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Me-Time Musings
Dark Forces
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Warning: This episode contains strong language and adult themes, reflecting my authentic storytelling style.
Please note full TRIGGER WARNING on this one.
Episode starts light and fluffy but the latter half is the exact opposite.
In this episode:
- I muse about something important I forgot to do in my previous episode AND I seem to be forever in season one.
- I read an article by an independent journalist who put into words what I have been struggling to do myself: Hollywood and those recently released government files.
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Hi. Welcome to Me Time Musings. I'm Jess. And I'm super fucking happy that you are here today. How's that for a welcome? Maybe my best yet. Uh which speaking of, a couple things right out of the gate here, uh, I noticed on the last episode that I did not introduce the podcast or who I was. You would think that after 28 episodes, I'd have that on lock. That it would just be like clockwork. Apparently not. And what I find absolutely hilarious is that in that episode, I'm literally saying that I was in it to win it that day. And all I have to say is, nah, girl, you ain't winning. Nobody's winning. If you can't introduce your podcast on your podcast, Lord have mercy. Lord have mercy on my soul. A whole heck of a lot of mercy needed all up in here. You know, I wonder how much mercy is going for these days. If you can if you can get it like discounted. Cause girl's on a budget, bitches. Girl is on a budget. I have cramps. Like for real. I don't feel well. I mean, how could I? It feels like my ovaries are being steamrolled. I've been crying a lot too. Let's just keep it a hundred, should we? Let's do that. Uh I don't look too haggard today. Uh, because I had to get up and ready for a video meeting. So I like, you know, I did my hair and looked presentable. But I'll tell you, I'll tell you this: the mornings are rough through all the crying because I wake up and look like I'm having an allergic reaction. My face is so puffy, my eyes are crusty, I feel like I can barely see. Alright, I'm gonna move on from that. I'm gonna move on. Uh, I also noticed I am still in season one of this podcast. Twenty eight episodes in. Shouldn't I be in season two by now? I think so. Although I did think it would be kinda funny if I ran season one all the way to 100 episodes and then and then switched to season two. I mean, I would be a full-on trailblazer from that perspective. I don't think anyone's done that. My seasons are just jam-packed, they run long, so be it. You know, at the end of the day I make the rules. Ain't that something? Ain't that something? And you know what all these shenanigans made me think? Hey source. My podcast producer, co-creator, why you gotta do me dirty like that, letting this shit slide. Nah, I can't I can't say that about my number one boo thing. The cheese to my crackers, the avocado to my toast, the salt to my water, my ride or die. I take full responsibility for my half failings. I do. They're not full failings, they're half failings. Maybe like a fourth of a failing. But nonetheless, I take full responsibility. Um So if you find yourself thinking, I wonder if Jess knows what she's doing with this podcast. I'm gonna go ahead and say the answer is right in front of your face and very clear. No. I'm just gonna leave that where it is. Today's a new day. Tomorrow's a new day. Always opportunities right around the corner for growth and improvement. Am I right? I think I'm right. Let's fucking get into it, should we? Let's get it. Let's freaking go. Alright, um, so today is not going to be a light and fluffy episode. In fact, I'm putting a trigger warning on this one. There is going to be some talk regarding the Epstein files and some other similar things. It's graphic at times. So you take care of you. If you need to click off, this one isn't for you. It's totally okay. Um, I want to read something to you today. I want to share something with you. Uh, I have followed a substack called The Wise Wolf for about a month now. And over the weekend I read his newest article, and I thought, I'm gonna read this. I'm gonna read his words because I can't seem to find my own around this right now. He's uh he's an independent journalist. Uh I'd recommend checking him out. Um. So I've mentioned kind of the crumbling of my life, I think. Uh I don't know if I went into a ton of detail. I don't remember, honestly. 20 29, well, actually, is today 28 or 29? Whatever, 20, 28 or 29 episodes, and I don't necessarily always remember all the things that I've talked about, but uh August of last year was when everything changed. Everything. My the world as I knew it came crumbling down. Uh, in a way that it hadn't, you know, I had already been through like, I'll call them mini crumblings. But this was a full-on, like wiping it all, wiping it all out. And part of that was when I learned, you know, where we live, what this is, who we are, and just all of the lies and the deception around everything. Literally everything. I've said that so many times, I'm like a broken record, but just that there is deep, deep-rooted deception and lies about everything. You know, nothing is real. It's all fake and it's it's unsettling. It's so jarring. And I was moving through that, and then I learned of what is being done to children. I don't remember how truly all of that came about. Um I don't remember. I really don't recall. Uh, as you know, I think I've mentioned I'm a breadcrumb follower, so something must have piqued my interest, and then you know, I just kind of kept following the breadcrumbs, and and there you and there you have it. It just it all came to light, and I'm very careful to say or to use the word broke or broken in regards to to me. But in this instance, I will say that the knowledge around the horrific, abhorrent, disgusting