Season 2 Episode 11

This week is a solo episode and I'm talking about being the "support animal" in our family, what's overwhelming me right now and what's making me feel better, a recent trip to Maryland that Trent and I went on and of course I finish with my favorite part of the week and my favorite song (playlist). Hope you enjoy! 

Favorites of the week:

Snackle Boxes

New WM Candle

Girl Punk Rock playlist 

Transcript

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Hey everybody, welcome back to the Sorry Whatever over Sharing and NWA. This is season two, episode 11. Um, and this I'm by myself on this one. If I'm being honest, it has been a crazy couple weeks, and it does not look like that's gonna calm down anytime in the future. If you're a mom, if you're just a person living on this earth and it is May, you are probably feeling all these feelings. Um I love it, love the beautiful weather, love all the fun things that we get to do, but it's it's crazy town. It's just crazy. Uh graduation on top of that is just an added um crazy part to that, but I don't think it, I really don't think it matters where you are in life. It's just you got Mother's Day, you got all the things happening. So, but uh so with that being said, I did not plan very well ahead. And it is just me this episode. It's gonna be a quick one, probably 25 minutes long, um, kind of back to the to beginning where I said that originally my episodes are gonna be this short. Um, but I hope, I hope to put some more out over the summertime. But honestly, I'm probably gonna have to take a break for a minute. Um, I need to regroup a little bit and then also um, yeah, like I said, graduation, just a lot going on. But with all that being said, um, my first little topic is I have mentioned on here multiple times that I've had some hormonal things going on and just trying to figure out how to handle all that and what to do. And I have been so overwhelmed with all the information about everything. Um, I, you know, my numbers are off. So long story short, I'm taking some progesterone. And if you're a woman, you've you've heard all these words before, and really the only man that listens to this is probably Trent. So, um, but I'm taking progesterone. I've you know, I've got some low numbers in other areas. And so it's like, do you take a cream? Do you do a pellet? Do you, you know, I don't know. There's just, I guess maybe those are the only two options I really am dealing with right now. But it's it's nerve-wracking to me when you're trying to figure out what like how to help your body, but also knowing that there's gonna be like some type of reaction to it. Hopefully it's all positive reaction, but like, you know, you hear people that are like, oh, I grew hair everywhere, or oh, I got acne. And I don't want to deal with that. I don't want to deal with it. Um, but I also want to even out my levels. So I know that that it is a process. But uh, if you're feeling overwhelmed with just information and not even like hormonal information, but just information in general, like, you know, whether it's, I mean, like I said, the like this month, it's like you're it's like information overload because it's like, oh, you've got a field trip, and then this kid's got a party, and then can you bring this in? Or is teacher appreciation week? And I want to do all those things, but it I've said before, like I um am easily overwhelmed. So I'm trying to just take a deep breath and just I make like a to-do list and like mark things off, and that helps me tremendously. Uh, just because I feel like if I put it out either into my phone or on a piece of paper, I'm like, okay. So if you're feeling that way, maybe try that. Um, but also no, we are all we are all feeling that way. If you're not feeling that way, then you just don't have feelings. You're just not, you just you're not um paying attention to your feelings, maybe. Um, but yeah, so I'm just you know, definitely bombarded is what I feel like right now. So if you feel that you're not alone, I'm also there with you. And I think I'm learning to just take it one step at a time, whatever life is throwing at me, and it's not bad stuff. Like, I think that's like sometimes when I talk to Trent about it, and he his emotional intelligence is not very high. He is a he is a very, very intelligent man, like so smart, he provides for us, he's wonderful, he fixes all the problems that I have. Like, honestly, like I'm so thankful for a husband who I can go to and he will like figure out a way to fix whatever is going on with me. But when it comes to the emotional side of me, he wants to fix that as well. And uh I don't know if y'all deal with that, but that's not how it works. Um, and I am trying to, you know, figure out all these emotions and stuff that I'm dealing with too. And like he's over here, like, what just be happy, just you know, just be happy. He's graduating, just be happy. And I'm like, I you can feel two things at once, you know, like you can feel the being happy and you can feel being sad. It's that bittersweet combo, but like I think I also there's like all these other layers, like it's just called being an adult and being a woman, especially, but like there's so many different layers that you're working through every day. And I I'm trying to process it, but I am somebody also that like I can like hold a lot of emotion inside of me. And I told him, I said, I go, I've really been holding in this emotion, like these emotions I'm feeling. I said, just watch out because um one