Season 2, Episode 1: I Work for God

What if the confusion, pressure, and overwhelm you feel are actually the beginning of your next breakthrough? Eset Rose opens Season 2 with a raw, luminous invitation for artists, creators, and anyone standing at the edge of reinvention.  After 20 years in the music and entertainment industry, world tours, chart-topping records, and rooms with some of the most powerful people in the world, Eset shares the hidden cost of operating at that scale and the daily practice that helped her protect the “channel” behind her creativity. This is a conversation about protecting your gifts before the world extracts them.You’ll discover:

• Why Eset sees creative confusion as the first sign of imagination and illumination, not failure

• The “fountain” and “channel” practice she used to stay grounded under intense pressure

• How shadow work, daily devotion, and inner architecture expand your capacity to hold more of what’s coming through

• Why so many artists are vulnerable to being co-opted, abused, or drained when no one teaches them how to protect their energy

• What changed when she chose celibacy, stepped out front of her own voice, and stopped channeling through other people

Eset also shares the Gene Keys insight that confirmed her life path: the 64th Gene Key, where confusion transforms into imagination and illumination. From there, she frames this season as a gathering place for sacred artists, visionaries, and movement builders who are ready to create in integrity, integrate their shadows, and help seed a new paradigm through their work.If you’re in a season of transition, feeling the old patterns fall away, or sensing that you’re being called to more visibility, this episode will meet you there. It’s a powerful reset for anyone ready to put down what is no longer theirs to carry and step fully into the highest expression of their gift.Perfect for creators, seekers, and anyone who feels the pull to turn inner transformation into living art.