things that were were and are being done to children, um, it broke me. It it legit broke me. Um It was just almost too much to take. Um You know, I cried off and on for two and a half weeks just trying to make sense of it because I was almost in disbelief. I mean I I I just couldn't, it was unfathomable. And so I was trying to make sense of something that just truly didn't make sense. You couldn't make sense of it. And so um I knew as I continued to move through the podcast and doing episodes, you know, I knew eventually I would need to talk about this, you know. And at the time I had such a incredible fear around it, I'll be honest, because saying the things that would need to be said would make me sound truly nuts. I mean, maybe more so than normal, I guess. It was just a really scary thing for me, and I just was struggling very much around how to do that and kind of coming to terms with exactly how, you know, I I was starting to kind of organize it a little bit in my head and um feel a little bit more comfortable around it. And then the Epstein files um came to light. And not only was everything confirmed right in these government documents, but it was leaps and bounds worse. Leaps and bounds. Um, and I knew quite a bit, but it is um there's something to be said around people who are so casually talking the way that they are in emails about something so horrifically disgusting. I think that was what um what I I didn't have before. Uh and it it really just really stuck with me, has stuck with me. Um you know, the dark forces are darker than I think anyone could possibly imagine. It's a full-on horror show, completely and totally, and probably even worse, right? Because it's unimaginable, it's just completely unimaginable. So uh I just wanted to provide a little bit of context there um around this. And I I like I said, I'm still really struggling to to fully form my thoughts around it and to bring that and share that with all of you. And so when I read this, I thought I'm gonna, I'm I'm gonna take this and his words and share that with you for now. Um, this is just just the start, truly. There's so much more to say. Uh so again, um, Substack, it's called the wise wolf. Always, always, always use your own discernment. Like a broken record on that as well. But I really mean it with all things, including me and this podcast. Um, I'm just bringing this to you because it captures a lot, and I'll just leave it at that. So um the article is titled Hollywood Babylon. Uh, the American Horror Story, not horror, but horror story. Um, and it has a picture of Lady Gaga, and I think it's from the show American Horror Story. Um I don't know entirely, but she looks absolutely nuts. She looks like she has blood all over her, and um it's a dis it's a disturbing picture. Um, that kind of kicks all this off. But okay, so child murdering occultists took over the US government, and they are going to start a nuclear war before they let you find out what they did. Hollywood is run by child killers who worship demons. They got so deep they couldn't get out, so they took over the government instead. Now they're building bunkers with your tax dollars because when the world finds out what they did to those kids, they'd rather start a nuclear war than see the inside of a courtroom. The Antichrist doesn't rise from nothing. He rises from the ashes they're planning to create. Yeah, it's insane. It's also in revelation. Pick up your Bible and tell me I'm wrong. Is America run by child killing witches and warlocks? I figured out something a few years back while digging into the occult. Witches and vampires are the same damn thing. Same creature, different name, every culture on earth figured this out independently, and then the modern world decided all of them were wrong at the same time. Which is a hell of a coincidence for six continents and four thousand years of recorded history. Lady Gaga and her mentor Marina Abramovic at a party in quotations consuming blood. Nothing to see here, folks. Move it along. There's a picture of them standing in front of what looks to be a naked dead body in a pool of blood, and they're eating off of it. I'm sh I don't know where this is from. I have maybe from American Horror Story, the the show. There's some gentlemen that are standing there as well. It appears to be a female, the the dead body of a female. So uh the Greeks called them Lamia, the Slavs called them Stragoi, the Filipinos called them Aswang. The Germans put them in a gingerbread house and told their kids to stay out of the forest. The English put them at the top of a beanstalk grinding bones to make bread. Every Native American tribe had a version. Every African tribe had a version. Every Asian culture had a version. Billions of people across thousands of years describing the same predator with the same diet and the same victims, and we filed it under mythology, like that was a rational thing to do with overwhelming cross-cultural consensus. It wasn't a coincidence, it was testimony. And the reason you don't recognize it as testimony is because you have spent your entire life inside a machine that was built to make sure you don't. Holly Wood. Wand wood. The wood druids used to carve wands in the Babylonian and Celtic traditions, the instrument that directs spiritual energy. They built the most powerful mass illusion machine in human history and named it after the primary tool of spellcasting. Then they built darkened rooms where you pay money to sit in ritualized silence while someone else's visions replace your thoughts. A movie theater is a temple. The suspension of disbelief, their term, not mine, is the congregation's prayer. You are under a spell every time you buy a ticket, and the people casting it named the city after the wand because they knew you'd never look it up. On every set in this city, the food department is called craft services, not catering. Every other industry on earth calls it catering because that's the