of these days it's just gonna go off, and it's probably gonna be in the next couple of weeks. So just prepare yourself for that. Um, but not only am I like, you know, dealing with my emotions, but I think as a woman and as a mom too, and maybe it's different if like it's the reverse for you, where like you're the least you're the less emotional one, and your husband is more emotional. Not only am I dealing with my emotions, but I am also trying to help my children deal with their emotions. Um I've got a preteen, I've got a nine-year-old who and here's the thing, with boys, especially, and I think girls are the same way, like they get like boost in like testosterone, like all throughout kind of their all throughout their life. Like it's not just like a preteen thing. Like my nephew, his five, he can very well get like a little boost of testosterone and just kind of like go crazy. Um, I think Aaron is going through something like that right now because he's got some emotions. And then, you know, Ace, like, of course, preteen, like 12 going on 13, like lots of emotions. And then um, you know, and then I've got Aiden, who he is so done with school, and I keep I'm trying to push him, like, okay, you gotta keep going. But like, he's got a lot of emotions going on right now, too. Like, he's stressed out, like this week, especially. He had to give a presentation today, and he's got finals coming up. He's got an AP exam, and like he's so done with school that he's just ready for it to be over. And this is last week, and so we're like counting down the days. Um, but there's just a lot. Like, he's got a lot of stress, he's got a lot of stuff going on. And it's funny because as a mom, at least in our house, I am kind of the like emotional support animal, like in our house. Like, um, I'm the one that's trying to level it, you know? And freaking A, it's hard when my emotions are riding a roller coaster and then I'm trying to handle everybody else's emotions that are riding a roller coaster. Like, and so once again, it's one day at a time. And thankfully, thankfully, and also like just the truth, like my sister and I were talking about this the other day. Like, our like my mom also listens to my emotions. Like, and that's like something as like a mom, or you can even be an aunt or a sister or whatever, just a woman in general, but like I don't think that ever stops where you're helping people work through their emotions, whether it's your kids or your daughter, like, you know, well kids, but like my mom is like, I'm going to my mom for like emotional support right now, you know, and like she's I'm 37 and you know, like she's still having to like give me emotional support. And so I don't think that's ever gonna end. And I'm very thankful that that gets to be my job. Um, but it's not easy all the time. So I don't know, that's been on top of my mind right now because I feel like um there's just there's a lot of emotions going on, and like I don't want to get so caught up in what I'm feeling that I'm not paying attention to what my boys are feeling. And that's the thing, like with graduation too. Like, you know, Trent's like, aren't you happy? I'm so happy for him, for Aiden, and I'm so proud of him. But I'm also just like, okay, here we go. And I know we have a really good relationship, Aiden and I do. I actually had a friend the other day that was like, I love your relationship that y'all have. And we do, and I'm very, very thankful for that. And I don't know if it's all me or if it's Aiden's personality, or just I don't know. I don't know how that works. I hope that me and the little boys also, as they grow up, that I have that same relationship with them. But I'm so thankful for that close relationship with him. But I'm also fully aware that like I'm that is going to change. And so I'm working on processing that as well. Um, and I know he's still gonna need me and want to talk to me, but it's gonna change. It is, it is, and I have to be okay with it. And um, I think that that's the part that makes me the saddest is that our relationship's about to change, and it very well it I hope and I pray that it changes for the better, even with all of this going on. Like, change is not bad. Um, but I'm still trying to prepare myself for that. Uh, I was joking with Trent because we were doing like a little graduation party for Aiden, and I picked out like this banner to hang up, and it's really cool because it's like kindergarten through 12th grade. So, like you put a picture of him in kindergarten and first grade, second, you know, all the way through. And so it's all these pictures of him, like, you know, maybe first day of school or I don't know. I don't know how I haven't looked through them yet because honestly, I'm not emotionally ready to do that right now. Like, I'm gonna have to find a time where I'm like, I'm gonna have to like really pump myself up uh to go through and find all those pictures. And I I told Trent I was joking with some friends, I was like, I said, just prepare yourself for the day that I look through all these pictures and have to pick them all out. Um, because they change so much, you know, kindergarten Aiden to senior Aiden. It's just it's crazy. It's so crazy. But yeah, so I'm trying to pump myself up for that. Um it's been yeah, I'm just gonna move on for that. But it just all the emotions, all the things are going on over here, and all exciting things. They're all very exciting things, but I'm gonna move on. Um we something that has been helpful to me the past few