LIL WOODY : SPEAKS ABOUT THE DEVASTATING LOSS OF HIS SON ALSO HAVING A DISABLED CHILD

This exclusive interview from Tales From The Jails Podcast features Lil Woody who spoke about many different topics. Lil Woody talks about the death of his son and how it changed. Lil woody speaks about how his criminal cases have affected his life. Don't miss this full interview on youtube. 

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:23

Do you um all the stuff that you mentioned that you're going through, do you like do you fear for your life? Like out here, do you feel like you feel like not like you like you scared, but do you feel like somebody may or something may somebody may try to do something to you?

SPEAKER_03 0:37

I j I just feel like within the last 24 hours. So within the last 24 hours, somebody put an air tag on my car. And like I keep telling you niggas, I don't mess with nobody. But when I get back in their mindset, I don't care about losing. Because I lost the the moment I went back in their mindset. And I'm not nobody's enemy. I'm not doing anything. Nobody ain't gotta go to sleep running about me coming after them. So why am I on other people's minds? So when I see the air tag on my car, I get mad and I let it be known, you know, every mistake count. There was a mistake that you niggas made. You niggas wanna put tracking on my car? Why would you use the L tag to alert me? Yeah. You feel me? Like I'm outside, I don't care weapons, no nothing. So if you want to harm me, do it. But when you want to bring the harm to my family, then that's another problem right there. I'm ready, I'm ready to die. So within the last 24 hours, I've been back in that mindset. But I've been fighting it, trying to get out of it because I've been also mad with my preacher, too. So it's a lot of things. The devil trying, he's trying, I cut people out every day and I block them because I gotta protect my energy, man. I know, I know once once you get drawn in, man, it's almost impossible to get out. And then man, they kicking and punching me from every which way, man.

SPEAKER_00 2:01

Man. It's like in life, man, you know, sometimes we don't really really understand, or people don't really understand that. People we human. Like they might look at you because you have success or stature, like you can just endure so much. But they'll people forget that you're actually a human as well, man.

SPEAKER_03 2:19

Now they don't forget it's just jealousy. That's what the problem is. Jealousy. Black men feel as in one person is supposed to be the king, and it's them. It's him. You feel me? Once we stop that and realize that, man, like I tell people, it's enough money for all of us to eat and be rich. Once we think like that, man, we'd be the unstoppable. We so powerful and we so strong and we so smart, and we so loyal to the wrong cause. If we were loyal to the right cause, we'll be so, we'd be the best race on the planet. That's why we the worst race. Cause they don't they don't want us to know that the the influence, the the ability, that the the man, we got everything, man.

SPEAKER_01 3:07

Sure, we do.

SPEAKER_03 3:08

Man, we we natural. Look at this. We in shape naturally. Naturally, naturally, come out the woman in shape. Yeah, we can deal with any world. God created us. He created everybody. But everybody ain't like us, though. Y'all ain't realize that. Everybody can stand in that sun, 100 degrees. Yeah, without getting cancer. But they don't want us to be aware of who we are. The spirit take over me. Sometimes I find myself saying stuff, I'd be like, where it came from, but I just let it come out. Real tough. But I've been in some, I've been in some situations, man. And I was like, boy, there's a God. I might not figure everything out, but I know there's a God. And the impossible don't happen to me. Not one time, not two times, not three times. But for some people, they first time they failed. So I'm like, damn, God reckon with me. I done been through too much.

SPEAKER_01 4:13

He keeps pulling you alone.

SPEAKER_03 4:15

And then you got certain things out the Bible, like they say Job. They say uh God, the devil told God, if you take everything away from hearsay. So now I woke up when I had my son. I was in my car. I was like, my car costs a hundred thousand dollars that I own. It's my type of car. I got a big home. I got a beautiful girl. I have a son. I love my two daughters. They my world for sure. No doubt about it.

SPEAKER_02 4:45

But bring a different type of joy.

SPEAKER_03 4:48

Yeah. Because now I gotta make you be the king that I wanted to be. And I got a chance to do that. I'm gonna give you everything I can get for you. And I'm gonna make sure you never think like a criminal. Never, I'm gonna make sure you never go to the street, never try to live up to my reputation. He would never know what type of person I was. This is, I'm thinking about sports. I wanted to play sports. I wanted to be a little boy that had his dad to walk his walk his hand through the mall. But I wanted, I'm gonna give him everything I wanted. And then when I was crying in my car and I was driving by myself, listening to the music. I listened to Rod Wade. Anytime I want to cry, I just cut on War Wave and let it come out because when I hold it in, I'm gonna flip. Right, cry. And I just keep saying, I got a son, I can't wait on him to crawl. And walk. I kept telling my girl, when he started walking, I'm taking it with me every day.

SPEAKER_00 5:38

I say that all the time. I say that now all the time.

SPEAKER_02 5:41

Soon as he started walking, he could be nine months old. Give them to me.

SPEAKER_00 5:45

Yeah, man. Do you uh after going through that trauma, do you see yourself trying to have another son?

SPEAKER_02 5:52

I understand you fully though. I understand exactly why you said though. Yeah.

SPEAKER_03 5:57

I don't want more kids. Because it's nothing I could do. It's no good. It's our job to protect our kids. And when I hold my baby right there, and it wasn't nothing I could do. Man, this shit hurt, man. That shit hurt real bad. Like, it's like, damn, bro. Like I I tell God on Siren. You feel me? Like, I ain't never did nothing to people because I took it upon myself to just be, nah, I if I had a problem with you, it'd because my boy had problems with you. You can't over mess with him or violate him. You don't can't over mess with us.

SPEAKER_02 6:32

Exactly. You violated him, you violated me. I ain't come messing with you. You know that's my guy.

SPEAKER_03 6:37

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 6:38

And I'm coming.

SPEAKER_03 6:38

And then the crazy thing about it, I'm gonna tell y'all some people don't know. I got a disabled child. I got a daughter that lost her mom. And I got a baby that passed away. So I deal with this shit every day. Like, damn, man. My little girl, she disabled. You feel me? The most precious thing walking besides my other little girl. And then my other little girl, she lost her mama, so I know what it's like losing my mama. And then she loved me so much that I'm scared. I haven't had my kids since I haven't had my little girls since my baby died. My one is disabled, the mom, like, dang, white. Like you switch up on your child. You feel me? Like, it hurts. You feel me? Like, my little girl brings me so much peace and joy. But like, I'm scared. I can't protect. I can't, I got no, like, damn, bro. Like, this shit just like you just looking at it like it's it's nothing you can do.

SPEAKER_00 7:34

Like, making me emotional, man. Um, I like I said, I got I got four girls. I I have a son, and I'm and I'm gonna have to have another son. I heard people always say, oh, it's not like my sister, man. She um she lost her son. She was thinking rolled over on top of her on top of my nephew. She ain't been the same since I know everything that she's going through right now. She never really got over that. So I'll be trying to be patient with what she goes through so much. But I and I know it comes from her child. People always say there's no pain, like losing losing the child.