English word for feeding people. Witches call their practice the craft. Masons call Freemasonry the craft. Hollywood calls its food department craft services. In the city of the wand, they are not hiding. They are labeling everything like a warehouse and daring you to read the signs. The red hot chili peppers, Los Angeles, the logo, an eight pronged symbol of chaos, the primary sigil of chaos magic, left hand path occultism. Kidas and Fusante tattooed it on their wrists like a gang brand. Album Blood Sugar Sex Magic. Crawley added the K to separate real ritual practice from birthday party card tricks. Blood, the ritual fluid, sugar, metabolic fuel, sex, the violation that is the offering, magic, the power generated when the circuit completes. That is a recipe for a blood ritual. It was nominated for a Grammy. You can buy it at Target for twelve bucks. The symbol for chaos magic appears all over our media now. This is what occultists call lesser magic, putting it right in your face. The ritual gains power because you see it and do nothing. Your silence is fuel, your ticket is your offering. That is the entire point of the machine. Not entertainment, pacification. They built the most sophisticated distraction apparatus in the history of the human race, and they aimed it directly at the people who might otherwise notice that children are disappearing. Pop culture Say it slower. Pop cult Er UR is a city in ancient Sumeria where children were sacrificed to false gods. That is not a coincidence. That is a label. Pop culture. The popular cult of your the mass participation version of the oldest satanic practice on earth repackaged as fashion and music and movies and television and video games and social media and whatever dopamine hit you've got cued up on your phone right now. The entire twentieth and twenty first centuries have been one long project to turn good people into drooling sheep who will stand there and watch evil consume the world as long as they've got a screen to stare at. They even named the behavior doom scrolling, scrolling toward your doom. It's right there in the word. These people cannot help themselves. They label everything. They named the city after the wand and the department after the craft, and the cultural machine after a Sumerian child sacrifice city, and the act of staring at your phone while civilization collapses after what it actually is, scrolling toward doom. And people use the word and laugh about it like it's a quirky modern habit and not a confession printed on the side of the thing that is killing them. If you don't mind, I need to take a sip of water super quick, so thanks for that. Getting back to it. Oh, goodness. Okay. The Hebrew word for what these monsters harvest from children is nefish. And I will just add to this that nefish is also known as adrenochrome. Um okay, uh Leviticus seventeen fourteen. The life of every creature is its blood. The word translated life is nefish. It doesn't mean your pulse, it means your soul. The blood carries the soul. God is not giving dietary advice. He is describing how reality works at a level that modern science won't touch because the implications would end careers before lunch. God does not outlaw things nobody does. He outlaws blood consumption with a ferocity that makes the rest of Leviticus look like a suggestion box because people were drinking blood. The blood of children, because the nefish of a child in a state of extreme terror and suffering is the fuel that powers the oldest parasitic infection on this planet. This is not a religion. There is one faith, and it came direct from God. Everything else is corruption. Witchcraft is not a belief system, it is a disease. It is what monsters do to gain power they were never meant to have. Half a million kids disappear in America every year. And I will just add to that, millions worldwide. That's not a population. I'm sorry. That's the population of Atlanta. Sorry, let me start that again. Half a million kids disappear in America every year. That's the population of Atlanta gone every single year. Over half are never found, not recovered, not located, not accounted for, just gone. An entire city of children vanishing annually, and you're watching Netflix. Where do you think they're going? The suffering cracks open something that is supposed to stay shut. The blood carries what pours out. The practitioner consumes it. Something on the other side, something that is not human and is not God, takes notice and starts cutting deals. That is magic. That is what Crowley systematized. That is what every vampire myth is describing. That is what Stephen King transcribed in Doctor Sleep and dressed up in New England and gave Winnebagos so publishers would print it. The true not beings who torture children to death slowly because the terror is the product, and the longer the agony lasts, the more potent the steam. The steam is the nefish. King wasn't imagining, he was reporting. Revelation two nine. I know the blasphemy by those who say they are Jews and are not, but are a synagogue of Satan. Jesus Christ named the organization, a cult born in Babylon that stole the identity of God's people, the way a virus mimics healthy cells to dodge the immune system. This parasite has migrated through every empire Babylon, Persia, Rome, the Venetian banks, Wall Street, the Federal Reserve, Washington, Hollywood, same parasite, same rituals, same victims, different host. Secret societies work by infiltration. You don't overthrow a government, you become it. You slide your people into every committee, every board, every agency, every court, every newsroom, and you keep the flag the same color so nobody notices the country changed hands. This is what happened to America. The government is not failing to stop the cult. The government is the cult wearing a different necktie. The FBI had testimony about babies being ritualistically sacrificed on Jeffrey Epstein's yacht. Document EFTA zero zero one four seven