days, and you know, I don't know, maybe this is getting older too. I know Carrie and I talked about this on the last episode, but like planting things is just really fun for me right now. Sometimes it's fun, it depends on the mood that I'm in. But we're, you know, trying to get our house rather not ready like right now. There's nothing like having people over to your house that like helps you to get S done, you know. Like we um we have cleaned up stuff that like has needed to be cleaned up for over a year now. Like, and I would have planted like plants and stuff too, just because it's spring. But I feel like because we have people coming over, I've been like planting more things and then cleaning stuff up and we're trying to get organized and all the things, and like we still have so far to go, but that's literally what we spent our weekend doing, which was wonderful because the weather was amazing this weekend, so I'm very grateful. Um, but it does or generally, I mean, breaking news the sunshine makes you feel good. Um, and it was just nice to be outside this weekend with the boys and hanging out because last weekend uh Trent and I were in Maryland. Um, he has a coworker who got married and we got to go to her lovely wedding. Her name is Hannah, and it was beautiful. But we went up a couple days early last week. So we went up Thursday, and thankfully I have parents that are very helpful and help me with the boys, and um, but we Trent and I got to go up and it was really good timing for us. I think we needed, I think we needed some time together, just the two of us without, you know, a to-do list. Like we literally couldn't do anything on our to-do list while we were there, and it was so nice. Um, but I love the east coast. I think that I was I think I was created to live on the east coast, and I'm hoping one of these days, whether we live there or we can just visit a lot more, I love it so much. But we went to Annapolis and we stayed there for a couple of days before the wedding. And Annapolis is where the Naval Academy is, so it's just it's really beautiful, it's right on the water, and um all the fresh crab. So I literally had a crab cake, I think, for every like maybe almost every meal that I ate there. Um, I mean, I'm not kidding you. I think I ordered at least crab cake five times uh while we were there for the like three days that we were there to eat. So delicious. I love it so much. Um, it's so beautiful out there. The weather was amazing. Um, and then we drove to Easton, which is another really cute little town in Maryland that I had never been to before. And they, Hannah and Mike's wedding, it was so fun. It was so beautiful. It was fun because we it's somebody that Trent works with. And so um I got to, you know, I meet, I've met a lot of people that he works with, but then I got to meet like some other people that he works with that like live in DC and stuff. And so it was just really fun to like get to see them. And I I feel like sometimes when we're in a room or something like I tend to be like the connector of our family, and I think a lot of that is, you know, he's at work all day. And so like I'm connected through people through different things, whether work or church or or whatever, just all different places. And I feel like we I kind of play that role a lot. So it was fun to go to the wedding and him introduced me to a lot of people that he works with or people that he knows and just had the best time. They had a live band, like they went all out. It was such a fun wedding, and but they had a live band and they were awesome, like it just gosh, just the best time. And Trent and I just got to have that like undivided time together. And we literally just like shopped and ate the whole time besides going to the wedding, and it was perfect. Um, we just had the best time. And but anyways, on the way there, we uh this is like really the only time that I feel like right now I'm able to like watch a show or watch a movie by myself. Normally, whatever I'm watching is like with a child or um, yeah, basically with a child, or I I really like to read. And so I was like, you know what? On the plane trip, I'm going to watch a show and then I'm gonna watch a movie. So the show that I watched is Love Story, which I am behind on all the things. I'm not necessarily a pop culture like TV movie watcher. Um, so I know I'm like a little behind the trend right now, but it was really good about JFK Jr. and Carolyn Bassett. Uh, I really enjoyed it and it was awesome too because we were like staying on the East Coast, so I felt like it was very Kennedy-esque. Um, but it was really, I really enjoyed that. And then I watched a movie that all my friends have been like, it's so cute. And so it's based on a book, People We Meet on Vacation, by Emily Henry, and I've read it before. So um, and it was really cute. I like a lot of her books. But so the movie though was so cute. Like I thoroughly enjoyed it. Everybody that I've talked to that has watched it has said it was so good and so cute, and they were right. So if you've not already watched it, if you are also somebody that gets behind the the trends like me, um, both of those are really good and very kind of different, but I really enjoyed both of them. So I am actually just gonna go ahead and switch over to my favorite part of the week. Okay, so what my first favorite is I was in Walmart the other day. I'm in Walmart every single day, basically in my life. I've not been there today, and I don't plan on going, so I guess there's that.

