set me free. I am grateful that that I am experiencing joy and love, because that's the opposite to fear and control. I am grateful that I am filled with peace, peace that surpasses all understanding. I am thankful that peace has come over our home. Especially where there's been heaviness, where there's been torment, where there's been oppression. We uproot that and we say, I am so grateful, Lord, that you are surrounding my home with angels, that you are bringing so much peace to my soul, that my children are able to walk in freedom and joy. And we declare these things. So we're breaking agreement, but then we're also declaring. And then we minister to the wounded part of you. This is very important because this is where the real healing actually occurs. I like to really sit with these fragmented parts of my soul and have a real conversation with them. Give them a real voice, let them speak. What would you do if a child came to you and they had been beaten and they were bruised, for example, and they were very wounded and they were just sitting in the corner and they were afraid. That's how you're going to minister to this child. You're going to go over and pick them up and cuddle them in your mind. And you start to heal the memory in real time. You start to speak to them. You let them speak. If they're angry, let them be angry. Let them say everything that they need to say. Sometimes they may even speak hatefully. They may even say, I wish that person would fall off a cliff because they're just evil, you know? Because when you've been abused, you're going to have this trauma response. You're going to be angry. You're going to be hurt. You have to give them a voice. You have to say, I understand why you feel that way. And I'm so sorry that you went through that. That was evil. That was bad. That shouldn't have happened to you. And then you slowly help them forgive. It might take half an hour, an hour of sitting with this soul wound, this trauma, and letting them forgive. Once they forgive, this spirit of torment loses its power. That root is gone. It can no longer feed off of that root. I also go further with this as well, because I will then pray over them and I will say, Lord, heal the brain, heal the nervous system. Remove the imprint of trauma from the soul, remove the fibromyalgia or the chronic pain or whatever it is that has taken root in the body due to this trauma and this fear. Because when you've gone through pain, especially physical or sexual abuse, the imprint of that is right in your nervous system, in your body, in the fascia muscles. There's a lot of research on this. The fascia, which is where a lot of those fibromyalgia type symptoms show up. That's potentially for a lot of people, means that somebody has been rough with you or has harmed you physically. And you have to allow the Lord to minister to all those muscles. I actually have healings on this. If you go to my playlist on YouTube, the prophetic healings. There's one for the emergency for emergency mode, I think it's called, but that heals the whole nervous system, brings the body out of fight or flight, and does a full healing on the body as well. So that's quite a powerful one. But we have to allow the Holy Spirit to then heal the injuries, the stored memory, the chronic pain, the chronic symptoms. And we may have to release fear, we may have to release anger. Sometimes I will get the fragment to scream because that's releasing it really quickly. Sometimes you'll see a whole tornado, which just means that this wound triggers you so much that it creates a storm within your body. And that storm has to be rooted out of you. You have to rebuke it and say, I rebuke this storm that is occurring within my nervous system as a result of this trauma, and I release it now, and then some breathing exercises to push that out because it has to come up and out of your body. It's in your nervous system. So we have to release it. So this type of healing is systemic where you're addressing all aspects of it and you're letting the Holy Spirit lead. And then we take authority over it. In Luke 10, 19, I have given the you I have given you authority over all the power of the enemy. But notice that this comes after removing the agreement. So we come out of agreement with the enemy first. And then you speak with authority, not fear. We also may need to break word curses, like if if the abuser has spoken word curses over you. Where I remember my father during a rage was mocking me for dancing, and he said you can't sing. That literally caused a demon to attach to my voice and to lock onto my throat. That word curse had to be broken, and I had to be delivered from that because I couldn't actually sing. At times, I was having such severe symptoms in my throat because he targeted my throat a lot, and that's where my anointing is in my voice. So the enemy will use people, especially if you have a parent that's abusive, if you have someone in your family that's an alcoholic, they will be used to target your anointing, to target your voice, and you will end up battling these strongholds, and they have to be removed. So ask the Lord to show you all aspects of the memory because you might go into the memory and minister to the fragment and cast out the tormentor, but there could be something left unfinished. Where there could actually be something wrapped around the throat. There could be a chain there, there could be an anchor which acts as a curse, a curse of stagnation. So you have to ask Lord, is there anything else here that I need to uproot? Because he might ask you to remove the anchor, break the chains, dismantle the throne in the courts of heaven. Because the enemy is sneaky. He knows how to trap us in captivity, and he will attach different hooks and chains to each fragment. So that's why sometimes you end up healing the same memory multiple times. But if you understand what you're doing, how to tackle each route all at once, because he wants to make it difficult for you to get free. This is why it's so important to w work with the Holy Spirit and to say, Lord, show me, is there anything else in here? Is it complete? Is it finished? Because the enemy wants you to think that it's done and to walk away. And then you're going to get pulled back into that captivity again next year. You know, just as you're on the verge of breakthrough and you're about to step into your calling and your ministry is about to take off, he still has this root because it wasn't completed. So it's really important to ensure that you are fully releasing it and that you're not leaving any stone unturned when it comes to this type of healing and deliverance. But then after you deal with it, you shift your focus back to God. I like to praise and worship and sing and experience the joy of the Lord after I've gone through a big deliverance like that. Let yourself be grateful for another healing and deliverance and the fact that that tormentor is now gone and it can no longer affect you. So let's just close this out then with a prayer. Father God, I come to you in the name of Jesus. I bring every wound every place where I was hurt, rejected, or falsely accused. I choose to forgive those who hurt me. I release them now. I repent for agreeing with fear, bitterness, control, and every lie that came from pain. Right now I break agreement with every accusing voice, every tormenting toad, and every spirit that is not from you. In the name of Jesus, I command every spirit of accusation, torment, fear, and oppression to leave me now and not return. I declare that I belong to God. My mind is under his authority, I receive his peace, his truth, and his healing. Lord, heal every wounded part of me, restore my joy, restore my trust, restore my peace. In Jesus' name, Amen. So my final message then day, just to sum it all up, freedom is not just about casting out the demon, it's about healing what was wounded, breaking agreement with the lies, stepping back into truth, because you are not meant to live tormented, isolated, or in fear. You are called to live in peace, clarity, and love. So I pray that this blesses you today, guys, and I will see you in the next one. Take care. Bye. Remember to stay close to Jesus because freedom is yours.