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Transcript

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There's this thing that happens to me, and it's happened my whole life, where more comes through than I have anywhere to put it. Images, futures, whole worlds arriving faster than I can build structure around that I can like logically place. So I just have to sit with it and let it gestate and take the time that it needs to reveal itself to me little by little. It's like following a trail. Yeah, that's something that I've had to surrender to. Um, it felt like a problem that I had at some point. I've spent 20 years inside the music and entertainment industry. World tours, millions of records sold, rooms with some of the most powerful and most famous people in the world. I was very often the one going against the grain in those rooms, and I stood my ground because I answered to God. Always have and always will. And underneath all of it, there was this pressure, always coming from somewhere. It could be, you know, the pressure of having to live up to the last chart-topping single on the next record, you know, um, the pressure of timelines, deadlines, showtime, you name it. And I had to cultivate a practice of really protecting that channel, that fountain, as I like to call it. Um, before I would step into those rooms, oftentimes it would just look like putting mirrors up, like a pyramid of mirrors up around me. Um, but I do want to talk about like what it actually takes to do that, because my practice began as a necessity, um, a lifeline, honestly, to hold what I had to hold at that scale. I had to cultivate really big capacity in my field, in my aura. Um, and I protected my channel every single day because I just couldn't survive the scale I was operating at without it. And I find that most artists and creators are never told that they're a channel for the divine, and they're never given the tools to protect that channel, to cultivate it and purify it. And so they are easily extracted from, they're easily abused and taken advantage of and co-opted. And so I did it daily for years, like long past the kind of state of emergency that started it, and somewhere in there that necessity turned into devotion, it turned into my sadna. And what I was actually building without knowing that's what I was doing was the inner architecture, the capacity to hold what was already coming through me. And then years later, I find out that my uh vocation in the gene keys is the 64th gene key, and the shadow of that is confusion, and the gift is imagination, and the city, the highest expression is illumination. And so the confusion, the way I understand it now, is the confusion of like the too much arriving at once, and like I said, it's sort of this this fountain, just like a downpour or waterfall, or maybe even a geyser. But I named this podcast before I knew about my vocation key. So finding it out landed as confirmation more than anything else. It's about illumination and it's about imagination. And so the people I'm gathering are the artists and the creators. The people I'm making this for are the illuminators. We are the ones who've done the work and who are doing the work on the daily, standing in the embodiment of our incarnational gifts, growing down in order to grow up, integrating the shadow parts so that we can shine as the stars that we actually are, holding hands in constellation to bring forward a new dawn. These are the people who feel their feels all the way down to the bottom, and then help us understand, help us make meaning. These are not talking heads, nobody's bypassing anything. These are folks who understand the gift of our humanity and what it means to be here on this planet at this time, slugging through the mud to Lotus. Because when we integrate our shadows, our medicine can come full. And then we get to be lights and guides in and through the darkness. Speaking of which, I've been in the void for the last two years in that dark, fertile womb of creation, that liminal space. I separated from my husband, I moved out of our home, and then I left my work to step out front of my own voice. I had spent 20 years channeling through another person, and then seven through an organization, and now it's mine to carry. I have been an initiate on the path of death and rebirth, of transmutation, transformation, and transfiguration, really like my entire life. But these past ten years have been another level, and even now I feel another up level, and I'm sure you can all feel it. We really are in this collective transmutation and transfiguration. We are passing through what feels like this tiny keyhole, and the old stuff just can't come along. The patterns, the ways of being, the stuff that doesn't serve us cannot come along. And I've been dropping these layers, or they've been being what sometimes feels like snatched from me in sometimes excruciating and brutal ways on this path of liberation that I am ruthlessly devoted to. In the in the amazing ways we as humans overcomplicate things, it actually feels quite simple that we are to put down what is no longer ours to carry. Um, and I'm noticing that and finding all the ways that I've been very sneakily carrying ancestral baggage and even stuff from this lifetime, and it's a lifelong spiral journey of healing. But then also there's also this moment right now where it's kind of quite miraculous. We could quantum leap into the full highest timeline and expression of ourselves, and it could be as easy as just setting down what's not ours, what's not part of that version of who we are here to be, and grounding that really deeply in our body with our daily practices and our choices. And so I'm feeling so much expansiveness in my field, and I can feel these layers like slothing off of me, and it's just this sense of buzzing, and I have to rest quite a bit. I don't know if anyone else is feeling that, but I'm having to just rest and integrate and sometimes go into this really deep, it's kind of like sleep, but it's also you know, downloads and integration portals. Um, but I'm finding a need to really be more contained in my own energy, which is the part I didn't expect, but it's sort of like in order to show up fully in my gift and offer, I've got to be really deeply rooted in my own energy. And so instead of being this live wire, because I've got a lot of a lot of current moving through my body, I've been learning how to be more of a closed, regenerative loop. And it's a whole nother way of really harnessing my energy, and it really shifted for me after a choice that I consciously made to choose celibacy, to gift my own creative life force back to me, to my voice, to my offerings, to my life's work, to those I'm here to serve. And I'm feeling unafraid of who I am now, and standing fully in that boldly. Um, so much of our programming, my programming, has confined me and kept me trapped in fear, and I feel like we are all being called. Well, I'll speak for myself, but this is more visibility and more space than I've ever taken. And my perspective on that has shifted significantly. I think before I was like, I don't want to add to the noise, what do I even say? Like, I know I have so much to offer and say and share from my life, but um, is it really needed? And um, where do I start? And I think I'm willing to be in the discomfort of that and just start somewhere because I know that it's time to fully inhabit the gift of my incarnation, and that feels true for all of us, that we move in the coherence of who we think we are, who we say we are, and who we actually are are one and the same. And that is what it means to be a leader in these times, to be a creator in these times, an artist in these times. And so this season is about sacred art, and it's about the people who create in devotion to something greater than themselves, and it's about keeping our channels clean, clear, and pure, resourced and grounded in integrity and in wholeness and how we go about doing that. I'll be in conversation with other sacred artists and visionaries and movement builders, and we'll be seeding the new paradigm through the conversations themselves. Proving, claiming, commanding that it's already here, it's already happening, and this season gets to be the living evidence. It stops being a hope and it becomes something you could point at that you can lean into and anchor. I am gonna be having some season regulars coming in, and I'll introduce them when it's time, but I'm really excited about that. And yeah, there's one more thing that I'm gonna say, and then I'll stop, which is gonna be hard for me because I could go on and on. Um but I've been carrying something for over 20 years, and it's been growing in my spirit that whole time, and it's the synthesis of my entire life's work. And now is the time to create a new mythos, a new transmission, a new story. And I'll be sharing more about that in the next episode because it needs its own space. So in closing, I'm channeling this gift of the confusion that I I've found myself at in so many moments in my life, trusting that I know how to channel that into imagination and then illumination. And yeah, there's a path to follow here. And so if you're in confusion right now and you feel like either so much is coming in or so much is going out, or both are happening at the same time, which is true for me, let that be a path for you. You're in the first movement of the sequence, and so we just keep aligning with the resident fields, choice by choice, moment by moment, breath by breath, and allowing our imagination to do what it knows how to do, to create art, to alchemize, to make sense, so that it can be a beacon for others. So I really look forward to training with you then. I know that we all incarnate to wait for the