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But I did have Walmart delivery show up, so maybe that still counts.

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Um, but so when we so we have a boat out on a local lake here, and we just really have enjoyed that time like with the boys and getting to go out during the summer. But I had like, you know, like the snackle boxes, and now they're like super popular and have been around. But I got one, I got one a couple summers ago, and it had like nine little nine little like containers in it, you know, like inside like the different like sections or whatever. And it's kind of it's pretty big. I mean, I would say it's probably like a nine by 13 pan, like that like size. So we have like coolers and stuff that we take out to the boat, but like it really like was awkward to put in there because they're kind of I don't know, it's I don't know, you know how it is. Like the coolers, like we have like a Yeti cooler, and it's kind of the bigger one, but like you still can't fit like super big stuff in it. So, anyways, uh that is like of no importance. I'm so sorry that I just went through that. But so Walmart has these little snackle boxes right now, and I think they were only like like five dollars a piece. And honestly, if they just just last during the summer, like I'm gonna be fine with that. But I picked up three of them, and instead of having like nine little sections in it, it has four little sections in it. So I was like, well, I can just stack those on top and they'll fit in the cooler perfectly. Um, so I really I was like, that's a win. I'm gonna take that as a win for sure. I also when I was in there, I picked up a candle. They just, I don't know, Walmart's like really upping their game on all their decor and like stuff like that. But I picked up another candle from there. I love burning a candle, and it's a better homes than garden candle, but it's bronze mahogany scented, and it smells so good. And the container is really pretty too. So um, five bucks. I don't know. I was just I was popping all these little five dollar things in there, and you know, it's like anywhere you go, like you get to check out, and it's like you owe $300. It's like, holy crap, how many five dollar things did I get? Um, anyway, so that was that. Those are my favorites from Walmart. And then so today, actually, before I got in here, I yeah, I was planting some more flowers because you know, I don't I always run out of soil. Like I can get, I can get like an overabundance of like bags of soil, thinking that, oh, that's gonna be plenty, and it never fails. Every year I run out of soil, every year, every year I run out of soil. So I had to run to Atwoods because it's close to our house, and I got some soil, but I was just I don't know. Um maybe I'll talk about in another story, but I was really uh processing a lot in my head and I was like, oh, you know what? I'm gonna take the Jeep. So we have a Jeep Wrangler and the top is off right now and it's beautiful here today. I was like, I'm gonna take the Jeep, and it's easy to load because I can just like pop it in the back, like the soil and stuff. So I got in a Jeep and I'm like, oh, what do I want to listen to? And you know, I listen to a lot of country. I love Ella Langley, I love all that, but I'm kind of a jukebox a little bit. Like I really love a lot of different kinds of music, but I feel like I had some like angst in me. Um, and so I was like looking through music, and you know what? I want some like like rocker stuff. By rocker stuff I mean like punk rock stuff, but I want like some girl punk rock. Um, you know, I need some like Avril Levine or No Doubt or um or some like Joan Jet and gosh, Barracuda by Heart came on and Pat Benatar, and um I think even on here there was the beautiful things or whatever, and just a lot of different songs. Oh, uh sorry, I'm looking through the thing right now, but Evanescence was on there, and I don't know, that was like a high school thing for me. Like the the the song that came on was uh um the song from Evanescence that come on was bring me to life, and I don't know if it was like the fresh air blowing and just like kind of like uh it was like that like angsty music. Like I got to Atwoods, I pulled in, I was like, I already feel so much better. And you better believe I was singing out every word in the Jeep. So if you happen to pass a black Jeep Wrangler on the road to Atwoods, like and the person was singing in their heart out, that was probably me. Uh, but man, it felt good. So here's just a little tip. If you really need to let some stuff go, just either go outside, play some music, or roll down the windows in your car and just kind of jam out because I did not realize how much I needed that and also how well it was going to work. So that is also my song for the week. And really, it's not really just one song, it's this this playlist, and it's called Girl Punk Rock. It's really nice when I'm like, what am I thinking I'm gonna listen to? And I'll just like type it in, and sure enough, there's always a playlist that's called that. So, but uh, thank you guys for listening to this. I know it was random and it was short, but I hope that you. Have a great day. I hope you have a great week. I hope that your May goes well. And to all those mamas, doesn't matter. I mean, high school graduation, college graduation, uh, preschool graduation, headed off to kindergarten. My nephew is. I've got a good friend who her daughter is, and just you know, all these different levels. Aces jumping into junior high. Um just, you know, just all these different changes. Just we got this. We got this, mamas and dads and families, and just take a deep breath because I do feel like with every stage, it's just getting better and better with all my boys. Um, and I I saw this meme slash real the other day, and it, you know, you go through like the baby and the toddlerhood, and then the preteen, and then junior high, and there's just a lot going on, and then um it set it goes, and then you get to high school and everything kind of settles back down, and you enjoy being with your teenager and hanging out with them, and then it's like, and then they leave, and then they're gone. So soak it up. Aiden gets out of school. This Friday is his last day, and so I'm gonna have the next couple weeks where he and I can maybe hang out just a little bit, just the two of us. And I am looking forward to that. But here we go. We got it. May Sumber is upon us, and it is gonna be good. It's gonna be great. Um, so thank you for listening, and I will talk to you next time. Bye, guys.