six six six six six six six six six six six one. A twenty nineteen interview, a man told federal agents he watched infants being dismembered in the presence of former presidents in the year two thousand. The FBI recommended no further investigation. When journalists found the file, the DOJ deleted it from the public archive, not redacted, deleted. You do not delete evidence against people you are trying to catch. You delete evidence against people you work for. Rumsfeld announced it september tenth, two thousand and the next day the towers came down and a plane hit the specific section of the Pentagon that was investigating the missing money. A whistleblower says fourteen trillion more has been redirected since redirected to underground bunker complexes, city sized, designed for continuity of government. And I'll just say it's actually what I what I know to be true is more than fourteen trillion. Catherine Fitz was talking about this, 21 trillion. They published the blueprint as a kid's book, City of Ember, 2003. An elite group builds an underground city before destroying the surface world. Central symbol, a light bulb, freemasonry, flag, the eight pound eight pointed chaos star, same as the Chili Peppers logo, same as chaos magic. The chosen survive below, everyone burns above. They filed it in the children's section. American horror story Apocalypse, same plot on cable. A coven of witches triggers nuclear war, hides underground, rebuilds the world in their image. Lady Gaga who trained under Marina Abramovic, who did blood rituals with Abramovic on camera, who funded her institute, plays a blood drinking predator in AHS Hotel, same franchise, same network, same preview, playing on loop. There is an image of American horror story Apocalypse, and it's disturbing. There is a hand that looks demonic over a baby that looks like they were just born. Um the article goes on to say underneath that article, if you look at this image and not recognize what it is really saying, you are a fool. The people who have been murdering children for 4,000 years know the exposure is coming. The Epstein files, the dominoes are falling, the scale of what they have done is so monstrous that full disclosure collapses every government, every bank, every intelligence agency, every church that looked the other way. There is no soft landing, so they built a hard one underground with your money. They intend to start a nuclear war. They intend to burn the surface clean of every human being who is not them. They intend to emerge into the ashes and install their wizard king, their false god, the entity the Bible calls the Antichrist. On a throne built from the rubble of the civilization, they destroyed. The Antichrist does not rise from a functioning world. He rises from the wreckage of one. The destruction is not a side effect, the destruction is the altar, the nuclear fire is the offering. Seven billion people are the sacrifice. But God is not sitting this out. Revelation eleven eighteen, the nations were angry, and your wrath has come, and the time of the dead that they should be judged, and that you should reward your servants, the prophets, and the saints, and those who fear your name, small and great, and should destroy those who destroy the earth. God sends his angels to destroy those who destroy the earth. That is not a suggestion. That is an operational briefing. God is going to stop these people. The question is whether he has to do it himself or whether the people he created will stand up and do it first. That is what this moment is right now. This is God giving you a chance, not giving you a show to watch, not giving you a doom to scroll a chance. The chance to see what is happening and refuse to be silent. The chance to stop worshipping at the altar of pop cult err, and start acting like the soldiers of God you were baptized to be. Because here is what terrifies me more than the cult, more than the bunkers, more than the nuclear end game. What terrifies me is that good people are going to stand there and do nothing. The evidence that the ruling elite are raping, murdering, and eating children in satanic rituals is sitting in federal archives, the ones they haven't deleted yet, and on Getty Images and in the WikiLeaks database and in the credits of every film shot in a city named after a wand. And the average American's response is to keep doom scrolling, keep staring at the phone, keep shopping, keep binge watching, keep paying the cult for the privilege of being hypnotized by it. The first time God saw evil at this scale he sent the flood. The second time it's fire. The supposed good people on this planet are standing in a burning building arguing about their phone bills while children scream in the basement. God is watching. He's been watching. And at some point if you won't act, he will. And his version of acting makes a nuclear war look like a bottle rocket. This is your chance, not your entertainment, not your conspiracy theory hobby, your chance to open your eyes, to close your mouth, to get off the couch, and to fight the evil that has been feeding on innocence since Babylon while you were busy being distracted by the machine they built to keep you docile. They named the city after the wand. They named the department after the craft. They named the culture after a Sumerian child sacrifice city. They named the scrolling after doom. They have told you everything. They are required to tell you everything. The spell only works if you know and do nothing. So do something. Grace and peace. Okay. If you're still here, thank you. That was long. But I think necessary. And um I'm gonna say before I close our shop for today is we can't look away from this. As hard as it is, as hard as the reality of it is, we cannot look away. Knowledge is power. I believe that to my core. And I'll leave it at that. I'm gonna ground and protect. I stand in light. I speak only truth. I'm untouchable in the name of what is real. Till next time.