🎁 The Gift Within the Setback: Redefining What It Means to Be Healed (Ep. 9)

What happens when you’re launching a show called HEALED—and suddenly face a major setback in your healing?

In this raw and vulnerable episode, award-winning Corporate Wellness Expert and Akashic Healer Nicole Mixdorf opens up about a recent health relapse that tested everything she thought she knew about healing. She shares the irony, the emotions, the lessons, and ultimately, the profound realization that healing isn’t a destination—it’s a state of being.

Nicole reveals how she navigated through fear, frustration, and self-doubt, and how this experience deepened her understanding of divine feminine energy, surrender, and self-permission to heal. You’ll walk away inspired to view your own setbacks as sacred opportunities for growth, empowerment, and transformation.

✨ In this episode, you’ll learn:

• Why setbacks are not failures, but invitations to evolve
• How to find the hidden gifts inside your biggest challenges
• The energetic difference between doing healing and allowing healing
• How divine feminine energy and self-compassion accelerate true recovery

Because healing isn’t about being perfect — it’s about being real, courageous, and willing to rise again.

Transcript

Hello, beautiful soul. Welcome back. I’m Nicole Mixdorf, your host of HEALED.

Today we’re diving into a topic I wasn’t even sure I wanted to talk about — the setback.

I’ve been dealing with a health setback over the past couple of months, and it’s brought up a lot. Have you ever gone through an experience where you’ve done so much healing work around something, thought it was completely behind you, and then suddenly it resurfaces right in your face? It’s really hard.

This came up for me right as I was launching this show — a show literally called HEALED — while my body started showing symptoms again. Talk about irony! But I knew deep down it wasn’t a coincidence. Of course this would happen right as I was stepping into a bigger light, sharing my story, and helping others heal.

I found myself thinking, Can I really launch a show called Healed when I don’t feel healed?
For a while, I didn’t think I could. I felt like a fraud.

But then I remembered — throughout all these years, no matter how many flare-ups I’ve had, I’ve never let my illness stop me from pursuing my dreams. Why would I start now?

So I made the bold decision to launch the show anyway. But it wasn’t easy.

Even with all the tools and healers I know, the things that once worked miracles for me didn’t work this time. It was humbling. I tried everything — Akashic healing, Reiki, Kambo, Dragon’s Blood fasting — some helped, some backfired. At one point, I made myself even sicker. I was weak, dehydrated, and frustrated.

Yet through it all, I didn’t give up. I kept showing up for myself.

One of the biggest messages that came through was that I wasn’t fully allowing myself to feel my emotions. I’d been bypassing anger and frustration to keep my vibration high — because I’m naturally positive and it feels better. But those unexpressed emotions were literally trapped in my body.

During an Akashic healing session, my teacher said, “Nicole, you’re bleeding out your emotions.”
 Wow. That hit hard.

So I gave myself permission to feel everything — the anger, sadness, guilt, shame, and disappointment. And when I finally allowed it all in, something shifted. After a few days, I was ready to rise again.

That’s when another powerful message came through: I don’t need to DO anything to heal.
In fact, I’ve been doing too much. What I really needed was to stop forcing and start allowing.

Healing, for me, became about moving from masculine energy — pushing, striving, fixing — into divine feminine energy — allowing, receiving, trusting.

So I opened my Akashic Records, connected with my body, and gave every cell permission to heal.
 “I give you permission to heal. Every cell of my body is healed and whole.”

And guess what? The bleeding began to subside. I wasn’t doing anything — just allowing.

That’s when I realized something profound: being healed isn’t about never having symptoms again. It’s a state of being. It’s the energy you bring to your life, the way you face challenges, and the faith you hold through it all.

There will always be deeper layers that reveal themselves as we continue to evolve. And each time they do, they invite us to become more authentic, more powerful, more whole.

I wanted to share this with you because healers are human too. We go through setbacks. We fall. We rise. And every time we do, we become even stronger vessels for healing — not just for ourselves, but for others.

So if you’re walking through a setback right now, please remember — it’s not here to punish you. It’s here to awaken you. Ask yourself:

• What is this challenge teaching me?
• What is it asking me to release?
• Who am I becoming through it?

Every challenge carries a message, a lesson, and a gift. When you receive the message, the miracle can finally come in.

Thank you for being here, for walking this journey with me, and for loving me even when I’m still healing. We’re in this together — and we’ve got this.